#582 Let me bore you to sleep

Hello and welcome to Jason Newland dot com. My name is Jason Newland, this is Let Me Bore You To Sleep. Please only listen when you can safely close your eyes, yeah, safely close your eyes, that's what I said, close your eyes, you don't have to close your eyes, but don't listen unless it's safe for you to close your eyes, in other words, don't listen when you need your eyes.

If that makes sense, it makes sense to me. Be safe, that's ultimately what I is saying. So yesterday was a good day for stats, nearly 9000 downloads, so thank you everyone who listened to my podcasts yesterday, I'm nearly now at a total in the last couple of years it's 2,470,766, so it's, you know, near the two and a half million, which is good.

And my most popular podcast is the hypnosis for sleeping deeply, no, wow, is it no isn't it is, but also the most popular one is relaxation hypnosis for stress, anxiety and panic attacks at 517,546, and the second one is hypnosis for sleeping deeply at 506,419 downloads. And the third one is sleep insomnia hypnosis at 475,600. And this podcast, let me bore you to sleep, is way behind at 221,201.

However, however, this podcast, the recordings were also listened on other podcasts. So it's a lot higher than that actually, in reality. So I did the stats and I did it quickly.

There you go, you can't moan, you can't moan, you can, of course you can. Sleep hypnosis weekly 130,000. So I'm going to do another one of those probably today.

Because it's the 19th, I think, Tuesday, 19th of January 2021. I want to say a big, I want to say hello to Molly. There's a few people on the satellite too, so Molly and Rachel.

And Heidi, and there's lots of different people. Sharon, hi Sharon, a new person that's been listening to me. And Paul, and Juicy, Boston Chickie, Vanessa, Jade.

Hi, that was a weird noise that I just made. Ben, Mike, Jodie, Georgie, Ella, there's lots of different people. Hello.

I think I've got some messages that I didn't read yet, so I'm going to read them out. Hi, Jason, this is from Heidi. Just wanted to ask if you're okay.

Don't get me wrong, please. It's not that I think you should post, but it's a bit unusual when you don't post for a couple of days. So I was wondering how you're doing.

A big virtual hug to you. Thank you, Heidi. I did reply.

Yeah, I go through periods where I'm not quite in the mood to make recordings. Now, in that situation, I can do the hypnosis stuff. I can push myself sometimes to do hypnosis stuff.

But if I'm not, if I'm in a grumpy mood, or not in a very good space, making the Let Me Boy To Sleep recordings isn't so easy. Because whether you agree or not, those that are listening, I do try and keep upbeat, you know, keep it light as much as possible. And Rachel says, why did you remove me as a moderator? So I replied there.

I'll expand on that as well. Because Rachel, you're a very valued listener. You're a friend.

And I don't want you to think that I removed you as a moderator out of any kind of cruelty or anything, because I didn't. I also removed Molly. And to you, the two moderators I had.

And the reason was it because Molly pointed out that she had access to much more than the moderator should have access to, which included messages that I get. Now I get personal messages. And it's not fair for people who are sending me messages to have those messages read by anybody but me.

And it's I don't get it's not all like proper personal personal, but sometimes it is. And, you know, does that make sense? So it wasn't a per it wasn't being rude by deleting. Molly is still the moderator for the private group.

I will try to add Rachel to the private group as a moderator as well. Unless Molly can do that for me. If you listen to Molly, can you add Rachel to the as a moderator? Because I don't go on to that page.

For me, that's more kind of like might sound weird, but more like a fan, kind of like a fan page. I still struggle at that word fan. I think, you know, more more so than anyway.

So I had a few messages. Can't read them all on my phone because it doesn't allow it. I actually have to go on to the phone and do that now.

I'm going to go on to the iPad and click on Facebook. Let's see what see if I've got any any messages. Oh, that's weird.

OK. So let me bore you to sleep. So if you.

Specifically listen to let me bore you to sleep podcasts. Perhaps you'd like to join. The let me bore you to sleep page.

I mean, just like it, you'd have to go join. It's not private or anything like that. But.

You can then leave messages and post stuff on there, I think. It's just a, you know. I've got a message from Darby.

I think I've already read that one out. About. I think it was I think I might have said at some point in my podcast.

Perhaps you can let me know what you think. And Darby left a message on the let me bore you to sleep. Facebook page chat is good.

I'm located in North America in North Central by Canada. No appointment necessary. The service I listen to is let me bore you to sleep.

Although I think your stress and anxiety reduction podcast would be a good fit as well. I do fall asleep with your generous sharing of your talent. Thank you very, very much.

Thank you Darby. Thank her. Other messages.

This is another one of my Facebook pages. I'm not going to read that out because it's annoying. It keeps sending me the same messages over and over and over and over again.

Constantly. I keep trying to delete them but I can't. There you go.

Not delete the person just delete so I don't have to keep seeing the same messages. There's no other messages so. You know you can always contact me if you wanna.

Just to say hi. Let me know what you know if you like what I is doing. And.

Yeah cool. That's the end of the recording really I don't. Is there any.

Is there anything else to say I don't know. I wonder when my. Yeah.

When is. What am I paying next. Because I haven't got enough money to pay for the podcast.

When is it. Settings. Billing info.

OK. Pro plan. Next payment Thursday the 21st.

So. Wow it's in two days time. $120.

I do not have the money to pay that. Damn I don't know what I'm gonna do. I'll have it at the end of the month but not now.

I just think I need. I think it is. It's January is quite a busy month of bills.

It seems to be just been bill bills bills bills bill after bill. Plus all the extra stuff I pay out for. I don't know.

Things were not even near the end of the month yet are we. So if anyone would like to help to pay for the podcast. Upkeep.

Which is $120 a month. Please go to paypal.me forward slash Jason Newland. And all the links on my website.

If you if you. If you benefit from what I do from this free service. And you'd like to help.

That would be very. Very much appreciated. Wow.

How much is that a year. It should be easy to add up shouldn't it really. There you go.

120 times 12. $1,440 a year. It cost me to run this podcast this free service.

I do have adverts. To help to cover the costs. That's a lot though isn't it.

$1,440. Wow. Blimey man.

Blimey. Spread that over the year. It doesn't seem so bad.

But add it all up. And what other things am I paying out for. So there's.

$30, $60. $30, $33. $60.

$69. Yeah so that's $90. $90.

Times by 12. So $120. So there's another $90.

It's about $120. So it's $240. That's for the internet.

And that's with the. Paying for the iPad monthly. Which is I only use it for this.

All the work I do here. And there's the phone. Which I use while I'm on the iPad.

To help me to. Especially with this podcast. To find out stuff and to.

Read messages and. A bit of research here and there. Checking the stats.

All that stuff. So that's. That's $200.

$240 a month. Plus. The cost of paying back things.

Like the shed that I. All the soundproofing that. I bought. But the shed that I'm still paying for.

The microphone thing I'm still paying for. What other things. Well not everything on my catalogue is for this.

I'm still paying for the. The bicycle exercise bike. And a microwave.

And a few bits I had to get. I need to buy it. I bought a vacuum cleaner.

For £150. £150. Last week.

Because. I had to get a vacuum cleaner. But.

Because the catalogue. I can pay it back over. However long I want.

I didn't. I didn't have the money to buy it. So I just bought it on there.

So. I'm trying to think. What other things.

The tablet. Yeah so. There's a few bits.

So probably two. Two. About $300.

About $300 a month. I'm paying out for this. Including the website as well.

So yeah. About $300. It cost me to run this thing.

Including the things I paid out for. That I'm still paying for. That makes sense.

Not the stuff that I paid out for. That I've already paid for. I worked out.

So a few months ago. I worked out. I probably spent.

20 to 30 grand. Probably more. Over the last 15 years.

On. You know. Supplying this free service.

It's like wow. It's quite a lot isn't it? Then if you spread it out. Over 15 years.

It's not that much a year. A couple of grand a year. But wow.

It's quite a lot of money. Really. If someone said.

Here's £30,000. There you go. I'd be like wow.

Nice. I think I might celebrate this. But yeah.

It's. It's weird. It's weird.

I'm just amazed. That I've managed to keep it going. All these years.

Especially the amount of times. That I've had no money. And I've had help.

Which is really good. I've been. I've felt very.

Very fortunate. Especially over the last couple of years. I've had more help.

A lot less lately actually. But you know. The last.

You know. Over a two year period. Especially like last year.

Specifically. And the year before. I was.

I was. Nearly. I was getting probably.

50. 60% of what I needed. Covered.

Sometimes 100%. In a month. To cover the costs.

So that was good. It's just the costs have gone up. Like anything.

It just goes up doesn't it. Hopefully. The cost of running this.

The podcast and stuff. Won't go up. But.

I don't know. The amount of recordings. And the amount of space.

And the amount of downloads I get. I don't know whether or not. My podcast provider.

My host. Will say wait a minute. We need more money from you.

Because. It's costing us a lot of money. To provide it for you.

So I don't know. I'm hoping not. Yeah.

I like to think that. $120 a month is enough. But we'll see.

We'll see. I don't expect them to contact me. I mean it's only just gone up.

To that. I did have a discount. But they wouldn't give me a discount this year.

Changed in November. I think it was. So.

They wanted me to swap over. To a different tariff. Or a different plan.

Which probably would have cost me. More money. So I kind of stayed put.

If you know what I mean. The you know. But I don't know if they've changed that.

The idea of like paying extra. To pay an extra. $2 for each.

Thousand. Downloads I get. And I know that.

For some people. Especially if they're starting out. You know.

That's like a good deal. Like wow a thousand. A thousand downloads.

I'd pay two pound for that. Well you know technically. I probably would anyway.

I'd pay them two pound. I'd pay them two pound. If they could get me a thousand downloads.

If they you know. If they could provide that. 2, 4, 6, 8, 10.

12, 14, 16, 18. 1, 2, 3, 4, 5. 2, 4, 6, 8, 10. 12.

I mean it cost me at least. $12. A day.

For them to get me what I get. At least. Which would work out what.

How much would that be. If I paid them $12 a day. Times I 365.

That'd be four grand. $4,380. So you know.

If they just did that. And said look. No charge but.

They'll make you a lot more money from me. But I don't want them to make that more. Because.

I'd still make. I'd still break even. I guess but.

It's not the point. It's not the point. No.

What are you talking about Jason. I don't know. Nobody knows.

No one needs to do. See. The main thing at the moment.

I'm trying to overcome is. Falling asleep. When I make a recording.

Now I've fallen asleep three times today. Making recordings. Or yesterday rather.

And I've got to stop that. Which means. I'm going to be sitting up at the table.

I'm not at the moment. But I'm not that tired really. But when I do the sleep.

Whisper ones. I just fall asleep. Because I'm sending.

Myself to sleep. And it's no good. Because I can't.

My brain doesn't function. Because I literally am. I'm snoring.

And then. I can't remember what I've just said. So some of it doesn't.

Necessarily. Come across as. Particularly coherent.

But. I don't think anyone notices. Which just shows you how coherent.

I normally am. Nice little drink. So it's Tuesday.

Today. Yesterday. I did a few recordings.

Which I was pleased with. Andre wanted to go for a walk. So I took him out.

Knocked on my friend's door. Just to see if he was alright. And he asked me to get something from the garage for him.

I wasn't going to the garage. I was only taking Andre to the park. And that's it.

So I said alright I'll go to the garage. Which meant I had to go upstairs. And get Andre's bag.

Because he's not allowed in the garage. So I have to put him in a bag. And hold the bag while I'm in there.

And. Andre's messing around. He's really playing up.

Being naughty. But I take him out. I put him on the ground.

And we're walking. And he didn't want to go any further than the end of the path. He didn't even want to go onto the pavement.

He didn't. He really. And I said no.

Come on. And he gave in a little bit. And walked a bit.

And then I picked him up. And then I thought I'll carry him to the grass. And if I put him down on the grass.

He'll perhaps be a little bit more. You know. Energetic.

And wanting to be out. Because he asked to go out for a walk. Yet once he gets out.

Especially if it's cold or. I don't know what it. I don't know what thing is.

That affects him. He doesn't like going out. If he's just woken up.

So if he's asleep. And I pick him up. Put his lead on him.

And then take him out. He doesn't want anything to do with it. He just wants to climb into my jacket.

And go to sleep. But this wasn't the situation today. He was.

Yesterday he was wide awake. Trying to get out the front door. So I thought OK.

Let's do it. Let's do it. So I put his lead on him.

His harness. We go out. And.

He's just playing up the whole time. There's a little bit of a sniff. And a roll around in the grass.

And I end up basically carrying him. The whole way to the garage. My back's hurting at this point.

So my lower back's really been. Winding me up. So it's a long walk.

Even though it's not a long walk. It just seemed long. Got there.

Put Andre into the bag. And he's wiggling about. Trying to stop me from doing it.

So I just. So I got him in there eventually. Go into the garage.

I get what my friend wanted. I get something for me. Go up to the counter.

There's this miserable man. Who doesn't even say thank you. Or please.

Ever to me. Does it to other people. But he won't to me.

I said hi. And he starts scanning the thing. I said hi.

So I said it louder a third time. In order for him to have to look at me. And say hello.

And. It's still when it came to the money. Oh that's 14 pound.

No. That's 14 pound please. See.

In this country. We say please. Like custom service.

It's standard. In shops. To say please to a customer.

When you're saying the amount. You don't just say the amount. That's 42 pound 50.

That's 42 pound 50 please. And when they give you the money. You say thank you.

Thank you. Thank you. And then when it leaves.

Say thank you. You know bye. You know just general.

That is the normal standard. Customer service. And.

Okay not everyone does it. But most people do. Do it because.

If they're taught properly. Then they're taught how to talk to customers. And it's not like you have to have a conversation.

With the customer. And polite. That's this culture.

That's how it is. That's how it's been for a long time. And I hope it stays that way.

Because I like politeness. Even if it is false. I like false pretentious.

Kindness. Even more than sincerity. I want someone.

Who doesn't want to be nice to me. Be nice to me. This gives me a buzz.

But he absolutely doesn't like me. And I think it all stems back. Really from.

Years ago. When I used to take Andre in there. And.

I'd put him in my jacket. So he wasn't you know. So.

You know whatever. I think they said to me. One member of staff said.

You can bring him in. And then another member of staff said. You can't bring him in.

And then. I decided. I'll just put him in a bag.

And I'll keep him in the bag. But on this occasion. I forgot the bag.

So I put him inside my jacket. And this grumpy man said. I know you've got a ferret in there.

I said. Yes I know that as well. He's not allowed in there.

I said. Well he's in there isn't he. You can't bring him in there.

So I said. I said something. Around the lines of.

I will continue to bring him in here. I will do what I want to do. I've got nothing to do with you.

And nothing you say is going to make any difference to that. You don't tell me what to do. And I will continue to bring him in here.

I don't know. That might have annoyed him. And.

I think I might have chucked some underpants at him. I'm not sure. But anyway since then.

He hasn't really seemed to have. Felt kindly towards me. This is weird.

And. It's weird. It's like come on man.

Just. If you're going to be rude about someone's little boy. A ferret like that.

If you don't know him. If you're going to be rude. It's.

So yeah. I'm not on his Christmas card list apparently. I wish I were.

Because I love him. I love him. And I want him to love me too.

But he don't seem to do so. He don't seem to love me anymore. But I can't forget the feeling.

That I wrote about the feeling. But I guess that's just the way the story goes. And in my eyes.

And in the thought. I feel it shows. Yes it shows.

It shows. It shows. I can't live without you.

I can't live. I can't live anymore. I can't live.

Living without you. I can't live. I can't live anymore.

I can't remember the words to that I'm going to make a change for what's in my life I'm going to feel real good I'm going to make a difference I'm going to make it right if I was a soldier what was it if I was your girlfriend if I was your girlfriend if I was your boyfriend would you let me dress you biddy biddy biddy biddy you know out of all the famous people living and not living like famous singers really famous ones I think one that I'm quite fascinated with is Prince I'm not fascinated

with his music I'm not fascinated with his style although he was completely original and you know and he did some amazing music that's not what fascinates about me about him I think the lack of information public information about what he got up to when he was at home I just I don't know he was about three foot tall you know he could fit in my pocket and I just wonder what he did what did he do what did he do when he wasn't touring when he wasn't writing music when he wasn't doing the housework and

cooking I mean did he watch television did he watch Netflix did he what did he do did he bake did he garden do gardening I mean I understand he was a bit of a partier but even that has to kind of calm down when you get to be in your 50s and he was what about 50 when he passed away I think he was around the same age as Michael Jackson I think let's have a look he was a lot older than me anyway let's check Prince he was born in 1958 why wouldn't they do

that isn't that weird normally they put down the age of the person 50s blimey I had no idea he was 57 years old when he left 57 now he'd been around for like hugely famous since 85 84 82 I don't know when was his first album his first big hit I mean he's around in the 70s apparently he released 39 albums Wow dirty mind 1980 that was one of his albums controversy 1981 1999 was 1982 and purple ray was 1984 yes he'd been around a long time a long time so I'm not really sure hmm

okay so it looks like he had a kind of similar thing going on to Michael Jackson as far as his demise and the lead-up to it I'm not really sure we're gonna read all this out but I know I think he had hip replacements because he'd been dancing and he had I think he had like problems with pain overuse of pain medication because of being in such pain with his hips and if he was still dancing still touring which I think he was then he was probably put his body under a lot of pressure especially

at this that age to be in his 50s and doing it Michael Jackson I think he was 50 wasn't he when he was doing his getting ready to do his tour in London is don't know how many nights he was doing but lots lots of lots of concerts and he was in constant pain for I think he had problems with his joints he had problems with his back as well as they say yeah I mean he just he was very very active but you know if you do that he spent from his childhood didn't he

old Michael right the way to night you know nearly 50 or 50 doing dance routines on stage so plus practicing at home body can't do it body can't take that stuff you know athletes unfortunately quite often have problems when they get older if they've overused their body parts that's what I'm bit worried about me Willie so it's Prince I just wonder what he got up to when he because partying is boring after a while I mean I was a DJ for four years and I got bored with the women well you know with not all

the women but just the female attention that I got brilliant at the start absolutely loved it by the end it got boring a little bit not always but it got a little bit just just more of the same and now I would I'd give anything to get to go back to that in some ways in some ways are just to have that feeling again of standing in that DJ booth knowing that I'm gonna have some women come up to me and regardless if they liked me or if they wanted to talk to me but that's

they'd come and talk to me and it was lovely I liked it for the first three years the fourth year it's not that I didn't like it I just got I think I didn't appreciate it anymore and maybe I was more interested in perhaps settling down perhaps I don't know although I didn't I mean it didn't stop me from still dating I still dating women during 2001 when I finished so I finished in September well actually it was October because I see I carried on till October 2001 but I don't know it just got a

little bit it wasn't a novelty anymore I mean I remember the first Christmas so I was working in September I was doing a DJ let's say work and I was getting wasn't really getting paid but I was there helping out and I get and get free meal and drinks and you know all that stuff and I loved being there I loved the place it is yeah pretty much the only building that I ever loved the only room that I ever loved was that comedy club that's it only place that I ever loved I liked it

way better than this flat you know this that was more of a home in some ways that felt more like a home to me than anywhere else had ever been and maybe it's because I'd spent a lot of time there over 20 years or however long it was but I loved the place anyway it's gone now so that's that but the yeah when the first when I first started working there I had zero confidence and the year the year I'd had was just ridiculous ridiculous ridiculous year way worse than last year was for me like

put on a personal level and just I forgot I was even a man really I just forgot and I think it was the Christmas period so I went through a few months September October November and December came and I've told this story before but a lady jumped through the DJ booth window there's no windows a hatch you know a bit there's no window but it was a gap and she jumped through it landed on me and started kissing me and I pushed her away because I'd like it was I was in shock I was I

didn't wean myself but I was definitely in shock so I pushed her away I said I said what you doing why are you kissing me and she said boy what's wrong with you why wouldn't I want to kiss you something clicked something changed in my head instantly because she was a very attractive woman you know it's not like she was a hunchback or not there's anything wrong with hunchbacks I think they're lovely but she you know she didn't have three or three eyes I don't know I don't know we shoot people with three eyes I

let that third eye it's beautiful it's a beautiful thing but she was human you know I got nothing wrong with the people that don't look human I mean sometimes it nothing gets nothing gets me more excited than then a blob from space it's I like that but just she was a lovely human being and it's nice and I thought yeah wait a minute what is wrong with me it's nothing wrong with me I'm a young man I was only 27 I was young I was young I was in my prime really physically romantically I was

in my prime I was fit I was healthy ish I guess and I thought you know what you're right there isn't anything wrong with me yeah so what I did is I saw the year out and I don't think I might have talked to a few girls or women but I didn't I don't think I kissed anyone else because she was the first person that I kissed I think in the club as a DJ and in the January I came back I had a haircut I was better groomed I'd you know I think I had

a shave I was wearing some better clothes so I put an effort in and I was smiling a smile goes a long way in fact a smile I mean the word smile has mile in it doesn't it it's quite a distance and from that moment onwards my attitude changed and it seemed like women's attitudes towards me changed and I was getting more and more women coming up to me you know asking for songs and then a stand there holding my hand and number one really liked her really liked this lady I only met her for

a very short period of time but it was there's something about her I really liked just I don't know God if there's quite a connection and she kissed me on the lips and I was like okay and it was lovely it's really nice and then I went back for more I went for another kiss she said oh no my husband's over there I thought what so she did it in a way that couldn't be seen and I don't know what part of the room it's like how could you come and kiss a complete stranger when

your husband's sitting down see I wouldn't have kissed I wouldn't kiss someone as a husband and especially if they were in the same room it's just weird Andre Andre Andre's here hello mate oh hello baby oh my little beautiful boy you all right yeah I think what he wants is he wants his breakfast it sometimes feels that my only interaction with this little ferret is when I get him his dinner and his breakfast and change his water the rest of the time it just seems to be asleep which is natural this time of year he

sleeps probably I'd say 18 hours a day if not more spends most of his time asleep you know he has his periods when he's up and he's playing around and doing stuff but he's not far from being asleep and just like now he's laying on me I'm just stroking his tummy I think he's falling asleep are you falling asleep he just leaned back and looked up at me I'm not asleep daddy don't be fooled I'm not asleep I'm always watching I'm always keeping an eye on you you all right baby yeah all right thing is

I'd kind of like I'd like him to be a bit more affectionate sometimes but at the same time I'm so glad he's not needy I can't be bothered with needy honestly like oh I need to be with you all the time I need you to always be here oh I need your attention all the time nah I've got no time for that and he's got no time for that if anything out the two of us I'm the one that's the most needy because you know I'll pick him up and I want to cuddle and he's

like get off me get off me leave me alone what's the point in telling you all the people that listen to you on that podcast that I need 18 hours of sleep if you're gonna keep interrupting my sleep okay I'm sorry so he's not needy but I just love him anyway I don't know why I don't know why I love you so much I guess we've just been together for so long haven't we over five years every day day in day out with each other hmm you're a good boy aren't you sometimes all the time

you naughty little monkey aren't you yeah I know I see what you get up to yeah I do are you shaking fella okay I'll stop what's that he's shaking his head he's been shaking a lot lately and I don't know it's like he's cold but he's not cold he can't be cold the one thing it's not in this flat of mine is cold I don't let it get cold and he's gotta be warmer than me anyway with his you know fur coat on but maybe when he's asleep and he's really you're right he's making some

weird noises are you okay baby what's going on with you why are you making weird noises for maybe the when he's asleep especially when he's really deep I guess his pulse rate goes down his body temperature reduces a lot so maybe he you know when he wakes up he needs to go to the toilet or he just gets up quickly maybe his body takes a while to to get back and that's why he's shivering because he doesn't do it when he's inside my jacket no shaking at all trying to get inside my jacket that's it

now he's inside my jacket no he's not shaking not at all a little bit there okay but he's got body heat he's resting against my he's shaking now blimey that wasn't a good example is it why are you shaking so much I don't like it I don't like it when you shake I don't like it I want you to be I don't know what I want you to be what do I want you to be I want you to be happy I want you to be healthy and I'd like you to be able to clean

up after yourself that's what I would like like I'd like you to be able to do the washing up are you alright I don't know it's weird because normally when I've got him down my jacket like this he keeps trying to get away but he's not he's just laying there with me but looking up at me what's going on with you are you cold you shouldn't be cold I mean you've got my big fat belly keeping you warm it's like cuddling up with a walrus you should be nice and warm mm-hmm yeah nice and warm

nice and cozy yeah like a little butterfly I could cuddle him forever you know that's the one thing I probably enjoy most is cuddling him which is why if I ever did get a dog it'd have to be a tiny little dog so I could cuddle him having a big dog is just to me well you know especially if you haven't got the room it's ridiculous have a dog that's you know the size of the table what's the point in that knocking stuff over all the time I'd have a little dog a little lap dog

that way I can cuddle him or her alright mate you okay you're a good boy you know you're daddy's little boy yeah I love you you give me kisses oh that's my second favorite thing next to cuddles he did say to me once he said daddy is cuddling me really your favorite thing I said yeah he said that's really sad he's so rude oh you want to get down go on then get down there now he's scratching himself I thought he'd fix his caught fleas off me cheeky little thing well it's kind of taken us

to the to the end of the recording really in a way kind of see yesterday I had 8720 downloads today and it's 515 in the morning I've already had 2246 downloads blimey that's ridiculous in there it's only quarter past five in the morning so that's in the last four hours it starts about 1.

30 so blimey it's all I can say for that one blimey muck blimey how on earth how on earth well I can't forget the feeling that you've done for me this evening but I guess it's just the way the story goes right I'm gonna go um not much else happening really oh he wants me to get him some food he just stares at me and he moves blimey you know if he could get a remote control to just control me he would honestly he would I saw his internet search and he was looking for it

how to control daddies with remote control to collect my food and change my water and give me cuddles when I want it how can I get him to let go of me and leave me alone when I want to be left alone and sleep there's a very long internet search didn't even know he could type anyway I'm gonna go thank you very much for listening remember to be very kind to yourself because it's very very important to be kind to yourself to look after yourself because you deserve to be happy it's as simple as that

so do something nice to yourself today and every day so I'm gonna go thank you thank you for listening and I will speak to you again tomorrow lots of love bye you