#305 Let me bore you to sleep - Jason Newland (18th January 2020)

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My PayPal is paypal.me forward slash Jason Newland and the link is on my website. And if you want to help to support the running costs of this free service. So I'm going to start off, I'm going to start off, oh I'm going to start off by mentioning a message that I got.

I want to get some kind of opinions because I'm a little bit worried about my voice. Hmm. So the message, I'm not going to say who it's from, I'm just going to say the message.

Hi, this is on Facebook. Hi, love your soft voice. Good start.

It's a lovely start. In fact, it would have been nice if that had been the end as well, because it's a lovely message. And then, can you try not to whistle when you say S's and T's? That sound actually, that sound actually interferes with falling asleep.

I'm so sorry. I don't mean to be critical, but I think it will help your other listeners as well. Thank you for all you do.

God bless. And it says you did a countdown podcast from 79, 78, 77, down to 60. I was laughing hysterically listening to it.

And it says countdown from 100. Well, I'll address the first thing first. I did reply and it was a nice conversation.

There was no hostility or anything. And what I replied, and also this person, this Bama lady, said, and I hope I didn't offend you because I really am coming from a place of trying to help make you even more successful. It's hard to offer constructive feedback without sounding like a winner, a whiner.

Are we good? So I replied. Now I replied, to be honest, I don't mean to whistle. That's my voice.

I guess it's some kind of speech impediment. I don't want to whistle like an old fashioned kettle. And then she says, you don't always whistle except whenever.

But I thought I'd address it because I do sometimes comment on, you know, if I hear myself whistle when I'm talking. So if I say the word whistle, and it's the way I talk and probably not going to change the way I talk, if I'm honest with you. So, you know, I'm always looking to make improvements.

But we, and this is all about counting down. So that would be a hypnosis session rather than a let me bore you to sleep recording. So with a, you know, a recording, a sleep hypnosis recording, of course, my voice, the tone, softness, and all that stuff is relevant, as is the content of what I say.

And I don't feel I've ever been pulled up, or pulled up. I've never been pulled off over that. No one's ever pulled me off over the T's.

Was it S's and T's? S. It's the way I talk. I don't know. What do you do? Maybe, maybe I have a lisp.

And I didn't realize I had a lisp. And nobody's ever told me that I've got a lisp. And I'm kind of okay with having a lisp if I've got one.

I don't think it's like prominent, like really, I don't think so. Maybe it is. But it's just, I don't know, it's kind of caught me off by surprise.

And because the rest of what this person was saying was, you know, is a friendly, you know, and also, you know, saying didn't mean to offend you, and all that stuff. So I kind of thought, well, I'm not going to take offense. But I'm kind of thinking, what do I do with that information? If someone said, oh, you've got dandruff, then you can go and use dandruff shampoo.

You can do something about it. It's a practical thing, isn't it? Or someone says, oh, you're smelly. I don't know, you know, which isn't a nice thing for anyone to say to another person, or to hear from another person, I guess.

But you can practically do something about it, you know, have a wash, put some deodorant on or whatever. But if someone says to me, you're too short, well, other than wear high heel shoes, there's really little I can do. Or maybe wear a top hat, or an old policeman's hat, you know, really big, tall ones that you keep sandwiches in, and bits of cake.

I had a girlfriend once. That's it. That's the whole thing.

Just wanted to tell you. I've been keeping it inside for years. I just wanted to tell someone.

I once had a girlfriend. Really, I did. And she split up with me, right? And she said to me, and I don't know why she decided this was relevant.

But she said, my eyebrows are too close to my eyes. I mean, what do you want them to be in the middle of my forehead? Or on my knees? I mean, where should the eyebrows be? They're supposed to be above your eyes. Hence the word eyebrows.

It's just above your eye. I know some people have their eyebrows might be a little bit higher. But it's kind of where it should be.

I think. It's not like my eyebrows are underneath my eyes. That'd be a bit strange, I suppose.

I don't know. But your eyebrows are too close to your eyes. And I thought that was weird.

Because there's so many other things to pick fault with, as far as how I look, why would you choose my eyebrows, that would be the one that'd be one of the last things I would even notice. If I was looking at myself, you know, it'd be right down the list. It might be on the list.

I don't know if I was really gonna go to town and try and find as much fault as possible. But there's something that I can't do anything about. Unless I get some sellotape and like sellotape my eyebrows into a constant look of, you know, startle.

Like, oh, really? Amazement always looked like I'm amazed wherever I go. So what do I do with, what do I go and have elocution lessons? Learn how to speak correctly? I thought I was doing all right for the last 49 years. I actually thought, and just, just, I actually thought that my verbal skills were pretty good.

You know, I worked in call centers for years and years and years. And the one thing I kept being told is that I was really good verbally. And I was pretty much the best, as far as talking to the customers and talking nicely and, you know, doing the job correctly and being friendly, you know, all times and stuff like that.

No one ever once said, you know, you've got a bit of a lisp. I know you're the, you're pretty much the top salesperson out of 250 people and, you know, or maybe second is, there's Jody, but he's, he's above you to be fair. But you know, you're the second top person out of 250 people.

You have the highest conversion from quote to sale out of anybody that's ever worked here. But that bloody lisp, that bloody lisp is just getting on my nerves. So yeah, I didn't, maybe it's one of my blind spots.

Obviously, bragging isn't a blind spot because I was just bragging about being really good at sales. But I was. It's one of those things like, but I'm not bragging about it.

But maybe I was. You know what? In a way, I'm bragging about something that I used to be able to do. Something that I was successful at doing.

That I was very good at doing. So I don't, I'm not really bragging. I'm kind of, it's more of a statement of fact.

But whether I could do it now, I don't know. I don't know if I have those skills anymore or the patience to do that kind of thing. But we're all good at something, aren't we? We're all good at certain things.

I just, and I was good at it, but I didn't even like it a lot of the time. So I was good at something I didn't enjoy doing, which was difficult. That was a very, maybe there's a lot of people like that.

Maybe there's people that work in the police or doctors. I'm not comparing myself to that kind of professional person, but they're really good at what they do, but perhaps they don't enjoy it. You know, like a heart surgeon might be the best heart surgeon in Europe, but just dreads going to work because it just doesn't, they don't get the same satisfaction or enjoyment as they would if they were painting a wall or doing decorating.

Maybe that's the thing that they're passionate about, the thing that gives them pleasure and joy, but they feel obligated to use their natural talent or, you know, the excellent, because they excel at something that's really important to their society. So they feel they have to do that, going against their own happiness, possibly. Now that was boring.

That was boring. Yep. That was, what was I even talking about? What was I even talking about? So I don't, as far as counting down, if I want to count down from 79 to 60, I will count down from 79 to 60.

If I want to count down from 100 to 1, that's what I'll do. If I want to say I'm going to count down from 100 down to 1, and I start at 49 and count down to 33, that's what I'll do. I can do what I want.

They're my recordings. And sometimes I do that for a reason. You know, there's more to it than just me, maybe not in these recordings, possibly, but there might be more to this than you realize either as well, more than I realize maybe, but there might be more to the hypnotic-y stuff that I do than is obvious.

You know, I do know a few little bits and bobs. I'm not just making it all up as I go along. You know, I've, I'm a trained therapist, you know, I am, seems hard to believe, but I actually am.

I've read a few books as well, and I've got a bit of experience doing this. 14 years doing, making recordings, as well as seeing clients and doing hypnosis with people, doing group sessions back in even 2006, 2007, doing group relaxation sessions with not that many people, maybe 12, 15 people, maybe sometimes 18 people, sometimes four people. So I'm not just, I'm not just randomly doing this stuff.

You know, I'm no expert. I'm not an expert on anything, but I'm not, you know, I do kind of know what I'm doing. And if I didn't, I don't think that people would listen.

And more and more people are listening. The deep sleep whisper hypnosis and the relaxation hypnosis for stress, anxiety, and panic attacks are two of my most popular podcasts day in, day out. They're rising up to like the 800, 800 plus downloads each day.

And they're actually right, they're rising higher than all the other podcasts. In fact, the relaxation for stress, anxiety, that one is looking to possibly be the most popular podcast out of all of the ones I do. Although I've got the two sleep sessions, hypnosis podcasts that are way ahead of everything else because all of my sleep stuff, stuff goes on there.

So I kind of think I'm doing something right. And it's that kind of thing as well. If I'm going to ask, if I'm going to, um, if I'm going to welcome people telling me what they like, then shouldn't I really also welcome people telling me what they don't like.

And that does make sense. But I don't want to hear or read what people don't like. And I think that's the human being inside me.

It, it's upsetting. It is. Or should I say it's upsetting.

It is. So it's, uh, you know, it's almost, I remember that one I had about yawning. Can you stop yawning? Well, there's a part of me that kicks in from when I was younger, when I was in my twenties.

If you tell me you didn't like something, I would not be able to stop myself from doing it. It was like an impulsive. I couldn't stop myself.

And I used to get into trouble a lot. Um, I'd lost jobs, friends, everything. I couldn't almost like I couldn't control what I was doing.

And I'm not like that anymore. You know, I'm an adult now ish kind of, but there is a little part of me that kicks in a bit when, and maybe these people listen to me, understand what I'm talking about. You know, when someone says, I don't like it when you do that.

And there's that part, that part of you that goes, Hmm, that urge to want to do it more often. I think ultimately it's just criticism. I don't think anybody, and I might be wrong here.

I mean, some people would say, don't talk for me. You don't know me. You don't know what I like.

So, you know, but those are not really interested in those kinds of people. But I would guess that most people do not like being criticized. I'll tell you a story is when I was at university, I've said, I've talked about this before, but I found it hilarious.

And because it was so ridiculous. There was a one person that didn't like me right from the very, I'm going to be talking about people that don't like me doing this recording. Yeah.

Why not? I talked about how great I was at sales and I was good, but in all fairness, I used to read sales books at home. I used to study selling techniques. So I wasn't, um, you know, I lived the life.

I wasn't, I wasn't just turning up for work, doing the job and leaving. I was thinking about it. When I was at home, I was listening to self-help tapes, sales tapes.

Sometimes I'd be the first into work and the last out. If I was on a phone call, I'd stay on phone for an hour if I had to, to get that sale, even though it was time for me to go home an hour ago. In one of my sales jobs, I'd actually go in and work two or three hours a day without getting paid just to get more sales because I'd be on a bonus.

So it'd work out that those hours I could earn maybe 15 pound, 20 pound per hour for those hours that I went in because of the way the bonus went up quite a bit after you hit a certain amount. So, so I can talk about that. I can also talk about the, the criticism I had, I suppose.

And at university, I really thought it was going to be brilliant, really thought it was going to be brilliant. And the whole process started off really, really, really, really badly. You know, just at home, everything, everything kind of collapsed within a couple of weeks of starting university.

And the person that was living in the Buddhist community, and one of the people living there, he suddenly had a tantrum and decided he hated me for some reason. And it was a really weird situation. So I had to move out.

So I had to, it is a weird one, yeah? I had to move out, find somewhere to live. It was either that or go to prison. So I had to move out.

And my girlfriend, who I'd just started seeing, been seeing her for a couple of months, I said to her, I don't know what to do. And she said, well, call up the university and ask them because they'll have a list of landlords in the area to where you go. Because I was going to university in a different town to where I was living.

So I did. I took her advice. And they did indeed give me a list of numbers.

I called, went and saw one of the rooms, and I took it. And when I told my girlfriend, she was upset with me because I'd taken a room that was in another town, even though it was her idea. So, yeah, but it was a cheap room.

It was the cheapest one. And, you know, I needed to get the cheapest place I could. And then moving meant I lost the job that I was supposed to be starting at Sainsbury's.

So I had everything sorted out. I had a girlfriend, a part-time job sorted out while I was at university in a big supermarket. So I knew I was going to be meeting new people.

It was going to be good. I had somewhere to live with some friends. But I was, you know, I was happy living there until, you know, one person decided to... I don't know what was going on with him really, but anyway, it's... the whole place collapsed and they ended up selling the building in the end.

But everything, so I moved. Suddenly I didn't have a job, didn't have any of that stuff. But it really all started weirdly at university with the success is I got a degree.

So, hey, that's a success, isn't it? I completed the course of three years and I also got a part-time job as well here. So that was where I was living. So that was good during part of the course.

But the very first day in the classroom, there was, I don't know how many of us it was, 16 people, maybe more. And the teacher paired everyone up into twos. And I was paired up with what I can only describe as the quietest voice I've ever heard in my life.

It was almost like a little mouse whispering. It was really quiet. I can't exaggerate it, but it was very quiet.

Yeah, it was quiet. So she, the idea is we tell each other about each other, each ourselves. Tell the other person about ourselves.

So I thought, okay, I'll tell her a little bit about me, the hypnosis, just that's about it. And then she was telling me about her. I couldn't hear her over all the other people because they were laughing and having fun and talking to each other.

And I couldn't hear what she was saying. I could hear little bits. And then the teacher says, oh, that's it.

Everything, stop now. And now go around and tell the group about your partner, what they told you about them. So everyone went around.

It was really light. It was funny. It was gentle.

It was very jovial. It was a lovely atmosphere. And she talked about me and she didn't really say much.

She does hypnosis and just the basic kind of stuff that I told her. I didn't need to go into details. And then I talked about her saying that she was God, she's, I don't know what I said, but just a couple of bits that I remembered.

And then the teacher started talking. And then there was a screech of a chair over and the lady that I was paired with, she stood up and addressed the classroom. And it's almost like she had an essay prepared.

She said, I'm not happy with my introduction, but I was given by him, me. And she proceeded to go in to talk about all of her qualifications. And he's very, very qualified.

And I think she was, I don't know, Russian, not German, French or Belgium or something like that. And she's going on. And that made it a little bit harder to understand her because the accent plus the really low volume, I found difficult because I'm partly deaf.

I'm plus of all the background sound. I've never, I've always never enjoyed being in a loud environment. I still don't.

I wear headphones when I'm in public generally, just to block out the sound. It's not that I'm, I was going to say I'm not trying to make excuses, but I am, I am literally trying to make excuses. That is what I'm doing.

I'm trying to make as many excuses as possible so that I don't look bad, but it doesn't really matter. But anyway, she's, I found it quite funny. So I think I laughed, not, not what she was saying, but the fact that she was saying it, the fact that she stood up and wanted everyone's attention and figured that it was very important that everybody knew that she's basically more qualified than the teachers that were teaching us.

And then she sat down and she looked angry, really, really angry. So at the end of the class, you know, when everyone kind of got to an end, I apologized to her. I said, sorry about that.

I couldn't hear what you were saying. You sound like a mouse. And maybe that didn't go down well, but like a little Belgian mouse.

And to be fair, if she was to speak through one of those, you know, those big grammar, loud speaker things, you know, that the people do like when they're addressing an audience outside. If she shouted through one of those, then she would sound like a mouse whispering. That gives you an idea of what level she was at and plenty to say.

I mean, she's very, very, very intelligent and all that stuff. And I apologized. I said, look, I'm sorry.

I didn't. And I didn't realize it was a hugely serious activity. And I didn't catch everything you said.

And, you know, it's very, that's quite, it was quite a loud environment. And mousy, mousy. No, no, I didn't.

I couldn't stop myself. I couldn't stop thinking about mices. She said to me, I said, no, what? And I was like, come on.

I'm sorry. I didn't mean disrespect. I just, I genuinely was not interested in what you're saying.

No, I didn't say that. I said, I didn't, didn't mean to upset you. I'm sorry.

And she said, oh, that's okay. That's okay. Something like that.

So she said it was fine. And I thought that was it. I was wrong.

I was so wrong. She hold that grudge for three years, three whole years. And it got to the point where it was actually funny.

But it affected other people. Because the way she was treating me or trying to act towards me was upsetting people that liked me. And there was a division for three years in that classroom.

Very strange. Like, well, I don't know what the point was. And I went out of my way to even spend time with her, just to try and to heal the wounds, you know.

You know, I literally basically, this is what I literally did. I literally took away the trap, you know. So like, it's safe now.

You can come out. It's safe. The trap's gone.

You don't got to worry about anything. Come on, come on. Here's a bit of cheese.

And even practice. Because she got in her group. And there was people that kind of didn't really have anything to do with me because of that.

Because they sort of were friends with her. So I went out of my way to do a practice group, like practice in the counseling. It's the counseling course, can you believe it? This kind of behavior.

And I even went into her group with her permission so I could practice with her. So I could... I don't know, I just didn't want that kind of behavior to be part of the experience of doing a degree. And she already had degrees, I suppose.

I don't know what in, making... She did seem to like having sandwiches. I was scared to ask her what was in a sandwich. But I knew.

We all knew. We all knew. But she... kind of the whole period for that three years, it was just... And even in the last year, the third year, there was one point where we were all sitting around the table in a kind of almost... The teacher was at the front and we were down the sides and at the back.

But the other side of the table, you know, looking on. And the teacher came in, sat down and says, uh, it's up to you, but if you want, you can come and sit. If you want to choose, you can come and sit in front of the tables instead of behind.

And then people started discussing it and kind of arguing that. And I said, I just said, look, I think everyone can just decide for themselves. We're all able to choose whether we want to sit in front of the table or not.

You know, we're adults. We can all choose, can't we? And this, the mousie stood up and said, I said, what? She said, I said, can you write it down, please? She said, okay. So she wrote it.

So basically, she got a loudspeaker out, pumped up the volume. And she said, her response to me saying, we can all decide for ourselves where we sit rather than it being a big discussion. She said, speak for yourself.

In other words, speak for yourself. Does that mean you can't decide for yourself where you sit? I was just like, I clearly haven't let it go, have I? I'm still talking about it. 10 years since I actually finished the course.

Well, it will be 10 years, 10 years in May or June this year. 10 years since I, I can never remember that word. What's the word when you get your diploma or your certificate, your degree? We dress up really ridiculously.

And it's expensive. And you're supposed to toss the thing in the air. You're supposed to toss the hat in the air.

I misheard. And you have to toss, it's not a salad, not tossing the salad, but tossing, what's it, the flat hat, that flat hat thing, beacon, deacon, board, something, hardboard, boardboard, cupboard. I don't know, but you know the thing, I mean.

Anyway, I quite enjoyed it, really. I had a very close friend when I was at university. And I don't see her anymore, but she, if it hadn't been for her, I would not have got through it.

And so I owe her my degree. And I hope I said thank you. I'm sure I did.

If I didn't, then I wish I had. I'm pretty sure I did say thank you. But I can see it sometimes sometimes distance can give way to a little bit of clarity.

I mean, especially for people that are from Belgium, it's the flattest place on earth, isn't it? I mean, there's the old joke, isn't it? If you've got binoculars powerful enough, you can actually see the back of your head, you can see the back of your own head. It's sat flat. It's not my joke, it's someone else's joke, but it's funny.

So that was weird. That was kind of, and a lot of people asked, I'm going to stop, let's see, shall I talk about from the course. There was this really cool man, and everyone found him hilarious, all the women.

And he was funny. And he was, he's older than me. In fact, I would go as far as to say he was probably about my age then that I am now.

But I might be wrong. But he was groovy. He was a groovy cat.

He really was. He was a gardener, as well as learning to be a counsellor or training. And he was just one of these people that was lovely.

You know, you know, you get someone like that, they're just really nice. If I ever heard him say a bad word ever, and the teachers loved him. I mean, really, it was almost like Brad Pitt walked into the room.

It was, he just had this effect on the, on the, well, the teachers, for some reason, they just absolutely loved him. And I'm not sure how the teachers would explain, describe me, probably problematic. I don't know, I didn't mean to be, but I think I regressed a little bit being in the classroom setting.

And I can't be told what to do, not by anyone. It's just not going to happen. And I was in a, although it was university, it was held at a college, the course was, and there was a lot of young people at that college, straight from school.

And they were still being treated like school kids. And I think that's how the teachers thought that they could treat us, and they couldn't. And we let them know quite quickly that they couldn't.

You know, apart from one person who was, I think, 18 or 19. And another, yeah, everyone was over 30. And a lot of people were over 40 and over 50.

So the teachers didn't have, or the tutors didn't have tutors. That starts with a T. Tutor. Tutors.

The, they didn't have the power, they didn't have any power at all, or control over the classroom, because they were dealing with adults, and they didn't. So we kind of let them know pretty quickly what that situation was. And who else was there? There was this very, there was a lady there that was very loud, quite loud.

And she'd be happily chat really loudly while the teacher was talking, and not have any kind of awareness of it, or care that she was doing it. And nearly every day, she'd turn up late. Every day, she'd just turn up late, walk in, make loads of noise, getting ready, say hello to people.

Even I didn't do that. Well, a couple of times just for fun, but, you know, I wouldn't normally do it. Who else was there? There was, yeah, there was another, there was a younger man there.

He's very tall, and he's, I got on well with him. I got on okay with everybody. But there was a couple of, one, there was a lady there that I really kind of clicked with in the first year.

But then, it didn't go downhill for the next two years, but we just weren't as close after the first year. So I'm not really sure what kind of happened there. But then I got really close to another person there.

But the one from the first year was a married lady. So, you know, nothing was ever going to happen there. But we were friends.

But the other one was, she really liked me. And we did have a, nothing happened until the course finished. Is that true? Yeah, that is true.

Wow. Yeah, nothing happened until the course finished, I think. But we did spend loads of time together before the course finished.

So during the course, I'd be speaking to her on the phone. And basically, like we were dating, but not dating. So she was just hugely supportive to me.

And I don't think I appreciated her at the time. I didn't appreciate how supportive she was being. But at the same time, I didn't want a relationship with anyone, especially not with someone that I was at college with, because I didn't want to be in a situation where I just didn't want to go in because of someone being there that I didn't want to see.

That just ruined the course. I mean, I already had someone in there that I didn't want to see. The mousey.

But yeah, we stayed friends for a few years. And then she moved on to do other things. And I suppose in some ways, some people would say that my life came to a standstill when I stopped working.

Others who know the truth, who know what I do, would say actually, I've accomplished a fair bit with all the recordings I've made. But it's all personal opinions, isn't it? It's all personal opinions. So do I lisp? And if I do, the thing is, when I had the old moaner about the yawning, I became a bit self-conscious for a while.

Now I don't care again. I'll yawn or don't yawn. I don't care because I'm just going to be me.

But now I feel self-conscious a bit about how I sound or my talking, or if I've got a whistle to some of my words or letters that I say. And I don't want to be self-conscious. I really don't.

Not when I'm making recordings like this, because this is a personal, private thing. And you might say, well, how's it private if thousands of people are listening? I get what you mean. In some ways, it's the least private thing I do.

But on the same level, I want to just be able to be me, whatever that form that takes on that particular recording. It might be me doing silly voices and making up stuff, or it might be me talking about something or reading out a message that I've received or comment. It could be anything.

But I need to have that freedom to just be myself. And yeah, it kind of puts me in a strange position. I just don't know.

I don't know what to do. So, you know, I don't know. I'm just wondering, get a little bit of feedback.

But at the same time, I don't want negative feedback. I figure negative feedback is people that don't listen anymore, and they go away. And then I just do the people that do listen, and the people that do like what I do.

And the stats have increased tremendously over the last, or since this year started, actually. I had over 5000 downloads yesterday, or the day before, rather. Yeah, the day before I'm losing track of which days are which.

But you know, it's going really well from a statistical perspective. More people are listening, which means I'm guessing if they're coming back, then it's useful. And in a way, you know, it'd be, it's not a bad label to have, is it? You know, for people to say, well, you know, so what was Jason like? He was useful.

That might not, it doesn't sound that good, actually, when I say it out loud. He was useful. What do you mean? Cleaning toilets? What for? So maybe a little bit of extra information may be required to embellish that particular phrase, so that it makes more sense.

Jason's three recordings were useful. But why did he only do three of them, then, if they were useful? No, three as in F-R-E-E. I'm sorry, I can't help it, because you've got a lisp.

You sound so weird, I didn't know if it was three or three. Eee. That's just rude.

Can you stop? Sorry, did you say you want me to stop? You want me to stop? Stop. Can you, that's it, that's enough of that. No more thanks.

What, no more thanks, or no more thanks? Will you stop making fun of the way I talk? So yeah, it's a, it's a strange one. I mean, in some ways, but if it was just like, oh, you lisp, you've got a lisp or whatever, and it's annoying, fair enough. It's not fair enough, but like, well, good luck to you if you've, if you're the need to tell me that.

But if it's disturbing someone's benefit, benefit from, if it's preventing someone from benefiting from that particular recording, then I am concerned. So yeah, maybe I should do, maybe I should do some non-lisp recordings, and some lispy ones. So do some specific ones where I'm talking like this, pronouncing every word, so that I don't slur nor whistle at any point when I speak.

And, you know, I couldn't do that. It's just not, not really gonna happen if I'm being particularly, I like that word, particularly honest, or completely honest. I shan't, I shan't, I shan't be doing, doing that.

So yeah, it's a, it's a strange one. So, I loved your, I love your soft voice, but I don't like the way you pronounce words. I love your soft voice, but, yeah, I love your soft voice.

If you break out, I love your soft voice. But unfortunately, it interferes with me falling asleep. You did a countdown from 79 to 60.

I wanted to do that. So I didn't understand, why, why were you laughing hysterically? Is it because I was going 79, 76, or 78, whatever one's next? 77, and all the way down. You know, sometimes when I'm doing a sleep session, well not sometimes, pretty much every time I'm doing a sleep session, I half fall asleep myself.

And there's times when I do drift off, and I genuinely can't remember what I've already said. And I think that's part of the reason why they work, because I'm there too. I'm not just sitting wide awake saying, now you're going to fall asleep and blah, blah, blah, because I'm not wide awake when I'm doing any of my recordings really.

Maybe a little bit more alert when I'm doing the relaxation of stress and anxiety, if I'm talking about a subject. And maybe when I make these recordings, sometimes I'm a bit more alert than at other times. I don't feel hugely alert right now.

No, no, no, no. I'm trying to think what other messages I got. Oh, I did get a couple of messages.

Let me redo these. I'm just going to go into the website. And these are a couple of reviews that I got.

A couple of reviews. Oops, that's the laptop. Okay.

They're both from the same person, actually. But they're from different recordings. So the first one is from Lilith, and it's been posted on number 302.

Let Me Bore You To Sleep. Jason Newland, 15th of January, 2020. It's been a while.

My minion and I had been neglecting to listen for a few weeks. However, I noticed internally and circadian wise, a major difference. Negative for us, in brackets.

Wow. It's so noticeable how for the both of us, our stress levels rose. Definitely have to get back into the loop.

On the frame of moving, man, oh man, I relate. I moved from the city to the middle of nowhere, USA. And okay, I'm just reading it.

Thank you for sharing that and the new uploads. They are truly a medication for the nonstop gear grinding brain at night. So thank you, Lilith.

And there's another one that she posted. This is for anger reduction 2017. And it says, no, thank you.

I thought it was a no, thank you. But it was no, thank you. I just found this session and finished listening right now.

I have a lot of frustration tests, a lot of frustration tests that cross my path. I believe I should listen to this every day when dedicating some quality time to myself. I'm going to share this with my minion and can only say, and I can only say with much optimism that it shall help the both of us greatly.

So thank you. That's nice. So I've had a few different ones.

I mean, I've told, I don't, I think I've read most of them out to you over the time. I've had a couple from, one from Andrea on the 14th of January, a few days ago, 2020. I'm not sure what to title this review.

These recordings have helped me deal with my anxiety instead of ignoring it as I usually do. Thank you. And that was regarding the relaxation for stress and anxiety, panic attack ones, podcast.

So thank you, Andrea. That's very kind. So if you'd like to leave a review, if you're still awake, if you're not awake, fine.

But definitely a video review would be brilliant because as I said, it's costing me $15 a month just to offer this service, to have this app on my website, $15 a month. So I'd like to try and use it if possible. And because, you know, I've got a couple of videos on here and from, let's have a look.

Who is it? Rachel Elizabeth and Natalie Merkley and Molly and Heather Jo. And you know, it's brilliant. I love, I love it.

You know, I look at Molly and I watch those videos, watch Natalie's one and the others. It's just nice to hear the kind words or how it's benefiting. And also what I like, one of the things I think is quite groovy, there's a couple of things that I think is quite groovy.

First of all, that I've got listeners or fans, listeners in the other side of the world, you know, in Australia, New Zealand, Canada. And it's really cool. You know, I've got a few people in Australia, New Zealand and Canada that really seem to like my stuff.

As well as lots of people in Europe, like Norway, Russia, Amsterdam, Germany, like every, basically every country you can pretty much think of, there's people listening to me. But another thing I really like is I've also got more people in England or, you know, Britain, people in Scotland, Wales, that are listening to me because that's what I wanted for years. I catered mainly to America.

That was my main audience and it kind of still is really. Like statistically, I get more people in America listening to me than any other, than all the other countries pretty much put together. But I'm so pleased that I've got more people listening to me in my part of the world, you know, in my country than I used to.

So it's basically the audience has just grown and grown and grown. But it's nice to, it's just nice to know that I'm able to have people from my own part of the world listening, as well as it's brilliant to know that people from other parts of the world are listening. But the percentage of people from England or Britain was so small.

The percentage was really, really minute in the past. Now it's grown. So yeah, I feel grateful for that.

So please leave a video with you. Yes, yes, yes. And also the competition is still going this month.

If you leave, if you share any of my posts onto Facebook, share them onto your own page or onto a group, then you'll be entered into a competition where you get to win a flash drive with all of my Let Me Boy To Sleep recordings on. And at the moment, I think I'm about 404. This might be 404, 304.

This might be number 305, something like that. So there's still another 10, 12 days to the end of the month. So that's many, many hours of me boring you.

Lots and lots and lots of hours. I wonder how many hours. Should we have a look? How many hours is it so far? Let's have a look.

I'm going to search. There's a way of doing it. There is.

Oh, there is. I know how to do it. There we go.

So according to this, it's 304 recordings of the Let Me Boy To Sleep. So this is 305 and I've got 335 hours and 17 minutes so far. So this is another hour and 12 minutes or something to add on.

So you put it looking about 350 hours, I guess. 35, 40, yeah. Put about 350 hours worth of me being boring and you get to win that.

You get a chance to win it just by sharing my Facebook posts, the recordings and the recordings I make. So give it a go. As they say, you got to be win it to in it, bin it.

I don't know, something like that. So I'm going to go. Thank you for listening.

Remember to be kind to yourself because you deserve to be happy. Lots of love. Bye.