#616 Let me bore you to sleep

Hello and welcome to jasonnewland.com. My name is Jason Newland and this is Let Me Bore You To Sleep. Please only listen when you can safely close your eyes. I want you to know that I love every single one of you.

All five of you, I love you. Um, I'm actually doing something I haven't done for quite some time. And no, don't worry.

It's nothing weird. No, no, no. Sorry, Andre was about to go to the toilet right underneath my table.

He's so rude. He's rude. I think that's, there's words.

But yeah. So come on, mate. Do you want to come and say hello to everyone? No, he's gone to his slipper.

So you might hear him in the background. I can't hear anything because I've got my headphones on as I'm watching a boxing. And you might think, well, are you going to give us any attention? No, I'm going to be watching the boxing and just jabbering.

Well, they're going to be jabbing. I'm going to be jabbering. If I got quite an expensive week this week, with the $120 for the podcast hosting, that's going to be paid today or tomorrow, I think.

$29 for the website hosting, and another $50 for the annual, the annual thing, was it the domain hosting, the domain name thing that I have to pay. It goes up every year. I've had that damn domain, which is the website address, jasonnewland.com. Had that since, I think about it since 2004.

So quite some time. I didn't use it for a couple of years. I just had it.

I started using it, I think 2006, as well as others. But yeah, I've got quite a lot of, it's quite a lot to pay out. So if you if, if you want to, if you're able to, if you're not, that's groovy too, you know, but if you are able to help out at all, to cover the costs for this free service, please go to paypal.me forward slash Jason Newland.

The link is on my website. The PayPal link is on my website. That'd be just really cool.

I think it's also on my Facebook page. But this all this stuff is just like, it's a little bit boring. And I don't really like asking for help.

But you know what, I saw this video where Apple man, you know, the the manager, forget his name now, it's gone out of my head. But you know, the man in charge of Apple who created Apple, not the Apple, not talking about Adam. Although he didn't create the Apple, did he? But he did eat it.

He wasn't the first to eat it, was he? I don't know if that's true. This is the whole Sam, the same condition. You can eat off every tree, but that one, that one, you can't eat off that one.

Every other one you can, but not that one. Yeah. I yeah, it would be really helpful if you could help.

And I've had a lot of help from a lot of people. And I appreciate every single one of you. Oh, J. Lopez has just gone down.

And he was knocked down by M. Lopez. Wow. See the man that's just knocked him down.

He's 39 years old. And he is fighting a former world title holder, former world champion. Okay.

But this bloke, he's built like a, like a bodybuilder. And he says he doesn't do weights. So he's from Argentina.

And everyone's from Mexico. And they both got a surname, Lopez. They're really going for it.

You can feel the sexual tension from here. Of course, that's something I would not say to their faces. Oh, see, a lot of people think they're really going, you know, it's really want to win.

But I'm thinking this is just basically foreplay. Oh, wow, that was close. I mean, his head was really close to his literally held his head down.

That's weird. Ah, anyway, the ongoing costs of this thing is something I don't want to keep mentioning, but I will. But yeah, the man from Apple said, ask if you need help, ask.

And he went on to be a billionaire. And for him, it was never about the money. It was about creating change, creating something that helped people and change the world.

And in a way he did. I mean, the technology of, you know, that he created, but the Apple phones, the iPods, the MacBook, all that stuff was, even though it was Wozniak or whatever that did the coding, but he, he had the vision. So he actually went to when he was, I think it was a teenager, he wanted to learn how to do some stuff.

And he went to a local, I think he was living in Silicon Valley. That's not Silicon as in boobie enhancement, Silicon as in the computer thing. And he says, because I've seen interviews of him.

And he said he went to a, a P a PC builder where someplace where they built PCs. And he asked for what he needed. He said he needed some equipment and he just went and asked for it.

And they said, yes. So his, his message really was ask for what you need and you will receive. Now I know with the, and I've really been studying this for the last year or two, the, uh, you know, asking the universe for what you need.

And it seems the most, it isn't just the asking bit, which is very difficult for a lot of people, uh, me included really, I guess, but it's the really believing that you're going to receive what you need, you know, the secret, you know, all of this, um, it's, it's not quite as, uh, esoteric and not really, not really a spiritual thing at all. It's, it's the way things seem to work, you know, those, yeah, those are really good at something that are really successful, tend to still keep being successful. Just like lucky people are often very lucky and they keep being lucky.

So it's not luck, you know, I guess, but it can feel lucky. I can feel such a thing. Yeah.

So yes, I'm asking for help, asking for help. Um, it's, this is an expensive little hobby of mine. This is, but, and it's, it's not just the, the costs of the ongoing costs, which has gone up.

So you got the $120 for the podcast. You got the website $29, which isn't much, um, the monthly there's the internet. So it's the internet for the broadband internet, which is what I use for this.

I also have the phone internet, which I use for uploading the podcasts to the recordings to the podcast, which yeah, it's, it's, I've talked about this before. It's lots of, it's, it's very, uh, can be very time consuming process, but I've managed to reduce the time, uh, and made it easier. So that's what I'm trying to do.

It's just in a sense, you know, like buying decent equipment. So yeah, the buying a new microphone that's expensive, but it reduces the editing time. Because the words are clearer, there's less to edit.

Do you know what I mean? So I took, can you hear the, can you hear the boxes in the background? It's really weird. If you can, I do apologize. I really do.

I might actually just talk all the way through this boxing throughout the whole thing, which will last three or four hours. I probably won't though. They're still punching each other.

I'd be a really rubbish commentator. Yeah. They're punching each other and yet still doing it.

I mean, I was watching one earlier because today's been a bit of a boxing day. There was boxing in the UK and now there's boxing in America. And the one in the UK, they were talking about the, what were they talking about? It was going on about, um, Muhammad Ali's fight in 1972 whilst another fight was going on.

They were completely ignoring the fight that was going on and it was a good fight. And then there was a knockdown and it was the end of the fight. I said, Oh yeah, he's knocked him down.

But they would honestly, they just really weren't interested in the, what was going on in the moment compared to what happened 70 years ago. Oh no, it wasn't 70 years. By the way, I did an experiment today.

You know, some people think, well, when you dream about things, you know, what causes the dream? Well, or are we affected by what we hear? You know, as far as listening to something, does it affect us? Do we, do we take notice of it when we're asleep? Well, yes, we do. I did some research. It's not going to hold up in any kind of academic way, but two parts, uh, became part of my dream.

So I started dreaming and having a conversation with someone about the census. Uh, there's a thing in the UK or in England, I don't know if it's nationwide or not, but it was, uh, it's basically every do. It can't be every 10 years because the last one I remembered it was long, it was well over 10 years ago.

So maybe it's every five years, I don't know, or every six years, but anyway, they send a form out, a questionnaire the government does to every household in the country. And the idea is everybody fills it in, right? And we then, you know, uh, they can then gather data and about how many people are in the country, how many people of various types are there and they cover, I think, religion and sexuality and color and all kinds of stuff that seems to someone like me seems irrelevant, but, uh, in fact, what I do is I'll open it and I'll read it. I'll read it through to you.

I'll read it through to you. I'll read it. Andre, I can't see this little boy.

Honestly, he's taken so long and now he's, I can't be bothered. He knew I was waiting to pick him up and I left him to drink. He was drinking.

And then as soon as you finished drinking, he's gone, he'd gone around the table. He's got like gone into a place that I can't get to him. And now it's all I'm going to grab him.

Hello, baby. Who's the special little boy? Who's my special little boy? He's covered in water. His beard's covered in water.

Oh, it's all wet. You are, you're like a little, a little wet teddy bear. Mind you, teddy bears get wet for weird reasons.

So, oh, what's happened? What you been up to? What you been up to? My little baby. My little, little wicked baby, baby, baby boy. My little baby boy.

Oh, yeah. See, I, that boxer, by the way, is just one. It's not the one that looks like a bodybuilder's knocked the other bloke down.

I think four or five times and he's won. It's really rare to see a bodybuilder, a boxer rather, at such a low weight to be so muscular. He's well to weight, which is, I think, about 10 stone.

So it's quite, quite light. And he's just ripped. I wouldn't be surprised if he's, I don't know, I'm thinking, yeah, probably, yeah, maybe a bit of drug testing is required.

I don't know. But then it's, you know, the opposite happened. The first fight on this bill, on the DAZN, it was a 30, 30 year old fighting against a 19 year old.

The 30 year old, I think he had one loss on his record, so he was good. But they were all quite, quite new, both of them. And this bloke, he was a cruiserweight and he just knocked out Deontay Wilder's brother a little while ago.

So he had quite an impressive winning streak, four knockouts in the last four fights. This new fighter, I forget his name, but he's 19. He's had four fights previous.

And you look at the two of them, right? OK. One was big, strong, muscular, not as muscular as this bloke, but, you know, proper proper hench or whatever. And the young one, he was bending over and just like shaking his arms and that.

It looked like a 10 year old boy. Honestly, he looked so young, but he didn't have any muscles. No definition.

Of course, he had muscles, but he didn't look like he had any muscles. It just looked like, like almost like a skinny fat person. Like no, no.

You think, well, how is he going to, how's he going to be able to hold his gloves up with those without any muscles? And he was devastating in the ring. He completely, he threw 19 punches at this big man, the strong man, 19 unanswered punches. And he's a cruiser weights, which means he's at least 200 pounds, which is, I don't know what that is in stone or even kilos.

It's not as heavy as me, but he was like six foot four or something. And I was like, wow, it was just amazing. But he didn't look like he had any muscle, like zero muscles on him.

Amazing. Now we just see the opposite. Some bloke was like full of muscles and people that are too muscly, uh, quite often not the best boxes because they can't always, they can't always move as well.

Not, you know, not as loose as they need to be, but this bloke didn't seem to, obviously his muscles weren't told about this limitation. So what I've done is I've got the census here, 10th of 2021, right? Your response is required by law. Now what I was saying about the listening, when you were asleep, I was listening earlier on.

I went to sleep for two hours listening to a radio show, LBC radio. Now I woke up to hearing them and they'd been talking about the census, filling it in and talking about how it was, you had to, you had to send it back and something about you could get fined and stuff like that. Now I didn't know until right this second, it says your response is required by law.

I thought it was optional. I didn't, you know, required by law. Shouldn't they know this stuff about us? It's saying a household, should they know who lives here? Really? I've got a council flat.

It's, it's, you know, the council is the government. It's, they should kind of be aware. And then I was dreaming about Liverpool being taken over by the government because, uh, it was, you know, something about it's being mismanaged by the local, by whoever's been managing it.

So now the government are going to take over potentially. And I was thinking, and this is not Liverpool, not the football ground. I'm talking about the city.

And I'm like, okay, so I'm dreaming about this. And then I realized it was on the news they kept. So the news is like every half hour.

So it was part of the news. So I'm dreaming this as I'm hearing it. And there was discussions about it.

And whatever was being said, I guess it was being incorporated into my dreams. What on earth did I just see there? Oh, it's Andre. Blimey.

I just saw some weird thing running around a bit. It was Andre. I didn't have my glasses on.

What I started thinking though, it's like Liverpool, the government are going to take control of Liverpool. Isn't that what the government's supposed to do? To run cities and towns and everything? I think it's a little bit too much of this old, uh, handing out the responsibility to other people and local government and stuff. Not councils.

Nope. Let the government take control of everything. Everything.

Well, I'm going to open this letter. Here we go. It's only one piece of paper.

Wow. Okay, here we go. So the last time I saw this, it was a big form to fill in.

This is one piece of paper. Dear householder, we need your help with the census, which gathers vital information to help plan services such as transport, education and healthcare. All households should complete the census on Sunday the 21st of March 2021, or as soon as possible after.

Wow. This next bit. I didn't know this.

This is what they were talking about on the radio. I didn't know there was a fine. It says here you must complete the census by law, or you could be fined up to 1000 pounds.

See that in itself is threatening. And also for quite a few people would be upsetting as well. How to complete your census.

Read this letter containing your household access code. Go to www.census.gov.uk. Select start census and enter the household access code. So there's a big access code in bold inside a box.

I said by box I mean, you know, on the paper. There's someone just bending over. Number three, answer the questions and submit when complete.

Your answers are protected by law and will be kept confidential. The census should take around 10 minutes per person to fill in. Every census completed online saves paper and taxpayers money.

See the enclosed leaflet for how to get help to complete your census. You can request a paper form at www.census.gov. It's almost. If you can't access the internet and you need a paper form, go to www.census.gov.uk. If you can't have access to the internet.

What idiots. Blimey. So they've alienated probably at least 20% or maybe 30% of the population by forcing them to go onto the internet and fill forms in.

There's a lot of people, especially certain age group, like my age and above, maybe 60s, 70s, that perhaps never use the internet. There are thousands and thousands of people that don't even, that are unable to read. Possibly hundreds of thousands of people that are dyslexic.

So, you know, using computers is difficult. Maybe difficult for them. There's also possibly, and I'm in this group, a lot of people that struggle with forms.

Filling in forms. My brain seems to just switch off when I see a form. But I don't like the idea of getting to find a thousand pound.

That doesn't appeal to me very much. Wow. So I guess what I could do is try and fill it in whilst talking to you, which was, yeah, I could do that.

What the census is. The census is a survey that happens every 10 years. There's a little leaflet here.

Every 10 years. Okay. So it's 2021, which means the last census was 2011.

Yeah, I can actually think about it. It does make sense. Yeah.

That works out. I was living in a house, was living in a room, renting a room, a tiny little, little room in a house, a family home 10 years ago. So it's a survey that happens every 10 years and gives us a picture of all the people and households in England and Wales.

So not Scotland then. Okay. So Northern Ireland, the Falkland Islands.

What other places around by England class themselves as English? What's that? It's not Tenerife. What is it? There's a, there's a little things in Spain. Where is it? Is it Gibraltar? Gibraltars? They class themselves as English, don't they? I think.

Why you have to take part. I'm gonna put my glasses on because where are my glasses? My glasses. Oh, there they are.

Wait a second. There's a reason I wear glasses for reading. Okay.

Why you have to take part. So here it is. Organisations such as local authorities and charities use census information to understand the services we all need, including transport, education, healthcare.

You must complete the census by law. If you do not, if you supply false information, you could be fined up to £1,000. Some questions are clearly labelled as being voluntary.

It is not an offence if you do not answer these. Well, that's very, very generous of you. Thank you.

When to complete your census form. You should complete the census form on Sunday, the 21st, 2021 or as soon as possible afterwards. So not before.

Okay. So they want the entire country to log on to this website. So get rid of the kids.

It's probably 50, at least 50 million. Let's say 40 million adults, probably more 45 million adults. They want 45 million people to log on to this website at the same time.

Yeah. All right. Good luck with that.

Yeah. Yeah. I don't see any problems with that.

And this is the first time they've done it online because last time it was a big form that you filled in and sent it off. So this is the first time they've done it on a website. You can submit your completed questionnaire before the 21st of March.

If you know who will be in your household on that day. Okay. So the base net has to be on the day exactly what's happening on that day.

So okay. If you submit your questionnaire before 21st of March, but your circumstances change before that day, you can let us know. Thanks.

Thanks. Yeah. Who should fill in the householder should fill in the census for the for the household.

This is the person who owns or rents or jointly owns or the property or the person who is responsible or jointly responsible for paying household bills and expenses. If you want to answer separately from the people you live with, you can contact us to request an individual access code. Someone must still complete a census for your household.

And most of my adult life, as far as I'm aware, I haven't been in a census. Mind you, it's every 10 years has not been that many out there. Not even for me.

So the first one as an adult would have been 1991. Yeah. So every 10 years, there's not a lot, is it? 1991, then 2001, 2011, 2021.

Blimey. I remember 91. I still remember it.

Doesn't seem that long ago. Wow. How to start the census form.

You can start the online version of the census from your smartphone, tablet or computer. You need the household access code on your letter to start it. This code is for everyone in your household.

Andre, come on. We've got some some stuff to do. Come on.

I need your help. So I need to know what your sexuality is. Come on.

What's your ethnicity? You need the household. Okay. You should keep your code safe and only share it with people you trust.

Do they think did the government really think that somebody is going to go on and pretend to be living here? Why would they? Someone's going to get hold of the letter and find anything. Wow. I'm calling up.

I'm going to go online. I'm going to go online and I'm going to add myself to that address. That's the opposite to what a scummy criminal would do because they don't want to be known.

They want to hide in the shadows like the scummy piece of pasta they are. Oh, that's nice. It's lovely words.

So full of hatred. I'm not. I have a healthy amount, just like everybody else.

Like everybody else. Not a big fan of fraud at the moment. It's not my biggest fun bit.

The spam, the I get a little bit annoyed by it. People trying to rip each other off and especially taking advantage of people online because it needs to be something done about it. I don't know how, what or how maybe a new internet or an intranet, which they use with companies, specifically for things like paying bills, banking, have a completely different thing.

So not the internet way or, you know, everything else is, but it's a specific place where all the official stuff is done and have it policed at all times. Because it's official, it needs to be policed. And they have the ordinary internet where people just do whatever they want to do.

Everybody gets an email address, a login, one password and everything's done in one place. Yeah, I think that's a good idea. I'm actually boring myself.

So it's weird. Who should be included? This is interesting. It's not.

You should include as living here, everyone who usually lives here. Oh, really? Okay, good. Thanks for saying that.

I was wasn't sure. So that person has been in 14 years and lives here every day. I should include them.

Yeah. Oh, okay, then. Even if they're away from home on the 21st of March, they've got a real issue about the date.

Very, very, a bit anal about the date. Anyone from outside the UK staying here overnight, who is in the UK for three months or more in total. Blimey.

So even if someone's just staying overnight, they need to be included. Anyone from the UK staying here overnight, who does not usually live here, but has no other UK address. Okay, so anyone from abroad, or from another country that's staying in your house overnight on that date, the 21st of March has to be included.

Anyone that's homeless, staying, sleeping overnight has to be included. However, anyone staying here overnight on the 21st of March, who has another UK address should not be included. As a visitor, we keep the personal information you give us in the census, safe and confidential by law for 100 years.

When we publish statistics from the census, we do not publish information that will enable you to be identified. Okay, how to get help. You can get help.

So people that are, maybe people that are dyslexic, people that need help with languages, that kind of stuff. So there's help to be gotten. But the only benefit I was ever told about the census is, it means that you're on the good and the bad thing.

Obviously, if you're criminal, criminally minded, and you're dodgy as anything, you don't want to be necessarily be on the radar of anybody. But I'm already on the radar. And I'm not criminally minded, so it makes no difference to me.

But anyone that has a council place, anyone that's on any kind of getting any, receiving any financial help, or is paying tax, or has a bank account, everybody that does that, anyone you are, if you've got insurance, you're on the radar, you're on all that information is shared amongst different places. If you are having, if you're on medication for anything, you're on the radar. You're not, you know, the only way to be off the radar is if you're pretty much dodgy.

You have to be dodgy minded. I've known people like that, where I had a friend and his cousin would have his own wages paid into my friend's account. He really didn't want to be on any radar at all.

Now it's not complicated to open a bank account. In fact, I think it's a legal thing now, that we have to have a bank account now, or some kind of place. It's not complicated.

It's not difficult to get a bank account. And that's just dodgy behavior. It is.

Or people, they only rent sublets. So again, they're off the radar, if you rent a sublet. Dodgy behavior.

I never quite understood it. The only really, honestly, this is weird, but the only real reason to be off the radar for me was to avoid paying the TV license. But I lived in places where TV license was covered anyway.

As far as I know, the council tax was always included. Usually, there was no extra heating bills, although I sometimes did have that. But now I've got everything, TV license, council tax bills, every single bill possible is presented to me.

It's lovely. Oh, I love it. I love it so much.

Oh, yes. So it's almost like five years ago, or six years ago, I became an adult. It's six years, man.

Six years since I moved here. I'll take these headphones off. Oh, nope, that wasn't supposed to happen.

Oh, that's weird. The TV just froze us back. So I'll turn that volume down.

Six years ago, so what was it? April, so now it's March, another week, another week. And I'll be six years since I first set eyes on this beautiful, weird place that I now call home. Six years ago.

And I know you can't, you know, can't change the past or anything. But you know, I wish I hadn't moved here. But I had just done now.

I felt very pressured. I was offered there was a place. I've talked about this before.

I was hoping to move closer to my family. And I was at the top of the list to view a property there. And if I'd accepted, I'd have got it, it would have been mine.

But then they didn't contact me again. Admittedly, I could just made a phone call and chased it up, but I didn't. And then I got another phone call.

A week later, two weeks later or something. So I figured the other one had gone. I just I don't know, I just I got a phone call for this one said, Yeah, we've got one place.

And you're at the top of the list. There's two other people visiting as well to look at it, but you'll be looking at the first. So you'll have you'll have first dibs.

As it were. I'm not sure if they use that word dibs. So I came along.

I actually what I did is I had the address because I was coming on the Tuesday because bank holiday weekend, which means it would have been Easter. So the Easter would have been, you know, in the beginning of April that year. So it's a bank holiday.

My appointment was something like nine o'clock in the morning, Tuesday. So I came up here on I think I visited twice, Friday and Saturday. I visited, I come here on a Friday night to have a look.

I wanted to see what it was like. I wanted to get an impression of the neighborhood, especially at night to see what kind of there's a lot of noise or loud music or that kind of stuff. And it was there was nothing going on there at all.

So I kind of loitered around a bit, walked around the estate. It seemed all right. Out of the way, though, which wasn't wasn't too impressed with, but I was so desperate to get out of the other place.

And then I came back the next day on a Saturday during the day. I want to see what it's like during the day. And.

It seemed or not, it seemed OK, you know. I knocked on a couple of doors and neighbors doors. No answer.

So I wanted just to say, look, what's it like living there? I'm coming to view a flat. And that's when I sort of get an idea what it's like in this area. Is it OK? Is it is it rubbish or whatever? Is it is it? You know, I just want to get a general sense.

But no one answered the doors, so I didn't didn't get to talk to anyone. And then. I came on the Tuesday morning.

And also part of the reason I came on the Friday is because. I wanted to make sure I got here on time. So having done the journey twice.

Getting here was easy. Although I ended up walking the long way around, but I didn't know I was following a map. So I got here and the lady was already here.

She called me. So I was waiting outside. She called me.

I said, yeah, well, she said, is that is that JJ to JJ? I said, yes, she said. Remember, you got first dibs. Is that first dibs JJ? I said, stop it.

She said, oh, sorry, she didn't. None of that happened. She said, do you want to come up? I said, OK.

And so I did went upstairs. She showed me the flat, opened the door. There's no electricity.

And the flat was completely empty, like there was no carpet, no furniture, nothing. Apart from, you know, the the kitchen, there was kitchen cupboards. And that was it.

There was no white goods. There's no cooker or fridge or washing machine. In the bathroom, there was a bath and a sink and stuff.

So it was all clean. And the floor was covered in paint. It was like a concrete floor.

Very echoey, of course. But it's very bright. The the windows are big.

They still are still the same size. That's something that kind of caught my attention a little bit, because I'd at that time I'd spent the last, I don't know, three years, I think, living in a basement room. So I didn't get a huge amount of daylight.

I didn't get any really, you know. So to suddenly have all this light is like, wow, I like this. And the rooms were big, which grabbed my attention.

I thought, well, it's, I think what it is, is I was moving out of a tiny, the room I had, that I was living in, which included a little kitchenette as well, was realistically half the size of the living room. And yeah, probably about half the size of the living room, let's say, with a lower ceiling. And no light.

And it was very, very damp, very damp. And moldy and all that stuff. So when I came in here, in fact, probably less is smaller than half the size, probably a third of the size.

Anyway, I don't know. When I came in here and I saw the storage room was nearly as big as my, my room I was living in, just a different shape. So it was in an L shape.

So it wouldn't, you couldn't live in it. But if it was like long, you could fit a bed in, easily fit a single bed in there. In fact, I know people do or have.

And then I came in, I had my own hallway. And then I went to the bedroom, the bedroom's big. And all that light.

There's a garden that I could use. It's not private, but I can use it. I can sit there and sunbathe, get me boobies out if I want to.

The neighbors do complain. But I'm saying this is a, you know, it is a choice. And the bedroom is just so much bigger than I'm used to.

See, I had a single bed. It was against one floor, one, one wall. And then there was not much of a gap between getting out of the bed and the next wall.

You know, so we're talking the width was, it wasn't that much bigger than my arm width. So yeah, probably about six. It wasn't, yeah, it wasn't wide enough to fit a single bed in.

So a single bed was about six foot. Or is it less? I don't know. So you couldn't put the single foot width-wise.

You couldn't fit it in. So probably the width was about five foot. It wasn't very wide.

It was more, more length than girth, if you know what I mean. But even then it was, the bed lengthwise would fit to the door of the kitchen that bit. And then there'd be a little bit more room for a table and a chair.

And yeah, so there's probably nine foot, perhaps nine, 10 foot wide, long. And then a little kitchen area, which was, in fact, that was the only bit that wasn't, that was less restrictive because everything was around the room. It's a tiny little room, but it was almost a little bit of space, which there wasn't anything in the living room, in the actual room.

But you know what? When I moved in there, I was so grateful when I first moved in because it meant getting out of where I was. I just seemed to have gone from one crappy place to another crappy place, but actually appreciated the new crappy place because it wasn't the old crappy place. Then it became the old crappy place when I moved into new crappy place.

If that makes sense at all. Let me have a drink. Mmm, that's nice.

So I, yeah, when I saw how bright and how big and, you know, to give you an idea, so it's not, the rooms aren't big really, but they're, they're not huge, but I can't touch one wall to the next, you know, I can't, I'm not, I'm not banging into the wall. With the bedroom, I've got a, like a double bed plus a set of drawers. So it's a double bed against the wall.

As you walk in, turn left, there's a double bed against the wall and a set of drawers next to it, which takes me up to the door. And I had enough room in there to put a garden shed in and still have room to do other things. The garden shed's now gone.

It's been removed and I've got this, I've now got the room back. And it's quite spacious, you know, really. It's big enough to, see, I personally don't think a flat like this is big enough for two people to live in, like a couple, I don't.

Just, how do you get away from the person if there's only two rooms? You go in the bathroom or the kitchen, you know, so how do you, but then, you know, maybe, I don't know, but from a practical perspective, as far as sleeping, the bedroom's big enough for two people, including getting wardrobes and, like a fitted wardrobe even, like a really nice fitted wardrobe and, um, this is definitely big enough for two people. The living room, if you had this as a living room, where, you know, I've got a neighbour who's got like a classic, classical living room. It's lovely.

She's got, you know, she'd go in there and there's a settee and a couple of chairs and a little table, coffee table, a television and some, you know, like a cabinet with pictures and photographs. I don't live like that. That's not how I live.

So, I like my space to be practical. So, I've got a desk, I've got a computer, I've got the microphone set up, the recording equipment set up, um, I've got my book cases with my books behind me, I've got a punch bag, stare, you know, um, this isn't set up for anybody else but me. And it's messy.

It is messy at times. Sometimes, you know, the bedroom's pretty tidy at the moment. So, you know, I'm going to try and get the the living room a bit tidier.

But the idea of just living in a place with a lot, like, that's all there is. This is a settee and a television and a chair and a coffee table. What are you supposed to do with that? Where am I supposed to sit? First of all, I like to, I like to eat at a table.

See, that is possible. There's enough room in these places to have a, like, little area where you can sit at the table. You know, have a little table, a little dining area, I guess.

Now, there is 100 percent, but my table's over here in front of the telly, in front of the chair that I sit in. I've got the big monitor, then I've got an iPad, and I do different things on here. This is like my workstation.

I've got another little table that's very long, where other stuff is on. And, yeah, so this is my way of doing things. I just, the idea, well, it feels almost sterile, like, let's have a settee and let's sit in a settee and let's have lots of televisions on.

Like, yeah, but what are you going to do? Okay, I like to do things. I like to be, not always busy, busy, but I like to, I spend most of my time doing something. So, you know, whether it's, and for years, if I want, I might be watching television, but I'm perhaps also building a website at the same time, or working on something else.

At the same time, just sitting watching television is not really, I can do it, and I have to, I do do it sometimes, but it's, doesn't really, it's not very stimulating, really. Unless it's a really good movie or something. And I do like watching telly when I first wake up, and I have my breakfast.

You know, that's, that's my TV time, really, where I almost don't care what I'm watching. Ideally, something funny, a comedy show or something. But you know, I'm just half awake, I'm just taking me, you know, taking me coffee and me, me breakfast, and just relaxing, and I quite like that period.

It's quite a nice, quite a nice moment, don't you think? It's like, I'll stop, I've stopped, I've stopped. So, and then I look, you know, this, the living rooms, you know, I think the living room is slightly bigger than the bedroom, but minimally, minimally, well, I say minimally, probably, yeah, it is bigger, probably another foot, another, maybe another couple of foot wider. And then there's the kitchen, and there's the bathroom, and the lady said to me, she said, do you want it? I remember, I remember standing in the kitchen, and she had this paperwork, she put it on the counter, and she said, she said, do you want it then?

I said, what? I said, I've only, I've only just looked at it, do you, do I get some time? She said, yeah, you can let me know this afternoon, if you like.

In the meantime, I've got to show two other people. And there was that, I thought, well, if she shows two other people, they're going to want to move in. They're going to have to wait till this afternoon to find out whether or not I take it.

And if I take it, they're going to be really disappointed. And that's the next person. The third person to visit to view would have to wait to see whether or not I take it, and whether or not the next person takes it.

So I was thinking of them, and one of them actually phoned up whilst I was still here, and the lady said, well, he's not sure if he's going to take it or not. So I'll let you know if you get to check, because it wasn't even guaranteed to, to view it. Because if I took it, then I don't get to view it, because it's gone.

And I said, oh, I'll take it. You know, it's like, you tell me now, or you tell me in three hours time. Or four hours, I think one o'clock.

Blimey, no pressure. And I just did a read. And I thought, oh, it's got to be horrible for the other people to then view and then not know.

And then to be disappointed. So I thought, well, I know it's also probably really annoying to come out at that time in the morning, and then what for nothing, really. However, that second person, the person that was next to me, that was after me, they would now be number one for the next flat that they viewed.

And the person behind them would be number two, and then they would be number one. So, you know, perhaps by the end of the week, they would be in exactly the same position that I was in. So I just said, all right, I'll take it.

And I bumped into the person downstairs as I was leaving. And I told them, I said, so I've taken it, I'm sorry. You know, just, it's just, I felt a little bit bad, you know.

They'd come out early in the morning to view a property, they're not going to be able to get, they can't have. So that was six years ago. Yeah, there is a part of me, I'm thinking I need to get more in touch with the gratitude of actually having a place after so many decades of living in other people's places and renting rooms and all that stuff, to actually have my own space.

Doesn't always feel like my own space, but when I'm left alone, it does. Wow. So that's it, that's a little trip down the past six years.

You know what that means? You know what that means? I was 44 years old when I moved in here. I was a youngster. Seriously, I was 44 years old.

40, should we go on, one more time, 44. Wow. So there you go, all right, I do believe that is it for now.

I'll have to do my census at some point, but right now I'm gonna continue watching the boxing. There's been boxing on, I took the headphones off a while back, because the boxing is there was still some on, I wasn't really bothered, I wasn't interested in that one, that last fight. But the main fight's supposed to be really good, so I'm looking forward to that.

So I'm gonna go, I'm gonna say thank you very much and all the best and all that stuff. Um, what was I gonna say? Is there something I was going to say? I don't remember, I don't think so. No, oh, I went out today, went out, and I had a burger.

So I went to the shops to get a little bit of food. McDonald's was open and I went in there, first time in two years, probably. I had a burger and a milkshake, banana milkshake, and it was so good, it was so good.

And, you know, they let us in, someone at the door came and answered the door, a McDonald's door. I suppose it's not going to be the, I don't know, a door to a different store, if it's a McDonald's. That's what I'm trying to say, it's a staff member, let me in, showed me how to use the screen, because I've never used the screen before.

That's a good idea, let's everyone get everyone touching the same screen. Yeah, and I, they got us standing in certain spaces, certain places, which is fine, I just did that. There was this young, I don't know if he was 13 or 22, I don't know, all looks the same to me now, but he's standing there, everyone's wearing masks, he took his mask down, so his face and his nose was exposed, in order to sneeze, and then he put them, put the mask back up.

That's what we're dealing with, that's what we're dealing with, man. You can't, you can't, what could you do with that? What can you do with that? It's, I mean, you can't, there's nothing you could do about sneezing, it's fine, and to be fair, I can understand why you wouldn't want to sneeze in the mask, in case it gets all snotty, but there's a real sense of, didn't seem a lot of brain power going on there, not a lot of communication between, between the brain cells, but didn't seem to be a bit of a lack of that. But there you go, there you go, I just thought, come on, really, you're in a food place, and you decided to do a big sneeze everywhere, oh brilliant.

I know, like, you can't help sneezing, but you can, you can, you can aim it, you know, if I was going to do a sneeze, I'll, you know, I'll make sure that it's, my hands covers it, or I even put, you know, put my, if I've got a t-shirt, I'll put my t-shirt over my face, just to sneeze there, and then pat down on my t-shirt, and you can see all the dampness. It's almost like a wet t-shirt contest. Why am I caressing my breasts while I'm talking, it's weird.

I think my right one is a bit more developed than my left, or my left, I don't know, need to start doing a bit more weights. Anyway, I'm going to go. Thank you very much for listening.

Remember to be kind to yourself, because you deserve to be happy. Lots of love. Bye.