#338 Let me bore you to sleep - Jason Newland (24th February 2020)

Hello and welcome to jasonnewland.com. My name is Jason Newland and this is Let Me Bore You to Sleep. Please only listen when you can safely close your eyes. Your eyes, not your ice.

I don't know how you close ice but your eyes. And please subscribe to this podcast and if you'd like to send me a PayPal gift you can do at jason, what's it, paypal.me forward slash jasonnuland. And yeah, that's it I think.

So I haven't made a recording for a couple of days. I think Friday was the last time I made a recording of any kind and it's now Monday so I've had the weekend off and I've got gasp. Oh, the thing is I've been way more busier than normal this weekend.

So on Thursday I decided to actually, yeah, decided to definitely force myself to write a book. It's like how do you force yourself to do it? Well I've been wanting to write a book for absolutely years and years and years. And it's changed a bit over time.

I mean when I was a kid I think I wanted to write probably like a superhero book because I, you know, I liked watching Superman and Wonder Woman and stuff like that. Probably when I was in my 20s I would have liked to have written something funny. In my 30s, I don't know, probably more of a kind of a life story kind of thing.

In my 40s, it's moved more into, you know, hypnosis-y stuff. Since 2004 I'm probably more thinking about, you know, putting together something. Maybe, I think I did want to do something on chronic pain.

Do it, like write a book on chronic pain and I was hoping it was going to be, you know, my experience of helping people with chronic pain because back in 2004 I started a free pain relief service in my local town. It didn't get any interest until 2006, that's how long it took. And then it really kind of, exploded is not the right word, but it became kind of popular, fairly popular to the point where I could only see a certain amount of people a week because I was working full-time.

And I was also doing group relaxation sessions and in rehab, alcohol and drug rehab centers, two different places. And so yeah, it was going really well. And I thought about maybe writing a book with pain relief techniques, you know.

But then at the end of 2007, when I moved away from the town and started going to university to study counseling for three years, full-time, full-time, I, even though I still continue to offer the free service locally where I was as I've moved, I didn't get much response. I had a little bit of response, but not much. So my pain relief days helping people one-on-one sort of reduced down to nothing really, which is a shame because that was, did you hear me whistle then? Shame.

And what's a shame is being self-conscious. That's a shame. And I kind of almost moved away from it, even though I still made quite a few pain relief recordings for the internet.

But when I was doing the pain relief one-on-one, I had a hundred percent success rate. And it wasn't about completely getting rid of the pain. It was a pain reduction service.

It was free. And everybody that came to see me told me that they felt that the pain had reduced. Of course, there's no way of knowing, you know, so I might have said that just to not, so that I didn't feel bad or, you know, they might have like been fibbing, you know, but I didn't get that.

I didn't feel that was the case. And anyway, without going into details of that, that was kind of one of the things I was quite interested in doing. I think probably after, not long after 2006, I wanted to write a book about the free service that I offered online and call it, call the title would be Why Is It Free? Because that was the question that I still get asked even today.

And although some people are still, they'll phrase it differently, you know, you know, if you charge one pound or one dollar for each, you know, every download, you get 116,000 downloads a month. You know how much that is? I'm like, no, I don't know how much would that be? So it's kind of, it's hard to kind of get the, well, I'm not sure if I could really make sense of it myself really, but why is it free? I suppose I'm a socialist about realizing it. I don't really class myself as anything.

Just about get my head around being human. But the, I think it's nice to have something that's just available to help or hopefully, you know, help, at least hopefully not hinder, you know what I mean? So that's another book I thought about writing. Why Is It Free? And I've attempted to start writing that book numerous times, you know, even to the point of sitting there writing like 20, 30 pages, A4 sheet size and then eventually just chucking it away because it was silly.

I always seem to start off with, I was a baby when I was born and that kind of stuff. And I had two brothers when I was born and they were both older than me. So it was just this silly, like, oh, sad guy too.

So, yeah, also a few years ago, I thought about writing a book called Life of a Bipolar Hypnotist because that was a blog or a vlog that I used to do years and years ago. And it was the, it's basically just another version of Jason Chats, the video vlog that I used to do on YouTube. And then I started calling it, and I did audios.

So it wasn't always videos, sometimes just audios of me. And I called it Life of a Bipolar Hypnotist and I would just talk. And then I stopped doing that.

So that was kind of, I thought that'd be quite good names for my biography or autobiography. I don't know what's autobiography or biography. I don't know which is which.

Isn't autobiography what you write yourself? And a biography is what someone else writes, I think, about the person. Anyway, it'd be that. Now what I thought is I might do that, but it's going to be called something else.

And I've got a new name for the book. I've written it down on my whiteboard in the kitchen, just to remind me of what it is. And there is no other book with that title.

I've searched. There's no, it's an original title. So I'm quite pleased about that.

I don't think there's a book called Life of a Bipolar Hypnotist either. But I'm kind of impressed with the new title I've got, because it's a play on a cliche. And I do like to look at cliches and break them down.

And mock them. It's one of my favorite things, really. Especially as a lot of cliches are very limiting.

You know, people, well, I don't know, they just seem to be very limiting on people. And almost like, you know, we're raised with these cliches. No smoke without fire.

That kind of stuff. Like, okay. So basically, no smoke without fire means everybody's guilty.

If they're accused. That's basically what that means. And it's the most ridiculous thing in the world.

Yet people still say it. Some people. No smoke without fire.

So everybody's guilty. Everyone, you know. That's someone, that's why someone on a jury, someone that's been, you know, on jury service, needs to be checked.

Because, you know, imagine you're in court and the jury's full of people that think there's no smoke without fire. How scary would that be? Anyway, so I quite like, quite like to do a book on that. And I've talked about quite a few of them.

So I might be able to have enough for a little book on that stuff. And I did have a recording called Stupidstitions. So that might be quite a good title for a book.

That's what I was talking about. Superstitions and, again, very limiting. Without people realizing that actually, anyway, I don't want to talk about that.

But you get me started on superstitions, stupidstitions. And I'll be here all night. I'll be here literally all night long.

Which some people might like, but it's not fair. It's not fair. So I've got that idea.

Another thing I'd like to do is maybe, and this isn't an original idea, but it'd just be original because it's me doing it. What do I mean by that? Well, what would it be? What it would be would be a book to read that's really boring. So let me bore you to sleep.

But a book with some really boring stories. Now, that's not an original idea. The title would be original because let me bore you to sleep.

I'm the only one with a podcast called that. But there's one called Sleep With Me. There's another couple of ones with the word sleep in it.

But, you know, let me bore you to sleep. That's the title of my podcast. And no one else has a podcast with that title.

And so I thought maybe I could write a book based on some of the things I've talked about. And of course, you know, someone else has written a book of boring stories to read that will hopefully send you to sleep. And let's face it, bedtime stories have been around for hundreds of years, haven't they? And they were never supposed to get you excited or they were supposed to kind of be a bit to send the child to sleep.

Possibly. And I don't remember having bedtime stories, but I'm sure I must have done. I had a wonderful stepmom when I was... Stepmom? Yeah, she was my second mother.

Third mother I have. Yeah, third really. Because I had foster parents for about a year and a half.

So she was my second mother, wasn't she? And then the third mother was my dad's second wife. It's complicated, but she was lovely. And so from the age of seven to 15, she was kind of my mom.

And so what's that? Eight years? Seven, eight years. And I think she might have read me bedtime stories. I just don't remember it.

I don't know. And my foster parents, they may have read me bedtime stories when I was like one or one and a half. I don't know.

Those memories just aren't there, are they? But apparently they were wonderful. They were lovely people. I should find out where they're still around so I can sort of thank them.

I don't know if the social services were around that. I don't know. Imagine how cool that would be, having this middle-aged fat man with a beard knocking on your door.

Are you my parents? So yeah, I mean they... I don't know how old they are. They might be about 70 in their 70s, maybe a little bit older. So yeah, they might be well and healthy.

So that might be interesting. I'll look into that. Probably won't.

But if you're out there listening, thank you. So they were in Enfield, North London. Maybe about what, 1970, 1971 time.

Yeah. So to write a boring book, I thought would be quite a cool thing to do. The thing is, I'm more of a verbal person than a writey person.

Although I did used to write journals and I spent 20 odd years writing, but didn't have the technology that there is now. We had tape recorders and digital recorders and stuff, but it just wasn't the same. But yeah, now it's more real.

It's more kind of be yourself on a podcast without time limits as well. Because with a CD, I think it's 73 minutes or 78 minutes long for a CD. There's a certain space, time limit.

But there isn't with podcasts. Well, there's a five hour time limit for me. And there's no way I'm going to be talking for five hours.

That's just way too long. Although maybe I should make a five hour one, a particularly long one. So what I decided on Thursday was to transcribe my recordings.

So I ordered, well, first of all, I'm using a thing called podcast.co. That's another podcast that I've got where all of my recordings are on there. Most of the ones that are on there would be the more of the latest ones, like the podcasts are fairly more regular, a lot more up to date. So not everything's on there.

But there's lots, lots, lots. So it's quite weird, actually, because yesterday I had 9,000 downloads of that podcast. But I guess that's more because I've been uploading quite a lot of stuff.

But yeah, 9,000 is quite a lot. So I'll just have to wait and see how that progresses. What's good about that podcast is it offers transcribing service as part of the package.

So it costs me £16 a month for the podcast. And I can transcribe the recordings, and then I can download the transcription. What at the moment, actually, what I do is copy and paste it.

So copy and paste it onto my laptop. And the transcription isn't perfect, it's probably about 70%. Correct, maybe a little bit less, a little bit more depending.

I think a lot of it depends upon the clearness of the recording, the clearness of my speech. So if I'm talking too fast, which is rare, it might not pick up what I'm saying. But also I think by talking maybe too slowly, it also gets a little bit distorted through the transcription.

But that's okay, because it's taken away 70% of the work. And transcribing, actually typing, listening, and typing, and you know, recording, I did it at university and they did not like it. It's way too, just takes way too much time and just not an enjoyable experience.

So what I'm doing, and I ordered, I decided to do this, is to transcribe my recordings, and then print them out, each recording, print it out, and then do corrections. And then go back in and correct, correct the, you know, cut off bits, cut out bits and just correct it. So it makes more sense and it sort of comes together again.

So I thought, how am I going to do this? Because I didn't have a printer. And I knew that if I relied just on doing it off the computer screen, the laptop, I'd maybe do one or two and then I'd get fed up. Because I don't like staring at a computer screen for too long, especially when it comes to reading.

So I ordered a printer off the catalogue on Thursday, and some ink, and I've got some paper cut to come as well. And so the good thing about ordering on the catalogue is I don't have to pay for it yet. I have to pay for it, but not at the moment.

So I just put it onto the account and I'll pay for it over the next few months. Now, the printer arrived on, I think it arrived Friday, unless it arrived yesterday. Yeah, probably Saturday, yeah, probably yesterday.

No, Saturday rather, because Monday now, isn't it? So I think it arrived Saturday. So in the process, the last couple of days, or the last few days, I've been uploading most of my recordings onto the podcast. And then I've been transcribing them.

So I transcribed nearly 200 so far, but that's still on the computer system. And then I've been converting them, copying them, putting them into a Word document. And then I've been printing them.

So I had to set the printer up wireless, and I got 2,500 A4 sheets of paper, and I had four ink cartridges. Two that came with the printer, one colored, one black and white, and two colored ones that I bought separate. Now, I don't need colored ones.

All I need is black and white for the printing. So I started printing off the the transcripts. And I had to put it, I have to kind of format it first and make sure there's a heading at the top, so I know what one's what.

And there's, I'm also sort of, I'm numbering each page, so I don't lose everything. Keep it in order. Also make the size of the font 18, so that I can read it okay.

Otherwise, because originally it was a 12, size 12, and although it costs me less in ink and less paper, it's just for tiny writing, which means, first of all, it's going to be a little bit uncomfortable reading it, but also not much room for making corrections. So I've got a big font, and I think I've done nearly 50, printed out nearly 50 Let Me Boyd Sleep recordings. And I got through three print cartridges, nearly.

I got through two, and I'm on the third one now, and I've got a fourth one that I've not used yet. I don't know how much I've got left of this third one. Oh wow, getting through the art, getting through it so quick, the print.

And they can't be 500 sheets each pad, surely. 10, 5, 500. Yeah, I suppose.

That doesn't seem right. I'm looking at the pad, it doesn't look like they'd be 500. It looks about 200.

Well, if that's correct, I've used about 700 pages already. So, yeah, I've got through quite a lot of ink and paper. So I'm going to be, I'll be keeping this stuff anyway in file, so I'm not wasting it.

And the, at the moment I've got everything stacked on top of each other, because I need to get a stapler. Hopefully tomorrow I go to the cheap shop, so hopefully I'll be able to get a stapler for a pound or something. And then I can start stapling the stuff together so that I don't lose it.

Don't, you know, so that the paper doesn't get all muddled up. I suppose alternatively I could get those hole punchers and put those little, those little green things with the knobs, add the little, they almost look like battens on either, on either end, like tiny little miniature battens. And, yeah, just a way of organizing.

I'm just trying to organize everything. Now I've still got, what, 30, 40, 50, there's 340, I think, 300, I don't know, quite a few of these let me boil to sleep. So I've got, I'm not, I'm not that far into it, but I'm still, you know, still pleased with how much I've done.

But there's clearly a few more days left until this is all sort of printed out. I ordered another 100 print cartridges from the catalogue, because I know I'll run out of ink tomorrow. So they should be with me probably by Tuesday.

Or they'll run out today, rather. Tomorrow they'll probably get here, Wednesday, Tuesday or Wednesday. And the, it's weird, at one point Andre got onto the chair, and the chair was far enough away from the table where the printer is, I thought, and the printer was, you know, going along, grumbling along, you know, spewing out the paper.

And Andre really, like, looked like he was going to jump, and I thought, no, he won't, because he's not going to be able to gauge the distance. But he did, and he did, and he got onto the table. And before I got to him, it stuck his nose into the printer.

And all I heard was, like, grinding, and him, like, running, like, pulling, pulling away, and jumping off the table. So I pick him up, I thought, I hope he's okay. I look at his little nose, I half expect to see, like, he's hurt himself, but nothing.

I just thought, why did he stick his nose in there? I think, basically, what must have happened is the paper probably just pushed out, pushed him in the face, and he didn't know what it was. It's like, what on earth? So I pulled, I've separated the chair and the table, it's way too far away for him to jump. I know there's a space limit to what he'll actually make in an effort, especially when he's so far off the ground.

So he won't be able to get onto it. Plus, it's not running anyway, so even if he did, he can't do anything other than just knock stuff on the floor, which I don't really want him to do, if I'm honest. But he's been hyper, just hyper at the moment, scratching at the front door to get out for the last few days, just constant.

And he's nice and quiet at the moment, but he goes in and out of these periods of just complete restlessness. And the scratching at the front door isn't something that he's done in absolutely ages. So he's smelling something he wants to get to.

I took him out and, you know, straight away wanted to go on the floor, didn't want me holding him. And he was just sniffing around and went to the park and he was sniffing around. And he got tired and he wanted me to carry him, so I carried him.

So I decided I'll walk back. He wanted to get down again after about 20 seconds, put him down and he doesn't want to walk back to the house, he wants to walk a different way. So yeah, I don't know what's going on with him is, because when he's scratching at the door, at the front door, it's almost like his mind's gone.

He's like so focused on that, that he's, I don't know how to explain it, but he's he's not doing it to get my attention. And the reason I know this is because I was watching him. And because I was having a little lay down and I heard this noise and I thought, what's that? So I'm poking it out of the bedroom door and I see him and he's scratching, he's on two legs and he's got his little hands scratching at the top.

And if he wants my attention, what he does, he does stuff like that and then he stops and looks back to see if I've come out or if I'm watching him. He does that in the bedroom. He'll scratch the shed door or he'll bang the shed door continuously and then he'll stop and look over the bed to see if I'm awake or if I'm looking at him.

And if I'm not, he just continues doing it and then he looks back again. And I've watched him do that because I've been in bed facing him so he can't see that I'm awake. And I'm looking through and it's like, I can't believe he's being so naughty, purposely trying to get me out of bed.

But when he was at the door earlier, completely oblivious to me, all he wanted was to find a way out of that door. Very strange. He's been there before, he's been like this.

And at night time sometimes, like in the middle of the night, he'll start doing it. But he hasn't done it for ages. I just, I don't know what it is.

It's almost like he's kind of come on a heat or something. So I'm trying to give him lots of, lots of attention. He keeps coming up to me, wanting to get on my lap, you know, constantly when I'm sitting down, which is something he doesn't normally do.

But he's wanting my attention. So I'm giving it to him, you know, I'm picking him up, cuddling him. And he seems to be happy when I do that.

I mean, I think what he wants is me to take him outside again. But what's out there? I don't mean like, it's not a literal question. Well, there's trees, there's a park, there's walls and there's houses.

I don't mean that. I mean, what is it he wants? I just don't know. I don't know what he wants.

And I kind of wish I did, because at least then I'd know what I was denying him. At least then I could like make fun of him and say, you're not having that. I do, I do wish I could just let him go.

You know, have a little ferret flap so he could just go out and come back when he wants, you know, like a cat. But he won't. He'll just go, he'll just go off.

And that'll be it. I won't see him again. And I think, I think it would be different if I, if I had enough room, like a big space, and like with a field, as if I had a, if I had like a home on a farm or something like that.

I think Andre might come back if he had that space, but there's no way of knowing. But he might enjoy himself out there and then come back in, if there was a cat flap or a ferret flap to come inside, because he'd probably want to sleep inside with me. And he'd want to, he'd still want me to feed him, because he's way too lazy to hunt.

You know, it's not him or, it's not, he hasn't got that in him, I don't, it would click in, I'm sure, if he got hungry enough, but he's never been hungry. Not really. Although he has eaten all his dinner up.

That's another thing, his appetite has gone up, he's eating more, but it's only February. And it's not warm, it's not like the, the day, you know, I don't know, I really don't know what it is. He's just a little bit, it's just very restless, very restless.

So, I got the printer, I got the paper, I'm printing off the stuff. I'm also transcribing stuff online as well, so that's taken quite, you know, there's quite a lot of, a fair amount of work involved in the whole thing. And it's quite a juggle, quite a juggling act, which is cool, which is, it's okay, it's just a, quite a lot to do.

And so this is just the first phrase, phrase, phase, really, to get it done, to get it, yeah, the first bit printed, and then I can start changing. And I don't know what, yeah, so I was thinking what I could do is, I'm not quite, I like the idea of maybe going through all the Let Me Boy The Sleep recordings, and maybe trying to find some of the stories that I've told, some of the, the more boring things. Because, you know, I do boring recordings where I'm just talking about stuff, and it's, you know, I mean, no one in the world could say that this recording has been exciting, you know, it's not supposed to be.

But there are, there's some recordings where I've maybe told a story about being sea cadets or stuff like that. So what I might do is look through and find some of those stories and see, you know, if any of it all can go together into a little book. And then there's the Relaxation for Stress and Anxiety podcast.

I've done 101 of those, I think, so far. So I will be transcribing those as well. So out of that, I'd quite like, I'd like to think I could get a book out of those recordings.

You know, for, for the subject of stress. And I thought, you know, maybe, maybe it could be a fairly decent book. It could just, did I say book? Book.

Could just be, I suppose, ultimately just be a bunch of opinions, wouldn't it really, bunch of ideas, possibilities to, you know, think about that could be useful to someone that might be grateful for that idea. So what I thought about is, that's kind of it. There's a few ideas, other ideas of different kind of books, but I'd like to, I'd like to go to sleep.

I'd like to complete at least one book by the end of the year and have it available on Amazon to download as an, as a, what's it, a Kindle. That's my plan. And my plan is to make it free.

So my plan is to have an Amazon shop. And as far as I'm aware, you can give away free stuff on Amazon. I might have to pay, you know, myself in order to offer that service, but you can download books for nothing or for a penny or, you know, and possibly get it onto the Kindle Unlimited.

So that, you know, anybody can, mind you, if it's free anyway, but maybe get it on there as well. And just see whether or not anybody would be, would like to read my stuff, whether or not they liked it. And if every book that I get, that I produce as a Kindle, I will already have it on Amazon.

I can make it available to be downloaded as a paperback or hardback, you know, physical copy. But what I would do in the short term is I would make, I would get at least a few copies printed for me, from each book. So I've got at least two, just to just be cool to have some books with my name on it that I've written, just a little ego boost, I guess.

And also to have as a, as a template. And also maybe to give away, you know, as a gift to contest winners in the future or something, I don't know. But as a template, if the, let's say one of the books is really, did okay, you know, had a few thousand downloads or listens or whatever, not listens, reads, or downloads, I suppose, off of Amazon.

Then, you know, I might be able to be in a position to contact, you know, an actual publishing company who might, you know, may be interested in actually publishing a book on a, you know, sort of in, I'll say in bookshop, you know, like publishing it. Because if they published it, then they would promote it. And there'd be some, they put, you know, put some kind of advertising, I suppose.

So that's what I'm thinking. I mean, that part of it is, is in the future. And we'll see.

But I thought it'd be cool to have a, have a few Kindle books. I want them to be fairly short. I don't really want some big, you know, 300 page book.

I'm thinking maybe 100 pages, maybe 150. But yes, fairly short book. But have it filled with stuff that's perhaps useful.

So yeah, that's what I'm planning to do. That's why I've been moved around in my chair like this. That's why I got the printer and I haven't had a printer for about 10 years.

Which is weird, because I really needed one when I was at university. So yes, over 10 years. Last time I had a printer was 2007, I think.

And that's 13 yards. Yeah, I don't know. I was a little bit surprised at how noisy they still are.

I suppose it's because, maybe it's because it's a fairly cheap one. It's not one of those laser, super duper, you know, printers. It's a fairly basic one.

I thought it looks quite nice. It's got a scanner on it. And it's a, I think it's an HP.

Is it HP? Yeah, it's HP scanner, I think. So it's, you know, it's a good quality company. But it's pretty much the cheapest printer that I could get.

And yeah, just because it's weird, because I think Saturday, I was thinking, no, I can't bother to do all this. Or maybe it's Friday night. And then I remembered I've got a printer coming, I've got paper coming.

I've got ink coming. I'll have to pay for all that stuff in the future. You know, over the next few weeks and months.

There's no point in having that stuff if I don't actually use it, for the reason why I purchased it in the first place. So that kind of kept me going. And kept me, you know, working on formatting and copying and pasting and organizing the various recordings on my laptop, and then printing it off, then numbering the pages, then stacking the pages, so that they can all be organized at a later stage.

Ideally, with some kind of stapler or something, to keep them all together, you know, each individual recording. And that's when I'll start looking through them. Yeah, I'm not sure.

I think with the relaxation for stress and anxiety, I think that one, it'd be a very different type of book. And I quite like the idea of maybe breaking it into subjects because I do go on about stuff. I do sort of keep coming back to maybe similar subject matters that I'd previously done and talked about.

So I could, what I'm going to do probably is break everything into groups, into subjects, and then, you know, assign different bits onto each subject. And I might even just use scissors and cut the, cut the bits out of the paper, you know, and stick it all in a pile, but I'm not sure about that. Yeah, no, probably won't.

But there will be, I'm not nearly falling asleep, but there, there'll be something. I don't remember what it is. Yeah, I think there could be a few categories there.

I don't know what I'd call it. I don't have a name for that one. So there's a few different ideas that I've got.

I don't know, it's kind of, kind of interesting to me in a way to wonder if I'll actually see it through because I've attempted this loads of times and never seen it through, but I've never pushed myself the way I have done this time to actually do it and to get as much done as I've done. Hundreds of pieces of paper with stuff on and, you know, the amount of recordings I've got, it's ridiculous. It's so much stuff.

And each recording, I mean some of the old, the older, the longer recordings is like 21 pages or something for each one. That's a heck of a lot. A lot, a lot, a lot.

Yeah, so that'd be nice. I think I'd like to, once I can see it forming into something, that's when I'll be more pleased. Once I can see a book forming, becoming something, rather than just an idea, although there's nothing wrong with just an idea because without ideas, we, well, we wouldn't have anything, would we? You know, everything has kind of originated from an idea at some point.

So that is what I am going to be doing and hopefully, hopefully, hopefully, hopefully, I should get some more of the soundproofing come through the post. Well, it won't come through the letterbox, but yes, I've got another 20, about 20, yeah, 20 soundproof things coming. So that'll be good, good, good, it could be good, could be good, good, good, good.

And yeah, because I've started putting it on there inside and I can see that 10, 10 strips should be enough for me to start using it as, you know, to start recording. So I think it will take the edge off, it'll make it fairly quiet. There's a lot more to do than just, you know, that is going to be quite, it's not a case of it being a big job, but just taking a lot of soundproofing, that's all.

And it'll be cool when it's done. But it's getting there, it's definitely, and it's, it's going the way that I want it to go, which is ever so lovely. Oh yes, oh yes, oh yes.

Ever so, ever so, ever so. So yeah, that'd be nice. So I'm hoping that doing these transcriptions will come, something will come out of them.

That's what I hope. At the very, very least, what I'll do is, I can use them to write, write a description of the recording in a description box of the podcasts, or even put a transcription, like a very loose transcription in there, so people know what's being said in the recording. And I'm not sure if that's a good idea or not.

I'm not sure. No, no, I don't know. So that's my plan over the next week, is to get as many of the recordings transcribed and printed off, and then go through them one by one, and start to categorize things.

And hopefully, I can add to stuff as well, as taking stuff away, so I can change things as needed. And also, yeah, I think it's going to be okay. I just feel it's time to, it's time to step things up a little bit, to move forward as far as the service that I offer, and to keep growing, and to keep being groovy.

And yeah, I don't know, really. I don't know. I just hope something good comes out of it, because, you know, as far as quite good, I mean, I can produce something that is readable, eligible, legible, not eligible, legible.

Something that makes some kind of sense. Most of all, something that might be useful. So I'm going to wait and see.

And as I said, I'd like to try and release the first one by Christmas. But I might be able to release it before my birthday, at the end of August, which gives me six months. It might seem like a long time.

It's going to take me a long time to get through all these recordings, and to transcribe them, and to correct things, and there's trying to write a book from that, and then add my own voice on top of my own voice, in a sense. Because I suppose once that's written down, you know, on the page, then I can sort of think, oh no, I'll say this. I'll say this differently now.

I'll say this differently. And this should be in order, a different order. So yeah, it might be, it might be fun.

Yeah, why not? So that kind of brings me to the end of this recording. On Monday, the, I think it's the 23rd of February 2020, I think. 23rd, 22nd, something like that.

I think it's the 23rd. So that's it. I want to go.

Remember to be kind to yourself, because you deserve to be happy. I'll speak to you next time. Lots of love.

Bye. Bye.