#722 Let me bore you to sleep - IM NOT LAZY - Jason Newland (8th September 2021)

Hello and welcome to jasonnewland.com My name is Jason Newland. This is Let Me Bore You To Sleep. Oh yes, it really is.

Please only listen when you can safely close your eyes. So, hello. I've got a couple of messages.

Let me have a look. Just thought I'd read them out. Message from Christy.

These are on Facebook. Hi there. Thanks for the accept.

So I guess Christy added me as a friend or something. I don't remember. I generally accept most people as long as I kind of, I can generally tell who's genuine and who's not.

It might sound like a weird thing to say but I go through little phases when I get friend requests from, I don't know, cam models. That's probably the description where it's not a genuine person. It's just someone wanting to, a bloody fly.

There's a fly in it. I had the window open earlier. A fly came in and it's just annoying me.

One fly. So yeah, so I, and I get a few requests and it's from the same, these pictures of people. And sometimes requests from people that don't even have a picture.

I generally don't add people that don't have a picture. Is this like, well, admittedly my pictures of Andre, but I know I should perhaps change that. But hey, I might actually do that.

I just kind of don't, I don't want to take his picture because it's a, it's a picture of him, was a video of him like jumping up at me and I don't want to get rid of it really. Anyway, I got a message from Christy saying, hi there. Thanks for the accept.

Just wanted to say your podcasts have been helping me switch off at night during a pretty difficult time. Your voice is extremely comforting and soothing. I find it very hard to shut my brain up at night, coupled with, okay, some other stuff, but your let me bore you to sleep does wonders for me.

So thank you. So thanks, thanks Christy. That's very nice.

Got a message. I didn't really understand this message from someone. They're saying, how are you doing? I said, groovy, thanks.

I don't really know who they are. And they said, I'm doing pretty well. Blessed, blessed, can't complain and thanking God for the blessings.

Have you heard the great news about me yet? So I'm not really sure what that's about. And if you won the lottery and you're going to give me some, I don't know. Whoa.

Ben sent me a message. Hi Jason. 721 let me bore you to sleep sound isn't very loud like it normally is.

Anything your end or mine. I checked it. And it might be a little bit lower than normal, but not like excessively.

So it might be your end Ben. I don't know. Check your end, check your end out.

I'm not sure. It's hard to tell. And, you know, I'm the, I guess I'm still playing around with the, with the volume levels of the podcasts, trying to get it, you know, to a nice level.

And one of the things, well, let me have a look, see if there's any new messages on here on the Facebook page. Oh yeah. That's weird.

That's very strange. So there's a message here from Tonya, which was on there because I actually replied and now it's not on there anymore. Why? It doesn't make sense.

Okay. Basically what's that? Oh, our Facebook is messing up. So I had a message.

This is from, yeah, a message from Wilma. Just joined Spotify and you came up. Wonder if it's safe for me as I have said.

Okay. I've read this one before. I did reply that I wasn't sure.

Best to check with a doctor. And this one's from. So your most recent podcasts have allowed.

Oh yeah. Someone said that this Tonya, so your most recent podcasts have allowed aggressive commercial for Peloton at the end of the five hours and wakes me out of a dead sleep. Kindly defeats the purpose of listening to your podcasts to help with sleeping.

Could you not read the commercials in your voice? So blends, not sure if this is an option for you or what the commercial rules are, but I would think they would be more effective for the advertiser and less irritating for the listener. If you smoothly work them into your dialogue. I mean, that's a good idea, but they don't offer that.

Um, so I replied, which is, this is the truth. I only have adverts at the beginning of the podcasts. There's no adverts in the middle or at the end.

I could have them, but I don't think I'd have an audience if I did that. So I purposely don't have adverts in the middle or at the end for that particular reason, because so that when you, someone's falling asleep, they don't have an advert right at the end. And, uh, what I wrote back is I never had set the beginning of my podcasts.

So it must've been playing the next in queue. Your podcast player should allow you to just play one recording and then end. I hope this helps.

Uh, she came back to me. Okay, thanks. I'll look into that.

And then the came back later saying you were right. Hidden feature in my settings. Thanks.

I do enjoy your podcast. I'm a horrible sleeper and it helps. Uh, uh, that's good news.

Glad to help take care. So that was for Tonya. Thanks for getting to me, get, um, let me know.

Um, because it's useful for me to follow up on this stuff. So if there is an issue, I remember a while back, not that long ago, but somehow, I don't know how I did it, but I must, I managed to have an advert playing in the middle of the recording. It only happened for a day.

It was a blip, but I think it was my own error. Like I'd, I'd been doing some stuff and I managed to put an advert in the middle of the recording. So I had a few people contact me and I sorted it out straight away.

So I can only, I can only correct if I know about the issue. Um, I do listen for volume levels and, um, you know, there shouldn't be any changes as far as the advertising. The adverts are just at the beginning.

It's to cover the costs of running this free service and doesn't always cover the cost of what I need. Um, I still need a little bit of help sometimes to cover, to pay for stuff, but you know, I bought equipment and basically on credit. So I'm paying that stuff off.

Like my, even the iPad that I'm using now, um, the microphone, the cloud filter, all that stuff I bought either on a credit card or on credit. So I'm sort of still paying that stuff off. The camera, the other laptop, the broadcaster, uh, you know, the yacht, you know, all that stuff.

So, you know, if I was a normal podcaster, just making podcast, a normal podcast, you know, not the kind of stuff that I do, then I would have adverts in the middle and at the end. And I would be financially stable if I had that, but because of the kind of podcasts I have, it wouldn't work. It doesn't work.

You know, relaxing your feet, relaxing your legs, all that stuff. And suddenly an advert comes on like, no, or, you know, you really, you really relax to the end and then suddenly an advert don't work. So, um, what I would suggest if you have had this issue, it's each podcast player has its own settings and its own way of doing things.

And if you, like I mentioned, a lot of people do is you use the same podcast player for when you play all your podcasts. I'm, I'm a Spotify user, although I do have, I do owe a great debt to Apple podcasts because that's where most of my listeners come from. So I love Apple podcasts for that reason.

Uh, initially it was iTunes, um, before they changed over to Apple podcasts. Um, but I'm grateful to all the podcast players that, um, present my stuff or that make my podcasts available to be listened to and to be found. And at the moment, and I have used Apple music, uh, I'm also on Apple.

Um, yeah, not Apple music. Is it Apple music? Oh, blimey. Amazon music.

Yeah. Amazon music. So I'm on Amazon music now as well and Audible.

So I'm grateful for all these different places that are listing me and, you know, making me available, making me, making my podcasts available. So, you know, um, I suppose I could go through myself each one and find out how all the different settings are required, uh, for optimal listening experience for my podcasts. But I'm going to kind of leave that up to you, you know, if you're using a certain podcast host, uh, uh, player, then just, you know, I'll just leave it to you to find out how to set the settings so that you can just play one recording.

Yeah. If that, if that makes sense. I mean, part of the reason I've got the longer recordings is so that, uh, people can listen to the longer ones so they don't have to, uh, like play one after another because of the adverts at the beginning of the next recording.

I mean, it means that I get less, probably less plays than I would normally get because I know some people were listening back to back. They'd listen to a recording, then listen to the next one. But, you know, with adverts, unless you're listening, uh, in a certain way, so it doesn't matter about the adverts.

If you're, you know, if you're listening, you're doing something, obviously not something you need to have your eyes open for. But, you know, you might be sitting at home on the laptop and listening to, listening just to relax, not to sleep or anything like that, but just to generally chill out. Or maybe you like to listen to the let me bore you to sleep recordings, uh, for company or for just, uh, to hear a friendly voice.

And I am a friendly voice, a very, very friendly voice. Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes. So, yeah, that's, uh, those was the messages that I've had.

So today, I wasn't necessarily planning to do this today, but I have, uh, increased my outage, my production, uh, with another recording. So during this last week, during this month, really, of September, I've decided I'm going to do a let me bore you to sleep every evening, make them around 11 o'clock, and start recording at 11. And then after about a week of doing that, or maybe six days of doing that, seven or five days, whatever, I decided to start doing the deep sleep whisper recordings.

And I'm going to do those every day. I'll do that at nine o'clock in the evening. So I'm trying to set up a certain routine.

So I did it now three days in a row with the deep sleep whisper, and I did one again, uh, two, two hours ago. Now earlier today at about three o'clock, I did a relax and sleep hypnosis daily. First one I've done since the end of last month.

And my plan is to do one of those every day, but do that during the day, sort of early afternoon. So it's a gradual, a gradual increase to the point of probably doing six recordings a day. So I've got six podcasts that will need me to kind of focus on.

That's without the others as well that perhaps I could do with really putting a bit of energy into as well. So there, that's nice. I know it's a little bit boring to hear about, but it's supposed to be boring.

It's great to have that cop out that loophole, because I can't lose, can I? You know, you're really boring. Thank you. I really enjoy your recordings.

Thank you. Oh, you make me laugh. Thank you.

You sent me to sleep. Thank you. You're so tedious.

Thank you. It's like brilliant. You're the most boring person in the world.

Thank you very much. Thank you, everybody. And if people are don't like we just don't listen, then it's easier that it's like, if you don't like it, don't listen.

I mean, even if you was going to live forever, you still wouldn't want to do stuff you didn't like, would you? You know, it's like, I don't like this TV show, but I'm going to watch every episode until the end. I want to watch every, you know, I've got a whole box set. There's eight seasons.

I'm going to watch every single one, but I don't like it. But I'm going to watch it because I'm going to live forever. You wouldn't, would you? You say, I don't like this.

See ya. So, you know, it's only listen if you enjoy listening or if you gain some kind of benefit. And my deep sleep whisper today, I think was quite good.

I am a, I'm giving my, I'm tapping myself on the head for this. Honestly, I quite liked it. It made me very happy.

So yeah, it's trying to get myself more organized because you know what I figured out? Well, I figure out, I thought about the other day when I was working in insurance back in 2003, I was going into work probably two hours early, sometimes three hours early, because all I was focused on was getting those sales. And even though I wasn't getting paid for those extra hours, I was getting paid for the sales and the sales were, it was worth it because I was getting, I was making a lot more money than I would have otherwise. And, you know, I sort of broke the sales record at one point.

I held the record for about five minutes and then Jody, the main man, there was two Jody's, there was a man and a, and a, and a female working there, but spelled differently. One was J O D Y and the other one was J O D I E, I think. But Jody was kind of like my hero in a sense, like sales wise, because he was just so good.

At that time, I don't think there was anyone else in the world doing that same job that was better than him. There may be a few that were equal around the world, but I don't think anyone was better. He was just, he almost was perfect at what he did.

He did it so easily. And I listened to his recordings of him doing it, because I asked, basically said, look, because I was helping to train the newer members of the team that came in and they'd like, they started working and what they do is they sit, the team leader would sit the new person next to me so they could pick up my, I don't know, maybe the positive energy, but also some of the techniques I would use and I would help them to sell. I would just, you know, help them with the basics.

So what I would do is I would listen to their recordings to see how they were getting on, because I couldn't hear the customer's voice. I could hear what they were saying, but then I'd have to listen to my, you know, be focused on my own phone calls as well. So I would be asked, my team leader would ask me to listen to theirs, because I was part of my thing was to try and train them up.

And then I'd sort of listen to a few of their recordings and then I could say, well, here's what you need to do, something a little bit different here, you know, whatever it might be. And what I wanted to do is I took advantage of that situation where I was able to listen to calls and I listened to all the top sellers. So I was already one of the top sellers in the top five, pretty much the whole time.

Once I got good, I stayed good, but it took me a while to get there. I started in September and it wasn't really till April, the next April that I was at the top. So it did, it took a while, took a while.

And so I listened to all the top salespeople to learn what are they doing different to me. And the one thing, the one thing everybody had that did different to me is the one thing I did different to everyone else. The one obvious change is first of all, my conversion.

My call to sale conversion was the highest and my quote to convert, quote to sell was the highest conversion. So I had a much higher percentage of sales per both per phone call and per quote, because not everyone that phoned could get a quotation. I mean, really, I think they should ignore the phone calls and just go by quote, because they're the only ones that really matter.

Someone phones up. Yeah, I want to speak. I'd like to arrange to rent a parrot, please.

No, this is car insurance. That call be classed as part of our cause that we needed to convert into sales. So I had the highest sales conversion out of anybody.

Also, I was I had the longest phone calls out of everybody. So I didn't always have the most sales. That may you know, some people would skip through a quote in five minutes, and I take maybe 30 minutes.

I get more sales in them. Studio conversion wise, but they might, you know, they might do. I know, let's say if I do 100 quotes, and I get 25.

So 25 cells out of 100. Someone else might do 400 calls and get 35 cells. So they'll get they get more sales, maybe in that week.

But they've taken a hell of a lot more calls. So the conversion may be 16% or something instead of 25%. I mean, sometimes I think I got as much as like 34% sales conversion.

This is huge. It's like really high. But yeah, those were the days those was the days.

Anyway, the point I was trying to make apart from talking about Jody, he he got me a job at another insurance company. So I got a lot of time for let's say little old Jody wasn't little, the big strong man, but he was, he wasn't he was cool. And I was a bit in awe of him, really, when I worked with him to start with, because he was a top seller.

And I came in and I was everyone was young. And even though I was young myself, I wasn't young compared to those people there. Because a lot of teenagers like 18, 19, 20, early, early 20s, and I was 31.

So I was old. Obviously, not now 51. Well, since 20 years ago, literally, blimey.

20 years ago, this month, I think I started on something like the Monday. It was Monday, and the 11th, not the 11th, the Monday. Okay, let me work this out.

Okay, let's have a look. No, it's not what I want. I didn't want that.

Nope, go away. God, I don't like. Okay, right, here we go.

This is what I want. Okay, September 2001. All right.

I started work on the 10th of September 2001. Now we all know what happened on the 11th. So that's why I remember the exact week.

Because you know, we was interrupted to say, that there's a massive TV downstairs in the like a cafeteria, there was no food served, it was just a place where people could eat. So you could go out get sandwiches, there was a there was there was a sandwich shop, literally, in the alleyway of where the building was. And I think they called it dirties or nasties, dirties or something.

And I couldn't figure out why. And I said to my team leader, why did you call it that? He said, Oh, a few years ago. Some woman was picking her nose.

Or sneezed on one of the sandwiches or something weird, something gross like that. So I didn't boycott it. It didn't stop eating.

And then they just like called it just gave it a funny name. Call it dirty, dirty, dirties or nasties or something. Great.

But there was, I mean, this was in the middle of town, really. So the town was five minute walk. But there was also sandwich shops just around the corner as well.

And in this town, there was lots of insurance companies. So it was very busy, thriving place. Pretty much very low unemployment.

Those who were unemployed pretty much didn't have to be unless you know they were ill or whatever, or unable to work. Anyone that was able to sit in a chair and answer a phone could pretty much have a job. It was it was you know, there's a lot of jobs available.

I think it changed with time people started to get more fussy. But there was a time when anyone could just get a job in a call center. It wasn't that complicated.

It got more complicated with, well for me, with the reading out of scripts and saying things in a certain way and having to, you know, just they turned something that could have been fun actually into something that was really hard work. Or tedious, not even hard work, but just you know, to have a conversation with someone and for it to flow whilst at the same time asking a set of questions. Now if you if you if you have to ask those questions in a certain order and in a specific way, worded, you know, exactly a certain way, it interrupts the flow of the conversation and the rapport is sometimes, well, broken.

You know, it's hard to sort of keep it going. I tried to turn it into a joke and yeah, some people were okay with it but it's weird. It's 20 years ago on the 10th of September and what is it today, the 8th.

So and that isn't what I was going to talk about. I've forgotten what I was going to talk about and for some reason I was talking about working in a call center and yeah, now I know what I was going to say. I'll just mention it quickly and I'll get back to the call center because that's more interesting what I was going to say.

Although it's not interesting either, but it's reminiscent in the past. Reminiscing, remembering, being nostalgic, I don't know. Yeah, when I think back to the long hours I used to do, not just then in security, I used to do 12 hours, sometimes 16 hours, sometimes 24 hour shifts.

In the bakery I used to do long hours. Every job I've had really in the past, I've done long hours at times, most jobs for very little reward actually. And then I look at my situation now and if I was doing this, if I did the hours and put in the amount of effort and the time that I used to 20 years ago for that sales job, potentially I could earn a really really good living, like the best I've ever had, financially that is.

But I don't want to work every hour of every day. Well first I can't anyway, I need to look after myself and not get all stressed. I need to relax and look after myself.

But I do think maybe if I was able to put a bit more effort, got myself a bit more organized, perhaps the goals I've set for myself will will become, will come into sight a bit more, a bit quicker and they seem to be. For example hitting 20,000 downloads a day, it's not that far off potentially, maybe by the end of the year even. It's a real possibility.

I might have done 20,000 downloads a day, but not you know, not like regularly, just the odd one off. But getting 10,000 downloads a day is now just easy, not easy as in oh I'm good, but just because as the audience has grown, and I'm thankful for that, I really am, it's it's 10,000 downloads, it's just, it's almost, it just just happens now. I mean today I've had, and it's half 11 in the evening, I've had 13,162 downloads.

Yesterday I had 12,836, the day before 9,779. So I've just pointed out that clearly I can't always hit 10,000, but it wasn't far off really. With one record in a day, I'll hit 8 to 9,000.

So it's, and making the Let Me Bore You To Sleep, this is just, this is fun for me. It's not, I think you can tell that I'm not really putting any effort into this, I'm not putting any work into it, it's not, it's not a chore. And you know sometimes when I push myself to do it, and I'm not in the mood, you don't get to hear those recordings, because I quit halfway through it.

I might do half an hour and then just say F this and just go to bed, because something just landed. What the heck was that? Like a fly, not a fly, but something just seemed to land on the oh that's weird. I can't be a flea, like there's no, there's no animals up here anymore.

And what was I saying? Oh yeah, to do a Let Me Bore You To Sleep regularly, you know, most days, there's, there's, you know, there's not, I'm, I should be able to talk really, shouldn't I? I should learn to talk before making podcasts. It's almost a requisite, isn't it? You should be able to talk, put words together. I, I push my belly button in when I said that.

It's weird, it extends my words when I press my belly button in. How strange. So I, I do wonder, you know, if, if I was to put the effort in, or to get myself organized in such a way as, as I have started to be.

And if I stuck to that, stuck to making a Let Me Bore You To Sleep at 11 in the evening, stuck to making the Deep Sleep Whisperer at 9, stuck to making the Relaxation, or the Relaxer Sleep Hypnosis daily at 2 in the afternoon, stuck to making the, I don't know what other ones I do, whatever else I do, I don't know, the other ones. You know, the, the other ones. What else, what else do I do? Relax and do, relax and pain relief, and bedtime, storytime, and the, the boring objects.

So if I stuck to that and said I'll do the boring objects at 4, and I'll do the bedtime, storytime at 11, or maybe midday, you know, and eventually they're spread out through the day. And there's all the admin and all the other stuff, images, editing, blah, blah, blah, because each recording pretty much takes two hours to everything that's involved in it. So 2, 4, 6, 8, 10, 12, so yeah, if I did six recordings, that's 12 hours of work.

So it is a long day, but spread out. And that, that'd be weird because I don't, I almost want to see, it's not that I want to see what's the minimum I can do, because I'm not lazy. Not, not, not really.

I'm not the laziest person in the world. I'm not, I have my lazy moments, but I'm not a lazy person. I'm not, I do, I'm not really, and I'm trying to convince myself that I'm not, I'm not lazy.

You know, I do, I do stuff and you know, when I, when I get into something and I'm focused, I will sort of stick at it for a while. However, I guess my ideal situation, and this is terrible, don't tell anyone I said this, if I could, if I could just do one podcast, one recording a day, you know, let me boil to sleep. That's it.

One, one record a day and spend two hours, you know, on it, making a recording, editing, sharing, doing all that stuff for two, two hours a day. That would be perfect. If I could earn a living doing that.

Now, as possible in the future, if I, if I just said, well, that's all I'm going to do now. I'm nothing else. I'll do one a day and it's already grown by, I don't know, 50, 40, 50% over the last month, the, the let me boil to sleep podcast itself.

So I was getting like 300 downloads a day on that podcast, but also probably about a thousand for each recording because it'd be shared on other podcasts. But now I'm getting anything from sort of five, six, 700, sometimes over a thousand downloads on the Let Me Bore You To Sleep podcast. So that's, I said, okay, one day I got over a thousand.

So I'm generalizing to be fair, generalizing a little bit. Yes. Keep talking about your bloody stats, but it has gone up.

I mean, if you look at August, August the 13th, 280, 14th, 245, 15th, 209, 16, 217. And that's a low week. Normally it would be above 300, but 263, 18th, 163.

So I'm guessing I didn't make any recordings during that time. No new ones. And then started to grow the 19th of August, 376, 20th, 301, which is about what I would averagely get generally 300 ish, 22nd of August, 337.

And then I don't know why, but it started to grow. So I'm guessing I must've been making recordings 516, the 23rd of August, 24th, 547, 25th of August, 812, 26th of August, 620. 514 on the 27th, 522 on the 28th, 29th, 676, 30th, 610, 31st, 667, 1st of September, 682, the 2nd of September, 1,109, 3rd of September, 735, 4th, 637, 627 on the 5th, 556 on the 6th, 585 yesterday and today, 653 so far.

So it's basically, well it's doubled I guess really isn't it? It's pretty much doubled what it was. So that 300 a day is just gone up. I mean if you look last month, I had some, actually yeah to be fair, yeah there was the low ones wasn't there as I said 263.

But the beginning of the month I was getting anywhere between 228 to 449. July, July I was averaging 300 to 400 sometimes yeah. But the most I got, the peaks were like 505 and that was really the odd day out I get that many.

Now that's kind of even low, it's not even the highest, anywhere near the highest I get now. So it's great, it's great, it's great, it's great. That's what I'm trying to say.

So 10,450 in July, August, 13,076 in September, 5,610 and it's only been seven days or eight days. So it's like basically yeah, I'm sure I'm just repeating myself from yesterday. If I am, I don't apologize.

Did you hear me? Yeah, I don't apologize. I don't care. I can't remember what I said yesterday.

So I just thought about that. Oh, if I could get myself a bit more disciplined, a bit more focused, a bit more organized. And I'm not going to do all six recordings.

Actually, it'll be probably about seven recordings, but I'm not going to do all of those all together at once. I'm going to give it a few more days and see how doing the extra one in the afternoon affects the statistics. And just gauge what people want to listen to and what they are listening to.

And then because I know the Let Me Boy To Sleep has got its own audience. Deep Sleep Whisper podcast has got its own audience. And then there's a shared audience when it's shared on other podcasts.

Some people may listen to a variety of different things. But the Deep Sleep Whisper podcast is kind of got its own audience, people that like to listen to those. And the Let Me Boy To Sleep audience as well may not listen to any of the other things I do.

I don't know. And the Relax and Sleep Hypnosis Daily has got its own audience. They gain, they may listen to other things.

And I do share those podcasts, episodes on other podcasts. So it's really because it used to be called Sleep Hypnosis Weekly, and I changed the title. And because the audience was growing on that.

So I decided, after about a year or two, or a year, however long I was doing it for, to change it to Daily, because I thought, well, this is a popular podcast. Well, it's becoming more popular. It's growing.

And it's got a loyal audience. So I thought, I'll start making more regular recordings, which is I changed the name and different logo, different picture, and it seems to be okay. However, you know, if you're going to, if you're going to name something with the word daily in it, it needs to be daily.

I need to stick to what I'm doing. Otherwise, I'm just going to be flaky, always just flaky, not just my scalp, head and shoulders. But you know, it's really trying to try to be professional.

And I don't know if I've even got an ounce of professionalism in me. I don't know. I do find I do feel sometimes means when I'm doing the hypnosis recording, that it almost channels through me.

It's almost like the words and ideas and just the feeling and the focus seems to be very different to when I do anything else. But when I do this, this is just me. This is just me, me, me, me, me, me, me, me, just me.

And yeah, it's weird, though, because I think back 20 years. And just imagine if I mean, it's it's a bit pointless thinking back and I could have done this, I could have done that when if you didn't, you didn't, did you? That's the bottom line. It's like, well, if I'd have done the made podcasts in 2002, or 2001, well, there weren't podcasts in 2001.

So, you know, you can't do something that wasn't available. Unless you can invent it. And I never invented it.

However, I did think about making recordings back then. Because bearing in mind, you know, I started making recordings for myself, I started making recordings online in 2006. But I started making recordings in 2003 for myself to because I was going through such a difficult time with anxiety and stress.

So I started making hypnosis recordings for me. So I guess that was kind of a precursor to what I ended up doing what I'm doing now. Well, not here, because this isn't a hypnosis session.

But, you know, it's a precursor to what I ended up doing. I was going to say for a living, but it's not. But hopefully, hopefully, within a period of time, I will be able to do this.

Maybe within a year, maybe, I don't know. I'll be able to be self sufficient. But at the moment, it's just about paying off debts and getting paying off the equipment that you know, because I use even that little laptop I got, it was cheap, actually, but I use it for there's different things I use for different things.

That was very clear, wasn't it? Oh, different things for different things. Yeah, I understand. Yeah.

No, you don't. Oh, no, I don't. Okay.

Oh, here's something blimey. I've not told you about this. And this morning, at 530 this morning, I was woken up by bang, bang.

Wow, what the heck? And a door of a neighbor's front door was being kicked in, or not kicked in, but being forcibly opened. I looked outside, and it was over the fence. I couldn't see.

But I could see the light came on. So I knew there was people over there. I could hear voices as well.

Not the first time that's happened. And I thought, what the hell's the time? It wasn't light outside yet. So I came into the I'd only been in bed for like maybe three hours, maybe less.

So I looked at the clock on the phone or whatever. It's like, oh, it's half past five. Had a drink of water.

And I went out there for you know what? I know what's going to happen. Nobody's going to do anything. Nobody does anything around here and probably pretty much anywhere else.

If you hear a neighbor being broken into, you shouldn't let the whole street come out of their doors. The adults, not the kids, but the adults come out to check what's going on and to look out for the neighbor. First of all, the neighbor might be in their house at five thirty in the morning.

There's a good chance. But nothing. I went out there.

I had this stick. I've got a stick. And I went out there because I thought, well, it's dark.

So it's going to be hard to defend myself if if the person who's robbing the place has got some kind of well, probably got a crowbar at least because I've used to get in. Although I don't know what they were using to. I don't know, probably using their feet to knock to kick it in.

So I went around. It's only around the corner. So I had this piece of wood.

It's basically the remnants of my shed that used to be in my bedroom. It's like a sidebar. And for some reason, it just happens to, I've just not got rid of it yet.

So I've just, I took it with me. I thought, well, at least I can keep distance and I can hit him over the head with it or something, you know. It's not a big bit of wood.

It's probably not even going to hurt them. But I don't need to hurt anyone. And so I went around.

I thought, yeah, no one else in this road is going to get out of their bed and go outside to check. And that's one of the things that bugs me about society. It's like they're not looking out for each other.

I just wish more people would. So, you know, I've got to lead by example to myself, at least. Because I can't moan about it if I don't do it myself.

You know, because no one does anything. They just, they're ignoring it. But if I'm ignoring it as well, then I like to moan, basically.

That's what I'm saying. I want to be able to moan about other people. So I can't do it unless, you know, I'm different.

So I have to, and I am different, trust me. Ask any of my teachers from the past. Very different.

It's a very different young man. He is very different. Very, very different.

And so I went outside and I walked up there. The first thing I noticed was it wasn't dark. It wasn't light.

But it was, and it weren't daybreak. It wasn't sunrise or anything like that. But it wasn't dark.

It was a weird kind of a light, which I don't go out when it's dark. I don't, I don't mean I stay in, you know, four o'clock in the winter. I do go out when it's dark, but I don't go out late at night.

Or really early hours in the morning. I don't, which is late at night, isn't it? I just don't. It's like all the lights turn off at midnight.

The street lights. In the good old days, you know, 20 years ago, the lights, street lights would be on all night. But now they're not.

So, you know, I'm not going to walk around. And I have walked around in pitch black before, walking back from the garage at like half 12. And, you know, not realizing the lights were going to go off.

And suddenly I'm in the park and it's just absolute pitch black. Can't see a single thing. And I'm walking into stuff.

You know, it's not, I don't like that. So, but I went out and it was light-ish. So I turned the corner, walk up and I see a police car parked the other side of the road.

So either, well, there's only two scenarios here. And because I knew that this, I kind of knew which, I thought I knew which flat it was. And what I thought is this, there's someone that lives there that hasn't been seen for about six or seven weeks.

A couple of neighbors were worried about his welfare and I think had contacted the police, but the police hadn't turned up. Now, knowing the area, there's possibly someone, a couple of people, maybe if they know that a flat is empty, like the person's not there and there's things in that flat, like a television and, you know, there's a good chance that that flat will get robbed. And it has happened to a couple of flats over there where someone's not been in there.

They've, I don't know, wherever they've been for a few months and they come back and their possessions have gone. So that's what I thought it was actually. I thought it was, because of the time in the morning, I thought, well, that ain't the police.

They're not going to be kicking a door in at 5.30 in the morning because they, a lost person, you know, a person hasn't been seen. I know they do stuff like that, dawn raids to, you know, for criminal gangs or whatever. I don't know, I've seen it on telly, but I didn't.

So I thought someone trying to get in there because now they know there's no one in there. So they're going to try and, you know, steal stuff. So I thought I'd go out there anyway.

And I saw the police car and I thought, well, it's either the police have come, they've been called and they've got here really quick. Or it is the police. That's done it.

So I went around and I didn't go into the back gate. I just called, I said hello. Hello.

I was scared. Hello, please. Is anyone there? And a couple of police officers came out and they looked at me.

One of them pulled like a truncheon thing out of his pocket because he saw me with a stick. And I said, oh, you're right. Hi.

I'm just a neighbor. I just heard the banging. And they were a little bit defensive, not verbally, but you could see a little bit because I guess they didn't expect someone to turn up like that.

And I just, I just smiled. I said, look, just heard the banging. And anyone that wakes me up at 530 in the morning is going to get hit over the head with a bit of wood.

And they laughed. I think they thought I was joking. And the they said, oh, yeah, we've had a phone call about a missing person, a person hasn't been seen for seven weeks and they were worried.

And because it's it could potentially be serious. So we that's why we kicked the door in. So I was surprised that they did it so early in the morning.

I mean, after seven weeks, what does a few hours matter? You come back at nine. But, you know, that's I didn't say that to him. But yeah, that was like really friendly.

I said, oh, they said, I said, yeah, I know one of the neighbors was talking about him. He said, do you know him, the bloke? I said, not really. I don't know his first name is.

I do, but I forget. So he was he's a nice bloke, but I hope he's I hope he's well. I hope he is OK.

And I think I imagine once the police are involved and they break into the house, just check that if he's OK, if he's in there, if he's, you know, whatever, they wouldn't they can't leave it there. They then have to proceed to find him because he becomes a missing person until they find him. So if he stay with his parents or if he's I'm guessing he's not in hospital because they would have done they would have done that check before they broke into the you know, because they can find out who lives somewhere.

Especially if someone's living in a council property, the police haven't got a knock on the door to find out who you are. They might find out if you're the person lives there. But they can find out who lives there because it's all public, not public knowledge, but it's all on their database, you know, the same as, I guess, medical records and criminal records and all that stuff.

It's all available for them to get access to, I imagine. So as far as next to kin, they can have his family details. So I'm guessing they probably did that before they broke in.

But maybe not, I don't know. So I hope he's okay. You know, he's a really nice bloke.

He's quite young. I think he's in his 20s. And he's might be in his early 30s.

I don't know. It's hard to tell everyone looks young now. Since I hit 40, was it 400 years old, I just noticed that people do look younger.

Not everyone, but some, you know. And I just, I mean, he said to me, oh, one of the police said, would you know where the lady lives? The one that called us? I said, I don't know, around the corner. But I don't know if it was her that called.

Because there was a couple of neighbours was in, showing a concern about his well being and you know, so it could have been anyone. I don't know who called them. I don't know.

I wasn't there. It wasn't me. It was me.

I just said, yeah, it was me. It was me. In fact, I knew I should have really just called the police instead of going out there because that probably wasn't a good idea.

But you know, if you wake me up at five in the morning, my sensible head is not on my shoulders. It's not. My evaluation of risk is not very complete at that time.

You know, so there you go. But yeah, it was all I don't know. It's all hopefully it's all okay now.

I do hope. I mean, yeah. What a weird situation.

I just think it's strange. I mean, I imagine some of the neighbours close to where the police were could see the police car. So they didn't come out and they could see the police.

It was a place. So I guess probably the neighbours on that side of the road, if they looked out the window, they could see the police car. But a little bit further up, you couldn't see the police car.

Couldn't see it from where I was living. Where I was living, where I do live. I wasn't living in a different place yesterday.

It's the same place. I just burped. That's nice.

I did the best fart earlier. It was a real like spidery, creepery, like that, but really lasted a good 20 seconds. I was so proud.

And I just thought, I wish I'd recorded this. I imagine that was must be like for someone like John Lennon or, you know, I'm sure that he wrote songs, that he thought of a really good idea for a song. And then maybe got distracted by something else.

Yoko Ono was screeching at him to see if he wanted a cup of tea or something. And he forgot the idea. And they're just like, oh, or maybe and then he thought then like later on, oh, I had such a good idea for a song, which could have been another like amazing hit.

And well, that's why that fart was a bit like that. It's a missed opportunity. By the way, I'm a big fan of John Lennon.

Just in case you think I'm mocking him. I'm not. I love John Lennon.

I love John Lennon. There's a film called Yesterday, which is you might not have seen it. If you're in America, it might not have even been there because it's a British film.

It's a really good film. It's one of the best films of recent years, just for feel goodness, feeling good, uplifting. The actor, I forget his name, but he used to be in EastEnders as Asian actor.

He's English, but he's, you know, he plays sort of, I don't know what the correct terminology is, but he's great. He's really grumpy. He's quite a grumpy kind of character.

But he's funny, very funny. And he's very deadpan. And he's one of my favourite actors, actually.

So there you go. There you go. So there you go.

There you go. So they've been saying that a lot recently. Maybe that's my new catchphrase.

So there you go. But in that movie, he basically, there's, I don't know, some kind of weird anomaly in the environment, which causes everybody to forget the Beatles. They just forget that they existed.

And they didn't exist. Like they just, for some reason, some kind of time thing. And the Beatles didn't exist.

But this, the star can remember the Beatles. So everybody else, like, just lives their life, like, because they never existed. So they don't remember what didn't exist.

Because of the change in the time zone, whatever thingy. I'm not explaining it very well, but it's fine. But he can remember, and he's a busker.

So he starts singing Beatles songs and becomes famous because everyone loves them. You know, I want to hold your hand. I want to hold your hand.

And when I touch you, I feel happy inside. And you know, he does all these different songs. And then there's a collective of people around the world that also remember the Beatles.

So they've all kind of, it's just really weird. It's really good. It's really good.

And there's one point where he meets up with John Lennon, who, and this actually makes me feel a bit, a bit goosebumps when I think about it. And he's, he's old. You know, he's probably in his 60s or 70s.

And I think he was a teacher or something during his professor or something. And he, he meets up with him and he's, because John Lennon existed. It's just he didn't become the Beatles.

He didn't star in the Beatles or, you know, he didn't become a rock star. And ultimately, you know, he didn't, his life didn't end the way that it did in reality. So he was this, and he looked like him.

He didn't half look like him. He sounded like him. And he, it was funny as well.

He was, it was just, but just, I don't know. It was, it's really, I mean, for me, that is creative. Because it's such an unusual concept.

The, and it's just, it's a great film. It's a great film. I really recommend watching it.

If you get a chance, it's called Yesterday. And it's a British made film. It might not be, just banging stuff now.

Sorry about that. And it's probably available to stream on one of the streaming channels. And it's not new.

It's probably about three years old, something like that, maybe four years old. A loose track. Really good film.

Really, really good film. And it's, it's funny. But it's also really not soppy, but just uplifting.

Yeah. And a little bit sad, especially seeing John Lennon having never been in the Beatles, but he's alive. And he's well, and he's kind of happy.

And yeah, strange. But great, great, great film. I think it's one of those films that will, it will hold up with time.

And I reckon in 20, 30 years time, that will be probably classed as a great film. Not that it might be classed as a great film now, I don't know. In fact, I want to check.

I'm going to Google, was yesterday a great film? Yesterday film. So let's have a look. I mean, it was a success.

Definitely a success. Himesh Patel. Is that his name? Himesh Patel? Yeah, blimey.

Ed Sheeran's in it as well. So the budget for it was 26. They're saying 26 to 41 million dollars.

And the box office is 153 million. So it's clearly a hit. But I don't know.

The release date, 2019. So it was only a couple of years ago. 2019 28th of June in the United Kingdom and United States.

Himesh Patel, he was in EastEnders. He was box office. Critical response.

Rotten Tomatoes. The film holds an approval rating of 63% based on 356 reviews. I think it was a good film.

I loved it. What do they say about? Okay, yeah. They're talking about basically, the actors were really good, which I agree.

I very much agree. I think the actors were very good. Very, very, very, very, very good.

So that's it. I should go really. Thank you for listening.

Now, remember to be kind to yourself because you deserve to be happy. Do something nice. And I say every day to be happy.

Doesn't have to cost money. No, but it's true. It doesn't.

You know, sometimes things obviously do cost money. But running a bath or running a marathon, I don't know, whatever. Just be nice to yourself.

Focus on something positive. Focus on what you do want, not what you don't want. If you're going to think of the past, think of the memories, maybe think about nice things.

Happy memories. Just an idea. So take care, and I shall speak to you tomorrow.

Lots of love. Bye.