#914 Youtube memories - Let me bore you to sleep (Jason Newland) (30th October 2022)

Hello and welcome to Jason Newland dot com. My name is Jason Newland and this is Let Me Bore You to Sleep. Welcome.

Please only listen when you can safely close your eyes. I'm just going to move the microphone. Oh, good.

Good. Made no difference. So, it's Sunday the 30th of October 2022.

It's about 10 past nine in the evening around that time. So, I didn't make a recording yesterday. I didn't make a recording.

No, I didn't make even one. No, not at all. Not yesterday.

No. I just need the microphone closer to me. Not that close.

What are you doing? So, I'll have a drink. To be honest, I felt a bit unwell today. Physically, just a bit.

Had a bit of a cough. Yeah, it's okay. It's no biggie.

I'm feeling a bit better now than I was. Oh, I put the sleeves down on my jacket. My jacket? My cardigan.

I'm so old now. I wear cardigans. I seem to go through, I went through a period when I was a kid, I wore cardigans.

And now as I got older, I wear cardigans. There's a big, that big gap in my life when I didn't wear cardigans. Perhaps because I had to wear cardigans.

Well, I had to. It's not a case where you have to wear stuff. I think when you're a kid, it's just, they're the clothes that you're given to wear.

I know when you're a baby, obviously, you don't choose what you want to wear. And maybe as you get a little bit older, like I'll put your cardigan on, Jason. Put your cardigan on, it's winter.

You need a cardigan. What do you mean? Why don't we put the heating on? Daddy doesn't like the heating on. Yeah, we do have radiators.

What, your friends had the heating on? What, in the winter? Yeah, but we don't do that. Okay, you wouldn't have to wear your cardigan if the heating was on. But you've got a cardigan, so why don't you put it on? You want the heating on? But we can't put the heating on because it's not minus degrees yet.

You know, the heating only comes on when it's freezing. I don't care about your friends. That's up to their parents.

Okay, hello. So what am I grateful for? Central heating. That's going to be the first one.

Central heating. I can turn my central heating on. I'm not at the da-whimsy of another person, which I had for a majority of my life, in fact, until about seven years ago.

It might sound weird, but it's true. Up to the age of like 45 years old, I was nearly always, I pretty much had no control over the central heating. Because I lived in rooms, shed houses, where the heating was controlled by the landlord.

If there was heating. I've lived in places without any heating at all. I didn't even know that was legal.

But I've lived in a room, I remember I had a room and there was no heating in that room. How can that even be allowed? And I had these, I think I had three gas heaters, or electric heaters, I don't know, whatever they were. And I had to leave them on when I wasn't in the room.

Now that's dangerous. It's not a good idea. And no one should ever do that.

But if I didn't do that, I would come home to a freezing cold room. It's, you know, once the heating was on, it was okay, in the summer, it was okay. Obviously.

But in the winter, I mean, luckily, I lived probably five minutes walk from where I worked, which is quite handy. So I could just come home in the afternoon and check that I still had a home, you know. So, sometimes it was too hot though.

How did I get on to talking about central heating? What's the other thing I'm grateful for? Netflix. It's very superficial, isn't it? Anyway, I'm grateful for Netflix, because they've got a few good shows on at the moment. So that's cool.

And so this is going to be very superficial things I am grateful for. The tomorrow The Walking Dead's on. So I'm going to put on that Walking Dead.

There you go. Put very little thought into those three. Central heating, Netflix and The Walking Dead.

Three things that I that I am grateful for because I like The Walking Dead and it's coming to the end of the I hope it's coming to the end. It's dragged out the last season. The last season's taken about three years.

They really are. They've taken the proverbial out of the watch, you know, the audience. They really are.

Just show every episode and let's all move on with our lives. It's not just drag it out. I mean, literally, I think it was like 2019 that the last season started and then they go, they show like six episodes and then there's 10 months to the next time.

It's like, what are you doing? Stop dragging it out. Just play every episode. But they won't.

They did exactly the same thing with the Sopranos as well. The last season, the Sopranos was in two parts. Pretty sure they did.

Yeah, they did the same with Lost. They didn't show every episode of Lost. They'd have a big gap between the last two, you know, half of the season and they show the rest of the season.

So this is not a new thing, but it's no less annoying. You know, a season for me or a series, we call it a series in England. But, you know, the seasonal series is for me to just show it, the whole thing from episode one to episode 12, if there's 12 episodes, preferably release all in one go.

But, you know, because that's how the Internet used to be, isn't it? Used to stream. These stream things, Netflix, I think pretty much all of these streaming services used to release a whole season in one go and you could just binge watch them. Now it's turning more into the annoying television style of one episode rip feed in once a week on a specific day.

And I don't like that. I want to watch every episode. That's what I want.

That's what I really, really, really want to turn into the Spice Girls. What I really want is to watch every episode back to back. Now, there must be a what must be a financial reason why they don't do it anymore.

Well, they do still do it sometimes with some shows, but I find it more and more and not doing it. They're doing it, releasing weekly. And that's too much like television to me.

And part of the reason I like to stream stuff is because I'm not watching television. I hardly watch television anymore. I do watch the news.

And, you know, I watch early in the morning, I do watch a bit early morning telly. If it's like Cheers or something like that. And maybe watch the early morning news breakfast channels while I'm eating the breakfast.

But apart from that, and maybe the odd TV program like question time Thursday evenings, it's like a political panel, panel, not panel show, but bunch of politicians and the odd celebrity all get together on a panel. And there's an audience that asks them questions. For those that don't know what it is.

Used to be that David Nimble, David Nimbleby used to host it. And now Sue, is it Sue Cook? I forget, but she's, she's good as well, actually. She's very, quite gentle, which I know some people don't want.

You know, when it comes to politicians, I think some people like to watch the host or the interviewer, whether, you know, being very confrontational with the politician. And I don't know if that's always necessary. But they say you get more with, you get more.

I was just saying you get more with honey than with poo. Or whatever you catch more, you catch more flies with honey than you do with vinegar. Is that that's the same, isn't it? Yeah.

I've never tried to catch a fly, if I'm honest. I was gonna say you catch more flies with honey than you do with poo, but that's probably not true. Not from what I've seen on the pavements.

I think the flies prefer the prefer the poo, which is why if a fly lands on my dinner. No, I don't think, oh no, that flies land on my dinner. He's been climbing all over poo.

No, all over. I forget it. I never think that a fly is like, oh, it's been all over honey.

I can't eat my dinner now. That's what I was going to say, but it just didn't work out, did it? It just didn't come together the way that I wanted it to. Oh, this is radio.

I watch, I listen to LBC radio a fair bit. And one of the presenters on a Sunday evening, I was just listening to her, just listening to her called Rachel Johnson. And she's the sister of our former prime minister.

And no matter how she tries to avoid it, probably every third caller phones in to moan about her brother. It's like she's put herself in a, it's almost untenable. That's the right word.

I like her. I think she's a good presenter. But you can't have, you can't really have a serious conversation with the public about politics when your own brother was the, you know, the prime minister six months ago, you know, and it's just, it's, I don't know, it's something I mean, I kind of think maybe she just keep away from politics.

There's so many other things to talk about in the world. There's huge amounts of things just keep away from politics because it's always going to come back to her brother, probably for the rest of her life, he's going to be mentioned because that's what she's associated with. So perhaps she needs to just, it's got nothing to do with me, is it? But she'd do herself some favours by steering away from politics.

And it's not like she needs to talk about politics because every other presenter on radio, the LBC radio station is talking about politics. It's just nonstop politics, politics, politics. They talk about stuff, you know, other stuff, but it comes back to the politicians and all that continuously.

So people phone up to have a go at her and she just, it must be very difficult for her because even though she clearly has different views to her brother, he's still a brother. And it's that natural, isn't it, natural human need to defend someone that's attacking your, someone that you love, you know, so, bless. So I found a website which has research journals on.

So I've been looking through that and there's quite a few research journals, journals, research projects or research. Let me, let me have a look. So much rubbish in the way.

Oh no, wrong one. There we go. Right, let me just listen to my headphones and make sure that the, having the laptop there isn't causing problems.

No, good. Sometimes electrical equipment can, can cause a bit of buzzing or feedback or something like that. And we don't want that.

So I found this website, it's called Cyber Leninka, cyberleninka.org. And it's loads of research papers, academic papers, and none of them are particularly long, but I just put in hypnosis just to, you know, see what's in there. And it's saying, did it in the, oh, filter. All right, it's a lot.

It said it's 38. From 2018. 1999 to 2000.

It's a 2000. 1999 to, what if that'll work? 2000. No, it won't.

Not at all. Set. 2018.

No, it says nothing before 2018. So if I go back, I've just messed it up now. Hypnosis search.

So it says there's 38 papers. Is that real? Maybe there is just 38 because it's 10 pages. Yeah.

So it's not a lot. It's not a lot, not a lot, but it's 38 more papers than I had before. This desk really is squeaky.

I can't believe that. I mean, it's starting to have a weird sound. I need to move it around.

I just keep thinking I need to move it, but there's so much. Well, I had this thing that, and this is not this, I think this is a family inheritance where there can't be a flat surface without me putting something on it. I have to cover flat surfaces.

Now, Andre was the opposite. He had to knock everything off of flat surfaces. So he was the opposite to me on that one.

But I have to put stuff on a flat surface. There is a one flat surface in this room that isn't full of stuff. Not one.

And it's not conducive because this is supposed to be like an office for me or a workstation, you know, to do the recordings, to do the editing, blah, blah, blah, and all that stuff, research the website stuff. But it's just completely messy, messy, messy, messy, messy, messy. Hmm.

Had a message. All right. Oh, excuse me.

Got a lot of gas today. It's lovely. Where's the message I got? From Mary.

Mary. Just, I'm not going to read it out, but I just want to say thank you. Or should I read it out? I will read it out.

Hi, Jason. Just to say I can testify that you're superb, you're superb at your job. Literally unpaid for those unpaid for those who might like to support you.

Absolutely wonderfully boring. I think I'm quite interested, actually. Yeah, I'll tell you if you want boring.

Okay, I'll talk about this later. And I got this person. It's a famous person who has got very monotone voice.

Very, very. But at the same time, I don't want to say anything bad because it's a boxer. I don't want to knock on my door.

And you said that very few people. Thank you. So I'm sending a great big thank you.

Thank you. Thank you. I remember way back when you said that someone had made a comment about you having a lisp.

Well, for all the negative Nancy's out there, it does not distract from your speech one bit. I like the way you say I haven't got you don't say I haven't got a lisp. Thanks.

Like, yeah, you do have a list, but it doesn't matter. As for background noises, I never hear any during recordings. So again, please don't worry about that.

That's good. That is something that I'm concerned about the background sounds. But I mean, the microphone is practically inside.

You know, it's practically I should point out my mouth. It's practically inside me. It's very close, you know, very close.

And it's not supposed to really pick up background sounds. Not really. I do have the recording at quite a low level as well.

So if I had it on high level, it would record a lot more and I would be a lot louder. But you'd also hear more from the room. Now, this is your wittering on about gigabytes.

So I decided to email you as it's too boring. So you stopped listening because I was being too boring. Oh, no.

Now you're now you're going on about terabytes or could be teradactyls. OK, must try to sleep. So going to listen to the Newland guy.

Oh, thank you very much, Mary. I really do. It's lovely.

Lovely message. Thank you. And.

What's it doing? I was going to say, oh, tired, tired, but I'm trying to think of something that's happened. Well, yes, yesterday I was watching a boxing. And then.

I've got up and I watched the boxing again. But that was from this early morning boxing in America and then watch it's more boxing, which is also in America, a different thing. This afternoon, but that was from yesterday morning or today.

Yeah, this morning. But I slept quite a bit today. I've been in bed quite a bit.

Which is not. It's not conducive to. Creating.

You know, it's a. Consistency is pretty important, but at the same time, I made some videos and put put them on YouTube for the last two recordings I did. And. Yeah.

Yeah, that's all I'm going to put on. You know, I realize if I just keep putting videos on YouTube, the audience will grow, the YouTube channel will grow and it will grow very slowly. And then one day I suddenly have a lot more subscribers than I had before, not like.

Thousands more, but suddenly, you know, instead of having maybe, you know, after a year or so, I might have one new subscriber a day or maybe two. And then after a year and a half, maybe two years of constantly putting stuff out. I might realize, oh, I just I've had 60 new subscribers today.

And the last last video has gone up from. He's gone up by, you know, another maybe 20% more people watched it than when I went to bed. You know, it's things like that.

And I'll be a surprise. And then the next day and then the next and it grows and keeps growing and growing and it's weird how it happens. And so I've experienced it a couple of times, one particular time, really.

And I was like, wow. This is just just strange. You know how I was plodding along for years, literally 2007 till about 2010 without really I was getting list.

I was getting watches. I was getting people watching the videos. A few hundred people would watch the videos, you know, and and maybe a couple of videos got to a few thousand each.

There's nothing big, nothing, you know, nothing like out of the ordinary. And, you know, so I was used to getting maybe cut a hundred views of a video when I uploaded it within a day or so. So I was I was pleased with that, but it still took me years to get to that point.

And in 2010, I made a video. Which. For me, I'm going to say this, I'm going to repeat this for me, went viral.

That didn't go viral in a proper conventional way with millions of views. And, you know, but for me, it just it blew up compared to all the other videos I've ever done before. And it's suddenly I was getting thousands of views of this every day.

And it was the. Try and stay awake hypnosis challenge. And the video is on my YouTube channel now.

It's it's the only one from the past. And I re uploaded it. It's got about 7000 watches or something.

But I just leave it on there because whenever I deleted it, people would ask me to put it back. And it's old. It's a really I mean, think about it was that pretty 13 years old.

So I. After that, I started producing some more and they also got quite good, you know, not the same level, but it's almost like the interest became more. I had more subscribers and it was steady, you know, it's really steady and it started to grow. And this was probably late summer 2010.

And then in 2011, it really started to grow. The YouTube channel, this is now that I'm still doing a podcast and I still am just plodding along with that. But I was focused on YouTube.

That was my focus. The audios on you on the podcasts. Brilliant.

I mean, I was it's not it's a bit of a lie. I was focused on the podcast as well. But YouTube, because it was the one that was getting the most having the most kind of success.

So that was the one I was giving my most attention to. And then it started, I was getting. I don't know, 30 subscribers, new subscribers a day.

And I was. See, to me at the time, I got itchy back. So when I read out the stats, they're very low.

You think, well, why? Why would you even get excited over such a small amount of video views? Well, the reason for it is because it took so long to get there. And the I think. I think the YouTube channel.

I still had in 2013. I think. Because I know I deleted it, but I think it was 2013 that I delivered.

I deleted it. I can't remember exactly. But it was growing.

Maybe I got that wrong. Maybe I did delete before then. I can't remember exactly.

However, I was getting my I think the very last month that I remember keeping track of the stats, I was I had forty five thousand plays of my videos in the month that I know, you know, we all know it's not a lot. But to me, it was because the previous month I'd had about thirty two thousand. So you see how much it was growing.

It was just it went from being. I don't know, averaging like maybe ten thousand watches a month. Twelve thousand thirty, you know, growing up gradually to suddenly exponentially growing.

So over a four month period, it went from. I know, fourteen thousand a month watches to maybe twenty one thousand to thirty one, forty, thirty three, then forty five. And so it was just growing and growing a much higher level than it had done before.

And I was getting way more subscribers than I'd ever had every day. And yeah, I was just I can't remember if I deleted it, then opened another channel or I kind of forget the. The actual.

What happened in what what order? But I did delete the channel, I deleted the YouTube channel. Don't ask me why I just did, it's just one of those things I did and it was too late, I couldn't get it back. I did, I begged YouTube, please.

And there was like. Over a thousand videos on there and they was gone, gone, gone, gone. I did have quite a few of them backed up, but.

Yeah, it was weird, though, because things are still even now and I probably just repeat what I said before. I probably repeated. Who sneezed? Oh, blimey.

Wow. That was a loud sneeze. I wonder if I remember that was in there.

If it is, I do apologize. Thirty four minutes in. Oh, blimey.

I hope I haven't got a cold. Oh. Might just be dust up my nose.

It's all that sand I've been sniffing. Why? Why would I sniff sand? Oh, dear. Anyway, anyway, I. I do wonder, though.

Because at the time, my videos weren't very good. They weren't very good quality. That's what I mean.

The video wasn't very good. Even the sound wasn't very good. I was trying to improve it, but they weren't.

You know, they obviously did the job for people watching them. They did what they were supposed to do and they help people, hopefully, because people were telling me that they were listening every day or they were watching every day to get to sleep and pain relief and stuff like that to relax. But.

The quality was really, really bad compared to. Compared to even three or four years ago. And I wonder if I'd have actually stuck with it, considering I'm still doing it, you know, considering I'm still making these recordings, I'm still doing this stuff, so I've not given up.

I never stopped doing it. I had I've had little breaks every now and then, but especially the last four years, I've been fairly solid. You know, once I started the this podcast, the Let Me Bore You To Sleep podcast, the various podcasts that.

Almost demanded that I make new content fairly regularly. It had to push myself to keep making new stuff, which is a shame because it's not a shame, but. It'd be nice if people could just listen to one recording and.

Just give me lots of money for that one recording. Do what a lot of other people do. You know, I make a one recording on relaxation, one recording on chronic pain relief, and that will be it.

That will be their CD or their MP3 recording, and people will buy it for the next 20 years. People, you know, don't want to use it. But it doesn't quite work out that way.

You know, I mean, there isn't that. Well, there's no celebrity hypnotist that has produced as much as me. You know, in a way of recordings.

There's probably very few. Hypnotists in the world that have produced as many recordings as I have. I mean, it's just almost ridiculous how many I've done.

When a really one should be enough, technically. One recording to help people sleep should be enough. To be able to listen to that every day and fall asleep.

But it doesn't quite work that way. You know, it's with this kind of stuff. Also, I think it's nice to have a bit of variety and to just not be listening to the same thing every time.

You know, I mean, you know, I mean. See, it's kind of weird, really, if you think about it, because you can't know what could have happened. And that's part of the reason, you know, with that old YouTube station channel thing.

I don't know, but I could have millions of subscribers by now. It's not completely. It does sound like it's not very likely, but it's not out of question over such a long period of time.

So over to between 2007 and now. Look what I've managed to build up with the YouTube with the podcasts. So potentially, because YouTube's such a bigger platform, really, in a sense of, I don't think it's easy to find stuff and have everything in one place.

But with, I don't know, just I like YouTube, but I think it's more as a as a viewer than as a producer of content. I don't know, we'll just see. I'm going to be thinking about this for the next 10 years and I I don't realise, oh, perhaps I could have, I could have been a contender.

I could have made it. I could have been someone. And part of me thinks, perhaps I should just focus on one thing.

Focus on the podcasts. That's where I'm more comfortable. That's what I enjoy doing more than making videos.

I've got the pretty good equipment now. The editing is fairly easy and I've got equipment for that. I've got software and everything to do that stuff.

So, you know, this is in some ways the best it's ever been regarding the production side of things. You know what I mean? Can you imagine having millions of subscribers? I mean, I was getting 45,000 video views in 2000. Was it 11 or was it 2013? I don't know.

It might be 2012. Anyway, it was around that period. So.

By now, it would be millions, wouldn't it? I mean, 45,000. Nine years ago. 45,000 a month, nine years ago.

Continuing to make new recordings. That would have turned into. That's got to turn into millions a month, isn't it? Because, yeah, double is a hundred thousand.

So, yeah, it's sort of had millions a month. So there's a potential I could have had a at least a few hundred thousand subscribers. And once you get that level of viewership on YouTube, you're on your way.

You know, once you've got 100,000 subscribers. You do really well. I mean, I had about 3,000 subscribers on my YouTube channel.

So it's tiny. But to have. You know, to have like a large amount.

Because it's so easy to get caught up in the whole comparison. Comparison. Comparing between.

Yourself and. Someone that's the top. Because there's a big gap between the top.

And those that are doing really well, those are doing well. Can do really well on 100,000 subscribers, maybe 50,000 subscribers. I mean, if I had 3,000 subscribers and I had 45,000 downloads.

6, 9, 10,000 subscribers. I would have been doing OK. You know, but 100,000.

So you don't need huge amounts to do well on YouTube. You don't need to have 100 million subscribers. That's what I'm saying.

And. There's a big gap between those that are doing really well and those at the top. There's a big gap, you know, there's there's only a handful of those right at the top.

There might be in the hundreds, it might be hundreds of them, maybe even thousands of the ones that have got millions, millions of subscribers. But compared to the amount of people that have got YouTube channels. The millions of people that have got YouTube channels, probably.

It's, you know, those few thousand at the top isn't many percentage wise. I want to do research. How many.

YouTubers have one million subscribers to fill it in for me. Oh, about twenty nine thousand. That's in January 2020.

That twenty nine thousand YouTube channels, twenty nine thousand have one million subscribers. How much do you just make with one million subs? About 60 grand a year. US dollars.

So. It's, you know, it depends. It really depends because I've looked at some videos, some YouTubers will actually show you what they earn on their videos.

And it depends what market they're in. So if they're a. I think if you're reviewing, for example, you're reviewing tech. Or you're some gaming channels.

Will earn a lot more money because the. More people want to advertise on that channel. But if you're something a bit obscure, which should probably be me, I guess, in some ways, doing hypnosis or being boring or whatever you want to call this, I'm not sure what it is anymore.

But. Relaxation is it's not big business, but it is. There's a few people out there that are doing really well.

Doing relaxation. Videos and sleep videos and such like. So.

They'd probably make a fair bit of money. But apparently where the money really is. Isn't necessarily with the YouTube subscribers watching.

Like, you know, the videos and watching the adverts. It's the stuff they sell. So maybe they put a link in the YouTube video.

In the description and people sign up for an app or something, you know, and they get paid. The YouTuber gets paid for every time people click on that link. So, for example, Amazon, I could put on my YouTube channel.

And I can be I remember the associates YouTube associate thing. Advertising thing, but that's from like 10 years ago. I've not ever have been on there for a long time.

So I could put a link to the microphone that I'm using, for example, or the camera I'm using. And if people click on that link, they go to that, that huge that Amazon link, yeah, go on to and they see the camera. And if they buy that camera, I'll get a percentage of the purchase.

Now, if they skip the camera and they go on. And they buy and they skip and they go, they go into other, you know, search for other stuff on Amazon. Whatever they buy on Amazon during that period, I get a percentage.

So if they go and buy something worth five grand, I'll get a percentage. If they buy something worth 10, 10 pound or $10, I'll get a percentage of that. Now, I did set up those links in the early days.

And I think I made about $4. And it was a money spinner. But it was OK, you know, it was all right.

It's that, but that's where that's one of the things that people make money from. Or they make money from having online courses or, you know, extra, just extra things connected to the YouTube channel. So it's a really good advert for other stuff they do.

So, you know, sometimes that's where they really make the money. So the 60 grand. For a million subs, I reckon it'd be more than that personally, but.

At the moment, and it used to be higher, it did used to be higher. But there's. I don't know.

I don't know why, but apparently it was much higher. And pay out for adverts on YouTube like 10 years ago than it is now, like per advert, I mean, not like overall. So one million subscribers, 60 grand a year at this.

I thought. So you're going to get different answers to this question, really. So YouTube creators earn money a number of ways.

So I'm just looking at this website. Underage G, a financial YouTuber, a finance YouTuber with one point seven. Million subscribers has earned one point six million dollars in ad revenue in less than three years.

That's way more than $60,000 a year. So another YouTube lifestyle creator, Tiffany Ma earns up to $11,500 a month from her ads on her videos. So, again, that's that's like double, isn't it? That's one hundred and thirty five grand a year, something like that.

I don't know, maybe more. So. I think it depends, you know, if you sell on it, if you do in financial services or if you're doing a re if you're making videos for a really popular subject, then.

Providing you good, you know, you have to stand out from the others because it could be a saturated, saturated, saturated, oversaturated market. So if you're one of the top people in a really popular subject, then you're going to probably make more. More money for the adverts than someone that's.

I can't even think about a really uninteresting YouTube subject because I don't know really what's popular and what's not. But I imagine if I did, if I got a goldfish and I did a YouTube channel about looking after my goldfish, some people would watch the YouTube videos. They would.

Some people would be interested. Probably not many. I mean, some, you know, some a lot.

There are probably quite a few people that wouldn't necessarily. Get too excited about it. Hard to believe, to be honest.

Why? How could you not get excited? So it's a goldfish. But it's, you know, it's one of those things. So I don't know.

I might go to the toilet, treat myself to the toilet. Yeah, treat myself. Oh, that sounds ever so juicy.

I might do that. So, yeah, I'm going to go now. And so, yeah, I just maybe I'm being nostalgic.

I don't know. Maybe a bit nostalgic. I just think back and.

What could have been, but it's more, I think the bigger question is what can be rather than what could have been, what could have been. Unless I can learn from it and learn going forward so that it can improve my present life and my future, then great, you know. But other than that.

It's about what what can I do? Not what could I have done? Because who knows? I might still have the same YouTube channel I don't. But if I had, I might be getting 3000 video views a month. It might have gone right downhill.

I might have. Who knows? I might have took time off. I might have just not kept up with the times.

Video, I mean, I wasn't really up to date with the times at the time, but it was easier to get away with having rubbish video when not everybody's YouTube videos are particularly good quality that is. I mean, some were brilliant, but a lot of people were using webcams or they were using mobile phones that weren't great at that time. So, you know, I was I was at the bottom of the heap, quality wise, as far as the quality of the equipment.

I wasn't at the bottom of the heap, but I wasn't I was definitely not I probably wasn't in the middle either. I was sort of scratching, scratching the underneath someone's foot to try and, you know, get let me up, not until you get yourself a decent microphone. So now, hopefully, hopefully, you know, a lot of this is taken studying.

Watching huge amounts of videos going online and finding out about microphones and finding out about how to, you know, what's the best ones and blah, blah, just hours and hours and hours and hours of research goes into this to try and find a fairly half decent microphone that. Will sound OK, but then I'm not sure I'm not sure, I don't know why. Anyway, thank you for listening.

Be kind to yourself. Be gentle with yourself. You deserve to be happy.

Lots of love. Bye.