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Hello and welcome to Let Me Bore You To Sleep. My name is Jason Newland. Please only listen when you can safely close your eyes.
Vinnie's decided to join in. I was going to look at the newspapers on the app. But the app needed to be re-updated.
It's Readly or whatever it's called. And asking for my password. Why? Why? Why? And I literally cannot log into it now because it's not accepting my password.
Slightly annoying. Oh well. Yeah, a little bit.
I mean, it depends. I might have it under a different email address. That's what it could be.
Let's have a check. All right. Let's see if I can open it.
Download the new app. I've already downloaded it. Now it's saying no, it's not downloaded yet.
Account. Okay. So I've installed it.
Password. Right. I still try to like get into the app and it won't because it wants to download it.
The new app or the new version of the app. And it won't let me do it because the password I'm using isn't working. Sometimes, I'll be honest, sometimes I just want to throw the laptop out the window.
It just frustrates me. All these different passwords to remember all these different things like needing to be done. And the idea of computers was to make life simpler for people.
Simpler for businesses. Simpler for individuals. Simpler for families.
Simpler for education. And in some ways they have. But it's those little niggly things that really just, you know, when you get kicked out, you got maybe got like four pages open for tabs or whatever.
And, you know, I'm working on something. I've got my the Spreaker tab open. I've got the the website page open that I'm uploading recordings to.
Maybe I've got another couple of pages open as well, perhaps Canva for images. And then I press the wrong part of the screen or the wrong button and they all just close. And I have to open them all up again.
And then it says, Oh, you must log in. You must log in. You need to log in.
It's not really. But why must I? Why? Why? I don't want to. I don't want to log in.
I just want to stay logged in. So yeah, anyway, hi. Hi.
He started off moaning about laptops and stuff. I thought this was supposed to be relaxing. It is relaxing.
If you don't mind a little bit of moaning every now and then. It's been a weird week. It's been a very expensive week.
And but yesterday, man, I've not planned things very well. So I spent 40, 38, 40, 40 pound nearly on having a mouth exam for a dentist. And it looks like they didn't even look any other teeth.
You'd think for that they would they did an x-ray. They would look at my whole mouth like a checkup. No, they just looked at one tooth.
And I got to go back and have it out. But they gave me penicillin to help to get rid of the infection. So I've got that.
I haven't got any kind of cavity. You know, when people have like a whole face swell up. I haven't got nothing like that.
It's, it's very mild, like as far as the infection. So I started taking the penicillin today. Big old tablets.
So I had that at 15 pound for the taxi. Another 16 pound for the medicine. And I got something to eat while I was out.
So that was another 10 pound. And then last night, I realized, because my dad's birthday the weekend, and I had to send him a card and a present. Before my money got taken out of my account, because I wasn't sure how, how much was going to be going out.
So I quickly went on to Moon Pig, got him a card and a present and sent it to him on Moon Pig. It was just a small present. It was a Toblerone, like one of those large Toblerones for eight pound or 10.
I don't know, it's quite cheap. And just it says happy birthday dad or happy Father's Day. I don't know.
I can't remember. And congratulations on your christening. I don't know, it said something.
And I sent that off. And I thought I've got everything I need. I bought, I bought also I went online and bought the tickets to go to my dad's on the train.
So that was another 25 pound, I think, return. So for okay. I didn't know, to be fair, the the Moon Pig, the cards that wasn't going through, but eventually did go through.
So I was like, Oh, have I used all the money up? And then the the what's it the train one that did go through. So I thought it must be okay. But I didn't look at the bank account.
Just thought no, I'm not looking at it today. And this was yesterday. So I looked at it, I got a little glimpse.
But the the bank was down the because there's an app and quite regularly is down for maintenance. But then it's probably being used millions of times a day. So I guess they have to continuously shut it down, you know, to maintain and keep it free of bugs and viruses and stuff like that, I guess.
Check that it's still working. Anyway, I went on it. Oh, this is funny.
I don't know why we're not today and I'm minus five pound. I don't even have an overdraft. So the bank is not supposed to allow any money to go out of my bank unless the money's in my account.
So they've not only taken five pound out that isn't while they're taking money out that isn't in there. They're going to charge me I think 25 pound as a charge for doing it. So that's cost me is this like really? So now I'm down 30 pound, although they had not taken the charge off.
I think I'll probably take that off next year, next week, next month, probably. So what? Kigawamble when they're down. I mean, blimey.
So yeah, so at least I got the tickets and to get to my dad's. He's got his birthday card and his birthday present. It's a really rubbish birthday present.
It's like a bar of chocolate. But it's something and he'll get it before his birthday because I'm not going and he'll get it in the post. So we'll be able to have it you know, set have it standing on the side the card and stuff like that.
And then I got the train ticket as well. So in some ways I was quite organized. Because if I hadn't done that, I hadn't got the train ticket last night, I wouldn't be able to go.
I wouldn't have enough to pay for the train ticket. So it's kind of it was good. Well planned.
I'm kind of I was so pleased with myself in some ways. But I managed to get through the day without running out of money with all the things I had to pay out for. But there was unexpected costs.
For example, the prescription didn't know I was going to have to pay for that. So that was 16 pounds. And I was hungry when I was out.
So I hadn't eaten since the morning. And I started to I could feel my blood sugar level going down, you know, and I had to eat. So that was money as well to eat, but gotta eat.
What else I didn't get a taxi home. So I got a bus home. Which took me ages.
But you know, the fear of a taxi at least I got there on time, I didn't miss it. So I didn't lose the money, the 38 pound 50 whatever it was I paid. And yeah, the day didn't quite work out as I thought.
I did because the man on the phone before I went to the dentist said, Yeah, any treatment you need, you'll get done. But didn't happen. And but anyway, at least I know I need to have it out.
So I just closed the window. So as soon as I stood up, Vinnie started barking. No reason at all.
Usually he doesn't bark when I stand up. But the one time I didn't want him to bark, what the one time but you know, because there's a barking outside and there's conversations going on. And so I closed the window.
That's all I can do. The things I can hear a lot more than the podcast picks up because the microphone is a long way away from them. But my ears, my head is so wide that my ears are so big as well.
They stick out the window. And I pressed against the window and and the other wall. So I'm kind of trapped.
I don't know why I said that. But it's a weird visual, isn't it? I Wow. Yeah.
When I ride on a motorbike, I have to ride sideways. Otherwise I take off. That's a weird, it'd be good.
Imagine how good that would be, though, if you could fly. If we could like, you know, people with big ears could actually fly. And you're like, oh, and all these people have made fun of them when there was kids like, oh, so bad.
I didn't realize you could fly. So I'm trying to think I can't remember what I was talking about now. But yeah, um, that app can't get into the app.
I have to try and figure that one out. It's a little bit annoying. Just a little bit.
Just a little bit. Just a little bit. No, not as annoying as me singing.
Probably. Probably. I haven't done much today.
I'll be honest, I haven't done much. I was very tired after yesterday. Because you know, I wasn't really looking forward to it.
I'll be honest. And I did leave it to the very last minute before getting ready to go. Which is, you know, just something that I have a tendency of sometimes doing.
Plus, I hadn't been out of my area since August. That was the last time I was except either August or maybe it was because it was beginning of September, but I've not been out out of my little area where I live. Because there's nothing here to get anything you have to go out or get deliveries.
So it's been a while. Since I've seen anybody that isn't just a dog walker. Anyway, I yeah, I felt a bit tired.
And then yesterday, you know, when I got back, I also needed to get the rubbish out for this morning. And yeah, that was good. Got got that done.
So but in not really, not really done anything today of any merit. And I mean, I did. I uploaded the recordings to to SoundCloud.
And I uploaded the recordings to the website Jason Newland dot store. So I did that. That's, you know, it takes a while to get that all done.
And then what I have been doing is working on the sleep hypnosis podcast on my Jason Newland dot store. So so far, I've uploaded all the sleep hypnosis recordings on that podcast for short voice only, long voice only, and I'm now doing the overnight voice only. I think I've done 10 of them so far.
So still about halfway through of the ones in there. And then after that, I'll do music, short music, long music and overnight music. So, you know, it's gonna it's every podcast is going to take weeks to complete, because it's it takes it's taken time.
It takes time to kind of download the recording from the podcast, pour the information in and then create the page and then upload the recording to that, you know, so it can be downloaded for free from the Jason Newland dot store. And yeah, it's a fairly, it's not difficult. But it is quite time consuming.
Because when the podcast episode is being uploaded to the website, I can't do anything with that website. So this is like the back end, the administration part of the website, not the site that part that the public would see. The building part is what I'm on.
So I can't do anything until that's completed. And then I can go and start making another page for the next recording. But in the process, I can be downloading that one.
So like, download it, so I can upload it, download it from one place, upload it to another place. Changing the video, the recording image, putting in the what do you call it? Yeah, adding the recorder, the play the player over into the website as well. So embedding that into each page.
So each page where there's a recording available to download for free, there's also a player which you can embed it in that page you can play if you want to. Or maybe you don't know what the recording is. And just like you come across it thinking, Oh, I don't know.
I don't know what the recording is. I don't know, maybe. And you might be eating some celery when you think it, I don't know.
And you can just play it and listen like, Oh, this is a bit rubbish. No wonder it's free. He couldn't charge no one would pay anything for this old crap.
Blimey. I'm gonna hope people don't think that way. But you know, you never know.
I mean, it's amazing. I've heard people say stuff about like singers that I think are amazing, or movies that I love or TV shows that I really, really enjoy watching. And you hear someone else saying, Oh, it's just rubbish.
Like, how? How is it? How can you say how? I know we're all different and we all like different things. But I don't watch EastEnders. Really, I don't watch Coronation Street at all, pretty much.
But even I can recognize that the Coronation Street is a well made program. It's got a lot of really good characters. It's well written.
And it's very popular. It's not really for me anymore. I used to watch it, but I don't really watch soaps anymore.
But I can recognize that it's a good you know, I can recognize that Downton Abbey was a great TV show. Hugely popular around the world. I think I watched one episode of it.
The very first episode, it was at Christmas, when I was at my dad's like, was that 2012, 2013. And I, I thought it was quite good. I liked it.
But I couldn't be bothered to watch it again. And as I'm saying this, I'm thinking to myself, I might watch it. I might watch Downton Abbey right from the beginning, every episode.
Because maybe I've missed, I might have missed out. I mean, it is, it was super popular. But then I think that way about things like 24.
I watched the very first season of 24. Back in about 2010, probably 2009. And I loved it.
And then I got the second season of 2004. 24 sorry. But it was scratched, because I was getting it from blockbusters.
So I watched the second season, I think I watched one episode or two episodes. And then the third episode was scratched, which really wound me up. So I took it back.
And they gave me a refund. But it didn't give me another copy. It didn't have another copy of the of that box set that particular season.
So I didn't watch anymore. And then when I yeah, when I kind of when I moved in here, there was I had access to a lot of streaming, which I hadn't really had access to before. Because the internet wasn't good enough to really stream anything.
And the internet wasn't great and never has been great here. But it was really it wasn't even fast enough in my old place to stream Netflix. And Netflix only needs about five megabytes a second.
That's it really try keep it away from the metal. You see he's chewing on this thing and he keeps banging it on the metal. I think he's I know he's not doing it.
I hope he's not doing it on purpose. Because he is a good boy. He's a lovely boy.
He's a really good kid. But he sometimes sometimes it's all I'm going to say. Sometimes I just I saw him when I'm just gonna as long as I do sometimes I just think oh he winds me up he does.
But I love I do love him. I love him so much. And my thing is I don't know if he even likes me.
But recently he's been a little bit more. He's a little bit more affectionate. A little bit more kind of wanting my attention when I'm ignoring him.
Well I'm never ignoring him. But you know when I'm at my desk working well doing this or you know working on the websites and stuff like that. He will kind of whine because I'm not giving him attention.
And I try and get onto my lap. I never used to do that before. The only time he used to really kind of moan or stare at me was when he wanted something to eat or he wanted to go out.
Now he's kind of he's he's wanting to be closer to me even though I'm only just sitting here. So he's happy when he's at underneath the desk and he'll go to sleep probably before I finish this. But right now he's just chewing on one of his treats.
It's a big massive treat that lasts for days. What is it? Good pets. Good boy.
I think they're good boy treats I think. And they've got a few different ones. And these are huge.
Just one big tube of bits and bobs. And he just loves it. Loves chewing on it.
Yeah to 24. So I never and when I did start getting the streaming. I feel quite nostalgic.
Isn't it weird? I don't feel like I've been here a long time. Although 11 years is it's a distance isn't it? It's the longest I've ever lived anywhere. Yeah I feel a little bit nostalgic for those times.
Because I mean technically I was 44 years old. I was still a young'un. I was still a kid really.
I was still a baby. I was 44. I didn't I didn't feel particularly old.
I mean just before I moved here I was still doing Taekwondo. So I was still running around and kicking and punching. But I had to give it up because of my back.
And then I moved here and it's or I might have moved here and tried to go back and it didn't work. I don't know. But basically once I moved away all the things that I used to do before pretty much stopped.
The regular things like going to the Buddhist centre stopped. I could go there. It was literally just around the corner from where I lived.
It was easy to get to. It couldn't be easier unless it was next door. Seriously it was just across the road.
And a previous address was up the other side of the road which was even closer. And I had a supermarket just around the corner from where I lived. And I was in town.
So it's a short walk into the town. Buses, bus stop opposite me. Everything that you could need was all within sort of short walk.
But then I moved here. Then I moved here and nothing's within a short walk. Although yesterday I'm quite pleased with myself because I walked from, I got the bus from the doctors to the shops up the road from where I live.
It's about a half hour walk from where I live. But I got off the bus there because I had to go to the pharmacy to get this prescription. And also I was picking up my friend's prescription as well.
My neighbor's prescription. And I knew I wouldn't catch the bus. I was gonna probably be another hour waiting for a bus.
So I decided to walk it. And I did all right. And it might sound a bit weird to be patting myself on the back for being able to walk for half an hour.
But I didn't have, it wasn't too bad on my back. And if I'd have done that two months ago, or if it was cold, I think I would have really, really struggled with that. So I kind of was surprised, especially as I've been standing around a long time waiting for buses to come back.
So yeah. Hmm. I don't know what my point was on this one.
I walked. That was it. But there's nothing really much around here.
There's like a couple of shops at the end near the motorway. And that's it. Or near the road that leads to the motorway rather.
And that's it. So basically, there's a bridge that goes over the motorway. And the shops are on the right hand side.
It's like, okay. And there's another bridge further up that goes over the motorway. And that leads back to near kind of where I'm going to walk back to where I've been on the bus.
It's minutes, literally minutes. But on probably five minutes on a bus, walking half hour, depending on how my back's doing. But then I've never been a fast walker.
I used to walk fast if I had to, you know, if I was late for work or left things at the last minute, which I had a tendency of doing when I was like pretty young. Outside of those scenarios, I would walk very, very, very slowly. And I did that when I was at school, junior school, high school, I would.
Yeah, I wasn't. I wasn't a fast walker. I was a little bit different when I had a bike when I was in high school, because everything's pretty quick when you're on a bike.
I'm home within. Well, when I was on a bike, I generally was going to do my paper round. I don't think I'd take my bike to school unless I was doing a paper round afterwards, I think.
Otherwise, I just walk because it wasn't a long, wasn't a long way to go. It's only up the road. We literally.
Yeah, up one road. So come, come out of my house where I used to live. Turn out my house.
Turn left. Literally, only a little way and turn right and there was a road. So basically, come out my house, cross the road, walk to the left.
And then go down that road. It's very tiny, short, short little distance. Go down that road.
Cross the road over town. So where the town is just cross the road and then walk up that road. And that was my school was there.
And that road probably was about 10, 15 minute walk. 10 minute walk. I don't know.
It's not far. So it's like 15 minute walk to school. Maybe 20 minutes.
I lose track, but it wasn't long. Unless I was in a really, really slow mood. So it could be like an hour or an hour and a half.
Because sometimes I just like to just potter around. Maybe go into town, go to news agents, read some of the magazines, some of the comics, just just have a potter around, you know. I used to quite like doing that.
And maybe I'd go around a friend's house on the way back or... That's just around a lot of my friends would like run off when they saw me. But I get home. I'm just trying to remember what it was like.
When I was in high school, getting home from school, I'm talking around like because I was at high school, I did five years at high school. So coming home in the first year, because the year always starts in September. So it's already getting dark.
So basically the first term of school, it's just getting darker and darker at night and in the morning as well. Then the second term, which is January to probably Easter, isn't it? So January to Easter. It's still dark and then it starts to get lighter.
And then you've got the third term, which is from Easter to the summer break. And then it'd be like a lot nicer weather, generally brighter anyway. After Easter, everything kind of brightens up.
Usually, like light-wise. Well, how else is it going to brighten up, if not light-wise? Well, mood-wise, you see something brighten up, lighten up, brighten up. You know what I mean? But I just remember the dark nights, coming home at like four o'clock and dark outside and going back and going inside and hopefully it wasn't cold inside.
It wasn't always warm. It was a very, very, very old house. It was pretty much a derelict house when we moved in.
And my dad's rebuilt the thing pretty much from inside, with a little bit of help from his minions. Although I'll be honest, I didn't do a huge amount. I used to, if I could, because there's always work to be done, you know.
I just asked Vinnie to move his tree away from the metal bar that he keeps banging it on. He growled at me and he's run off. Here's me telling you that he was a good boy.
I think I have to rethink that one. So, what I used to do is, I used to be more helping my step-mom out. Whether it was housework, hoovering, cleaning the sinks, or just things like that, you know, domestic stuff.
Helping with the cooking, helping with the baking, if she was making cakes. So I was quite lucky because I got out of a fair bit of the horrible grunting stuff that my other brothers would be kind of made to do in the garden. I still, I had my fair share, but they, you know, if I could get out of it, I would.
Because I didn't see the point of, well there was a period when literally we were moving one big pile of mud from one part of the garden to the other. For no reason, I couldn't see a reason for genuinely. I'm sure there was a reason, but I couldn't see a reason.
We were just moving one big massive pile of mud and I mean it might have been that my dad was just trying to make it give us, help us to have strong bodies by getting us digging and stuff like that. It might have been as simple as that and I guess it worked because we all ended up pretty strong. Although I didn't weigh much, I was weak when I left school.
I was doing weights and stuff anyway, but all the gardening stuff kind of finished by the time I was about 14. So, we didn't have to do, you know, the garden was pretty much done. It was a nice garden.
I just, yeah, it was kind of, it was pretty much completed by that time. And all the rooms were pretty much inside completed right by that time as well. So, from 1979 to 1984, so what's that, five years.
So, for four to five years, the house was pretty much, there was always something going on, it seemed. But, you know, my dad, because he was a he was an electrician, so he could do so many different things. Converted the bed, the outside toilet into a seating area for the kitchen.
It's, I did sometimes wonder, was I the only person to be sitting there eating my dinner, remembering that people used to do poos in that area, like maybe hundreds of poos, thousands, maybe over like a couple of hundred years, people were going in there and I didn't put me off my food, I just wondered, did anyone else think about it, but I don't think they did. They might have done, but that's just, that's the stuff that I think about.
So, he's very creative with what he did, I mean, put in a new kitchen, he put in radiators, he did everything that he could, he knocked through two rooms to make one and the ceiling only fell down twice, so that was pretty good.
He's just really, really good at all that stuff. The problem is, I never, I didn't enjoy it, I just didn't enjoy that thing. I mean, when I did, ironically though, he's, I don't know if irony is the correct word, but when I was ready to leave school, the year before, I would say probably, yeah, when I was 14, I did two weeks work experience in a builders, and I'm not sure if I asked to go into a builders, or if I just said, I don't care where you send me, just whatever, I don't remember.
But what I do remember, is loving it. Like loving, loving, loving, loving it. Every aspect of it, I loved.
The people, everyone involved, were lovely. And this was like a general builders, so they had carpenters upstairs, they had their own plaster, they had their own bricklayer. I don't know if the people, I guess everyone was probably self-employed, I don't know.
But the owner of the place was lovely, he put me on reception, and then he had me sorting out bricks in the yard, which I enjoyed. I would have hated doing it at home, but I enjoyed it doing there, because they seemed to appreciate me. I never needed much, just a pat on the head.
I'm pretty much just a puppy. Isn't it weird? Vinnie, Vinnie just started barking, but the alarm, the barking alarm seemed to have stopped him. I don't know what he was barking at though, because I looked at the camera on the door, there's no one there.
Can't hear anything, apart from the birdies singing in the trees. Oh yes, so this place, right, isn't it weird? I've just realized, just realized, that what I wanted, other than Vinnie to drink huge amounts of water right now, and then walk over and, oh no, I thought he was going to sit down and stare at me. Whenever we go out, and I say, and I kind of let him know, I say, do you want to go out?
And he runs over and drinks lots of water, so he's got plenty of wee wee in him.
That's all I needed. All I really needed was just a pat on the head. Good boy, there's a good boy.
I needed that, and I didn't get it when I was a kid, but I got it from them, and it wasn't like, here you good boy, no one was like tickling me under my chin or anything, but it was almost, I felt like they were showing respect, or they appreciated, maybe not respected, but appreciated what I was doing, and, although I wasn't doing much, but I don't know what it was, I mean I spent the day with the plasterer, I spent a day with the bricklayer, I spent another day with someone that was just clearing a house out, I spent a day, I spent various days with different people, with the carpenter, did I mention that?
So, and he made me some tonfus, I think they're called, they're basically what the American police used to use, they're like truncheons, but with a handle on the side, so he made me a couple of those, and I had them for years, they're gone now, but that's when I was doing karate, and I had nunchucks and stuff, and he just made them for me, it's lovely wasn't it?
And he said to me, the boss, he said, when you finish school, if you want to come and see me, and you know, maybe we can do some kind of apprentice scheme or something with you, if you want to come back. Now what I should have said, well not should have said, but what I could have said, but I didn't, so it doesn't matter does it? But I said yeah, I was up for that, and that was my plan.
So my plan was to leave school at the very first opportunity, that was always my plan, right from about three years old, and then I was going to go to them and get a job with them, and learn, learn a trade with them though, I wanted to work with them, for that company, because I liked everyone there, and the bricklayer lived across the road from me as well, so he was like a friend of the family, and so he was cool.
I didn't know him before, but my dad's known him for years, and he said hello to me, I mean I could have potentially been his apprentice, I didn't think about it at the time, because it cost practically nothing to take on an apprentice back then, you basically get an employee and pay very little for them, but it has to work for both, it has to work for the apprentice to come out of it with not just a skill, but a very well-paid job, you know if it's a building profession or something like that,
you know you go three years without hardly any money, training as an electrician or a plumber or whatever, but after that, that's when the money comes in, and so it needs to be good training, so I'm sure it would have been, but anyway what happened, I came to leaving school, and I was probably a few weeks away from like having to finish in, and I went into the, I went in there, into the the butchers, the builders, and had a chat with him, he said no there's no work, everything's dried up,
things aren't going very well, and then the next year the place closed, I remember the name of it, I think it was White's Builders, or Brown's Builders, White's, I think it was White's Builders, because ironically, not really, I'm using the word ironic a lot, the lady who worked there as a receptionist part-time, ended up working in a chip shop part-time, so I already knew her, because I spent two weeks with her, and she was lovely, and she like, and again not really ironic,
but her boyfriend was the brother of the lady that worked at a chip shop full-time, and then her son, again not ironic at all, because it was very hurtful for me, her son started dating a girl that I really liked, who worked at a chip shop, who I think I loved, and she started dating him, so her family was very well intertwined with that chip shop, she worked there, and her step-sister worked there full-time, and her step-daughter worked there full-time, or no she worked there part-time, I don't know,
they might have all got married, I don't know, I don't know, all I know is I loved her, I loved a lot of people, I loved her, she was, yep I loved her, but it doesn't matter, doesn't matter now, I mean, I think 87, I think 39 years is enough time to let it go, isn't it, do you think 39 years, should I, should I, should I, hey, still talking about it though, but yeah, I did ask her out, and she did say no, and I said why not,
she said I don't want to, I said why don't you want to, she said I don't have to explain myself to you, I said why don't you have to explain yourself to me, and she walked away, I don't think that, I don't think I gave a good impression, first impression, I don't know, plus she shouted back, perhaps next time you ask someone out, wear some trousers, yeah, it's a running theme, and I, I just remember that working in that place, the builders, just for two weeks, I really liked it,
but one of the downsides of living where I lived, is I lived in a tiny little, I was going to say pointless, but a tiny little town, tiny little town, and the only thing it had, really, other than like standard retail things, you know, like any town has, supermarkets and stuff had that, but what it did have was the docks, and there was a big factory that was there as well, so those were the two main employers, and there was a seaside vacation, I mean there was, there's also seasonal work as well,
so I say tiny little town, in case it wasn't, it's not a big town, but it was, it was very much busy in the summer, and there was a lot of pubs, a lot of hotels, for you know, holiday makers, the town, when I was a kid, was always full, like all the shops were full, it was near, I don't know what it's like now, but the last time I visited, I think every time I visited over the last 20 odd years, there's more and more charity shops opened up,
and more and more of the old shops, that used to be there, gone, it's, I think it's probably, there's more boarded up shops, I guess it's the same around the country, and the supermarkets are still there, yeah, the two, there's only two supermarkets, there's three, but the other one's outside of town, yeah, the one, one, two, three, three large, yeah, biggish supermarkets, two purposely built, so they're quite, they're probably the biggest ones, and then the other one has been there just forever, a Tesco, so it's quite big, but it's not really big,
you know, it's not a mini Tesco, but it's not big, big, if that makes sense, you know, it was big when I was a little kid, but now if I go in there, it's not, you know, just doesn't, it's got, hasn't got the size, I remember it, they had when I was little, and there's, in my memory, there are two co-op stores, which are also supermarkets, and both of those are out of town, there might be another one, there might be, just thinking, there are quite a few,
a lot of the pubs that used to be there are now closed, including the one I used to work at, I can't remember what it was, what was the pub I used to, it was a dodgy pub, it was weird, because it was connected to a decent hotel, it wasn't a five-star, but it was quite popular, and it was a nice hotel, probably a three-star hotel, possibly, nice restaurant, had its own bar, but the pub, next to it, that was connected to it, and you could get to it from the,
from the hotel as well, was a dive, it wasn't, I mean, the actual place, the structure was fine, the, the seating, you know, it's very, it's very dark actually in there, bearing in mind we were opposite the seafront, you'd think it'd be a bit brighter, but it was, it was a pub for local people, it really was, it wasn't somewhere for holiday makers, I'm sure people on holiday would go in there, but there was a lot of local people that had, it was, yeah, it had that, um, it wasn't friendly,
had an unfriendly vibe, and it had an unfriendly reputation, which is a shame, because, you know, I think with the right, I say with the right staff, I don't know, if you, you can, I'll give you an example, what I'm trying to get at, is, that was a complete, that was a bit of a dive, and it was rough, and I worked there, and my only experience really of a bar was cheers, like on TV, and I thought, all bars should be like that, weird, weirdly enough, it's not realistic,
is it, and all the pubs, I mean, there's a pub at the end of the road, where I used to live when I was a kid, so I'd go in there a little bit when I got sort of 17, 16, 17, and that was all right, but it was all my friends' dads were in there, and we kind of got served, sometimes, depending who was on the bar, and sometimes we just, the adults would buy the drinks, and just pass it down to us, and we'd be on the table, hidden away,
but it was an okay pub, it was all right, you know, it was kind of, it seems weird for me, because I think of, like this is a holiday destination, not a popular one, but I don't know if there are any popular ones anymore, um, I don't know, because Blackpool used to be pretty much at the top of the list, but so did Southend, so did Clacton, hugely popular at the end of the war, like in the 50s, 60s, 40s, maybe, and maybe even 70s, 80s, I don't know how,
when they started to become less popular, but Blackpool, when I was a kid, I thought, I wanted to go to Blackpool, because all these famous people on TV, um, like Little & Large, and Cannon & Ball, that had their own TV shows, used to do seasons in Blackpool, just had to have another argument with Vinnie, about moving this thing away from the metal bar, he's really got a thing about, he just likes to bang things on metal, apparently I should get him a drum kit, or something, oh, he makes me laugh,
I don't know what life would be like without him now, because it's been over three years, nearly three and a half years that I've had him, and I don't know, I can't quite remember, because there was that period between Andre and him, and I kind of, it wasn't a long period to be fair, because I lost Andre 2021, in May, and in December 2022, he popped up, I think, was it 2023, no 2022, then 2023, no it's December 2022, then then 2023, yeah, yeah, okay, just trying to work out my,
my month, my years, and my months, so yeah, December 2022, 23, 24, 25, and now we're in halfway through April, fourth month, five months, so it's basically one more month, and it'll be three and a half years, and it again, it doesn't feel that long, see, to me, three and a half years, like saying it, I think, oh, that's quite a long time, you know, you wouldn't want to be sitting in a bath, I don't just, you want to do anything constantly for three and a half years, would you, imagine,
you know, having to eat the same pizza for three and a half years, I can't think of an example, but I'm just thinking like, it seems like a period of time, I mean, if I did not cut my hair for three and a half years, should I do it, actually thinking about it, that's one way to avoid ever getting into another relationship, like you need any more help, imagine how wild my hair and my beard would be, three and a half years, it would be nutty, like it would be sticking out,
it would be absolutely wild, and obviously the bald patches would show more, because my hair was long, sticking out, unless I put it into like a ponytail and covered up the bald bits at the back, my hair would just be like static, sticking up, it almost goes into, I've got super curly hair when it gets longer, might be, if you've seen what I look like, it might be hard to believe, but yeah, proper curly, especially at the sides, and at the back, and at the front as well, really curly,
big old mess, and if I grew my beard, especially as my beard is pretty much nearly all grey now, it's not completely grey, but it is predominantly grey, three and a half years, I don't know what would I look like, should we do it, three and a half seems a bit random though, doesn't it, should we do it for a year, I did think about doing that in January, like I'm not going to have a shave or cut my hair for a year, just see what happens,
because I did leave it during a period of time when I had to wear a mask a few years back, and my beard got massive, like proper, proper massive, huge in fact, it was sticking right out, but I didn't have a fully grey beard though, I had some greys in it, but it was still quite dark, I suppose I could dye it though, couldn't I, get some just for men or whatever it's called and dye my hair, could dye it ginger or I could dye it blue,
because then if it's blue or green or yellow, people will know that I've dyed it, let's say if I dye it pink, people will know that I've dyed it pink obviously, but they won't know that I'm grey, that way people won't be laughing at me, yeah that sounds like it's correct, I don't know, should I just let everything go wild, just let my my head just, just let the hair just do what it wants to do, just for a year, because I did think if I did that,
it would eventually get long enough to tie back into a ponytail and it would be tidy, and I could put straightener in it as well, which I never really, didn't really know about when I had long hair before, so I could put straightener on my hair so it's just straight, that sounds like the most pointless sentence doesn't it, I could put straightener on my hair so it's straight, I want to go and sit down so that I'm seated, which is like, I want to get up so I'm standing up,
I'm gonna go walk in the kitchen because that's where I want to be, it's, I don't know, it could be an interesting option, could be, could be ridiculous, but I mean, would anyone notice, and if I did it just for a year, let's say if I started, I don't know, maybe if I just did it for the rest of this year until next April and see what happens, see how big I can get, see how bushy and ridiculous it can be, I'm, I've got, I'm not even got a semi,
I'm semi excited about the idea, but I'm going to look ridiculous, like really bad, at the moment I just look you know, just like, instead of, I'm just, you know, it's like, okay, we just, we can tolerate him, but that might be too much for the locals, seeing me walking around with this huge beard dragging off the floor, literally sweeping the floor as I walk along, and my hair like some kind of mad scientist from the past, I don't know, could be fun, could be, could be the making of me,
when was the last time I heard someone say that to me, this could be the making of you, I don't know, an old English saying that is, this could be the making of you, usually it means that, you know, someone's going through a really hard time, this could be the making of you, trying to spin a positive, yeah but I've got no house now, could be the making of you, but I've no longer got a head, this could be the making of you, I'm stuck in space, it could be the making of you,
yeah, I'm confused, here's why, apparently the astronauts that have just come back from space, well first of all, I thought that they were going to the moon, when you say we're going back to the moon, we haven't been there since 1972 right, were you expecting them to go and to land on the moon, I was, that's what going back to the moon means, it's like me saying I'm going to go back to Belgium, get a ferry there and not get off the ferry, and just travel back on the boat,
that's not going to Belgium, I mean technically it is, technically I'm in the Belgian border of the sea and it's, but I'm not in Belgium, it's not really the same is it, as getting off the boat and having a little wander around, seeing if that lady's still in the window from 37 years ago, probably, probably not actually, it's not weird to think all those people that I knew back then, all those people that I knew that were old, who were my age, that seemed old anyway to me,
and now you know like there was a bloke called Budgie, Budgie they used to call him, lovely bloke, and he was a supervisor in the factory that I worked in when I was 18, and he'd come up and say do you want to do some overtime Jason, I said yeah cool, always did overtime whenever he asked me, and he always came back, you know they always favoured people who said yes, mess them about and they don't bother, but I was happy, I had nothing else to do, so, but he was probably,
I mean he might have been in his 40s but he looked like he was in his 50s to me, which means now it'd be what 50, 60, 70, 80, it'd be nearly 90 years old now, or 85, 85 years old, 86, 87, he's probably not working here anymore either, well I know he's not because the whole company felt like dissolved, ironically this is something, I worked for the same firm as my dad twice, it's true, three times if you include the hotel that he used to do work for,
because I worked there, but that's probably not, doesn't really count because my dad was self-employed, but I worked in the factory that made meters, my dad used to work there, he worked there, he worked at the one in London, and then when he moved away to move to the town that I was living in, he transferred to work at the factory there, he was basically an electrician in that factory, looking after everything, and he wasn't working there anymore, but I ended up working there a few years later afterwards,
I think he stopped working there when he was, when I was about seven I think, when I first moved up, or maybe when I was eight, he might have been working there when I first moved up, and then he went self-employed, I don't know the exact process, but I ended up working there as well, but a different time, and then there was another place on the docks, where he was an electrician on the docks with his firm, and I worked for the same company, but I was in the office,
and that was weird because people would come in and be making fun of me, or be making fun of my dad, to me, which was out of order, as you can imagine, it's like I was, I was, what was I, was I 18, was I 18 by then, I think I was 18, and yes 1989, so I was 18, January 89, and or February, and these lorry drivers were like saying stuff about my dad, I was like, I really had to control my mouth, because these were, there was a lot of them,
and they were all twice my size, but I was like, and then you would have thought that I'd got my own back, because I messed up their wages, it wasn't on purpose, firstly, why did they put me in charge of the wages, when I was clearly really bad at the job, like really bad, and but they did, so hey, I did it, did my best, but it turned out, because they didn't get the proper overtime, but it also turned out that they were trying to trick me,
because the manager of the office went off ill, for months and months, so I was left in there on my own, I'd only been there a few weeks, and occasionally like another manager would come in for the day, one day a week or something, from a different office, and so I was left on my own to do this stuff, I didn't really know what I was doing, so the, some of the lorry drivers were taking advantage, and they were getting their TECO cards, I think they were doctoring the TECO cards,
or something like that, it's a long, long time ago, but I didn't know, because there was a, it was, it's been a legal thing for a long time, you can only drive for a certain amount of hours, and it's, it's a TECO card system, I'm sure it's all digital now, but they were literally cards, and they would give me hours, saying they'd done hours that they hadn't done, and then they'd come in and moan, because I hadn't paid them for those hours that they hadn't done, and I'd get different hours,
from the head office saying, or hours they'd actually done, and so there was all this uproar, and I think everyone agreed that I was just really bad at the job, one lorry driver was really angry with me, and, but hey, I just apologised, I said look, I'm sorry, I don't know what I'm doing, that's something that I've noticed over the years, especially when I was younger, people seemed to have a problem with me saying, I don't know, and I realised that we're not supposed to say that we don't know,
we're not supposed to, for some reason, we're not necessarily supposed to say that we don't know, or admit to it, I did, if I didn't know something, I'd say I didn't know it, what's the point in blagging, making it up, well I had a supervisor, wow, this was in the first insurance job I had, and whenever I asked him a question, he always asked me to basically answer the question back, and I realised this because he didn't know what the question, he didn't know what the answer was, he was just a blagger,
so basically he was working for a little insurance company, which was a bit dodgy, a bigger insurance company came along and bought it, and then an even bigger company came along and bought it, so he was a supervisor in the original dodgy company, he kept his job as a supervisor with the other company that took over, and then a really big company took over and he kept his job as a supervisor, and he wasn't terrible at what he did, I mean he's better than what I've done,
I never got to become a supervisor, but he blagged it, and he got other people doing his work, other people that wanted to be supervisors, he got them doing his paperwork and stuff like that, it's clever the way he did it, but someone else that also worked with him, ended up, someone that, I ended up working actually at the company, because the bloke that sold his company to the medium company, opened up another insurance company up the road, a new one, basically his, the way he did business was,
he'd start a new company, build it up, then sell it, and that's what he did, over and over again, he had a helicopter company, he had so many different companies, he just kept starting and just selling them, and so he was a very rich man, and the thing is, right, this bloke, one of the, yeah, when I started working for that next, this is a second insurance company, and people used to say don't go work there, because that's dodgy, that's where they just, they're not very ethical when it comes to selling and,
but luckily, someone that I used to work with, was working there, and he got me a job, and a supervisor, or the assistant supervisor of the sales department, used to work for the old company, so the bloke, he's getting confusing isn't he, but he took quite a few of his own staff with him, when he left, and then again, another company bought that company, so I worked, I worked there for about three and a half years or something, was it started, so August 2004, until May or June 2007, so nearly,
nearly three years, I like working there actually, I like that place, but it was, yeah, it was, it was, it was on its way to close down, so I just, I don't feel bad leaving, and you know, going and doing a degree, in fact, you know, that's the one thing I wouldn't change, I think, I'd love, in a way, I'd love to go and do a degree now, but not online, online doesn't really suit me, I need to sort of, although I like to be on my own, well, I,
I appreciate my solitary, you know, when it comes to things like working, or studying, I want to be around people, I want to be in a class, ideally, the bigger the better, really, the more people the better, because there's more chance of being able to sort of, build some friendships and relationships, and I think, I don't know, and working, and, you know, doing what I used to do in a call centre, but doing that from home, I wouldn't have enjoyed that, I don't think, yeah, there's something about going to a different environment,
and then just leaving it, and then going home, and I mean, I haven't really appreciated the weekends, pretty much, since I've stopped working, the weekends aren't, I do look forward to some Saturdays, because of the boxing and stuff, but that whole kind of going home on a Friday, after a busy week, that feeling of just getting home, and you know, the Saturday, although I didn't necessarily enjoy the Sunday, because I started to think about the job I had to go to, if I was doing sales, and when I was doing the compliance,
I didn't think about the job at all, until I got there, because I liked, I liked it, I liked the job, it was, it was quite satisfying, actually, it was quite a good job, low paid, but it was all right, I liked it, so my weekends were good at that point, because I'd look forward to the weekends, but I had all my evenings free, it was, yeah, kind of perfect for me at the time, this is between 2006, 2006, January 2006, I was working in compliance, and the June, May,
June time, I think it was the end of June, 2007, 2007, that was the best time of my, one of the best times of my working life, in some ways, in a sense of being, being quite good at the job, yeah, I would say I was fairly good at the job, I was, I'm trying to think of the word, it's not complacent, competent, yeah, I was pretty competent at what I was doing, and I felt quite, yeah, I would say I felt confident with what I was doing as well,
but I do wonder, you know, if I'd have gone down the route as, I mean, I don't know, can you, can you be a general builder, because then you'd have to know everything, wouldn't you, unless you're like as labourers, I suppose, or someone that works on a, a truck driver, you know, a forklift, not forklift driver, what is the diggers, diggers, stuff like that, so I guess you don't need an apprenticeship to, to learn to use a digger, I don't know, I don't know what, they do, I know you have to,
you need a lot of skill, I know that for sure, which I'm not, I'm not, I'm not demeaning the job, because I know people that use forklifts, and people that use those kinds of equipment, cranes, stuff like that, phenomenally skillful, and they deserve to get paid well, because not only what they do, it's extremely dangerous, but it's, it's almost like, it's going to sound weird, right, I think I would prefer to watch a crane moving a big piece of concrete from the ground onto the top of a building,
than watch any Olympic event, for skill, which sounds ridiculous, because, you know, people at the Olympics, they train sometimes, their whole life, from the age of like 3 to 16, 17, to get to the point where they can apply to go to the Olympics, and they've mastered that skill, but I just find it way more interesting to watch a crane worker manipulate something that's so big and heavy, and ultimately could be disastrous, if they didn't do the job properly, if they didn't know what they were doing, and the precision,
just like forklift drivers, I just, I watched them in awe, when I used to, when I've worked in factories, it's like, how on earth, can you be so confident in the way that they could pick stuff up, and move the pallet around, even just pushing the pallet in a little bit, when it's sticking out, because I worked in a lot of places, factories, where they had forklifts, I was just, I just found it amazing, I just thought, how do you do that, I know they learn to do it, but it's just,
there seems to be an extra, almost like extra sense going on, it's not just about learning to drive, not just learning to manoeuvre it, there's more to it, it's almost like the forklift becomes a part of their body, you know, they turn into a, I don't know, some kind of forklift, forklift Dalek or something, but it's like it's, it's like another hand, you know, almost like they're touching, they're picking up the pallet with their hand, and they're manoeuvring it, so they've got it right in, and it's almost like they can feel,
like the forks of the forklift, it's almost like it's two fingers, and they can, they can feel it, that it's the right way, that it's in far enough, I just, that stuff, for some reason, it's fascinating me right now, and diggers, being able to like dig a hole, and you know, you might say, oh dig a hole, it's just a hole isn't it, just a hole man, just a hole, yeah, but remember they're digging, they have to be very careful what they dig, how far they dig, what they're digging for,
where they put the stuff, and you can, I've seen people, I know it's on YouTube, so it's not necessarily true, but I've seen people with those, the diggers, I forget what they call them, they're basically, they dig don't they, they use them to dig stuff, and they can so gently move the the diggy bit around, the diggy, you know, the things with the forks, that goes into the ground, and they can move that around so carefully, that they can lift something off the ground, that's very, very fragile, and yeah,
I find stuff like that fascinating, yeah, I don't know why, I wish I didn't, but you said you don't know, no, I wish I did, but you said you don't, you don't know why, and then you said you wish you, you wish you didn't, you can't not know why, and then not know why as well, it's the same thing, it's not what I meant, it's not what I meant, last night I watched the very, very last episode of Minder, and I didn't know it was, so I'm watching it,
it was on at nine o'clock, and this is a tv show that used to be on in the 90s, so the 80s and the 90s, and it's basically about a dodgy character called Arthur Daly, and he was, I forget what, is it a spiff, or there was a certain word for it, where he'd buy and sell stolen goods, and just dodgy, dodgy as you like, just proper dodgy, in every, every way you could imagine when it came to business, and he had a minder who would be something that would look after him called Terry McCann,
and it was a really big successful tv show in the 80s, and then I'm not sure when, but Terry left, and his name was Dennis Waterman, but Terry left, and they brought in a new actor who was cast as Arthur Daly's nephew, and he could do like martial arts and stuff like that, although having watched a few of the episodes, it doesn't really do that much really, there's, you know, in the early days of the show, there's quite a few punch-ups, but I think as it kind of moved away,
there was less of that, but what I did find is with, because I've been watching the ones with Terry during the day, if it's like, if I watch it during the day, if I watch the ones at night, it's the older ones, but some of the lines, some of Arthur Daly's lines in the later ones, are top-notch, like really funny, like really, it's like, wow, this is really good, good stuff, which makes you wonder why they got, why they finished the show, because it was funny, but I think they just,
it ran its course, you know, I think it had 10 series, or 10 seasons, and I was watching it last night, and I was thinking, something was niggling me, because right near the end, they started playing some music, which wasn't a normal music, it was all soppy, soppy music, like, and I thought, that's the kind of music that EastEnders plays at the end, when one of the characters is getting into a taxi to leave forever, you know, and I'm thinking, okay, so I'll get the TV, right, the TV remote,
click on it to see the description, and it was the final episode of Blinder ever, and I was like, wow, I don't remember it ending like this, in fact, I don't remember it ending, I know it did end, but I don't remember it ending, because it was, you know, such a long time ago, but I was pretty faithful to it, I watched it right from, maybe not the start, because I might have been too young to watch it from the start, but I watched, I probably wouldn't have been too young,
but it was on for 10 years, so whether or not I was, well, yeah, I might not have been allowed to watch it when I was 12, but I'm pretty sure it kind of came to an end by about 92, 93.
I might be wrong, it might have started in 85, went on to 2000, 1995, but I could search, but it involves opening the laptop, oh, I could look on my phone, let's have a look, it just means, oh, Minder, Minder TV show, right, oh, that's interesting, 10 series between October 1979 and March 1994, 84, 94, so they, obviously, they had some gaps, didn't they, had some gaps, how interesting, so Dennis Waterman, Terry McCann, the Minder, was in series one to seven, George Cole, Arthur Daly was in season series one to 10,
oh, and Glyn Edwards, Patrick Malahide was in series, oh, I see, series 11, there was a series 11 with Shane Ritchie and Lex Shrapnel, I wonder if that's on the internet, because I've never heard, I've never, I don't remember that, but series 10, Gary Webster was in series eight to 10, and that was Arthur Daly's nephew, now Glyn Edwards, I'm pretty sure, it's saying here that he was in season one to six, that don't sound right, because I literally watched the very last episode, and I think Glyn Edwards is the the barman in the club,
and he was definitely in it last night, because he's, he got arrested, he was in the last episode, plot, cast and characters, Terry McCann, Arthur Daly, really, Ray, so Ray is, oh, that's Ray, that's, okay, Ray, that's the nephew, why is, why are they not other characters, really, why haven't they got Arthur, Ruby, Rula Leninska, played a number of roles in the show, but she was married to Dennis Waterman, Archibald Archie Daly, oh, okay, it was a revival, right, so that's gonna, that's annoying me, not annoying me, but it's like,
Glyn Edwards, right, Glyn Edwards, oh, he's not with us anymore, he worked in television and films, he came to prominence in the portrayal of the barman Dave Harris in Minder, 1979 to 1994, so he was in the show, filmography, right from the start to the end, I'm pretty sure, 1979, television, 1979, I did see him, actually, I saw him in a TV show, I think it was the Avengers in the 60s, and 1979, Minder, so he was in it, he was in 95 episodes, including the final appearance, so, I mean,
he probably wasn't in every single episode, because some of the episodes didn't have, they weren't at the club, so there was a couple of episodes where the barman actually went missing, or he went missing for one episode, there's also a couple of episodes where, or a few, where Arthur Daly was in Australia, so Dave wasn't there, the barman wasn't there with them there, so he wasn't in all of, every single episode, but he was in quite a few, to be fair, how strange, Dennis Moreman, 1 to 7, George Cole, Arthur,
1 to 10, Glenn Edwards, Patrick Malahide, okay, oh, blimey, partial filmography, partial, see, George Cole, who played Arthur Daly, was in the Centriniads, Centrinians, I think, he was in a lot of those old, old movies, from the, he was in movies from the 1940s onwards, is it the 60s, blimey, he did quite a few movies, oh, right, here we go, so he was in the pure hell of Centrinians in 1960, called Flesh Harry, Flesh Harry, and so he was in, yeah, another one, the Great, the Great Centrinians, Train Robbery,
Flesh Harry again, and, okay, and then in 1979, so that was in 70, 1979, he was in Minder, it doesn't say how many episodes he was in, I mean, he was in all of them, wasn't he, I mean, but it doesn't say how many episodes there were, he also did an episode in 1985, called Minder on the Orient Express, and it's a television film, which has him and Terry, oh, his first broadcast, Christmas Day 1985, as the highlight of that year's ITV Christmas schedule, wow, so it had Terry and Arthur doing,
what were they doing, okay, I know they're on a train, why do I remember the train bit, oh, yeah, Minder on the Orient Express, yeah, so they end up on a train, and, yeah, it's got a gap in capers and all kinds of stuff, I saw it recently, or a part of it, either it was on telly, or it was on YouTube, and I thought, oh, because I don't remember seeing it when it was first on, but then that was Christmas 1985, Christmas 1985, I don't know, that was the very last Christmas,
that was the very last family Christmas, and not even all the family were there, like, you know, as far as the childhood Christmas went, I think, yeah, so, it was, yeah, it was a bit of a, it was still a nice Christmas, but it was just different, so I don't remember, I can't remember what we'd watch on TV, I mean, my dad liked to watch James Bond movies, and I don't remember if I watched the TV movie, you know, I might have done, I might have watched the Orient Express one,
but it's a long time ago, can you imagine how amazing it would be, and it's such an old cliche, but to have the knowledge, but to be sort of 17, 15, 16, to have the freedom, so maybe 18, you know, so you've got no one telling you what to do, hopefully, but to have the knowledge, because if I'd known, especially now with the internet, I'd just probably just start this Let Me Bore You To Sleep, and then just spend the next 40 years doing it, maybe trying to get out the house a bit more often,
so I've got something to talk about, but I've been doing the Let Me Bore You To Sleep for eight years now, and the other hypnosis stuff for 20 years, but I do still kind of wish that I'd started earlier, you know, back in, well, I suppose 2000, when I first got into the internet, I, you know, started building websites, I'm sure there was a way that people could have downloaded recordings, audio recordings, I could have done it, just didn't know, I didn't think about doing it really, it's not totally true,
I did kind of think about it, but I didn't know what I was going to do, and I didn't know, I didn't really have the confidence, or the experience, to know what I would, you know, what I would do, and it's only really because I uploaded a couple of videos to, not Facebook, but the other place, um, the other, the original social media place, platform, that, and I got so much positive feedback, and I was getting thousands of people watching, or thousands of plays rather,
and that kind of gave me a little bit of a boost to continue, so I kind of, yeah, I do, I kind of wish I'd started a bit earlier, but also I don't know, I think I might have spread out a little bit too thin at times, doing too many different things, too many different podcasts, maybe a bit more, a bit too much choice, I don't know, I mean, I've even tried to kind of reduce the amount that I make, so that I don't do six versions of each recording,
but every time I've kind of gone to do that, someone contacts me and said, oh, I prefer these ones, I prefer these ones, you know, some people like the recordings without music, some people like the recordings that are long, like really long, sometimes they like the five hour ones, or the ones without, you know, it's, everyone's got their, you know, their own um, got their favorite kind of format, I guess, so I just try and try and cater for everyone, it's just like the reason I've still got my SoundCloud accounts,
because some people only listen on SoundCloud, and I don't, you know, I don't want to take that away, because I did delete them a couple of times, I deleted them a while back, and I get quite a few people contact me, so I reinstated them, and managed to get the stuff back, but, yeah, man, yeah, yeah, so I do believe it's time for me to go and get myself some food in a minute, in a minute, in a minute, in a minute, minute, minute, minute, minute, minute, minute, in a minute,
so I'm hoping, hope, hopedy, hopedy, that things will work out for this weekend, and I started taking the medication from the dentist, and there's 10 tablets, so I'm just going to take two a day for the next five days, and that should sort it out, I mean, it feels okay, to be fair, it's hardly not really, it's a little bit sensitive, that's it, so I think it was already reducing anyway, because when I was in the, in the, in the chair, and the lady was saying, where does it hurt,
I said, it doesn't really, why are you here then, because it was, but it's not now, no, so what are we supposed to do, I said, I don't know, poke it maybe, with a metal edge, just poke around, which is exactly what she did actually, I didn't say that to her, she just decided to do that herself, started tapping on the, on the tooth, tapping on the gum, until she found a nice sensitive part, so, oh, does that hurt, no, does that hurt, no, what about that, a little bit,
a little bit, okay, should we do it again, no, you haven't got to do it again, it's fine, we've established that that's possibly slightly sensitive, so, yeah, tomorrow is Thursday, and I don't have, have any, any plans for Thursday, but I would like to probably, yeah, get some laundry done, and have a bit of a tidy up, it's time to have a tidy up in this place, so maybe get a bit of vacuuming completed, if I can, and move some of this stuff off this, these desks, give myself a bit more space,
but other than that, no, I think tomorrow, it's just going to be, yeah, I mean, Friday, I've been offered to stay over a friend's house, either the Friday night, or the Saturday evening, so, Friday before my dad's birthday, or the Saturday evening after, but I've only got, I've got someone saying that they'll look after Vinnie for the day, on Saturday, and I don't know whether they'd look after him in the evening, like Friday evening, and all day Saturday, or all day Saturday, and Friday evening, although that would be no good for me,
because traveling on a Sunday is not easy, so I definitely would probably be a Friday, and then, because I want to get, I want, there's boxing on Saturday night, and I do want to watch it, so it's, I'd like to get home Saturday evening, and I'm leaving very early in the morning, so if like, if I can leave about two or three in the afternoon, and get home by seven, that'd be good, six, six ideally, but yeah, so it's probably going to take three hours, four hours, I don't know,
however long to get back, so, you know, as we've got waiting around for the trains and stuff, so yeah, I'll just, so tomorrow I'll do a bit of laundry, a bit of cleaning up, Friday, kind of the same, he's making some very strange noises, and he's gone back to playing with the bone thing, right near the metal bar, it's just under the table, keeps bringing it back, he's having fun though, he seems happy, I'll be doing Q&A Friday, on Friday, I've got some questions, if you've got any more, that's brilliant,
I'll take as many as you got, I also intend to make a recording, and Let Me Bore You To Sleep tomorrow as well, it's weird, but this time of the day, so it's now half past seven, this period seems to be the quietest period to make recordings, the only problem for me is I've been up since early, so I wake up early in the morning, but I started to yawn, I didn't yawn till then, this is the first time I've yawned, and even though the dog's been barking, there's been a bit,
I kind of stopped talking, and I do my best to edit that out, even though it's not like hugely loud, it just means it takes a bit longer to edit, so I'm not sure if I will edit this tonight, or edit in the morning, I probably will edit it tonight, and then with the Q&A Friday, I'll have to make that in the morning, I was just talking there, and Vinnie started banging the thing on the metal bar that sort of separates the desk, and I looked down and he's running off,
he's like almost, as soon as he made the noise, he knew he better get away, he looks so happy, I love it, I love seeing him happy, the thing that seems to make him happiest is just chewing on a bone, or you know something like a bone, he just likes to chew things, hardly any interest in toys at all, he loves sleeping in bed, he loves that bed, and he likes to go out, but he's you know, he's not really, he hasn't got like his special friend as a toy,
just not bothered, that's all, he's got a pile of toys, he doesn't go near them, literally a pile, look at him now, and he's not interested in them, they haven't moved around, they're just still stuck in a pile, but he's got a big pile of bones and stuff, he keeps them in a pile, separate, so I've made that pile of toys, which I need to kind of go through and put them somewhere else, he's created a pile of his bones and chews and stuff, which are kind of just underneath the desk,
or around the desk, so yeah, that's pretty much me done, I'm gonna go, I think I'm gonna have a sandwich, a nice cheese and tomato sandwich, and a cup of tea, a cup of tea, and that's, yeah, that's it pretty much, so thank you for listening, remember to be kind to yourself, because you do deserve to be happy, and be gentle with yourself, you deserve to feel safe, lots of love, bye, bye. you
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