#242 Let me bore you to sleep - Jason Newland (19th October 2019)

Hello, welcome to jasonnewland.com. My name's Jason Newland and this is Let Me Bore You to Sleep. Please only listen when you can safely close your eyes. And before I proceed, I'd just like to say thank you to those of you that support what I do.

And a big thank you to, excuse me, a big thank you to my cough that came out of nowhere. A big thank you to those that have sent me PayPal gifts. Much appreciated.

So, what I thought I would do today, because I've not felt very well for the last few days, and been very sleepy, so if I was to sit down and do this, I would very likely very likely fall asleep. So, what I thought I would do, and it's a bit cold in here as well. The temperature's really dropped a bit.

It's that time, isn't it? That time of the year. It's October now. I don't know what date it is.

It's, I don't know, middle of October. And it's not the 26th. It's a week before the 26th, because boxing's on next week.

So, I don't know. 18th? 19th? Yeah, it's the 19th of October. And, so yeah, I've been sleeping a lot.

And my whole sleep pattern has been turned upside down. So, now I'm awake during the day and sleeping at night, but also sleeping a bit during the day as well. So, I'm kind of, what is it? It's about nine o'clock, just about quarter past nine.

It's 9.23, and I'm ready for bed. It's weird. A week ago, I was going to bed about seven.

So, on a Saturday morning as well, or Sunday morning, I'd be going to bed. And sometimes eight o'clock, eight or nine. So, it's all a bit weird, a bit strange.

So, yeah, I've just been, the temperature is like a high of 15 degrees or 14 degrees, a low of five degrees. That's during the day. It's quite a big difference, isn't it? It's quite a big change in temperature.

And now it's nighttime. I'm guessing it's probably quite cold-ish out there. So, but I've got all the windows open, plus I'm walking around in swimming trunks.

So, I'm probably not doing myself any favours. So, what I thought I would do, what I thought I would do today is do what I was going to do a while ago and give you a tour of my flat, which means I'm going to move around, which will keep me awake. I'm just going to move the door.

So, there's going to be a few little noises, just, you know, my footsteps. Andre's just jumped off the bed. Do you want to get back on? I was going to say, does he want to get back on the bed? He's very clever.

He's just realised, he tries, normally climbs on the bed, but from the front, like the bed's against the wall and he climbs and now he's realised all he's got to do is climb up the dirty laundry, which is at the bottom of the bed and just pretty much just step onto the bed. It's very clever. It's only taken him four years to work it out, but yeah, he's clever.

Dear, oh dear. He could have done that. The last four years has been dirty.

Look, it's not the same dirty laundry I do use to wash the machine. It's always been there, and he could have just climbed up. I'm going to close the door, not the door, the window.

Draw the curtains. This is going to be like one of those ASMR video things. Wonderful sounds.

So I'll have lived here in April, five years. So what is it now? October, November, December, January, February, March, April. So four and a half years I've lived here.

And I don't know really what to say about the place. It's, yeah, it's all right. It's got more stuff in it than it did before I moved in, but then when I moved in, there wasn't anything here.

There wasn't a cooker, wasn't a fridge, wasn't a washing machine. There wasn't a freezer. There wasn't any furniture.

There wasn't even a carpet. It did have doors though. Had light switches, but no electricity, because that was all turned off.

So luckily it was April when I came and looked at the place, and it's quiet. It was first thing in the morning, and it's fairly bright at that time of the year. But if it'd been in November at that time in the morning, I reckon it would have been quite dull in here, quite dark without the lights.

So anyway, last time I went to do a tour of this place, I got as far as the light bulb in the hallway. So I'm going to actually just go through the thing. So I've got the front door.

Front door has made a weird noise. That's strange. It's got a front door.

There's one, two, three, four, five, six locks on it from the inside. So it's quite secure on the inside. I've got a ceiling, which is, I'm probably about six foot nine.

So I'm ceiling about eight foot high, I reckon. Six, five, six. Yeah, it's got to be about eight foot, which is quite high, isn't it? It's quite a high ceiling.

So pretty much anyone, however tall they are, are not going to bang their head on the ceiling. But if they're more than six, four, they probably struggled to get through the door. You know, the doorways would have to crouch down a bit.

Five, six. Yeah, maybe six, six. It's hard to judge without one of those things that measure stuff.

But then if you were six foot, like six foot nine, or seven foot, you wouldn't leave the doors, well, I imagine you wouldn't leave the door frame as it is, would you? You'd make it bigger. I mean, you want to live somewhere where you have to keep crouching down, would you? That'd be kind of silly. I don't know.

I'm just guessing. I'm not an expert on height or doorways. All I know is, all the doorways, most of the doorways, I can walk through easily.

Although, to be fair, if I walk through, my body kind of takes up most of the doorway width wise, but I can still walk through, but I didn't realise that. Oh, that'll explain why my arms keep, they bang against the doorframe as I walk through. I've got, oh, I've never noticed that before.

I'm just trying it with every door, yeah. I thought I was just being a bit clumsy, but it's just, I can't, wow, how strange. I've got chaffed elbows.

I wonder if I walk through the door sideways. If I walk through, it'd be like answering, you know, someone says to you, so, which shoe do you put on first? Which sock do you put on first? And think about it, like, I'm not sure. Even though we do this stuff naturally, and probably in the same order, every single time.

Guaranteed, I put the socks on the same one, and I don't know which ones I put on first, left or right, I don't know, as I try and think about it. Do you put your underpants on before the trousers? I don't know now, now I'm thinking about it. It's like, I'm not sure.

Do you wipe before you flush? Yes, yes. So, let me have a look. There's a doorway, that's really weird that one.

I don't walk sideways through, that'd be like living like a crab, wouldn't it? So, I'm back, I'm back. So, the front door is just the standard front door. And I've got some paper on the floor in front of the front door for Andre, because that's one of his, of all the places, the most ridiculous place to go to the toilet, just in the front door, just it's just ridiculous.

But nothing, I couldn't do anything to stop him, apart from locking him in a room, and I don't want to do that, because being locked in a room isn't nice, which is why I try not to do that with him for any length of time. So, that's there. I've got a light switch just on on inside the front door, and sellotape to it.

It's a piece of paper, and I sometimes put it on the front door and it says, recording, please do not disturb. Or, recording, please do not disturb. And there's a light bulb, and there's a little mirror.

For some reason, my cleaner doesn't seem to have turned up for about three years. I just realised it's very dusty. It's almost like, you know, the Addams Family or Dracula castle kind of cobwebs and stuff.

So, I've got a mirror as I go in. Something else that needs cleaning. This is really weird.

I didn't even notice it till now. So, there's a mirror on the left-hand side as I come in. And when I moved in, my dad brought some stuff in that was my Nan's.

I'm not sure if that mirror was my Nan's, but it might have been. Anyway, he put it up, and I think he thought I wanted it in the living room. But I said, no, in the hallway.

Why? What do you mean, why? Why do you want it in the hallway near the front door? So, why do you think I want it in the hallway near the front door? He said, I don't know. That's why I'm asking. Why? I said, isn't it obvious? He said, listen, son, don't make me send you to the naughty step.

I said, okay, okay. I said, the reason I want the mirror near the front door is because that's, I can, before I leave my home, I can check for bogeys. Make sure I haven't got little bogeys up my nose or anything like that.

Or any sleep in my eye. You know, it's just, it's what we do, isn't it? I'll be walking around and have a big bogey sticking out and not realise. I don't want to be smiling at everyone.

Or perhaps I should have said, or cabbage in my teeth. But I rarely have cabbage for breakfast. You know, I kind of just check myself out, make sure that I'm really am as beautiful as I think I am.

But mainly it's for bogeys, just to check. I found out I had a bogey incident years ago. It wasn't a bogey incident, it was a whitehead.

Oh, yeah. And this wasn't when I was young. I was younger.

I mean, you know, I was younger before I started this recording. But I was 19. And I'd been working all night in this factory.

And it was a Saturday morning, and they asked, the supervisors asked me, or they asked the night shift, if we'd like to stay on till 12 o'clock. Overtime, because I needed to get a, you know, shipment done or something. So I said, yeah, all right then.

And the Saturday morning people came in. And I think they worked or they might have been there all day, I don't know. But I met a lady who ended up being my girlfriend for a little while.

And she was called Michelle. And the reason I remember her, because she was important in my life. And I thought I was doing really well, because she was laughing and everything.

I get home and I got the biggest whitehead pimple, like, you know, near my mouth. It was, and I'd asked her out and she said yes. I knew then that she clearly wasn't fussy who she dated.

No, I knew then that if she liked me, even with this big pussy pimple, that was, it took up half, it didn't take half, up half my face, but it was very noticeable. I thought, this, something she must like me, even though she just likes pimples. I mean, you know, you don't know, do you? So, yeah, I don't want to talk about her, but I'm just saying that's kind of why.

It's just a check, I had a little check before. So that's why I've got a mirror there. And my dad put it up.

I don't know how he did it. So that's going to be there forever. I've got no idea how to take it down.

It will be there. I can never remove it. I don't know how it stays against the wall.

It kind of sticks there. I don't know how he's done it. I'm trying to look down the side.

Some kind of contraption that he's built that keeps it stuck up. It's amazing, my dad's so good with that stuff. He knows how to do all, he can basically build a house in an afternoon.

There's nothing he can't do, apart from empathy. No, I'm joking. There's nothing he can't do.

He's just a whiz with kind of practical stuff. And I'm not, and that's an understatement, I'm really, really not. I had trouble with a light bulb a couple of years ago, and I had a tantrum and I ended up with a broken hand.

It's ridiculous. Practical things frustrate me. And so I need help with stuff like that.

But I do ask for help. So I think that's quite, it's a good step forward. I think if we can acknowledge, because we've all got things that we struggle with, and perhaps we just have a bit of a blank mind over.

My list is kind of endless, but practical things like putting up shelves or changing a plug. I attempted it once and I blew up a light. I might not, not with dynamite.

I mean, I actually blew the thing, you know, it's like, and I got taught how to change plugs at school, I suppose. They have instructions inside the plug on how to do it. And you know what makes it even worse is, I worked in a factory where I was actually putting plugs on appliances.

And I did that all day long. I just remembered that. Wow.

Anyway, let's move on from there. Let's have a quick little drink. So I got the hallway, I'm walking back down the hallway.

Facing where the door is, bottom of the right house, a bit further on the right. There's a like a coat rack, not the ones that stand up under like a tree, that kind of thing. But this is just one that sticks against the wall.

And there's three metal hooks on a piece of wood. And my dad put it on the wall for me. Again, that could have been my Nens as well.

He doesn't like to chuck things out, my dad, he likes to make use of things and, which is again, something else that I've not really, so I don't chuck things out so much. I just, I don't know, just, I don't collect things either. That makes sense.

I don't collect junk. But this coat rack is really good. It's a coat rack.

I mean, I'm probably never going to get excited over a coat rack. Unless it was made of chocolate, then I might get excited. And he said, where do you want it? I said, I'll have it near the mirror.

I'll just have it just above the radio. He said, honestly, I can't believe I had this conversation. He said, what do you want it there for? I said, what? He said, why do you want it there? Are you sure you want it there? I said, yeah, that's where I want it.

He said, why? And this is genuinely a conversation. I said, why? I said, because, well, first of all, isn't it makes sense to have the coat rack near the front door, because that's the exit and entrance for which I gain access and leave this particular premises, which is where I would have my coat. And he said, why don't you just have them on a coat rack in this storage room? Because I don't think he wanted to put a rack up.

I don't think he might wanted it for something else. Maybe he was going to have it for his, I don't know, some kind of weird key collection that he's got. But I don't know.

That's what I'm thinking. Maybe he didn't want me to have the coat rack. It's not a rack, but a coat hook board thing.

He said, why do you want it above the radiator? What do you want it there for? He was getting a bit grumpy. I think he just didn't want to put it up or something. I said, because when it's raining, yeah, he said, yeah, it rains.

We're in England. It happens quite a lot. At this point, I was just, he was winding me up.

I said, when it's raining, the coat gets wet. Where better to put it than above the radiator so it dries out? He said, oh, I suppose. And he started laughing.

He thought, actually, you're right. I made a little dance to the Canyon. It was quite nice.

So that was good. So I got those. The radiator's there.

There's a hat on the radiator. Although I can't wear that hat because Andre's been doing things to it. So I'm going to have to wash that before I wear it.

I don't want to go into details, but yeah. So as I come through the hallway, there's the, is it thermostat? You know, you can turn the heating on and off or up and down. So that's there.

I don't even know if the heating's actually on. Heating's not even on. That's why it's cold.

But it's on to come on at 20. From the sounds of it, it's just coming on, which means it must be 20 degrees in there, or just gone under 20 degrees, which isn't really cold, is it? How strange. So I'm walking up the hallway from the front door.

There is a storage room. I can't bother to look in there. But it's because it makes all the paper from the carpet go up.

But it's a fairly big storage room. It's got stuff in there. Storage.

If I turn left, this is my bedroom. Here we are. I'm in my bedroom.

And it's very different from your bedroom. And you might think, oh, how do you know that? How can you, how dare you be so presumptuous to think that you have some kind of original bedroom, like no one else has a bedroom like yours. You think you're special.

I've got a garden shed in my bedroom. Okay, fair enough. Yeah, it is different from mine.

Yeah, I don't, never heard of anyone with a garden shed in the bedroom. It's a very, you know, it's almost like, while it's cold in here, it's a garden shed seems to have come with its own temperature. It's almost, it's supposed to be outside in the cold.

So it just keeps, keeps the bedroom cold. Very weird. It's got its own environment, its own ecosystem.

So, luckily, very lucky, I've got big, big rooms. I mean, I don't mean mansion size rooms. But imagine you've got a garden shed, you'd think there'd be, there'd be no more room for anything else in a bedroom.

But there is, I could fit another, I could fit another two whole sheds in here, plus another one, but it'd have to be shaped differently, if that makes sense. So there's, there's enough room for my double bed. I've got two, two big bookcases, one either side of the room.

I've got a set of drawers, and a big, big long radiator. And there's another good thing about this flat is the windows are big. I don't know how big, but one of the biggest windows in a place I've lived.

I don't know why they're so big. But then it's really weird because the windows are big in both the bedroom and the living room. But there's no light in the hallway at all.

There's the light, the light switch, and the light bulb that's connected through wires to the light switch. But there's no actual light coming into the hallway. So when you come in there, even in the summer, you've got to turn the light on.

It's not pitch black. I mean, it's not. But when you've got a little ferret doing little, leaving little presents around the place, you need to have the light on, trust me, just in case.

And I've got, so I've got the, I started trying to put the foam, the soundproofing foam onto the shed on the outside. And I think only one piece, oh no, one, two, a few of the pieces have stuck. One just fell off.

It just gave up straight away. And a few other pieces are just half on, half off. I thought about getting a staple gun and attaching the soundproofing that way.

But it looks like I've got a well enough soundproofing for inside and out. But it's still a weird smell in here. I mean, weirder than normal in the bedroom.

And it's that wood, woody smell. And I know that that will go. The smell will just be part of the room, won't it? It'll just be, you know, if that makes sense, it'll just be part of whatever's in here.

And I'm lucky I don't get any damp in here or anything like that. Because if there was damp, I imagine having a woodshed wouldn't be ideal. That would probably soak the damp up, wouldn't it? But the wooden, the garden shed, it's going to be my recording studio.

I'm going to open the door. And inside this shed, blimey, looks like part of it's already fallen apart already. There's, there's a chair.

It's a nice, almost like a counselling chair, the kind of chair that you'd sit in if I was a counsellor. So it's a nice chair and a little stool in front of it somewhere to put the put the drink or something on. And it's not, it's not a huge amount of room to do much in there.

It, I think if anything, it'd be more a garden shed to put tools in. As opposed to, um, I don't know, like making pottery or whatever people do in garden sheds. So I've got my bed on the left-hand side.

My favourite place. There's a quilt on there. Now I pull back the quilt, it goes over.

There is a little Andre laid flat down on his tummy, fast asleep. I'll put that back, leave him alone. So we just sleep on the bed.

I've got t-shirts hanging up on current hangers on the rack of the curtain rack for the, you know, the window. Wonder how far, I reckon the window is at least as wide as I am tall. Actually, probably more.

I think that's six foot. It's really hard to work it out. It's quite wide.

Yeah, it's taller than me. And the radio is even longer than the window. So that's the bedroom.

I've got lots of, I've got a few spiders in it as well, which is, it's all right. The ceiling's pretty much the same in each room. So as we come out, the living room is on the left-hand side.

It's bigger than the bedroom, but there's not a lot in it. I mean, there's no bed, there's no shed. No, I don't mean, there's not a lot of difference.

In, let's have a look. No, it's quite much bigger, actually. It's the same width, but the length is, so if the bed's there.

Yeah, it's, it's bigger. It is bigger, but it's hard to kind of figure it out. I know it's bigger because both rooms are measured for the carpet.

I know that the living room is bigger, a fair bit bigger than the bedroom, but not a lot. But if we'd have put the carpet that was, this carpet, the bedroom carpet wouldn't be enough to fit in here. So we got all the furniture out of the bedroom and the shed, got the carpet up, got all the furniture out of here, out of the living room, and got the carpet up, and then moved the carpet from the bedroom into the living room.

It wouldn't cover the whole of the floor, which is why I don't bother doing it. So, as we come in here, I like to have a few, I've written on the walls, which I know is not normal, but potentially, but there's a couple of things I've written down. One is on the door frame, and this is as I leave the front room, or the living room, I'll call it the front room, or the living room, not really the front room because it's at the back, or it could be the dining room.

It's everything but the bedroom, it's not the kitchen or the bathroom. But it says on the frame just above the door, I deserve to be happy, which I think is a beautiful thing to have. I wrote that there probably a couple of years ago.

And I've also put a few, these ones, and that's actually written in a marker pen, but I've only done that in a couple of places. But the rest is pieces of paper that I've written on. And on the actual front door, the living room door, as you go in, it's actually pushed back at the moment because I find that's the easiest way to walk in and out of it, rather than having to keep pushing it.

And it says, show me your friends and I'll show you your future. And that's from Dan Pena. So that's one of his sayings.

And next to that is, I've got another one on the wall says, when you've got the desire, you've got the energy. No idea what that means. But sounds good.

And another one near the window, it says, for things to change for you, you've got to change. That annoys me a little bit sometimes. I've got another one I wrote years ago.

This is from Buddy Holly. The best way to fail is to try to please everyone. Which I think is quite cool.

Then I got another one above my window. And it says, excellence is not a singular act, but a habit. You are what you do repeatedly.

And then the last one in this room is a piece of paper. And it's taped to the TV. What do you call it? Not table.

Television. The thing the television's on. Not the stand.

Or it's, yeah, it's a television stand, isn't it, I suppose. Yeah, it's wooden. And I got that from, again, I think that's my nouns.

And so I've got this piece of paper, and it's directly under the telly. So whenever I'm watching the telly, it's there in my lower peripheral. We become what we think about.

So these are some things I'm trying to kind of get into my psyche. And that one particularly, we become what we think about. And anyone that's been in here that's read that, laugh at it, I think it's stupid.

But I think the sentence needs a bit of explanation for some people. Because I've heard detailed explanations about what that sentence means. It just makes sense to me.

But maybe I'd have mocked it if I'd have seen it without knowing what it kind of was referring to. It's all that state of mind. And on the wall, the other side of the wall, or the other wall on the other side of the room, I've got some post-it notes.

Don't know where the heck they went. I lost them. They're not post-it notes.

They're those cards that you, like index cards, that's it. They're colored ones. They've got blue, green, pink, yellow.

And I've just put on things that are happening in the future, a few things to look forward to. And most of it is just boxing and stuff. There was a television thing I put on there and if I've got an appointment or something.

What I've missed out though, is the junk in here. Not the junk, but there's a lot of Andre's toys. There's a lot of stuff in here.

And I've got two bookcases where most of my books are at the moment. And there's stuff on top as well. But all my hypnosis stuff is basically in here.

I've got a small bookcase on the end, which is near the radiator. And it's a little bit messy. Ever since I've got this shed, things have kind of got out of place a little bit.

I've got a whiteboard, you know, the thing that you write stuff on. I think they probably have them at school and stuff nowadays, don't they? And I say it like I don't know what happens at school or much. It was 10 years ago that I was at university.

Can you believe it? It's over 10 years since I left. Ridiculous. But I've got one of those that's going to go on the wall.

Because I want to start working out some recordings, like what I want to say. And if I can get my head around writing a book and just a bit of preparation, you know. I've never really prepared.

I'd like to see if I'm able to prepare for things. Put a bit of, yeah, that's a fridge in the background. That's the kitchen.

So I'm coming back in here. So that's the bookcases on the left. The window's right ahead of me.

So again, I think is it, I'm guessing, yeah, that makes sense. It's exactly the same size as the other window. However, there's a whole, I can now see the difference in the rooms because there's not, let's have a look at the other room.

We'll go back in there. Where that window ends, there's only a short space on the other side. But with this one, there's another few feet of space.

Yeah, so not really looked at it before. I knew there was a window there. I mean, I'm not, I'm just like suddenly, oh wait a minute, what's that thing that lets light in? No, I know there's a window, but hadn't really paid much attention to size because I'm not that superficial.

And the radiator's there as well, underneath the window. I wish someone one day would explain to me why you have a radiator under the window. The worst place to have a radiator, have it where the wind, you know, have it, why? That's where the heat's going to be released, isn't it? Out of the window.

Why not have it at the other side of the room? Or move the window to the other side of the room. So I've got a sit-up board in here, an abdominal board thing. I used to have it in the bedroom, but there's no room anymore.

Not really, it takes up a bit of space. I thought it was going to be a fold-up one, but mind you, I think it might have been, but when I sat on it, it just clicked and I've not been able to move it since. On the right-hand side, the television, and on the other side of the wall, there's a punch bag, which is attached to the side of the wall with a bracket.

So I've got my punch bag there, it's my everlast punch bag, so it should last forever, I guess. And as I turn around, face the opposite way from the television, it's my big black squeaky chair that's falling apart. It looks like it's been on a really good holiday, overdid the sunbathing, and now the skin's just peeling off, because that's what's happening.

The outer layer is peeling off on both the headrest and both of the armrests. And to the left of that, or to the right of the chair, there's a little table, similar to what people have in hospital, the other one that goes across the bed, but not quite that size, but it's like a that kind of thing. And I have that as much as like a somewhere to put stuff.

I always find flat surfaces are quite useful for when you need a flat surface. And behind the chair is a lamp. And it's one of the kind of lamps that blinds you when it's turned on, when you're not ready for it.

So you can turn it up and down, you know, as far as volume or whatever volume is in light. And you can, if you have it on full, and you just switch the on button of the plug, it just burns your retinas. It's so bright.

And the reason I know this is because my nan used to have one. Now mine is mine. I bought that myself years ago.

Because I used to live in a, I always say dungeon, it wasn't a dungeon. So I was right underground. I don't know, it was very dull, very dark in there, even with the light on.

So I needed to get some proper lighting. So I got two lights extra. And that was one of the ones I got.

It's very bright. But what my nan used to do is, and she had visual issues. So she needed to have the light on.

But she didn't warn us. So there was no issue with her having the light on. Because it's her house.

And you know, I mean, I'd have put it on for her. But we needed preparation. Because we'd just be sitting there and suddenly she'd just switch it on without us knowing.

And we'd just be screaming. It was so bright. And, but really bright when you're not ready for it.

It's just so bright. In fact, I think it's brighter than my one. I mean, hers was like super.

Honestly, I think the sun would have got envious. It was that bright. But um, the good times.

So I got a table, which my nan, a couple of chairs, which my nan inherited from my nan. So there's a table. It's wooden.

I always remember where it used to be in her place. Because she had it in her, because she was in a residential place. And she had it there.

And I don't think she hardly ever used it. And I used to sometimes sit there and have a cup of tea and I'd sit in the chairs and everything was fine. But as soon as I moved here, I sat down on one of the chairs and it broke underneath me.

Now, I know that I've put a little bit of weight on since, you know, 2013 or whatever it was. But not that much. I mean, realistically, there was probably only, the last time I sat in a chair would have probably been December 2013.

No, 2014. And then I inherited it in April 2015. I didn't put on a lot, that much weight since then.

Seriously, it's like, what? But yeah, the chair broke under me and my dad had to reinforce them. We didn't have to, but he chose to reinforce the chairs, which was good. It's like, what on earth, you know? A chair should just work, shouldn't it? Maybe I'm a naive, but I think a chair should just work.

That's what I think. And so that's the whole of this room, pretty much done. I don't have a big book collection anymore, but I've got a few.

One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22, 23, 24, 25, 26, 27, 28, 29, 30, 31, 32, 33, 34, 35, 36, 37, 38, 39, 40, 41, 42, 43, 44, 45, 46, 47, 48, 49, 50, 51, 52, 53, 54, 55, 56, 57, 58, 59, 60, 60, 61, 62, 62, 63, 63, 64, 65, 66, 67, 67, 68, 68, 69, 69, 70, 71, 80, 81, 81, 82, 82, 83, 83, 84, 84, 84, 85, 84, 84, 85, 84, 84, 85, 84, 85, 84, 84, 84, 85, 84, 84, 84, 85, 84, 84, 85, 85, 84, 84, 84, 85, 84, 52, 53, 54, 55, 56, 57, 58, 59, 60.

I'm only 61, 61, 62. So yeah, I've only got 62 hypnosis books now.

I used to have a lot more than that. And I've got some therapy books. I've got therapy books as well, counseling and NLP and stuff like that.

But yeah, my book collection, my library is very small compared to what it used to be. Oh, I found another hypnosis one. So it's 62.

No, it's not. It's part of the ones I'd already counted. No, it pans one there.

It's a hypnosis book. So 63. 64 transformations.

64. Yeah, 64. I thought I had... I lose track of what one.

So 64 hypnosis books. Andre, I can't believe he came in here just to do that. And then he ran off.

That's amazing. Such a naughty boy. I'll take you into the bathroom.

I'll get out of that room. Now, the bathroom is a little bit echoey, but it's bright. I've got a light in there, which is always handy, isn't it? But it's a bright light.

It's a very white room. And I cleaned the bath recently. And I used to have a lot of stuff in here.

Like, I think, 18 cans of deodorant all stacked up and loads of toilet roll and soap and toothpaste. Because I like to stock stuff up in case of an emergency. I don't know what kind of toothpaste emergency there would be.

But now what I've done, I've put it away because I've got this fairly good sized storage cupboard, which I imagine would have been the airing cupboard in old days. And that's, there's loads of room in there for things. So I keep just keep it all in there.

So it makes it all a bit tidier. I like, I like things to be tidy. And my dad put up a bathroom, a hook for a towel near the bath.

And he put up another towel rail, but it's one that you can put the towel across. And it's just above the radiator so it can dry the towel. And he also put up another hook for my dressing gown, which is opposite the bog, I mean the toilet.

And he's put up a bathroom cabinet. This is years ago, but he put that up. So he did a lot, you know, he did put a lot of stuff up.

It's very, very generous, very kind of him to do all that. And so as I go into the kitchen, it's a little bit of sound in here. So I'm going to stay out a little bit so it's not too loud.

But he put another rack up above the radiator in the kitchen for the towels. And I've got two cupboards attached to the wall that were there when I came in. Again, fairly big kitchen window.

And there was already a gap there for the cooker. So I bought a new cooker. And there was a gap for the washing machine.

So I bought a washing machine when I moved in. And I bought a fridge. And my dad's gave me a little freezer.

And then I bought myself another freezer, which was because it's not, you know, I like to try and get to have, you know, space and have stuff. Not everything really squashed together, you know, it's nice to be able to get to stuff. And again, I minimalized stuff as well, minimalized so there's not too much on the counters.

But Andre's, there's a big plastic tub with Andre's food in it. The wet food in packets, it's in packets. And I actually found some packets and some wet food.

This is cat food with gravy, which he likes. Now I normally get him Felix, it's the brand. I went to Aldi's a couple of days ago, or it might have been yesterday, I don't know.

And I think it was like £1.89 for 12 packets, 12 sachets of food, instead of, it's normally about £3.50 for the Felix ones. So I thought, I'll buy these. And I put it out for him and he sniffed it.

And he didn't touch it. And I thought, I will get hungry. And this was early evening, you know, about six.

I thought he'll get hungry in a little bit. Got out this morning, hadn't touched it. Rather go hungry than eat that cheap stuff.

Really, he's so fussy. I thought it was just cats that were fussy. Dogs generally don't seem to care, just eat anything.

I know cats can be proper fussy, but he's, he's a ferret. You know, in the wild, he'd have to eat whatever he could get his, whatever he could get hold of, he'd have to eat whether it was worms or spiders or cauliflower, I don't know. Cauliflower and cheese.

But no, he'd have to go through, we're talking about an animal, right? But his idea of absolute bliss was to be able to get down the drain into the sewer. That would be his happiest moment of his life. All he wants to do is get down those drains.

He sniffs at them and he's like, one day. But I'll give him a different type of food. Mmm, hate that smell.

Don't like that. Absolutely amazes me. Well, I managed, I managed to stay awake for this recording.

Thank you for listening. I wish everybody well. Hope that I managed to bore you to sleep.

And sorry for Andre's passing of wind earlier. He's, I can't believe he keeps doing that. That's why it's probably best, you know, if I do it in the shed, he can't, but it's okay.

Well, I'm going to go now. So thank you for listening. And remember to be kind to yourself because you deserve to be happy.

Lots of love. Bye.