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Hello and welcome to let me bore you to sleep. Oh wow. My name is Jason Newland.
Yes. Jason Newland. Oh, okay.
So, oh blimey. I wasn't even yawning before I started this. Although I did have an early start today.
I went to bed at seven last night and got up at three. So, yeah, I made a recording. I did my latest one in the old break free from control and manipulation.
Today I did guilt used as control. So it's the 1st of June 2026. Please only listen.
Well, you can safely close your eyes. So I have a website Jason Newland.com. I've gotten rid of the Jason Newland.store. I've not got rid of I've not got rid of the store, but I'm in the process of transferring the website to Shopify. So that you can download all of my recordings.
It's just taking a bit of time. It might be another day or so before it's solid. Because I didn't really see.
Didn't see much point having both. Especially financially. Because, you know, I didn't just have both.
I did two domains I'm paying for and two websites I'm paying for. So I thought, OK, I'll get rid of one website. Get rid of one domain.
Keep the Jason Newland.com, which is what I've had for decades. And hopefully within a day or two. It should all be fine and set up.
I mean, I've had it before. I've used Shopify as my main website before. And if you're not sure what that means, like what you mean, Shopify is your website.
And basically it just with a domain name, but not everybody's going to know this with a domain name. It just points at our website. So you might use WordPress or someone might use.
Lots of different, you know, different website builders or they might build a website themselves using code, which I used to. In the past. So, yeah, and the Jason Newland.store domain name was about, well, in two days, they're going to charge me 50 quid for another year or 50 plus VAT, whatever that is.
And I thought. I'm not going to, you know, I want to keep Shopify because I've got thousands of recordings on there. But at the same time, I also want to keep Jason Newland.com. So that's what I'm doing.
It might not work for a couple of days. And I'm in touch with Shopify, trying to explain to them the problems of it. So I've been trying to swap it over for weeks and it keeps timing out and giving me another code to then put into my domain name DNS, which is basically the code, which then transfers it, directs it towards the website.
And I kept putting that extra, that new code in and it was just timing out. So in the end, I focused, I focused, I contacted. Completely different word, isn't it? Focused and contacted.
Contacted Shopify directly and just said, look, I need help with this. And they said, it's all fine. It's definitely set up correctly from the domain perspective to aim at Shopify.
And if there's a problem, they'll sort it out on their end. So it should be fine. Hopefully tomorrow or the day after.
And if it's not done by tomorrow, I will contact them because they said, leave it for 48 hours and get back to us if it's not working properly, which is what I'll do. And I have been working on the store for a few years, actually, really. But this was the last few months.
I mean, if I look at the, if I actually go, oh, I go to domains, I go to domains. Okay. It said need set up.
So I'm just going to ignore that for now. If I go to the website itself, so just come up as, I don't know what the Shopify name is. Let me have a look.
I can tell you if I click on it, just in case you want to say view store. So even though I've deleted the store, it's still coming up as jasonnewland.store. Even though I've deleted it, I've actually deleted the domain from it, but it's still using that, which means, I don't know. I don't know what it means, actually.
It's a little bit weird because, oh, it's saying expiry. All right. Expiring soon.
So two days it'll expire. That's very, very strange. I mean, this is primary.
I don't want that as a primary. So you could also go to jasonnewland.myshopify.com and it's jasonnewlandhypnosis.myshopify.com. I mean, you can still use a jasonnewland.store. That will expire in two days. It expires on the third.
Maybe that's what's stopping it connecting. I don't know. But I'm a little bit behind for the Let Me Boyd You Sleep recordings.
I've got up to 1615 compared to one. I think, what is it? The last one I did was 1621. So it's only six.
So I'm a little bit behind. Just a little bit. But what I have done is instead of letting people choose lots of different like having short, long, whatever.
I've now got it so that you can literally click on a podcast. Let's say 1615 and you can download all six versions. So all six are on there.
It's not available for all of the recordings. Going back. But I'm still in the process of like updating all this stuff.
So it's going to take a while. It's going to take a few months, probably before it's all like properly up to date. But it's getting there.
Eventually, it's getting there. In fact, let me just check this because it's going to click on that to see. Products, collections.
Shorts. That's very weird. What's going on there? Collections.
All right. OK. So let me bore you to sleep.
Where are you? Let me bore you to sleep. So I need to just get rid of the OK, right. Now, let me just see the recent one.
Let me bore you your pain away. That was the wrong one all along. It was the wrong one.
I don't even know my own podcasts. Let me bore you to sleep. OK.
So. So I've actually got. Lots.
How many of them have I got? No, it's not telling me. I think it would do, wouldn't you? There are lots, a lot, lot, lot, lot, lot of them. Like thousands.
Well, there's not 1,615 on there. There's probably about 10, 15 missing. Because I lost a couple along the way, but most of them are on there.
So let me click on the latest one. See if all six versions will be downloaded. Yeah, OK, good.
I think what I did in this case is I went backwards. I started at the end and then went back. So I'll be honest.
I don't know how far back I went. Because I spent ages doing it and then I stopped. And I need to get back into it again.
I just wasn't sure what I wanted to do with the store. I quite like the idea of having a store. But then.
Jason Newland dot com is. You know, I think for a lot of people, if they think of me. What my website is, it's that's what it is.
Jason Newland dot com. And I've mentioned it. So many times over the years that it feels a little bit.
It feels a bit silly to change it, you know, to get rid of it. Anyway, just let you know that I do have a YouTube channel. I'm also on Instagram X and TikTok.
And every day I upload a recording to those as well to TikTok X and Instagram. I'm not able to upload the full recording if it's over an hour because I only allow up to like 59 minutes. So if it's like a short recording, that's fine, but.
I don't, you know, I really do let me boy to sleep. It's less than an hour. So you can listen to the whole thing or you can download the whole thing on my podcast on my website, or you will be able to.
And you can also listen to the whole thing on YouTube on my YouTube channel. Which is something or other. I don't know.
It's called something. What's my YouTube channel, anyone? YouTube. It's YouTube.
Let me boy to sleep dash Jason Newland. See, yeah. Maybe that's the wrong name for it.
Maybe it should be sleep and hypnosis or whatever. I don't know. I'll be honest.
It's hard to really know. What to put down because I've done I do. I go through periods.
Where I do lots of different things like sometimes. I mean, for quite, quite a while, I was only doing to let me boy to sleep recordings. I mean, there was one point when I said, that's all I'm going to do.
I ain't doing nothing else anymore. Just to let me boy to sleep. And then I seem to like this is last year seem to.
I've got back into doing the hypnosis recordings. Even enjoying it, actually. So not that I dislike doing anything I do, I don't do anything I don't want to do.
Apart from maybe the editing not. If there's a lot of background sound, then the editing can be a bit of a bit of a. But you know, I've got the window closed, and I've got the curtains drawn over. On a really hot day like this, I've got the windows closed.
Blimey. But that side of things, it's very, it's time consuming. And because the internet's a little bit slow, you know, doesn't always kind of come off properly.
I could get a lot more done if the internet was fast. But then the problem with YouTube, I don't want to moan about YouTube, because if it weren't for YouTube, I wouldn't. I'm not saying I wouldn't have listeners, but YouTube is kind of my main place where I started.
I mean, I started on MySpace. But YouTube, that's where I grew. Especially in the early days, you know, sort of between 2007 and 2013.
So for about six years, my main focus, I'm still doing podcasts as well. But a lot of the time, it was just taking the audio from the video. And posting it on as a podcast.
So I was doing both at the same time, but my focus was YouTube. And yeah, so I've got a lot to be thankful for, for YouTube, you know, I've still got people listening to me now that were listening to me 20 years ago. And you might think that's just a blatant lie.
And it might be. It might be a lie. And although I do have someone listening to me, they said to me recently that they've been watching me or listen to me for a long, long time.
In fact, let me have a look at this. Should we just look at comments? View posts? No comments. Published, published.
Most relevance, newest. It should give me an opportunity to have a look. And I want to find it because I want to read it to you.
I've got a lot of stuff from from I'm not I can't even read. It's basically Sebastian. He gives himself these names that I can't read out.
Right. That's a weird, I can't believe how many he sends me. He does write a few messages.
Basically, what he's out to do is try to sabotage what I do. So maybe I might even be popular if it wasn't for him. Trying to kind of, I don't know.
Someone did say that to me once. They said, you got to get rid of him. You got to get him off your channel because he's just sabotaging you.
And I like to think he's not doing it for that purpose. But I don't know. Because everything he writes is rude.
I do find some of it funny, to be honest. This is MKA 70. How on earth do you manage to record all this? Okay.
Why on earth do you record all this? Love them videos really helps. Thank you. Oh, blimey.
I'm trying to find it. It keeps taking me back to the first page. Jason, I just found you, your app on Spotify now.
I was going off to sleep and I was so interested in hearing your life. I stayed awake. Oh, thank you.
Right. Sebastian, Sebastian, Sebastian, Sebastian. Okay.
I keep going back again. I can't find it. It's literally, it's not allowing me to scroll up.
Or to scroll down. Yeah, scrolling down. Because there's so many messages.
It's not that I get lots of messages. Just, you know, over time does add up. Especially with Sebastian.
I had a really nice message there. Here is one. This is good.
Jen dash QX9KL. Hey, Jason. I happened across your videos here on YouTube a few weeks ago.
You're helping me through what is really a bleak period of my life right now. I'm bipolar and in a deep depression. Much love and thank you.
So I did thank you. That was a month ago. So that was a nice message.
Hope that Jen is feeling better. Okay, this is, this is Sebastian Gay. Sebastian again, sorry.
Freudian slip there, sorry. Sebastian again, again, again. It's got different names sometimes.
Yay, here is it. Look, look. Yayahound1912.
The best beddy-bye podcast hands down. That's for the Let Me Boyd Sleep. Jason has been my bed buddy for a long time now.
Such a kind soothing voice. Hugs across from the pond. Love to Vinny.
Oh, thank you. I should read that a little bit. Such a kind and soothing voice.
Thanks. Thank you. Right, someone's written American Ninja.
So I don't know. You have a talent for this, Mr. Newland. Appreciate your videos.
Peace and good snooze from Australia. That's from Rachel. Right, okay.
This just, the odd person says great voice. And that's Laura M1875. Thank you.
MissRachel1709, your voice is amazing and not confusing at all. One minute in and already saved this to my sleep playlist. Peace and thanks from Australia.
That was for extreme deep and confusing sleep. I think that that's the most successful recording I've got on YouTube. Actually, for some reason.
I don't know what. All right. No, I can't find it.
I'm just, I don't know what's bugged me now. That's Sebastian again. I was about to go.
That's funny. Actually, I was about to create a recording with the same title. Hypnotist in training, noisy neighbors.
So that's Nicholas Ritter. So you do you make recordings as well? I tell you that's having noisy. Okay, this is my Monday boring objects today.
I'm going to talk to you. About making audio recordings. Yeah, it's weird.
I've never talked like I know do talk about it probably, but. I'm going to talk about the history of me making audio recordings. Okay, okay, okay.
Right. I just want to find if this is here. Christine, this three months ago for permission to pause.
This is my favorite one today. Most relaxing one ever. This is the one I will listen to most.
I usually like the music, but this one was pure sleep mode. Thank you. Oh, thank you for listening.
Thank you for your kind words. Let me have a look. Okay, I can't find it.
Someone did definitely leave me a message. Nope, can't find it. Oh, well, I gave it a good go.
Couldn't deny. But it might have been a year or two ago. I mean, time does seem to fly by.
Sometimes. Someone picky Jacob underscore the one says Jason, the boring guy. Thank you.
It's a bit rude. I'm not boring. How I don't even I mean, I do cook.
Okay, fair enough. Beck 630. Could you make another hypnosis for extreme nail biting? And that was left on the hypnosis stop now biting in 2017.
And I said, I shall take a look into it. And I think I did do one. I'm pretty sure it did.
Right. Okay. Again, more from Sebastien.
Sebastian. The Axel Rodriguez 424327. This is for the ASMR counting down to sleep.
Whisper hypnosis number 527. You freaking nailed it on this one. This is the formula.
Thank you, Jason. Thank you. That was five months ago.
Tina dot Lucille six months ago said, it's so weird that you have low individual view numbers on your videos, but a decent amount of subs and a high overall viewing count. Have you checked your analytics? Anywho, thanks for boring me to sleep. Well, actually.
Let me tell you what I saw. Right. Wow.
Jeremy Frost. Why ate you? It's written there. This is on the let me bore you to sleep 1483.
Six months ago. People don't realize Jason isn't intentionally talking slowly here. He actually needs to speed up his voice.
Times eight to achieve this result. God bless you in this in your struggle. And same person says great upload.
No one can bore a person quite like you. And that was for my Thursday throwbacks. I feel that those Thursday throwbacks kind of came to a bit of an abrupt end.
And something must have happened to interrupt the flow. I think. I found it.
I've found it at B I L L G 95. This was eight months ago. And the message left on let me bore you to sleep 1430.
1430. Oh, man. It's crazy.
I've just turned 30. And I feel like I've been watching you all my life. I remember the very early days.
Shame the hypnosis is going. But good to see you're planning for another 10 years. Take it easy, Jason.
All the best. So this is must. Yeah, this is must have been when I was talking about stopping doing hypnosis.
Anyway, let me show you this. This is something that I saw yesterday on YouTube. I'm a bit of an anomaly.
Anomaly. Anomaly. Monopoly.
I don't know. One of them. So if I look at analytics, right? Okay.
And. Oh, how many views reach Mike content? Well, basically what it said yesterday is. YouTube is frequently recommended my videos alongside other content.
Since my stuff focuses on sleep and relaxation. But what they said is very weird. Is.
That although I'm not getting like huge amounts. I mean, the last 28 days I've had 3000 views. I'm not getting huge amounts.
But. People are staying. So when people do visit, they stay.
For like up to an hour. So, you know, the viewers I am getting are. I say viewers like Liz, they listen.
Because obviously there are videos you can watch, but it's mainly just audio. And. I suppose.
So. One of the problems with my YouTube channel is I do different things. And that's.
Because, you know, ultimately I focus on. Sleep. Relaxation.
You know, with the let me boy to sleep and stuff, but. I'm also in the process of creating that new channel or the new not new channel with a new podcast. Breaking free from control and manipulation.
So it's. It's a continuous. I guess maybe that.
That being on YouTube might. I don't know, it might put some people off. The podcast or the YouTube channel thinking what's that got to do with sleep? So, yeah, I don't know.
It's it's it's it's one of them, you know, I mean. No, what's one of them? One of them. You know, one of them is not one of these, but one of them.
There's one of these that be easy. One of them. It's more profound.
What are you talking about? Exactly, no one knows. No one knows. I still get people.
Listening to my. Hispano. His hypnosis.
Para Dormir. Dofumentamente. Dofumente.
Profundamente. Yeah. Anyway, so yeah, so I'm not getting I get 3000 views.
Generally a month, which isn't much. Watch time in hours. 1.3 thousand.
Hours. And 16 plus subscribers. Estimated revenue one cent.
Sorry. That's funny. Well, one cent.
But. However, however. I'm not I'm not monetized.
I don't have any adverts with money. Adverts on my my YouTube channel. No, no.
I'm just going to figure out quickly how much 1.3 thousand hours is. 1300. Divided by.
24. OK. So.
It's 54.1 days. So pretty much every second of every day. Someone's listening to my YouTube channel.
They're on there. 1.3 thousand. Hours.
So I would say probably my hours is pretty good. Bearing in mind the views 3.000. I don't know. I don't know.
I think the way I see it is now. I need to just stop making changes. Keep everything as it is.
The YouTube channel is. It's just it does its own thing. I make a recording.
It uploads from the podcast host to YouTube automatically. It's been doing that for a long time. But in the past, I have tendencies of deleting things from YouTube, you know, trying to clean it up and tidy it up.
I mean, what I did yesterday was. What did I do? I thought because I did that little survey thing. On YouTube, it told me that.
I might get more listens or more views if I actually had playlists. Which is what I used to have. So what I've done is I've added an extra playlist.
Which is the break free from control and manipulation. I did that yesterday. There is 72 videos.
In fact, there's another four. But I need to add. I'll do that right now, actually.
Can you make a bit more noise, please, Vinnie? Thanks. So. All recent videos show all.
So what I'll do, I'll add the six that have just started uploaded today. And then add them to the playlist. People pleasing.
I'm not sure if I've got that. That's going to bug me now. I need to find out if I've got people pleasing on there.
So if I go to playlists, click on that. It's much easier if you could see what I was doing. But at the same time, it wouldn't be any more interesting.
I've clicked on videos. Why are you not coming up? Brilliant. Right.
Nothing showing. It's like there's no videos at all. Yet there was 74 a minute ago.
How does that work? Anyone? No, 72. There are 72 videos. Videos.
It's not saying anything. Well, I'll do that another time. I can't be bothered.
So. I've had a lot of adventures with the audios over the years. It's been a bit silly at times.
So the first. Actually, the first time I made a hypnosis audio recording was about two thousand and two thousand three. So it's three years before I started doing it like an uploading them.
So I made some recordings for myself. To help me with my panic attacks that was going on. So I made some recordings and used to listen to them.
I've no idea even how I recorded them. I must have used some kind of dictation machine. Dicta dictate.
I don't know. Dick. Dictaphone.
No, not dictaphone. Well, they're called dictaphones, weren't they? Anyway, I yeah, it was a little one, I'm pretty sure. And then in two thousand and six, that was a weird noise Vinny's making.
I got him one of those big treats that he likes. Because I had a little delivery. So I try and get him a treat every time I get a delivery.
And he's been happy, but it's it's like he's determined to. I think he tries to shove it all in his mouth. He's very greedy.
Two thousand and six. See, I did the audio recordings two different ways. So I did do videos and then extracted the audio from the video.
But I did also make audios with the laptop. So I did all that with a laptop with a webcam in 2006. And for those who don't know what a webcam is, not everybody's going to know.
I mean, especially. I mean, webcams haven't really been a thing for a long time. So webcams, basically, you used to plug them into your laptop and rest them on top of the laptop and it film.
You basically. Because I'm going to say in the past, laptops, cameras were a bit rubbish. I think there's still rubbish.
I've got a good laptop here and the camera is rubbish. And the iPad camera is a lot better and the phone camera is way better than all of them. But the laptop camera is absolutely ridiculous rubbish.
It does the basic job. And so. Yeah.
But it's no good. I mean, I can talk to someone. On the microphones, actually, the microphone is not very good, the internal, but it's good enough to kind of do a Skype or Facebook, you know, audio, chat.
So I used the the camera to record myself and then I got a microphone that plugged into the laptop and I used that for podcasts. I've got a dictator machine, a recording machine, which I used to take with me. Before I started doing the podcast, I used to use a microphone.
The hypnosis recording, the hypnosis sessions at the alcohol charity and recording the group relaxation sessions. I would record the stuff either at home or I would go to the park and try and find a quiet place under a tree or something. It wasn't ideal because the first of all, I lived on a main road.
And it was very, very busy lorries and stuff and. You know, I was working at the time, so I couldn't just stay up all night and do it. And there'll be no point getting up early in the morning because the lorries would be literally traveling early, early.
So what I did is I just did my best, you know, I did it. There was background sound and I would just say, look, there might be background sound and there's not nothing I could do about it. But then the audio wasn't very good anyway.
The video wasn't very good. So yeah, I mean, for years, really, even though I had a good following on YouTube and with the podcasts, the video quality and the audio quality was not very good for a long time. And I used to get like a little bit frustrated with the background sounds.
And there's a really funny, there's a show called Six Blocks High or something. And it was Sean Locke. It was like a comedy he did a long time ago.
And he, okay, what they would do is they would show glimpses of other people's lives in that block of flats. So it'd go to different people in that. And the one of the people that one had, he was that a pony.
But one of the people was somebody sitting there making a relaxation recording, be talking like now, you can notice your ankles are relaxed. And then there'd be loud music starting upstairs or whatever. And he'd lose it and start shouting and punching the wall and chucking stuff around.
And I just find that I found it especially hilarious because knowing what it's like to have been doing that all these years trying to just find somewhere quiet. I've never managed it yet, really. I mean, there's this, this here, apart from the dogs barking and people are screaming in the garden.
Or if someone knocks on the door and Vinnie just goes absolutely nutty, which is kind of his job, isn't it? I suppose if someone knocks on the door, he's supposed to bark, isn't he? Because it's his home. But it can be quiet at times like at night, late at night, early in the morning, it can be fairly quiet. So I try and make that, try and make use of that.
But back then, there was no, not really any quiet periods much. And then I moved from that place. So 2006, 2007, all the way up and I started doing, yes, I started recording the the group relaxation sessions with a tape recorder.
And that's weird. How did I transfer the audio? Oh, I know it was a digital recorder. It didn't have, it didn't have a tape.
It was digital and I plugged it into the laptop and then it transferred the digital file, the MP3 file onto the laptop. And then I would edit it in Audacity, which is a free editing software. Sometimes I do no editing.
Sometimes I literally just would upload it to my website or to the podcast or at that time to MySpace. And the beginning of it would be me chatting and fiddling around and you could hear all the background sound and, you know, now, now I'm, I don't think I'm ever going to be professional. I'm never going to come across as professional all the time because I don't necessarily want to.
Although I do take some of the stuff I do, I do take seriously because of maybe the subject matter and that, but I'm not, this is just me, you know, it's never going to be like studio quality, recording studio quality. Although I did go to the studio and do some recordings at a recording studio once and I made three CDs. I'll talk about that later.
It's true. That was expensive. I think I sold two CDs.
It wasn't my most successful thing ever. Then I ended up just putting them onto my website and podcasts. So, 2006, I went from doing the relaxation sessions, a group sessions in the alcohol charity, and then I was headhunted and I'm going to use that word because it is kind of the correct terminology.
The, I think, I think one of the, even the therapists were talking about me to each other because they probably knew each other because they were quite close connected in the sense of one was a drug rehab and one was an alcoholic, well an alcohol and gambling charity. So they had close ties and it was a small town as well. Or it might have been a client sort of told, said to the rehab place.
So why can't you get, ask that weird man to come in and talk to us or talk at us for an hour like he does at the alcohol place. And yeah, so they were, they were looking for me and they found me. They, they went into the evolution shop.
So I must have told someone along the lines, I was kind of involved in the Buddhist center and they, they came into the evolution shop downstairs from the Buddhist center and asked if they could get in contact with me. So I think his name was Ray, was it Ray? So he left his number with my, with my friend, Nick, well he's not Nick anymore. He's, he was ordained, but he's, yeah.
And he said to me, yeah, you had someone come in headhunting you. I said, okay. So I, I went in there or I called them up and I said, can you come in whatever afternoon? So I think at this point or was it one evening? I don't know.
I mean, I might, that might not start until 2007. No, it would have been the end of 2006. So I went part time from August onwards in 2006.
Yeah, that's it. So I, I had my afternoons free. So I'd work from nine or eight till one or two.
So I went along in the afternoon and I sat there and there was like three people interviewing me. And I was like, and they will ask me questions. And I said, look, the best thing to do, like, first of all, you know, you know what I do.
You've already had good feedback from, you know, the other place. Instead of just sitting there asking me questions, why don't we just do it? And that's what I did with the first, the first one. Because I was volunteering my time.
And I didn't really want to go through some big interview to volunteer my time for free. Like, let's just do it. And you can see for yourselves whether or not it's, it feels useful.
So they did. Not only that, they brought a few people in. And there and then we just did a relaxation session.
If anything, that was my biggest audience, audience, my biggest group. Because all the staff wanted to be there as well. Especially on a Friday, because it was the end of the day.
And they'd all come in and listen to me. And they look forward to it. Well, I don't know.
I made that bit up. But I imagine, I think someone told me they looked forward to it. I might just be changing history.
Okay, I never did any group relaxation sessions. I made it all up. No, I did.
I wish I still was. Like, a kind of, do I? Yeah, I do. I wish I was still doing it.
That was something, one of the few things in my life that I've done, that I really felt good about. I mean, out of all the things I've done in my life, I suppose, the chronic pain relief service, you know, going to people's houses and then having an office and that. So I did that in 2006.
I felt good about that, because I was helping people there. And then doing the relaxation groups at the alcohol charity and the drug rehab place through 2006, all the way through until the end of 2007. Those were, yeah, that was the three things that I probably feel the best about, other than the online things I've done.
Although thinking about it, I do feel quite good about some of the work I did when I was a counsellor. I did feel that I helped some people. Probably, well, not everybody, but some.
And when I did the pre-pain relief service, and that was just hypnosis and a bit of NLP and stuff. Every single person said that they felt better afterwards. I don't mean better as in healed.
I mean, the pain level had gone down. Like 100% success rate with that. And I did get some follow up.
Specifically, the gentleman with, what's it called? Leg, yeah, but he had his leg amputated and he had phantom limb pain, which is a horrible thing. Actually, but he came to me and he'd had it for seven years. Like really, like disabled properly, not just disabled because he had one leg, but pain wise.
And he was in a bad way, like emotionally. And we did one session and he couldn't believe how he felt, how different he felt. I remember him like looking at me saying, I thought this was trying, this is supposed to help me.
I feel worse now. No, he didn't. He didn't say that.
He said, I can't remember what he said, but thank you. I think it was in there. And I said, well, come back next week, you know, see how you're getting on.
He came back next week and he said, I said, well, we'll do a relaxation session. But, you know, just he said, well, okay. He came back the following week.
He said, I don't need to come back anymore. It's fine. After the first session, it went, it was gone, done.
The second session, it was nice to, you know, have the relaxation, but he didn't need, he didn't need it anymore. I didn't need to, the reason he came was sorted. And three weeks later, after, you know, the third week, he didn't stay.
He said, mind you that I did do a massive fart before he came in the room. So that might have, might have helped or not helped. However, we look at it.
And he left and then he sent me a letter. Months and months and months later, telling me that he was still out of pain. So in some ways, that's the thing, because I only did that stuff for about a year.
I haven't got huge amounts of stories to tell. But I had, I had some success that I didn't expect. I was surprised.
And I was also surprised when I had the lady that needed double lung transplants, and she really didn't like me. I mean, she was a friend of a friend. And I went round to her house.
She was, she couldn't pretty much leave the house. She was sitting down on oxygen. And so I was in her house.
She didn't like me. She took a dislike to me almost instantly. And I hadn't farted and I was wearing trousers.
So it's not the usual situation. I'm like, okay. Now, it's not that I'm used to everyone liking me.
Of course, I've occasionally had people like that seem to not like me, but I'm kind of more used to indifference, you know, I don't mind indifference. In fact, indifference is almost normal. If you've not met someone before, you don't know them.
Why would you have an opinion about them if you've never met them and know nothing about them? So, but this lady, oh, she didn't like me. And she made it very clear. Quite a few times by saying, this is a pointless, this is a waste of time.
So what her issue was, I wasn't there. Obviously, I couldn't do anything about her physical condition. She was on a waiting list for transplants.
And she was told that she had an appointment on a Tuesday. This is the Saturday afternoon. She had an appointment on Tuesday to go and have tests to make sure she was able to withstand the operation.
Basically, she had to have those tests in order to stay on the transplant list. Because she already had, I think, two appointments previously. And this was like staying over in hospital for like two days or something like that.
And both times she couldn't enter into the hospital. She had a massive phobia of hospitals and even more so of having those tests and stuff. At the end of it, she was laughing.
And I didn't know that I had it in me. It was almost that sales, the salesperson in me, kicked in where I was not letting go. Which it can be a good thing.
If you're a salesperson, and if you're a sales team leader, and you're a company, it might not be such a good thing if you're the person on the other end of the phone, whatever being sold to. But on the same side, I didn't ever sell anything that wasn't needed. You know, they called me up.
Like I did do cold calling before, but you know, more recently. But at that time, it was insurance. And that kind of, I remember, I think my manager used to say, I'm like a dog with a bone.
I literally won't let it go. And I'm a little bit like that when it comes to, if it's something that's important to me, it's like I've started. And I'm going to like, I don't know, is this is, I'm going to continue this till it's done.
And I can push myself. And that's what I did with her. I pushed myself.
I didn't push her. I probably prodded a little bit, I suppose. Pushed her out of her comfort zone.
But I tell you what, I was more out of my comfort zone and she was out of hers, I bet you. Because she was at home. You know, she was kind of in pretty much in control of everything.
And I had to work my way around to figure my way in to affect those changes. And after I think two and a half to three hours, which is a long time, a long time to be sitting, talking, doing therapy, three, I think two, it was over two and a half hours. I remember that.
And I don't use the word attacked, but I attacked her from all angles. Attacked the phobia or the problems that she was facing that were getting in the way of her potentially, you know, having the treatment that she had to have. It really was a, it was a life or death situation, literally.
And the doctor said, if she didn't turn up, if she didn't come through the doors this time, she'd be taken off the list. And that would be it. They weren't going to deal with her anymore.
Because there's too many other people that wanted to be on that list that, you know, it's never a shortage of people waiting for medical treatment, unfortunately. So anyway, we did it all. And I wish I'd recorded it.
I really do. In fact, I don't know why I didn't. I think maybe I didn't.
Yeah, I didn't record. Why? Why did sometimes if I did like the group sessions, I'd record. There was something about the one on one sessions that I didn't feel comfortable recording.
It was different when I was a trainee counsellor. And I had to record every session, because that was part of the training. And anyone coming for counselling were aware of that.
You know, because it was a free service offered by the by the college. So it felt weird to start with, to be honest, but that was like 2008. Anyway, so I leave thinking, well, it seemed to go okay at the end because she was laughing.
I really dropped her guard a lot. And she put a shield down, wasn't waving a sword around anymore. Honestly, it's no longer shooting at me with a machine gun.
And no longer chucking sharks at me. And she we basically we left on good terms. And she promised me that, you know, she'd let me know how she got on.
Now, she didn't let me go, but let me know, but her sister did. And her sister called me up. And to let me know that she'd, she'd gone in to the hospital, gone through everything, and was fine.
And we'll be coming home tomorrow. But absolutely everything's been fine. So at the end of the week, I spoke to her, the lady herself.
And she said that she couldn't believe it. She actually had the time of her life. Probably not as good as Disney World.
But maybe time of her life isn't the right. Probably wasn't the time of her life thinking about it. But she said she had a laugh.
She was laughing with the nurses and with the other patients. And just basically just had a laugh. Which is probably what her personality was, you know.
She, she, I don't know. That's what she said. She, like, was laughing a lot while she was there.
And unless she took a secret photograph of me and just kept looking at it and showing everyone. See this bloke? He thought he hypnotized me. Look at him.
Look what he's wearing. You don't know, do you? That's how she laughed. Like a little mouse trying to play the trumpet.
So she also sent me a letter a few weeks later with feedback. I've still got them. I've still got these letters.
I mean a lot to me, actually, because I had a few of them. And it was all really serious conditions. There was no, there was nothing like that.
It was all serious stuff. There was one, two, three, one, two, three, four, five. I don't know.
One wasn't serious like medically, but it was serious for their career. So yeah. Anyway, so I didn't record those recordings, those sessions.
Kind of wish I had now just so I could just listen to them. Hear what kind of rubbish I was coming out with. I mean, if I could achieve or with them achieve change, because obviously it's not just me doing it, is it? So if with my help they could achieve change, but change that was really, really necessary.
Then I must have been doing something correct. But I don't know what. I really don't.
So then I moved to, because I started university and I moved to the town where I was at college doing my degree in counselling. And I lived in this house where it was basically, it was a cottage. I was going to say bungalow.
It was a cottage. And it wasn't super loud. I mean, it was, there was times when it was fairly quiet so I could make a recording.
So I lived there for over three years. Occasionally, when they was on holiday, I would do recordings in the kitchen. Because I'd spread my stuff out a little bit or I'd do it in the dining room.
And that's because once I spent 10, was it 11 days, 10, 14, about 10 days making a stop hypnosis course, aiming at making it the best sounding course I'd done, like quality wise audio. And honestly, I put more work into that than I have done anything else since. It was very time consuming.
But I was also at the same time watching Prison Break. So I had the Prison Break box set. So I was watching them as I was doing it.
Not at the same time, but taking a break and watching the Prison Break episodes. And so that was a good 10 days. The landlord and landlady went away for two weeks, I think.
And it was so nice to just not have them around. Just have a little bit of a break from other people, you know. Because the daughter, who was in her 20s, I mean, I was in my 30s, late 30s by then, she was in her kind of middle 20s.
And every, every time she walked into the kitchen, I'd make a jump. Yeah, and like she'd shout, put the cymbals down. I wouldn't, but she'd like, just like she forgot I lived there.
That they've been letting students live in their house since she was probably born. Because they had two rooms in the back. And I think it was an extension they built.
So two rooms and a bathroom. And they would let them, they would let those rooms out. Which gave them a bit of money, I guess.
I was paying 60 quid a week, I think. 60 quid, something like that. And I had the smallest room.
I couldn't believe it. It was like standard, treating the man the worst. I couldn't, honestly, I was in this tiny little room.
I had too many books that couldn't even fit in the room. They're all stacked up in these case, these plastic storage things. And then one day, a female moves into the other room.
So she invites me into a room. And it's like twice the size of my room. It's got a double bed, wardrobe, like all the stuff.
It's like, why am I in a crappy little room when the other room wasn't even available? It wasn't used. Why didn't she put me in a nice room? So honestly, in this tiny little room, there was a little bit of space to get dressed. It was really rubbish.
Yeah, the other room, big double bed. There was diamonds on the ceiling. I don't know.
There wasn't chandelier around, sound, music, violinists. There was actually an orchestra in one corner that just used to play 24 hours a day. What did I get? I got nothing.
Some of that's probably lies. But my room was tiny compared to that. And I thought, it's just the way she was just because I was a bloke.
She probably thought, no, you don't need a double bed. Which is ironic because I really did need a double bed because I'm so fat. So yeah.
At the time, I was just grateful to have anywhere. I needed to find somewhere and that's why I ended up. But just saying silly because I spent nearly the whole time I was there.
It was only me living there. The other room was taken up three, three times, one, two, three, four times. And the final time, when I was evicted, there was a female student living there.
Always females. No men ever moved into that room. And probably a, not a year, but the following summer after I moved in, in November, a female from the pub moved in.
And then she moved out. So I'm not quite sure what happened there. And then another student moved in.
I think the following year. And then she moved out. And then another student.
I, this one, I think she was a refugee and I think she was a student, but she was like learning English. That this was a sad situation because I didn't have a lot to do with her. Which is kind of how I always was.
I didn't used to have a lot to do with anyone. I just, I was busy just doing my course, going out, you know, just, I wasn't really focused on other people. And I kind of think she reached out to me a couple of times.
I didn't really take it as a hint. And then one Saturday, she knocked on my door. It might've been a Friday.
It was a day. It was daytime. Knocked on my door.
I said, hi. She was tiny. I mean, she was probably, she was less than five foot.
Really, really tiny. And she said, she squeaked, I'm going to do an accent. She, she basically said she was, she was going to London, moving to London.
And I said, oh, okay. Why? What's going on? Why? She said, I'm lonely. I don't know anyone.
Got no friends. And she gave me a hug. And I just like, I feel bad.
I did afterwards, as she was sort of driving away in the truck. I felt bad for, I don't know, stealing a purse. Was it wrong? Should I feel bad for that? No, I felt, I like, I didn't realize that she needed a friend because if I'd known that, I would have, I wasn't unfriendly.
I was just not particularly friendly. And I did moan about her to my landlord. Because she kept having showers at like one in the morning.
And I had to get up for work. Or I had to get up for college. And it was just, it was one of those showers that made a lot of noise.
And it's right next to my room. Was in between both rooms. And I moaned.
In reality, I should have just spoke to her. I'm still learning. I was still learning then.
I'm still learning now. And I'm still making mistakes. But I liked her.
She was nice. She was very sweet. And I remember she was out in the front garden making a snowman.
And she'd never seen snow before. Off of, outside of television. Never seen snow.
Because she was in, from one of the African countries. I don't know where exactly. But she'd never seen snow.
And it was just so cute to see her building a snowman. And the snowman was like twice her size. I don't know, she must have been very strong.
I mean seriously. It's, she was tiny. I remember, this is going to sound wrong.
Because I was looking at her clothes that were on the radiator. This is going to sound wrong. I don't mean this in a pervy way.
Okay, right. But I couldn't fit into them. No, I don't mean this in a pervy, in a weird way.
I just, I saw these jeans. And I thought, they're like for a 10 year old. They're like these little, little.
I said, like who, is this Shonky in the wash? What's going on? I remember holding them up. And honestly, they're like for a kid. Kids clothing.
And it was hers. She was the size of a child. Not in every aspect.
But she was definitely a woman. You could see she was a woman. But she, she's just like size wise.
She probably didn't weigh more than about six stone, if that. But she could never weigh more than that. You know, she didn't have, I don't know if it's hard to explain.
It's very strange. I just wish I'd been a bit friendlier. Because I wasn't horrible.
I'm not, I wasn't like rude. I don't generally, I'm not normally like that. I try and get on with people.
But I don't, I never used to really get involved. You know what I mean? I didn't get involved. And when I moaned about the shower.
She stopped talking to me for a bit. So yeah, I think she moaned. I think she might have moaned at me.
But I didn't, I'm not sure what she was saying. But ultimately she was, she was nice. And I kind of just.
Part of me wanted to say, can't just stay. I'll look after you. I'll, I'll make sure you're safe.
And introduce her to my friends I've got. And you know, show her around the town. Because at this point I knew my way around.
But I didn't. I just sort of let her go. Just not let her go.
She was going anyway. But I don't quite know what the situation was with her. Because she didn't tell me.
But I didn't ask. But I know she had family in the. The desert somewhere.
Is it a desert or something? Vinnie, do you have to make so much noise? Okay, that's a yes. Fair enough. I think every time I move.
I try and learn from the previous place I've lived. And. I'm not sure how much I have.
Because I've. I just seem to still get it wrong. But.
The intention. I think now the intention is a positive one. Generally.
I just don't always get it right. So yeah, she left. And then another student moved in.
The next year. And. She was a musician.
And I remember chatting to her a couple of times. But again, I didn't. I didn't have much to do with her.
As I did with any of the others really. Just. I mean, unless someone invites me into their room.
Or, you know, then I'll talk to them. But I'm not going to knock on anyone's door. And sort of try and invite myself in.
Because it's not really. It's not really appropriate, is it really? To be fair. Generally.
It's different. I think if it's a flat. Knock on the neighbor's door.
Hello, I'm Juicy JJ. I'm a superstar. I moved in next door.
Hi. Have you got any tea bags? And, you know, it could be like that kind of thing. But if you.
I think if you're living in a house. Shared house, which I've done. Way too many times, unfortunately.
I think the getting to know people that's living in the house is. Just an organic thing. Maybe it can be organic if you're living in a block of flats as well.
But. Yeah, I don't think I ever really kind of went out my way to. To introduce myself to anyone I lived with.
Generally. But you get you because it's you get to know him anyway. You get to see him because.
Waiting for the toilet or being in the kitchen and. You know them turning the heat down on the oven. Then they put something else in the oven and my food not be anywhere near cooked.
Even though it's been in there for 50 minutes. I'm not complaining. I should let it go.
It was 27 years ago, but. Was it 37? Wow. So.
I made the audio recordings there. It was pretty quiet. At night, yes, pretty quiet night.
Although they used to have. My landlady, she used to have the tumble dry going in the middle of the night. Because it was cheaper to run it.
She. I'm not saying you're bad. Just I don't.
I think consideration wasn't her best attribute at times. She kind of just did her own thing and. But I thought I would moan about it to me.
I didn't get any sleep last night. And that's obviously after she jumped because I was in the kitchen. I made a jump.
Even though I remember saying to her, I've lived here for three years now. Why are you still jumping? And she moaned about a mum putting a tumble dryer on at two in the morning. Bless them.
So then I got kicked out of there. The next place I lived. So this this was a place.
It was a new build. Well, fairly new build. And it was on a hill.
Not on the top of the hill, but like halfway up a hill. It's very weird, a weird place to build on a hill. It's very strange, strange kind of.
Yeah, I mean, if you had skates on, you wouldn't be able to walk in and out your house with skates on because you just go, you just be moving downhill really fast, really quick. Now, admittedly, not everyone walks around wearing skates, but that's not the point of just as an example. So I lived there, I was at the top of the house, which I thought would be quite a good place to have a bit of peace and quiet.
And when I first moved there, it was quite apart from one person that was living opposite. They were in a pretty much just a studio, not studio, a en suite place like mine was. It's a fairly big room, en suite.
They were opposite on the hallway and they were playing really well. He was playing really loud music. Now, see, I know this just from experience and I've experienced it so many times.
Because a lot of people say, why don't you just go up and ask him to turn the music down? Just be really friendly about it. It's like, yeah. And that person might actually be really friendly to you.
So sorry, I didn't realize. Sorry, you know, if I've disrupted you or whatever. But as soon as you've gone, they're going to be annoyed if they're not already annoyed.
And that's what happened there. As soon as I've gone, I heard him shouting. Is it as she was in the garden on the phone to someone? So I'm trying to turn my music down.
And then he started turning his music up really loud. Now, part of the reason I asked him to turn it down is because the lady downstairs, who showed me the room and she kind of helped me move in. Or showed was friendly to me.
She was sitting there and the whole ceiling was shaking. Her room was shaking from the sound. And she just sat there.
And she had a very good talent of getting other people to do her dirty work for her. So if she wanted someone to complain, she would let them know about it. But then be suffering.
You know, just like, but it's just my, I have to put up with it. I can't do anything about it. And because she was older, I kind of, well, age isn't really a thing, but I wanted to help.
So I kind of like, I'm knocked on the door and yeah, the music went up again, even louder. So that was a, that was an interesting thing, but then he moved out. So it's fine.
There wasn't a huge amount of noise there. So I did do a lot of videos. There was too much noise for me to, I mean.
Yeah, what I did, this is something I did in 2011. I started using, there was this room. Well, it's like a, like a cabin kind of thing behind a Buddhist center.
And I used to go in there at night. I got permission, had keys, went in there at night. And I used to make videos or make audio recordings at like 11 o'clock, whatever.
And because it was quiet, nothing going on. The pub behind was closed apart from weekends. And I'd make videos and those videos became quite successful.
Well, I got a lot of views. So I was pleased with the recordings I was getting done there. I mean, I was still making videos and audios in the room.
At one point, I used to make a video nearly every day in the bathroom. Just talking for 10 minutes about something, you know, kind of like a motivational thing or relaxation session. And I'd be in my clothes and I just, you know, it'd be echoey and not ideal.
And then I moved out of there after a year. I got out as soon as I could and couldn't afford to live there. Basically, £125 a week.
I found somewhere for £65 a week, which was my little dungeon I lived in. And that was damp and mouldy. But it was £65.
I mean, I didn't know it was damp and mouldy when I moved in. But once I moved in, I was kind of stuck. And I made recordings there.
It was quiet at night. Noisy during the day because it was opposite a school. And also there was noises upstairs.
I remember one of the neighbours, she said, Oh, you probably hear me. I'm very heavy footed. I'm like, I was just thinking when she said that, I said, If you know you're heavy footed, just step lighter then.
If you know you're crashing around, shaking my room from upstairs, wouldn't you just walk a bit? But I don't know. Well, she didn't. But I didn't really care, to be honest, at the time.
It was the least of my concerns. So I couldn't make recordings during the day. But I did them in the evenings and videos.
The lighting was really bad. So I couldn't, I struggled to make videos that were any good lighting wise. And but I was doing the podcast.
So at this point, I was doing a podcast all along. But I really got into the podcasts in 2007. That's when it really kicked off with the podcasts.
And then I kind of focused on YouTube. And I got and I was still doing a podcast all the way through. But it's when I moved here in 2015, that I kind of stepped away from YouTube and focused entirely on the podcasts.
So for the last 11 years, although I've done videos and done YouTube and stuff, predominantly the podcasts for 11 years now. And I've gone through so many different recording techniques, as in having two microphones together, having like a headphone microphone, having all kinds of different microphones. And it's to be fair, it's not really the microphone is generally the issue anyway.
It's what's recording, what is recording on. And I've had two recording studio things I've had, both of them broke. I've got, I've had a couple of got a few really nice microphones.
I mean, my recent microphone, the red one that I was having, that broke as well. So I did keep dropping it or it kept falling off the desk. So I'm now using, I don't know what this is, to be honest with you.
It's a Rode, using a Rode microphone, USB Rode microphone that plugs into the iPad. And so this is a one, it took me a while to sort of get back to, to replacing the one I was using because I had to kind of figure it all out. But so this is what I'm using now.
But I've used lots of different microphones over the years. And I've been using the iPad to record my audio podcasts since blimey, probably eight years, maybe longer, eight, nine years, eight years. I've had this iPad since 2001, I think.
So I must have had another one three, four years before that. So yeah, it's been quite a while. I can also plug this into the laptop.
And I've also recorded stuff on my phone as well. And I've made videos and then extracted the audio, or edited the video and save the audio separate as well. So I've done it that way.
But basically, nowadays, I record the audio on my iPad using the Rode microphone. Hope for the best that it's quiet outside, which it has kind of been. It's been a few little bits and bobs, but nothing major.
It's probably the longest the dog's gone without barking. Unless it was barking, and I just don't hear it anymore. So I'm used to it.
I hope not. And that's it really, that's kind of the history. So short history, really, of my recording different places that I've gone.
And I went to Recording Studio 2008 and made three recordings, three CDs. One for relaxation, sleep and pain relief. And had them all printed up and everything.
And then, yeah, ended up just sticking them on my website for free. So I didn't really come to anything. I don't even know what happened to them, to be honest.
But I have lost a lot of recordings over the years. You know, laptops broken and stuff like that. Just your, I didn't have backups and the podcast host closed or whatever.
So yeah, or just deleted my stuff, which has happened, which is a little bit annoying. So that is the end of this recording. Bum, bum, bum, bum, bum, bum, bum, bum, bum.
So thank you for listening. And remember to be kind to yourself because you do deserve to be happy. Be gentle with yourself.
You deserve to feel safe. Just as I said that, Vinnie gets up knowing that it's time to go out. Take care.
Lots of love. Bye. Vinnie.
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