(music) Q&A Friday Let me bore you to sleep #1331 18th April 2025

Hello and welcome to jasonnewland.com. My name is Jason Newland. Please only listen when you can safely close your eyes. This is Q&A Friday.

Q&A Friday, but being recorded on a Saturday. So, I should have done this yesterday. Good Friday, the 18th of April, 2025.

But I am now doing it instead on Saturday, the, I suppose still a good Saturday, maybe 19th of April. Did I say 18th of April yesterday? 19th of April today, 2025 at 7.44am. That's more information than any of us really needed, isn't it? And I'm wearing my pink Crocs. I mean, my right buttock is itchier than my left buttock.

I mean, what, what, what stuff do we really need to hear about? Oh, okay. He really wants a treat. But for some reason, he's got, he's on the city, happy to clean himself.

If I crinkle the thing. Oh, yeah, he's noticed. Do you want a treat? Chewy Chicken Twists, with 100% natural chicken breast meat, promotes dental hygiene.

Good boy, it's called. And let me say, what is it? He's just looking at me like, who cares what it says on the packet? Just give me it. A complete pet food.

Okay. Good boy. He loves them.

Basically. He loves them. I would say it's probably his favourite treat that he's had ever.

Sorry about all the noise, the chair's a bit clickery. Clickery. So he's got that, that'll keep him occupied for about, occupied? He'll keep him occupied for about 10 minutes, I think.

Unlike most other treats, which keep him occupied for, like treat treats, which keep him occupied for maybe 10 seconds. You know, the ones that are edible, the only things that keep, that last any amount of time, is like a bone thing. I'm thinking that can keep him going for an hour or two.

Well, an hour, maybe. An egg. He likes to break up the eggshell into a million pieces.

So, you know, that can keep him going for probably about 20 minutes. I feel like I want to time him now, just to see how long it actually takes, but I won't. So I'll briefly tell you about what happened last night, or yesterday, just because the reason, oh, I've already gone itch.

Oh. Bloody fleas. So I will tell you what happened yesterday, because I posted yesterday on my Facebook group, which is Jason Newland's Boring Group, wasn't able to do Q&A Friday today due to some neighbour drama.

But we'll try and do it tomorrow. I'm going to bed. Well, I'm now going to bed.

Now, that wasn't grammatically correct. I didn't put I wasn't able, just wasn't able. The English language is going downhill.

The written English language is going downhill. And I understand why, because there's so much stuff we don't need to really put in. Because no one's going to, I put wasn't able to do Q&A Friday.

Is there anyone in the world reading that thinking, who wasn't able to? Who's he talking about? Is he talking about Vinnie? Is he talking about the milkman? Is he talking about? I don't know. I'm just confused. No, it's me.

Obviously, I'm the first person. But it isn't, you know, grammatically correct. Mike wrote, I hope you update us on a drama in an upcoming episode.

I will update you on a drama in this for this one. In this episode, I will tell you right now. Well, in a minute, what happened? Because we've also got another message.

Oh, blimey, I did get a message, a comment posted on my Facebook group by a welcome new, a new member. Now I can't find it. Louisa.

Welcome. This is Hi, Jason. Hi, everyone.

You've been my sandman for a couple of years now. And every single night I tell myself, remember to join the Facebook group tomorrow. Then forget the moment I wake up.

But here I am. Lately, I've been really stressed. I have to leave London and move back to Paris.

Thanks, Brexit. And you've helped me unwind and let my mind wander. I haven't subscribed to a YouTube channel yet, but I will soon.

But over the years, I've built up this whole mental image of your flat, the windows, the garden, the setup, and I'm slightly scared it will clash with my imagination. Are you planning to visit? Are you planning to move in? Don't worry. I'm sure I don't know if I've actually done I haven't done much videos of the flat really.

I did a video when I first moved in when I got the carpet put in. So when I when I late when I got the carpet laid. Yeah, I was quite pleased because everything was immaculate.

Really, the whole fancy only time ever that the flat was immaculate. And since then, because I moved in in April 2015. In November, or maybe it was October, I don't know.

I think about November time I got Andre my little ferret. And from that moment on, the flat was no longer immaculate. And hasn't been since.

He destroyed the city that I had, like literally ripped it to bits. He destroyed the carpet. He pretty much destroyed the bottoms of all the doors.

He Yeah, he made it his own. And I still love him to bits. So you know, even though he's not around anymore.

But he I mean, I made my, my impression as well. I mean, it's not like he's the only one can't blame him for everything. And then then a couple years ago, I got Vinnie.

And he's pretty much done the same, you know, ripped up the carpet and done, you know, just he's a little dog. And he's, he is. He keeps the place very messy.

And it's good because I can blame him, even though probably most of the mess is me. So I'm messy. I'm a bit messy.

I'm better off. I mean, I don't have much stuff really, other than the equipment to make the podcasts, the television, and some books. That's pretty much my belongings.

I don't have lots and lots of belongings. I don't. So really, it's, I would say it's relatively tidy in here.

It's just this stuff on the floor that I don't need to be picked up. His toys are all over the floor. And the bedroom is close on the bedroom floor, you know, things like that.

So you can help tidy up when you move in. Right, what's next? I did it yesterday. Well, so I'll admit that I was running behind.

I wasn't really feeling it yesterday. Anyway. I spent a lot of the day in bed.

The morning I was relaxing, but I wasn't really I didn't have much in the way of energy. Okay. I took a little one out for a w a l. Okay.

And it was, you know, it was fine, said hello to a couple of people. It was nice enough. Came back, watched a bit of telly.

And really just sort of spent a bit of time in bed. In the afternoon, realizing I still hadn't done anything. Bearing in mind I've been making two to three recordings a day for the last week or so.

So I haven't not made one recording. And I didn't think did I even make a recording Thursday? I don't think I did. So I've gotten right downhill.

My work ethic is ridiculously bad. Terrible. If it was a job.

The last recording I did was the 17th of April. So yes, I was Thursday, Friday, Saturday. So I did do a recording on Thursday.

But I did one. But Wednesday, I did one, two. But on a set of Tuesday, I did one, two, two.

Monday, one, two, three. So yeah. Wow.

Sunday, I did three. Blimey. Okay.

We want another one. That's the last one. That didn't last 10 minutes, did it? He thinks this is food.

And it's not his food. It's not. It's a treat.

He thinks this is food. He didn't even eat his bowl of food like yesterday afternoon. Anyway, I get a phone call.

I'm here in a bit of commotion in the garden. Not my garden, but a garden nearby. And I don't really know what's going on.

There's always a bit of drama around here. You know, people shouting and stuff like that. And then I get a phone call from my friend, a local neighbour.

He said, can I just pop round and see you? I said, yeah, come round. He didn't seem very happy, but he came round. But his voice didn't seem great.

So his voice is fine, but he didn't seem in a good mood. That's what I mean. So anyway, he came round.

I'm not going to go in to specifics. But he came round and just told me that there's some problems he was having. And then later on, I saw a lady outside.

Bearing in mind, I was in the middle of watching Big Brother. So I had two goals yesterday. Catch up with Big Brother.

So that I could watch the final, you know, the eviction night live, having caught up with it. So I'd already watched one episode. So I was two episodes behind.

And I was going to watch Thursday's episode, and I got about 10 minutes into it. So there was still quite a bit, maybe 15 minutes, there's still quite a lot to go. But I paused it with my friend said he was going to come around my neighbour.

So he came round. And then I fast forward a little bit. There was a lady outside the front of my building, laying on the pavement.

And it was like, okay, what's going on here. So I went in sort of, she was unconscious at this point. She was breathing, like, you know, she was kind of moving around a bit.

But there was cans of drink on the floor next to her, like alcoholic drinks. So I'm like, oh, okay. Now this, this, this whole, this kind of surprised me a little bit.

So I called for an ambulance. I they said, is she breathing? I said, yeah. What's her name? I don't know what her name is, which I didn't.

I did find out later. And they were saying, you know, what's wrong with her? I said, no, that's why I've called for an ambulance. I don't, I really don't know.

I just found her, she's lying on the floor on the pavement. And I'm just concerned that she needs medical help. So when I told them about the cans of alcohol, I said, she does, you know, I think she might have been drinking.

Immediately, it's almost like they lost interest in the conversation. Which was weird, because I was talking to someone who literally was telling, like, usually they quite attentive and, and, but they take it seriously. This, this bloke didn't seem to really be interested.

As soon as alcohol was involved, he wasn't like, oh, oh, well. And I was kind of surprised at that. And I said, yeah, but she's a vulnerable female.

She's not able to protect herself. She's not able to really stop anyone doing anything they want to do right now. And no one's helping her.

The weird thing is, as I said, these people were starting to stop. It turned out, she'd been out there for three hours. But she'd been knocking on people's doors.

And some of the neighbors were actually keeping an eye out on her. But because she was drunk, they just didn't know what to do with her, you know. They didn't want to let her in their house.

And she was given the, she was given her dad's phone number to different neighbors and stuff. So she had that down in her head. This is a mobile number.

She had both her mom and her dad's phone number lodged in her head. So I don't know. I don't know how drunk she could have been if she was able to recall two mobile phone numbers.

But maybe that's just how what I, shows my ignorance maybe. I don't know. I just don't know how much of it was like it exaggerated.

But at the time, I didn't know she was drunk. Yeah, she had some cans, but you know, she might have had, as far as I was concerned, I didn't know, she might have tripped over and hurt herself. She might have had a seizure, she might have, it's all kinds of weird things.

You know, just because someone's been drinking alcohol doesn't mean that they're exempt from medical attention. That's my opinion. So I mean, yeah, if it's self inflicted.

Okay, but lots of things are self inflicted. Someone driving really rubbishly and speeding. And if they have a crash, ambulance still come.

They don't say, oh, you're speeding. No, no, no, not going to help you, do they? In fact, literally, literal self inflicted wounds get treated by an ambulance. So Vinnie, stop fidgeting, please, mate.

Blimey. He's not even eating all of that treat. So I called an ambulance.

I had this weird conversation and they said, is she injured? So I said, are you injured? Because at this point, she had her eyes open and she nodded yes. I said, she's nodding yes. Oh, I don't know what we're going to do.

I've never had a conversation with someone from the ambulance before. They usually like stick to the script. It's almost like you just put the script down and went for a cigarette break.

Just talking to me while I was on a cigarette break. Yeah, well, you know, not much we can really do is really, well, can you send the police or something? Because she's not in a good way. And she's vulnerable, vulnerable female.

Because I realised they're not that bothered about men. So maybe they'll be cared a bit more about women in that situation. But no.

And it's weird. And they said, we'll call, call us back. We'll call the police.

But you know, we don't know if they're going to come or not. And if anything worse happens, just call us back. Okay.

So then she, she's laying in the road. She's like half laying in the road. And I'm thinking, well, this is getting more dangerous now.

Because I mean, luck. Yeah, I was I was standing in the road with her. I'm the one who pushed in the road.

No, I wasn't. I was standing there with her to make sure no cars kind of ran her over. Because literally, there was a car parked just in front.

So there's a bend. So it would have been quite easy for a car to drive around the other car not knowing that she was behind the car. You know, it was kind of a bit of a blind spot I could imagine.

Especially if they were driving into park. And they could have they could have hit her potentially. So I stopped.

I it's quite weird. So they were kind of standing around like we're gonna do a bloke stopped with his dog who's another neighbor's walking his dog. And which was I was glad I was glad to have that support to be honest.

I just didn't know what to do. I didn't know. And then so I called the police.

And the police are talking to me and so she's in the road. Can you not get her off the road? I said I don't I'm so I don't want to touch her. You know, she's, as I said before, she's a she's a female vulnerable.

I don't want to be grabbing her. And I understand if there was it was a motorway I'd have to wouldn't have to think about it. But this is a very quiet road.

And there's no way anyone was going to hit her because I was stopping it. But she's like, Oh, and she was telling me to get away from her. So that you know that that in itself wasn't particularly good.

And he said, Well, have you tried putting your trousers back on and then offering to help? And I said, I'm wearing trousers was stupid. And he said, Well, you know, we could that didn't that didn't happen. I don't know why I'm saying that.

And she's it went weird after this. That that wasn't the weird part. So I step away, she starts getting up.

So she's getting up now. And she starts talking to someone else. She goes over to a car and starts trying to open a car door, pulling on it and hitting the car.

Not hard. And I said to the police, I was just trying to get in a car now. That piqued their interest.

If it was criminal damage, they'd come to that. So her welfare wasn't particularly important to them. But I don't know why.

I guess just because she was drinking drunk or whatever. But the idea that she was maybe her in a car all criminal damage. And they really grabbed on.

So she's trying to get into a car. She's doing like, yeah, but I told her to get off and she did. Because it was a neighbor's car.

So I said, can you get off? I said it nicely, but can you leave that alone? And she looked at me and said that's a neighbor's car, move away. And she did. I said there's no damage, no harm done.

You know, I wanted to get arrested. I wanted to get some help. Well, in the meantime, I'm talking to the police for about 10 minutes.

Well, not the police, but the 999. This bloke with a dog is, he's actually on the phone, because she's walked around the bushes and just she's fallen down multiple times. And do you ever see a toddler, like balancing on a toy, you know, that a toddler in the gardens and then balancing on a toy and it's like, oh, they're gonna fall, they're gonna fall, but they don't.

It was a bit like with this woman, but she actually did fall. She's gonna fall. Oh, yeah, she's gone.

But she kept getting up. It's like a weeble, you know, weebles wobble, but they don't fall down. I mean, she did fall down, but she did get up again.

And I guess I'm the one that wobbles really, aren't I? Anyway, she, he got her telephone, her dad's telephone number, he's on the phone to her dad. He found her mum up, mum didn't want to know. So this is this is someone that's in a, I don't know, late 30s, possibly.

This this lady, maybe even early 40s, middle 30s, early 40s. I don't I don't know, to be fair. Yeah, probably 30s.

So I did see her dad. So he was, he phoned her mum up, mum didn't want to know. He phoned her dad up.

And her dad said, I'm already on my way. Because it's from London. Like, he's 10 minutes away.

That's what he said. He's 10 minutes away. How can it be 10 minutes away from London if you just called him? Well, it turned out that she'd already, that the neighbour across the road had already phoned her dad.

Because he'd be knocking on everyone's doors. I didn't know this at this point. And it was weird.

It was just a strange situation. Prior to that, between the ambulance and the police phone calls, I was saying to her, so where are you? I don't know, I was trying to sort of see if, try and get her an ambulance, you know, sort of say to her. And she started swearing at me and being abusive to me verbally.

Wasn't abusive to anyone else, just me for some reason. And telling me to go whatever to my dad and whatever to my mum. Okay.

You're not helping yourself here. You know, I was trying to help. And she said, I said, where are you from? She said, oh, Stratford.

I said, well, I know Stratford, and you wouldn't get away with this behaviour there. You know, this, this, you would not get away, you would not. This would be a very dangerous situation for you if you did this in Stratford.

And she was like, and I was losing a bit of sympathy. I understand, I suppose, why the police and ambulance, they get so much hassle when they go to people who are drunk, trying to help someone that won't let you help them. So I do understand that I just, at the same time, I can't ignore someone that's lying on the floor, can't even hardly walk.

She couldn't walk. That puts her in such a dangerous situation, which it would do if it was a man. It would make no difference to me, man or woman.

I can't really ignore it, I don't think. Or I can't. So it turned out, so this was half four.

I finally, after all the stuff, I finally got back up here. Just, yeah, the police, I didn't realise, I don't know. Yeah, it was about 10 past six, or 20 past six, I was back upstairs.

So, I mean, the whole thing didn't start at half past four, but probably five, five, I don't know. I lose track of the timing. So we were probably out there for about an hour.

And I had two missed calls from the police. I got a text from the police, just after, I think it was, I can tell you actually, what's this guy doing Q&A Friday? I don't know. This was at, how weird, it doesn't give me a time for the texts.

I thought texts had times. Yesterday, 1803. This is a clinical assessment service of East Anglia Ambulance Service.

We have attempted to contact the phone. I've been asked if there's been any worsening of the patient's condition, please ring 999. So I didn't have my phone switched on.

It was on, but it wasn't on. If the volume wasn't on, then if it was on, I didn't hear it. But I think I might have had it on mute.

Just I forgot, because I thought I've got it on mute most of the time. Oh, dear. I would normally I would, I wouldn't do that if I just, you know, I didn't purposely do that.

But I got a couple of emails, one saying, we are continuing to arrange help. This was probably about half an hour later, or an hour later, actually. The clinician may call you back from a withheld number.

Please keep your phone line clear. Only call 999 again if the patient's condition worsens. Alternatively, should you no longer require help, please reply cancel.

So I just sent a cancel. I didn't, I thought they just, that was it. They weren't bothering.

But they didn't tell me that the ambulance was still planning to come. But they just, it wasn't a priority, which is fair enough. They've got their criteria.

And when I called them, I didn't know if it's a priority or not. Unfortunately, I've had to call the ambulance and the police so many times since I've lived there. And I've been in a situation before with my neighbour downstairs, the one directly below me.

And she, Trina, I say was because she passed away. But she, she was only young. She's only in a little bit older than me, about a year older than me or something.

And this was 2019 or 2020, right at the beginning of the year. She, basically, her mum knocked on the door and she wasn't answering. And I heard her mum banging on the windows, like the bedroom windows out the back.

So I went downstairs. So I saw this woman and I thought, what's going on there? I just checked that she was alright, because it seemed like a weird thing to be doing. Didn't look like a thief, but I thought I'd just go and check it out.

And I said, are you alright? She said, yeah, I'm trying to get hold of my daughter. And she's in there, but she's not, she should be in there because she arranged to pick her up. I think she had a doctor's appointment or something.

And I said, oh, okay. And then she, she said, well, no, I can hear her, she's in there. But I can't see where she is.

She's not answering the door. Well, then she goes and she starts talking through the letterbox to her. And it turns out she owed her money and she just didn't want to pay it.

No, that's not true. She, she collapsed. She was on the floor, collapsed.

And she'd been like that for days, apparently. So she was able to talk to her mum, but wasn't able to move. Right? There's no way of getting into the flat.

Couldn't get into the flat. Well, I couldn't get into the flat. Luckily, I know some people that do know how to do stuff like that.

Not luckily for the neighbours that get robbed, but yeah, I know people that know how to get into flats very quickly. So I got my, my local my local break-in service. Wow.

It's really weird. I know if I ever, if I ever lock myself out up properly, I can't get out. I'll be a locked smith forever.

A ladder, that's all I need, a ladder. Even if all the windows are locked, I know someone can get through the windows in probably like 30 seconds. It's just like, and they won't have to be quiet either.

So probably even quite, even quicker, because I'll be with them. If they had to do it quietly, they'd probably, it's like, yeah, it's strange. It's this weird, weird situation.

But anyway, I called, I said, you need to call an ambulance. And she said, no, my daughter will be here in a minute. She'll know what to do.

Because her other daughter was coming, she'd called her. And I said, I got angry, but it was like, you need to call an ambulance. She's lying on the floor and she can't move.

That is not a good sign. I mean, I'm no doctor, but I can, I can conclude, I can conclude that's not a good sign. And I was correct.

And I wish I hadn't been correct. So I called an ambulance. And the ambulance said, oh, 45 minutes.

And I said, what? He said, yeah, 45 minutes. That's it. I said, she's lying on the floor, she can't move.

No, it'd be 45 minutes. Now the ambulances are brilliant. And I'm not saying anything about ambulances or police or anything.

They've always been, you know, pretty much been great. And I'm grateful. You know, ambulance services saved my friend's life multiple times.

And so yeah, that's not, but I was just surprised at this. So I went, this is, I say this is a few years back. And it's never, it's not, it's not their fault anyways.

They can't be everywhere all at once. Even Superman can't be everywhere, can they? Can he? You know, it's like, remember Superman, the movie, the first one, I don't want to spoil it. I mean, it's 50 years ago, and since it came out, is it too soon to tell you what happened? But I think, was it Superman one or was it? There was, I don't know.

It was a superhero movie, where there was two missiles being sent at the same time. Yeah, it was two. It was Superman.

So again, if you haven't seen it, you don't want to spoil it. And the movie that was released in 1975, or was it 1977? But it's, you know, it's nearly 50 years ago. And Lex Luthor launched two nuclear missiles, or two missiles, like really badness.

So Superman couldn't, there were different areas, Superman couldn't get to both of them. So he had to choose one. He got to it, and got rid of it.

And he nearly got to the second one, I do believe, but he didn't get there in time. And for some reason, I mean, maybe it was just to fit the plot of the movie. But Lewis Lane, or Lois, Lois Lane, who was the love of his life.

But was she? What about Lana Lange? The movies never really dealt with Lana Lange. The more recent TV show did. But it was always like, Clark Kent loves LL.

Is it Lewis Lane? Or is it Lois Lane? Or is it Lana Lange? LL. Who do you love, Clark? I love LL. So it's, you know, it was always that, really.

I mean, in the movies, it was always Lewis Lane. But he had a thing for, you know, Lana Lange as well. And for some reason, Lewis Lane, Lois, I can't speak like that, Lois Lane, the other missile pretty much landed on her head.

So it caused this big, you know, catastrophic thing or whatever. In a desert, she happened to be there. I think he chose the other one because it was going towards a city, opposed to the one that was going towards a desert.

And he finds her and he's like, oh, it's Lois Lane. And she's not survived. And it's very sad.

And he cries. And he then flies around the world, lots of times, and turns back time. And it's very good.

Why am I talking about Superman? Oh, yeah, you can't, the ambulance, they can't be everywhere. I mean, there's a lot more of them than there is a Superman. But at the same time, you know, I'm so grateful that we've got an ambulance service, that we've got an NHS here, we've got a police service, fire service.

And, you know, just I am, I'm grateful we've got people that come and collect the rubbish, people that deliver the mail. Yeah, I'm grateful for that. I don't always feel the gratitude.

But you know, generally, I'm quite I am grateful. So yeah, my neighbor downstairs, I phoned the police, I find I found the fire service next. And I said, Hello, I don't I don't know if you can help me.

And my neighbors on the floor downstairs, she's collapsed. She can't move. But she's locked out.

I didn't know there's any way you can get into the place. You know, she's the front doors locked, solid. And we can't get in and the ambulance would be in about 45 minutes.

And they said, Would you expect us to do? Okay. And it was one of those like, yeah, I know I need a locksmith, obviously. But I just thought maybe in a situation like that, they could come and remove the door.

In an emergency, it seemed like an emergency. It was an emergency. In fact, it was much more serious than realized.

I just assumed it was. But no one else did for some reason. And then I called up the police.

And again, they said, Would you want us to do about it? What do you what do you expect us to do about it? I mean, literally those words, which I was a little bit surprised about. I said, Well, she's locked. We can't get in there.

The ambulance said they're going to be 45 minutes. And they said, Well, I said, I said, Yeah, but I think she had a heart attack. And they said, Oh, okay.

Five minutes later, the ambulance was here. And in that five minutes, I got my friend. I asked my friend to get into the flat and he did.

He didn't go in he he removed the window from the bathroom or the kitchen. It was the bathroom window. He removed that in seconds.

And just as he had removed that her sister turned up, who was actually able to fit through the window. And just as she was pretty much climbing through the window, the ambulance turned up. So she came in, she opened the door from the inside.

The ambulance went in there, went in there for about half an hour, took her into the ambulance, the ambulance, the paramedics rather, took her into the ambulance. And they were working on that in the ambulance for about an hour, maybe an hour and a half. And then it took her to took her to the hospital.

And she died two days later. I'm not saying this is a sad story, although it is a sad story. The fact is she had had a heart attack.

And she had another one in the ambulance. So there was part of me feeling guilty, like, am I lying saying that she's had a heart attack? But I didn't say she had I said, I think she's I actually did believe that. And I was right.

I just couldn't figure any other reason why she would be lying on the floor for a couple of days, unable to move. And unless there was something really seriously had happened internally, outside of like a fall, or something like that. But she apparently she wasn't injured.

Wasn't physically like, whatever, she hadn't broken a hip or anything. According to her mum, she just couldn't move. So I don't even know why I'm talking about this.

I've talked about it when it happened. But it's this is give you an idea of the kind of stuff that happens around here. And eventually yesterday, this lady, she got into a dad turned up.

He said, right. He couldn't, she wouldn't get up, he couldn't pick her up on his own. He called his wife over his girlfriend over.

And he shouted, Oi Doris, I don't know what her name was. Can you come here please? Can you bring the camera as well so we can take another picture for the photo album, for the family photo album. And then he was going on, it's like he's had years of this since she was a kid.

And he looked drained. He looks so much I don't know. I've got no idea what the background is behind the whole thing.

But there was no winners. That's for sure. And it's weird because I felt relief as he drove off.

But at the same time, I knew that the journey was nowhere near ending for him or for her. And, you know, it was over for me. I'd kind of, I had a degree of relief.

I still wasn't quite there. But I was, it completely shattered me dealing with all the different people. So I kind of felt for him, but I felt for her as well.

Because, you know, it is addiction, isn't it? It's a horrible, horrible thing. And I've had to deal with it. With lots of different people.

For a long time, actually, over the years, for a good old 20 years, really. I've dealt with my own issues and other people's issues. I had a little bit of fling with alcohol when I was younger.

But yeah, I was very strange. And then my other name, my other was a bit freaked out about some stuff. And I just ended up 10 to nine, I think after taking him out, or maybe five to nine.

I got home after sort of doing some other stuff. And then by the time I'd cooked some tea cakes, because I was hungry. The Big Brother live episode was seven minutes in.

So I couldn't watch yesterday's episode. To see I didn't even know who was evicted. Until like, I watched the live show.

It just ruined it, you know, ruined the whole I know, shouldn't all be about a TV show. But for me, this, this is what I enjoy. So that's why I'm late doing a Q&A Friday.

And it took me what an hour to tell you that it really did take me nearly 50 minutes to tell you that I'm sorry. I'm going to do Q&A Friday now. Blimey.

Wow. This is what this is what happens. This is how things work here.

So I sometimes go on a bit. I've also got a YouTube channel, by the way, at Jason Newland. And it's, it's a weird thing, because it's just weird.

So I've been uploading the latest recordings all six and you don't think it's really working so well. But hey, oh, well. So questions, do I have any questions? Well, yes, I do.

Um, I put a, like a little form on my website that you can fill in. If you've got questions for Q&A Friday. And I've had a few people fill it in this week.

So I'm just checking. Did it did it did it. So Q&A Friday, where is it? I saved them in a folder.

123456 questions. This might be the longest Q&A Friday in history, by the way. I'm going to go by order.

If I miss any out, I will answer them next week. Okay. So I don't want this to be like three hours long.

I've got things to do. So the first question is from Anne. If you don't mind me asking, I was wondering how old Andre was when he passed.

And yeah, he was about six and a half. He threw the reason he what happened basically had spine injury. A little kid trod on him a year earlier, like stamp probably stomped on him.

And, you know, it wasn't anyone's fault is it was a little kid. It wasn't like a kid that knew what he was doing. He's like a little toddler really.

Well, like three years old, four years old, and just stomped on him. And at the time, Vinnie, Vinnie Andre seemed like he was just angry. I picked him up and he clung to me.

But at the same time, he wanted to have a fight with his kid. I thought nothing of it really. I didn't like it.

But the mom was so apologetic. And basically, she called me over. Can you come a little boy ever have a little look, sort of say hello to your favorite.

And I've spoken to her numerous times. She's a very friendly person. I still speak to her husband.

I don't see her anymore. But I see her husband regularly walking dogs. He's also really friendly.

But the kids, we were just talking and the kid, it happened so quick. I saw it in the peripheral. You see his leg raising and on Andre's screen.

Anyway, I thought nothing of it really. She was like apologetic, like it's not your fault. We didn't know this was going to happen.

And the next day, Vinnie was struggling to walk. Not Vinnie, I can say Vinnie. Andre was struggling to walk.

And he was basically, he couldn't walk. He was limping really badly. And I left it a day because I thought, oh, see how I am.

I didn't even connect the two. That's how slow I am sometimes. Didn't even connect it.

And until I took him to the vets, and the vet said they did an x-ray on his back. They said he's got spinal injury. Like he's been trod on.

I was like, oh, okay. I said, yeah, kid did stomp on him. I trod on him on purpose.

I said, okay, that'll do it. And I said, well, what now then? He said, well, in these cases, quite often, especially with ferrets, I mean, they're prone to have this kind of thing because they're so bendy. If you take that flexibility away from them, it kind of ruins their life really.

Because they're so bendy. And once you take that away, it's, you know, quality's not great. And the weird thing about it, he nearly passed, unless he's going to say, I'm just talking about death on this one, but he nearly died with the anesthetic that he had to have to have the x-ray because he wouldn't sit, he wouldn't stand still or sit still for a second.

And I wasn't allowed to hold him because this is during the old mask covering it period, if you remember that. So I couldn't be in the vets, couldn't even be inside the building. I had to stand in the car park.

I had to hand over the bag with him in it to the receptionist or to the vet who had a mask on. I had a mask on. I would stand outside.

He put his long arm, I couldn't believe how long his arm was. It was about like 18 foot long. And he picked it up.

And he took the bag in and I had to wait for him to, I think he phoned me to let me know how he was getting on. And I had to pick him up the next day. Because he was really groggy with the whole anesthetic.

And they didn't know what to do because he wasn't, he was like, wasn't coming back, wasn't to being fully aware. Well, in the end, I came and got him, took him home. And it took about a day or so, two days, I think before he was normal again.

He's just like this lion there just looking at me was weird. Like he was drunk or something. He, there wasn't really much they could do.

But he, he recovered. I've got videos of him limping around and then a video of him. He still wanted to go for walks, still wanted to do everything as before.

And eventually he he got it back, his leg was fine, or his spine was fine. And his mobility was perfect. So I thought, and then a year later, for no reason other than just the injury, I guess that it got worse.

And he was limping again. And there was more more going on this time. And we were still in the masks, the mask episode.

But this time I was allowed inside the veterinary reception, but wasn't allowed to be in. I was I was allowed to go in there with him. But we still, you know, everyone still had to wear a mask and stuff.

So this was like 2001. 2021, I think. And he said, he had another x ray, he said that the spine's gone, like there was war, it was so damaged from before, that it, it didn't heal properly.

But it healed enough for him to, because they're very determined old ferrets are, they don't care, they won't let anything get in their way. But he wasn't eating. And that's a sign that he was in pain.

And there was no option, really. Yeah. So that was it.

That was six and a half years ago, was the end, it was like, June 2021. Wasn't six and a half years ago, but I think it was about six and a half years when I got him when when he passed away. Yeah.

So I would try and lighten it up if I can. This is from Maria. Hi, Jason, what's the longest time you ever lived in one place? Are there any fond childhood memories that you can recall? Thank you.

Oh, I can't think of any childhood memories. So the longest time I ever lived in one place is here. This place, never lived anywhere for 10 years before.

The second longest place was, I guess, like the family home, we'd call it, that I lived for between the ages of nine and 15. So what's that 10, nine and 15? Six, it's not that long, is it really? Six years. Wow.

It seemed like forever, but then I was young. So yeah, the second longest place was there was six years. And I did live at a couple of places for about four years each.

When I first moved to Stratford from 91 to 94, well, three and a half years, I spent three and a half years living in that room. And there was another room in Stratford where I moved in, was it probably about June 1997. I moved out the summer 2001.

So yeah, that's four, I was there for about four years. I evicted from there. And when I was at university, I stayed in a place in a room from November 1997.

And I moved out, I suppose, like March 2011. 2011. Yeah.

So what's that? 2007, November 2008, 2009, 2010. So again, that's three years and probably three months. Yeah.

I mean, I lived at the YMCA from September 2001 until about March 2004. But I lived in three different studio apartments there, or studio flats. So I didn't stay in the same place.

But I moved around because I just started trying to find somewhere quiet. But you know, technically in the same, well, not technically, I was literally in the same building. The very big building from September 2001, 2002, 2003.

That's two years and two and a half years, I suppose, I was living there. It seemed a lot longer at the time. No, yes.

No. Blimey. See, weird, because if I'd have stayed there, I'd have been shortlisted to get a council flat.

That's not why I moved in there. I moved in there because it's the only place I could find anywhere to live. When I moved from London, because I had a job to start and I could not find anywhere, a room or anything.

And they basically, I phoned them up. I had a friend say, well, try the YMCA. So I did.

And they said, yeah, we've got a place for you. If you want it, come and have a look tomorrow, or Monday or whenever. Yeah, because this is on, I think this is on a Saturday.

And I said, yeah, if you want to come Monday and have a look. Really? Yeah. Because at the time I was staying in.

Yeah, I was staying in a bed and breakfast because I just started the job. September. I think it was the 9th.

I think 9th, September the 9th, 2001. It was a Monday, I think. And I stayed in a bed and breakfast.

I moved in on a Sunday. Stayed in a bed and breakfast. I was still DJ, I was DJing in London.

So I still had my, my weekend hobby as a DJ. I didn't want to give that up, but I had to. But luckily I had three weeks where I could still do it.

And then I had to give it up because I was moving away. But at this point, what I was doing is going to London, staying over in London, and then coming back Sunday evening. So I think I did two weeks in the bed and breakfast.

But it was expensive. You know, I was not, I didn't have, I hadn't heard, I hadn't heard I will learn to speak one day. I hadn't earned any money yet.

Because I'd only done two weeks of work. So I, I'm not quite sure how I got by, but I did stop moaning thinny. You're like, why can't the sounds you make make me feel nice? That like, it winds me up.

Because it's just like, you're never, you're never satisfied, are you? You're never satisfied. You're no treat. But yeah, that whining just grates me a little bit sometimes.

Come on. It's just like, I wish they could talk so I could really know what he's talking about. And he's probably thinking, you know, I just want to, every time I go up to my daddy and I just want to talk about and ask him about his day, he sticks a treat in my mouth.

I don't even want a treat. I don't even like him. I eat them just to please him.

I'm just, yeah, okay. That's not likely, is it? So yeah, I'm trying to think, are there any fond childhood memories that you can recall? Yeah, I'm sure there's loads. Recalling them is another thing.

I mean, Christmases were always good. Like during the period between the ages of seven and 14. Things when it, even 15, but things have got a bit stressed at home by then.

But during that period, Christmases were brilliant. So every Christmas was great, pretty much. When I was a kid, you know, between the ages of seven and 14.

Every Christmas. Unless I'm forgetting stuff, but generally, I don't have, I suppose when I got a bike, that was cool. Because it was the only time I really got something.

I was always happy what I got. I got, that's the one thing about my parents at the time. Very generous when it came to Christmas and birthdays and stuff like that.

It can't be, no way can they be faulted for that. It was so generous. I had multiple presents, loads and loads and loads.

So it was brilliant. But only once did I, you know that there's, I don't know, maybe it's the same for all kids. There's that one present as a kid that you want.

You want Father Christmas to bring you. And mine did. I did get that.

And it was a bike, it was a racer. And I was probably 13 at the time. I had a paper round and just wanted, I needed a bike to get me around because it was taking me so long.

And I was, yeah, so yeah, I got my bike for Christmas. It was brilliant. Very, very pleased.

Best present I ever had. I'm trying to think. Yeah, so that was always good.

And I used to like going to the library on my own. That was nice. When I discovered the library, the library became kind of like a second home for me.

I just loved it. Loved going in there, reading the books, sitting down, reading the books, going through every single book on the shelf, having a little dip, you know, that sounded weird, but you know what I mean, dipping in, have a little read. There was a part upstairs, there was this, I don't know, like a partition thing upstairs, where there is these kind of like encyclopedias, and there's a big table.

So I suppose the research area, maybe they would call it. And I went for a period when I was researching things, I was very interested in, I don't want to say the occult, because that sounds bad, but I was really interested in werewolves and witches and vampires, and all that stuff. It just fascinated me.

I was interested in UFOs. And I just, I'd literally go in and I would do my own research on a subject. So I researched vampires, and Dracula, and Vlad the Impaler, and I just, I researched, I went through all the different books, and I copied out what they wrote into my own pads.

Just for me, it was not for, I wouldn't, you wouldn't find me doing homework at all. But this, yeah, I was, there was no reason for it. I just got obsessed.

So that's what I did. That was brilliant. I spent hours doing that.

I'd love that. And I'd have my three or four, five big massive textbooks out. And I just be looking at all the different pictures.

And yeah, loved it, too. Yeah, absolutely loved it. And reading.

I think my favourite bit was when none of the family were around. When I could just be, I didn't mind if they were around, but not around me. So I could be left on my own.

Quiet. One of my favourite things to do, and I'm thinking back when I was like maybe 10, 11, 10. Yeah, probably about 10.

I would lie down on my, yeah, I'd lie down on the bed. I'd listen to classical music. There was an album which was basically the, a lot of really, really big movie scores.

There's, what was that? A million dollars, fistful of million dollars or whatever. And there was the pretty Star Wars and Superman, definitely Superman, because they had the long version where Lois Lane is actually talking in the song. And it's the bit where they're singing.

I don't know what, no, it's a bit where they're, yeah, there's a bit, there's some music from Superman where she's flying with him, or he's holding her and flying with her. And it's like a romantic one and there's a song. Yeah, it's a really nice song.

But anyway, I used to do that. I used to just lay down on my back, listen to the music and relax. When I was about 10.

So that was a nice memory. Every time we visited my uncle, my uncle Terry, that was a nice memory because he was so brilliant. It was just lovely.

It was lovely. I mean, yeah, he had money. But that wasn't the reason he was lovely.

He was just lovely. Best uncle you could wish for. So I visited him a few times, a couple of times when I was a bit older, when I was like in my teens.

And he always treated me with respect, always treated me like a human, but didn't talk down to me, didn't treat me like I was a kid. And he showed interest. And it was like, almost like I was an equal.

In a way, in a weird way. And he was, he was fairly well off. He was a wealthy, owned his own shipping company.

This is back in Dover. So he was, you know, he was well off, lived in a really large house on the beach in Deal or something, Kent, Deal, whatever. So lovely though.

Someone said to me, Oh, yeah, it's easier to be nice if you're rich. Like, I don't think it's that simple. It's not, it's a very simple way to look at it.

It's, there's nothing wrong with being wealthy. And I've met plenty of people that weren't so nice when they were wealthy. And I've met lots of people that were really nice when they were, had no money.

But also met really unpleasant people that had no money as well. It's, I think it's down to the personality, not what's in their bank account. I'm guessing, that's just my personal take on it.

But he was lovely. And it can't be changed that those memories. And I think the fact that he left me, left me to do what I wanted to do.

By that I don't mean I was left on my own. But he's like, if I wanted to go into a different room and watch movies on my own, I could. And that was quite nice.

Because I didn't really get to do that. Like at home, because there's so many of us. So I think anytime my family wasn't around, I was kind of happier.

I think it was just crowd, too many people, constant arguing between my brothers and me, they bring me into it as well. I'd probably argue more with my middle brother than with my oldest brother. But then he would probably argue with, they would argue amongst themselves more as well.

It's like the age, because there was two years between me and my middle brother, there was two years between my middle brother and my oldest brother. But that four year gap meant that we weren't really very different in age. So we didn't have so much to argue about.

And then my little brother was eight years younger than me. So no one really argued with him until he got to about five or six. And then yeah, he was a bit of a bit of a little ruffian.

Yeah, so I don't. What do I what memories? See one of my fondest memories, and it's going to be weird for anyone that from the UK that knows the person I'm mentioning. But my school, I think it was 1979, maybe 1980.

My school was on the Rolf Harris show. And we rehearsed for months before that, before the filming. At the time, Rolf Harris was super famous in this country.

And it travel around different schools, and they'd be singing and dancing and all that stuff. The thing is, it wasn't filmed in the schools, they had their own studio that they filmed in those, it was a school looked like a school. And it probably was a school to be fair, but it was maybe they used it during the summertime.

But then make out it was the school, you know, the actual school, that makes sense, the school that they were visiting. So it wasn't just the wasn't just the whole day, the traveling the with all the kids, because you know, the whole school wasn't just like one year. So there's probably I don't know how many coachfuls of kids there was.

We were all the rehearsing bit was really fun. So a lot of singing, like dancing, you know, the six, well, I say six, maybe maybe it was three months leading up to it, but it seemed like quite a long time. And I think Rolf Harris came around and saw us first at the school to announce that he was going to be having us on his show.

And it was one of the biggest shows on Saturday night TV, early TV. And you know, he did a different different school each week. So it was exciting.

The build up was exciting. The actual event was brilliant. I was on camera quite a few times.

And they said I was like nine or 10. I'm not sure exactly that the exact year is either 1979 or 1980. And it could be 81 because I'd have been 10 and 81.

Yes, maybe it was 81. I think it was 1980. I think it was brilliant.

Absolutely one of the best days of my childhood. So yeah, I mean, Rolf Harris is no longer around. And yeah, things didn't go quite so well with him and his career.

But it doesn't take away the fact that that was one of the highlights of my childhood. Positive highlights. What else childhood fond childhood memories that I can recall? There was a period when my dad was in a good mood.

I don't quite know why. But I remember coming home from school. So I was a teenager at this point.

So I would have been probably 13, maybe 1213. And he'd I don't know what it is. He went through this little period when he was buying stuff.

So he bought a new computer. And even though I don't have I had no interest in computers back then. The fact that everyone was happy was nice.

My dad was excited. My brothers were excited. My middle brother was more excited than anyone about the computer.

And he was learning to code and all kinds of stuff. But it was just it was nice because it was a nice atmosphere. So that happened a few times those kinds of things.

Yeah, I did. I'm never really I think I really felt like I am superstitious. But I tried to do the exact same walk and try to do everything the same as I did that day.

And on the same day of the week to see if I get the same result. So I got home and things were nice. It's weird.

I'd be like looking at the floor and which bit did I walk on? How did I feel? What was I listening to? What do you know, just really trying to focus on getting into that zone of if I could if I could get into the same zone, the same mindset, feeling exactly the same way as I did the day when I got home and the computer was there.

And he was in a good mood and everyone was like happy. That's where I could get into that.

Then the same would happen again. Not a new computer, but just it the same vibe. And yeah, that's that's what I used to try and do.

One of my my happy memories, I think when I was a kid, Saturday evenings was nice. Quite often, we'd all sit down and watch TV. When I was really young, I would sit or lay on my front.

Watching TV, I'd be on the floor. Then when I got a bit older, I was well, I was told I couldn't because my bum was too big. No one could see the TV.

That's not true. Don't know why I said it. And so we'd all have our dressing gowns on.

We'd have eaten at dinner, which was usually like a in the evening, like a snack, kind of like crisps, the buffet kind of thing that we'd have. So that was nice. Then we'd watch TV or like TV shows early evening.

And I'd probably be in bed at eight or whatever time I don't know. But I'm a dressing gown on get a bag of sweets, which is cool. And so yeah, those were nice.

And then there was the period when we didn't always do it, but there was a period when we had, yeah, we used to get videos. Not every week, but when we did get videos, we'd get like four movies, maybe on a Friday night, maybe Saturday night. And we'd be able to keep it for the weekend and take it back on the Sunday, or the Monday or something like that.

This is like early days of the video tape cassette. And that used to be brilliant going down to the video shop. And we'd all go down together and try and choose some movies together.

And yeah, great. Yeah, I think we were allowed to take it back Monday. So what we did is we took it back.

So we'd rent or was it Sunday afternoon. So my dad would take us up there in the car and we'd get the stuff. And then one of us or a couple of us would walk back and take the tapes back to down the seafront for about 30-40 minute walk.

Unless it was Monday, we had to take it back. It's not really that relevant. But yeah, that was cool.

That was nice. I like that. I used to look forward to that.

Childhood memories. Probably some of my favorite childhood memories was when I got my first television. I was 14.

And it was a black and white portable TV. And it was the first time that I had any kind of say over what I watched outside of being in the living room on my own. You know, because there's stuff I used to be able to watch when I was a kid that no one else watched like Grange Hill.

My little brother was too young to watch it. And my both my older brothers were too old to watch it. So it was a time when I had the TV to myself for about an hour and a half, two hours.

Sometimes, you know, when I was around about the maybe 12 mark. I'd watch Grange Hill, for example. My brothers were too old, they like wouldn't watch that no more.

I remember watching Mr. Merlin. But then there was a period when when my little brother was old enough, we used to watch cartoons together. So things like musket hounds, what other ones? Danger Mouse, Mighty Mouse, Scooby Doo, the Muppet Babies.

So there's something I don't think my little brother even remembered this. But he there was there was a film, I sent him a birthday card with it once on it. And he didn't, I don't think he remembered.

I had to point out what it was. And it was a movie called Animal Impix. Animal Impix.

He watched it over and over and over and over and over and over again. I mean, probably hundreds of times. That was his favorite movie.

He just loved watching it. I'm not sure how much he understood what was going on. Because he was little, really little, but he loved watching it.

And I sent him a birthday card a couple of years back with like an image from that. And he didn't know what it was, I don't think. I should tell him one day.

Why are you hassling me Vinnie? You want another treat? Yeah, that's what it is. This is what we're doing. You're just feeding, feeding, feeding, feeding, food, food, food, food.

Well, I'll put it on there. Let's see if you take it off. Yeah.

When you really want something, I could put it on the chandelier. Like I've got a chandelier but I could put it like high up on the ceiling and still get to it. Any other childhood memories? There probably are a few.

Can't really think of anything right now. Yeah, just a few little bits every now and then. Having my appendix out.

That's one of the best memories of my life. That was brilliant. Being in hospital.

Again, I think partly because I was away from the family. It was a bit of peace and quiet really. And yeah, I love that.

That was brilliant. Another time would be... I had it in my mind just now and it's gone. Well, that's weird.

My stomach. Oh yeah, chicken pox. Loved having chicken pox.

Because I didn't have to go to school. Oh, it's brilliant. And it was snowing outside.

So I was there. Basically, I think my oldest brother got it first. We all kind of took turns getting it.

It was only... I think it was a point where I had to stay home because too many of my family had it. So I got like two weeks off work, off work, off school, I think. Because I had to be contaminated or whatever they call it, contained.

And I did get it and it was brilliant. It was so cool to not have to go to school. I mean, that's one of the benefits of having the appendix out.

Didn't have to go to school for a couple of weeks. Didn't have to go to school with the old chicken pox. I just remember sitting indoors, drawing and things like that.

It was snowing outside. Maybe a bit of music playing. I don't know.

There was... the whole family was in, but everyone was quite chilled out. We were just enjoying, enjoying it. Yeah, that was nice.

Basically illness. Anything that involved illness. It might... I wasn't ill with it.

I wasn't ill with chicken pox. I mean, I got it. I had the blotches, a bit itchy.

That's it. It wasn't nothing for me. It wasn't being ill.

And appendicitis, I didn't really have it. I don't think I had appendicitis. I had... I was trying to get off school.

So I kept using the thing about having a stomachache. And I did have a stomachache, but I don't know if it was appendicitis. I think it might have been grumbling appendix or something.

But they took it out anyway, which was a win-win situation for me. It was just great. Yeah.

I mean, I was thinking at this rate, I'm going to run out of body parts because I was trying to work out what else can I have removed to get another two weeks off school. But it didn't come to that. Other things... There's a few bits and bobs.

That's a few of them anyway. So Georgie asks, do you have a hidden talent? I don't even have any on show, never mind any hidden ones. I ain't got no talents.

No, I don't. Yeah, I do think so. I don't know.

I used to think I could sing. And I think I could when I was younger. Everything's when I was younger really, isn't it? But I used to think I could sing.

And I think I could now, not so much. But hidden talents, I can be annoying. It's not so hidden, is it? No, I don't think there is.

I can't. No, there's nothing really. I don't think there's anything that I can do that would surprise anybody.

I'm just trying to think. Vinnie, I see you in my peripheral begging. Begging, I tell you.

You're begging again. Stop begging. Do you ever see it on TV or movies where they're showing someone's doing something and the person, like the star of the show, can't see them doing it? But it's literally in their peripheral.

There's no way you would not see that person moving around to the side of you. But they don't. Because it's a movie.

It's like, wait a minute. Even the actor can see that person. But I can see Vinnie.

I'm not looking at him, but I can see him moving around and doing his little, I haven't eaten for a thousand years. My daddy never gives me anything. You know? Not Tom Sawyer.

What is it? The little kid. Tom, please, sir. Can I have some nowhere? Oliver Twist, that's it.

So I looked at him. As soon as I saw him, I thought, yeah, Oliver Twist. Oliver.

I'm going to call you Oliver now. I'm going to call you Oliver Twist. And you've got some food on your mouth.

Clean up after yourself. Oh, the other day, I know I talked about it, but I still can't believe that I went out. I had a little bit of chocolate and the toffee was all over my beard from the bit of chocolate I had.

And I went out, took him out. I was talking to different people. I was talking to two people when I got back as well.

Not one person mentioned the fact that I had this. And it was stretched out as well. It wasn't like just a little bit.

Why didn't anyone mention it? It was just. I don't have any hidden talents, I don't think. I really.

I used to write poems. I used to write songs. But again, not something I would call talents.

I suppose things that I wanted to do. The poems were more just as an expression, to be fair. The songs, that was more to do with romance.

I was trying to be romantic. Yeah, it's a long time ago. No, I can't think of any.

Maybe I do. But they're hidden. They must be hidden.

Very, very well hidden. Because I don't really know. I don't think I have any.

But then, you know, if they're hidden, I wouldn't know. In a sense, I know you're talking about if I've got any hidden talents that I kind of don't tell anyone about. But I don't think I have.

But you know, I do believe that we're all, we've all got hidden talents that maybe we never find out about. You know, not just just one thing, multiple things that, you know, I might be, or you might be really, really good at something you've never even attempted to do. But because you've got no interest in it.

Yet, if you did have a go at it, and you realized that you were naturally gifted, I'm guessing that would make you interested in it. Oh, okay, I do have a talent. It's not hidden so much.

I am very good on the phone. And I was very good at sales. But I didn't enjoy it.

I didn't enjoy the pressure or the stress. So yeah, and I was very good at listening. I'm good at listening.

And my job, apart from being a counselor and stuff later on, I did have a job where my whole job was listening to phone calls, and making sure that the people that the staff calls that they were doing their job properly, and they were sticking to the script. And, you know, I had to mark these calls. And I was pretty good at that.

But I don't know if that's much of a hidden talent. And being pedantic really, isn't it? I don't know. I mean, literally, my job was being pedantic, being quite inflexible.

So yeah, I got a hidden talent. I'm very inflexible. But it's not so hidden, I don't think.

If you asked me that question again, a different day, I will be thinking about that. It's quite weird because Georgia, I used to know someone called Georgia, Georgia. And I was dreaming about her last night.

It's really weird. I had some very, very strange dreams last night. And I had this conversation with this female that I used to work with.

And I had this fear, I never ever dated waitresses that I worked with. Just basically, because I kind of did nearly once, and it was awkward. So I thought, no, I'm not doing that anymore.

And because, you know, you got to work with them. It doesn't work out as awkward. So there was this one waitress who I really liked.

As a friend, you know, I just really liked her. And she started giving me some hints that maybe she liked me in a more, you know, more, I don't know if romance is the right word, but a more physical way. And sort of telling me stuff, whatever.

And she gave me three really massive hints over time. You know, three different occasions. Once she danced with me.

And another time she told me some things that she liked. And on the third time she told me, I'm not gonna use the words, but it was on the leave and do. She said, you like, I'm gonna say blank.

And I've got blank. I still didn't take the hint. And because I was just nervous, I just didn't know.

I felt like I was being watched by the other people in the room. And I just, yeah, I didn't know really what to do. So I didn't pursue, I didn't, which I kind of regret.

And even now I dream about her. Really weird. I mean, literally last night, but over the years, and it's 20, 24 years ago.

So it's way too long to be. And it didn't seem to bother me at the time. But I just literally had a, I was conversing with her, explaining to her, so I just apologised and saying, I know that you, I wish I'd kind of done something and we didn't, you know, blah, blah, blah, blah.

It's weird. Very weird. Hillary asked me, okay, let's try again.

Where in Thailand did you go? I've been there many times, to many different parts, just interested where you went. So I went near Bangkok, Bangkok. And it's, yeah, I suppose I keep, I don't go into great detail about where I've been.

I don't want to be judged because where I went is a little bit of a, I think it's classed as some of it's like sex tourist. And I wasn't that. It wasn't for that reason.

I was just going because it's a Buddhist country. And I wanted, I needed to get away. I was talking to a friend about this.

After I lost Andre, I started going back and my panic attacks came back. Not like the occasional one or like the standard kind of stuff that I have, but like, really became really bad again. And I think part of that because I lost Andre, I no longer had the emotional, I mean, what Vinnie gives me and what Andre gave me is emotional support, I suppose, really, in reality, it's emotional support.

It's an emotional pet or emotional, whatever. And so I was up here on my own. And I was also dealing with all the drama of downstairs and my neighbor and all that came with that.

And it got too much. So I managed to go away. And I just basically chose the first place.

So I've done a bit of research on YouTube. And every time I put in Thailand, there was like Pattaya came up and Phuket, Bangkok, those kinds of areas. So I thought, yeah, I'll head there.

And that's what I did. So I just went there and just found somewhere to stay. And yeah, it was all right.

The first time I went twice, the second time it was rainy season. So that wasn't so good. At the moment, they've got sangron.

I think it's just come to an end where it's basically two weeks of covering each other with water. It's like a new year. I think it's like the Thailand New Year celebration.

Sangron, sangran or sangron. I wouldn't want to be there during that. Something I noticed about myself is weird.

Even though I was technically on holiday, the bipolar didn't stay at home. It's weird. Honestly, I thought in my mind, you know, bearing in mind that I hadn't really been anywhere since 2003 was the last time I'd really gone anywhere like on my own on holiday.

So that's yeah, 20 years or whatever, nearly. I thought I'd just go away and I'd be oh, so happy. And no, it wasn't like that.

It was it was there was the relief of not having to deal with people that were here. But then I had to deal with new people. Although most of those people were nice, but there was a lot of it was quite it wasn't busy like it normally is because of the the because it was mask wearing times.

It was just after that or during that period. But there's still you know, a fair bit of people around. And yeah, that's where I went.

So I've met a couple of people actually around here that went to Thailand. And they went to those parts. The thing is, there's lots of islands that I could have gone I could have gone on excursions.

There is a big old ferry full of little little boats, which I could have traveled to multiple different islands. Because it is pretty much paradise, isn't it out there? The thing is, once I got out there, I just the first time because I went out twice the first time I break my rib. So I just had a like a genuine massage, like a proper Thai massage.

And this bloke, he just pressed on my back and my and all I heard was click a really loud click. He found it funny. I couldn't breathe.

I didn't find it quite as funny. I mean, maybe if I was able to breathe, I might have been able to laugh but you know, and from then that was I think the second day in. So from then on, I was I just couldn't really do much.

It didn't stop me getting around but I couldn't. You know, I wasn't sleeping really. I wasn't able to you know, it was just it was very uncomfortable to the point where I left early.

I got an early flight back. But I did manage to give food out. So that was really good.

I love that bit. So I made to give loads of food out to people that are hungry. So the second time I went, I thought I deserve once my once my rib was healed up.

It started getting bad again downstairs. I thought more I gotta get out of here. And I had to go somewhere.

So I just thought yeah, let's go there. Just got a flight. Didn't book a hotel or anything.

I just like just went there. Got to Bangkok and decided where to go next. And I ended up in a sports bar.

Really nice full of Australians run by Australians full of Australian customers. I was the only Brit there I think. And it was really well it was a sports bars aimed at all the different sports.

The good thing I did have boxing on once. So that was one of the highlights of the holiday. Sitting there having me breakfast watching heavyweight boxing fight.

It was Andrew Rees and Andrew Rees and Otis Otis was it? I forget his name. But yeah, it was really it is a Cuban fighter. But anyway, there was that was good.

So technically things are going well there. I got there just before my birthday. And I had a really good birthday.

Went on this big pub crawl. It was part of another bar and they took us all around different places, different pubs and stuff. And the next day, I had a chest infection.

I was feeling ill during that day as well as it was going on. And I had a chest infection that lasted about 10 days. So I was in bed.

And then I tried to get a ticket early to go home couldn't. So I ended up staying there for two and a half weeks, three weeks, I can't remember. And then I was well for about I was probably I was still coughing a bit but I was on my way to getting better.

I wasn't completely healed wasn't completely back. But I probably had a couple of days of feeling better. And I'd had probably four days of being able to go out and walk around.

I waited until it was evening when it wasn't so many people around because, unfortunately, I didn't cough in public. Because somebody would always shout out a certain word, beginning with C and then ended with it. It's it was weird.

So yeah, but I didn't realize because they were putting adverts on TV in Thailand. That was just scaring everyone. Like proper.

Yeah. This is weird. We'd say what other countries do.

So Michelle, how did you decide to start the bore you Let Me Bore You To Sleep podcast? They great by the way. Thank you all the groups. By the way, I'm slurring today.

Am I slurring or am I just being lazy? A little bit of both. A bit tired. Yesterday I was shattered.

Like at the end of it, I had to go to bed early. I just hadn't eaten really much. I just like it drained everything out of me.

So I woke up today. I'm still feel like I'm a little bit recovering from that. It's weird.

I'm not I'm not built for that stuff anymore. Taking on other people's stuff. I'm not.

So I think that they Let Me Bore You To Sleep. It was 2018. I did have precursors to the Let Me Bore You To Sleep.

In 2010, I did a hypno chats, which is basically a mixture between chatting and hypnosis. So I would just talk about my day about a subject. And then I would ease into a hypnosis session.

And I'd end up doing like a relaxation session at the end of it. So that that's the hypno chats. And I choose a subject and it could be all kinds of weird different things.

Weird things. I mean, I do still have them. But no one ever listened to them.

So I just got rid of them. I still got them on here. On my really weird.

Oh, okay. Hypno chats. Is it hypno? Hypno chats? Yeah, I do still got it on.

I still got the recordings. I've got 20. 20.

Yeah, 20 different ones. They range. They do range different subjects.

Number one was future. Number two is public transport and sending healing energy. Wow.

I wonder if it tells me when it what year it was. No, it doesn't. It says 2015.

But it was long before that. And yeah, and then so I did hypno chats. Then I did another version.

Talking out. Talking out loudly. Or thinking out loudly.

I don't know something like that, which was like another version of this, where I just talked about stuff. And then I did hypnotic buffet. Hypnotic buffet.

See if that's still around on my Oh, it's not. Hypnotic buffet. Have I lost all those recordings away? Okay, I may have lost them all.

I don't mind. I don't really want to have lost them all to be fair. Hypnotic buffet.

Oh, no, they are still on there. I was looking at the wrong in the wrong folder. So there are 31 hypnotic buffets.

And the last one I did was where's that's weird. Don't want to see properties. That's it.

According to this, the last one I did was the 6th of August 2018. But that I don't think that would be true. It says created the 11th of September 2018.

Yeah, I don't think that's true either. It'd be before that. So yeah, I did those.

Did I have those named? I don't know. Let's have a look. Oh, yeah, the the underlying thing was so hypnotic buffet.

Thoughts and ideas to transform lives. Every Monday. So this is what I did.

Probably 2000. Well, maybe it was 2015. Did I saw it? What was it? 2000? 2018? No, it wouldn't have been 2018.

I don't think so anyway. But I started the Let Me Bore You To Sleep in. That was the previous versions.

General. Yeah, 11th of September 2008. That's just when they were transferred.

So after that, I did the three different things. I used to do Jason chats, which was just a blog about my life. And I just talked about that.

And someone posted, I think on YouTube, they said, I was falling asleep whenever you do your blogs. Partly it was a little bit like, oh, it's a bit rude. It'll be rude.

You know, I'm talking about my life and you're falling asleep. My stomach's going it's time for food, baby. Food, food, food.

But then another part before. Hmm, there's something in that. So regardless what I talk about, you're bored.

That's what the person said. I'm used to bore me and I fall asleep. They might have been trying to be rude, but I thought about it and I thought, Hmm, okay.

So I started a podcast, Let Me Bore You To Sleep, which was when was it? Let Me Bore You To Sleep. 27th of March 2018. That was the very first.

So we have, I missed that I could have put down the boys at 1819 20. I could have done a seventh year anniversary episode, but I didn't think about it. Oh, well.

So yeah, it's, uh, it was a, so that was the very, very, very first recording of the, Let Me Bore You To Sleep. Now I didn't do any research. I didn't look online to see if anyone else was doing boring recordings.

I just did it. There is another podcast, something like bore, bore me to sleep. That's been around a few more years than me.

And someone was saying, Oh, you're just copying them. Like, no, first of all, I didn't know that existed. Secondly, I don't think anyone does what I do.

I don't mean that in a good way. Cause you know, I'd probably be better off if I did copy other people, but this is what I do is unique. Even if it, even if it was the identical type of thing, it would still be different.

Yeah. If you got, if you like gave a topic and talk about watching tennis and you gave that topic to any other podcast and you gave it to me, mine's going to be different from theirs and theirs is probably going to be different from everyone else's as well. That's going to be different.

So that's how I ended up doing this. Um, I didn't expect it to lead anywhere. I really didn't.

I didn't think it would be. Yeah, I didn't, I didn't really think anything of it. It was just a new thing.

I thought maybe I'd do perhaps 10, 20, you know, like the hypnotic buffet or the, um, hypno chats. I didn't think it would lead to anything sort of law ongoing, but it did. And seven years over seven years later, here we are.

Uh, I think it's cause I was getting feedback. People were telling me they're very relaxing regardless of what I talk about. And some people like the fact that it's unreal.

I do make stuff up, obviously. I think that's obvious. I do that as well.

I don't generally take myself too seriously. I, I can see the funny side to a lot of things. And also something that I didn't know would happen is I was getting a lot of people over the years telling me that I'm company, that actually it's a friendly voice to listen to.

It's like, you get to know me and you get to listen to me every day. And it's something that some people look forward to. So that's in, in some ways, that's probably more of a compliment.

Um, yeah, I mean, that partly why there's a couple of, if I see an elderly person, not just elderly, but if I see someone in the park, they're on their own. Cause generally I only talk to dog walkers cause Vinnie wants to say hello to them. He loves people, but he loves dog walkers cause they've got treats.

There's a few dogs he says hello to as well, but Vinnie wants to say hello to everybody. So if the person looks okay, some people don't look approachable to be fair, but if the person looks approachable, I'll let Vinnie take me up to them and I'll just say, can he say hello? He wants to say hello. And no one's ever said go away yet.

I think I did have one person ignore me and just walk on. And that's my mom. So she had a reason.

So I, and, um, a couple of times, one recently, a man said, uh, that'll be my only contact today. So thank you. I was like, oh, so I'm avoiding from now on.

And joking. And then I think yesterday or the day before the, it was a bloke and a man. He said, oh, thank you for stopping.

Thank you for talking to me. So these are like people that live on the estate. Maybe they don't see anyone.

I don't know, but Vinnie absolutely loves people. And he knows when a person is friendly because that's when, um, this bloke, I think yesterday said, oh, uh, he just wants to come. I think he must like everyone.

I said, no, not necessarily. He does love people, but he knows people. There's people he doesn't want to go and say hello to.

He can tell who's friendly and who's not friendly. He knows, I think dogs actually do know. They can tell a dog lover from someone isn't a dog lover.

Maybe not instantly, but you know, there's people that clearly that I kind of know that don't like Vinnie, but not don't like him, but kind of keep the distance from him. Not really into dogs. And he knows that, you know, he gets excited to see them, but he doesn't try and jump up.

He doesn't, doesn't really take much notice of them really. So he knows, and this bloke was so happy that I was telling him that, yeah, he's fussy who he says hello to. Because he doesn't, he knows if someone's not friendly and he seemed to really appreciate that.

So that was nice. I don't know how I got into that subject. Last question, Brooke, Brooke, Brooke, my friend, Brooke.

What is hypnosis and why does it work? What are some myths about hypnosis that are important to dispel? What is your best tofu recipe? Okay, the last one, I don't have one. So I'm going to skip that one. Now, if you said toffee recipe, I'd say I love anything with toffee, especially ones where I get ended up with bits of toffee in my beard, scaring the neighbors.

Would you tell someone though, if you if you're talking to someone, I'm not talking about a complete stranger, but someone that you see regularly, you know, something I may see daily even, and you saw that toffee sticking out their beard, would you would you mention it to them? And there's ways of mentioning it without being rude, isn't there? Is you know, if I'm going out, I've got gravy all down my top, and I scream on my head, and like, okay, perhaps we shouldn't mention that.

Because there's something going on there. But just to look, I would have preferred.

Mind you, something happened yesterday, and I wasn't particularly pleased with. I was talking to my neighbor. And I was saying, oh, I wear a hat, because I don't like to because I'm a bit a bit conscious about my, my bald patch on the top of my head.

And he said, What about the one on the front of your head? What do you mean? He said, the one on the front where you got a comb over. So I did not have a comb over. My hair is not long enough.

I can't even brush my hair. It's not long enough to brush. He said there's none there.

I said, technically, you're correct. That is probably the reason. But but from the distance, he could see that the front of the hair is pretty much just disappearing.

Which means, and I really am not pleased to say this. It means what I'm going to have is hair around the side. And I've already got a bald patch at the back.

It's filling out on top. There's Yeah, I don't know how long it's going to take. Now my decision will have to be this if it does in fact happen.

So the bald patch grows. And the one at the front kind of grows to the point of meeting in the middle. What do I do with the stray hair? The stray hairs? Do I let them grow really long and pretend that that's hair and hold on to that? So I know people that do that.

They literally they cherish those hairs even though there's only like a little fuzz now. Because it's their hair. They they cherish it.

They they it's important to them. Regardless of how ridiculous it might look. They they love it.

They keep it. And I'm now in a position where I'm thinking, yeah, I might have to keep that. Have a little bit of fuzz on top.

Like a little Brillo pad. I don't know just is I don't know what. Because I used to have an attitude when I was younger.

I used to shave my head. I still do shave my head sometimes. Like doesn't matter.

If I ever go bald, it will not affect me at all because I've walked around for years with a bald head. Being bald would not affect me at all. Now it's easy to say that when you're not bald, when you're not naturally bald.

So shaving my head bald is a lot different from actually not need not needing to save my head bald. Because it's doing it naturally. Ah, yeah, I didn't realize that.

You know what? It's not as non affecting me as I thought. And Brooke might be listening to this thinking, what's that got to do with how hypnosis works? Okay, I'll go back to that. hypnosis.

All I can do is my understanding because I've read so many books, I know what the theories are all the different theories. And I like the myths about hypnosis, what's important to dispel. Even now I see on Facebook and places, the idea of hypnosis, if you like is some somehow harmful, giving away control to someone and they can do make you do whatever they want you to do.

And it's, it's not true. It's really not. It's, it's not how it works.

If I mean, maybe there's a degree of, I suppose, if you was hypnotizing someone every day, and you wanted to, you know, you could sort of play around with it and have fun with it. But ultimately, can't just control someone completely. I don't think maybe maybe some people can, I don't have that.

I mean, everyone's manipulatable, able to be manipulated. And as people of public we are, as well as adverts on TV. Constantly, everyone's being at least trying to manipulate us.

And that is in no way a conspiracy thing. It's just a factual thing. And hypnosis has been used in advertising.

It's one of the first things that was used for like generally hypnosis are used for advertising, because they knew that it worked. They knew that they wanted an advertising is manipulation to try and get you to buy a product, or to think a certain way. So yeah, it works.

That stuff works. It's I don't know hypnosis. Some of the myths with it, I would say.

I think it's a standard thing. Some people think that it the hypnotist will get them to do silly things, like, like with stage hypnosis. But that's not the case.

And the idea that maybe you'd be under you'd be in hypnosis, and you're completely unconscious, and you don't know anything that's going on. I would say that's not the case either. Because the fact that the unconscious, you might be consciously unaware, the unconsciously aware, but you got to remember, your unconscious is looking out for you all the time.

That's the thing that pulls your hand back when it touches a hot surface, not your conscious mind, your unconscious, your automatic reflexes is looking out for you. It's not your conscious mind that sees that speeding car coming as you're walking, you know, about to walk out on the road. And between two cars, you've got to walk out, you don't see it.

But you move back, like in an instant. It's not your conscious mind that does that. Because if it was your conscious mind that does that, you'd get hit by the car.

Our conscious minds don't move that quickly. So your unconscious mind or your subconscious mind or whatever you want to call it, I call it unconscious, because we're not really conscious of it at all. It's not unconscious like being asleep.

I like to believe it's looking out for us, has our best interest at heart. But when it comes to hypnosis, I suppose, going back to theory and how it works, it doesn't always know what's right. It can see if a car's coming towards us, this is the right thing to get out of the way.

To put your hand on a hot stove, you take it away, it's the right thing. Things like that, protecting our bodies is standard. But sometimes, but when it comes to things like phobias, and being worried about things and stuff like that, the conscious, the unconscious mind doesn't always know.

It needs help, needs us to let it know what's, I mean, you could say in a way like a computer, but programming, it needs guidance, needs supervision. So the unconscious mind just needs to be, it needs us to let it know what it needs. And I think we need to be quite specific as well.

And there's different ways you can do that. Just by, you know, you can do affirmations, you can do hypnosis, you can do all this stuff. But you could also just, just live the life.

So Brooke, for example, Brooke, you're living the life. You're doing what you do helping people have had strokes. And, you know, you're, you're living, if you live the life, do you want to live, your unconscious mind helps you to continue to live the life you live.

So if you're thinking positive things, your unconscious mind is basically hearing that, like, oh, you want to, you want to be positive, you want to think more, more positive thoughts. If you've got kind of love in your heart, and you're thinking about people that you care about, your unconscious mind realize that and if you need more of that. So our unconscious mind is always listening to our thoughts.

So what we say to ourselves is hugely important. In technically, you say that's not hypnosis, it's just the brain, it's the mind. So yeah, fair enough, but it's still part of that whole thing.

You get what you think about, you get more of what you think about, we become what we think about. And there's so many examples of this around us, you can see it. If you know, if you know someone that's constantly complaining, like constantly, you can see even in their face, their behavior, their interactions, you can see how they, even their voice, even their health is affected by that negativity, by the internal looking at things in a negative way.

So even, even I guess, because some people, some of the funniest people can be really negative, like, like proper funny. But then some of those people are not very happy. So it's one of those things, what, what do you focus on? We get what we focus on.

And it's not like an instant thing. But it's kind of like, it works in different ways. So you get what you, we get what we focus on.

So if you let's say, itchy bum, let's say I'm focusing on having an itchy bum, and it gets itchier. And that's actually a good example. You know, if you're kind of thinking of two, and it works with the unconscious mind, it doesn't understand negative and positive, really, it just focuses on what you're thinking about.

So if you're thinking, oh, I don't want to have that itch in the bottom of my foot. I don't want to have that itch in the bottom of my foot, or your unconscious mind is really going to get from that is focus on the itch in your foot. Just going to focus on it.

So if you put in a different language, I like my foot to feel relaxed and calm. And, you know, by imagining that, that would might change it that way. And also, our brains don't know that, and this is the scientists say this, our brains don't know the difference between imagined and real, in a sense of, if we imagine feeling relaxed, lying on a beach, on a hammock or whatever, and actually doing it, we have the same physiological effect on our bodies and our minds as if we're actually there.

I'm not saying that you get suntanned, I'm just, you know, generally, our unconscious mind or our mind, our brain doesn't know the difference. And I think that's quite interesting, actually. So my motto, and it's not my motto, I took it from Earl Nightingale, is become what we think about.

And I try to remember that every single day, become what we think about. So if you, if you think about what do you want to become? If someone wants to stay, let's say someone wants to stay unhappy, then just think about unhappy things. It's kind of basic, really.

And I don't think anyone could argue that that would probably help the person to feel rubbish inside, if that's all they focus on. And that's why I don't watch these like true crime things. I'm not knocking anyone does, but I just don't find it is useful for me.

My mental states. It's really interesting. That's for sure.

I know that. I understand why people get caught up in it, especially the ones where you see all the film footage from the police, arresting the people and then the interrogation, makes you want to watch it now. But I've spent like two hours watching one of them.

And it's so fascinating. But at the same time, I don't feel good afterwards. It's, you know, there's been so much horrible stuff I've just ingested.

That's pretty much poison, really. Think about it. Poison for the mind.

Negativity. So yeah, we become what we think about. So I try and remember that every day.

And try to focus. I focus on doing these recordings, helping people. And that's my life.

That is everything to me. So that's kind of, so I've kind of, I don't know if I have, but I feel like I've become this in a way, but with moods, with an unstable personality, but I've become this person that I wanted to become, or I've just become me. In some ways, I feel like I've found my voice.

It took a long time. But I seem to have found my voice since I've been doing these Let Me Boy To Sleeps recordings. I do feel like I've found me.

And I can just be me. And I know that I do censor myself a lot. Sometimes when I do these, I think I'll, you know, because I don't want to upset anyone.

And I try not to swear, and my natural would probably be to swear a little bit. And, but it's still ultimately just me being me. And in a way, we can't really be anything more than ourselves, can we? There's got to come a point, especially at my age, I was like, maybe I am good enough.

I may be better, I may become better. I do remember years ago, I was in the Buddhist center. And I said to someone, because they, they pointed out one of my flaws, which is sometimes Buddhists have a tendency to do, especially when I'm around them.

And I said, I'm not doing this. I don't want to be perfect. And he was confused by that.

So what do you mean you don't want to be perfect? I said, I don't know, I'm not trying to be perfect. And that went against how he was, I guess, attempting his own life to be perfect. I don't want to be, I never want to be perfect.

I just want to be better. I wanted to be, I want to leave something, you know, I want to be useful. I didn't want to be useful, not when I was in my 20s.

But since the age of probably much since 2006, when I was 35, although I started before then, but I didn't really manage to do much until 2006. I wanted to help people. But knowing that I'm not really, I don't, it's a struggle being around people for any length of time.

Generally, not all people is, I meet the occasional person I can spend time with. But it's yeah, it, I had to make that decision. Like, you know what, I can help one person.

I can spend 50 minutes or four hours, and I can help four people in that four hours. Or I can make a recording online and help hundreds of people with just one recording uploaded to YouTube or Facebook or wherever I was doing it. Whatever podcast host I was using at that time, Myspace to start with.

And then when the videos were getting thousands of views, it made sense that instead of doing a group session where I was seeing maybe 12, sometimes 18 people, I can reach 1000 people or 500 people. And that's a large audience. I mean, a thousand, between 1000 and 2000 people, that's a, that's a big old theater.

So that's pretty much why I went in this direction. What is hypnosis? How does it work? I don't know if I've really answered that question, but I kind of given a, my version of why I think it's more than just having someone talk to you get you to relax and focus on this and whatever. It's, it's about thoughts, it's about attitude, it's about expectation.

What do you believe is going to happen? Belief is so strong, so powerful, so powerful. Like the most powerful thing. What you expect to happen, what you really expect to happen has such an impact on what does actually happen.

So expect things to go well. You know, just an idea. Right, the noisy people are back in the garden.

And so they clearly don't have a break at Easter, bless them. So I'm going to go. So thank you for listening.

Remember to be kind to yourself because you do deserve to be happy. Thank you to Anne Maria, Georgie, Hilary, Michelle and Brooke for your questions. I hope I've answered them.

And sorry the introduction was so long. Take care. Lots of love.

Bye.