(music) (10 hours) I’m Retired LMBYTS #1428 Jason Newland 4th September 2025

Hello and welcome to Let Me Bore You To Sleep. My name is, my name, my name, my name, my name is Jason Newland. Yeah, hope you're well.

Just thought I would do a Hmm. It's time for bed. I mean, it's like eight minutes past 10pm in the evening.

So please only listen when you can safely close your eyes. Vinnie, Vinnie, what are you staring at? I know what it is because I'm now at the desk rather than sitting down. It's easier to talk when I'm in a chair than when I'm kind of laying back.

We're not laying back but reclining. It's a little bit more easier on my throat or my neck. So I'm not kind of leaning forward.

If that makes any kind of sense. It did to me when I said it. And then after I said it, I wasn't so sure.

Oh dear. So I'm still working on getting stuff organised in my flat. The progression I've made today is, it's Thursday the 4th of September 2025.

So what did I do? Right, I've moved the bookcases into the storage room. And I've filled them with my supplies for the future. So I've got washing up liquid, soap, deodorant, washing clothes, you know, laundry, tablets, poo bags for Vinnie, um face wipes, bum wipes.

Wow. I'm trying to think what else. Toothpaste, mouthwash.

I think that's most of the stuff. So I've been kind of trying to stock up for, for at least the winter. Because it's, that's what I used to do years ago.

I'm talking, you know, six, seven years ago. Maybe six years ago, maybe seven years, I don't know. But I was proper organised for a little while.

And I'm trying to get back to that a little bit because, I don't know, I just, I just want to know that whatever happens, I've got enough toilet roll. Enough, you know, basic stuff. I mean, I can't eat any of this stuff.

Although I've also got enough tea bags, hopefully to last me till Christmas as well. But then I only have like four, one, two, three, four cups of tea a day. So each box has got 80 tea bags in, so that's what's that 20 days.

I've got five boxes in a pack. So 20 times by five has 100 days. I've got three packs or four, no three packs.

So 300 days. Wow, that's nearly a year, isn't it? Blimey. I just have to drink more tea, I guess.

Vinnie's over there doing his thing. I, oh, thanks, Vin. He's looking, he's searching.

I don't know what he's searching for. He's searching for something. So yeah, what I've done is now moved the two desks or the tables to the left side of the room, because I've now got my TV on the wall.

And my sofa is the other side of the wall, or the other side of the room rather. Or though I'm possibly looking to get rid of that, replace it just with a chair. And then, but that's a future thing.

So I've now got one table against the wall, the opposite wall, and one table, so it's facing the wall, the other one's facing the TV. So there's like a gap where the chair is so I can just kind of move around between each table. I had a similar design a few years back, which was the other side of the room.

See me saying that side of the room and to the left of the room and the other side of the room doesn't really mean much, does it? If you don't know what the room looks like. But personally, I would say it's definitely opened up the room. I wonder how many more times I can say the word room, room, womb.

But I'm not finished yet. So I've still got a lot more to do. And as far as the tidying up goes.

So I've still got some stuff in here which I can move, I'll be able to move out. And then, yeah, there's a few little bits, got a lot of wires, little wires, I'd like to get that sorted. Not a big fan of wires, like straggling around, very messy.

So I might look at trying to get that a little bit to get it taped up or something, I don't know. And then, yeah, what I've also done is I've got rid of my website. I just don't need a website.

However weird that might sound, I just don't need a website. I just have no, I mean, it's handy in some ways. I mean, I prefer to use it than the podcast, but most people use the podcast to listen rather than on a website.

So it's helped me to, you know, keep my my expenses down. So I've got rid of that. Looking at other things, changes.

I'm gonna pretty much come to the decision that I'm going to retire from making all podcasts except this one, the Let Me Boyd Sleep. And I've had a good little run, 19 years. But I think I'd like to focus on this, you know, try and do a regular daily Let Me Bore You To Sleep.

Perhaps, if I'm lucky, you know, in the coming future, perhaps I'll be able to actually do some things which will be worth talking about, have something mildly interesting. I mean, I understand it's a boring podcast, but what's interesting to me might not be interesting to you. So I might be talking about what a great time I had searching, you know, going through the field searching for worms, and you might find it completely tedious to listen to it and fall asleep.

Now, I don't know. It's all, it depends, doesn't it? And then I saw this Facebook page for, it's a chronic pain condition, and there was someone was talking about, why does he have to find the noisiest thing to crunch on when I'm doing a recording? It literally is the noisiest possible thing. It's like, dear, I did.

I forget what I was saying now. Yeah, it'd be nice to be able to go and do things. Oh yeah, I was on Facebook and I saw this chronic pain Facebook group.

Just me, it makes me feel a bit nostalgic because, by the way, if you think I'm mumbling, it's because I've got my fingers in my mouth. I should stop that really, shouldn't I? I don't know, you tell me, you can hear me now. Can you understand me when I'm like this? Or is this better? Or this? So what I'll do, I'll say, I'll do the same sentence.

It's Thursday, the 4th of September. So first of all, see if there's any difference. Now I'll do it without my fingers in my mouth.

That's much clearer without, isn't it? Yeah. So what was the meaning? Why did I do that? I don't know. I really don't know.

But I felt nostalgic because the only thing I was interested in 20 years ago was helping people with chronic pain. The only thing. I mean, not literally.

Okay, not the only thing, but I mean, one of the only things. The only thing as far as wanting to do it. No.

Okay, maybe not the only thing for that either. Yeah, like as far as not career wise, because never going to be a career, was it? This is just a, it's a lifestyle, I suppose, rather than a career. But that's the thing that I was most interested in.

So basically, what I wanted to do is help people to relieve their suffering. That was it. But then, as I kind of went along, I got to realize, I was told it was explained to me in quite a few different versions, that there's lots of types of that, you know, it's not all physical.

And there's lots of things that actually, Vinnie, oh, so noisy. He, this is another reason, like, if I ever tried to do like a really quiet hypnosis session, guaranteed, he pulls out the big guns. If he's sitting there, like, chipping away at some marble or something.

It's like, the one time he decides to make himself a statue. Why? Why now? Why? So yeah. The things that I realized quite early on in my journey of attempting to help people that were struggling with chronic pain issues.

The first thing I realized, noticed, experienced, and with feedback as well, was that one of the biggest reducers of chronic pain is relaxing. But I also know, I realized quite early on that you can't force yourself to relax. You can do relaxation techniques and exercises, of course.

But as far as like, forcing yourself, like you can't force yourself to fall in love or to be hungry, or to like a food you don't like. You can't force it. It has to kind of happen naturally.

But you can, you can lubricate the wheels though, can't you? When it comes to relaxation. So if you find something, maybe like this, that's relaxing, then that in itself helps to reduce or can help to reduce chronic pain. The thing is, I called this, Let Me Bore You To Sleep.

And I kind of wish I'd included chronic pain in a title. Because the whole process, because that's another thing, as soon as I started doing live sessions with people and group sessions and pain relief hypnosis sessions one on one. That's the two things I noticed is one was, sometimes it was just relaxing.

By allowing themselves to relax, it would reduce the physical discomfort by quite a bit. And if you want to increase it, tighten up, tense up, you know, it's kind of, that's the opposite way to do it. And it's natural for someone that's going through that to tense up because it's getting to them, isn't it? So by doing the complete opposite, or allowing the opposite to occur, which is relaxation, it then allows the opposite physical sensations to arise.

As Vinnie continues to chip away at that massive piece of marble. And I'm wondering, what's it going to be this this week? Last week, it was just a big bit of marble that had been chipped into proper mess. But the week, week before that, it was, it was like a little boat made of wood.

Funny enough, I don't know how he managed that. The alchemist, the Jack Russell alchemist, I can tell marble, tell, turn marble into balsa wood. Yeah, I don't know.

And then another thing that people were telling me is, oh, they might not have said, ooh, but it's like, one thing we noticed is we're sleeping better. Easier. And when I was doing the, I saw this man, I used to visit him in his house in 2006, in the summer, and he had arthritis, like really bad arthritis in his legs and stuff.

And the one thing he said is, other than the fact that he felt so much better, gradually over the weeks, but he also was sleeping more, he was sleeping more comfortable. So instead of his legs jittering and jumping about, which they did, they just calmed down, relaxed. And he could have some good sleep.

So it got me thinking, like, okay, what benefits can be got from helping people to relax deeply and to fall asleep. And as I moved forward with the relaxation sessions online, again, I started off doing chronic pain relief, relaxation, and sleep sessions. That's the three things I focused on.

Even though I'd started off, I only wanted to do chronic pain relief. And then as that progressed, the most popular recordings, or the least popular recordings were the chronic pain relief ones. Not that they were unpopular, they just weren't as well received as the relaxation and the sleep.

And then it turned out that the sleep recordings were the most popular of anything I did. And for a while, that was a little bit frustrating for me. Because that wasn't what I wanted to focus on.

I wanted to be Mr. Pain Relief. That's what I wanted to do. I wanted to change the world, maybe.

I was very young, naive back then, I was only 46. And now I was 35, still not that young either, 35 years old, I was so full of ambition. Oh, just got to get out there, just got to be heard, just need people to know that I exist.

And then everyone's going to want to listen. And maybe, maybe a tiny few people would. And every now and then, I'd try and go back to the pain relief and people still wanted to listen to the sleep stuff.

So it's kind of like, okay, well, perhaps I should just do what, what first would do what people like, that kind of makes sense, really. And then I started doing the, these to Let Me Bore You To Sleep 2018, seven years ago, nearly eight years ago. Well, I was this February or March 2018.

And constantly doing this, I can't remember. 2000. By the way, all my podcasts are still on my Spreaker, Whisperer, 11111111.

Okay, so I'm just trying to find the, right, I can't find it. 1. 1 to 50. Where's 1 to 50? 51 to 100.

1 to 50. Wow. 101 to 150.

That's not what I want. I want 1 to 50. Where's 1 to 50? I'm looking at the screen just in case you're wondering what I'm talking about.

1 to 50. It doesn't seem to be on here. Oh, there it is.

1 to 50. Total statistics for this one. Right.

5 downloads in the last year from that podcast because it's just specifically just for those 50 recordings. That's another reason I kind of not going to bother with the website because I did all these podcasts and into like playlists and stuff but not really getting listening. Oh, 27th of March 2018 was the very first Let Me Bore You To Sleep.

And I did 1, 2, 3, 4 in a row. Then I did 1, 2, 3, 4, another 4 in a row. Then I did 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7 in a row.

Then I did 1, 2 in a row. Then I did 1. Then I did. Okay, that got boring.

6. Wow. I did a 6 of May and then nothing to a 26 of May. I wonder what happened on that year.

No idea. So I did the Let Me Bore You To Sleep, started that 27th of March 2018. And yeah, it's become the most popular thing that I've ever done.

As far as like individual recordings and and I'm now at number I couldn't even tell you 1400 and yesterday's recording was 1427. So yeah, I've got a few done. Quite a few, isn't it? Wow.

Yeah, so I'm going to just continue with this, the Let Me Bore You To Sleep. And it's really the only podcast I'm going to be focusing on from now on. But at the same time, I don't quite know how I can get it across that maybe people can find this useful.

People that have got chronic pain. People that have got anxiety and stuff like that could find these podcasts useful because it's relaxing and it's peaceful and you know what I've noticed? Do you ever get you know, certain phrases are starting to be used more and more, like in interviews on TV and on the internet. And what not is the new one.

It's not a new one. It's not a new thing. But for some reason, I'm hearing people say more often now, what not? It's kind of similar to saying so on and so forth, blah, blah, blah, blah.

Make a long story short. What not? It's kind of just it shortens the conversation or shortens the story. So yeah, I was going to got some shopping, I got some toilet paper and some tampons and some you know, and what not.

So you're not going through the whole list of things that you got. You've just gone through the things that maybe you shouldn't have gone through. I don't know.

Depends who you're talking to. It depends upon who you're talking to. I don't know what Vinnie is expecting to happen.

He just sits there staring at his bum. Generally, honestly, he's just staring at his bum. Like it's, I don't know, it's like some kind of secret doorway to Narnia or something.

A little cupboard full of tiny coats. Smelly coats. So, God, they'd all be look like they're just people have been walking through a really muddy forest.

Yeah, it wouldn't be like Narnia, would it? With all the snow, you just get through, there'd be mud everywhere. It'd just be like a big swamp. Okay, let's move on.

What are you staring at? What are you staring at, eh? I think he's a bit thrown off because I'm not sure if he's ever seen me sit here before. He probably has because I've had him for quite a while now. But to sit over here and do this recording and to be talking, but not to be talking to him.

But I am talking to you, aren't I? Yeah, I am. He's kind of got me used to me sitting on the chair doing it on the sofa because then he can sort of cuddle up to me a bit. You're a bit thrown off, aren't you, I think? This is more comfortable doing it here.

You think the sofa would be more comfortable, but it's not. Not doing this stuff because, first of all, I can't use the laptop. I can't use stuff like that when I'm... Well, I can because I'm in the lab.

I've got to sneeze. Oh, that was nice. What a lovely sneeze.

I thought it might be exciting, and it was. It's strange. Right, what's Lloyd's Banking up to? Lloyd's Bank.

OK. I don't think there'll be any banks at all in the future. That was a nice, bright thing to say, wasn't it? You know, in my town where I live, the bank that I'm with is this big, old, listed building.

It's huge. Honestly, it's just massive, and they don't get many customers because how many people go into a bank anymore? You know, most things is done online, isn't it, and don't really... Well, I'm just talking generally. I haven't needed to go into a bank to put a check in or to draw money out for a long time or to pay bills, which is something I used to do in the past, go in there to pay my bills, electric bill, gas bill, water bill.

I'd go into the... Yeah, I'd go in there to pay that. Don't need to do that anymore. It's all just automatic, direct debit now.

TV license, that's all done automatically. I don't even know if the bank's still there. I suppose it is.

Yeah, I'm pretty sure it still is. I know it's got some hard steps because I fell over them once. I fell up them.

I was running to get my check from when I was a counsellor, and I think it was like a thousand pound, and it was my month's check, and I needed it cashed before Christmas. So I think Christmas was on the Wednesday or Thursday, the next week, and I was... This was the Friday afternoon, 10 minutes before the bank closed. So I'm running, and I'm only around the corner, but I'm waiting for ages.

I'm in the office at Mind, and I get on really well with a man that that did the checks. So I'm just chatting to him, and there's quite a lot to do. So Mind, it took a while, and I was getting more and more closer to the time, and in the end, he printed it off, and I ran.

I ran, and I ran, and I ran, and literally, it was a 10-minute walk, possibly less than a 10-minute walk, possibly maybe a six-minute walk, seven-minute walk, but there's no guarantee that the door will stay open right to the end, because they might just not let anyone in after a certain point. So I ran. So I'm going down the alleyway towards a town.

I turn left. I'm not sure if I'm able to cross... Well, I did cross the road, obviously, because otherwise I wouldn't... I'd got there. I'd still be standing there, wouldn't I? And this is a long time ago.

This is 2011. Yeah, or was it 2012? No, it was 2011, because by 2012... Yeah, December 2012, I think I started doing the... working in the insurance company, and having a Monday off every week to be... to continue counselling. So yeah, and I did that until the following year.

I think April... Oh, I can't remember the dates, but... So anyway, I ran. I think it was 2011, I suppose. No, 2012.

No, 2011. Does it really matter? Not really. So 2011, and I get the check, and I'm running.

And it's cold, a little bit slippery. It's December. And my body's not really been... it wasn't really built for running, especially not the last 20 or 30 years.

I think, you know, in a sense of, if I have a running accident, I've only got myself to blame. That seems to be the attitude of the medical experts. So why are you trying to run? Have you not seen yourself? Do you not own a mirror, or some scales? It's like a bit rude, a little bit rude.

And anyway, so I'm running, and there's two crossings. One crossing, well, then the next one. But the next one is crossing the main high road.

And as I cross over there, I think there's traffic lights, I think, on both sides, and both roads. And then I cross over. There's a nude agents, news agents on the left, and then there was a Subway sandwich place on the left.

And then I think there's some chicken shop on the left. And then the next thing on the left is the bank. Or was the bank, I mean, those shops might not be there either.

So I'm running, I'm not running hard. I've never run hard, maybe when I was a kid, but not for a long time. And I want to get in there before they stand inside the door, stopping anyone else from coming in, and just letting people out.

Because I know they start doing that, you know, closer to closing time. I suppose they've got places to be, haven't they? Yeah, I guess people that work in a bank, they've got home lives and stuff. They don't just go to sleep beyond the counter, do they? I guess.

Or, you know, keep together bunk beds in the back room. I don't know. Playing conkers, you know, in conker season, which would be soon, actually.

Usually about October time, I think. September, October, when the conkers fall off the tree. I never liked conkers, though.

I think it's banned in schools now, because it's dangerous. They think it's dangerous. Well, it is dangerous.

That's why I didn't like it, because I used to end up with sore fingers. I did not appreciate that. Yeah, I'm glad they're banned.

But unfortunately, the news of the conkers being banned has not reached the trees themselves, because they're still producing them. Oh, yes, I get to the bank, turn left, about to run up the stairs, and I slip, I trip, really. On the stairs, on the concrete steps, and it's like 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6. There's three steps, then, you know, like a one big step that's flat, and then there's another three, I think.

So I trip over on the first three steps, and I smash my foot. I think it was my right foot. Again, it's quite a while ago.

So I break something in my right foot. I don't quite know. It's just a broken foot.

And oh, man. I was just like, I didn't know what to do, because it hurts so much. But I needed to get into that bank.

So I just sort of made my way in. Thankfully, I mean, I don't know, I might have been able to sue them or something over that. I don't know.

It was my fault. I'm the one running. They put the steps there, but I knew there were steps there.

Running around in freezing cold temperatures, probably not a good idea. But anyway, they let me in. Or someone opened the door.

I don't know if the door was locked, but she opened the door for me. I think she might have even asked, are you okay? Well, she stopped laughing. And I managed to put my check in.

It's like £1,004 or something, which was so needed. Because otherwise, I was going to have Christmas with no money. I needed to buy Christmas presents and stuff like that.

Ah, so lovely. I managed to do that and it all kind of worked out okay. Except I had a broken foot.

And I remember going to the, I got to the walk, ironic name, the walking centre, which is probably about a mile, I don't know. It's on the same ground as hospital, but it's a long walk to the hospital. So I get a bus there.

Do I get a bus or did I walk? I might have walked. But I might have got a bus, I don't remember. My memory's not great, is it, for this story.

I either got a bus or I walked, one of them. And I go into the walking centre. And they said, what, what do you want? What do you want? I said, I've hurt my foot.

Okay. I really didn't seem that interested. Maybe it's because it was, because this was on a Monday.

I waited the weekend, thinking I'll wear it off, but it didn't, so I went in on a Monday to the hospital. Although it might have been a Saturday, I might have did it the next day, because it was very painful. And they said, what is it? I said, well, I just, I've hurt my foot.

They said, yeah, so? I said, okay, well, you know, I've come here. They said, what do you want us to do about it? I'm not sure if I was, I'd walked, I thought I might have walked into the canteen by accident, and it was just the canteen staff wondering why I was talking about my foot. You know, why, why is he just not ordering food? So I don't know.

And then they said, well, let's have a look at your foot. So he said, take your sock off. I said, I can't take my sock off.

He said, well, you need to take your sock off. Otherwise, I can't see your foot. I said, I haven't got a sock on.

He said, what? He said, I can't get a sock, I can't get a sock over my foot because it's too painful. Plus it's swollen up. So I slipped my shoe off because I've had slip-ons for years because I'm very old.

And my foot was pretty much, a lot of it was black. It was just really red and purple and all and he said, ooh. I said, okay.

And does that mean, is that kind of a medical response? Or you just did an impression of a ghost? We both rolled around tickling each other. No, that didn't happen. So he said, well, I haven't got an x-ray machine.

But he said, it looks like you've damaged your foot. I said, I know that one. I know I've damaged my foot.

And he said, well, there's nothing he can do for you. You can go to the, walk up to the hospital, but it's going to be, you'll be waiting there for hours and hours and hours and they'll x-ray it properly and then tell you that you've got some broken bones and that's it. Just try and keep off it.

You know, if it was your ankle, then they'd put you in plaster. If it was your heel, they'd probably possibly put you in plaster, but it's not, it's just the top of your foot. Don't put you in plaster for that.

That's what they said to me. I said, all right then. So he said, we just walk up there, you know where the hospital is? I said, yeah.

It's a long walk. He said, yeah, probably longer for you, more painful. I was like, wow.

And he said, before you go, can I just, can you just give me a foot for a second? I said, I'll do this. He pressed on it. He said, does it hurt when I do this? I said, yeah.

He said, I thought it would. And then she walked away. Weird.

So I'm walking, trying to walk up to the hospital, but I can't, I can't make it. I literally can't make the journey. So I have to, I think I have to kind of head back and get a bus back.

And I don't think, yeah, I didn't see any clients that week because the next week, because it was Christmas week. Although I might have done, I can't remember. And when I visited my dad, because I was still hobbling about, I had to ask for a lift because I got a train station.

And from where I lived at the time. So for where I lived, this is really strange. I've got this memory.

Yeah, it must have been there. So I don't know if I, I might have got a taxi to the train station. Or maybe, actually, it was only a short walk to get a bus.

So I probably got a bus to the train station. And then once I got to the train station where my dad lives, I had to ask him to give me a lift. Because I just couldn't do it anymore.

I couldn't do the walking, just couldn't. I was walking on my heel. Because that was the only part that didn't hurt.

Until after walking on my heel for a few weeks and that hurt as well. The rest was fine though. Very strange though.

Like, I think I might have hurt my arm on the stairs. But wow, that was, that was proper ouch. That was an ouch, ouch moment that was.

Why am I telling you that story? I've got no idea. It's weird though, because I start remembering the subway. There was a period of time, probably 2008, 2009, maybe 2010, where I used to come into town to go to the Buddha Centre.

And what I would do is, I would go to subway. So I'm not every time, but I might go to subway to get something to eat. So a nice cheese salad.

And half of, is it half a foot roll or whatever it is? Half a foot? I don't know. Yeah, one, two, three. Yeah, because they're quite a lot.

Yeah, half a foot. And the lady in there, we used to really chat to each other. We got on really well.

I haven't seen her for years. I mean, literally, what, 15 years? We got on really well. I think she's married.

She might have had kids, but she was the manager of the subway. And we just got on really, just naturally got on really well. And I think she was from Mauritius or somewhere like that.

I don't know. What was she? I think she'd been a student. Maybe she was a student and the manager of that place at the same time.

I'm not 100% sure. I'm pretty sure, unless she was like a, no, I don't know. Did subway do the same thing as McDonald's? Like franchises and stuff? Maybe she was a franchise holder.

The thing is, even though it's in town, it wasn't particularly well placed. I suppose it is at night, you know, when there are pubs and stuff and Friday night and Saturday night and stuff like that. It just seemed even because the town's not busy the way it used to be.

Even back then, it wasn't apart from Christmas time. It's not busy the way it used to be. Like it was quite noticeable.

Plus the town isn't, I mean, here, it's not very good town. I don't mean that in a horrible way. It's just a bit of rubbish.

It's just, it's very, it's very samey to anywhere else. Same kind of shops, you know, WH Smiths and Subway and McDonald's and Burger King and The Co-op and there's a Wimpy and just is kind of the same. A lot of charity shops as well, Heart Foundation, Barnardo's, Scope.

It's kind of, there's two bookshops, Waterstone, of course, that's the, probably the most popular one around the country. Yeah, Wetherspoons, it's very samey to where you'd get anywhere else. It's all right.

I don't, I don't go out. I haven't been out for years. I have left my home and I've never ever left the flat.

I have, but in a social context, like actually going out and having a drink or going into a pub or a bar or out for a meal, socially, I mean, you could say, yeah, well, I went and had breakfast last Thursday. For Uncle, after Uncle Sausage's farewell ceremony, but I didn't really feel that that was particularly a social moment, you know, it wasn't, didn't feel like a, wasn't a happy event.

And the time before that was Christmas when I saw my dad, little brother and my dad's wife and we met in a pub for Christmas dinner.

So that, that was social, but as family, it's not, it wasn't social as in, I don't know, it's, it's different. It wasn't like friends, meeting up with friends or seeing new people or anything like that. It was very, I did see new people.

Everyone's new now, wherever I go, people are new, because when's the last time I went into a pub? The last time, like, okay, not, not ever, but the last time really that I regularly went anywhere was 2010, 15 years. Used to go into pubs with people from college, go out, have meals and stuff like that during that three years of being university. I did date someone in 2011, near the end of 2011 and beginning of 2012.

So I did go out and have meals and stuff with her. I did go to the Indian restaurant. I'm sure I've been there more than once.

There's a local Indian restaurant that I went to in 2015, about end of the year 2015. But I don't, I'm sure, oh, I've got a memory of going there more than once, but maybe I didn't. Maybe it was just a one-off, but I got this kind of memory of doing something more than once.

I'm not saying anything, just this particular place. Mind you, in the past, I have actually sat down at a table, just waiting for the food to be ready because it's cold outside. So maybe that's what I'm getting muddled up with.

In fact, I think I once even had a drink in there because there was a big long queue, you know, big, so they just gave me a drink while I waited. Pine nut curry sauce. I don't know.

No, I haven't. Wow, I can't remember, other than that little one, you know, sort of Christmas with my dad and my brother, I do not remember. Oh, no, I went to the pub with Luke, but we had a pub opposite, well, across the road.

It was there for a while, it was there for years and years, but then it closed, then it opened again, and then it closed again. So we went there and sat outside with a meal and stuff, so that was okay. But that was a long time ago, you know, we're talking probably 2016 time, probably.

No, I can't remember any other time. Wow, where does all the time go? I'm trying to remember the last time I went to the cinema, because I have been to the cinema since I moved here, I'm pretty sure. And I'd love, well, not love, but if I could find a way to get back to doing stuff, some stuff.

I think that'd be good for me, just, hmm. Yeah, it's been a nice day today. It was raining, so it wasn't so nice, but when it wasn't raining, it was lovely, very bright.

It started off really windy, like yesterday, it was very windy, and then kind of calmed down. The wind seemed to just blow itself out, and now it's pretty chilled. It's dark outside now, but it's 11 minutes past 11, 11.11, or 23.11. So, that's pretty much me, done for the day.

So, thank you for listening. I will be doing a Q&A Friday tomorrow, I've only got a couple of questions to answer, so if you do have any questions, bear in mind, this won't be released till the morning, because I'm going to be going to bed quite soon, yeah. What's this? Right, the website, as soon as I make a change, it's like, oh, the website's gone, I'm afraid.

But, I'm looking at other alternatives. Any questions for, oh, I have got, I've got four questions. Let's have a look, where are they? There's one, oh, blimey.

Right, so yeah, this, that's the questions for tomorrow. If you've got any questions, I normally do the Q&A Friday, kind of afternoon time, but it might be in the evening, not this late, but, I like to be in bed by 10 o'clock in the evening now. Now I'm an old fuddy-duddy.

So, yeah, thank you for listening. Remember to be kind to yourself, because you do, you do, you do, you do, deserve to be happy. You do.

Remember to be gentle with yourself, because you deserve to feel safe. Lots of love. Bye.