#706 Let me bore you to sleep - THE PODCASTS ARE SAFE AGAIN - Jason Newland (18th August 2021)

Hello and welcome to Jason Newland dot com. My name is Jason Newland and this is Let Me Bore You to Sleep. Please only listen when you can safely close your eyes.

Hello. Hello. Wow, you know what? So much to tell you.

So many things to talk about. Yes. Yeah.

Hmm. Let me start with. How long has it been since my last recording? 12th of August? No.

11th of August. And it's now the 18th. Yeah, a week.

Exactly a week. Wow. Now, you know, those that listen regularly know that it's very, very, very rare that I would go a whole week without making a recording.

Very, very unusual. And that's it. Oh, yeah, I had stuff to say, didn't I? What was it? Basically, I've managed to save my podcast, which is good.

Well, my podcasts, there's quite a few, but it got cancelled on me because I didn't have the funds to pay for the monthly subscription, which was last week. And so I wasn't able to make any new recordings. And then.

Because you can't put on kind of hold, but they didn't cancel anything. And then eventually, they tried to take payments, I think three, four times, and then they cancelled it, they cancelled. And every time I went to the web onto the podcast, it said I was, you know, obviously, I couldn't make any new recordings, but they put me onto a free, free one.

Luckily, they didn't delete any of my old stuff, as far as I know. But they had a big red warning saying that I was 14,000 hours over limit. 14,000 hours.

Wow. 14,000 hours. Let's just, that's a brain frizzle if ever there was one.

Because I'm only on the free one. I'm only allowed five hours. And they said that they started to, I don't know if they stopped the old stuff being available, but I don't think they did, because I was still getting over 4000 downloads a day.

Which kind of surprised me really. The stats were, even though I wasn't producing anything, the stats were okay, in a weird kind of a way. I mean, the last, today so far, there's still a few, a couple of hours left, but I've had nearly 4000.

Yesterday, 4,400. 4,900 the day before. 4,300 the day before that.

Just under 4,000 the day before that. 4,900 the day before that. And then 7,724 the day before that.

So, obviously it went down, but it still didn't go down to a really small amount. It's still like a million and a half a year if I did nothing. If I did zero, if I made no podcasts, which is quite nice, which I guess that means that either the audience is growing, or people are just listening to some of the older stuff.

Because, I mean, some of the older stuff might be better than the newer stuff. I don't know. It's all down to personal opinion, I guess.

But yeah, here I am. I'm back. I'm back, baby.

I'm back. With a vengeance, I'm not sure. With anger, yeah.

A little bit of anger, a little bit of a little bit of resentment, but hey, there you go. I'm only human. And so, yeah, I got help.

I did. I did reach out for a bit of help with this. And, you know, I didn't get much help.

The thing is, in fairness, I've had a lot of help from a lot of people over the years. So I'm not in a position to really moan about anything, really, when it comes to that. It's just I was a little bit concerned I was going to lose all of my work.

Now, I wouldn't lose everything. But I want to say thank you to Helen Haywood, who did actually send me a PayPal gift to help me to pay it. It went towards what I paid.

But you know, it's the amount was $120. So I had to wait till I got paid today in order to pay it. So now it's all back, as it were.

I hope. I hope-y-dee-do-p-y-dee. The thing is, well, no, there is no thing is this.

Even though it's, it's been like a week or whatever, since I last paid, since I was due to pay it, will now be another three weeks when I pay it again, because they don't, I don't pay it a month after today, because they kept everything on there. So I'll have to pay it a month after when I should have paid it. So that'll be a three weeks time I'll have another payment to make.

But it's okay. It's all right. It's okay.

It's not. I'm so, I've never been so angry. And it's, it is what it is.

But you know what, opened my eyes to a few things. So I kind of realized that I'm, you know, can't rely on any, any outside situation to keep this going. So I have to be a little bit more organized, a little bit more organized.

And I've done all right, really considering was it now? How many 16 years? 15 years coming up to 16 in January. So 16 years that I've been making podcasts and videos and stuff like that online. So I kind of must have done all right to kept it going this long.

So I'll intend to keep it going for the rest of my life. So however long that is some, I've got no intention of stopping. Or even if I did stop, I probably or if I stopped for a while or had a break or you know, went on holiday for a bit, you know, I'd still went to prison or who knows, whatever.

I'd still keep the podcast going. I'd still, still keep it all, keep everything going. Even if I didn't make any new recordings for a while.

And something that I'm going to be doing, and this won't be available anywhere else, but my podcast is, I'm going to be making versions of the early recordings on all podcasts. So for example, my Stop Smoking podcast, I'm going to do each of those recordings with music as you know, two hours and five hours like I do now, but they won't, they might be on the podcast, but for the Let Me Boy To Sleep, I'm going to go back to the very first recording. And this won't be today, this will be over the next few months probably, because it will take a long time to do it because of the quantity.

And all of those recordings that I've done in the past that are eligible, you know, where it works, will have music in the background, but they will only be available on my website. So you'll be able to just go to the page where, where of the recording, and it will have three different episodes embedded into the page. So you can listen to it without music, with two hours of music, three and five hours of music, as it is now with the up to date stuff.

But it's all I'll be doing just adding to the pages are already there. Because there are 1000s of pages on my website. We for each individual recording.

And, you know, there's say 1000, 14 1500, something like that. So over 1000 anyway, so for 1000, always growing, always growing. Unfortunately, I wish my body parts would keep growing, but they don't shrinking.

Things start to shrink, I think, you know, I did notice I was don't have a lot of back fat. I don't know why I'm telling you that. But I saw someone with a like a similar tracksuit top that I wear a hoodie.

And someone was walking past me and that big old flappy back fat. And I thought, I don't have that I've got a belly. I think my belly's going down a bit.

I think I'm starting to not so much lose weight, but I think distribute the fat. You know, trying to move some of it more into my heart area. But yeah, I haven't got a lot of back fat.

I'm not saying my back's fat free. But I haven't got like massive. I've got big love love handles on my back, on my lower back.

So I think I might have I'm not so maybe I used to I don't know, I think might have slimmed down a little bit. I do a lot of stretching now from for my lower back is being problematic to me. I do stretches every single day, a variety of different stretches and also squats and stuff like that.

Trying to strengthen my lower, not just my lower back, but also my hips, and my core and my legs as well. Because it's really weird. Because when I first started doing the squats, the first thing I noticed was my knees used to be quite sore.

And it used to be almost a strain to sort of do a few. Now I can do like 30 40 50 and it's not even an effort. It's just really weird and I can go further down each than I used to be able to.

And I reckon if I kept doing it, I'll probably be able to nearly put me bum on the floor. Although to be fair, I've only got to lean back a little bit me bum's touching the floor but I've got a message to say. So I didn't reply to this yet.

Sorry. Two messages. One's from Ben.

Hi, Jason. Everything all right? What's it got to do you? Hi, Ben. It's everything's good.

I haven't replied. So I was gonna reply to you on here. So if you're listening, Ben, Ben, Ben, Ben, Ben, Ben, Ben, Ben, Ben.

Hi, mate. Yeah, all's good. I'll just put a little thumbs up on there.

That's it. And thanks for asking. And Rachel says, I had an idea for a subject for a let me bore you to sleep podcast.

1985 the music and things that happened in that year, etc. So thanks for the idea, Rachel, I'm going to look into it. I won't do it today because I'm going to moan today.

I'm going to moan. I'm just going to talk a little bit about what's been happening. I'm not going to moan.

I might moan. I might I might. Yeah.

But not not badly moan. But just, just, you know, talk, you know, talk about stuff. But I will do.

I'll do that. It sounds like a good idea, because that's just down my road. In fact, what I might do, Rachel, baby, is do one for Wow.

Okay. Everyone wants money. I've had to draw out right? I had to draw out the remainder of my money from the bank in cash.

Sounds like it was like a huge amount. It wasn't tight, a small amount. But I had to draw out because it just keeps getting taken out of my bank by direct debits and just continuously.

So I had to take it out. Otherwise, I wouldn't have any money to get through to next week. But what I did do is, oh, yeah, here's my idea.

What I might do, Rachel, is go through the years of 1980, all the way through to maybe, you know, just the 80s, every year for the 80s. And just go through some of the songs, maybe some of the news that happened in my country on Rachel, Rachel's country as well. But you know, for people that haven't, that aren't from England, stuff that you may not know about even might be slightly interesting.

And informative, maybe I don't know. But it just be like my my memories of those particular years. You know, for example, 1980, whatever year it was, when Prince Charles and Diana got married, and where I was at the time.

I was on a rooftop trying to get a really good shot, but unfortunately, the gun jammed. But no, I'm joking. I wasn't doing that.

I was like nine years old. I didn't get my first gun till I was 11. My first rifle.

And so yeah, I'd like to. Yeah, that might be interesting to go through the 80s. Some of my favorite songs of that decade.

So Rachel, you're giving me homework. Damn you. Damn you.

Homework. In fact, Rachel, baby, what you can do, if you want, you can help me go through 1980. And send me a list of stuff that happened in 1980.

And then 1981 1982. Just stories from me from England that were big at that time. Big things that happened.

Yeah. In fact, what we could do if you wanted to make this a little bit more interesting, is I know it's supposed to be bought, it's supposed to be boring. So it's supposed to be interesting.

But we all know it really is interesting. Because what's interesting to us is boring to other people. You know, that's how it works, isn't it? Doesn't matter.

It's like quantum physics is boring to some people, but to other people, it's their life. You know, and it could change our lives. But we don't have to be interested in it.

Don't necessarily want to hear about it. And someone's grand granddaughter being born. It's boring to most people in the whole world.

But not to that person. It's like the most amazing thing in the world to them. But no one else is going to be interested.

Apart from obviously fam. Okay, you know, you know, I mean, I'm saying that. I'm not saying that no one is interested is, you know, it's not interesting to other people outside of your, your world, your bubble, your life.

That's what I mean. It's like if you walked up to someone that you don't know. And you set up I mean, honestly, like you got 30 people that you don't know.

Randomly pick them off the street from around the country. And got a projector out and started showing them snapshots of your new baby or your new puppy or your new favorite or whatever. Or you know, or your your grandson on his first day of school.

I mean, some people say oh, that's cute. But a lot of people are probably thinking, why have you brought me here? I was enjoying that movie. Why have you? You know what I wanted to go shopping.

A lot of people just won't be interested. It's like because it's not their life. That's why I mean.

I'm nice to get a lot of dry skin on my first finger. Just just on the end of it. I wonder what is I do that's causing that? It's almost like it's got a callus.

And I don't play like you know, when you play the guitar, or when you're learning the guitar, and you get callus on the ends of your fingers. That's what I've got on my first finger of my left hand. Not on any other hands, not on any other fingers, but just on that one finger.

What do I do? I think I fidget. I think I'm like poking it with my thumb. And like poking the skin with my nail.

I just realized I'm doing it now. That's got to be some reason for that. Maybe that's what I do.

Maybe I do it when I'm in bed. Like, I suppose if you filmed it, it looked like I was wanking off a ghost. I just don't know.

Just it's weird, isn't it? Like moving my hand around. Weird, strange. So maybe yeah, do the one day.

Yeah, do a day per decade, per year. So I can't really, there's no point doing the 70s because I was a kid. And really music wise, I mean my first, this is this is Chum, just saying it for for comedy value.

My first song that I remember hearing as a small child was, I love you love, you love me to love, I love you love me love by Purvey Glitter. Now, I love that song. But I was a little kid, I had no choice.

It was just there playing. And that is my first. It's one of my first songs.

That's my first song is like a very, very, very young child. And then as I got older, when I was probably about five, six, five, six, something like that. And had this is, yeah, my memory.

This is weird. There was a radio in the dining room of the children's home that I was in South End. And had a radio and is playing Bill Haley and the Comets as like rock around the clock, one, two, three, four, five, six.

And I never really sort of figured out why, why would I play in that song? And at that time, because you know, it was a 1950 song, wasn't it? But rock around check it rock around the clock releases UK. Okay, so, rock around the clock singles official charts. This is Wow.

Wow. So yeah, it was released in 1955. Went to number one.

It was a week, five weeks at number one, and weeks in the charts. It was 36 weeks in the charts. Then it was released again in 1974.

And it got to number 12 in the charts. 10 weeks in the charts, but it was number 12. 1974.

So it's in the charts from the 16th of the 1974. 16th of March. So it's in there for till about May.

So yeah, isn't that weird? Because that that that makes sense. Because that seems too early. But maybe not.

Maybe I wasn't a children's home by then. But just because it was playing the radio doesn't mean it was in the charts at that time, does it? No, we don't keep going on about it for Yeah, true. Yeah.

But I just remember it being played quite a lot. And I don't know why it was re released. Maybe it was on an advert.

Because I imagine there was television back then. Black and white television. I don't think I think colour television was around because I'm pretty sure I might be wrong.

But I'm pretty sure that when I was when I pretty sure we had a colour television in the children's home. Pretty sure. But I might be wrong.

Again, I might be wrong. Because I didn't get to watch much television. And the nuns who put a TV put the TV on.

I thought we could watch Crossroads. Maybe Emmerdale Farm used to be called Emmerdale Farm back then not just Emmerdale. It's now trendy.

It's Emmerdale used to be called Emmerdale Farm. Because it's about farmers. Now it's expanded to be about it seems to be more about the town.

Emmerdale, you know, the I don't watch it. I used to watch it in the 2000s. The early 2000s.

And when Cain was the real bad boy. And I don't know, I just and the dingles was in it and it was funny. And it was just caught me like there was a comedy family.

And then I stopped watching it. So I think the the lady that was I think I think now she's dating Cain or they escaped in a helicopter some big weird, exciting thing. And then she took off and was gone for like nearly 20 years and came back into it or 15 years or so.

And then came back. And that was boring. That was a boring, a boring description of something that wasn't very boring at the time.

To be honest, if I'm honest, it was exciting. And to me, I used to watch I'm sure it's like Crossroads. Did I say Crossroads? Crossroads and then go to bed.

Crossroads I think used to be on about 630. So one of the nuns used to party when we was in bed. He's like get all dressed up and stockings start dancing to disco music to ABBA and stuff like that.

Dancing Queen. Mama Mia, Mama Mia, Mama Mia. That wasn't dancing.

Yeah, they probably wouldn't like to Queen would they? I wonder what nuns kind of music nuns listen to? I don't know. Look around the clock, I guess. I don't know.

Very quiet was at night, which is weird because when you've got, imagine, well you have to, you don't have to imagine you might have slept in rooms with siblings and stuff. But being in a room with I'd say at least 12 other kids or let you know, there was might be less, might be more, might be 20, but it was at least probably 12 plus kids. Like one, row of beds one side, row of beds the other side and there was enough room for like a, I think maybe a wardrobe or something next to the, next to the bed.

And it was quiet, very quiet at night. I don't know. Maybe kids don't snore.

Maybe snoring doesn't happen until we get older. I don't know. I don't have kids, so I don't know.

I don't, I don't. It might be the most silliest thing I've ever said. Of course kids snore, they're human.

Well, we weren't allowed to make noise, you see, so I don't know. Maybe, maybe under those circumstances you learn not to snore. I don't know.

I really, I'm not sure. I just don't remember it being particularly noisy. And again, when I went to hospital when I was a kid and I was in a room with just a bunch of other kids, you know, when I had my adenoids out when I was eight.

And again, there was just quiet. You could always hear like the footsteps of the nurse or the nun. What's a nun doing in the hospital? Get out.

I came here to get away from you. No, because there's always like tip, tip, tip, tap, tap. You could hear the footsteps.

You could hear the repressed rage. I'm meeting up with a friend tomorrow. Someone I haven't seen for years, literally years.

And I say years, at least probably over two years, maybe three, at least over two years anyway. Long before the, before the plague started, it was before that. Because yeah, so I just, I called him up.

Actually, I didn't have his phone because I gave my friend my phone. So I deleted everything from it. I set it to factory settings because I didn't want any old texts of mine on there.

I didn't want any telephone numbers. I just want it all cleared. And so I lost my friend's number.

Not that it was on there either, but it might have been. I don't know. So I contacted another friend whose friends were him.

So can you send me his telephone number? And he said, he got back to me, he's a different person. He said, I have to ask him, send a text message to him to see if it's okay for me to give you his number. I was like what? And my first response is to just send him a text message full of not so friendly words because that just annoyed me.

This is someone, firstly the person I sent a text to, I called him to start with and then I texted him. This is a friend that I used to live with. And he knows that I'm friends with this person.

It's not like he's, I'm asking, like a stranger was asking for his friend's number. This is a friend asking for a friend's number who we're both friends with. And then he sends me a telephone number.

Eventually a couple of days later, I bit my tongue, didn't say nothing. And he said, yeah, he said it's okay. Here it is.

I know it's okay. I went to the bloke's wedding. I was his groomsman.

It's a groomsman, is that the right word? So he didn't have a best man, but he had three groomsmen. And I was one of his groomsmen, which is kind of like a best man. I'm one of his best friends.

That's how I see it. You know, he paid for me to have a suit, rented a suit out and stuff for me, like a tuxedo and stuff. You know, of course, he's not going to mind me having his telephone number.

Damn you. That's what I'm trying to say anyway. So we're meeting up tomorrow.

So that's really good. And just found out he lives just up the road from me. Because he used to live in town.

Now he's moved. And he's further away from town than I am. See that I said to him in town, he said, yeah, but I have to go past you to get there.

So he lives further up. And he's going through some stuff. So I'll have a chat with him.

See if I can help him in any way. But my friend, the other friend, he sent me his telephone number, but he missed the number off. So I was phoning him, make it phone him.

Which friend are you talking about now? This is confusing. I know. It's confusing trying to explain it.

But I don't want to use their names. Do you get me? You get me in it? I don't want to. I don't want to use their names because he's a real life people that I have contact with.

Sometimes I use names. Sometimes I use pretend names about people from the past. So I just make a name up.

And because you're never going to see him, you're never going to know him, you're never going to. And I just sometimes I just make a name up, pretend. And that's it.

But when it's someone actually in my life now, or someone that's important to me as this friend is, well, if he's so important, how come you haven't seen him over two years? Because I'm not a very good friend. So there you go. I'll be quite honest about that.

I'm a rubbish friend. I've never pretended to be a good friend. I've never pretended to be good at anything.

I know I'm not particularly good at anything, but at least I'm aware of that. I'm not sure how useful that is being aware. I'm an arsehole, but I'm aware that I'm an arsehole.

I don't know how useful that is. But yeah, my friend who sent me the text message with the telephone number, missed a number out. So I was calling it.

We cannot connect you at this moment. Like it was like what? Not this telephone number is not recognised. This is not the right number.

Dial correctly, please. Thank you very much. Nope.

So eventually I thought, what I did is I counted the numbers. I looked at it and I thought, is that the right amount of numbers? So I looked at my own telephone number. I counted how many numbers there were on mine.

And then I counted how many numbers there was on this number. And it was one short. Because all mobile phone numbers seem to have the same amount of numbers.

I think in the UK of England, Britain. So that would be good. I just I'm talking about it because I'm trying to remind myself to go.

Because it's only it's not far. I'm just meeting him locally, but I don't know. I'm so used to not having any plans.

And I haven't met anybody. No, I haven't. No, I haven't met anybody for years.

In public, because you know, we've been pretty much this country's been closed down really for two years, pretty much. So the last two years, I know we've been able to everything. Technically, everything's been open for the last.

I don't know what couple of months now is it? I don't know how long it's been. But I'm just I haven't I have not been out really. I did go to town today.

Well, that was interesting. And I get on the bus, everybody is wearing a mask. Now.

And a friend of mine, where neighbor actually lives in the same building, he gets on the bus, he's at the bus stop ahead of me, some reason. And he gets on he's wearing a mask, which is fair enough. But I say it's a choice.

Obviously, I can't tell people what to do. Wish I could. We'd all like to do that, wouldn't we? But wear a bikini.

So I tell the bus driver, he might not be happy. But that's why I insist. He, my friend got on and he just sat in front of me.

He's got his mask on. And I said to him, have you had your double jabs yet? He said no. Now the reason he's been abroad, because he's this isn't information that no one else's business there.

But yeah, he's he's been abroad. So he hasn't had hasn't been there to have it done. So I guess he'll have it done over the next few weeks or whatever.

But he caught he caught COVID last year, but he didn't know he'd had it. He'd been abroad came back. And they tested them as he entered the country.

This is in a days before they had the quick flow ones. This was like a proper test that had to send away. And he came back, they'd had it, they actually was positive.

And he had to stay at home for, you know, two weeks or whatever. He wasn't ill with it. He just had it.

And he's quite elderly, not elderly. He's not young. But he's, he's must be either very lucky or very healthy or whatever.

Just you know, he was not ill with it. So I can understand why people in his situation wear a mask because there if you haven't had the double jab or whatever, but those are being vaccinated isn't part of being vaccinated. So you get you don't wear a mask anymore.

With that, if you're not if you're not vaccinated, why be vaccinated? The whole idea of being vaccinated is so that you're immune to the thing isn't that people are vaccinated against smallpox. They didn't catch smallpox did they? They eradicated smallpox by immunisation. That was the point of it.

Measles. What's that thing? A thing that used to be really prevalent? Oh, that ain't around no more. I can tell.

In fact, I tell you what I'm going to do. Here what I'm going to do. Diseases that have been eradicated by vaccination.

Okay, you ready? You ready? Are we ready everyone? Vaccination that's what we've been given that to vaccinations, right? It's to eradicate diseases. That's what it's supposed to do. Polio.

Vaccination got rid of polio. Tetanus. Vaccination.

Although you can have a tetanus jab, can't you, you know, but anyway, flu, influenza, like proper full on, full on doesn't happen so much. Hepatitis B forgotten about. Okay, this is the wrong.

This is talking about people who have died. It's the wrong website. It's just listing people that are dying.

That's not what I want. History of vaccines. Okay.

Disease eradication. That's what I wanted. Okay, of course, there's going to be some countries that still have stuff, but I'm going to talk about this country.

This country. Right. Polio.

Smallpox. Oh, just give me the answers I want. This winds me up.

Polio. Okay, it says here when a disease stops circulating, circulating in a region, it's considered eliminated in that region. This is history of vaccines.org. Polio, for example, was eliminated in the United States by 1979 after widespread vaccination efforts.

See, in 1980, after decades of efforts by the World Health Organization, the World Health Assembly endorsed a statement declaring smallpox, smallpox eradicated. So that was due to, it was eradication accomplished with a combination of focused surveillance, identifying new smallpox cases and ring vaccination. That means anyone who could have been exposed to a smallpox patient was tracked down and vaccinated as quickly as possible, effectually corralling the disease and prevented its further spread.

The last case of wild smallpox occurred in Somalia in 1977. Wow. So it just shows you, I know it's obviously, it's just the facts are equally important as ability to protect individuals against infections.

People who survive smallpox naturally develop lifelong immunity against future infections. For everyone else, vaccination was highly effective. The WHO who trained, who trained, who trained vaccinators quickly and they could immunize large groups of people in a short time.

So the eradication of smallpox raised hopes that the same could be accomplished for other diseases with many named as possible polio, mumps, and draconeucleosis, guinea worm disease, blimey. Malaria has also been considered. So I've never had measles.

You know what? I don't know if I've ever told you this. When I applied to volunteer in hospital a few years back, probably about five years ago, blimey. And they gave me a blood test to see what I was vaccinated against because they have a very, you have to be vaccinated against all these different things to be able to work in the NHS.

I was not vaccinated against the measles. I was again, I was vaccinated against is it smallpox? I don't know all the different things that you get when you're a kid, probably not as a kid. To be fair, I probably didn't have any vaccinations as a kid.

I didn't have the measles and I probably didn't have the others either, but maybe the hospital weren't looking for that. But I had the, the one on a sugar lump at school. Okay.

What is the vaccinations? Vaccinations. Okay. School vaccinations.

So I can't remember, but I remember one of them really hurts. Uh, what shops? Okay. So you get tetanus, diphtheria and whooping cough.

Hepatitis A and hepatitis B vaccinations. Wow. Blimey.

So you also get chicken pox, diphtheria, tetanus and pertussia, flu vaccine, measles, mumps, rubella and MRI vaccine. I don't think MMR was around at the time. So vaccines before going to school, that's not good.

What age do kids get shots? The first dose should be given within two months. The second dose at four months, third dose at six months. Blimey.

Wow. See, I don't know much about that cause I don't have kids and I can't remember. I don't remember.

I was a baby. I don't remember. I mean, from the sounds of it, I didn't get any vaccinations when I was a kid, when I was little, little, little, but I did when I went to school.

A hundred percent. I didn't miss any of them because there's one, um, tetanus, diphtheria and polio. I think it's the one for polio, which is the one on the biggest bit of sugar.

The polio vaccine. I think that's the one that was on the sugar, wasn't it? School vaccinations, sore arm, some chest swelling, which is the one that was really, because you know what? I had the COVID injection, their vaccinations, no pain. It was no pain.

It was honestly, it was easy. I think it's probably easier as you get older. Maybe, I don't know, cause you've had to, you know what I mean? Is having had certain procedures, nothing major, but you know, a few, uh, if you go into hospital, you have to get a few, a bit of prodded and stuff.

So tiny little, it is, it was pretty much practically painless, absolutely. But having had a steroid injection into the muscles, which I did for my shoulder twice, um, that was really hard. But at the same time, I came out almost skipping.

I felt so good. Because the pain had gone. I could, I had movement in my shoulder again.

It, you know what I mean? I just, and so amazing, but they have to, you know, they inject it right into the, the area where it is problematic. And it was brilliant. I mean, that's just, I had two, but they wouldn't give another one.

They'd do, you know, one and then I think six months, eight months later, I had another one. And then that was it. Weren't allowed to have no more.

It was such a shame because it really, really did the trick. I was, I mean, if you could have that, if they could create that steroid injection at any part of the body and have that effect, we would never have to do physical pain ever again. Honestly, it would be, it's almost like a, a magic prick.

It was, I was thinking of poor Daniel's his wife now. She knew all about a magic prick. Um, it was a magic, you know, just a magic injection that was honestly, if anyone's ever had one, you know, it's the actual injection is not, not the pleasantest most thing in the world, but wow.

Afterwards, it's amazing. It was for me just to have movement back in my shoulder, to be able to not be, cause I was in a lot of, a lot of, uh, uh, discomfort for years with my shoulder. I still have problems with it, but it seemed to have loosened up over the years.

Um, but you know, I think, cause I do exercise and stuff. So I think that helps live exercise, bit of movement, keeping the stretching going in that. Um, I think, you know, so that helps, um, at the time when I did injure it and then, you know, um, the years that followed where I had the, uh, injections, I didn't have a lot of physical exercise or movement.

I was sitting in an office all the time, you know, just all when I was at home, even I was sitting at a desk working on websites and, and then making recordings and sitting down a lot. So I wasn't using my shoulder, but then when I moved away and I started at college or university, um, I took up boxing. So I was training there and then I did Taekwondo as well, uh, a few years later.

So again, I was doing exercise and I did, I was doing weights and, um, working out on a punch bag and stuff. So I guess I was using, maybe I built up some muscles in my shoulder that got in because I had a cartilage rubbing against each other because I injured it quite bad. Well, yeah, it actually, it needs enough.

Well, I was told it needed an operation so they could fold down the cartilage. It's like, yeah, where do I sign up? Can we do it now? Like, no, you're right. I think I'll just, uh, take another one of those, um, steroid injections, please.

No, we can't have any more. No, you've had your two. You've had the ones you're going to get.

It's two. So you're going to have, now you've got to suffer. No, no, I want one.

You can't have one. But if I was rich, I could. Yeah, probably.

Great. Um, so yeah, but I think, I think probably it might be the other way around. It might just be because I've got so fat that a load of fat I've got in the middle and it's kind of softening, it's cushioning it.

So that might be, it might just be a bunch of celluloid in there. You don't know, do you? It's hard to know. Could be.

Might not be. Good, good, good, good, good, good, good, good, good, good, good, good. I have, there's a story I was going to tell you, but I'll tell you another time.

Something happened today. The, there was a bloke. So I just queued up.

I got a burger today. I thought I'd treat myself. I was in town.

I was going to do something that I decided not to because I wanted to go home. Once I was in town, I wanted to leave. So I thought, okay, I'll just have a burger and, oh, excuse me, I'll go home.

And then I, excuse me, and I was going to, I went to the shop and supermarket. I got a delivery ordered to have to go into town to get delivery. It's weird, isn't it? And I did that.

So I got a wasn't a big delivery. It was expensive, but it's, I was running out of so much stuff. Had very little in the way of food.

Now I've got, for some reason, I went healthy today. Even the lady on the cashier was like looking at me surprised. She said, well, that's all the chocolate.

I said, I don't know. It's got a lot of fresh food. I don't know why.

I know, I know what my intention is. My intention is to eat healthy and to do weights and to get exercising and do lots of sit ups, lots of press ups, lots of weights and working on a, you know, maybe even on a bicycle because I got my exercise bike that is basically a dust collector. So sometimes I put clothes on it.

So if I start using that and get myself fit, but at the same time eating well and because, you know, I'm hungry so much of the time I'm kind of, I'm just hungry. So I think that's maybe that maybe I am losing weight because I'm almost forcing myself not to eat very much. But the idea here is the food I have got is low calorie or low sugar.

So it's natural food, if that makes sense. It's not processed. It's just all vegetables, meat.

I'm not a vegetarian, so it's meat, vegetables and that's it. Salad, milk, eggs, some cheese and some water. I bought eight bottles of water and that was that was kind of it.

I've got some, not steaks, some other sort of for my breakfast. So there'll be, I'm going to be able to cook breakfast, but healthy. So I've got these sirloin steaks, not sirloin steaks, gammon steaks.

So I've got eight of those, eight chicken breasts. So I've got enough for every day to keep me going. I've got some pasta and got some rice and some tuna fish as well.

So I'm going to be eating probably every three hours or something, but a small meal. So basically, I'll be going onto a like a bodybuilding diet. So I'm going to be eating regularly.

I'm going to be exercising regularly. But I'm also going to be working on this stuff. And so that this is something I've done in the past.

And it's, you know, it's, it's been a while, but I kind of, this is stuff that I've studied in the past. This is stuff that I've studied in the past. I sound a bit weird.

So I kind of know what I'm doing. I realize that things have changed. I realized that I know that things have, you know, if you read a book in 1986, on diet, it might not be that up, that up to date, as far as what's known now.

However, because I used to have a, I had a diet book for bodybuilding, because I wanted to be a bodybuilder. I wanted to build myself up, but my body just wouldn't do it. I had muscle, but I was skinny.

I was skinny as can be. And I remember once my boss in a chip shop, like laughing at me, so how skinny I was, I said, I got muscles. And I showed him my biceps, I did have muscle.

I had it, I had it strapped to my arm. It wasn't my muscle, but you know, the, you know, anyway, but I did, I had muscle, but I just, I was so, so skinny, so little. So I was like eight and a half stone when I left, eight and a half stone when I left school.

That's about 35 pounds or something. So I'm a little bit heavier now, slightly, but even back in the last time, I really went to get myself a bit more muscular and started working on it was about 10 years ago. When I was doing the boxing, I really did, I slimmed down, but I got bigger, if that makes sense.

I didn't, I didn't lose weight. If anything, I don't know if I put weight on, but I got more muscular by slim. So my waistline was less, but my shoulders, my arms were bigger because I was doing the weights.

I was eating, drinking protein shakes and stuff like that. Eating, I was eating quite a lot of vegetarian food at the time, actually. And, but this is what I'm going to do anyway, just this week I'm fed up of being hungry, but I can't afford to just eat without exercising because just, just realistically at my age, I'm overweight a bit and at my age and it's, you know, it's not the most sensible thing to do to just increase my food intake.

However, it might be nice to do that from one aspect, but I probably won't feel well for it if I just, you know, it's one thing not feeling hungry, which is nice, but then it's just that lethargy or whatever that comes from just eating and not actually moving around. So I need to do the exercise as well. So that's what I'm going to do.

Eat, leave it an hour or so, then exercise, or ideally exercise and then eat. Yeah, so exercise, then have something to eat and, you know, just do that and eat every maybe four hours or maybe every two hours. I don't know, we'll see what happens, but only small amounts.

I'm not going to be eating a lot. I'll have a big breakfast because that's, that's the only meal you really, unless you're working really hard all day and you haven't eaten for hours and hours and hours, of course, any time of the day can be a big meal, can't it? But if you've, the night time is a time when we technically, we kind of have to go because you can't eat while you're asleep. So you kind of, we go the longest period of time, I think generally between the last meal at night and then breakfast.

So technically breakfast is the easiest one to have a big meal, but I'm not used to it. I'm used to just having a breakfast cereal, coffee, didn't buy any coffee today completely. I was looking for coffee, couldn't find anyone, any.

It's not almost like they hid it. So I just have to keep drinking tea. So I don't mind, but I like my one cup of coffee in the morning.

It makes me happy inside, happy, happy, happy, happy. Maybe I'll have a cup of coffee tomorrow when I'm out. Yeah, tweet myself to coffee, coffee, coffee, coffee.

And yeah, that'd be nice. Maybe coffee and a bicky, a bicky, wicky, wicky. And my husband got like five.

A nice bicky. So yeah, that's it really. I've, some other thing I'm doing.

I'm going to try and get a bit more organized with this room. Now, the stuff here that's still being the same, that was the same when my little house guest was here and I haven't sort of tidied up, but I'm going to do that over the next day or two because I need to get myself more organized as I've been doing a lot more paperwork, not paperwork, more internet, laptop, computer work, whatever you want to explain it. So with the podcasts, I've got, I use a thing called otter.ai to transcribe my recordings.

Now it's going to take months and months and months and months and months for me to get up to date and to, you know, with all the recordings I've ever done. You know, I'm nearly at the end of the relaxation, hypnosis for stress and anxiety podcast. The one specifically for there, not all the others that had, there's like 270, there's about 240 or whatever.

And I've nearly transcribed them all. And then I'll work on another one. So it's going to take ages, but what I've been doing on the podcasts is adding the transcriptions to the podcast information in order to, for Google to find the podcasts in order to, and each one has its own stuff or, you know, its own different transcript.

So I've been working on that the last few days. And it's, oh, it's taken me quite a while to get my head around how to do it properly. And it might not make sense, but it does to me.

And it's all that matters, isn't it? Hey, hey, hey, hey. It's yeah, it's just takes a bit of time, a bit of time to figure out how I'm going to produce what I need. This is the formatting, the way I want it to be presented.

To include also in each podcast, the, you know, continue reading because the, the amount of information or the amount of words or whatever, this is not enough space on the podcast description to have it all there. So I put as much as I can, then continue reading with a link to my website page, where you can read the whole thing and listen to the podcast as well. And underneath that, there's also the information about background music.

So what I do now is I just put information to the background music on every podcast, whether there's background music or not, that way it's just covered just there. Because that's important. I do that for copyright reasons.

Because it's I can use music for free, but I have to put that in there. So I do that for I'm going to be doing it for every, every recording regardless, just that way I've not missed it, if you know what I mean. Although technically I do actually put on the podcasts with music, there is the information in the actual image.

But hey, there's no point is there's no harm in doing it twice. You know, I mean, in it. So there you go.

So that's it. I'm hungry. The thing is, I've got no food that I can just eat.

Like now. There's nothing zero zilch. Nothing at all.

I could probably stretch to some toast. That's about it. And I might have to put up with that.

That might be what I'll have a bit of toast, maybe with some jam. It's boring. But tomorrow, tomorrow morning, I'm gonna wake up, I'm gonna have a gammon steak.

I'm gonna have at least one egg, maybe two broiled eggs. And some baked beans. Yeah, that's gonna be my breakfast.

And some orange juice. And maybe some breakfast cereal as well. I don't know.

We'll see. We'll see how it goes. I don't know.

Don't overdo it. But I also do need to have fiber. But then I've got vegetables.

So the fiber should still be there. But we'll see. You know, I don't know.

Yeah. Egg, beans, gammon steak. Yeah, I don't know if I'll be able to eat and I don't know if I could actually physically eat breakfast cereal as well.

But I might it's possible. I mean, I might might have a breakfast cereal as a like a snack during the day. I'm also gonna be having I'm gonna be getting some protein shakes, but not yet.

Because I've got some Slimfast shakes, which normally have with water, but I'm gonna have them I had one earlier with milk. So it's pretty high in protein. And it's supposed to be the equivalent of a meal.

So what I'm going to have this is in powder form. So these two, they're not huge tubs, but one chocolate, one strawberry. So I'm going to do use those first.

And then get myself some protein shakes, some protein powder rather not protein shakes, get the protein powder and then make them myself. Like I used to in the good old days. You know, I still put ice cream in them as well.

It's really lovely. There's there's good as any milkshake you get in. So if you if you use ice cream, it's a thick shakes like McDonald's kind of just as good.

It's lovely, probably maybe even better to be fair, because it is all I say natural products. I mean, hey, the amount of stuff that goes, I don't know what's in that protein powder, to be fair, for me to say natural products, but it's milk and ice cream. And the stuff that's ice cream is made of not necessarily particularly natural, is it? I forget all that still taste.

It's tasty, yummy mate. Long as I exercise, I do all that I exercise and I'm just going to become really, really, really fat. So exercising isn't even an option.

It has to be done. Exercising isn't an option. That sounds like it says well, it's not going to happen, isn't it? Not exercising isn't an option.

That's what I meant. Then not exercising isn't an option. It's a necessity.

Yeah, you know what I mean? You know what I mean, man? Right, I'm going to go. Thank you everyone for listening. And tomorrow I might have a look at maybe talking about a year, maybe starting with 1980.

And then working through the decades. Maybe start in 1979. Maybe start in 1977.

I got chills, they're multiplying. Was that 1978? It was 77 or 78, wasn't it? The old Greece. Are you sure it wasn't 1980? No, it's definitely 70s.

Are you sure? Yeah, I'm sure. How do you know? I'll tell you how I know. My brother, my older brother came home when we were living in a house where my nan and grandad ended up moving in.

They moved there in 1978. Or was it 1979? Maybe, maybe 1979. But this was 1978.

I'm pretty sure. Because my brother came into the kitchen, and he had the Greece album. And it was a double album.

You know, disc, vinyl, like how they used to be. So if I if I put in Greece, Greece album. I got chills, they're multiplying.

And I'm losing control. 1978. All the power you're supplying, it's electrifying.

It was also reissued in 1984 and 1991. Release date 14th of April 1978. So yeah.

Wow. Wow. Did you know this? It was produced by a bunch of people.

One of them, Barry Gibb. Barry Gibb. Now he didn't.

Did he write anything on the album? Greece? I don't know. Barry Gibb. Greece album.

Of course it did. They did the soundtrack, didn't they? Did they? Greece. Greece is the word.

It's do I get groove, I get feeling. That was them, wasn't it? Greece is a title for the song 90s. Okay.

That was great. Frankie Valli. Okay, I'm confused.

Don't matter. When you get there, by the way, I won't mind what kind of war it was made. No time at all.

And I don't know any Barry Gibb was one of the producers or whatever of the film. Blimey. I bet he made a bit of money.

I bet he did it. He did it. Oh, yeah.

So I'm gonna go. Thank you for listening. Remember to be kind to yourself.

Because you deserve to be happy. Do something special. Something extra special today just for yourself.

Or tomorrow whenever if you're going to sleep now, or tomorrow morning, tomorrow during the day, but very soon do something extra special, something that you haven't done for yourself for some while. Something that you give you pleasure or just a feeling of well being. Lots of love.

Bye.