(Short Music) I can now upload again | #1688 Let Me Bore You To Sleep | 1st October 2026 | Jason Newland

Good morning, let me put you to sleep. Hello, welcome to Jason Newland.com. My name is Jason Newland and this is let me put you to sleep on Thursday the 8th, no the 1st sorry, 1st of October, 1st of October, 2026. It'll be Christmas before we know it.

So, hello, it is 7 minutes past 8am. Vinny was asleep or half asleep on the sofa, now he's wide awake, sitting up staring at me and licking his lips. So I'm not sure, I get a little bit worried when he does that because I think he wants to eat me.

Sometimes I just, I don't know, you know when you just don't know, you're just not sure. He scares me sometimes. I tell you what's really weird, did I say only listen when you can safely close your eyes? What I find weird with him is everybody that I talk to, you know when we're out for walks, thinks that he is so cute.

There's even kids run towards him to say hello and they're with their parents and they're walking their own dog and they give him more attention than they're giving their own dog. I mean maybe obviously they live with their dog they're just, it's I guess not exciting is it I suppose if they're seeing their own dog all the time but they get, honestly there's at least four kids that get so excited. They'll run from across the park and I'll wave at the parents because I think this is weird, this little kid running towards me and I

just acknowledge because they don't all know me because sometimes you got one adult takes the dog for a walk most of the time and then sometimes you'll have the other adult, let's say if it's a couple, you'll have the, all right Vinny, goodbye.

You'd have the other adult taking the dog for a walk and they don't know me. Vinny knows the dog, Vinny knows the kid and he knows the other adult but he doesn't know this adult and it's kind of weird so the kids running towards me you can see the weird look on the adults that the father's face like why is my child running towards that strange man in the luminous coat the raincoat in 90 degrees heat. I do have a habit of wearing the wrong clothes and I wave and I have to explain like it's

all right they know each other.

It's very honestly we walk past the school it sounds weird but it's true we walk past this not walking past the school but out of the park to go home and sometimes all you hear is Vinny, Vinny and all these kids will run to the fence to the gate to say hello to him. It's been going on for years. It started because one little girl my neighbor's daughter loves him and because she started doing it all the other kids started doing it as well so now I'll be walking and the kids will be going home

with their parents and I'll be shouting hello Vinny if I'm not walking him.

It's like it's so weird honestly I feel I have to explain like it's fine the reason he knows him because to start with I told him it's because of the little girl because she knows him and she that's why they know him through her and but then there's another little kid that is her friend and he absolutely loves him as well doesn't loves he do doesn't he yes he does so whenever he's in the park he runs over but I chat to his mum but it's okay if I know the parents but if I don't

know who the parents are it's almost a bit strange to see this little kid Vinny running towards him all excited Vinny gets excited and I used to let him just run off the lead but I can't anymore because not for a long time because of his naughty behavior he didn't want any he didn't want anything to do with me for the last few hours he's just been sitting on that chair or laying down on the sofa as soon as I start talking he's all over me he wants my attention now don't be jealous of all

the all the people because Vinny you got a lot of fans on here as well that love you they hear about you they hear you in the background yes I don't know if you can hear him panting away yes I can yes I can yes I can you're a good boy aren't you sometimes yes sometimes blimey his tail is going so fast I think he might take off like a helicopter honestly it's almost spinning isn't it Vinny so much excitement and loving him for people um I'm a little bit jealous really on both sides a

little bit jealous of how much um people like him just a little bit not not hard but like imagine being liked that much people really seem to like him and also more more so I'm jealous of how much he likes other people because I don't really have that naturally in me yeah I like the individual people if I get to know them but he just got automatically loves people and it just goes from love is stronger and stronger especially if they give him some attention like people that give him treats right they're under the illusion

that he only goes over and gives them attention because they give him treats now there's some truth in that because he likes getting treats but I tell them but I don't think they believe me he does he does the same thing with way more people that have never given him a treat ever it's not the treat he would do the same thing regardless because I've got neighbors I've got people in the park even some of the teachers walking to school um just some of the elderly people just whatever he's never been given a treat by

any of them and he still gets absolutely super excited and they all know his name don't they they all know your little name don't they yeah it's a strange old world can I imagine it doesn't seem to have that towards me and he's shaking now for some reason why are you shaking is it because you know I'm talking about you is that right oh is that an itchy bit do you like that oh you like that yeah oh I'm scratching just underneath his left ear and he seems to like it oh oh I didn't know

that oh yeah is that nice because they're the bits he can't get to isn't it like underneath the ear unless he scratches himself but I think sometimes when he scratches himself it hurts a little bit because he's got long nails I really I found out the other day when he had his pampering done that his long nails weren't as long as I thought they were because he's got naturally long nails he came back and they weren't much shorter than they were when he left they had cut them but he's quick I've got no idea why

they call it a quick and that white bit in the nail is quite long so he hasn't he's got just naturally got long nails so me like getting concerned and stuff there's not a lot I can do about it other than I think every three months I'll give him I'll take him for pampering every three months and he's have a nice bath won't you and have your nails trimmed and you loved it didn't you he really enjoyed going didn't want to leave but then the lady there is another one of the people that he absolutely

adores and there's a sisters that run the place so he probably fell in love with the other lady as well didn't you I don't know her but he did you fall in love with her as well he's such a ladies man he really is he likes men as well it swings both ways but his love is it's almost like unconditional for other people it's very conditional for me it's very it's like you know it's very different with me than he is for other people but then I reckon any of those people any of the ones

that he dotes on I reckon he'd be different if he lived with them but then I don't know because he does have an affinity with females more than men I mean he is a few men that he absolutely adores as well but he's he's very much drawn to females so and that might be because that's who he lived with he is original owner what once he was born when he once he hatched out of his egg he um so he lived with a family originally you know he was when he was born and then he

went and lived with a lady um quite an elderly lady I think for probably about three months well I got him when he was 10 months old so maybe he'd lived with her for about I don't know for quite a few months anyway but not a long time and then she became ill and wasn't able to look after him so she gave him back or asked the the breeders if they're taking back I don't mean the two dogs I'm talking about the the the adult the humans and they did and then the lady who is

part of the family she doesn't live with them but she's part she's the mother or sister or I can't remember of the people that bred him and she had him temporarily and he's known her his whole life I mean she used to hold him in her hands when he was first born so he's got that connection with her so he then went back to live he went to live with her until he moved in with me so he's he's got a he's got like an instinctive lifelong connection with her that I mean I imagine after

living with me for three years or however long it's been four years I don't know I think he'll be five years old in February I got him in 2002 December so it's four years I'll have had him four years in two months time and doesn't time fly unless of course you're waiting in a queue at the bank or wow time really goes slowly when you're waiting in a queue to go to the toilet really goes slowly doesn't it like come on I need a poo-poo he's just standing there let me stroke his back Vinnie I'm

not a toy you like that don't you yeah I liked it if you just didn't talk the amount of times he tells me just to shut up that's ridiculous so um I have managed well I made a recording last night a let me bore you to sleep recording and I managed to upload it today so my podcast provider is allowing me they've blocked the block no they're unblocked the block so I can now resume uploading so I mean that's good the thing is yeah I mean I did upload a lot of stuff because making all

those playlists that have now gone the I'm surprised they didn't say to me well if you want to continue you have to upgrade they didn't do that they just blocked me they're just like no you can't use the system but they didn't tell me they'd blocked me which is good information to have isn't it then I could have like saved myself a lot of well a lot of worrying and not not knowing what's going on I definitely felt confused not for the first time admittedly but a little bit confused by the whole thing why why

can't I upload especially as you know this this whole thing is such a big part of my life such a big part and well anyway we're back to normality kind of I'm still sorting through my files on my two hard drives external hard drives so now I did have three but one broke well I broke it by accident apparently it does not survive a drop from the roof who would have guessed and I just thought what I'll do is I'll have one hard drive for my let me boy to sleep recordings just the audio recordings

nothing else no videos no images nothing just the audio recordings and it's taken me quite a while bearing in mind how much uh stuff I've got to do that now I know there's quite a few duplicates on there yeah I'm very aware of that so I'm not quite sure how many duplicates but from the looks of it which is promising actually because from the look of this I have I don't have uh oh okay what does that mean 1.88 terabytes free of 4.54 what does it tell me how much I've used so I guess I've

got two two two and a half terabytes which is a lot less than I thought now I've got six terabytes on the other hard drive filled out of nine and it looks like I got two and a half terabytes wait a minute two four so that'd be two two point five six two four two terabytes 2.7 terabytes of let me boy to sleep audios I've still got a few to remove from that hard drive but it's pretty much done now so what I'm going to do next is go through there and delete any duplications which

I've already started doing and then just group everything in 50s like I did all the playlists so you know like voice only all that stuff then with music and different lengths then I will know exactly where I stand with the hard drive and I'll start transferring those onto the cloud the cloud drive then once all the let me boy to sleeps are done and saved so it'll be saved on I mean I don't know I'm a little bit concerned about the whole podcast thing now because I could still have playlists on my website there's three

different ways I could do it I could use my soundcloud podcast to do it but that would be quite difficult because it's it's very vast my soundcloud account it's got a lot of stuff on there and I don't know if I'd be able to sift through it to find stuff the other way would be to upload all the recordings to the cloud then I could have the cloud or have the website pointing to the cloud recordings but that would cost me a little bit of money to do that well yeah it would cost me money

to do it the other thing the other way to do it potentially is to upload all of my recordings the let me boy to sleep into the let me boy to sleep podcast that I've got on Spreaker I've already got thousands of recordings on there but they don't go back to right to the start so I could do that like one you know one all the way up to 1700 but then include and I can backdate them so I don't it won't make it confusing for people so you won't be going on there and seeing

a recording from seven years ago it'll be backdated so it'll be I guess it'll be almost hidden on the podcast for people because if you go to for example I don't know a lot of podcast apps will only go give you the last 250 recordings some would be 150 which means you're not getting many because I do six six versions of each recording but the website will very easily be able to get those recordings off of that one podcast now my question is have I what what if I start uploading loads of recordings again you

know will I get blocked again it's hard to know because I've I've reduced my recordings by a huge amount by getting rid of the playlists so it's kind of one of them like oh I don't know I could test it but but then there's a part of me thinking oh I've already done this I put all that work all that effort all that time into producing the playlists uploading all the recordings it took was it over a month to put that together well over a month what about six weeks I think because the website's been

active for about two weeks two over two weeks so it was the 18th of September it's now the 1st of October so for about and I knew yeah I got blocked this is a it's a regular thing I got blocked on my other website for trying to change the code yeah I know my fault I suppose but I was just trying to make the website better so my other website host blocked me couldn't use it they they logged me out couldn't even get back into the website and I really tried all everything they said no

you the only way I could get back in is if I could remember the key the long key word thing numbers and words that they gave me when I first opened the account and I hadn't saved it and that was it I said no nothing we can do then ironically the day after my port the the website ran out and I was no longer with them they started sending emails I'll give us another chance just go on please come back now that particular podcast or that website had all my recordings on it so again I'd

invested huge amounts of time well and all thousands of pounds as well to over the years on that website so yeah I wasn't not really going to be going back there so yeah this is it's kind of the quandary now shall I just leave things as they are I've got a nice website it works it's got the latest recordings I've got the podcast individually so you can click on them and see what the latest recordings and including all the older recordings on each podcast maybe I don't need playlists the thing is people were using the

playlists so not yeah it was being used so I'll just wait and see I'll I'll figure it out once I've uploaded all the recordings to this to the cloud my let me boy to sleep once I sorted them out first that's still going to take probably a week or so then I'll upload them once they're all sorted I would then look at potentially adding them back to the website's playlists you see how I feel but I've also do have a new SoundCloud account that's probably just going to be private and I'm going to put all

of my recordings on there and that's just like 10 quid a month so as far as storage goes I mean there is a limit to how much I can upload at a time so it will take a while to upload all my recordings but at least it's another place where I'll be safe so I won't lose them so I'll have two hard drives here and I'll have to get a couple more hard drives external hard drives in the future but then having my SoundCloud account and having the the cloud because they all cost money so

at least at the worst case scenario 10 pound a month is okay it's not like a huge amount of money so at least they'll be safe there if I had to get rid of the cloud but hopefully I can just continue as it is and at the moment I'm not paying anything for the website but I am paying I'm paying chat gpt monthly but they're hosting the website they built it well with me they built it and I said to them how much are you going to charge me for this and they said there's no

charge at the moment at the moment so I don't know if they pop up and I said I did say to them oh what if you decide to charge me a lot of money they said I don't worry about it so what do you mean don't worry about it and the chat gpt says well we can give you a file to download the whole website and you can just go to another website builder and just upload that file and your whole website will be there still and just connect it to your domain name that's it

easy I said really and there's no answer I said are you sure still no answer so I typed in why you're not answering me they said well I'm just a computer I don't know I thought we'd be done I don't know I didn't know this is going to continue the conversation you know I told you what what what you hear that I hear that sometimes I said what I said when did that become a thing to say stuff like that I said what I said I did what I did language has changed it must be

weird again maybe it's I'm getting to that age now where I'm noticing the changes and I've heard this for years from older people oh it's so different now people talk differently but then I think what's happened there's there's less difference between well first of all there's a lot of like second second generation third generation people at school with and people are kind of talking the same as each other not knowing why they're saying things like man them man them and allow it and they don't know why they're saying it but is or swear down and

even though some of those things were just said as jokes a few years back so like almost mocking people that said it but and now that's happened and also I think with the internet with tick tock and stuff there's Americanisms and I'm sure it's probably the same in America using English expressions and English people using American expressions without realizing they're doing it I mean I've watched on tick tock every now and then and I see people talking partially with an American accent but they're not American they're like oh thank you oh thank you that was

lovely oh thank you that's my American accent but they literally sound American to me anyway to my ears I've got pretty good ears and then I start talking it's almost like the accent is changed we've always been even when I was a kid hugely influenced by American TV American music American everything really American sport not so much sport really we've got our own sport and when it came to football rugby cricket golf darts snooker tennis so we've got a few kind of sports that we I say we but I think what I mean is the

sports in America the big sports in America are baseball and basketball and soccer well you know the American football in America I think they just call it football we call it football here as well but it's a completely different game it's what what America calls soccer now I don't know maybe it used to be called soccer here to be probably did actually just like rugby used to be called handball and it's amazing because you've got what's it called um baseball huge in America I think and ice hockey is that more Canadian though it's not ice

hockey but baseball it started here we invented it it was a kid's game it was for little kids and it was called rounders sometimes they call it it kind of turned from rounders into softball into baseball so it's rounders and basically it's exactly the same game a kid one kid would chuck the ball it'd be like a tennis ball or you know not a hard ball like they have in baseball it's because it's a kid's game we didn't want to get hurt no helmets or anything like that I mean it was just almost like a

kid's version of cricket because cricket's quite hardcore for a little kid to play because the ball's very hard and if you get hit you get hurt even with the the pads on because you're only yeah obviously if you get hit the pad will stop you but you're still potentially going to get hit with a ball so I feel what happened is in this country because we obviously invented cricket and football and boxing and you know a lot of kind of lot but then you know we were we're one of the original countries aren't we one

of them there's a lot of original countries but we we my country the one that I own you know it's weird though in this country we've got walls right walls that are older than America just a wall a wall in a field is older than America as a country crazy isn't it the Hadrian's wall has been there for centuries and centuries what for about a thousand years two two and a half two thousand years I mean look at the old two and a half 250 years I think America is and it's only a few generations

for English people it's such a short period in our history 250 years ago I mean even Charles Dickens was long gone by then was he I don't know Shakespeare Robin Hood Robin Hood's tree has been there for wow long long time must be nice living in a young country I wonder who lived there before did anyone live in America before Americans got there so I what was the point oh yeah soft uh so um rounders was basically it was for little kids it was an alternative to cricket because cricket was a little bit I mean

the bats were big it was a bit too big for a kid and it was because the English kids were a little bit aggressive as well they loved baseball bats because everyone had baseball bats back then anyway so because we weren't allowed to have guns so we had baseball bats instead so everyone used to walk around with a baseball bat when they're kids so we thought you know what why don't we invent a game that's similar to cricket that kids can play any time of the day because it was ready just have to like make

sure at least one person's got a little ball a tennis ball or something so yeah that's what happened and you hit as far as you could and then you just run around and every time you got past your base you know your your home base whatever it's called you you get one one one two three whatever or maybe it's you get for each I don't know it's different ways of scoring it but the idea is the further you hit it the longer it takes people to collect it and if they can chuck it back in

time for you to touch one of the the pegs that's on the little circle then you'll be out but you still get you know and that's it and if it was too far away the kids are like say oh we'll collect it later and they'll sit down and have a sandwich that still happens in cricket isn't it they used to happen then they decided to have that as an official break and have lemons lemonade and slices of orange and gin sometimes and then they thought the kids would leave school and they didn't you know there

was like a real feeling for the kids that leave school they're going to work you know up a chimney or maybe like in a factory for 19 hours a day making buttons and for some reason they didn't always feel completely satisfied and someone came up with the idea they thought you know what let's ask them what's going on and they did a little survey they went around all the different factories and um i mean the number one i'm like what's your biggest complaint some of them would be like would quite like to eat and not

live under a bridge but but another one another thing that used to come out quite a lot is we miss playing rounders but we just feel we're too old to play rounders now a bit too big although they didn't reach they didn't particularly reach very big sizes because they weren't eating really wasn't till after the second world war that people started eating properly like i mean amounts of food very spare very sparse sparse whatever you want to call it before the second world war you never saw a fat person like me i'm talking about me

my kind of you know not whenever i say fat i'm always referring to myself thank you very much but everyone was slim and skinny because and there was no medication that could put weight on either back then i'm on my medication puts weight on that's what i'm sticking to that's the reason it's not the chocolates it is the medication did i tell you that my doc what my nurse my diabetic nurse tried to she actually said to me if you would you consider going on to the jab like we all know what the jab is

don't we the skinny jab the weight loss thing like i said no i said look at me i don't need to tell you she said yeah it might help i said no doubt it would help it would help me lose weight but um if i was like huge like really like this is just my personal if i was really really big and it was affecting my legs my joints it was affecting my health in a outside of diabetes although that is you know technically a difficult thing but if it was like an emergency situation i

mean i'd say yeah jab away baby and i'd go along with it but i'm not in that situation all i need to do is lose 10 kilos and i might actually be no longer diabetic 10 kilos is no i've already lost three three kilos in the last six weeks without even putting out hardly any effort into it so i can lose lose another 10 kilos quite easily i think and that takes me to 88 kilos which will be i don't know what that will be who knows any and anyone's guess apparently i'm just over 16

stone how many is 14 pounds in this is for how many kilos in a stone 14 i think so i'll be just over 15 kilos i guess or 15 and a half stone and i might be out of i might be you know healthy again i don't know but i'm not gonna take the jab the jab no doesn't doesn't appeal to me but the way i see it is if i went to the doctor and said uh i want to get a um what do they what do they call it when they put the balloon

in your stomach thing to forget what they call it if i went to a doctor they would laugh me out the office they wouldn't i wouldn't go no way would the doctor send me on a plan that would cost a fortune weeks months and months of preparation in order to have um not rebirth that's not the right word is it i forget the name of it but you know so they kind of stopped the the ability to eat large amounts of food now my friend went through that and she had to lose i think two

or three stone before they would even gastric band that's it they she had to lose about three stone before they would even consider her having it now in my mind if i can lose just with will or with dietary changes and if i can lose three stone well for me i i wouldn't need it i don't need a gastric band now but if i could lose that percentage of my body weight which was for him it would have been i probably was about 25 stone so three stone is still okay needed to probably knock off

10 stone but three stone is still quite it's like a third isn't it it's nearly a third of the amount of weight needed to be lost which is i think that's quite considerable and in a way that's proved that maybe in some ways you don't need the gastric band you know i'm not judging because everyone's different and i guess if it's a long term if you want to keep it off maybe but i like no no thanks but i know i wouldn't i wouldn't be even considered for that so no i'm not going on the

jab i'm not doing that i would if it was an emergency yeah i'd like yeah do whatever you want to do you know i mean even emergency i would allow a thermometer put up there if i you know in an emergency generally i'd choose my mouth for the thermometer or i can don't do it underneath your armpit i haven't had anyone put anything under my armpit for a long time when i had my ecg yesterday at the doctor's it's kind of weird because she said well i can't do your ecg yet because being used by

someone else and i thought oh i don't want to share it if it's being used by someone else but they don't you know everything's covered up isn't it and they use stickers and pads and they get rid of the pads so i guess it doesn't really make any difference but i still thought i want to be the first one of the day to use it at least and she said well while we're waiting for that because it's being used but it should be here soon should we just check your feet i said no they're there

it's fine don't need checking she said no i know you've got feet can we just check them i said what do you mean now i didn't know well she didn't mention something about checking my feet but i didn't know she was going to do on this occasion because otherwise my feet would have been immaculate and they weren't because i don't wear socks with my shoes or haven't during the summer so my feet perhaps aren't as immaculate and in extremely preen condition as they may have been had i you know prepared myself but they weren't they

were okay but it's like it's a little bit embarrassing she said i don't care it's fine i've seen she said uh don't worry i'll have seen worse don't worry about it i said are you sure i said yeah so i took my shoes off she said i'll take that back i thought i'd seen worse and i thought this isn't this isn't helping she said i'm not trying to help i was like wow so she said if you can just put your heels on the floor and lift your feet up and she had this big needle

prodding thing and i thought oh no what's she gonna do now and she said like this isn't gonna hurt all i'm gonna do is press on parts of your feet and tell me if you can feel it i said all right she said you gotta close your eyes though i said what well she said if you're opening your eyes you can see where i'm prodding you can say yes i said well is this some kind of magic trick she said no but it sounds like a good idea wow we could turn this into a magic

trick and you could be my assistant and i said i don't want to be your assistant she said i'll pay i'll pay you 10 pound a month cash money i said no well maybe could we just do this first she said okay and she said wait a minute and she ran over and pulled a rabbit out of the hat so that was it's quite a weird experience um i don't think it'd be as weird if the rabbit was still alive but anyway she she started prodding my feet the toes first and then the heel and

i felt it because she said can you feel this yeah now yeah now i don't know whether or not she prodded me and i said yes or she also prodded me and i didn't notice so there's no no way of knowing she didn't tell me but as far as i'm aware i passed the exam did i get a certificate no did i get a badge no didn't even get a little a gold star i mean even kids at school little kids at school that make paintings that look like someone's just thrown up on it like

they'll get a gold star well done you participated but not me after all the work i did i put a lot of effort in there saying yes when i felt it was i rewarded no not a single thing i'm just sitting there holding a dead rabbit it's just like it's not good so i seemed to pass that exam the by this time the what's it the ecg machine would be handed in so she said if you like to lay down if you like to get onto the couch you know the whatever they call it i

said okay she's i said you want me to take my top off she said no no please don't you don't have to i can put the stuff underneath your top i said no it's fine and i took my top off and she didn't seem happy which to be fair is generally the response i get when i get undressed i mean in the bathroom if i get undressed in the bathroom i can see myself covering my eyes the reflection that's ridiculous seriously and screaming make it stop so i had the ecg she stuck it on you

had to shave it she says okay for shave your chest i thought okay i wonder where this is going i started thinking i quite like my back shaved as well to be honest there's parts of me that i can't reach that would be quite nice to get shaved i was a little bit embarrassed to ask her plus i didn't want to get arrested because i don't know if that's uh against uh doctor's rules the doctor's surgery rules to ask someone to shave my arm you know i don't know i don't know but she didn't shave

my whole chest she just shaved the little bits where the the tape stuff had to go and i think it was like on my stomach that went on my ribs my chest i don't know i can't remember exactly because i was lying down and she said if you put your hands by your side i said it's quite hard because there's not enough room my body's taken up the whole of the bench and she said yeah well you say your body is mainly your bum i said excuse me she said well there's no point pretending you

haven't got a big massive fat bum is there i said you can't say stuff like that she said i just did you heard me didn't you i said i'm going to report you she said he's going to believe me what do you mean she said look all i gotta tell them is that you started shaving your own chest right and as soon as they look at your chest they'll see so they'll believe me so you can just you just say what you want but no and i said it might surprise you but i've forgotten what

we were talking about and she said yeah me too a very weird moment oh yeah i was lying down and i said i can't keep your hands to your side i said i can't so rest them on the on the bench i said there's nowhere to rest them and she said yeah the benches aren't very wide are they especially with you someone like you lying on them i mean they're really built for skinny people really really slim people or just normal sized people i don't know because i'm basically holding my arms up not up but

like to my side sort of sticking my arms so it wasn't very restful and i and i said well what do you do with people who are unconscious then because they can't do that and she's because they'll just be like on lying you know not on the floor but they'll be dangling down the side of the bed the side of the thing and she said yeah well luckily we don't have to deal with that too often and she gave me a very very serious facial expression and i thought oh so i laughed and so she

did she did she did the ecg thing it was all okay then she started talking to herself now i don't know she might have had a audio recorder or something that she was making notes i'm not sure um i knew it wasn't for me because why would i want to know what she had to get from the supermarket you know i mean a shopping list why would she be telling me that and then she said well everything looks fine but we're gonna i have to you know pass the details on to the doctor and the

doctor will let you know if if you need any more tests or anything and it's only when i left that i thought no that's not how it should be i need to know that i'm okay as well and i don't it's not that i'm trying to put extra pressure on people or make them do more work i'll seriously i'd like to get an email or text or something on the app that says all fine as opposed to me just waiting not knowing you know i mean so i went on the app yesterday because i was

tuesday that i had the ecg and i went yesterday nothing it's thursday so i go back on there today and if i don't hear anything probably i might give them a call on friday and say oi oi can i just get get results please if there's any results just so i know how i am and if there's anything else i need to do i mean normally they're quite good and they'll sort of send a message you need to contact the doctor to make an appointment or maybe on the app will say that but if i

don't check the app i won't see the message you know what i mean so yeah yes oh yes oh yes but other than that it went quite well oh you're in so i'm going to go um i'm ever so pleased i can now upload recordings again i really thought that my podcast would go in the same way as my website went and the idea of having to re-upload find another podcast host and re-upload all my recordings like did not it didn't feel particularly cozy in my knees just you know didn't oh no so it looks

like that's not the case which is good i mean technically i can just move over both my soundcloud accounts i could just move them over to be my but my main podcast but then i'd lose the other 18 podcasts i've got which i don't really want to yeah yeah so there i'm gonna go i'm gonna go oh so thank you oh blimey thank you for listening remember to be kind to yourself because you do deserve to be happy and be gentle with yourself you deserve to feel safe lots of love bye