#907 2 less teeth - Let me bore you to sleep (Jason Newland) (19th October 2022)

Hello and welcome to let me bore you to sleep. My name is Jason Newland. My website is jasonnewland.com and please only listen when you can safely close your eyes.

And if you think that I sound a little bit different today, it's because I have two less teeth. Oh dear, oh dear. Yep, I have two teeth removed at the dentist.

I don't know why I added at the dentist to that sentence, because it's kind of obvious, unless of course I was some kind of street fighter. But yep, I was in some old black and white comedy movie, Laurel and Hardy, where I was wrapping some string around my tooth and connecting it to a door handle and, you know, trying to get out that way. Nope, I went to a dentist.

And my lower lip is still a bit numb on the right hand side and it's very swollen, actually. Do you know if you've ever had dental work and had an anesthetic and your lips feel swollen? Well, that's how it felt. But what happened is, I'll give you the information in a different order.

But what I did after having the teeth out, they kicked me out of there straight away. Not kicked me out, get out, but it was straight away. Thanks, bye.

Because they had other people to see and they fitted me in on the NHS and it was like brilliant. You know, I was very, very fortunate, considering I was no longer on their list of people to treat. So they did me a big favour there.

Anyway, I had it done. And anyway, I'll talk about that in a minute. But I walked for an hour, halfway the journey home.

So it's a two hour walk. And I walked for an hour. The bus had just left.

So it's about 40, 50 minutes for a wait for a bus because of every hour. So I thought I'll just walk it because I felt weird. I felt strange.

I had gone through. I was having a bit of an anxiety attack during the dental treatment. I managed to calm myself down.

Again, I'll talk about that in a minute, baby. But I want to get to the bit about my lip. I was hungry.

So this was about two o'clock. In the afternoon, I'd had my breakfast at, I don't know, half eight, something like that. Eight o'clock, halfway.

So I was hungry. You know, I was hungry. I didn't know how I was going to eat because I couldn't feel the right side of my mouth.

The bottom right side of my mouth, including my tongue, the back of my tongue. That was the problem I had when I was at a dentist. I couldn't, the back of my tongue felt weird.

And I didn't like that. It was. But my lip was still numb.

As were my front teeth as well. My front bottom teeth that had nothing to do with the, you know, the thing. Anyway, I thought, well, there's a McDonald's at the place I was going on.

It's like this industrial estate. So I thought I'll go there. I'll get a burger, I'll get two small cheeseburgers.

You know, so I didn't have to open my mouth too wide, just two small cheeseburgers. One would have been enough, to be fair. And a milkshake.

Because I thought a milkshake that would be a little treat. I love milkshakes. The McDonald's milkshakes.

I just always, I loved them since I was a kid. I do. I like that.

I prefer them to the food, if I'm honest. I just love the milkshakes. So I get that.

I go and sit down on a bit. It's an area where you can sit, where it's not sheltered, but I didn't need shelter because there's no rain. It's quite windy.

And I try to eat these burgers on one side of my mouth. It's a very strange situation. Because the food, the food kept moving to the other side and it was landing on my tongue on the other side.

And I felt like I was choking a bit because I couldn't feel it. I knew it was there, but I couldn't feel it. And I didn't know it was at the back of my throat.

And it was weird. I had to keep putting my finger in and moving the food to the left side of my mouth. Perhaps I should have laid on my left side and eaten that way.

But I could have got some weird looks. I'm sure I got some weird looks because I looked like a, what is it? A hamster, probably. A hamster eating, but just on, or a squirrel eating.

You know when squirrels do the nuts, the whole nut in their mouth. Well, I would have looked like that, but just one side. So they probably thought I was a pig.

You look at him just stuffing it, eating all that, all that food just bulging out of his cheeks. But there wasn't much there. It was only a tiny little bit in each, each mouthful.

Well, it wasn't a mouthful. It was a, it wasn't even half a mouthful. It was a little bit.

And I was trying to chew it up. So I'm drinking out of the thing, out of the straw, you know, the, the cardboard straw. Lovely.

So that was getting a bit deformed and soggy and out of whack because they're not very good. And then I noticed that there's red all around the end. And I'm thinking the tomato sauce from the burger has got all over the end of the straw.

What the hell is that? I don't remember that ever happening before. And then I start thinking, I wonder if it is. And I realized I've been eating my lip while I was eating.

I was also crunching on my lip, lip without realizing and I was bleeding. So the inside of my lip is completely, it's not, it's still there. I've not eaten at all, but it's really, it's like twice the size of the other side of my lip.

So it felt twice the size when it was anesthetized. Now it actually is twice the size because it's damaged because I was literally chomping on it without realizing it. Now I thought I could eat on one side, you know, I was using my teeth chomping, chomping.

I like the word chomping today, focusing just on the left side of my mouth eating. But it turns out I was also biting my lip, my lower lip on the right side. Now I'm pretty, pretty much sure I'm not the only person to have done that, but it was weird.

It's like I was being so careful. It wasn't like I was carefree. I don't care what happens like that.

Otherwise I would just put the food and just eating it normally. But I knew there was an open wound in my mouth. I had to be careful and I was trying to be careful.

And all the way, even when I got home, so it was a good two hours from having the teeth out to getting home and I was still bleeding. Now it's stopped, which is good. I've been drinking plenty of water and the bleeding from the wound, wherever it's gone, the bleeding from my lips stopped as well.

But it's really, uh, my lip doesn't hurt. It does hurt a little bit. It's weird.

Maybe I have done that. Maybe I've done it before. I just don't remember.

The last time I had a tooth out was well, um, God, over 10 years ago, I think I'm just gonna drink. I can now drink straight down my throat because I couldn't feel half of my mouth. So I was drinking right through that down my left side.

It's very weird. Now I can just drink normally again. It's weird.

I don't know about it. I don't know if it's the anesthetic that they gave me, but I was really thirsty. I've been really thirsty since I had that done.

Maybe loss of blood, but it wasn't a huge amount of blood lost, you know, but it just made me thirsty. So in drinking, uh, not a huge amounts, but just, just been drinking, just had a real need to, you know, have some drinks of water and stuff. But then thinking about it, during that time, I probably would have been drinking anyway, because I do drink a fair bit of water.

I've got, I've got stacks of water in the hallway. I buy packs and packs of it. The only healthy thing I think I ever did in my life, apart from exercise and take vitamins, is, um, drinking water.

I'll have some more. That's actually Coke, but as we all know, there's nothing better for teeth than Coke. So that's why I'm drinking it because I want to take care of the teeth I've got left.

So before we go any further, I hope you can understand me. I can understand me, but I might be slowing a little bit without realizing it. But if I am, then, you know, you know why.

So, hey, at least I'm making the effort to do a recording, I guess. It's plus, I've got something to talk about for the first time in three years. So I think before we go any further, I need to do my gratitude journal.

So maybe you'd like to go along with me, or just in your mind, think about some stuff. So today's Wednesday, the 19th of October. 22.

So what am I grateful for? I know, I think these things are meant to be like what you're grateful for, not what you're grateful for, you know, in the sense of maybe not having it in a negative, but I'm grateful that my two teeth are now gone. Maybe there's a better way of phrasing that. I'm grateful for the dentist helping me.

Would that be a better one? I'm grateful that the, because basically, when I went to the doc, when I went to a dentist, he gave me an x-ray on that part of my mouth. So he didn't give me a full checkup or anything like that, because there wasn't time, because it was kind of an emergency, not really an emergency, but kind of, if you know what I mean. Yeah, it wasn't an emergency.

But it was needed kind of fairly quickly. So I was in pain, I don't think I could have really waited too long, really. Because, you know, it wasn't chronic pain, it was acute pain caused by, it wasn't an abscess, but it was, the tooth was rotting, but at the nerves, into the nerves.

So it was, no, it was infected. It was infected, but it was rotting away or whatever. But it was, so if it had been at the top of the tooth, or the middle of the tooth, even, it could have dug into it and perhaps given me a filling or a crown or something like that.

But because it was right at the bottom of the tooth, there was no choice but to take it out. Or I suppose potentially root canal would be another, but I'm not doing that. That's not going to happen.

So, and the tooth next to it, so the one that was aching was why I was going, that's why I went there. But the tooth next to it, because I was only going for one tooth, I wasn't thinking about the tooth next to it. The tooth next to it was already in bits.

There's hardly anything left of it. And he said that needs to come out. I was going to just say, and because that's going to cause you problems in the future, but that'll be making it up, because he didn't say that to me.

But it was useless. It was just shades, if you know what I mean. The root was still in, but the actual tooth was broken into bits.

And it was just bits of tooth, and it was of no use as a tooth. I don't know what it could be useful for, if not a tooth, but he said, well, might as well take that out as well. I said, okay.

He said, do you want to come back or do you want to do it now? I said, yeah, I'll do it now. Now, first of all, he said, do you, would you, do you want to, do you want it done under, do you want it done under local anaesthetic, or do you want it under, and if he's, I don't know, like be put out, forget the word he said. But do you want to be sedated? Do you want to be sedated? And I said, yeah, just local anaesthetic.

I'm not getting knocked out or something like that. Because I know, I'm pretty sure what he would have said then is, well, we'll refer you to the medical, to the dental hospital to have that done. And that appointment might not be for a few weeks.

And there's nothing he could do for me. You know, is there's other than me taking painkillers, which I take anyway for my lower back. There's nothing he could really do for me.

So I thought, no, then I'll be in pain for weeks. No. So I was, I was a bit like, oh.

And so that's why I said, well, apart from the fact is I don't want to be sedated. You know, if it's a major operation, or not even a major, if it's an operation, you know, then knock me out. 100%.

But something like a tooth being extracted, nah, I don't need to be knocked out for that. So I've had, I had teeth extracted when I was a kid. Because when I was a child, when I moved into my parents, my dad and my stepmom, when I was seven, I hadn't had any dental treatment pretty much my whole life.

So I saw a dentist for the first time, as far as I know, when I was seven. And my teeth weren't in great nick, as you can imagine. They, you know, they were baby teeth, so it didn't really matter.

But I think initially, I had a couple of teeth removed, and some fillings or something like that. And then the teeth fell out one by one. When I was around the age of eight, just normal for any other kids, just the same, same as any other kid.

It just got wobbly and fell out and stuff. And it was a bit, it was fun. It was a lot of fun.

And then as an adult, I've had, well now I've had four teeth removed. But until yesterday, I'd only had two teeth removed. That's kind of obvious, because I've had two teeth removed today.

And I don't know how I feel about it, because I've not really given it much thought, really, really, not really. But I don't want to be, the thing is, if you met me, you'd probably be too busy thinking how beautiful I am, and how sexy my beard is to even notice my teeth. But if you met me, you wouldn't even know that I had a gap, or had any teeth missing, because all my front teeth are there, especially on the top.

And my lips don't go down very far. So you can't really see my lower teeth in a normal interaction. They are there.

Obviously they're there. But you don't really see them. It's only really the front teeth.

And I don't really open, you know, like some people, they're, you know, when they smile, you can see their gums as well, or you can see all of their teeth, or, and maybe even their gums. You can hardly see my teeth when I smile. Because I have quite small teeth.

Don't have big teeth, quite small teeth. And like Andre, the original Andre, he had quite big, not big teeth, but he's had nice teeth, but he was very small. You know, he had a big smile and his teeth were bigger than mine.

I mean, it's no right or wrong size for teeth. I'm not into all that. Oh, you've got big teeth.

You're like, no, I don't mean it in that way. I mean, just, I just, I think I've got particularly small teeth. They're almost like childlike teeth, I think I've got.

I don't know. Maybe it's because I'm quite petite. Well, maybe because I used to be quite petite.

My teeth didn't know I was going to end up being huge. Right. So Wednesday, okay.

Graduation. Gratitude journal. I'm grateful that I was seen by the dentist.

Yeah, grateful was treated by a dentist. I can't really have two for the same thing. My teeth are gone.

And that all includes in the same thing really, isn't it, I guess. I'm grateful for the mild weather. I'm glad it wasn't raining today.

It's been windy, but it's been mild. So I'm grateful for the mild weather, because I think it would have been harder to leave the house if it had been raining. As it is, it wasn't easy to go out.

I didn't want to go out. It wasn't even, well, excuse me, that's nice, isn't it? Excuse me. There's no excuse for that, is there? I'm utterly disappointed with myself.

I feel I've let myself down. You know, it's probably someone listening, thinking, agreeing with me about that. If you are sitting there agreeing, press stop on the recorder and go away.

Leave. I don't want you listening. So I mean it.

I'm not joking. If you're sitting there judging me, go away. Please don't judge me.

I've had enough judgment for a lifetime. I don't need any more. Thank you very much.

Thank you for coming. All observing, me, me, me, me. Mild weather.

So I was, it made it easier to go out. I would say mild weather. It was a nice day.

Windy, windy, but not cold. Until coming home, waiting for the bus. So I had my jacket on and I had it open the whole time.

And all I had was a t-shirt on underneath. And although a little bit self-conscious, I don't normally walk around with a t-shirt on, have my belly wobbling about, but there's a part of me thinking that I'm slim now because I lost four kilos. Because I'm now 96 kilos instead of 100.

So I'm 15 stone instead of, I don't know, 15 and a half or whatever. But I'm not skinny. In my mind, it's almost like I'm now skinny.

So I'm walking around with a t-shirt on and it's weird. I just didn't feel self-conscious at all. But I had my, I had my jacket on, so there wasn't really a lot showing.

And waiting for the bus, I just did my jacket up and I was fine. The wind didn't affect me at all. Not that it really affects me.

I mean, the wind can't blow me over. Now I'm not talking about hurricanes. I'm talking about general, the general wind, you know, the strongest wind that we have in this country generally doesn't affect me.

You know, on a really, really windy day, like a normal weather, not obscene weather, but just a normal weather, I walk straight and the wind doesn't affect me. Now, when I was younger, when I was skinny, I used to get blown around. I honestly, I'm to wear really heavy boots just to keep me, keep me on the floor.

It was terrible. Leather boots, I did. You think I'm joking? I'm not.

I am. And I remember going on the way. I was, no, I was waiting for the bus to go to start with.

And I saw people in coats, like really wrapped up. Now I might have been on the bus actually coming up. I saw people, and this is on the way to the dentist in the like 11 o'clock in the morning.

And they were wrapped up like it was winter. And it wasn't. Now, I know everyone's experiences temperature differently.

Some people get cold when other people are warm or not bothered by it. And I'm not that bothered by the cold when I'm out in it. If it's just if it's cold, I am.

But you know, not if it's just normal kind of temperature. It was like super cold. Of course, I feel it.

But normally just on my face, because the rest of me is wrapped up, I wear a jacket, I wear a big coat. And because maybe it's because I've got all this blubber on me. I'm like a walrus, I guess.

I just don't feel it the way that other people seem to feel it. You know, skinny people, they can't stand the cold. Oh, it's cold.

It's still summer. What are you talking about? It's cold. Oh, it's like this.

Even the squirrels are sunbathing. It's amazing. Like, but it's always the people that are cold that quite often, like they've got nothing, hardly any clothes on.

I'm cold. I'll put a jacket on then. Now, because it's not fashionable.

People can't see my fashionable clothes. I wear a big jacket. Plus, if I wear a big jacket, people can see how skinny I am.

Which is kind of true as well, isn't it? I didn't like that. It almost seemed like the more clothes I wore, the skinnier I looked. Because it looked like I was wearing lots of clothes, like coats, which just made me look even more skinny.

I didn't like being skinny. I really didn't. I had more of an issue being skinny than I do being fat.

Which is probably strange, because I think it's the other way around for most people. And I know a lot of people think they're fat when they're not. I am fat, you know, I'm overweight.

Less than I was though, four kilos. Come on, I can hear the applause from here. Hear from here.

So I wonder if I lost any weight today. I lost the weight of two teeth, obviously. I lost the weight of however much blood I lost during the operation.

And I wonder if I lost any weight walking for an hour. I don't know. I suppose whatever I did lose will be put on when I ate those two burgers and the milkshake.

Because that's probably a few thousand calories. The things I think they're good calories, aren't they? They're the healthy calories. I'm going to be, I'm going to have gratitude for, I've got to think of something I'm grateful for.

Well, I bought a jumper today. I was coming back and it was in this industrial estate. This is where the bus goes, and so that's where they catch the bus to come home.

And I had an hour. I literally turned the corner into the industrial estate and the bus went past me. And it was just, it pulled up at the bus stop.

Even with my best running, my best running body, I don't think I would have caught that bus. Maybe 20 years ago, I might have caught it. But I would have been out of breath for about three hours, even when I was fit, because I'd have had to really push it.

And I'm not used to running fast. I'm more of a jogger, a slow jogger, rather than a fast runner. I can run fast when needed, but I can't always stop when needed.

What do you mean by that? Well, I'll give you an example. When I was doing Taekwondo, we used to do it in a, basically it was a school, school gymnasium. And the last time I did Taekwondo was back in, was I still, was I living here at the time or was I before I moved here? Let's say seven years ago.

And so yeah, probably seven years, blimey. Time just goes so quick. I know it's a cliche, but it's true.

It's not a cliche. I think it's something that's really true. Can it really be called a cliche? I mean, is a cliche just something that's overused? I don't know.

But life, time goes very quick. Not all the time, obviously. Not all the time.

Now, I know that I was on a bus going towards, going towards town and on the bus were, I didn't know how many of them, but there was about six young footballers on the way to a football match. Weird, a Wednesday lunchtime, so I'm not quite sure. But I don't know if they were like in the youth team of the local team, something like that.

Because they didn't, they looked, they looked old enough to have left school. They looked probably 16, 17. So it looked young.

They were, yeah, they were young, but I don't know, but they were all kitted out and they, but I didn't see them. I could hear them. And then when I got off the bus, that's when I saw them and they were all kitted in their football gear.

But they were behind me and they were discussing football. Well, I didn't know it was football. It was a sport.

I didn't know if it was football or rugby or whatever it was they were talking about. And then they, every now and then they keep mentioning, we're going to be late. We're going to be late for the football.

We're going to be, well no, we're going to be, we're going to be late for the match. We're going to be late for, and they kept saying, talking about things that could happen because they're being late and they were getting more and more worried about it, you know, and the bus kept stopping. And they mentioned that as well.

Every bus stop, there was someone waiting because the bus was late. It was late. It was about 10, 15 minutes late.

And then it stopped every bus stop because more and more people were coming to get the bus. And as it got closer to town, there's a few buses to choose from. So people just jump on the first bus that arrives.

So they were jumping on this bus because it went into town. At that point, there's probably four different buses they could choose to get onto. But because this one turns up, they get on.

So every, practically every single stop on the way to town, the bus stopped. I wasn't bothered because I had an hour. Now there'd have to be a traffic jam for me to get worried.

There wasn't. The traffic was moving absolutely normal speed. It was slow, but it was moving normally.

So I wasn't concerned. Plus, I'll be honest, I wasn't in a big hurry to get to the dentist. I wanted to be there on time because they'd got out of their way.

The lady in there went out of her way to help me to be seen. The dentist went out of his way to see me. And so there was kindness.

Perhaps that's what I should have really put in my gratitude. I want to put the kindness, that's going to be my number three. So I talked about the dentist twice, but I want to put the kindness of the receptionist and the dentist.

The kindness of receptionist and the dentist. Now, that could have been two different things because the receptionist, you can hear the motorbike in the background. Lovely.

I've got all the windows open. I love having air. I just love air coming in.

I mean, honestly, I think in the, not even in the summer, spring, if I had my own home, like my own house, bungalow, probably a bungalow would be good with my old age impending. Perhaps buying, getting somewhere that doesn't have stairs would be a good idea. Maybe because, you know, who knows in 20 years time or 10 years time, I don't know.

We don't know, do we? So, you know, human bodies and all that. I would have, what I'd like is a conservatory with a patio, but I don't know what they're called, but those things that go over, that cover the patio, not umbrellas, but actually will cover the whole thing. So you don't have to have it there.

But because I'm not a sun person, I don't have sun on me. I don't allow the sun to go on me. I like to be outside.

I like to be in the sunlight, but not have the sun shining directly on me. So I'd have a, I don't know if it's a tarpaulin or whatever over it. And I could sit outside.

I could have my desk outside. I could even make podcasts outside in the garden, have the birds playing around, have a have a dog or maybe another little ferret, maybe a few ferrets. I don't know.

But I definitely have some, have some animals because I love animals. So not cows. I like eating cows, but it's terrible, isn't it? I would like to have, I'd like to live on a farm.

I wouldn't, I wouldn't. Here's the reason. So I put kindness of receptionist and dentist because they really were great, both of them.

And I'm coming back, coming back to the farm, don't worry. The thing that really, I'm all over the place. What you just noticed.

The thing that the dentist did, like the receptionist was really kind yesterday. And I spoke to her today and asked the lady, there was two ladies behind the counter. And I just said to one of them, because the other one was busy.

I said, was it you I spoke to yesterday on the phone? She said, which one? And she said, yeah, it's me. And I said, thank you so much. I just disliked her.

I was thinking of taking a gift in with me to give to the receptionist, just to just to sort of show my appreciation. But I didn't feel that thankful. I don't think it was worthy of spending money.

So I'm joking, I'm joking. I was, to be fair, by the time I got into the bank, I got off the bus, went to the bank. And then I had about ten, no, about six minutes to get to the dentist.

So I didn't have time and it went out of my mind. What I might do when I got an appointment in three weeks, I might go in there and take a gift in there. I don't know.

I thought flowers, but then that's a bit romantic and I don't want to give the wrong impression. I liked that he was a nice man. And, you know, he's a young, young female on the receptionist.

I don't want her to, like, feel awkward, you know what I mean? Like some middle old, old man like me walking in. Here's some flowers, dear. There you go.

Thank you. There you go, dear. Hmm.

What's your name? Hmm. Rubbing my knees. It's like, no.

Then I thought chocolates and I thought, no, it's a dentist. Chocolates is almost the worst thing in the world, isn't it? But then just because she works at a dentist and just because he's a dentist, doesn't mean that they care about their own teeth. Does it? I don't know.

You think how many, how many doctors go home and drink alcohol or smoke? You know, it's just because someone's a surgeon, a doctor doesn't mean that they look after their own health. So I don't know. Chewie seemed a bit over the top.

Yes, I bought you a, I'll give her a pearl necklace. So it's like I'll give him a nice 17 carat gold bracelet for you. I'm going to spend the next 40 years paying it off.

But thank you for seeing me like that over the top. So jewelry's out. That's not really, it's not really a good thing to do, is it? Um, so I don't know.

Maybe just a thank you card. Maybe I'll do that. In fact, I can do that on online.

So maybe just send a thank you card. Because I am grateful. I mean, I don't feel grateful.

I do feel grateful. I didn't, I feel grateful, but I'm also physically, I've got physical discomfort. So it's kind of a weird feeling, if you know what I mean.

But when I get into the feeling, it's yeah. The kindness of both of them. He was all the way through the process.

He was telling me that I was, I was doing well. I was doing really well. I thought I was going to get a lollipop at the end.

But apparently dentists don't do that anymore. Because lollipops are bad for your teeth. They figured that out about 10 years ago.

So he was like, even though I felt like I was a little kid being told I was a good boy. Oh, you're a good boy. Or dog.

Oh, good boy. You're doing really well. Now open your mouth a little bit more.

I'm just going to break it up. Do it a bit more. Oh, you're doing so well.

We're nearly done. That's the first one out. And now we're going to go and do the second one.

We're gonna get the second one out now. Oh, you're a good boy. Oh, you're doing ever so well.

That's it. Yeah. Okay.

Mouth a little bit wide open. That's it. Oh, that's that's all done.

Both of them are out now. Now get out. Leave.

I said, don't forget to wash your mouth out with a blue liquid. And I really was a child in that moment. Because that's one of the things I used to look forward to.

Because I couldn't figure out why it was blue. It used to fascinate me. Because you know, I had a few fillings.

I said when I was a kid, and a few since an adult as well, actually. And it's that used to spit it out. It was but there'd be little bits of just little bits of the filling in the in the little I thought is a sink, a little sink thing that's the side of the chair.

And he said, Oh, no, we don't do that anymore. I said, Oh, well, the blue liquid, the blue liquid. Oh, you said I was a good boy.

You said I was doing really well. I hate you. I had a tantrum.

I had a tantrum. And started to slam the door on the way out, of course. And as I walked down the stairs, I banged each step as loudly as possible, like the three year old that I am.

But yes, I am grateful that that was done. And they were even though he was clearly, he didn't have much time. But you know, he clearly had a waiting list.

Just say clearly one more time. He clearly was on a deadline, you know, clearly. He was still brilliant.

It's great. And it's Yeah. The thing is, it's weird, though, because my mouth now hurts more than it did before.

Which is, you know, it's weird, isn't it? So I had a toothache now. It's probably 10 times as painful, I don't know, 10 times, probably about four or five times as painful as it was before. But it's just an injury now.

Before it was a diseased tooth. It was I was having acute pain from this. This is acute pain from an injury.

But it will heal very quickly. You know, it will be within 70 I think he said that within how many hours is 78 hours, 74 hours, 20, 42, 46. So within three days, it should be fine.

You know, it should be back to normal really run about three days. So that's good. I'm fine with that.

Because I think the physical discomfort knowing that something is healing, just knowing that it's healing, knowing that, and that pain is not going to come back like with toothache, I kept getting a toothache on there. And it kept coming back and it was going and then it went away. Then it came back and just like, oh, it started during lockdown, you know, I think 2020.

So I've had this going on and off for three years. And now it's done. And I'll have a checkup in November.

He'll check, I guess, take an x ray of all the other teeth, just check to see if I need any other fillings or have any other issues. And hopefully that'll be done. And if there is, yeah, that should be fine.

I don't have any issues with any of the other teeth. Never, never have any problems. It was only that one tooth, well, the two teeth that are gone.

Tell us about the farm. Okay. Right.

Can you imagine if I actually writ it down, what I was going to talk about? I've got my pad here, but that's my gratitude journal. What are you grateful for? Are you grateful for the fact that there's only about 10 minutes left of this recording? I'm grateful because you're going to be stopped talking in about 10 minutes time. It's a bit rude.

It's a bit rude. So I'd like to live on a farm. But at the same time, the farm has to be near a hospital within walking distance.

Oh, lovely motorbike. And there's, there's a practical side of me, which is, I'm not saying it's always been there, but I think it has kind of been there. You know, I like to dream.

I like to, I like to think I'm fairly creative and I believe everybody is, to be honest, I believe everybody is creative. I mean, everybody in the world. And it's some people perhaps have less time to give to it.

So I'll give it, I suppose my example is a writer, for example, especially a professional writer, someone that does it full time, they're being creative a lot of the time. Now, as a writer, quite a bit of being a writer is not creative. It's checking and, you know, checking the punctuation and, you know, perhaps having meetings with publishers.

And, you know, it's, there's probably quite a lot of stuff that writers need to do that is not enjoyable for them, perhaps. But apart from that, it is a hugely creative occupation. Being an artist, obviously, there wasn't a gap there, was there? It's like a YouTube video.

There was, there was no gap between that last sentence and the next sentence. The last word and the first word of that sentence is almost the same word. Perhaps it's because I'm so excited about the subject.

I think creativity is, because it's so personal. So personal, so personal to everyone. See, one person's creativity might not even be noticeable to another person.

You know, it's, we've all got it. Because even if someone doesn't write, or they don't act, or they don't, we all act, as far as I'm concerned, everyone has to be part of society. We have to act, don't we, to a degree, to fit in.

And I can feel my gum now. Not my gum, my, yeah, the gum, where the teeth used to be. It's not numb anymore.

It feels weird. And no matter how much I tell my, I'll be honest, I haven't told my tongue not to go near it. But my tongue keeps going there.

I was going to say, however much I tell my tongue to stop it, it keeps going and exploring the new hole, the new cave. It's like a new adventure for my tongue. My tongue loves nice, nice holes to explore.

Maybe the last time I had my tooth out, that hole in my gum, the tooth, the tooth, my tongue couldn't leave it alone. Even when the filling came out of my, my teeth, a little hole, a big hole actually, because the filling was over two teeth, which is why I've lost two teeth really, to be fair, because part of the filling was in the other tooth to keep the, keep them both in. Anyway, big hole and my, my tongue was so excited, that big crevice to explore.

It just kept, even when I was just doing something different, like watching telly, reading, I'd catch my tongue being naughty. I told you to keep out. But I like it.

I know you like it, but you gotta keep out. But it's new. I know it's new.

It's exciting. Yes, I imagine it is exciting. You've got no idea.

Your mouth is very boring. It's the same all the time. And then when suddenly there's a new cave, a new hole I can stick my tongue in.

It's, it's nice. It's, it's like it gives me a new lease of life. It's like a holiday.

A holiday. So me having my teeth out, my two teeth, that's a holiday for you. No, I'm talking about the filling.

This is a conversation from the past. You haven't had your two teeth out yet. I'm talking about when the filling came out.

This is the conversation we had then. No, but now I'm talking about the, the two teeth that have been taken out. This is me then.

If you want to talk to me in the future, then you're gonna have to find me in the future. This is, this is me back then. I can't be then and here.

I can't be in the past and in the future at the same time. I said stop messing about. There's only one of you.

You've got one tongue. Yeah, but you wish you had more, didn't you? Every, every man wishes they had more than one tongue. But anyway, listen, um, just be careful with the holes as you explore the crevices and the, the deep, dark caves.

Okay. Just, you know, make sure you wear a hat, which sounds really weird now. I said it out loud.

A helmet. Okay. That sounds weird.

I want a helmet in there. Um, just don't get lost. Make sure you have a bit of rope and you keep the rope and you don't, you know, you take a light, a lamp or whatever with you and some food supplies.

What the heck am I talking about? So I'd like, you know, why don't you tell them about the farm, JJ? Okay. I'd like to live on the farm, but it would be with, uh, cows, sheep, uh, chickens, moose, lions, I don't know, whatever you have on a farm and just have the animals there and let them do whatever the hell they want to do. Have a vet, employ a vet, um, to maybe live in a, in a, I've also got to be fairly rich to do this.

You know, this isn't something I can just do. Uh, you know, my, my version of it is I'd have to be fairly well off to afford to do it this way. So I'd have a, a vet living on the premises, but she would be, uh, look, it's my fantasy.

Okay. Thank you. She would be living in her own, she'd have her own house on the property, not on, she wouldn't be living in the house, my house.

She'd have her own house that came with the job. And, uh, if she wants to, and only because so she could be on call, um, 24 hours, but not really, you know, just in an emergency 24 hours. So I guess if one of the animals was given birth, um, you know, just so she could be there, but not, you know, 24 hours a day, 365 days a year.

Uh, cause that's just, it's not fair, but you know, just to be there and then she'd have a row. I provide a car for her and, um, a, she'd, you know, she'd have her own discount card for ransom. It's my fantasy or whips 50% discount.

No, I'm joking. But yeah, I'd have a vet on call and I wouldn't do anything. I'm not cleaning out.

I'm not cleaning out, um, horse manure or anything like that. I won't be doing, I wouldn't actually do anything physical. I just be there and I just hang around with the animals and, uh, just continue, continue to make podcasts because that's how I see my future.

Um, there might only be five listeners, but, but then to be fair, I could only do this, have a farm if I was successful as a podcaster. So yeah, I don't know, but it's just my little fantasy to be somewhere probably in, in, in England, be somewhere here or Wales or Scotland, somewhere like that. And just have lots and lots of animals all free to do whatever the hell they want to do.

Um, not keeping them pregnant, you know, not, no worry about needing eggs from the hens or milk from the cows. There's supermarkets for that. Just, uh, you know, maybe try and be a bit self-sufficient, have a, have a bit of food growing and stuff, but just ultimately just for the, just to be around nature.

I think it'd be pretty amazing. So on that one, I'm going to go. See, I talked about, I got through quite a lot today.

I talked about, I talked about a lot. So thank you for listening. Remember to be kind to yourself because you deserve to be happy.

Be gentle with yourself. It's really important. Lots of love and maybe go to my website and send me a message or post a review on there to say how wonderful the podcasts are.

If that's what you believe, that is what you believe. Take care. Bye.