(music) #1230 Doctors Letter - Let me bore you to sleep (7th November 2024)

Hello, hello Vinnie, Vinnie Minnily. Look at my feet. I like it.

Sounded weird. Um, hello. Welcome to Let Me Bore You To Sleep.

My name is Jason Newland. Please only listen when you can safely close your eyes. I already did a recording today already.

Not one of these ones, but it's now blimey. I gotta keep off Facebook. Honestly, every time I go on there, it's just more of the same.

I guess you can probably figure out what it is. And it's just getting a little bit just. Anyway, so yeah, I made a recording today.

Pain relief hypnosis for chemotherapy. So there's six versions, three without music, three with music. And the made have also got a YouTube video as well, which is 10 hours long.

Dark screen after 10 seconds. And it's on repeat, which is what I've got for the music ones as well. So my Facebook groups, Jason Newlands boring group, please join if you fancy it.

Also to say hi to our newest member. And I can't find I know the surname, but I'm not going to Lucas, it was Lucas. That's it.

So welcome to Lucas for joining the group. And also, it's Q&A Friday tomorrow. I've got a couple of questions already there.

If you've got any questions, please add them onto the Facebook group. Have you got any questions for tomorrow's Q&A Friday? And that's that really? Oh, dear. Blimey, yes, I've got that new recorded.

It's it takes it out on me a little bit really doing those recordings because it's it's not quite as we're serious. Obviously, it's a serious subject. And it's a serious recording.

And I'm doing them hoping that they're useful. I don't know if they are or not. I hope they are.

But yeah. So I've not made a Let Me Bore You To Sleep for two days. Well, yesterday or today.

Watch I'm doing one today. So I did do one yesterday. Which is weird, was not really weird because I was tired and I went to bed early.

But I had stuff to talk about yesterday. Also got stuff to talk about today. I got stuff.

Do you remember the old days when I used to have things to talk about? And I talk about deliveries and I talk about going out and some weird thing that happened and because I never go out anymore. I don't seem to have those conversations. I don't sort of have those things to talk about rather.

Well, yesterday I went out. And here's the two things I needed to do yesterday. And which will bring me to this piece of paper I've got in front of me and I'm going to read this out to you.

Very personal stuff this. But I kind of a little bit shocked to see in writing. Still haven't received my DNA test.

So I'm wondering if it's ever going to arrive. Seriously, it's been what six weeks now. But when I went onto the website, and it's all like, apparently it's on its way.

So I don't know when. Maybe I mean, maybe it's ancestry.com is such a busy service, maybe you know, them checking the DNA and perhaps it takes forever. It's a long process.

So I actually have to go and contact all my past relatives. Who knows? Probably not. So yesterday, something I've needed to do for about my bus pass ran out at the end of September.

I applied for a letter from a doctor surgery. I think it was the 12th of September. And I contacted them again on 12th of October, asking where it is because they hadn't.

But I'd already called them before they said it's not done yet. Called them again. I said it's been a week.

It's been a month now. And I said I was nice. But I did say now.

So I wanted to be condescending. And the lady or man whoever was said, it's alright, the person's not in. But I'll leave a note for them.

So I left it another week, called up. No, still not done. But the doctor has to see it.

I put a note for the doctor to see it. And it went on a little bit like that. And eventually I phoned up and they said, yes, it's not been printed out, but I'll print it out for you so you can come and collect it.

I said, cool. And then a few days later, they phoned me up, asked me when I'm going to go and collect it. It's like, come on, I've waited six weeks.

Everything six weeks today. Everything on this recording is going to be about six weeks for some reason. I don't know why.

Probably not. And I was like, you're hassling me to pick it up. When you mean, anyway, I felt a little bit pressured to pick it up.

As well as the fact that I get a free bus pass. I've had one for a while now. They run they usually go for a year.

The last one lasted for two years. I know people that get them for five years, but I've never had one that lasted that long. But usually it's every year.

And what I have to do is get a letter. They sent me a letter, a renewal form. I have to request a letter from my doctor surgery, just to tell it's just the same letter every year, which just says he's on medication.

Mr. Newland is on medication that causes drowsiness. So he's not allowed to drive, which is all true. There's no falseness about it.

I was because of my condition and everything. I was banned from driving, not for drink driving or anything like that. But I was not allowed to have a driving license.

Even though I didn't have a driving license, if that makes sense. So I had it. I wasn't not even allowed to have a provisional because of my condition.

And I'm not just so I'm not allowed to drive. But the DVLA actually contacted my doctor's surgery and the psychiatrist and they came back with, nope, you're not allowed to drive. Like, okay.

I thought they were just I didn't know you had to really go around the round this round the houses. And all I wanted was just a letter to to say, you know, the medication causes drowsiness, which it says it on the box, and it does. And the bipolar medication causes it does cause drowsiness.

And I was on a higher dose back then as well. Well, eventually, I collect the letter, but I'll tell you how that happened. I also got a text message from the pharmacy saying, your your prescriptions ready.

And I had about five or six days left. So I knew I needed to sort of try and make the effort and if I can, if I can wiggle myself into finding someone else to collect it for me I do. If I know someone that's going that way, or they're going to collect their own prescription, then I'll kind of not work my way in.

But if I can avoid going out and collecting it, I do. But at this point, I've kind of didn't have anyone to do that. And I thought I'm gonna have to get a taxi.

Because I can't just get in on the bus just it's weird because I'm looking to get a bus pass, but I don't really like traveling on the bus. So I don't use it. I don't exactly rinse it and use it every day.

Hardly ever use it. But it's really useful to have on those occasions where I don't have, I need to use a bus and I don't have any money. And it's really, really helpful to have it, you know.

So I don't use the bus pass very often. But it has really helped me in the past on like occasions, like emergencies and that. Because I live so far away from anything, it would take me so half an hour to the nearest shops.

And probably an hour and a half. Okay, maybe 45 minutes to the other shops. To town probably about three hours, two and a half to three hours walk.

So it's a fair distance for these old legs of mine. And it's a fairly it's a half hour journey on a bus. So I thought, oh, I need to do that.

I need to go to the pharmacy, I need to go to the doctor's surgery. I also needed to get some bit of little few bits and bobs as well. And I thought maybe if I make the journey up to the doctor's surgery, I can then go to the supermarket and get some stuff because I'm just I'm just I don't know, if I can find a way to go out and be a bit more actively, not sociable.

That's not the word, but I don't know something. Anyway, I couldn't face it. Couldn't face it Monday.

Couldn't face it Tuesday. Wednesday, I was thinking I need to do this. And I was I was kind of almost rearing up to maybe, maybe thinking about it.

But still, I still couldn't face it. I really had to be I probably wouldn't have done it. However, I met a neighbour, someone that I'm friends with locally.

And we were just chatting and something that I get on very, very well with him. And Vinnie was with me. So all I was doing was just taking Vinnie for a walk.

I just said that word. Oh, hopefully he won't look back at me. His ears pricked up though, or one of his ears pricked up.

The other one is always at half mast. It's always like one of his ears is in its 20s. And the other ear is in its 50s.

It's kind of just flopping there. So I, so I'm walking through the park with my friend, my neighbour, and we were just, you know, I don't see him that often, but sometimes because he lives around the corner, we bump into each other occasionally. He comes around sometimes.

And but he was also really good friends with my friend downstairs. So anyway, he just he just like Vinnie was looking back and pulling me back like what's going on. And I see that he's just up the road.

And he's shouting out Vinnie, Vinnie. It doesn't sound like that. But and I said, Oh, what are you doing? Yep.

He said, I'm going to town. I said, Okay. You're catching a bus? He said, Yeah.

It's a silly question, really, obviously. No one walks to town. You mean you can walk? It is walkable.

But I don't think I'd be able to do it without blisters. It's a long walk. And I started to ponder, started started to wonder started to started to like think, hmm, this could be my opportunity to get on the bus.

Because one of my issues is it's it's ridiculous when I say out loud. I don't know which buses go where because they're changing all the bus system around. And I, to be fair, when I went on a bus, I used to go on a bus with my friend downstairs.

He knew all the bus timetables. I just I just jump on with him. And I knew the bus that went into town, but they've changed that.

And they used to have a bus used to be very regular system. It was regular, but irregularly regular. So it started off being every 15 minutes, then it was every 20 minutes, then it was every half hour, then it was every hour.

Now it's gone back to being every half hour, which is pretty cool. And it goes through the estate again, they stopped going through the estate about two years ago. And I just didn't didn't bother using the buses anymore.

Because you had to go on to the main road, cross over, stand there with no shelter, not that the shelter is a major issue, but it's just you get drenched by all the traffic going past. At least when it's on the estate. There's a tree you can stand under, you know, it's just it's just a bit, a bit less kerfuffle, a bit less noise.

Yeah. So I thought, oh, I'm not going to go into town, don't need to go into town. I will do what I've got my dental appointment, which is I have to check when that is.

I think it's next month. I hope it's next month. I hope it's not this month.

It might be this month. Blimey. Let me check.

I wonder if they sent me a text message to dental people. No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no. Nope.

Nope. Nope. No.

Although they yeah. Oh, wait a minute. I did.

I might have gotten an email. Open University. Open University.

Smile Clinic. Oh, okay. Yeah, it's December.

Blimey. So yeah, I, I just, I don't need to go into town. And the last time I went into town was when I had my last dental appointment, which was in January, I think.

That's where I had my tooth distracted. And I yeah, I haven't been in town since then. Blimey.

Wow. That's like the whole of the year practically. I think I've only been I've only been up to the shops once.

That was to the doctor's surgery. And that was well apart from yesterday. Or was it twice? I might have been twice.

Yeah, it was twice. Because I had a blood test. And then I had to go back for the results of the blood test.

Yeah, so it was twice. So I've been there twice. I keep saying it.

I've been there two times. So yesterday, I'm walking down the park or through the park with my friend. And I felt being with him, I felt more confident to go into the bus, especially having Vinnie with me.

Because sometimes the bus drivers can be a bit a bit offish, you know. The last time I got on a bus with him, the bus driver was like, is he dangerous? Like? Yeah, if you I was like, just come on, look at him. Yeah, he can he could scratch you and he could he'd have a little bite, but he's not gonna hurt you.

He's, he's a very loving he can get carried away. But he's not. He's not, you know, a pitbull.

It's not an Alsatian, you know, he's not not a handful. Well, he is a handful, actually. Literally, I could pick him up.

It's nice having a dog you can pick up. But so I thought, I'll get onto the bus. I'm gonna go.

I get on a bus and my friend, it's two pound per journey. It's, it's a thing that the government put into play. Because of the, because we have the electric and gas very, quite been very high the last few years.

And I think I'm not quite sure why the government did it. But it was to help people out. So they cut the journeys for bus journeys, individual bus journeys.

I don't know if this is nationwide, but in my area, it's definite. I don't know if it's the same in London. But they don't accept cash in London.

I don't think they never did haven't done for years. Unless they've changed the rules. I've not been to London for last time I was in London.

Was 2000 and 22. It's only for two years ago, isn't it? No, two. No, yeah.

2022. It seems like forever ago. That's not long ago at all.

Which is just ridiculous. Well, it's I guess it's nearly three years, isn't it? It could because it was the beginning of the year. I think it was possibly February or March time.

2022. I went there I think three times. And I think see, yeah, I so don't know if the two pound per trip per bus journey is the same everywhere.

I really don't know. I've not done that research. So but it is it is here.

And I think they're putting it up to three pounds soon. But at the moment, it's two pound. And they don't do return journeys.

So from the from the time you get on the bus to the time you get off the bus, it's two pound. But if you want to get off and do lots of different journeys, you can end up paying as many journeys as you do. So if you do 10 journeys, that's that's over six pound in it.

So I'm thinking because there used to be like a rover thing they did like all day long for four pound 50 or something like that. But don't do that anymore. Because you could jump on and off all day long.

That's before I got my bus pass. So yeah. When I first got my bus pass, I thought, okay, I'm going to try and use this.

Because it's kind of the point of having one, isn't it? But not not in that way. But I just thought, because I had a bus pass when I was a student, I had to pay for it. But it was like very big discounted bus pass.

That student bus pass. So for three years of university, I had a bus pass. I keep saying the word bus pass.

I said a lot in this recording. Perhaps I need to call this bus pass that needs to be the name of this recording. Although when I read that letter out, I might be another another word, another name needed.

So I traveled to where my dad lives. And it took one, two, three buses, right? Three buses. One bus.

Actually, no, that's that is a bit of a lie. No, no, it's not a lie. It's true.

Yeah, it's true. I'm just thinking that's because I wasn't living in town. Then I was living outside of town.

So it's a bus into town. A bus from the bus station, which isn't a bus station. It's just a road where they now park buses.

And that was from there to the town near where my dad lives, which is about an hour and a half. It's all around the houses is proper. I mean, they go all the way like all the way to Lake District, district, and then just turn around and come away back again and then continue the journey.

It's really weird just to pick up one person. So I think that might be related to the driver. I don't know.

And then there's another 45 minute bus from that town to where my dad lives. That's without waiting. That's with no waiting time.

So it's like four hours or something to get to my dad's and that's a long time. Because you can never get that time back. It's just a lot of time to go.

I mean, if you did that, if I did that journey for twice a day, that's the whole day gone, isn't it? Why would I do it twice a day? Well, I would, wouldn't I? Because I'd be coming back. So it's eight hours, just traveling, eight or nine hours, just traveling time. There'd be no time to, but my tea wouldn't even get cold, would it? When I say tea, I mean I'm talking about a cup of tea.

And then I wouldn't want to drink a cup of tea unless I had something to eat with it. Biscuits, all biscuits. Or you know, so I get on a bus and I say to my friends, look, I hope they don't ask if he's vicious.

He laughed and I said, yeah, but they did. Just stuff like that, it just mildly irritates me a little bit. Just the idea that just, because bus drivers can, they're lovely, I'm sure, but sometimes it's a difficult job.

I think dealing with the public like all day long, and I've done public serving jobs or public facing jobs, is that the right correction term? And it's, I mean, I did it on the phone, so I wasn't facing them. I was making faces at them when I was talking to them, but I was still talking to the public. And I've had quite a few jobs, like shops and stuff like that.

And it can be challenging, is an understatement, can be very challenging at times. And I can be challenging myself sometimes, without meaning to be. And when someone's challenging with me, that's when I become even more challenging.

So yeah, it's reactive is possibly the term, I don't know. I don't paint a good picture of myself really, do I? By the way, if there's anyone called Holly, that sent me a text message, please send me a text message again and explain who you are, because I've got no idea who you are. Honestly, I got a message the other day, someone phoned me, didn't recognise the number, I was in bed.

It's about 10 o'clock or whatever. It's quite late. And this person, I'm saying she, because I assume, but you know, it was, Hi, this is Holly.

I don't know anyone called Holly. So I have no idea who that would be. Very strange.

Unless it's someone I do know, and my brain's just not, it's not working properly, which would not be the first time. So yeah. Hmm.

Very, very curious. I didn't text back because I couldn't be bothered, really. But the person said, Oh, I was checking you're okay, right? Well, you must, if you're doing that, I guess you know me.

Because you wouldn't want to check someone's okay, if you don't know them. If it is a listener, and they got my number or whatever, then sorry, I just, you need to like, tell me who you are. Because I don't, I don't, I've had a few weird phone calls over the years.

Because sometimes my friend used to use my phone. And I had some strange phone calls. And because I don't want to change my number anymore.

I've done that too often in the past. So if I don't recognize the number, I generally don't answer it. Usually, especially at night, because I'm in bed.

So never used to be in bed, I used to be awake at night. Of course, if it's a, if it's a special phone call, then yeah, just call me. No, if it's a booty call.

So I was thinking, what, you know, I'm just gonna get on the bus with my friend. That's what I do. I did it.

And I planned it out in my mind. I'm gonna get on the bus with Vinnie. It was on the spur of the moment.

I didn't, I didn't have it got it planned. It would have been better to not have him with me, because then I could have done more stuff. But I didn't really think it through.

I planned it in my mind. But in my mind, everything went perfectly. And it didn't go perfectly.

It wasn't it was okay in the end, but it was only due to getting helped. So I'm on the bus. And what my friend said, would I just because he knows why I was going to collect my bus pass, but he was on my bus pass letter.

He was doing exactly the same thing. But he was going up to his his doctor surgery or whatever, which was in town. He was like, wow, okay.

So we're both doing the same thing on the same day. And he we had the same thing going on, because mine's now over a month late. And so is his.

Because mine ran out the end of September. And now it's first week of November. I've been late before so should be fine.

It's just that's how long it took for me to get the letter. So it's a wonder bus we're talking about bus passes. And he will talk about how long he said, Well, I'll get he's this is him talking.

I get my bus pass for five years I do. So what you're talking like that you don't normally have that accent. He said I don't know I thought I'd try it out.

He said five out I said five years mine's mine's only two years I said have a look. And so I checked in my wallet and he got my my bus pass out. He looked he laughed he said you've lost some weight.

I said, thanks. But why is that funny? He said it's like in your face. I said really? So give me my bloody wallet back.

I'm inside of thinking yeah, I'm less I've got I've got a less obese face, which is not a bad thing, I guess. But and I said something about Oh, yeah, but I'll be careful. I don't want to lose too much more weight.

Because otherwise, it's just too distracting for the female drivers because they see me and just get all excited. And the lady on the bus laughed. So say and I might have said something like that.

And she when he said my friend said that sexist and she said no, it's not it's funny. So hey, yeah, so I get the bus get off where I need to because I'm distracted by talking to him. I'm kind of talking to her as well.

And then I'll get off the bus. Yeah, he pressed the buzzer for me to get off at the right place. Because I couldn't really see it.

Because the thing is, Vinnie don't like the bus. He was shaking. So I'm holding him, cuddling him.

And he just doesn't like it. I think it's the movement. The being kind of, yeah.

It was the only nice thing about it is the fact that he was clinging on to me and cuddling me. So he kind of was like being, being my baby, you know, for a little bit. So yeah, we get on now.

I'm saying so a lot. I need to stop saying that. Maybe therefore, therefore, I'm going to yeah, I'm going to change it around.

Therefore, I therefore I art. So I get off, I go to a walk, get across the road, Vinnie's pulling in all directions. So in the end, because he won't cross the road.

He like he's pulling, he's trying to he's like going from between trying to pull me in a road to try and pull me out of the road. So I pick him up. And I crossed the road we're holding him.

But this this rat is a really, really busy roundabout. And the amount of cars that don't even indicate it's just I noticed that a lot these days, a lot of non indicating cars. I don't really I've, I always thought something like that would be automatic to do.

It's like you go to slow down and you do it naturally, you don't even think about the process of slowing down. You know, you don't think about the process of starting your car, just an automatic process. So wouldn't indicating be an automatic process if you're about to turn right or left? Wouldn't that be an automatic thing that you wouldn't even know you're doing? Because it's just a standard thing to do.

But apparently not. We're not with everyone. So and therefore, therefore, I managed to get across the road.

This is not not not I don't enjoy that. Part of the reason I don't enjoy it is because I got him and it's very, he's like fidgety and he's sometimes more fidgety than Andre was and he was a ferret. You know, fidgety ferrets are.

But with my eyesight, I can't focus too well on what does not I can see the moving objects, the vehicles, but I can't really get a good judge of the distance or work out the speed and the distance, like how long it would take for them to run me over if I if I go onto the road too soon. So I'll wait until everything's passed or until a car stops.

Because on this main road over there, where I live, well, I live here, but I live on the main road, but whatever the main road where I cross over sometimes, cars slow down.

And they think I'm going to cross some cars slow down. And if they flash their lights, then I'll wait for it, see it slow down, and I'll slowly go onto the road to make sure they're not going to, that they'll actually have seen me. How they can't see me, I don't know.

But the amount of cars that I've seen in the past have actually slowed down. I've gone to cross and have sped up. So they've not slowed down because of me, unless it's some kind of new hobby in the local area.

But it's a reward. It's a reward. People are trying to win maybe.

So now I wait until a car actually stops, or they flash their lights. Because some people like to, they don't want to stop, they want to keep going slowly, which is fine if they're far enough away. But I've got to deal with this one.

And I can't cross the road quickly, because it will try and trip me up if he can. If he can possibly do it, it will try and trip me up. So I have to keep an eye on him.

And some people just don't, they're in a hurry maybe, so they don't want to stop. And it's kind of funny because it's, it's almost a traffic jam sometimes. And you see someone that won't stop, and it will speed really fast to get like, I don't know, 20 foot ahead.

And then I'll be stuck in the traffic for the next 10 minutes. It's like, how did that? How is that useful? But yeah, anyway, this isn't about traffic. Well, it is obviously now.

No, it's not. And so I get off, managed to get across the road. And then there's traffic lights.

So that's easy. I can just wait for the traffic lights and cross over. I'm holding, holding Vili the whole time.

And I let him down when I get to the other side of the road, which is where the doctor's surgery is. I let him down. And I think he needs to do a wee wee on the grass.

So we do that. Not both of us, just him. And as we've done one earlier on the bus.

So I get into the doctor's surgery entrance. And there's like a, this is not a waiting room, there are seats in there. It's more for people waiting.

It's kind of like an outside waiting area, if you know what I mean, near sliding doors, but there's then there's the actual entrance to the surgery. It's kind of separate. And I'm thinking, Oh, because I, I used to go there with my friend.

I've been to surgery many times with him in the past, my friend downstairs. And we often would take Logie with us, the dog, his dog. And I'd wait.

I'd sit on the chairs in that area. And I'd hold Logie and he'd be just, he'd be there. Or sometimes we'd take Logie and we'd have to tie him outside.

But he would be barking a lot. Or we'd go without, but it was quite hard to leave him on his own. Because he used to bark the place down and trash the place as well.

Because there was a few occasions where I'd actually go into the doctor's surgery with my friend, like into the actual doctor's office. And partly just to remind him of what he needed to say. Because we'd, he wouldn't always remember, just, just, we helped each other out.

That's all it was. So I helped him out in that way sometimes. And because he'd go to, he'd go for something very serious.

And because he was a joker, probably a bit like me, and he didn't, he didn't want to be all serious. So he'd almost be trying to make the doctor laugh and acting as if everything, everything was fine, but it wasn't fine. And usually the appointments were emergency appointments.

So it's not even like, you know, it's just a regular checkup. It was there for an important reason. And he quite often, he just wanted to kind of brush it off.

So I had to kind of bring it back. A bit like me when I'm talking here. If I had someone here just to remind you of, or to remind me of what I'm supposed to be talking about, you know, rather than just waffling on.

So I, I suppose in my kind of way, I was thinking, I'll, I'll wait outside with Vinnie. But that doesn't work because I can't be in the doctor's and be waiting for Vinnie. But all I wanted to do was go to the reception.

I wasn't, I didn't have an appointment. Just wanted to go and collect my letter. That's, that's all it was.

But I didn't know what to do because I know if I leave Vinnie for honestly 10 seconds, he starts screaming. He doesn't like being left. He doesn't, he acts like he doesn't even like me.

But when I'm not with him, he doesn't like it. Really, he doesn't like it if I leave him. So perhaps he does like me a little bit.

Perhaps he does care for me. Just slightly. Hey Vinnie, do you care for your daddy a little bit? Shut up.

So I, I'm not thinking, what can I do? And I'm looking at him and I'm thinking, he's, he's so tiny. He's like a little rabbit, like a red rabbit. So I tied his lead around one of the chairs.

And they're like sturdy chairs. So I tied his lead all the way around. Not so it's long, so he could kind of, I thought he'd be fine.

And I leave him there. I go into the reception and the, well, no, I don't know. I don't even, do I get that far? No, I don't even get that far.

The, the, I go to go into the, into the doctor's surgery area, the wait, the actual proper waiting room. And Vinnie's behind me because he's dragging the chair with him, which is making quite a bit of noise. So I realized, well, I can't do that.

I didn't want to tie him outside because I figured he'd make so much noise. It was a nice day. It was dry.

It wasn't cold. I had a big, like concrete or metal post part of the building. So I could have tied him around there.

But I was also like, oh, someone takes him. And that might sound weird, but people do do that sometimes, you know? And I thought maybe if I leave a note saying, please take him, that'd help. Anyone that had a conscience, like, I'm not sure.

No, just take him, please. And give them, put £10 in an envelope for them. So I just thought, what am I going to do? And there's a lady coming out with a pram.

And I said, I don't suppose she could do me a favour. It was probably cheeky of me. I did honestly think I was only going to be 30 seconds.

That's really, I genuinely thought that. I've collected letters in the past. You know, I do it every year or every two years this time, but in the past every year.

And it's in there. What's your name? Blah, blah. And that's it.

Got it. But anyways, that's what I thought. She said, oh, that's okay.

She's a lovely lady. And I thought, oh, I mean, it's probably a bit cheeky for me to ask. But I, I'm thinking it would be better for everyone concerned to not have him screaming.

Because he really is not a nice sound. Well, well, well, well, well. She was lovely.

She said, yeah, fine. She just stays in the little, that little waiting area out, out, out the front, near the kind of entrance. I go into the proper waiting area.

And just as I get there, an old gentleman kind of walks up to the reception. So I thought, okay, I've got to wait. He's pressing the buzzer.

He doesn't know if it's rung or not. And he couldn't hear whether it rung, but I couldn't hear either. So I don't know if he's pressed it hard enough or not, because it wasn't ringing on the actual reception.

You know, like a hotel reception, not a bell, but like a buzzer, like a front door, like the middle. I don't know if they still have them. But front door doorbells.

He's pressed the buzzer. Ding dong. That kind of thing.

And there was no answer. So I'm kind of, I'm stuck between thinking, is he pressing it hard enough? Because he's very, very elderly, probably in his 90s or something. And maybe he wasn't pressing it hard enough.

But I didn't want to be rude. I didn't want to be rude, but at the same time, I had this lady waiting outside and I didn't want to keep holding her up. And it was like, oh, and we're waiting.

And we're waiting. And we're waiting. And then he points to something on the, on the, he points to a sign on the reception and it says, we are short of staff today, therefore we will not be covering the reception.

But on the bell, it does say ring for help. So I was very conflicted, but I just confused more than conflicted because I didn't, well, first of all, I didn't know if they were even hearing the bell. And secondly, if they were hearing a bell, were they just ignoring it? Or were they planning to come and answer? Or were they just unable to answer it because they were short staffed and they were so busy?

Because they are busy, busy people, obviously.

So at one point, someone actually came into the reception and ignored us all and walked out again. And I'm thinking, okay, that invisible sprays worked again. That's good.

It's, I know I'm invisible to a lot of people these days, but blindly. So anyway, we I didn't know what to do. I said, I told Vinnie off, he started barking, not telling off of just like, say, think twice, baby.

No barking. He's hearing stuff. You're hearing stuff, aren't you? He wants to react.

I can see the expression on his face. His, his good ear is perked up. He's looking up.

He's turning his head. Yep. His ears are proper pricking up now.

What are you hearing? Do I try and focus on daddy's interesting voice so that you don't start barking because it's 10 o'clock at night now. And I really don't want him to start kicking off too late. And so yeah, about 10 minutes go past.

It feels like an hour. And at this point, there are three, I think three other people, no two other people waiting behind me. And I said, Look, um, can you just go? I was gonna I was gonna pop out.

I'll come in back. I said, Yeah, fine. Still, still hadn't had any anything.

And I just have not, I'm not sure if I did. Well, I don't know, get confused what I said and what I didn't say. I made some weird noises when I talk.

Maybe that was just me making that noise. So I did. I went out side or out the front bit, spoke to the lady I said you might as well go.

I might you know, thank you so much. I was not I didn't say like in an arsey way just like get lost. Go away.

And I said like, Thank you so much for looking after him. But and he was still whining. Even though it's with her.

And she was looking after him. He was still like, all that because I wasn't with him. And he couldn't see me.

And she said, No, it's fine. I'll, I'll go and I'll go and speak to someone. I said, Really? She said, Yeah.

So I didn't really know what she meant. But she she went goes in there. Another five minutes, maybe 10 minutes goes past.

And I'm, I'm seeing that looking there. She's still behind the elderly man. Because she kind of took my place where I was originally.

And now there's three people waiting behind. And I go into and I say, Look, you might as well just go home. There's honestly, there's just carry on, because they're, they're clearly not gonna see anyone.

And she said, No, I've spoken to them. They'll be coming out in a minute. I said, Oh, brilliant.

Okay. And what I know what I did, what I did now, I tied Vinnie up outside on the post. I went in and got her I said just just honestly, there, I don't know if we're going to be seen.

And she said, No, I've already been I've already spoken to him. And they're going to come out and they're going to bring your letter. And she was waiting to collect it for me.

Blimey, I'm so lovely. So or she wouldn't have been able to collect it, which is she didn't know what my name was. Anyway, she was still waiting at the at the in the queue.

So I take her position. And I said, I was here. And they said, the people behind said, No, we don't know who you are.

And I said, Well, you do now. I'm now here. We're trading spaces.

She and one of the ladies said, Don't you mean trading places? I said, is what I meant wasn't quite so clever. Same trading spaces was it? Her husband said no, it wasn't. So we start again.

I said, Yeah, I'm Jason. He said, I'm Pat. And this is Pat.

Well, two pats. He said, Yeah, I'm Patricia. This is Patrick.

I said, but two pats. Yeah. So someone calls your house up and said, Can I speak to Pat? How do you know which Pat they're asking for? The lady says it doesn't matter.

Because we both answer the phone. I said no, but they might not want you they might want your husband or they might. But is your husband? She said, Well, it's personal.

It's not really any of your business. I said, Come on, we're getting on so well. Her husband laughed.

He said, Don't worry about her. She's just pulling your leg. She likes you really.

And then they both looked at each other and laughed. And I don't really know what that was about. So eventually, someone did come out to the reception and saw the man.

He just needed to make an appointment. So Vinnie, the lady's gone. Vinnie's outside on the post making a lot of noise, howling, screeching.

And it's not enjoyable for me. The people because it was like semi busy people sitting down waiting for appointments and they were like looking back and I felt like I was being neglectful or something. When I wasn't, I just just had to click the letter.

I should have come on my own. But hey, I find it easier. I just I like having him with me.

For some reason. So some really weird reason. I just wish I could take him into the supermarket because then I'd go to the supermarket.

Perhaps. So the man was getting an appointment and it was getting very confusing. It's like the receptionist and the man were both for the patient.

They're both kind of confusing each other a little bit. But it worked out in the end, I think. And then she went out.

And I thought, I'll hope she comes back. And then suddenly she popped out and said, she said, before I went coming back, did you? I said, No, no, of course I did. Yeah.

And I looked behind me and both pats were nodding their head to say no, he didn't. Now that was weird enough. But the other bloke in the queue standing on his head.

He wasn't. I don't know why I said that. So I get you know, the lady or whoever it was in the reception said, can I help you? I said, I hope so.

I've just come to collect my letter. What's your name, blah, blah, whatever. And I said, I can't tell them my name.

And there you go. And that was it. Like honestly, 30 lessons, we're talking probably 20 seconds.

It actually took for me speaking to the receptionist to me receiving the letter. So the very, that's what I thought it was going to be. This is not I'm not going to go at the receptionist because they're busy.

And what they do is, you know, really important job. So I'm not moaning. It's just it was difficult because of having Vinnie there.

And technically, I put myself into that position anyway. So I still want to still want to blame others if I can. I want to blame other people, other people.

So I said, thank you very much. I forgot to go to the toilet. And I didn't say that to her.

But I quite usually quite like to use the toilets in the surgery, because it's like a halfway place and kind of empty my bladder and then carry on with my journey. So I go outside. I think Vinnie's been a bit quieter.

The lady with the prams out there with him. So I think she was going to walk off and he's screaming so much he came back to keep him company and to calm him down. So she wasted about half hour of her life looking after this little fella and helping me out.

And I kind of wish I'd said thank you. Instead I pushed her over and running away. No, I did say thank you.

I did. I chucked an egg at her. I chucked her with eggs.

I egged her. I didn't. I just really, it's amazing.

Some people are so lovely. And so now I wait for a bus. I walk back and to where the bus opposite the bus stop that I got off of.

It's like another bus stop. Literally have to stand on someone's driveway because the pavement is not big enough to even stand on. It's hardly big enough to walk through walk across.

You can't stand on it because you're literally practically on the road. It's that rubbish and they've got a bus stop there. It's a very strange place to have a bus stop.

It's just off a corner as well. Anyway, the bus turned up. It wasn't probably about 10 minutes, 10 minute wait, maybe 15 minutes.

And it takes me to the shops up the road where I live. So it's about a half hour walk from where I live. So my plan now is I need to get something from the petrol station.

Then I need to go to the pharmacy and maybe even get myself a sausage roll or a pasty or something like that as a treat, you know, so don't I don't go to the top shops very often. And when I do I generally try and treat myself to something. So I thought I'll go to the petrol station.

I needed to get something from the convenience store. But I know they don't really like dogs in there. And I thought I can't bother if they they'd never give me hassle.

I've carried them in a couple of times. I got some looks but they know me kind of they see me around you know, for 10 years I've been sort of on and off going in there. I used to go in there a lot with my friend in the early days, like daily or so it's different.

Yeah, we used to walk up there every day for years pretty much or get a bus. And we so I go into the petrol station never been in there before. And I thought I'll just go in here and do it.

It's it's easier because it's kind of on the way to where I'm going. I go there, then I go to the sandwich shop, then I go to the pharmacy. And then I'll go and catch the bus.

You know, it's all kind of in in order. I don't know what the right words are. So I'm walking up the petrol station towards the front door, like the doors are open.

And I'm not even inside. I'm kind of walking towards the entrance and some bloke that works there starts shouting at me. No dogs allowed.

No dogs allowed. I said what? You don't have to have to tie up tie up outside. Like really loud shout hollering at me.

And I said, but you're using the same petrol station, same person owns this as owns one just up the road from where I live. And they're fine with him coming in. No dogs allowed.

No dogs allowed. Like really? He caught me on a good day. To be honest with you.

I'm never been a big fan of being shouted at. Especially when I'm caught off guard like that. But I've kind of felt it was a good day in a sense of I'd accomplished something that I'd put off, which was collecting the letter.

So I put it off for about three weeks or two weeks, three weeks, two weeks. It took weeks and weeks to get it done. But then once it was done, then I had to collect it.

And that was where the problem came in. And I had a friend who promised to collect it for me. And she didn't.

So that was a week where I was waiting to see if she collected it. Because she was up that area. And she said, I'll collect it for you.

But she didn't say, which is fine, but I just I didn't know. So I'd lost contact with her for a week. I didn't know she'd collected it or not.

So I because I collect her prescriptions and she collects my prescriptions and stuff. So we don't both have to go up there. And which I did this time I collected her prescription as well as my own from the pharmacy.

You know, we always used to call them chemists when I was a kid. Didn't call them pharmacies. They were chemists.

Don't know when they became pharmacists or pharmacies. So yeah, I walked away from the petrol station just yelling, like that. I just walked away.

I just it was so rude. I mean, maybe I can't say maybe I was being rude, but just have someone shout at you. Like, what the hell are you doing? I'm a grown I'm an adult.

I mean, you shouldn't be shouting at anyone, but come on, man, you don't shout. Don't this. Oh, wow.

I mean, some of the people I know around here, if he'd have done that, it would have been police and all kinds of stuff involved. So I'm not in I don't do stuff like that. Blimey, that was really a bit too much a bit a bit full on.

Although I did have that once in the petrol station here up here. There was two new blokes in there. And I came in with with this one hadn't been in there for a little while, to be honest.

It's probably for maybe a couple of weeks. Three, two or three weeks, maybe. So come in and it's in the evening.

And both the blokes, it might be the same ones in that petrol station. Shit like not shouting, but like, no kind of a dog in there. So they're in the pit there at the behind the counter, but it's the other side of the store.

So they weren't right right in my face like this bloke was. I said he can't bring him in here. I said, Well, I am on I. And they said, he confused me a little bit the fact that I wasn't just complying.

I said, No, you're not allowed a dog in there. I said, Yeah, I am. And it really like, like, it's almost like I thought I was just going to do what they said.

So all I was going in there for was I think, a bottle of water or a pint of milk or so it was like, that was pretty much all I was doing. And there was no one else around and it was nighttime. So I walk up to the counter and I say, your boss loves him.

Which was true. So his manager loved seeing Vinnie. He doesn't work there anymore.

But he, he used to get all excited every time Vinnie went in there. So I said your boss loves my little my little boy. He loves dogs.

So you're the ones that are out of order on this one. And I was just like, Oh, and I said, I'll have a word with him tomorrow. Which I did.

And he apologized to me that the the the manager is sorry, and I'll talk to them. And the next time I went in there, they were like, Hello, sir. They don't have to call me sir.

Don't need special treatment because you got told off. It's just that they weren't pleasant about it. You know, when they were telling me you it wasn't even they weren't being friendly either.

Like no, no, you can't have a dog in here. They didn't go. But there's certain ways.

You got to be there. They're not earning enough money to be that concerned. They're on minimum wage.

And if there's a problem, then they can call a place. They can lock the doors, there's glass and they can lock the front door from behind the counter. So they don't need to put themselves in trouble.

And they don't need to be getting into arguments with people. Not for the amount of money they're earning. That's a hard job being working in this in a petrol station is dealing with people.

Again, it's customer facing, I can see both sides of the mirror. And both sides of the doorknob. So I know it's difficult.

And I don't want to be a difficult customer. But I kind of draw the line at being shouted at. That's kind of my I'm okay with not even person being friendly, or being polite.

But I generally get on with most people. But when someone's shouting at me, I struggle a little bit with that. I think it's makes you seem almost human, doesn't it? So I still didn't, it did bother me, but I didn't let it bother me in a way that it would perhaps normally.

And I go to the, yeah, I go into the the sandwich shop. I ordered two, two sausage rolls, one's for him, one's for me, and a Cornish pasty and a Bakewell tart. And I was like, okay, that's it.

Otherwise, I would just I wanted to, I didn't get anything chocolatey. The only sugary thing was the Bakewell tart. And I rarely eat anything with sugar in these days.

That sounds like I'm lying, but it's true. Finny just did a fart. He did a bottom burp.

So he did a guff. So I, I got that. And the the man behind this, I just told the bloke in the sandwich shop, because I said I was about what happened in the petrol station.

And he said, Oh, some people just, just rude. And he said, I know. And he said, Can I give him a, can I give him a, would you like a treat? Or biscuit? Would you like a biscuit? I said, I said, Okay, so what do I pick him up? The kind, because in the sandwich shop, it's all covered.

Like the whole, because of, you know, four years ago stuff. It's all like, completely. I don't know what's the right word.

Health and safety. So you can see him. And there's a little bit of thing where you can put your money through give, but it's not a lot of room.

Most of it's just all covered plastic. But I lift him up so he can reach through and give him the, the biscuit. And he's not there.

I think, where is he? And suddenly, he pops up. He's he comes out the front to see him. And he gives him a little doggy biscuit and feel he was being all precious.

Like, I've got to sniff it a little bit. I don't know. And then he thought, I can't.

Then he just tasted it. He thought, Okay, I'll eat this. And I can't, I can never get my head around how fussy he is with food.

When I know, and I can't even tell you, I can never tell you why I've seen him eat off the floor. Because it's so disgusting. How can he be fussy? I mean, honestly, I can't tell you.

That's how bad it was. I've seen him off the grass. I've seen him eat and it's like grim, grim, grim, grim.

But he's fussy over maybe the dog food I give him. Or perhaps the you know, he won't he won't eat part of this. He doesn't really he doesn't really eat the pastry on a sausage roll anyway.

It's only the sausage roll that he eats. But it's like, do I like? I'm not sure if I want that. Yeah, but it's etched in my memory what I saw him eating like from the grass like, oh, so I can't get my head around that.

So that was nice. So we got we got the sausage rolls, two sausage rolls, Cornish pasty and a Bakewell tart. Then I went into the pharmacy.

And I waited. So there was it's quite busy. I think they're doing vaccinations.

And also there was a queue of people in the middle of the shop for the counter. I went around to the side. And what I noticed is there was three people queuing when I first got in there.

The person at the end of that queue looked at me, I just saw my peripheral looked at me almost and I'm mind reading, which is not always the best thing to do. Almost like, oh, you're going to try and push through, get to the front of the queue, get served that side before me, which was not my plan at all. My plan was to get served before everybody.

No, it's like, I took in there because I've got Vinnie, Vinnie will jump up at people. And they are dog friendly in there. So they don't give me hassle.

At least I used to think they are. But a lady came out and said, do you want to serve that man with a dog? So I don't know if they wanted him out. But they didn't say anything about wanted him out.

And I said, No, that that lady's next. And she looked at me, she said, Oh, I knew you was one of the good guys. She didn't say that.

But I imagine she probably thought it. And also, she probably thought, Oh, you've lost weight in your face, haven't you? You're so handsome. You really should dye your beard dark.

Because all that grey makes you look ancient. Is there anything wrong with having grey in your beard? I don't know. Don't people look like they've dyed their beard? People, people have dyed their beard look like they've dyed their beard.

I saw someone on TV today. And it's a celebrity, two celebrity singers, both around the same age. One, both had beards.

Both had the same kind of hairstyle. One had grey in his beard. The other one had a dark beard and dark hair.

And you could just see the chances so you can you can pass the beard tends to get grey. In my experience, the beard gets grey before the hair, or it gets more grey. So to have a beard with no grey at all.

And to be in your 60s, which this person is. Let me say how old he is. I'm gonna say his name in case.

I'd say he's got to be in his 60s. 62. Now, it's really weird because he's, it looks like he's had his eyes done.

Oh, yeah, he's, his eyes were bigger when he was younger. Now they're blimey. They're a lot smaller.

I think he's had some work done. But hey, why not? What's it got to do with me? So, but you could see. And also, because he's got like gingery hair, or like reddish hair.

I know my beard was ginger. Ginger goes grey. It does go, ginger beard goes grey.

And all the gingers went grey in my beard first. And the one next to him that had grey in his beard, I think he looked, just looked more natural. It's, there comes a point if you see someone that, I mean, it's up to each individual person.

It's no one's business really, is it? But I just, you can't. But then, then on the flip side, I don't want to be walking around just looking really disheveled, which I probably do these days. But, you know, so I could try like, maybe be a bit smarter, physically.

More presentable, maybe wear nicer clothes, because I just don't wear nice clothes. I haven't had a haircut. I haven't had a haircut since, well actually it was 2022.

I had a couple of haircuts. But outside of that, I've never had a haircut for probably six, seven years. I've just been shaving my head.

Shave my head a couple of times, maybe three times a year. Let it grow, then shave it off again. Yeah, it's true.

I'm not lying. It's true. So, all right, so yeah, so I pick up, so I've got the letter from the pharmacy, from the, from the doctor's surgery.

So that's in my pocket. It's in an envelope. I got the sandwiches.

I asked for a carrier bag, because I want to put my prescription into the carrier bag as well. And he said, yeah, that's fine. So he puts that, put that in the carrier bag.

I go to the, and I get seen and get my prescription. Ask if my neighbor's prescription is there. This is the lady that also picks mine up sometimes.

And it was, so I clicked, did hers. And then I needed to get something from the convenience store. So I picked Vinnie up, and I just walk in there.

And they didn't say anything to me. So that was good. And then I'm probably waiting for about 15 minutes for the bus.

I could walk it in half an hour, but I just, because it'd been a lot of, we'd been out a long time, and I just, just wanted to just get on the bus. So that's what we did. We managed to bus turned up, got on there, got back to the estate, walked home.

And I just chucked the letter on the side. I didn't open it. But I did have a Cornish pasty and a Bakewell tart and a cup of tea.

And it was glorious. It was. And he had a sausage roll.

It was glorious. He only had this, he didn't, he doesn't like pastry anyway. He only likes the actual sausage part.

So, and that was it. And I was tired. Tired me out.

And all that drama, kind of like waiting around. And am I going to get seen by the receptionist? Is the late, you know, should I ask someone for help? And in the end, I did ask for help and I received it. And I was grateful as well.

I saw her afterwards. I said, thank you so much again. And she said, are you following me? I said, no, I'm not.

I'm just going back to where the bus is. She said, there's no, this is my driveway. There's no bus stops outside here.

She said, oh, okay. It's just a bit weird that you're standing in my driveway. I said, it's just weird that you live here.

That's all. The bus, there's a bus stop. She said, yeah, I know.

I live here. I know there's a bus stop. Wish there wasn't.

I said, why? Well, do you want a bus stopping outside your house every 10 minutes? I said, well, did you not know there was a bus stop there when you came and visited the house? You must have noticed. She said, no, it's a Sunday. There's no buses that day.

I said, there are buses on a Sunday. She said, yeah, every two hours. I said, yeah, tell me about it.

She said, well, it used to be every hour. I said, no, I don't really want you to tell me about it. Just, thanks for everything.

Can we, can you, you go inside and I'll just wait outside for the bus. She said, you're a bit rude, aren't you? I said, you're rude. So we laughed, had a bit of a cuddle.

And, uh, I got on a bus when the bus arrived. Obviously I can't get onto the bus before it arrives and get home, have, you know, have, eat some stuff. And I can't think what else happened yesterday.

I think that was pretty much it. And then, yeah, cause I don't even remember to be honest, but I had an early night. I went to bed early last night and woke up very early as well this morning.

What did I do today? I must've done something today. I made the recording, I took him out and then I can't even remember. I woke up really early, like half three or something, but I woke cause I'd been in bed.

I went to bed so early. I just, I was awake. So I got up and yeah, that was it really.

So I made the recording. It takes hours for all editing and the uploading and creating the ones with the music. It's a really, really long process, much longer than it used to be.

Mind you, I'm doing six versions, so it's going to take longer, but they're making the video and yeah, so it's, it takes a good few hours as well as the amount of time for the recorded. And, uh, oh dear. And then I'm thinking to myself, I need to send that letter off to the bus place.

Oh no. I'll tell you what happened today. Blimey.

I get a food delivery from Amazon, but it's like Morrison's. So they deliver like supermarket stuff and they deliver it, they deliver it in bags. So it's just a bit easier for me to get into the flat because of my, my lower back problems.

It's the less bending I do the better really for me. So when they get delivered in crates, I have to bend over so many times to put stuff into carrier bags. So don't get delivered in carrier bags anymore.

Anyway, I'm waiting the, they said it's going to be delivered between two and four and I go into the kitchen and I see a man outside with the boot open and you could see it was the bags, like the brown bags to Amazon, deliver the food and groceries in. And I'm thinking why my phone's not ringing. It says on the app that he's here, but he hasn't come into the building.

So I go downstairs cause I try to avoid that. Cause I, I put the ideas for the stuff to be delivered to my door. So then whether I'm in or not, it doesn't matter.

And it means I don't have to carry the stuff upstairs. Again, it's just, it's laziness. It's not laziness, it's my back.

I just, I can lift stuff afterwards. It's, it's a weird one anyway. So I go downstairs.

I'm thinking, I don't know, maybe he needed to phone me and he didn't have my number. And I thought I didn't want him driving off. So I went downstairs, see if he was all right.

I said, you're right mate. He said, yeah. And he said, are you whatever? And I said, yeah, I'm whatever you want to be, whatever you want me to be.

I, and he said, he laughed and we, he said, basically it's a problem. I said, well, isn't there always, he said, no, they're, they've only delivered part of your delivery. And I said, oh, this isn't something that happens very often.

I don't think it's ever happened. Maybe, maybe once before. And he said, I don't know what they delivered and what they haven't.

Or isn't that okay, not delivered, what they've packaged. So it's a different person that packages it and then puts it in and then they give it to them in the car, but they didn't give them all the stuff that they were supposed to bring. And he didn't find out until he was out on his route, on his round, his journey, whatever.

And he had the same problem with the last customer. So I bought the, we brought the stuff into the hallway, the, you know, the bottom of the stairs, loads of stuff missing. I thought it was going to be like one or two things, which wouldn't matter.

Just give me a refund. It's fine. It doesn't really matter.

But it was more than half of the stuff wasn't even there. And so he said, well, sorry about that. I said, it's not your fault, is it? He said, no, I know.

But you know, it's just never happened to him before. And I said, yeah, yeah, yeah. That's what they all say.

It's never happened. But it happens every week, doesn't it? Every day, daily occurrence. He said, no, it's never happened.

At that point, I realized he was quite serious. So I thought, put your truncheon down. And I had to figure out what was there and what wasn't there.

And he said, well, someone might come and deliver the other stuff to you later. I said, okay, cool. So I ended up carrying it upstairs, but it wasn't a lot to carry.

But which, you know, defeats the object again, a delivery, really, to me. And then not long afterwards, I get a text message saying, we couldn't deliver all your stuff. You need to let us know what you need a refund for.

So I had to run through this whole thing on this app. And it was wasn't easy. It was not an easy process.

Yeah, they need to make it easier. And I don't know. I had no idea when I'm going to get that refund.

How much I'm going to get refunded. And you know, I don't know. I mean, if they've not delivered it, then they surely should know what they've not delivered.

If they know what they have delivered, they should know what they haven't delivered. If they you know, because isn't it like barcoded and stuff. So that was all done on this layer.

This is what I was going to talk about. Those are still awake, those are not not, then you're not going to get to hear this. And that this is amusing, dated to 13th of September 2024.

13th of September, right? It is what day is it today? See, so it was the 6th of November yesterday. And they told me it was available to collect two weeks ago. So to whom it may concern.

So all this letter should be is Mr. Newland is on medication that causes drowsiness, which means he's unable to drive. Please give him a please send him a bus pass. That's that's pretty much the same letter.

Every time. And my throat made that weird noise again. That's because I got to try I need to drink more water when I'm talking.

Well, here we go. It's a different letter to what is normally sent. And because I don't have a doctor, I don't have like a regular doctor.

It's just whoever's available. So they've clearly they've basically gone into my file to check why am I wanting a bus pass. And they've given more information than they normally give.

This is it says this this this letter is issued as per request from patient. I didn't expect him to write all this. But anyway.

It says who I am at the top is everything like that. And it says he has severe mental illness. Including anxiety, depression, bipolar, and emotionally unstable personality disorder.

That's a mouthful in it. Please kindly consider. Please kindly consider this favorably and provide him with a bus pass.

If you need any further clarification, please do not hesitate to contact me. I feel like I've been chucked under the bus a little bit with this like where if you really want a bus pass, we're going to tell them everything about you in one sentence and make it as hard as this. Come on.

I was happy with the medication causing drowsiness. And which was kind of where I was going. And it's kind of gone down that road, rather than focusing too much on the severity of my stuff.

So yeah, after I've taken a photograph of this for my phone on my phone, by go send it off tomorrow. It's one of those letters that I can't quite like to put on the wall because just I don't know why it's just weird. It's weird to see in print.

See that sentence. Let's do it again. He has severe mental illness, including anxiety, depression, bipolar, and emotionally unstable personality disorder.

It see that written like that. It's just weird. It's just weird.

I don't quite know how to really present it to you in any other way other than it's unusual. It's not unusual to be for anyone. Right, so that's pretty much it.

That's the recording. That's that's me done. So as a as a short recording, still lasted an hour and a half.

But I thought I'd just give you a little catch up on what's been going on. And that's what's been going on. Just been.

That's it really. Yeah, nothing else. It's nearly quarter to 11.

So is not not long and I'll be going to bed. I'll take take this little one maybe into the garden for a wee wee. And then we'll go to bed.

Although he's fast asleep, cuddled up to me right now. Fast asleep. It's weird because as soon as I move the microphone, he will jump up.

It's weird, you know, whenever I turn the machine on, he runs in there. But as soon as I move the to be kind to yourself because you do deserve to be happy and be gentle with yourself. And remember, tomorrow's Q&A Friday.

So if you've got any questions, please post them on the Facebook group, Jason Newland's Boring Group. I'm going to move the microphone in a second. So lots of love.

Bye. Bye. See, straight away, straight away.

You're awake, aren't you? Honestly, the microphone doesn't even make a move. It doesn't make a sound.