(Overnight Music) #1659 Let Me Bore You To Sleep | 5th August 2026

Hello and welcome to Let Me Bore You To Sleep. My name is Jason Newland and please only listen when you can safely close your eyes. Today is Wednesday the 5th of August 2026 and it's 7.23 in the morning.

Yeah it's light outside because it's summer. It's really weird because in a couple of months time it will be dark out there at this time. It's crazy isn't it.

That's the only thing last year and beginning of this year that I've really been focusing on. Not the heat, not the cold, not the wet, not the the actual weather itself but the length of the day. Who'd have thought when I was a teenager I'd be concerned about the length of the day.

Blimey. But yeah and I follow it from like all the way up to the the shortest day of the year. Then I start to look forward to the light the day's becoming longer and it getting lighter earlier and it's staying lighter longer because I maneuver myself around the daylight hours.

By that I mean I don't go out when it's dark. I don't take video out when it's dark. So I don't go out until it's light outside and the last time I take him out is just before it gets dark.

So I don't mean like dark dark but you know when it starts to get dark. The silly billy dog's just started. It's a bit early isn't it for a dog to be barking.

Here's a question. Are you okay for me to just to leave the dog barking in because it registers very little on the Richter scale of my recording. You can hear it but it's very distant.

Does it affect the recording? I understand that you know if it was a hypnosis recording that's a different thing but if you're not bothered let me know because I'll just leave it in because it if it wasn't for that dog editing these recordings would be a lot easier. Ever ever so much easier. I'm having dreams where I'm flying more and more often but it's not just flying it's actually controlling it.

Choosing to do it showing off in fact. So when I walk when I go downstairs I don't walk downstairs I just float downstairs. When I'm going through like a supermarket or shopping centre I don't walk I float through it so that people look at me and think wow he's floating.

Although no one's ever come up to me and said wow are you just floating? That's never happened in a dream. It's almost like when I'm dreaming everybody else in the dream knows it's a dream. It's like they're in on it.

They're all part of the illusion. In my last dream I stopped a fight which is good. There was this disagreement going on and I stopped it.

It involved a shopping trolley. Yeah it was strange. I was sitting in I think I was at home but it definitely wasn't the house that I used to live in.

I was on my computer and my dad was watching television. I was on a table again a different house set up so I don't know where we was living. It's like well it's a dream isn't it? It's not real and I'm worried that he's found out stuff that happens in my dreams.

Something that I kind of go back to every now and then. It's like a family thing. It's nothing well it's probably not good but it's nothing like horrible horrible just something I shouldn't have been doing and it never happened in real life.

It was just in a dream. I'm thinking oh you set a camera up to film me and there's this both the parents go to bed early and me and my brother's are kind of like well we've gone to bed early that's weird and I decide to wash the plates and we tiptoe a little bit a bit.

I say we're a little bit sort of concerned a little bit like I suppose not wanting to upset anyone and I go upstairs to my room again it's not the room that I lived in when I was a kid and on the stairs there's a man talking about saying did you remember to bring me my pants? I said what? He said or was it socks? No socks.

Did you remember to buy me my socks? I said oh sorry I forgot and I said it's okay I'll go and get them in the morning or later on and I said I'm going to get you pink flowery ones.

He laughed and I'm in my bedroom and he's having a conversation with someone else and he says to me oh don't worry about getting the socks someone's already got them for me but I need to get something from the shopping center so suddenly I'm at the shopping center floating on purpose but I can't remember what I want what I've gone there for but I'm very busy showing off I want everyone to see that I can fly and there's one point where I actually did fly but at the same time kept

myself quite close to the ground because that's where people could see me so I didn't really get any higher than above their heads and I don't know why this did just seem like a bit of a pointless dream really I was actually thinking I don't know if it was yesterday or the day before or maybe it's after talking to my friend yeah on the phone and I started thinking what is the point of worried about things now this isn't a new thing obviously it's not new for anyone I guess but

it's not new for me to think that you know what's the point in worrying but it's because I had this conversation with my friend and or someone and we were talking about you know when people say oh don't worry it might never happen well the things that I sometimes worry about are inevitable so that like oh it may never happen it's not viable it's not it's not a useful statement anymore because I'm not necessarily worrying about little stuff but I came to the conclusion without like just regurgitating old sayings how

is worrying helping me in what way is it helping and there's no answer to that because well there is an answer it's not helping how would not worrying help well I'd feel more relaxed I feel peaceful and it's not like I'm special it's you know whatever's going to happen to me happens to every single human being on the planet and has done for millions of years if or five thousand years depending on what you believe there's still a lot of years and there's a lot of people so it's like why

am I worrying about stuff like that and it's not it's not really like worried but it's thinking about it like why am I thinking about that when I could be thinking about nice things when I could be imagining doing some things that I enjoy planning things to look forward to having fun so the last couple of days I've been thinking about that like how how do I want my life to be going forward I don't mean like in the next day or even in the next few months but I don't

want to leave it too late but how what would I like to do how would I like what kind of lifestyle would I enjoy and I thought about it and the answer is not new it's not new for me because it has been something that I've been thinking about quite a lot for quite a long time I'd like well first of all I want to continue doing this just continue doing this but I'd like to do this whilst being somewhere else and I don't necessarily mean all the time so I'd

like to go back to Thailand and I'd like to maybe get involved in one of the Buddhist monasteries go and meditate and you know that stuff there maybe meet someone but definitely wake up to a sunny day most days definitely wake up to hearing sounds I would never hear in this country I don't mean screeching ah oh ah I mean that's those sounds um I mean the sounds of all the tropical birds the smell of the tropical forest and the food that's the one thing I've never experienced it anywhere else

I've been and I'm not well traveled but I have been to a few places I've never been anywhere before that smelt nice it wasn't just the food but the forest the all the different smells from the forest that was close by mixed together with the food that's being cooked it's unlike anything I'd experienced before and also the friendliness how friendly um most of the people that I met were a place where if you show respect you get respect and you get respect until that point where you stop being respectful then

then it changes but that's natural so over here it just I'm not you know I'm not saying anything bad about the people that live in the UK but it's quite a negative a bit of a negative place to be and that's how I've been brought up to be as well a little bit not like horribly negative just you know the old song the life of Brian song always look on the bright side of life was not it's not a song that English people walk around singing or thinking generally I think

it's I mean it's weird to see people in Thailand and a lot of them they don't have much they're they're living day to day yet they seem happy they seem content some not all of them obviously not not all everyone everywhere anywhere it's so you know but as a as a group they don't seem as if they need all the stuff that in the West I've been you know me and whoever else I just talk for myself I've been brought up wanting stuff always wanting the new thing the thing is

during my adult life I've spent a lot of my adult life living day-to-day like they do in sort of Thailand a lot of the time I'm maybe I've been unemployed waiting for money to come through living on practically nothing sometimes I've been homeless so I was miserable absolutely miserable during those times I didn't find any any any reason to smile but they smile it's almost like it's a natural the ability to smile for me I have to plan a smile I have to practice it in the mirror my natural state

is not miserable I think you know the old resting B face that I think people now call it RS resting RBS I can't do all of that kind of breaking things down into synonyms is that what it's called we just break it down into like the first letter of each word I can't be doing that because if I do that too much I forget what the actual real meaning of it is so if I keep talking if I keep saying RBS RBS RBS eventually I'll forget what it stands for I

think it's resting something it's like CBT I generally would use cognitive behavioral therapy because I want to remember what I'm talking about if I just use the word CBT all the time I'll forget that it's cognitive behavioral therapy maybe it's just the way my brain works but I like to use the full words and I've noticed that I guess with mobile phones text speech and then the internet and then like Facebook and stuff other kind of messages services and apps and then like snapchat I suppose I've never used it but

then tiktok and those kinds of places where people just I was going to say it's not established what the terminology they're using but it might be established I just I just don't know about it and half the time I literally don't know what's being said I try and I try and decipher it and to me that's not really what communication is that's a different language you know communication isn't talking in different languages communication is talking in the same language using the same the back veracular verbacular vervacular verbacular whatever it is

using the same terminology the same maybe not the same phrases because I think they can get a bit tedious after a while if I if I hear someone if I'm listening to someone let's say on YouTube or watching them and they come out with something really old like oh I wouldn't touch them with a barge pole I wouldn't throw them as far as I could I wouldn't trust them as far as I could throw them that's it that's that one I wouldn't pee on them if they're on fire things like

that it's like as soon as I hear stuff like that I don't want to listen anymore because the creativity is gone if they can't think up their own version of that then it's like well I don't know I think sometimes it's because some people that make YouTube videos you know like this like talking just generally I think they call it a talking head they'll actually write a script and I can't imagine needing to write a script I can imagine like notes I mean I definitely if I was coming on here

to talk about a specific thing I would need notes to remind me to talk about the things that I'm on here to talk about because you may not notice about me but sometimes I can drift in a different direction so to keep me focused on the particular subject and to mention the various things that are important I'd need a list but not a script to read like hello how are you welcome to jasonnewland.com blah blah blah no I couldn't do that and there was a time when uh answer machines came

into fashion and people used to leave answer machine messages so first of all there was the idea of a computer voice hello please leave a message after the whatever and sometimes you're able to just put your name in weren't you yes hello my name is dee and you could just like juicy jay jay I'm not here at the moment please leave a message after the beep beep and then they became a little bit more advanced and the newer ones it gave you the opportunity or the the owner the opportunity to

record their own full message and the amount of people that would leave a message that sounded like a robot their own voice their own message but they sounded like a robot because I thought they were I suppose affected by the original message that was on there by a robotic voice so they felt they needed to talk like that instead of just talking normally I knew one person that answered the phone hello this is stuart please leave your message after the tone like robotic like that if I why just say hi

it's stuart I'm not in at the moment leave a message I'll get back to you just like a general thing now when I had an answer machine my problem is I couldn't I could never get the message on the system without it running out of space because breaking up what I'm saying into a small section has always been fairly difficult with me unless I'm in a really really uh kind of I'm not a great mood where I'm just answering with one one word answers then in when I'm like that I

can make things very very to the point that reminds me I don't know why it reminds me because it's got nothing to do with it really but I'm meeting my friend today at 10 o'clock in a coffee place and it's weird because I want to meet him he's one of my best friends I don't see him very often don't speak to him very often but every time I see him even if it's a long period of time it's the same as if I saw him yesterday there's no difference it's weird

I don't have that with many people and because he doesn't have a life of drama it probably doesn't seem I don't know what I mean by that when I see him in you know a few years ago everything was drama around here it was like non-stop drama and if you get a year like that it seems like a long time a week can seem like a really long time when it's just silly things going on police and ambulance being called and all kinds of weird stuff and I went through that

for years living here it pretty much came to an end about three years ago so in those kind of situations if I met someone who I hadn't seen for months I could never catch them up with what's going on you know I kind of needed to see someone regularly so I could download all my stuff but now there's practically nothing going on which I'm not complaining about just a a very barky dog over the fence which sometimes it gets to me sometimes but hey our little dog here who is cool

until he starts screaming someone knocks at my door even comes into the building and he hears them so high-pitched but he is a good boy he is he's just he's highly strong and I think that's just a Jack Russell way the only thing I do really is the two things I do in a day that I kind of have to do well the only thing I have to do obviously apart from eat and look after myself and take care of Vinnie take him out a couple of times in this heat

he gets to go out in the morning and in the evening before the heat and after the heat can't take him out midday anymore but once the weather gets back to being kind of normalish he'll get to go out three times sometimes four you know if it's sometimes I take him out like eight then I take him out again at 12 take him out again at maybe three or four then take him out again about eight so sometimes I do that depending on the weather and but I'm more likely to

do three take him out three times especially I mean last year I decided I'm not going out in the dark anymore with him because as my eyesight is kind of is not as good as it used to be I can't see I mean I can't see in the dark generally but I can't see what's around I can see kind of movement and I need to be able to just keep him safe and there's a few dogs there's a couple of massive dogs on the estate who well be one's not so

big but one's really big and they both seem to want to they lick their lips when they see Vinnie I think they think he's a rabbit or a squirrel so I don't go out when it's dark anymore so I don't need a torch necessarily and it's also the thing like when he's been to a toilet I've got to pick it up very hard to do that when it's dark even with a torch because as soon as he's finished I've got to shine the torch on the area he's pulling so as

soon as he's done he starts pulling the lead so really I need three hands one for the bag to pick up the poo one to hold the torch and one to hold his rein his lead thing and he's very strong considering how tiny he is his body weighs 10% of my body weight if that and he's strong if he was my weight he would be able to I mean blimey he'd be able to just knock a house down I don't know why I said that because I can't knock a house

down but he'd be super strong and I don't mean I'm super strong but for a dog for a little dog I mean but then he wouldn't be a little dog would he because he'd be 10 times his size but no he wouldn't be 10 times his size because he's not 10% of my size but he is 10% of my weight I think I don't know he doesn't weigh much I mean he can't weigh more than 10 kilos maybe he does and I'm 100 plus kilos so maybe he does weigh more

than 10 maybe he's 20 kilos I need to weigh him don't I just to get an idea I remember saying to someone I can't weigh him he won't stand on the scales and I said well if you pick him up and then stand on the scales then you're going to get a rough idea about how much he weighs I thought okay a couple of days later they said did you did you do the weight and I said yeah you're right I said well how much does he weigh then I said

he weighs about 112 kilos she said no that's not how it works I said that's what it was I can show you and do it again I said no but you've got to take off your own weight ah it's those little light bulb moments isn't it that it makes sense when I hear someone mention it and you know say it out loud but before that it was just a confusing another confusing moment the thing is even though I've got this meeting with my friend and it's only around the corner I

don't want to go out which is clearly a problematic situation because I don't want to go out I don't want to not I don't want to see him I just don't want to have to get ready and go out because I've got my little routine here's my routine I wake up early I do some internet stuff have my breakfast and then I listen to some music and relax and usually fall back to sleep on the sofa then I wake up make a recording Vinnie flaps his ears and then I if

I have time I'll edit the recording then I'll take Vinnie out come back and have my breakfast again I have two breakfasts my second breakfast is about either 10 past 9 or 10 past 10 depending and I'll watch Frasier while I'm eating my breakfast my second breakfast then I'll kind of relax maybe do some internet stuff uploading things or re-uploading things that need to be re-uploaded or I'll work on the editing and processing of the recording I did earlier because each recording after the actual recordings of it itself takes about

roughly about two hours depending let's say roughly two hours to go through the whole process of editing it processing it and then uploading it to the various places that I upload it so I upload it to Spreaker I also upload it to SoundCloud I also upload it to my website and that's quite time consuming to do that and then I might listen to some music or I might do something else and then probably about two two o'clock I'll have something to eat and then about four or five I'll make a

second recording and when I've done that recording I'll take Vinnie out I'll get back and have something to eat and then after eating I'll watch a bit of TV then I'll go back and I'll finish off whatever editing or process that is required for the latest recording and I don't go to bed until everything's completed and as I said it can take two hours sometimes longer if the recording needs a lot of editing it can take a while and also depends on how slow the internet's moving as well so to

upload sometimes it's fairly quick sometimes it's really slow then there's the making the editing the title creating an image and then creating a new page on my website adding the information there then uploading the recordings to that page so that you can download all six versions at once completely free uploading to SoundCloud so that my I think it's Spotify uses my SoundCloud and I've got two different SoundCloud accounts so to make sure that Spotify is up to date so Apple Spotify all the others are all up to date all on

the same wavelength as it were and at the end of that it's time to bed and I'm so pleased to have completed it to get it done oh then I have then I share it on Facebook as well none of that stuff I suppose the hardest part is the editing it's not hard but that's probably the one that I have to perhaps give the most attention to well apart from the recording as well when it comes to the uploading that's more of a time-consuming thing because I have to wait while

each recording is uploading then I have to wait while it's processed sometimes I have to transfer it from one computer to another from my iPad to the storage system and then onto my my laptop and I have to do that with the website because I can't upload the recordings directly from the iPad to my website so I have to trans copy and transfer or copy and paste the new recordings onto my hard drive and then plug it into the laptop and upload from there onto the website it's just it's just

the way it is just just just just just the way it is just the way just the way just the way it is if it was just making recordings which I kind of wish it was I could just go by how I feel you know if I fancy making recording I'll make a recording and just press upload at the end of it that would be nice but that's not available I mean there are some programs you can use some apps and they will edit the recording for you but what they'll

do is they'll take out gaps but they can't listen to the recording and take out stuff that you know for example if I repeat myself so let's say this let's imagine there's a dog in the garden and it's particularly loud I have to kind of stop wait for the dog to stop barking and then but I'd mark the recording by tapping on a microphone or going or making a raspberry sound so that it marks it on the the actual recording so I can see it and then I might start back

and repeat the last sentence I just said maybe not in exactly the same way but you know just for continuity so I have to listen to the recording and go through so the more of those there are the longer it takes because I have to listen to before and after and make sure that I edit out the right bits otherwise it just wouldn't make sense well it would make less sense I'm not sure if it ever makes sense why do you talk about your dreams don't worry about it I'm kind

of interested actually I'm interested in dreams the thing is with dreams are probably a little bit like real life is I don't think any of us can share everything there's certain aspects of dreams that are so unrealistic and I don't I really don't believe in wish fulfillment when it comes to dreams just based on the dreams I've had no not at all do I wish that that would be real so no sometimes maybe but generally nah no no no no I think that's why sometimes those kinds of thinking or thought

it's not always useful it's very can be very limiting you know someone imagine someone like Sigmund Freud and he's got a system and then starts using that system for everything and it clearly doesn't work for everything you don't have to be a psychologist or even particularly intelligent to see that some of the stuff he came out with was a little bit silly actually some of it and the more I found the more I kind of studied him and what he came up with and how he came up with it and

who he was influenced by and also up to date methodology regarding psychological studies or whatever I've also made some of the things he came out with sound a bit silly but then quite a lot of stuff he said was really really amazing so he's trying to choose that's why I struggle with some ways of thinking whether it's let's say religion is an as an example never mention religion I'll talk about Buddhism something I know about there's some parts of Buddhism that I just think it's amazing like phenomenally mind-blowing but there's

some parts of it that don't really fit into how I think and because of that I know there's only a certain level I'm ever going to be within that movement because to me you know we don't have reincarnation in Buddhism it's rebirth it's the same thing isn't it no well yeah kind of to be fair is kind of is the same thing but it's not with the rebirth it's kind of yeah it's kind of very similar actually but it's it's based upon the kind of life that the person's led prior

to leaving and it's all mapped out all these different realms and you know how you come back if you did this or if you did that or if you live your life this way or that way and the ultimate goal is really you're going to come back you're going to return so if you're naughty instead of coming back and returning in a into kind of a world where you can't gain any merit it's all about gaining merit sort of not money but merit so that when it comes to deciding what

happens at the end it's kind of weighed up you know sort of I'm being very simplistic because that's how I think maybe and the ideal situation is you don't come back to be a non-returner means that you're going to reach enlightenment in this lifetime you're just there you're just on the cusp of it but I remember saying to some of my buddhist teachers that I really don't care about enlightenment and I don't want to be perfect and they didn't get it they didn't understand it because I don't care about it

I don't don't you if you don't believe in that you're not a buddhist but I don't need to believe in anything I just doing the practices meditating wishing people well you know helping people that in itself is a great way to live in my opinion my opinion don't need all the other stuff and that's why I used to used to really be in love with Jesus this is going in a weird direction oh he's now he's talking about Jesus now no what I mean is when I was a kid it

was just the kindness that I loved I didn't care about religion the all the kind of rituals and what happens afterwards in heaven or that never interested me it was being being able to be nice and help people healing people that's what intrigued me that's what interested me none of the other stuff I had no interest in what happened after Easter or what happened after Good Friday I had no no interest in what happened at Christmas the only thing I was interested in is the stories where he helped people where

he was loving and kind to people where he defended people that's that's what I got out of the Bible the kindness and that's what I got out of Buddhism was the kindness the parables or the the stories the words of wisdom the like you know just things like anger that some of the Buddhist terms are very well known in normal language now things like um if someone chucks a hot coal at you and you catch it very outdated idea isn't it because who uses coals if someone chucks a hot coal

at you and you and you catch it and hold it in your hands that's the same as being angry with someone because it's going to hurt you so someone's chucking insults at you if you hold on to those insults then all you're going to do is hurt yourself so the analogy of chucking a hot coal instead of getting out of the way which is the thing you should do or kicking it back maybe or batting it back if you've got a bit of wood but to catch it you're just going

to burn your hand unless you're wearing really thick thermal gloves or something then maybe you wouldn't I don't know but yeah you know I mean basically and that's one of those things that's in kind of common chit chat these days those kinds of short stories as an illustration and I mentioned the person who said the term you know when arguing about who's right who's wrong the very first person that shouted out the sentence even a clock even a broken clock is right twice a day I don't know who said it

first but they must have been so pleased with themselves even a broken clock is right twice a day so if you're having an argument sort of saying about who's right and wrong it's yeah no I didn't hear that one probably until about 10 years ago I don't I still don't know where I heard it but the first time I heard it it was like wow that's true that is and then I just moved on with my life it's just yeah it's true but will I ever use it I don't know

so when I talk about like religious stuff it's not in the same way as you probably hear it anywhere else because I have zero interest in all the metaphysical stuff the spiritual stuff you know oh people say aren't you concerned what happens you know at the end and what where you go like no zero interest zero interest in that never I'll be don't you don't want to see all the people that have gone before you all your loved ones and all your friends no no I don't actually no I'm fine

it's like it doesn't give me any comfort and I understand it can so good for those that do believe that and it gives them comfort but it just I don't nothing it doesn't have any emotional connection with me in any way I'd love to see my nan again but I did see her a lot I'd love to see my little Andre again but I was with him 24 hours a day for years you know I've got memories I realize those memories might not always be there but I've got them at

the moment and I've got film film footage of Andre I think I've only got one one or two pictures of my nan but I remember what she looks like I don't need pictures to see someone to know what they look like and I remember her so you know if it's a case of people only they only go they're only enlightened or they only go to heaven or whatever if they believe then I won't be going anywhere because I don't care it's just that this doesn't interest me it's it's as interesting

to me as hearing what you had for dinner last night it's just that I don't you know I've got a neighbor and literally every time I see him they say what are you having for dinner tonight I'm like what what am I having what am I gonna eat in six hours time what first of all how should I know I'm not perhaps as organized as some people are but I why would you want to talk about food about what you're gonna eat I mean what what so yeah I just don't

have any interest in things like that maybe I'm the odd one out and maybe I maybe perhaps I should be interested in what other people are eating but I'm as interested in that as I am in their bowel movements I just not really that it doesn't doesn't grip me I don't know if that's the right word to use oh dear but yeah I don't know really it's very strange very very very very strange perhaps I should be more interested in stuff like that but I don't know I do admire people

that are spiritual that have a sense of peacefulness and calmness within them and people that really know you know they feel that they know one million percent exactly what's going to happen so having that kind of belief I guess is it's powerful can be limiting but it is very powerful hmm what a weird conversation to have you know I'm all for anybody believing whatever they want to believe sort of nothing to do with me what anyone else believes or has for dinner or how many times I do a poo in

a day none of my business one thing I do find kind of amusing is these demonstrations in the streets that we have in this country in the cities and they'll be demonstrating against someone something or someone or an idea or an organization whatever and they're shouting and they're angry and you look at them as a group and there's often a lot of very elderly people there and I wonder if someone's in their 70s you know getting on to 80s why are they spending time being angry hmm maybe it maybe it

makes them feel alive feel needed to be part of something bigger than them maybe they're just happy to get out the house I really don't want to go out so I'm gonna have to have a wash get all dressed and stuff make myself clean wash me hair and be there by 10 it's now 8 31 what I might do is just take Vinnie into the garden to do a wee wee I don't know what kind of day it's going to be I'm pretty sure it's going to be a bright well

already is a bright day out there it's very likely to be a hot day as well so I am going to go I suppose I should say what my belief system is I believe that the most important thing in life this is for me not for anyone else the most important thing is life is to help others that's it and unlike a lot of people that are kind of got really religious beliefs I don't believe that other people should think that or believe that it's immaterial what other people believe that's

just what I believe and I'm happy to be around anybody else with any other beliefs because I don't care because I've met people pretty much of every belief there is and I've got on all right with all of them because ultimately it's about the person isn't it getting on with someone is more to do with their personality I would say than what their religious belief is so thank you for listening remember to be kind to yourself because you do deserve to be happy and be gentle with yourself you deserve to feel safe lots of love bye