(no music) #1147 - Q&A Friday - Let Me Bore You To Sleep (14th June 2024)

Hello and welcome to Let Me Bore You To Sleep. My name is Jason Newland. Please only listen when you can safely close your eyes.

So this is Q&A Friday, yet again, another one. And I do have questions. I was wondering if, you know, after doing these for a few weeks, I would run out of questions, or people would stop asking questions, but they haven't.

They haven't. So thank you very much. I have one, two, three, so three questions.

It's not a huge amount, but it's okay. Four, no three. So what was I going to say? Yeah, I just, just let you know, I've not been feeling particularly well lately.

Had a few things going on, which has affected me. So I haven't been quite as regular with the podcasts, as per usual. It's just sometimes, like the other day, I made a podcast.

And I had to abandon it 45 minutes in because it wasn't pleasant. It was me just being ratty, to be honest. And I don't want to do podcasts like that.

I know it's real, and it's how I'm feeling, but it's not really what this is about. So that's happened a few times over the years. Well, I mean, sometimes they're quite funny, to be honest, but it's, well, to me, and I would find it funny listening.

Because I remember years ago, there was a lady called Helen. And she used to say to me, she was a TV producer. And she's, not that that's relevant, just let you know that I know, I used to know people that, but I just, I used to know people.

It's hard to believe I did. I used to know people. And she, she said that I was at my funniest.

She found it most funny when I was moaning. The thing is, I didn't realize I was moaning. That's what's strange about it.

So yeah, so that's what's been going on. So there's not many questions, but I will answer them. The first question is from Karen.

Karen, who asks, asks, what is the best decision you've ever made? Oh, the best decision I've ever made. The worst decision would be much easier. But even then, there's quite a few.

Good. It's very difficult to just pinpoint one thing. I think my life is going to be like that.

There's not one of anything, I don't think. And you know, who have you loved the most? Well, it's hard to say that out loud really, isn't it? You know, if you know there's people listening that might want to be on that list, but there isn't probably anyone listening. But who are you closest to? Well, my nan I was closest to.

But Andre, you know, my little boy Andre, who did I love the most? I don't want to say him, because what about Vinnie? What about my nan? So anyway, but back to this, what is the best decision? When I think of this question, how I kind of approach it is, I think of it more like what decision have I made that has had the most positive effect on my life?

Rather than what do I really feel good about, you know? And some people might themselves say the best decision ever made was asking out their work colleague 35 years ago, and they've been married for 32 and got 74 grandchildren or something. So that could be that person's best decision. Which is very understandable, isn't it? If you know, because that's been a life well, they built a life upon that decision, based on that decision.

So probably this, the 2006 is going to be more than this. But that's probably one of the best decisions I made was, and I was a bit drunk when I did it as well. I was drinking.

I'll go through the situation. Here's what happened. I was doing a hypnosis course in London at the weekends.

I'd been in a relationship since October 2005, roughly September, October. And this is now January, beginning of January 2006. And it's a Monday.

It's a Monday evening. Now, 24 hours earlier, I just got back from London on a Sunday evening, spoke to my girlfriend on the phone. I was very tired because I just had two long days, you know, getting up at five, not getting back till I travel all the way to London.

Then all the study and practice and coming back, getting home about eight or whatever. I was just absolutely shattered. Did that two days in a row.

So I was really like, oh, and my girlfriend, I spoke to my girlfriend during the break time as well on both days. She said to me, oh, I love you. And I was like, yeah, you know, everything like that.

The Monday morning, less than 12 hours after this conversation I'd had with her. She was saying, I don't know how I feel about you. So we split up and I went to work.

It wasn't the best day, to be honest, came home. And I mean, I might be getting this a little bit muddled. It might not be exactly the day after, but it was within that range.

It was very, very soon afterwards. But for the sake of the lie, let's just stick to the Monday. It might be the Wednesday.

So I get home and I'm looking at my computer, looking at my, you know, all my hypnosis books and all the, you know, the helpwithpain.co.uk website that I had, which got no interest or locally because I've been trying to do a free pain relief service since 2004. And I decided to start a new website called Free Pain Relief. So it wasn't the beginning, it was a continuation, but a reboot of something that wasn't successful.

And that's when I decided I'm going to do something with what I've learned. I want to help people. And I also decided to do a stop smoking, try and go for the world record, for some reason, the world record in stop smoking audience.

So what I did is I printed leaf, I ordered leaflets to be printed while they were postcards, double sided. One side was the colored side, which was the free pain relief with the websites, freepainrelief.co.uk. The opposite side was the stop smoking one day event. And I ordered 50,000, I think, 50,000 postcards to be printed.

So I designed them, it took a took quite a while to design it online. And they weren't great, but you know, they were the best I could do at the time. Ordered them, they took about a week to get here.

I remember when they did, I couldn't believe how many boxes, it just filled my room, loads of boxes. And I paid for them on a credit card that was about 1000 pounds. Wow.

And I realized now I was probably going through a bit of a, I don't know, not necessarily a high, but a mood swing kind of thing. So I was being a little bit irrational financially. Financially.

But that irrationality was also a good thing, because it led me to do what I'm doing now. So it was irrational, but a mixture of, I don't know, a mixture of different things. There was no limit.

There was sort of possibilities, there was, I just, I felt like it was going to work. Both of the things, the free pain relief and the other thing as well, the leaflets, the stop smoking. Well, the stop smoking thing got nipped in the bud or got put out, snuffed out, however you want to describe it.

Very quickly, when I started to look into venues, and the huge amounts of money that the venue wanted. So that was a no go straight away. And which was a little bit disappointing.

But at the same time, I had no idea what I was going to do anyway. So, and that wasn't really my focus, my, or my interest. My interest was the free pain relief that I was going to offer.

And for this, I was determined to make it work. So all that energy that was bubbling around from the emotions of the, well, as some would argue, a very short romantic relationship. But for me, it wasn't that short.

Like three or four months. So yeah. But regardless, it was, yeah, there's a lot of, a lot of energy, a lot of energy that I tapped into.

So I was up, I was up a lot, a lot of the night that night, working on the whole thingy. Yeah, like building the website. So building, I was using code back then, using HTML.

And there wasn't really much on the website other than just a telephone number. Oh, I got a separate telephone number as well, separate telephone. So that when people phoned me, it would, I'd know why they were phoning.

It wouldn't just be some random number on my normal phone. And then I proceeded during the day, once the leaflets were delivered, I started putting in these postcards in shop windows, post offices, some places like to charge money, was, you know, even though it's a free service, it always needs to get their few pennies. And I was spending my lunch times posting these postcards through people's doors, house doors.

And I was doing it after work. I was doing it during the weekends. I did this blindly for all the way out to the summer.

I was doing this when I had the time. Time to do it. I put adverts in the paper, the local paper offering the free pain relief.

And to my surprise, I was actually on a retreat. I think it was the February. I was on a Buddhist retreat, just a weekend away.

I wasn't surprised that I was on a retreat. I'm just saying to my surprise, whilst I was on the retreat. Although it was quite surprising because I struggled a little bit with retreats.

I was sleeping in a room in a dormitory and that because it has effect, it affects me. However, two things happened on that retreat that was very, that surprised me. The first thing is I met a lady who was in the process or going through a process of treatment for a serious illness.

And I did some relaxation with her. I did some hypnosis with her. And she actually sent me a letter telling me how much it helped.

But while I was there, I checked my phone and I had a missed call or voicemail message from someone that left to saying, oh, I'll be interested in your pain relief service or something like that. Anyway, they're like, wow. So it took a few weeks, maybe five, six weeks, maybe, I don't know, before it might, again, I'm not sure about the exact times.

It might have been a few weeks. It might have been. Who knows? I'm making it up.

I never did this. This is all just lies. I was working at McDonald's at the time and I was just eating.

That's all I did. Blimey. I do, I imagine McDonald's, it'd be amazing to start with, just being around all that food and then eventually it'd just be, I can't imagine you'd want to eat any of it if you're around all the time.

Like when I worked in a chip shop, could not stand chips for years. And they were arguably the best chips. We cooked the best chips.

Crispy on the outside, fluffy on the inside. The chips nowadays, I've never been anywhere that have had nice chips like that. These are just soggy chips.

It tastes nice, but it's like, now what about texture, baby? What about texture? Yeah, so the person that taught me to do chips was a master. A master of crying chips. And I learned, and not every batch of chips came out perfect.

That's an impossibility because unlike McDonald's, they weren't timed. There wasn't such a slick machine and you get distracted sometimes as customers or I've got a scratch on my itchy bum. Something like that, you know, sometimes over my clothes.

It's all right, it's fine. So that's when things start to change. So, you know, I begin to see people in their homes.

I think the first person I ever saw, I met them at Blockbusters in the car park, and they picked me up and took me home to their home, which is a bit of a risk, I guess, to be doing stuff like that. But I didn't really see it as a risk. It was just, I just assumed that if I was helping people, they would, I'd only attract kind people, nice people.

And I did, actually, I did. Everyone I, everyone that was attracted by my, attracted to my service, my free service, were nice, pretty. Actually, I had one, one person, it was because I continued this when I moved in 2007, and I had some bloke just sit there with the right attitude.

And I was doing it for free. And it's just like sat there, vaping. That was weird, having someone just vape in a room.

I never had it, I never had that happen before. And it's such an attitude on him. And I didn't.

Yeah, I don't think we really got very far, to be honest. But everyone else was really lovely, really lovely. So even though technically, I mean, it was just, it was a decision to do it.

So forgetting the stop smoking world record thing. But the free pain relief, which I'd already launched in 2004. I've already been put in adverts in the papers and all that stuff and nothing.

I just had no response. I even had a room to use. You know, everything was going really well, but I just didn't have any customers.

There was a beauty salon at the end of my road where I lived at the time in 2004. So I went in there and I got on really well with the lady that owned the place. And we really connected quite nicely.

So we were just chatting and I told her what I was wanting to do. And she even put leaflets printed up at the time and she put them on top of a counter to give to people. No takers, nothing.

I remember even I was delivering leaflets to people's houses. I remember seeing my ex-boss from Churchill that I'd recently left because I was unwell. And he was really friendly to me and everything.

So I was delivering to people's houses even then and got nothing. Zero. I had a couple of people phone up like, what do you do? And why is it free? What do you mean why is it free? Why is it free? What kind of pain? What do you mean what kind of pain? Emotional pain or physical pain? Okay, physical pain.

Well, you should put that on your leaflet. Like, okay. Some people seem to, a few people did phone but just to have a moan.

I was the, they phoned to moan. Which is weird. I didn't have a separate telephone number either on that one.

It was just my telephone number. That's when I relaunched it in 2006, I thought, no, I'm not having my own number on there. Because it's just not.

And I had a, I had a website, helpwithpain.co.uk. So that was help with pain. And then free pain relief was the second one. I'm getting a little bit muddled here.

I didn't say chronic pain in any of those ones. But so, I guess really, the starting this, I could also, I mean, so everything led to now, which isn't a good example, because I'm not hugely pleased with now. But every, all the, you know, 2006, or 2004 led to 2006.

And then 2006 led to, yeah, led to me doing free pain relief locally for a couple of months. So February, March, and then April, I started to think, oh, what else can I do? And then I contacted an alcohol charity, which help people with alcohol issues. And called Norcass, it was called Norcass.

And I started to go there on a Monday evening. Doing some stuff to help people, had a little group of people. And that was successful.

Did that a couple of times, like a six week course, or four week course. And then I started, and during that night, I would do a relaxation session at the end. That's the thing people like the most.

And then I, that kind of grew. And I started doing a relaxation session, maybe twice a week. I don't know.

And I think what happened then, so I was doing that. And then I don't really know the timeline, if I'm honest. But I eventually started doing it.

I got headhunted, which is a weird, weird way to describe it. This charity is a rehab for drugs, rehab place. And the Norcass was alcohol and gambling addiction.

Okay, so Icini was a drug rehab place. They'd heard about what I was doing. I guess they probably, I imagine they had a patient or a client that was going to both.

So he told that charity about me. And they wanted me to do what I was doing for them. And my audition, or interview, for a bit of both to be fair, because there's like three, three people interviewing me.

And they'll ask me questions. And I said, look, the best thing to do is, you know, instead of just chatting, finding out about me, it's just, I'll do a session. And they love the idea.

So that's what I did. I did spend about half an hour doing a relaxation with them. And from then on, that was it.

It was a signed, sealed, delivered situation. It was, I was doing it for free as a volunteer. But I loved it, absolutely loved it.

I love both the places equally. They're both great, both Norcass and Icini. And possibly the time when I felt the best about myself.

I really, because I was doing something that meant something, you know, what felt like it was something worthwhile that I was doing. And so I did that. And I was also making recordings.

I started making videos on for Myspace, some relaxation, relaxation one, a pain relief, chronic pain relief one, and the sleep one, hypnosis one. And I did those, they were in black and white, filmed on a webcam. And there was a sponge with my web address or whatever on it.

I don't know if they might still be around online somewhere. I should find them and stick them on my YouTube channel just so you can watch, just out of interest. Anyway, these had quite, quite good success.

I was getting thousands of plays of these videos on Myspace, which grew my audience. So I was, I think I had about 50,000 followers or friends or whatever on Myspace when, you know, before Facebook popped around. And so that was good.

I was pleased with how that was going. And then the, I know I've kind of told this story before, but then the late, the one of the people at Norcas said that, you know, he enjoyed listening to me. But is there a way that he could, you know, once a week's not enough.

Can I do a recording? So that's what I did. I made some recordings, did on CD for a few weeks, gave CDs out. They just went so quickly.

And I think it was costing the charity too much money, because I wasn't paying for that. They paid for all the equipment, well for the CDs. They, I'm not sure if I, I probably burnt them myself, I might not have done.

Yeah, I might not have done actually, but I did the recording. And eventually they were just going too quick. And I see me ask for them as well.

So both the charities were getting these CDs. It'd be interesting if any of them are still around, if they exist. It's not a huge amount of them that I made.

I made, I think I just made one recording. But I don't know how many, how many CDs we made. But the charity didn't, so it's getting a little bit expensive to be making the CDs.

So I thought, well, we kept running out. So I thought, I'll look into it. How can I, what else can I do? What alternative is there? And am I able to allow people the opportunity to download the audio recording from my website? I mean, I already knew that they could stream it on MySpace.

So I think I probably started off doing that. And then I, I think then I discovered podcasts. So I started making podcasts, started adding stuff to podcasts.

And I started recording every, every live session I did, I recorded on a digital recorder, just one of those little things. And the sound wasn't great, the quality wasn't great. But it would be interesting to hear it now.

I lost all of those recordings, because it was me live. It would be interesting to hear what I sounded like and what kinds of things I was saying. Because people were falling asleep, listening to me.

It was that boring. Even the staff would look forward to me going, because in 2000 and in December, or wait a minute, I think it was December 2006. I went part time after being ill.

It might be in September, October. Yeah, actually, probably more late summer. So I went part time.

So I had a few weeks off ill with stress. And the yeah, I instead of leaving the job or staying off, they they allowed me to go back part time. So I was working from 11 to four, something like that.

Five days a week, so I was doing 25 hours. And it was great because it meant I could do other things. Or maybe it was 10 to three.

Either way, I was able to do other things. And that's what I was doing. I was going to the Norcass, Iceni, at least twice a week each, each one of them, whether like any afternoon.

And I was also doing other stuff. I was really more focused as well on doing the online stuff, the online recordings. And that started to grow.

The podcasts were going really well. And by 2007. Well, actually, by 2008, January, I remember I was showing off to my classmates at university.

Not showing off, but kind of wanting to show that I was showing off really, I was just showing off. I wanted to Yeah, I was showing off. There's no other way around it.

I was bragging. So these were a couple of my friends on the group. So you know, it wasn't just great, complete strangers.

It wasn't everyone, just these two, Bob and Harry, or whatever their names were. And I was so excited. I just wanted to show somebody.

Because my stats in January on my podcast was over 100,000. And like I'd reached over 100,000 plays or downloads. And I just was blown away by that.

Couldn't believe it. And the recordings were really not good quality at all. But I had a lot of recordings, I was doing them, you know, very regularly, hundreds, hundreds of recordings.

And I didn't have them on MySpace anymore, because MySpace had pretty much dissolved. Facebook pushed MySpace off a cliff really quickly. So I embraced it.

Into the old MySpace during 2007. And YouTube, of course, that's when I started. When YouTube arrived, or when I discovered YouTube, it was a few months after I was using MySpace.

So that was my main place where I was posting my videos. And I was only one of a handful of people making hypnosis videos on YouTube. I mean, genuinely, there weren't that many people.

There was a Dini, there was me, there was a few others, but not many. I didn't know there was anyone. I thought I was so special.

I'll be the only one there. I didn't really even, I didn't care. I wasn't interested in what anyone else is doing.

All I was doing was just posting what I'd already done onto YouTube. My videos that were on MySpace. So I already had maybe, I don't know, 15, 20 videos, maybe more, and I put them onto YouTube.

And then I continued to to make more videos. And it was really a case of every video I made, I extracted the audio and put that on the podcast. And there was a time when I was doing predominantly more audios than videos.

You know, so if I made an audio, then that wasn't turned into a video, because I didn't really have any technology to do that. But the video into a podcast was very easy. Extracting the audio was quite easy to do.

Anyway, I suppose my point is, that was probably, I guess my best decision. One of my best decisions. As far as, it's felt kind of meaningful.

My life since 2006, there's been a degree of meaning that I've gained from doing it, I guess, from doing this, feeling that I'm helping people in some way. And I'm always getting quite a lot of feedback, positive feedback, on both on YouTube, and on MySpace as well. And also on Facebook.

But I guess perhaps I was a little bit of a naughty because, as I said, there wasn't many people doing it online at the time. So I had a very, quite a loyal YouTube following, who were very interactive, you know, constantly posting comments and messages. And you know, when I was making new videos, even though the videos were awful quality, sound, awful quality video.

But that didn't seem to bother people. Yeah, so I suppose that's probably my best decision. I suppose, I suppose, I suppose, I suppose.

There's been a few good decisions. I mean, the decision to do my degree, my counselling degree, that was a good decision. And I was nearly put off from doing it.

Because I phoned up the, I think it was the actual college that I went to, in the end, phoned them up. And they said I wouldn't be accepted on the course, because I got no qualifications. I won't be accepted.

There's no point. So I said, okay, and I put the phone on and said bye. And then, then I thought, who the hell is she? To tell me that I wouldn't, you know, why am I just accepted in that? She I don't know who she is.

She doesn't know me. And the fact that I've spent the last year and a half at this point, because this is like the summer 2007. I spent the last year and a half doing hypnosis with people and kind of in a sort of counselling environment, one on one in a room, pretending to listen.

And so I applied anyway. And I had the interview. And I got the job, I got on the course.

Then I had to go through the financial stuff. And I managed, I got the finances as well. So if I listen to that person that I spoke to on the phone, it's amazing how much somebody can impact your life, someone you don't even know, by just being dismissive, or being supportive, even, you know, depends which way you go.

So, yeah, luckily, I was able to just ignore her and applied and I did get on the course. Because after meeting me, they realised that I was there was a little bit more to me than, or there was enough to me, if that makes sense, to be able to accomplish and to do the course. Because I had experience, kind of in the field of counselling.

And I was genuinely interested in counselling. And I've been studying the subject since 98. So it wasn't a new subject, psychology, counselling, psychotherapy, all those things what I've been studying for a long time.

I had counselling, I had more counselling books already before I'd even, before I'd even, I was never going to be a counsellor. I never wanted to be a counsellor really. But I still had loads of counselling books, because I was interested in the subject.

I just couldn't really visualise myself doing it. I can visualise myself being in the other chair, because I've done that plenty of times, and I probably still will in the future. I kind of need it at the moment.

But I couldn't really imagine myself being the counsellor. Well, I ended up doing that. Hard to believe, but it's true.

So that was a decision to ignore the lady and just apply anyway. That was one of my best decisions, because it wasn't even so much that I became a counsellor. I mean, I reckon I learned a bit more about myself.

I've definitely learned more about myself. I did help some people along the way during those few years that I was a counsellor. But probably the biggest thing in a sense, as far as for me personally, I got a degree.

I gained something that I never thought I could ever, ever do. Like genuinely did not believe it was possible for someone like me to get a degree. I know it rhymes.

I'm not going to do any more. You know, I know it rhymes, but I'm not going to do anything to make it. Well, I'm not going to do anything to make any further rhymes, because it happens at times.

Damn it. I'm not, I'm not. Yeah, really did not believe I had what it took, like deep inside.

No self-belief really, even though I'd proven myself to be at least a little bit useful in certain aspects. Definitely driven, enthusiastic. So that was definitely something that I'm glad, the decision I made that I was pleased about.

I'm kind of pleased with a decision I made in 1990. I was in the bath. Don't worry, this is not going anywhere weird.

So I'm holding the cucumber. I'm in the bath and it's probably April-ish, and I think to myself, I want to be a comedian. I want to do stand-up comedy.

And that moment changed my whole life. Because that's what I did, but not for nearly another year. So this was in the April, I didn't start doing, I moved to London in January.

I moved back to London in January. I did my first proper comedy gig, I think it was the 23rd of January, 1991 at the comedy cafe. So and that led me to, I don't know, I mean, was it a good thing? I don't know.

I definitely had fun at times, I did. It was also extremely challenging and difficult. I mean, going on stage and making people laugh is not the easiest thing in the world, especially if you're, if you've got no confidence, which I didn't really have, I still don't really have a huge amount of confidence in myself.

And probably had more than, I was cocky, I didn't have any confidence, but I could blag it, you know, I could put on a persona, put on a, yeah, have a degree of shielding to protect me. That's all gone now, I don't have that anymore. I'm a bit more unprotected, like, can't be both to put on a choice.

My only way of functioning, being able to function in the world is by really being something else, because I didn't know what I was. I didn't really know who I was. I know what I wanted to be, I know who I wanted to be.

I wanted to be super successful, I wanted to be popular, I wanted to be handsome, I wanted to be strong, I wanted to be intelligent, you know, all the things like, I suppose back then I would class as a perfect man or human. As time's gone by, I realised that it's, you know, I don't have that aspiration anymore. I'd like to be fitter, you know, I'd like parts of my body to be, to be smaller, and other parts to not be smaller, but, yeah.

So yeah, I'm not sure, it changed my life. Was it a good decision? I think it was, the best decision, one of the best decisions, I think so. But then if we go back as far as the, what I'm doing now, you could say that goes back to January 1998, not 2006, or not 2004, but 1998, when I bought my first two hypnosis books.

And after reading those books, that's what led me to train in hypnosis and NLP and start studying books. And, you know, you could, that's what led to me getting interested in chronic pain relief and, which then led me to doing the things I did, which then led me to here. So I guess that could be the best decision I ever made is buying those two books.

But then if you go back further, the last part of 1997, I'd gone, I was going through quite a difficult time. And I was listening to a lot of self help audio books, like a lot, just all day long, pretty much listening to these, feel the fear and do it anyway. And seven deadly habits of weather and, you know, feel the how to make friends and influence people and all those ones, there's loads of different books, and introduction to NLP.

So I became a little bit interested in that. And now that might be in the later, yeah, maybe that probably the next year. So I was doing that and I was reading some self help books.

So if I hadn't been doing that, then I wouldn't have been looking at the hypnosis books. You know, trying to, because trying to figure out doing my own self therapy, I guess, figuring out where I was going in my life, what I wanted to do, how I got there emotionally, and why I'm the way I was, why I was the way I was. So that you could go back then.

Or you go back even further to when I was studying Buddhism in 94, 93, about 93. Yeah. And not just Buddhist books, but Taoism, and a lot of, I was really into the Buddhist books back then.

There's a lot of it was more to do with the parables and not, wasn't that interested in the, I don't know, the rules. And all the discipline and all that stuff wasn't so interested in that. But I was incredibly interested in stories, the Buddhist stories and stories of some of the other people involved in, in Buddhism and, you know, the transcripts and stuff.

So, and also different styles of Buddhism, whether it's Thai or whether it's Japanese or whether it's Indian. So I was, I was very interested in all that stuff. So I was reading a lot of, a lot of books that were positive, a lot of positive stuff.

So I kind of could say that it goes back to then, because everything kind of leads to something else. And if I hadn't done that, and I continued with the Buddhism, Buddhist books all the way through to, never really stopped, to be honest, but especially through to 95. So for about three years, or two years, three years, I was kind of really reading them books.

I was reading other stuff as well. And so there's that, and I'm thinking, does it go back any further? This kind of little seed, the seed. I'm not sure.

Before that, I remember when I left school, this is about, after I left school, probably about 88, 1988, I bought a Freud book. And it was huge, big old thick thing. And I remember reading that on the, on the beach one summer.

So, and I had psychology books. So I was reading stuff like that, even then. Like textbooks and psychology, and that was always going to be the, the degree.

If I ever got a degree, in my mind, if I ever was going to do a degree, it would be in psychology, because that was a subject I was interested in. Because I wanted to figure myself out, and maybe figure other people out. Try and no longer feel like I'm some kind of alien.

Stranded on a different planet, waiting for my family to pick me up again. So that's, that's probably, I'm also pleased with the decision to start making the Let Me Bore You To Sleep recording, I know about the other decisions that wouldn't happen, because everything kind of led to that. I mean, even the Let Me Bore You To Sleep recordings had a progression, had a certain series of events that led to it.

One would be the hypnotic buffet recordings I did. Before that, it was I forget the name of them now. It was just, blimey, what was it? Hypnotic Buffet Hypno Chats, that's it.

Hypno Chats. And a precursor to that was Jason Chats, where it's just me talking. Then I decided, I wonder if I could mix the two, me talking that then leads into a hypnosis recording, like gradually.

So I did the Hypno Chats, did the speaking out quiet, speak, thinking out quietly, or thinking out loudly. I don't know, another ones like that. And yeah, so it kind of led the way over quite a few years to me then doing, starting the Let Me Bore You To Sleep in, I don't know what year it was, 2018, January.

Was it March? It was March actually, 2018. So yeah, the best decision I've ever made. Wait a minute, what? It's hard to just pick one thing, I find.

Yeah, so I think that'll do for now for that question, blimey. I'm only talking like five hours on one question. So Karen, I hope that answered your question.

Okay, right. So the next question is from Mark. Hi, Mark, thank you for your question.

So here's the question. I absolutely love your podcasts, Jason. Thank you.

Well, thank you very much. And I'm just curious as to whether you derive an income from them. Hopefully you do.

I live in beautiful Queensland, Australia. Well, thanks for that. No is the answer.

No. The opposite, in fact. So it costs me money.

But I mean, my brother told me, he said to me, I think it was about six months ago. Well, it's costing you money and you're out of pocket. Just stop doing it.

Just drop it all. But it's not an option. I mean, I would have to do some change, make some changes.

But it costs you money. It's not like huge amounts of money it costs to run it. And it's just the two podcasts.

And then the apps I use to help me. So GPT, chat GPT, Canva, which helps me, those two things help me. And I'm trying to think what else I have.

There's things that help me but at the moment I can't afford to have them. Like the turbo just looking at my list on the TurboScribe, which transcribes to podcasts. And that's really helpful, but I can't have that at the moment.

The there's the iCloud app, Apple iCloud, it's only 899 a month, but I do need that because that's what that's where my stuff is stored when I first do it. And what else? The internet. So I wouldn't need the internet if I wasn't doing this.

Because I got internet on my phone, I could watch TV and everything through the phone. And I could use the internet through the hotspot. So the internet is, again, it's not much like 30 quid a month.

The electric bills probably a bit higher than would normally be because I'm using the equipment a lot, the computers and everything's on all day. So I don't know how much that costs, but it probably costs me a few, probably 30 40 quid extra a month, I imagine, if not more, but even if Yeah, even if I wasn't using the laptops for this, I probably use them for something else.

I'm just seeing what else YouTube is is really handy, because that's good for education and for research.

But at the moment, I can't really watch it because adverts. And but I need a premium for that one to use it properly. Because the adverts come on in like a minute, minute and a half in the middle of something.

So no, I can't, I've got to like the adverts. And a few bits, it all comes to 100 plus or ever a month. So it's not like it's not a lot really.

I don't even need the website anymore. So no one visits the website. There's no point website.

Unless I was selling something which I'm not mean to me the website is good for backdated recordings, old recordings, but people don't seem to be that bothered about that either. I just listen to the new stuff, which seems a shame because there's thousands of recordings, which is why I've been working on getting them more onto YouTube. So it's, you know, it's just, you know, it's I'm trying to get my words out.

It seems a shame to have produced so many, so much material, so much content, and have it just disappear. When potentially there's some good stuff out there, somewhere, some of it might be useful to somebody. So I had the moment.

I'm still paying off the laptop, which I bought a couple of years ago, so I'm still paying that off. But I needed a decent laptop. And something I've had lots of laptops over the years.

And one thing problem had is I overworked them. I try and do too many things at the same time. And none of my laptops have been able to handle what I do.

This one probably 90% of the time can handle what I do. So it's the best one I've ever had. But it was expensive.

So it's just taken a lot long time to pay off. But it is really good. I can upload, download be on different websites, all at the same time.

And it can just because of the memory is good. And the process is good. I can do a lot more than I've ever been able to do.

I've got my iPad anyway, as well, which is an old iPad. It's a couple of years old. And maybe a little bit longer.

I use that for the editing of the recordings. I also use that for other stuff as well. So I kind of use both the laptop and the iPad.

And when I'm using the when the iPad is busy, or the computer is busy, I can use the other as well. What was the question? So no, there's no money. I don't owe anybody from the podcasts.

When I was on Spreaker, I used to have a bit of money from the adverts coming in, which would cover the costs. And at the time, my costs were a lot higher. So I had the phone I got the I blindly I'd internet on the laptop on the iPad.

On it. Yeah, so I had all that stuff I was paying out for. So that was coming to about 150 quid a month.

And also paying for equipment like the the microphone and because pretty good microphone I've got here. And all the other stuff, the electronic equipment, I've got cameras and the desks and all that stuff. So that that was kind of all paid for that.

Well, I'm in debt for some of it. So yeah, I think that's answered that question quite quickly. Yeah, it's I have these occasional squeaks in my stomach.

And I'd like to earn a living doing this by also want it to be free which is a very conflicting argument. Because how can I earn money for something that's free? It's not that easy. I mean, yeah, okay, a YouTube channel with adverts.

But what if the adverts are in the middle of the videos? That's not going to work. The only way the a successful YouTube channel could work for me is if I could add that if I could have adverts at the videos. So, and I used to have that in the past, a long time ago, I had the option of having the videos, having adverts rather at the beginning, end and during the video.

So I chose just the beginning because I didn't want to disrupt people's experience. But I figured a couple of adverts at the beginning is fine. And it was actually a few people moaned, but generally it was okay.

And at the time I had enough coming in to cover my costs. Okay, this is a long time ago over a decade ago. Now, I think if I proceed with the YouTube channel, once I've uploaded all the recordings I'm going to upload, and I start making new recordings with filming myself on there.

I, it will become fairly successful. And I don't necessarily mean successful compared to other YouTube channels, but successful for me. So I wouldn't be surprised if I had 10,000 subscribers in the next couple of years.

And I wouldn't be surprised if it got to 100,000 subscribers, you know, after a few years of doing it. If I was, you know, regular. Regular.

So, you know, maybe there's a possibility of earning a living from YouTube. But again, that's such a, it's not the most reliable source of income. Based on what I've experienced and what I've seen other channels go through.

I mean, some people they're earning loads, and then suddenly they're earning nothing. So, you know, another thought I had was maybe writing a book. So still keep everything I do for free.

But, you know, sell a book. Which is why I got that TurboScribe and started. Well, I did.

I've transcribed nearly every Let Me Bore You To Sleep podcast. It's only the last like 15 or 20 that I haven't done. And, and then I started looking at sort of trying to turn those transcriptions into some kind of a book.

It's hard. It's hard. There's a way of doing it, but it's hard.

It's just, I just didn't know where to start really. Other than that, I don't really know what, you know, I mean, some people sell merchandise. Some people, because to earn a living, it's not just having a few quid.

So I do get PayPal gifts, which I'm very grateful for, because that really helps. I mean, this week, I've not even had enough to really buy any food. So I've been had a few PayPal gifts, which has helped me behind on everything at the moment, you know, financially, but that'll sort itself out over time.

Well, I will sort it out over time. And I'm wondering, I might have to go bankrupt. I hope not.

But if it comes to it, then I'll just get some kind of, try and get some help. Because the problem is, when I go through a manic, I want to say manic, it's not like full mania, as in thinking that I'm Jesus or, you know, it's not quite that bad. Although I used to, you know, did go through that when I was a kid, but that's a separate story.

And I go on spending sprees, but not so much for me, but to help others. Which means I need to really, well, I lost my credit card. Anyway, the credit card, I've still got to pay it off, but I can't, I'm not allowed to use it.

So they've stopped me, they've stopped any more interest. And how much have I got left on it? £2,941. So I pay £100 a month.

Yeah, £100 a month. So I don't know how many, it's quite a few months, isn't it? 20, yes, two, two and a half years to pay that off. But I'm not, you know, I can't use it.

It is kind of, the equivalent of having it cut up has happened. So that's a good thing. Maybe I just need to, it's just, it's weird, because it's handy to have like the catalogue.

Because it's safe, the washing machine broke, I can get another washing machine. You know, literally within a day or two. But, it's the being in debt, I'm not, I'm not, I'm not enjoying it.

So maybe I just need to give up that stuff, get rid of it. Just live on what I've got. And that's it.

Over time, it does take a while. Live within my means. Yeah.

But because I'm on benefits, I'm unemployed, I haven't got any, anything really coming in much. So it's, yes, it's a, it's a, it's a challenge sometimes. Not even Father's Day, I had to basically borrow money to send my dad a Father's Day card.

So, and a present. So it's just things like that, little things. I think I just need to get a bit more organized.

I'll try, I'm looking, I'm looking at the wall, because I've got a big list of things. Maybe that's really what's not helping me, because I'm seeing that every day. Too much reality.

So, I don't know. I don't know. So yeah, we'll see.

We'll sort it out somehow. But as far, anyway, that's the idea. I've chatted on about other stuff now.

Sorry. Mark, thank you. So, Joanne is the last question.

Totally understand if not, but could you walk us through the layout of your home? And when you talk about it, I'm always trying to figure out exactly where everything is. I tend to picture things in my head. And no, I can try and do that.

Hmm. It would be easier if I actually was trying to think, I'll have to visualize it while I do it. I'm sitting here, I can't, I can't move this microphone with me.

Because it's attached to the desk. And it's not really a portable microphone. Okay, I can, I can give you a brief description, I can probably give more of a detailed description.

And I suppose if I recorded it into my phone, which I probably could do, but it wouldn't be a terrible sound, it wouldn't be the same quality as this. But maybe you know, but I'll just describe it anyway. I'll describe it anyway.

Right, let me see. So coming to the front door, like my actual front door to my flat. So open the door.

Opens inwards. Does it? Yeah, it does. Opens inwards.

It's a new door. Well, I say new. Probably four years old, but it's still one of those really heavy duty, multiple lock things, where it's really sturdy.

I mean, it's a good really good door. It's a good door. It does always comes back when I call it unlike Vinnie.

Did I mention this? I don't know if I mentioned this, Vinnie ran out of the park the other day. He was running around with his friends. There's about four dogs.

I'm talking to one of the parents of the dogs. And one of the other adults said, Vinnie's gone. I said what? He'd run out of the park.

Like he was decided to go home. And I attempted to run towards the exit to try and get him calling his name. And the man's walking up to me holding Vinnie.

So he picked Vinnie up, Vinnie went and said hello to him. He picked Vinnie up and brought him to me. I don't know why he ran out.

I'm thinking after the event, did he think? Because the grass is so long, he couldn't see very well. Really, he was quite a distance away. Maybe he thought I'd left.

Maybe he couldn't see me because there's so many people. From his angle, he couldn't see me. So he's like looking for me.

Maybe. Maybe he thought I'd gone home without him. Kind of unlikely to happen, you know, but who knows? Well, I got him back.

But that was scary. That was, he didn't go in the road or anything, which is good. So, okay, so you go into the front door, door opens inwards to the right, directly ahead of the door.

Which I mean, you could get in there, it's a storage cupboard, or a storage room. Now you could, you can get in there if you lodged the door open, the front door open, you can get in there. But generally, I'd need to close the door.

It's dark in the hallway. So there's a light. There's no light, there's no windows or anything in the hallway.

It was, you know, in my flat. So I turned the light on, which is directly on the wall on the left hand side as I walk in. There's a coat rack on the wall above a radiator, which is where I put the coats on that same wall.

And the opposite, and then a wall next to it, there's a mirror, a mirror, and that wall leads all the way down the hallway. So there's that. But the storage room, once the front door is closed, which is literally straight away through as you walk through the front door, open up, opens outwards.

Yeah, open outwards. And it's quite a large storage room actually. It's quite, quite a bit of space there.

So it's full. I mean, there's a lot of stuff in there. So that is used.

I don't really like going in there because the old mice is living there sometimes. So I don't really go in there much. But I've got stuff in there, desk and some bits and bobs.

I did consider having that as a recording studio area. But I just don't like the space. It's just, it's cold in the winter.

It's you got the sound of the traffic because there's two vents. And it's directly onto the road. Just so I'd have to block them up in order for the room to be silent, which meant there'd be no, there'd be no air really flowing.

So if I come out of that room, close the door, and then turn right. And that's the hallway that goes all the way down. There's two doors on the left.

There's one door on the right. And there's one door right at the end. So the door first door on the left is my bedroom.

The second door on the left is my living room. The first door on the right is the bathroom. So this is facing down towards that area.

And the door facing right the end is the kitchen. So there's a ceiling, white ceiling, white walls. It's the doors are a bit shabby because the inside doors still got what the doors I inherited.

And they were scratched and everything because the person who lived here previously had two huge dogs, according to the gossip. And you can see either that or there was a werewolf living there, because the doors are scratched a bit. And which doesn't bother me, but I probably could do with I could have replaced the doors, I could have made this place a lot nicer if I wanted to, over the years.

Just couldn't be bothered, I think. Anyway, so I looked, so you go down to the left, go into the bedroom, there's the door opens inwards. So the bedroom door opens inwards, the living room bedroom, the living room door opens inwards.

The kitchen door opens inwards, but the bathroom door opens outwards. So the first room on the left is the bedroom. So you open the door, the door opens towards the wall.

So it's, you know, opens inwards. It's quite a big window. If you want to see my window is a picture of Vinnie sitting on my bedroom windowsill.

And you can kind of get, I suppose, gauge the size based on him and the window. Now I know he's not a big dog, but he's not, he's not the size of a, a ferret either, you know, he's, there's a big window. And on the left hand side, there's my double bed, leaning against the wall.

So the head of it is against the, so as I go in and just turn left, face the bed sideways. So the top of the wall is where the head is. And the other side of the wall is where the side of bed is.

And next to the bed is a brown, wooden, I don't know, what do you call set of drawers or whatever, which has got underpants and socks and stuff in. Yeah, yeah, it's, I call it the skid mark. This, no I don't.

So that's where I keep my underwear. And I use the top as a, like when I'm in bed, I put my phone on there. I put my bottle of water on there.

And I keep a few little bits and bobs on there as well. Every flat surface has to be used. That's my rule in life.

A flat surface has to be covered. So when Andre was here, a flat surface had to be clear. So we had two different opposite versions of what should be done with a flat surface.

I filled them up, he cleared them by pushing everything onto the floor, blessing. And he couldn't stop himself from doing it. He had to do it, had to, obsessed he was.

I mean, I'm not, I'm not obsessed with filling every flat surface up. It just kind of happens naturally. It's an organic, it's an organic, organismic thing.

Orgasmic thing. It's just a standard thing, you know. I don't put a lot of energy into it.

Not a lot of thought. Looking towards the window, on the left hand side, the wall, I've got two clothes racks attached to the wall. And they're black.

And basically, they're clothes racks as far as you can hang coat hangers with stuff on onto them on either side. One of them's hanging off the wall a bit. That was more, I didn't do a very good job of attaching it.

The other one's really sturdy, probably be there forever. So I put more stuff on that one. But it's really sturdy.

I could probably, well, I wouldn't because I couldn't, to be honest. So I could probably just hang off of it with my arms. But in reality, that would pull it off.

And I don't want to pull anything off right now. Just, you know, only pull half the wall off. That's what happened when I took my punch bag down in the living room.

And it wasn't good. Anyway, so that's there. That's where I hang my clothes up.

Like tracksuit bottoms. I wear the same things all the time now. Basically got multiple pairs of tracksuit bottoms, and t shirts, and a few jumpers and stuff.

It Yeah, I'm probably the least fashionable 53 year old. And I imagine there's quite a few unfashionable 53 year olds around. I'm the least, I'm the most unfashionable.

And I spent most of my time being really unfashionable. I've not never been. I had little periods where I've been smart, dressed only small periods.

And there's no reason really for me not to. When I moved here, I'd gone from working was working, you know, both the counseling and in the call centers. I was always smart.

As far as wearing a shirt, wearing trousers and shoes. When I moved here, that's what I was wearing. Not so much shirts, but wearing trousers and shoes and maybe a jumper t shirt.

And over time, I put some weight on. I've been over in the park to pick up, I think to pick Phinney up. And my trousers split.

It's amazing how much noise trousers can make in the middle of a park. When they split. It was really and honestly, I couldn't believe it.

They didn't feel that tight on me. But after that, it happened to two pairs of trousers in a row. And that's when I when I got these.

I think you'd probably call them sweatpants, but tracksuit bottoms. And I feel I've got eight, maybe 10 pairs. And that's what I wear every day.

So I'm very scruffy. Really, I guess so that so that's on the left hand side anyway. So on the floor, I've got a sit up abdominal board on underneath the window, the big window, there is a radiator.

And in front of the radiator, there is a brown chair, which Phinney uses to get onto the windowsill. He climbs on the chair and go onto the windowsill. Sometimes he sleeps on the chair.

So he likes it, it's comfortable. And then to the right of the room, there is an exercise bike, like a really good one actually that I've had for a long time, long, I don't know, five years, maybe longer, six years. And it's the dust collector.

It's basically all it does. And then in front of that, there is a I don't know what you want to call it, a workout bench, you know, for weights. So it's really sturdy, made of steel.

So you can do crunches and stuff with dumbbells and barbells and things. And on top of those, I've got two fairly heavy dumbbells, which stay on there. And just to keep them out of the way so I don't trip on them.

So I broke my toe on them a couple of times in the past. So I have to be careful. And then I've got a punch bag.

This is in the bedroom, I've got a punch bag, which is a stand up one. And there's water in the base and it stands up and it's pretty much my height, roughly, maybe a little bit higher. And so that's that's that.

And then next to it, there's another one, it's a punch ball. So it's more of a I've never seen them, but it's just a ball rather than a punch bag. And you put it in it, you cannot duck out of the way and stuff.

So I've got that as well. And the carpet is the same carpet all the way through. It's a grey, dilapidated, torn to pieces carpet, which is, it's seen better days, to be honest, it's really, it wasn't an expensive, good carpet when I got it.

But it was okay. It would have worn anyway, even if I hadn't had Andre ripping it to bits, and then Vinnie ripping it to bits. If I hadn't had that, I think it would have still worn not as much as it has, as it has, but it would have still worn just with me walking around and having people in and out.

So it needs to be replaced, needs to be gone. And the walls do need some paint need need to be needs redecorate, which never really been decorated. We painted part of it when I moved in.

But decorations needed. So one day, one day. So come out of the bedroom, that's kind of the bedroom bit.

So walk out of the bedroom. It's just a wall. And that's the wall of the bathroom as we look towards it.

It's very thin. So it's plasterboard. Turn left.

So you got a door on the right door on the left bathroom doors on the right that pulls out the living room doors on the left which pushes in. So we're going to the living room, which is easiest one for me to describe because I'm in there. It opens up the door and to the left.

And they're right directly in front of the door when a door opens, and it's fully open, you know, it's kind of stopped. What is at the moment it doesn't I don't close it just stays open the whole time most most of the time. There's an there's my television which is on top of a a wardrobe turned on its side on the floor, but without the door.

So the you can walk into on Andre could walk into the wardrobe. And he had all these toys in there and everything and finished got his toys in there now. But Andre used to sleep in there sometimes.

And so it's quite a big area. The storage area really, I don't use it for anything of my own stuff, but it does get messy sometimes. And, and any flat surface that's available is filled up with rubbish, just stuff.

So that's that's the TV, which is the most important part of the whole flat, really. And if I turn to the right, which is where the window is, I currently, the windows, I would say the windows pretty much the same size as the one in the bedroom. Although this this room is a bit bigger, I think than the bedroom.

But this the kind of roughly the same, I would say. I don't know, I think the windows are deeper in here. But again, I'm not sure.

The, the curtains are green. I've got no net curtains at the moment because I ripped them down because they were dirty. And this back in the end of November, I had a bit of a cleaning thing.

And I've not replaced them yet. Which means I can't spy on the neighbours at night. Or during the day either.

You know, it's terrible. You know, I can't if I look out the window, everyone can see me. It's not fair.

So the curtains have been the same curtains I've had since I moved in here, which is a little bit sad. There's nothing wrong with the curtains. But I could have done.

It's really weird. I could have done so much for this place. I don't know why I didn't.

And it's not it's not like we've come to the end of, you know, still living there. But just I don't know why I didn't. I haven't done more.

Anyway, so that's the window. Below the window, there's, I think an even larger. What's it? Heater.

So yes, even bigger radiator than in the bedroom, I think. And in front of the window on the left hand side, there's a desk, which is not really being used. There's a bit of junk on there.

I'm not sure what I'm going to do with it at the moment. It's one of my black desks. It's a really, really good desk.

It's like a gaming desk, really. But I got it a few years back. With because I wanted just to make things nice.

And try and put together the best setup that I could have. And next to that. So that's kind of facing the window.

Next to that is where I'm sitting right now. So that's facing the other wall. So the opposite wall to the TV.

Or if you're facing the window, turn right face towards this wall. It's not a tiny room, it's an it's an okay size room. So facing this way, you'd see the desk, which is what I work at predominantly.

There's a light standing up before the desk, a lamp, which I would use if I was making videos. There's the laptop, which I've got open right now. There is two hard drives that are both being used because I've been sorting through all the different things I've got.

There's the recording studio and the equipment connected to that. There's the iPad that's currently closed. There's attached to the desk, other than the microphone stand, there's also a big plug thing attached.

We've 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6 plug sockets, and another four sockets that can use for my voice is going USB things that you can charge the phone and stuff like that. So that's this desk. And then facing the other wall, you got one.

So the wall is going to turn around a bit. So the wall where the window is in the corner to the right hand side. So this would be behind where I'm sitting because I'm facing the other wall with this desk.

It probably doesn't make sense. But hey, so there's one black bookcase against that wall. And then there's two black bookcases facing on the other wall.

So there's three bookcases and they're just just full of books, really a few other little bits and bobs, but mainly books. And behind that, in fact, there's some of my videos on YouTube, you'll see the bookcases behind me. On the wall, there is black soundproofing on that on the wall on the left hand side and then on the right hand side behind the bookcases.

There's soundproofing all along the wall at the top of that side of the room. And some there there's some other near the door, there's some soundproofing and the wall, which is where the TV is behind the TV. There's 1-2-3-4-5-6-7-8-9 large soundproofing pads on there as well.

So the room's quite soundproofed. If it wasn't for the window, I think it would be fairly quiet in here. The rest of the wall did have soundproofing on, but I took that off to use in in the shed that I had in my bedroom a few years back.

That was my recording studio, but that's gone now. It didn't quite work out. So it gives you an idea of the size of the bedroom because I kind of had this literally a garden shed in there.

It wasn't a big garden shed, but it was a site big enough to get into. It wasn't just a storage one. It was big enough to actually be in and do stuff in and still have room to have a bed and to, you know, move around.

So on the left now, so moving away from the bookcases, which is completely opposite the where I sit to watch the television is a double settee. It's an old thing that my friend downstairs gave to me and it's a recliner. It's fairly comfortable actually.

Very heavy. It's a heavy duty old thing. So I've got that and next to it I've got my little side table, which I put my coffee and breakfast plate or whatever, you know, on there.

So that's where I put stuff, bottle of water and that. And then on the other wall, which is the wall where the door is, it's all empty, really. It's all clear apart from one strip of, what's it, you know, soundproofing.

Because what happened is I ordered some soundproofing and some of it got stolen before I even came to pick it up. It was left outside and because it was costing quite a lot of money, like 20 quid each or something. So I was like, wow, I kind of stopped.

And then the company stopped doing them. But yeah, I could do with having more, one, two, three, all, all the way around the walls. I've got some in the hallway as well.

Used to have one on the, on the actual door, the front door, the old front door. Not no more. So at the moment I've got one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten, eleven, twelve, thirteen, fourteen, fifteen, sixteen, seventeen, seventeen pieces of paper with just financial stuff on to remind me of things to pay and things I owe and all that.

I'm not sure how much, how useful that is actually to have that on the wall all the time. So, and is that, there's also another light just near where the settee is. There's a light which I use when I make videos.

So it's like a backlight, but also I can use it if I'm reading when I'm sitting down. So I've got that as well. And there is a sign, there's a couple of signs in there on the walls.

And the other in there, one is, you do nothing, you get nothing. That's half behind the bookcase that's been there for a while. And there's another sign that I put up years and years ago.

It's above the, it's written on a piece of paper and it's above the window. And what does it say? Excellence is not a singular act, but a habit. You are what you do repeatedly.

And on the doorframe, just above the door, there's some glass. Okay, that's another thing. There's the doors that close and open, like doors do.

And then there's glass at the top, which is a very old fashioned kind of councilly thing. I've seen them a lot over the years. And so if you was tall enough, you could see through the glass.

I'm not tall enough to do that. So I had someone do that years ago when I was in the bathroom and they were looking through the glass like we dirty. I mean, I think the glass is, it's all muffled.

So you can't see, but in this place that for some reason there was the glass was clear. And I think in them days, they assumed that people weren't going to be wanting to do that. Anyway, what I've got below the glass, but above the door, I've written down probably nine years ago, I wrote this down.

I deserve to be happy. A little kiss mask, mask, kiss mark. So I deserve to be happy.

So I wrote that down shortly after I moved in here, not over nine years ago. And there are the plug situation, there's a plug on the wall where the door is a little way away from the door. The light switches on the, as you face the door, when you're inside the living room, the light switches on the left, it's a white light switch.

It's directly underneath the soundproofing that I put on. And a little to the left down a bit, there is a double plug socket. So that's there.

Now, to the right hand side of the television, not too far away from the window, sort of, well, okay, it is a bit towards the window. There's another double lights, double electrical socket. I think, is it? Yeah, just a double.

But over here, which is behind the bookcases, there's two double sockets. And underneath, on the floor, I have two, I have two multiple socket ones as well, that are on the floor. So I don't think they're actually attached to anything.

So I've got quite a few electrical sockets to use if I need. They're all, most of them are used, the ones on the walls. The one for the TV, because I've got Apple TV as well that I've had for forever, really.

So that, that uses that, that allows me to do streaming and stuff, YouTube and watch things on TV from the internet. The, that uses one socket or one plug, and the television uses the other plug. Yeah, most of the equipment I use here are powered by the sockets behind me.

So that, that's kind of everything. There's, there's a light bulb. There's a light on the, on the ceiling.

Hasn't got a lampshade, just a, just a light bulb. Used to have a lampshade, don't know what happened to that. I can't remember.

And okay, so that's this, the skirting boards, little skirting boards around. They're all scratched and yeah, it's a little bit grotty really. They're not big skirting boards.

Yeah, quite small skirting boards. And these are proper clean. I just, I'm not going to do it.

No, maybe one day. So go out or into the hallway, turn left, so opposite is the bathroom. I'll go to there last, save the best to last.

The, that's the poo room basically. So then I'd go into the kitchen. So turn left, that's the room at the end of the hallway, as I was, you know, earlier looking down the hallway.

Go in there, directly on the right is, that's where the light switch is on the wall. But also there's a freezer, a storage freezer, you know, one of the flat ones with the lid at the top. So there's, it's not a big thing.

It's not tiny, but it's, you know, it's a fair size. So there's that. And then, so there's that directly on the left.

If you go straight in, look ahead, there's a, what is there? So there's a fridge on top of the counter. Underneath the counter, there's a freezer. Next to the fridge, there is a microwave.

To the right of the fridge, there's a microwave. And there's some cupboards. There's a cupboard above the microwave on the wall.

There's cupboards below the microwave, below the unit. And then there's the gap for the cooker. So there's a cooker in there.

It's an electric cooker, white one. It wasn't, it was quite cheap actually when I got it. It wasn't probably more than about 130 quid or something.

If I'm not remember rightly. So there's that. And then to the right, there's another cupboard on the wall, above the unit.

There's a set of drawers. It's kind of a mirror image to the other side of the cooker. Set of drawers and unit and a cupboard underneath.

And then that's where on the counter is my toaster and my kettle. So the toaster is more towards the wall, the kettle is a bit further, you know, closer to the, to where I am. So when I'm doing a cup of tea, the cups in front of the kettle, but there's a distance, but not a huge distance, but you know, it's not right close to it.

And I would have my bowl of cereal if I was making one or a meal or whatever to the left. So I always have the cup to the right and the plate or whatever to the left. There's a bit of area where there's not really much stuff, maybe a little bit of rubbish, bit of packaging that I need to get rid of.

So turn right, and that's the window. And there's a blind, which is falling apart, which is in there. There's a little shelf, window shelf thing, windowsill.

So I have a few little bits on there. One is the washing up liquid. But that's, yeah, it's kind of just running out as well.

But there's a washing up liquid on there and maybe sponges, pack of sponges. And then there's a sink, a draining board. I have a plastic bowl in the sink.

And then to the right of the draining board, there's some more space, counter space, but most of it is taken up because the boiler is above it. So there's, you can put stuff underneath, but it's not a lot of space to put anything. But there's, that's where the boiler is.

And there's cupboard space underneath the sink, which I don't use. And there is, yeah, and then to the right, probably where the draining board is, that's where the washing machine lives underneath. So that's where the washing machine is.

So that, and there's a floor, and a ceiling, and walls, and all needs a good clean. So next, so come out of there, open the door inwards. It's a squeaky door, but I managed to unsqueak it using Vaseline.

I know you can also, I think shoe, not shoe polish, furniture polish does the trick as well. But the Vaseline really, it got rid of the squeak quite quick. So I was pleased with that.

Because my neighbor mentioned that she could hear. She wasn't complaining, she just mentioned that she could hear my door squeaking. I said, really? So I got rid of that squeak.

And then on the left hand side, there's the door to the bathroom. So I open that outwards, go in there. Directly on the left, as I go in, there's a cupboard.

I guess it used to be like the airing cupboard, but there's not, there's no boiler in there now. It's just a cupboard. There's not much in there to be honest.

I've put a few bits involved, so there's not much in there. Just, I put soap, and deodorant, and toilet paper, and things like that. And then walk a little bit to the left, go down, not go down, it's not big enough to walk.

But you see there's a place where there's a bathroom cabinet on the wall. There's a towel rack underneath the bathroom cabinet, which is white, a towel rack, which is metal. And then turn right again, you see there's a window to the right, and then there's a toilet.

Next to the toilet is a sink. And then turn right again, and that's where the bath is. And there's a bathroom, it's all, what's it, got tiles all on the walls and everything.

The, above the sink, and also above the bath, there's a shower rack, and a shower curtain, which I put in. And the, the bath has a, you know, one of those mixed water things for this. So there's a shower hose, it's not a power shower, but you can turn the tap, cold, hot and cold tap on, and then press the button and mix it together, you know, to come out the hose, or the shower spray, whatever you want to call it.

So that works fairly well. I mean, it can be temperamental, depending on the temperature of the water. And, and it's lino in there, I think it's the same as in the bathroom, is in the kitchen, same kind of material, whatever it is, on the floor, hasn't got carpet.

And I do believe that is, I mean, isn't it come out there and there's a wall on the other side, you know, goes all the way back to leading to the front door. There's nothing on there, it's just, but it's quite dark, there is a light for the hallway, between the bathroom and the kitchen on the on the wall. So there's two, there's two light switches for the hallway, but light, because it's dark.

There's no, you know, even with the open, all the doors, I don't need the bathroom door open, because it opens out. And because of the smell, wouldn't be fair on anyone. And the kitchen door stays closed all the time.

The bedroom door is open most of the time. But that's it. And there's no light, hardly all, you know, as soon as you get past the bedroom, you have to have the light on because otherwise I'll end up tripping and stuff or falling over Vinnie because he loves to trip me up.

He sets, he lets, sets booby traps up all the time. And ties my shoelaces together. He's very naughty.

You don't realize how naughty he is. Oh, yeah, that's kind of the the layout of this flat. I'll give it a good description.

I don't know. I'm pleased with it. I've never been more pleased in my life.

So I hope that described the the the outlay of here. I realized it would have been what easier and quicker, easier to understand and quicker to filmed it. And maybe I will one day but I have done in the past.

When I first moved in and it was nice and tidy. And new. Well, not new but new to me.

I'd have to do quite a fair bit of work to to make it nice and presentable. I quite like to put the TV against the wall, get rid of that wardrobe on its side because that will really open this room up a bit more. Anyway, so that's it.

I hope Joanne that was okay, as far as the description goes. And that is, I do believe, all of the questions answered for today's Q&A Friday. So thank you for listening.

I just heard Vinnie. He's awake. I have the door closed all this time.

So I hear him now. So it's time to take him out for a walk. So thank you for listening.

Remember to be kind to yourself. Remember to be gentle with yourself. Because you deserve to be happy.

Lots of love. Bye