#426 Let me bore you to sleep - Jason Newland (11th June 2020)

Hello and welcome to jasonnewland.com. My name is Jason Newland and this is Let Me Bore You to Sleep. Please only listen and you can safely close your eyes. And I've got an action-packed show for you tonight.

Or should I say today? I'm actually recording this a lot later than I normally do. I normally do them early hours of the morning but it's now 5.30 in the afternoon. There's a reason for that.

Let me see what the reason is. Well, I've got a few shout-outs to do but before I do that, uh, basically Andre, he, it was weird, my friend was up here and Andre was playing with him trying to sort of get his shoes, his slippers basically. And, because my friend's in my bubble, although we keep away from each other.

Oh, the bubble doesn't start till tomorrow does it? Oh no. Anyway, he, Andre was attacking his shoe or his slipper and then Andre went into the kitchen and he came back and he was sliding on the floor, just like pulling himself along with his front legs or his hands. And my friend noticed it before I did.

I was just like, well, I wonder what's going on there. Because he's, he's been, he's done it before and he's always, I just put it down to maybe he had maybe injured himself or, you know, in the past or maybe strained it. The amount of times he just jumps off something and lands, you know, from a height.

I'm surprised he hasn't hurt himself a lot over the years. Well, he continued to do it and his, is it, no, his left back leg, hind leg is not working. And so I held him up.

I had a look at him. I thought, has he got something, you know, maybe he's got a splinter or a nail or something in there, which I mean, I don't know how he'd do that. But, and if he did, surely he'd be causing a lot of fuss.

So I couldn't see anything and sort of, I sort of just touched his legs, everything, and he pulled away a little bit. He still didn't quite like having that leg touched. And then my friend did it.

So I held him, my friend kind of give him a bit of an examination because he's got a lot of experience with ferrets and Andre was going, he was getting very angry. And so he didn't do it when I was doing it to him, but he didn't like it. So we stopped that and I chucked him out the window.

And it started to worry me. This is fairly early in the evening. And it's partly why I didn't make any recordings other than let me bore you to sleep.

And the motivation thing that I did earlier in the day, because I just was very concerned about him and didn't know what to do. Really didn't know what to do. It's like, is it dislocated? Will it, will he just push it back in himself, you know, by what he does and, you know, walking along.

He still wanted to go out for a walk. That's what I couldn't understand. It doesn't seem to be, it doesn't seem to be emotionally affecting him.

That might just be because of his determination. I mean, nothing gets in the way of what he wants. He never gives up ever, which is a great quality.

And if my, if one of my legs just stopped working, at the very least, I'd be feeling sorry for myself. You know, I'd be, I wouldn't be thinking, that's it, I'm still going out. I'll drag myself along.

Mind you, I don't have the strength in my arms that he has in his, in his arms, in comparison, because he's used to, he's got a lot of strength in his front hands, his front arms. Of course, I'm stronger than him, but in, you know, if he was my size, he'd be stronger than a lion. Just for the, well, maybe it's something his jaw would, his jaw strength would be.

He's very strong. So he can carry his body around. And when he's outside, he's literally, he's dragging his whole of his back along.

He doesn't, he's not even using his other leg. So I took him out last night, only because he wanted to. And then I took him out again today, again, only because he was begging me to take him out.

So I did. I was happy to walk around with him, just carrying him. But he didn't want that.

He wanted to get down. He wanted to sniff around and rub himself against everything and roll around in the mud and everything like that. And then when he wanted me to carry him, he just let me know.

So I didn't know what to do. And well, you know, the first thing I went on, well, my friend did say, well, don't you just check up online, see what it could be. And it's not always a good idea to check up medical or possible medical conditions because that always goes really extreme, which didn't make me feel, I didn't feel very relaxed afterwards, if I'm honest.

But it did push me to call the vets, which I was going to do anyway. I was going to leave it a couple of days to see if it kind of corrected itself like it has done previously, but it's never been this bad before. This is the worst I've ever seen him.

And I thought, no, I can't ignore it, you know, because I was like last night, I thought, well, just see, he'll sleep, see if he kind of corrects itself. If it's dislocated, maybe he'll go back in during his sleep and he'll be fine tomorrow. He wasn't, but today's tomorrow, you know, yesterday.

So I called the vets and they said, oh, we've got no appointments today or tomorrow. We've only got one specialist vet who can see a ferret and he might not be at this particular vet, you know, surgery, but he might be at another one in town. And the person on the phone said, well, what you can do is you can bring him to us and we'll keep him until the vet is able to see him and then you can come back tomorrow and collect him.

And I just said, I can't do that. If he was having breathing problems, yeah, if it was like an emergency like that, I had no choice, but if that was the case, I'd have just gone straight to the vets anyway, I wouldn't have phoned. But I think the emotional trauma for him to be suddenly taken away from me, stuck in a cage in a complete new place where he doesn't know anybody for, you know, 12 hours or 20 hours or whatever.

I don't think that would be very good for him. I don't feel very good for me either. I don't mean being stuck in a cage for 20 hours, but not having him here, not knowing, you know, how he is.

So, but I was thinking of him more, just imagine what it'd be like, me going there, handing him over to someone I don't know, and then him being taken into, you know, just put in a cage until he's able to be seen. And then a vet comes along who he doesn't know, is examining him. You know, it's just, no, I can't do that.

So, I got an appointment for Monday morning. Now, if he gets worse, if he got ill, you know, so he was physically ill, I'd have to sort of take him in emergency. But the appointment's on Monday.

And I said, okay, well, you know, as long as I can be there with him and hold, not hold his hand, but as long as he can see me, he'll be fine. And they said, no, you can't come into the, you can't come into the vets. I said, what do you mean? They said, but you're not allowed in.

You have to stay outside. We'll come out and collect him. The vet will examine him.

And then we'll come back outside and tell you what the situation is, how much it's going to cost. You can hear that coughing in the background. There's a lot more sound around this time of the day in the background.

So that seems really weird. I mean, it isn't part of you take your kids to the doctors that you can be there emotionally for them as support, but also you can talk for them. So, well, this is what's going on.

You know, this is how they are. And it's how they normally are. It's how they are now.

I'm not going to be able to do that. That's very, very weird. I mean, he's been to the vets twice, one just for checkup and one when he had a chest infection when he was a baby.

And both times, you know, he wanted me there. Well, I think he did. Maybe he didn't.

Maybe he didn't care. Who knows? Maybe he was looking forward to a new family. But yeah, so that's the situation.

I said to him, how much is it going to cost? And he said, well, it's going to cost, I think, 30, I don't know if it's 36 pounds, 39 pounds, something like that, just for the appointment. And then whatever else on top, treatment, medication, whatever. So I'm just thinking, what will they do? Will they keep him if I don't pay? If I haven't got the money there and then to pay for the treatment, I have to do a reset or something.

I have to put him, not to sleep sleep, but you know, anesthetize. And that could cost a lot of money. What if he needs an operation? Oh, man.

Hopefully, none of that will happen. And yes, I'm not quite sure what I'm going to do there. But it's really weird.

He still wants to go out, but he's not able to go to the toilet properly. He can go to the toilet, but it's because he has to hold himself up when he goes to the toilet. He can't do that anymore.

Normally, I don't want to go into graphic detail, but normally you see him and he's always facing me and his bum's sticking right up in the air, his tail's straight up. And it's really clean. And he comes in and he wipes his bum on the carpet.

Lovely. And this morning, he wasn't able to do that. And that's when I knew I needed to call a vet because if he can't, you know, I gave him a wash and everything, which I've got no issue with.

I'll wash him every day. And I'll carry him around and, you know, do whatever needs to be done for him. It's just really weird.

So I'm starting to treat him really like a little ill child. And I sort of let him do anything he wants. I even gave him some extra food because he was hungry.

So I gave him food early, took him for a walk. Last night, I actually held the food on my lap while he ate it off the plate. And I just stroked him.

I never do that. He never lets me do that. Normally, if I do that, he'll grab a bit and run off.

But last night, he just sat there. Well, laid there really, but holding himself up with the two front legs and just was eating his dinner. And he ate nearly all of it.

He hasn't done that since he was a baby. Because I used to sort of spoon feed him when he was a baby. And then he started eating.

Well, I think I started off and he'd eat out of my hand. And then I used to spoon feed him. And then I used to feed him out of a bowl and I'd like hold him when he did it.

And eventually he just would eat himself. But now, it's really weird. I'm treating him like this little, like his little baby again.

So I'm kind of spoiling him a little bit. So he wanted to go out. I took him out.

I can't put him in a cage because it's quite a high cage, which is fine. Normally, he's not going to be able to walk up those ramps. So I'll leave him out and stay with him until Monday.

I'll go out if I need to, to the shops, but generally stay with him most of the time and take him out whenever he wants to go out, even if it's just for 10 minutes. And just, you know, try and keep him emotionally happy. But he has been making some weird noise when he's asleep.

Well, he is now actually. He's like, like that. But that's the latest on Andre.

And I don't pray, but if I did, I'd definitely be praying for him to be well. It's just the worst part of the internet is there's so many things it could be. Some of which are really awful.

Some of which are just, it could be just simply that he could have arthritis and he's five, but he's in middle age now. So he could have arthritis. He could have just injured it, could have sprained it, could have.

And it can happen to ferrets that are overweight. And he is heavy, but he's very active. He goes for walks every single day, walks for miles and miles.

He's not in a cage. He hardly ever goes in the cage. Running around here.

He's not fat, you know, I mean, he's not like really overweight in that way. And, but maybe, maybe he is. Maybe his body is too big for his legs.

I don't know. It's possible, isn't it? So yeah, so I'll, I'll update anyone who's interested on Monday when I've been to the vets at 1030 in the morning, man. And I've got some, I'll do shout outs.

I've got a few shout outs to do. First of all, I want to say a huge thank you to Lilith, who sent me some stuff from my wishlist. And just like, all I'm going to say is, wow, thank you very much.

And, and yeah, it's amazing. So I'm really, really, really appreciate your kindness. Thank you.

And I've already, I've already sent a message to her anyway, but I just like, it was amazing. And see what other people I've got messages from. I've got some messages from Facebook.

Bum, bum, bum, bum, bum. From Rachel. Okay.

Don't read this out loud. Okay. I'm not going to read that out loud.

You can read this on a podcast. Rachel, you're very considerate the way you tell me what I'm allowed and not allowed to read out. And I will follow your instructions.

So this is from Rachel. There's a picture of me. It's on one of my podcasts where I'm lying down in a bed.

And she says, this is the picture I first seen about 14 months ago when I was searching for something to help me sleep. I still don't know who he is. I said, yeah, it looks familiar.

Very handsome young man. She said, can you take the same photo now? I said, it wasn't that long ago. She said it looks very different.

It was from Vimeo. What? Vimeo, 65,000 followers. So that would be Vimeo, not me, wouldn't it? No doubt.

Oh, I wonder. No. Imagine if I had 65,000 followers on a website thing that I don't even use.

Just found this and I see you now. It's a picture of my nan. So I'd love it.

So Rachel was looking through the internet, finding pictures of me. What are you doing? What are you doing? I don't know if I read out the message from, yeah, was it Wednesday from Katrina? Yeah, I read out that message. There are a few.

Shut up, Andre. I mean, oh, baby Andre. Oh, that's just a message from Jen.

Just has been cleaning out our shed, garden shed. So it's making use of the nice weather or the time, I suppose, isn't it? Wow. Boston says not in the mood.

Come at me. That's on a Facebook page, so I won't. I'm scared.

So I had other messages. These are from, here we go. Naomi says, it says, oh yeah, she said, because I gave a message, a shout out for Naomi.

She says, I heard it last night. Thank you for putting it close to the beginning. Could you imagine trying to stay awake through the whole podcast with the intent to help you sleep? I'll be up for the challenge, as crazy as it sounds.

I tried to do stuff in the beginning, but someone else mentioned a similar thing. And this is Kerry says, we haven't heard your shout out. We may well have fallen asleep.

Could you do one on the next recording, near the beginning, as Jax missed you and Andre. Been listening for three months. Happy to introduce me to you as we have issues sleeping.

Thanks to Jax. So thank you, Jax. And so I'll do another shout out for Jackson and Poppy.

Hi Poppy, or Pops, and hi Jax. From Andre. Andre sends his love.

Yeah. Trying to finish any other messages. Three notifications.

Inbox. Oh, I did get a message. Yeah.

Hi, Jason. This is from Ali. Hi, Jason.

Hope you're well. I've been listening to your podcast now since February. I started listening because of sleepless nights.

Now listen most nights as going to sleep. Love this community you've created. Keep boring us, Ali.

Thank you, Ali. It's very kind of you. And I bet I've replied to that.

Thank you. Yeah, so it's done. And Linda.

Okay, cool. So also want to say thank you to Jen, who sent me something from my Amazon wishlist as well. So thank you very much.

I was going to mention it yesterday, but I forgot. So I apologize for that. But I'm saying thank you now.

I do also apologize. I also do thank say thank you to the people as well. I don't just do it on these.

I'll try not to. And I have some other stuff to tell you as well. And I've been, for those who are mildly interested, I have been trying to sort out the whole advert thing, you know, on my website, or not my website on my main podcasts.

So I've come up with a solution. A solution, I tell you. Oh, yes.

So the I've got another I've got two new websites. They're not complete yet. One's live, but it's not complete.

And the other one's nearly complete, but it's not live, which is a bit of a weird thing. So basically, I've got let me bore you to sleep podcast. But it's a website.

But it's still in the format of a podcast. So you could go directly there and listen to all my let me bore you to sleep recordings without any adverts. Totally free.

However, I've only got about eight uploaded at the moment. So I've got another 430 left. But I'm working on it.

So I should have it done in the next couple of days. And the address for that is one that I can't remember. And the reason I can't remember it because it's just the initials of the podcast.

So it's lmbyts.com. lmbyts.com. The base is the first letter of each word. So let me bore you to sleep.com. But lb, blah, blah, lmb. See, I have to write it on my wall because I still can't remember it.

But some people actually do that. They put down the initials of it when they talk about it. So you know, I was looking for a domain name for the podcast.

And my intention is to keep that website for at least a year minimum, I'll pay for the podcast domain name for a year. And I'm gonna pay in $14 a month for the podcast hosting. And that's all my, my idea is I'm gonna keep that going for a year.

And so the let me bore you to sleep website will be there. It is up and running live already. I mean, I can actually look it up now.

As I go. I'm just gonna have to remember it. Let's I've got it is lmbyts.

lmbyts.com. And as soon as I click on it, the website's there. I've got 11 recordings. So yeah, so that's it.

There's it's very basic. And when you do it, when you go to it on your phone, it just gives you the opportunity to open in your Podbean podcast app player. Because Podbean is who I use for this.

And you don't have to, because basically, you can just use it. It's very basic. It's got a picture, let me bore you to sleep.

And you can share it and there's the feed and there's, and that's it. So it's a podcast, it's just a podcast. But it means you can listen without any adverts, which is what some people want to do.

So cool. There you go. And I'm not intending to share it anywhere else.

It's just going to be on that website. lmbyts.com. What a silly name. lmbyts.

Now the other one is going to be called Jason Newland podcast.com. I say it's going to be called that is what it's what it is called. But I'm waiting for it to connect. So it might take a few hours before that's done.

Well, another day or so because it can take up to 48 hours. And that is everything. That's all of my recordings, all broken up into categories.

From the one hour, you know, recordings, seven days, cure insomnia or everything, including let me bore you to sleep, deep sleep, whisper, relaxation for stress, anxiety, sleep hypnosis weekly, all my relaxation sessions, all of the whole thing, everything, all into categories, and all in one place. And that's also free from adverts as well. And that will be Jason Newland podcast.com. So yes, I've got that domain for a and again paying $14 a month for the podcast hosting for that.

But I'm making I've actually spent months putting that one together. It's a lot of uploading to do. And it's nearly ready.

Probably about 100. Let me bore you to sleep, left to upload, and then it'll be complete. And by then, which will probably be tomorrow.

Sometime I will then be able to connect the domain to the podcast, and it'll be up and running. It will be groovy. Oh, yes.

So hope that's useful stuff. It just means that you can listen. For those that are happy to listen with adverts, which helps to cover the cost of everything.

But those that don't want to can just listen without. And part of the reason I did the the Jason Newland podcast.com is because there's quite a few people that have helped me out. And like PayPal gifts or the wish list, things like that.

And I wanted to give something back to those people. So they can still listen without adverts. They can, you know, even though the one recordings without, with adverts are still free.

It's just nice to just give that extra. Does that make sense? It makes sense to me. So I will, I've nearly completed one.

And the LBTM, LRBS, whatever.com, that one will be, it's live now. But there's only 11 recordings on there, but it will have all of the recordings. And what I'll probably do is break them up by month.

So easier to sort of like find stuff, maybe, I don't know, see how I feel. Or maybe break them up by in groups of like 50. You know, just just to make it a little bit easier to sort of sift through what what you want to find.

Also, what I'm thinking of doing is once I've done this, I'll embed the players from the Jason Newland podcast.com and embed the recordings into my jasonnewland.com website to give people the option of listening with adverts or without on my website as well. So it's quite a bit of a task, but I've been experimenting with it over the last few weeks. So I know how to do it.

And I know, you know, roughly how it's going to look. And yeah, so that's good. And so that's the main reason I did the Jason Newland podcast.com. I was going to just keep it private.

Only for people that have helped me out and you know, and sort of supported me. But you know, everyone supports me in their own way. You support me by listening.

You support me by sharing the recordings on Facebook or with your friends, telling people about it, this or whatever podcasts that I do. So, you know, support comes in different ways, doesn't it? And just by listening, you're supporting my life, really supporting my, my health, because this is good for my health doing this. And maybe not today, but generally, you know, making recordings, hopefully helping people makes it gives my life purpose.

So sorry, this isn't a very funny recording this. I'm so serious today. I tell you what, if I'd have done this, if I'd have made a recording early hours in the morning, it would have been awful, because all I was thinking about was Andre.

And now that I've got the vets organized, it's for Monday, I'm kind of, it's only three days away. So it's Thursday tomorrow, three days, and then he'll be there. I just, it's really, I know how much I love him, but I just really, because he's been a little bit not clingy, because he's, you know, he's sleeping behind the doors.

He's not interested in me at the moment. But he has been showing quite, he's been quite affectionate, more than normal. And I just can't stop cuddling and kissing him, just, I don't know, just there's something I just love that little ferret so much.

Which is a sentence I know, if it is, you know, 10 years ago, I probably would have really worried about if you told me, you know, one day you're going to be telling people, thousands of people online that you love a ferret. No, I won't. Yeah, you will.

No, I won't. Yes, you will. It'd be strange.

But I do, I think he taught me unconditional love. And I don't think I had it before. Or maybe it's for my nan.

But it was easier. I think it's easier to have it for someone that you don't spend a lot of time with. Because I didn't see her that often.

You know, I didn't live with her. But to have it for Andre, when he's so naughty sometimes, and he even today's trashed the place a little bit. And to still just have this, even though sometimes there's anger, and there's real frustration with him.

And I'm sure he feels the same to me. I've still got this huge, like part of me that feels connected to him. Which is strange.

He's a ferret. You know, it's, I don't really get it. I don't want to question it.

I mean, he's my son. And I was speaking to a friend earlier. And she's, she's got a little girl, dog, little girl dog, who broke her leg, being chased by another dog.

And she kind of said the same thing. Like, because we're both, she's about a year older than me. So both sort of same age group.

And she said, Yeah, these are our children. Because neither of us have had any children. So these, because I suppose it is just feelings, isn't it? It's just feelings and emotions, that are connected to a living thing.

And some people have it towards something that isn't living. An inanimate object. An inanimate object.

That's it. I don't generally have that. Although, when I was at school... Good.

Now Jay, 41 minutes in, now we can start hearing some of your stupid pointless stories. Oh, that's all the serious stuff out of my head. When I was at school, I had a... I can't remember what it was.

I think it might have been a marble. Might have been a marble or a sandwich. One of them.

Anyway, I was in the toilet. And it wasn't that sandwich wasn't in, not inside the toilet. I was in the toilet.

Like washing my hands or pretending to wash my hands, because there's someone else there. And someone came into the toilet. So it might have been someone I knew, someone I didn't know.

I was probably 11 at the time. And he swapped a little... Basically, he had this little mouse. It was made of wood and had a little felt tail and two little felt ears.

It was a tiny little thing. And I think he told me that it was good luck or it was magical. I don't know.

I can't remember. Or he might have just said it's a big old thing. I didn't need help carrying it home.

I didn't have to rent a trailer, stick on the back of my bike. It was just a tiny little thing. And I took it everywhere for ages and ages and ages.

I loved that little mouse. And it was an inanimate object. Yeah, I loved it.

Probably more than any human person. Perhaps it's because it was unconditional love. Of course, it was one way.

However, I think that makes unconditional love a lot easier if it's one way. If you don't, because it's kind of... If you love an object like a little wooden mouse or, I don't know, a piggy bank or a rusty nail on the floor, why would you love a rusty nail? But maybe if someone did. There's a degree you can't be disappointed.

Oh dear, where am I going with this? You know, you can never be disappointed by a rusty nail. Otherwise, you know, it can never tell you off. It can never be rude to you.

It can never... There's no emotional things from that object. So maybe it's a little bit easier, or maybe back then when I was younger, to have that love. And maybe that's why I had so much love for my books.

I still do love my books. Because they're there. It's almost like they're for me.

I know they haven't been written just for me, but I think sometimes I like to pretend they have. Because I'm that important, you know. Someone's going to spend all that time writing one book just for me.

Wow. That's an ego, isn't it? That's one heck of an ego. So that little mouse, he... Well, I don't know.

Boy or girl, I don't think I was really that bothered. We didn't go dating or anything. It was just my friend.

And I lost him. I don't know where. I don't know when.

If I'd have written it in my diary, I could tell you when. Because I remember the day. I don't remember the day, but I did at the time.

I was very aware that I'd lost him. Because I used to stroke him. Sometimes I'd stroke him inside my pants.

So I'd put my hands in my pockets and give him a nice stroke. And it comforted me. It was a comfort.

And I called him Willie. That's the name I gave him. Willie the mouse, which wasn't ideal, especially in maths class.

I remember my teacher saying, what are you doing? I said, I'm just stroking Willie. What are you doing under the desk? I'm stroking Willie. And like, it's my mouse.

I said, I can get my Willie out and stroke it. So you can see, my teacher sent me to the headmistress. It's a little mouse.

It's like, all the other kids were saying, it's his mouse. Everyone knew. She didn't know though.

When I was going around telling him, do you like to stroke my Willie? Like, it's little Willie the mouse. It's like, I love that little mouse. Seriously.

You might think I'm just making all this stuff up. But I love that little mouse. Which is weird because I was petrified of mice.

But I'm not quite, I'm not. It's hard to be too scared of mouse, mices or rats when you've got something like him running around. Who's way more ferocious than any mouse or rat you'll ever meet.

I mean, he's, if you know, in the wild I mean. But he's not, he's a gentle little baby to me. But it's, I felt good when I stroked it.

I felt calmer. Because I used to be quite an uptight child. Used to really build up my emotions.

And when I stroked him, when I stroked my little Willie, it just, it was definitely a release. It was a little mouse. I used to stroke my little mouse.

He used to give me a release of emotions. It was very calming for me. So never really found a replacement.

And then I think Andre has replaced him in a way. In a sense of, because I thought that and I remember I was cuddling him once. This is a couple of years back.

And I thought, you know, stroking's him like stroking, like stroking my Willie. I remember. It's just, it's that kind of, because I used to hold him so he was looking at me.

And he actually lost one of his eyes. So he only had one eye that he looked up for. He's one good guy.

And I used to just stroke, stroke the head and just, I know it was made of wood, but I felt like he was smiling at me. You know, very nice. I loved, I loved my little, my little mouse.

I never had any real pets. And I had a goldfish when I was about, I think I was about seven. Had a goldfish that I won from the fate.

I think it was the the summer fate in my town that I lived. And I used to love the summer fate. Because I was so little, everything else was big.

I mean, I can't stress how little I was. I was always, you know, when you see a kid and you think that kid's really little, that was me. So I just had a little, just had to stop then for a second, put it on pause.

Had a knock on the door. So yeah, it's, it's not weird those days when you've got kind of really good things happen and things are kind of. So it's life, isn't it? Yeah, man.

I'll tell you what I started watching. If anyone's interested, I started watching a TV show called Timeless. I think it's on Netflix.

Never seen it before. And it's about these time travellers, but they don't really want to be time travellers. Basically, they're kind of pushed into it.

And it's starting to get good. I've seen, I'm near the end of the second episode. And it's quite good.

I quite like it because it's based on historical events. So it's got my little brain working on sort of, oh, okay, let's sort of check up some facts to see whether or not they're correct in their numbers and the things that they're saying. So I find it quite interesting from that perspective.

Yeah, I've realised. And it's a shame. It's a shame, but I struggled to watch the same things more than once.

Some things I can. There's some comedy shows I can watch. It's more from the warm hearted feeling I have, especially stuff maybe from, you know, long times ago, like Only Fools and Horses, Cheers.

The Golden Girls is now on TV, on Channel 5, I think. And you know what I didn't realise? So in my memory, all four of the Golden Girls are funny in the show. You know, you've got Blanche, Rose, Rose is a kind of, I don't want to use the word, no, not Rose, Blanche, Rose, I don't know whatever the names are.

But you got the old one, like the really old one, who kind of became the star of the show in some ways, because she was about 130 in that show. And then she did Don't Shoot or My Mum Will Shout at You or something with Sylvester Stallone. And of course, Betty White was already a huge star anyway, like a veteran at that point.

But according, apparently they all were. And it's Dilla, the one that was the funny, well, the ones I've been watching, because Blanche was the flirt, all men loved her and everything. And the one that, I wasn't sure if it was actually a man or if she was actually a man, when I first watched it when I was a kid, because she had a really deep voice, it wasn't a man.

And the reason for that is because when I was a kid, there was a lot of men dressing up as women on comedy shows and stuff, like Dick Emery and Dick Van Dyke, Danny LaRue, Kenny Everett, I'm trying to think what other, but yeah, there's quite a few TV shows. Even some of the old films, the St. Trinidad films, the main character was a woman, but it was actually a man playing a woman. So I didn't know.

But what I noticed, the two things I noticed when I've been watching it back, I've not seen the show for probably 20 years, because it was on in the 80s, wasn't it? Huge, huge show, The Golden Girls. The tall one, who's, I can't remember her name, that's got really quite a deep voice. Two things I've noticed, beautiful eyes, beautiful eyes.

And again, she's like in her 80s, 70s or whatever then. And she also, she was the funniest one in the episodes I've seen, her put downs. And I think she was actually a stand up comedian in the past.

Well, I think it was in the past, isn't it? But I was searching it. Golden Girls. Girls.

Something Diller, I'm sure her name was something Diller. Let me have a look. No, not at all.

So you have Betty White, who's Rose. Dorothy, who's Beatrice Arthur, who I'm talking about. Ru McClanahan, who's Blanche.

Estelle Getty was Sophia. And then you had Herb Edelman, who is Stanley, who was Beatrice's ex-husband. Anyway, Beatrice Arthur.

I'm sure she was a stand up. Let me just check. I might be wrong.

I might. Wow. Really? I can't believe it.

She had amazing eyes. I'm just looking at a picture of her when she was young as well, in 1943. And she still, I mean, obviously she still had the same eyes when she was older, but I've never noticed them before.

If you check out Bea Arthur, look at her eyes. Absolutely stunning. Something quite amazing.

I'm in love with her. So filmography, TV. It's really weird though, because she was in the Golden Girls from 85 to 92.

85 to 92. She died in 86. How can that be right? Oh no, she was 86 when she died.

Sorry. She died in 2009. So let's see if she was a comedian.

Her career. Early career. I'm sure she was.

I might be wrong. She made her debut as a speaker role. In 1947, she studied the dramatic workshop of the New School in New York.

Would she bet? No. I mean, unless she was, but she also, she starred in films, Woody Allen's films, opposite Lucille Ball. All kinds of stuff like in the early, earlier career.

Wow. Was she, her delivery of jokes. It all, I mean, it really sounds like it's her talking.

I might know it's her talking. It didn't overdub her voice. I mean, obviously, but can we find someone with a really, really deep voice? I couldn't believe it.

Like how funny she is in her interaction, especially with the flirty one, Blanche. Because Blanche was, it's just really weird. None of them are with us anymore, but they're just Ru McClanahan, Beatrice Estelle.

And they're all funny. Ru was, Blanche was more funny because of the, I think like laughing at her, because always sort of flirting and all that stuff. And, you know, but Betty or Rose always saying silly things and really like catching on really late onto stuff, but at the same time being really, really sweet and gentle.

A little bit like Woody from Cheers, you know, or Coach from Cheers, but very kind of, not really, you know, not really on the ball, but at the same time, really sort of sweet and kind. And then Sophia, she was just horrible. But because she was so old and she just, it was, she, I think she shouted the loudest.

She almost took over the show. I'm really just quite surprised having watched it recently. Dorothy or Beatrice Arthur, so funny.

The put downs and, and I know it's not her, obviously it's written for her, but what a great actress to be able to do that. And it sounds really like it's her. I mean, I do wonder, I mean, if I see someone that I would have quite liked to have met, not because of her eyes, just because of to see if she, someone that was at, I don't know.

I just, some people play the character of who they are. I think some actors really, they get lucky where they, they get a character and they get fed the lines that they would perhaps naturally, that comes naturally to them. It just seems really natural.

I mean, it's a little bit like, what's his name? From Doctor Who. What was his name? The Scottish Doctor Who. Yeah, David Tennant.

So when David Tennant took over from Doctor Who, he was, I mean, he was a time traveler. It's so obvious that he, that he, that was his persona as a time traveler. And it was really good at it.

And then who else is there? What's his name? Oh, I can't remember his name. Anyway, he's good as well. Anyway, I'm going to go.

Thank you for listening. Remember to be kind to yourself because you deserve to be happy. Lots of love.

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