[00:00:01] Hello and welcome to JasonNewland.com My name is... ...yawny rub hands together, that's my nickname. My name is Jason Newland. Please only listen when you can safely close your eyes.

[00:00:31] ...and this is Let Me Boy To Sleep. And today it is... ...Q&A Friday. Yes. It's a little bit late, a little bit late, but... ...I've been busy. I've been very busy. So before I go on, I'll just give you a little update on what's been going on this week.

[00:00:58] ...dip-a-dip-a-doo. Wow, I think the live... Actually I did go to do a recording on Wednesday, but I just gave up because I didn't... ...wasn't in the mood. So I kind of did about 20 minutes and I just turned it off. ...I... ...I did one on Tuesday. Didn't do one Thursday. So yeah, done a little bit less than normal this week. But I have been...

[00:01:29] ...very busy with my website. I've been working on my website. Not just... ...the website... ...um... ...as far as what it looks like on... ...a laptop or a tablet. But also adapting it for... ...mobile phones. ...to make sure it works... ...correctly. So I've changed a few things.

[00:02:01] ...um... ...if you've been on there recently, or you know, if you was there a couple of weeks ago, then you'll... ...if you go back, you'll see. It's very different. It's just nicer. Looks nicer. So I've got the podcasts... ...which is in the index. And they're all listed. But there's images of the podcasts. You can just click on the podcast. And that takes you to the... ...all the latest recordings.

[00:02:30] Or... ...if you want to find out where my podcasts are on... ...the various different apps, just click on Podcast Apps. I've got Audible. I'm boring myself already. That's quick.

[00:02:50] There's Apple Podcasts, Audible, Amazon Music, Podcast App, Castbox, Deezer, Luminary, Podcast Republic, Player FM, Podcast Addict, Podcast Index, Podchaser, Podfriend, Podverse, Podbeam, ...Spreaker, Spotify, and SoundCloud. It's basically alphabetical order really from top to bottom.

[00:03:20] Apart from... ...it's not all actually. It's just the A's at the top. And the S's are at the bottom. But other than that, it's... ...yeah. It's kind of alphabetical. And again, they're all got images. So before it was just text that you clicked on. This is images now. So... ...if you click on Apple Podcasts, for example.

[00:03:48] And then it gives you a list of all the different podcasts. And then you can click on... ...let's say, for example, let me bore your pain away. And that takes you to... ...let me bore your pain away on Apple Podcasts. It's just a different way of doing it. It might be a useful thing. So if you're on Castbox and you don't know where my... ...let me bore you to sleep podcast is, you just click on... ...podcast apps.

[00:04:17] Go down, click on Castbox. Click on let me bore you to sleep. And it brings you to the let me bore you to sleep... ...podcast. On Castbox. So it's...yeah. It's kind of... I think it's easy to use. Other than that... I'm in the middle of redoing the playlists. So... ...at the moment, I've got four...

[00:04:46] ...four different podcasts... ...that I've been working on. So let me bore you to sleep. Okay. There's a few changes on it. Oh, okay. So let me bore you to sleep. The infrastructure is built for these. But they're not all updated yet. Let me bore you to sleep. Deep sleep. Whisper hypnosis. Relax and sleep hypnosis daily. And relaxation of stress and panic attacks.

[00:05:16] So with these... So let's say for example... ...you click on... ...playlists. And then you click on let me bore you to sleep. It gives you six different options. Without music. With music. Five hours without music. Five hours with music. Ten hours without music. Ten hours with music. At the moment, I'm working on the ones without music. Because I think the first thousand...

[00:05:45] ...of the let me bore you to sleep ones... ...are without music. Although I might remedy that. So if you click on let me bore you to sleep... ...you click on without music. And then you've got all the way up from one to fifty. Again, these are images. So it's not just text anymore. Just makes it a little bit easier visually to... ...manipulate and to manoeuvre. To... I don't know. What's another word for that?

[00:06:15] Navigate. And... ...it goes down to... ...the last one is... ...1351... ...to 1400. Only one. The one to fifty is on there at the moment. And you click on that and that will take you to... ...the podcast. And it's exactly the same as when you go onto the homepage.

[00:06:40] You can download, you can stream, you can save it for yourself. It tells you how big the file is. Tells you how long the recording is. So yeah. And... ...there's all fifty on there. That's it. So I'm quite pleased with that. It's... ...it's taken... ...a lot of hours to put this together. It may...

[00:07:09] ...may not seem like much, but it's taken a long time. Because I've been... ...to get it so it works... ...fine... ...on the... ...phone... ...for the images and everything to be together and to be the same size. And... ...it's taken a bit of... ...code... ...code work as it were. So I'm gonna have a break from the... ...the website today.

[00:07:37] I'll do this recording now. And I'm probably not gonna bother with the website. I probably will actually, but I'm probably... ...yeah, I'm gonna not get... The problem is... ...if I could finish a sentence. That's one of the things I've got problems with. The problem is... ...I struggle to let... ...to stop doing something. Once I start... ...especially...

[00:08:07] ...I gotta move that metal thing... ...keep banging it... ...on my desk. Once I start doing these things... ...for example... ...working on the podcast apps... ...there's so much to do. There's a lot of... ...it's quite intricate... ...in a sense of... ...I don't know... ...some of it is just copy-paste... ...but it's remembering where to paste... ...and what to change... ...and changing sizes of images...

[00:08:36] ...and pasting in the... ...the link... ...to the podcast... ...and making it all kind of align with each other. There's quite a lot involved in it. So I'm pretty pleased with how it's working out... ...so far. I've got a few other ideas... ...of what I want to do as well... ...to make it a little bit easier... ...to navigate around the website. In some ways... ...you could say...

[00:09:05] ...I've turned my website into an app. Kind of. In a way. Now... ...kind of. Because you know... ...you've got the homepage... ...which is just the website. It's the podcast. But if you click on podcasts... ...then it gives you... ...all the different podcasts... ...then you can choose one you want. So say for example... ...relax...

[00:09:34] ...let's say stop smoking. Click on that. Okay that's not a good example... ...because that link's not done yet. That's not a good example either. Oh that's podcasts. Yeah okay. So you can go directly to the podcast. Or... ...if you want to go to the playlists... ...you know the... ...all the different types. So again... ...click on there... ...let me avoid his sleep... ...with music... ...about music... ...whatever. So... ...yeah.

[00:10:02] ...it seems appy... ...if that's such a word. So... ...I'll get on with the recording. And... ...not a lot going on... ...I've just been working on this. Uh... ...got a letter. Got a letter. Let me... ...I'd like to read you out my letters... ...let's have a look.

[00:10:33] Read you my latest letters. What's this one? ... Your income-related employment and support allowance... ...ESA payments will end. Oh! Um... ...so... ...it end on the 1st of the 5th, 2025. Will end. They sent me this on the 2nd of May. I didn't get it till about 3 days ago.

[00:11:01] How it takes so long to get here... ...I'll never know. I mean, it's coming all the way from Wolverhampton... ...so I mean, unless they sent it on the back of a donkey. Um... We've received your universal credit... ...UC claim... ...and we sent a plane... ...to drop off... ...um... ...your final payment of the ESA... ...covers the period 1st of the 5th... ...to the 14th of the 5th.

[00:11:34] So... ...I honestly... ...I think I've had my last payment... ...which... ...means... ...I've got... ...wow... ...two weeks... ...two weeks... ...but then I've got another letter.

[00:12:03] This is from the council... ...the council... ...city council. This letter... ...it doesn't have a... ...oh... ...is 6th of May. This letter is important. Dear Mr Newland... ...this letter is important. You must read all of it carefully... ...and you must inform... ...this office... ...immediately... ...if your circumstances change. Go to... ...blah... ...blah... ...blah... ...blah... ...blah... ...the Department for Work and Pensions... ...had advisors.

[00:12:34] Here... ...here's something... ...right... ...okay... ...this is the first thing I notice... ...because I always look for a month... ...just like if there's any kind of... ...financial thing on there... ...as in with pound signs... ...because... ...it's just... ...it's just... ...it's the first thing I notice... ...really. Of the additional award... ...mentioned above... ...so the Department... ...oh okay... ...the Department of...

[00:13:02] ...for Work and Pensions... ...has advised us... ...that you have... ...started claiming... ...universal credit... ...and that you qualify... ...for an additional... ...two weeks extension... ...of your housing benefit... ...known as... ...transition... ...to UC... ...housing payment. Of the additional award... ...mentioned above... ...168.90... ...has been recovered... ...against previously... ...notified overpayment.

[00:13:32] Overpayment? How? How is it an overpayment? Then it says... ...if you are worried about... ...paying your rent... ...bills or living expenses... ...we can help. If you are struggling... ...to find your... ...to pay your bills... ...for any reason... ...speak to the financial... ...equality and well-being teams today. Okay... ...so... ...you know... ...suddenly you owe this money... ...and then...

[00:14:01] ...it's been recovered. So I was like... ...confused about that. Like... ...what's going on? So then it says... ...another one... ...another letter... ...dear Mr. Newland... ...this letter... ...is also important. You must also read... ...all of this carefully... ...and you must inform... ...blah blah blah blah... ...so... ...you claim for your... ...no... ...the claim for benefit... ...has been looked at... ...because... ...managed migration... ...to Universal Credit... ...successfully...

[00:14:31] ...and your benefit... ...has been stopped... ...from the 1st of May... ...2025. Yee... ...so... ...pretty much... ...I think... ...oh no... ...I think it's the... ...8th of June... ...before I get paid... ...oh... ...I'm confused... ...the housing costs... ...will now be paid... ...within your Universal Credit Award... ...please contact...

[00:15:00] ...your work coach... ...if you have any changes... ...or the costs are incorrect... ...if you are... ...blah blah blah blah blah... ...as your entitlement... ...has ended... ...any overpayments... ...which were previously... ...overpaid... ...or recovered... ...or blah blah blah... ...via deductions... ...from the housing benefit payment... ...will now end... ...as such... ...if you have any outstanding... ...over... ...I just like... ...too much information... ...and then it says here... ...you have been overpaid... ...168 pound 90... ...housing benefit...

[00:15:29] ...of this overpayment... ...168 pound 90... ...is non-recoverable... ...and therefore... ...only the balance of zero... ...will be recovered... ...will be recovered... ...does anyone understand... ...what that means... ...any ideas... ...anyone... ...I really don't... ...you have been overpaid... ...168 pound 90... ...housing benefit...

[00:15:58] ...of this overpayment... ...168 pound 90... ...is non-recoverable... ...and therefore... ...only the balance of zero... ...will be recovered... ...I get from that... ...that there's nothing to pay... ...they've written it off... ...but have they written it off... ...because worded... ...very strangely... ...the reason for the overpayment... ...is managed migration... ...which has been calculated... ...as follows... ...from the 1st of the 5th... ...2025... ...to the 12th of the 5th... ...2025...

[00:16:28] ...one week... ...and four days... ...old award... ...107 pound 48... ...new award zero... ...weekly amount overpaid... ...107 pound 48... ...total amount overpaid... ...168 pound 90... ...it doesn't make sense... ...I don't understand it... ...I know the 107 pound... ...that's the rent... ...for a week... ...your repayment... ...will be accepted...

[00:16:57] ...without prejudice... ...to any further action... ...if you are... ...it doesn't make... ...the way they've worded it... ...is so... ...I'm going to say obtuse... ...because I don't know... ...what that means... ...but... ...I heard someone say it... ...once on a video... ...about 1982... ...I think it was... ...a Steve Martin movie... ...oh...

[00:17:27] ...so I don't know... ...confusing... ...very confusing... ...right... ...they've also... ...they have agreed to... ...pay my rent directly... ...to the housing benefit... ...and they've also agreed... ...to pay me every two weeks... ...from the 8th of... ...I think it's the 8th of June... ...and they'll let me know... ...on the 4th of June... ...what I'm getting...

[00:17:57] ...so... ...er... ...is going to be... ...an interesting period... ...the next couple of weeks... ...I'll... ...I'll find out Wednesday... ...on the 21st... ...whether or not... ...it's fine... ...I'm just going to go around... ...I'm going to have to start collecting... ...the money people owe me... ...and I... ...go around... ...you know all that money... ...that I've been lending you... ...over the last 10 years...

[00:18:27] ...and you thought... ...that you didn't have to pay it back... ...you see this baseball bat in my hand... ...you do have to pay it back... ...okay... ...right... ...back to seriousness... ...any questions for this Friday... ...so let's have a look... ...oh today Vinny started barking... ...like proper... ...and it sounded like someone was at my door... ...and I went... ...nothing there... ...and he's barking again... ...it really sounded like someone was... ...pushing on the door...

[00:18:56] ...the front door... ...so I just went out... ...as I do... ...just like... ...I wonder what's going on... ...it's a pigeon... ...someone's left the back door open... ...downstairs... ...it's come up... ...flying... ...bashing into each window... ...trying to get out... ...poor little thing... ...so... ...I got a hammer... ...I got my baseball bat... ...and I thought...

[00:19:25] ...what am I going to do... ...this has happened before... ...it's not the first time... ...so... ...I didn't have a towel... ...but I did have a... ...like a t-shirt... ...so I got a t-shirt... ...not the one I was wearing... ...it's a different t-shirt... ...and... ...I was trying to chuck it over the... ...pigeon... ...it wasn't like a... ...big pigeon... ...more like a dove-sized pigeon... ...in fact it might be the dove... ...and... ...was trying to chuck it over it... ...but it wasn't going over...

[00:19:54] ...the pigeon was just moving its head... ...and just knocking it off... ...and just looking at me... ...and then when I went down... ...it flew off again... ...smashed against the window... ...in the end... ...it just... ...it let... ...let me pick it up... ...and actually wrapped his... ...or her... ...I think it was a girl actually... ...wrapped... ...her hands... ...fingers... ...round my fingers... ...and I was stroking her... ...and just carrying it...

[00:20:24] ...carried it downstairs... ...and for a little while... ...she was just... ...standing on my hand... ...just looking around... ...and I was just talking to her... ...and then I started telling her a story... ...I thought I'd... ...tell her about the chip shop... ...that I used to work in... ...and she was off... ...but yeah... ...just went into the tree... ...I think... ...it's probably...

[00:20:52] ...a relative of Horace... ...maybe his girlfriend... ...I'm gonna say... ...probably his daughter... ...to be fair... ...because she's quite young... ...he's been around for 10 years... ...since I moved in... ...right... ...so... ...other than that... ...anything else that's happened? ...can't think of anything... ...even mildly... ...interesting... ...well there's never gonna be... ...anything interesting... ...but it's not a lot going on... ...ah...

[00:21:22] ...ah... ...a neighbour just phoned me up... ...while I was doing this recording... ...asking me if I had any... ...antidepressants... ...these like... ...solitoprim... ...or whatever they are... ...and I said no... ...don't have those... ...that medication... ...I said... ...I've got a few spare of my own... ...but... ...you won't want to take my medication... ...it's a different medication... ...and it's... ...you know... ...shouldn't mix that stuff... ...plus it takes... ...takes quite a few weeks to kick in...

[00:21:52] ...the old... ...fluoxetine... ...so... ...Maria... ...first question... ...Hi Jason... ...how long ago... ...did you last... ...visit Thailand... ...how long did you stay... ...and did you enjoy the food there? ...I don't think I ate any of the food there...

[00:22:21] ...to be honest... ...I just ate... ...normal food... ...human food... ...I didn't... ...I mean for one... ...I was not going to eat the street food... ...and it smelled amazing... ...but I was not going to eat the street food... ...just through... ...I wouldn't eat street food in this country... ...so I'm definitely not going to eat street food... ...abroad... ...yeah... ...when I went... ...it was kind of...

[00:22:50] ...during the COVID... ...between the COVID... ...oh god you said the words... ...sorry... ...that period... ...like 2021... ...I think it was... ...so... ...they... ...even though we were pretty much... ...we weren't in lockdown here... ...they were in lockdown there... ...not to the point of banning anyone... ...was visiting... ...but... ...he had to wear masks... ...he was in every shop... ...had to...

[00:23:18] ...I mean people were wearing masks in the street... ...it was... ...you know... ...it was pretty full on... ...had to... ...had to have your blood... ...your temperature done... ...before entering any... ...any places... ...any establishments... ...has to do that... ...and there's hand wash everywhere... ...so it was... ...it was very... ...yeah... ...it was a bit of a weird time... ...and... ...a lot of the restaurants were closed... ...a lot of... ...everything was closed... ...when I went there...

[00:23:48] ...actually... ...so... ...I stayed in a... ...like a hotel place... ...luckily... ...when I stayed... ...I stayed in this place... ...which was a... ...a sports bar... ...loads of TVs... ...all around the place... ...including two outside... ...remember I watched the boxing... ...that was cool... ...and... ...the... ...they had food there... ...so I ate every day there...

[00:24:18] ...and it was really... ...burgers and stuff like that... ...to be honest with you... ...you know... ...I wasn't very... ...I wasn't very creative... ...with my food choices... ...but they were catering for Westerners... ...well... ...Westerners and Australians... ...mainly Australians... ...it was an Australian bar... ...run by Australian people... ...and... ...other than me...

[00:24:47] ...I think everyone in... ...all the customers were Australian... ...that were like... ...staying... ...living there... ...and would visit as well... ...so it's a very... ...I mean there was a few people... ...that weren't Australian... ...all the staff... ...other than the owners... ...the staff weren't Australian... ...but there's the... ...they wouldn't be allowed to work there... ...in Thailand... ...you have to be Thai... ...to work in... ...most jobs actually... ...most...

[00:25:17] ...I've done a little bit of research... ...into that and... ...you can... ...if you've got a share in a place... ...you can work... ...but you can't take a Thai job... ...so technically... ...if you've got... ...you know... ...49% share in a restaurant... ...you work in that restaurant... ...you're not... ...you're not taking someone else's job... ...because it's your... ...business isn't it? ...or it's 50%... ...49% your business... ...so...

[00:25:47] ...that's when I visited... ...it's quite a long time ago... ...and... ...it wasn't long... ...I had... ...I had a chest infection... ...so... ...I was just... ...I can't remember... ...it was just over two weeks... ...two and a bit weeks... ...and I came back... ...I was... ...I was there for... ...two days I think... ...it's getting vague...

[00:26:18] ...to be honest... ...it was a bit of a non-event... ...really... ...it wasn't... ...it wasn't really... ...what I didn't realise is... ...that's it Vinny... ...can you make it more noise please? ...brilliant... ...thanks... ...I'll tell you the most weird way... ...he has absolutely destroyed this bag... ...which had his treat in... ...chewy chicken twists...

[00:26:48] ...right... ...he's destroyed it... ...it's empty... ...and he's destroyed it... ...I gave him... ...that bag... ...when it had one left in it... ...and he just looked at it... ...for about an hour and a half... ...so he'll destroy it... ...and rip it open... ...when there's nothing in it... ...but when there's something in it... ...he won't even attempt... ...to open it... ...what's weird... ...and that's strange behaviour...

[00:27:20] ...yeah... ...it wasn't... ...it wasn't the right time... ...it wasn't really the right time... ...for me to go... ...really... ...i just... ...I just got a... like a rebate, a benefit rebate actually from previous years, something that I should have got paid and I wasn't. And I decided just to, I had to get away from here.

[00:27:49] Things are just difficult living here for, you know. I mean, I basically turned into a carer in some ways. My friend always said to me, I'm his carer. And I said, no, I'm not your carer. But it did, I think emotionally I was, you know. I just constantly worried about him just for years, for years and years. So I needed to get away.

[00:28:20] And, you know, I gave him a little bit of money as well when I got that money. Paid off my debts and went away. I did the old, gave a load of food out to people that were hungry. So that was the highlight for me. That was, you could say almost the highlight of my life

[00:28:46] is handing out hundreds of, like, meals and whatever it was. I can't remember how many it was, but I did it two days in a row. And it was kind of the best thing I've ever done or feeling-wise. It just felt amazing. So it was worth it for that.

[00:29:12] I know I could have, I could have done the same thing here. It's, you know, I don't know, just for some reason. I wanted to go to a Buddhist country. I wanted to see how, what Buddhist people like. Like people that were born into Buddhism. Not just, like in this country, you know, it's something that,

[00:29:40] you know, there are people born into it in this country. But they're, if they're Westerners, then the people, their parents probably weren't born into it and they've just raised their kids in that kind of way. But to be, to live in a country where everybody, going back many, many, many, many years, you know,

[00:30:10] all born as Buddhists, all raised as Buddhists, I just found that an interesting thing to be around. And I could see the difference. I could see the difference in, in the mentality. There might not have been anything to do with the religion, but, and most of them didn't practice the religion anyway. But, you know, they, it was the foundation of,

[00:30:40] their belief system was the foundation of their, of their culture, which I just found it interesting. So, enjoyed the food. Probably the best food I had when I was there was apple pie and ice cream.

[00:31:10] Yeah, that was nice. So, the cook in the, um, that bar, it was a bar, but it was also like hotel as well, the sports bar, the cooking there. I got really well with her and she would, um, she made sure she got lots of pies in for me. So, I could have an apple pie and ice cream after my meals. And I had a cooked breakfast every morning.

[00:31:40] And also, so I basically ate, I'd eat twice a day there. So, I'd eat breakfast, cooked breakfast, then I'd have, when I was out, I'd probably see if I could get something maybe in McDonald's or, um, I'm trying to think. Just have a look around, see if there's other places. Some places, I went, oh God, I went in one place, which was, it was terrible.

[00:32:09] It was really bad. It was, I think it was called the Nag's Head. and, apparently, it used to be owned by Kevin Keegan. That's what they said, because pictures of him on the, on the wall. That was, uh, Kevin Keegan was like a, superstar footballer in the, early 80s, in the UK. Well, worldwide as well, I think. And,

[00:32:39] he had curly hair. That's not, I'd say it's not relevant, but it was, because, it was, the fashion back then. The amount of people, the amount of boys, that were getting their hair curled, permed, to look like Kevin Keegan, because he was, a superstar. Footballer. So, I went in there, and, I think, it was a, it was a cooked breakfast.

[00:33:10] And, I think it was, some beans, an egg, which, I'm not sure what kind of egg it was. Some bacon, that did not look like bacon. And, some sausages, the type that I give Vinnie. Like, they're not sausages, they're those, bendy, rubbery ones. Um, I just, ugh.

[00:33:40] I mean, I'm pretty sure they just didn't have any food in. I possibly was the only customer they'd had for a while. So, I just, I said, thanks. And, I, yeah, left. Well, I ate it first, but I ate some of it. Yeah, it wasn't, wasn't great. I did go to a Thai restaurant.

[00:34:07] I had a pizza. So, yeah, I don't think I had even one bit of Thai food the whole time I was there. Yeah. I have had Thai food. I've had it in this country. But, I didn't have anyone kind of, because I, you know, back when I was in London, I'd go on dates,

[00:34:37] and, the, some of the people that I'd go on dates with, they'd be much more open culturally, to new things. And because you can, you can pretty much eat any food from anywhere in the world in London. Like, any type of food. So, you know, I've been in Vietnam, Vietnamese, I've been in Thai, I've been in Spanish, Italian, French, whatever.

[00:35:06] Lots of different places. And, there's always, I always felt that pressure to kind of, be involved, you know. To, show that I'm, open minded. And I, order something, without knowing what it is, sometimes. I deeply regret it. And as I got older, I just thought, you know what, no.

[00:35:37] If I go into a Chinese restaurant, I probably am going to order, an omelette, and chips. Or, an omelette, and fried rice. Egg fried rice. You know, I, I know what I like, and, that's what I like. I like omelettes. And, yeah, I'm sure that, sure the Thai food's amazing. I mean, people,

[00:36:07] I mean, some people go to Thailand, for, the Thai food. It's the, the thing they look forward to most, because, I guess it's the most authentic, Thai food you're going to get. It's like, the most, authentic, any food you're going to get, is in the country of origin, I imagine. I'm sure, if you want a, the best burger, then, you have to go to where the first, I don't even know, America? Is that where the burgers, come from?

[00:36:37] Or, if you want the first, mushy pea, you want the best mushy peas, you've got to go up north. Or, if you want the, the best, fried Mars bar, you've got to, go up north. Or, if you want the best, fish and chips, probably go up north. Or, maybe Scotland, or, I don't know. But, UK, I imagine,

[00:37:07] for fish and chips, probably the best fish and chips, you'll get in the world, would probably be in this country. It might, I might be wrong. It's just, because it's our heritage, it's our, you know, goes back, centuries. I don't know if that's true or not. Right, Kathleen asks me, I've got a lot of questions to get through, just to let you know that, there's loads.

[00:37:35] I'm kind of surprised at how, is there? 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9. There's 9, but there's 13 comments. So, I'm not quite sure. Oh, okay, one's got one reply, and one's got three replies. So, there's 9 questions.

[00:38:03] The next one is from Kathleen. Couple of questions, JJ. Or, love in his floppy ear, is he able to straighten it, or is it always floppy? He can, he can straighten it. Sometimes, if he's, I'm trying to think, oh, I'm just doing the, I'm straightening my hands, to show you, the ears, not being floppy,

[00:38:33] but you can't see that, can you? When there's a sound, got his attention, his ears do stick up, both of them. But, I saw a picture, of, his mummy, and his mummy, also had a floppy ear. Let's have a look. I've got it on here. I think I've got it on here. Unless, I haven't. Sometimes,

[00:39:03] if I've got any pictures, of Vinnie, right, okay, that's, I've got a picture, of Vinnie, when he was a baby, on here. I'm pretty sure, there's a picture, of him with his mummy. Like, his, you know, birth mummy.

[00:39:44] I do, that's something, that, I kind of, wish that I'd, oh, there's a little, cute, he's in a cage. Never liked the idea, of putting him, dogs in cages. Never been, something that I've, I don't know. There's something, about being in a cage, I guess, that he's, I mean it can be, for their own safety, anyway, can't it? But, he's in this, cage, which is probably, I guess was there,

[00:40:13] prepared for, multiple puppies, and he was the only puppy. And he's laying on his back, he's got his little hands, in the air, and he's tiny. You know, absolutely tiny. And it doesn't, I don't have a date on this. I got a date when it was sent, 14th of January, 2023. January,

[00:40:43] 2023? No. 2000, January, 2000, no, he wouldn't have sent it to me, 2023. That's her date, isn't it? What's my date?

[00:41:15] It wasn't January, 2023. 2023. I didn't even know her, in January, 2023. I didn't get him to, erm, I'm losing track of time. 2023? But I thought I got him, November, 2023.

[00:41:46] But I didn't, did I? I got him, I got him in, 2022. November, 2022. 2022. Stop it, mate. Don't be barking. 2022.

[00:42:18] 2022. So, November, 2022. November, 2023. November, 2024. Not, it was December, wasn't it? 2023, 24. 24, two years, and like, five months, four months, five months. So, yeah. So, I got him in December, 2023. 2022.

[00:42:48] So, she must have sent me those pictures, yeah, in the January. Okay. Oh, that just threw me off for a second then. There's a picture of him with his mummy somewhere. I just can't, find it. Unless, it's on my laptop, which it could be. Let's have a look to look. Let's have a look on my laptop. My laptop.

[00:43:19] Oh, Vinny's found another fly. Vinny. Vinny, Vinny, Vinny, Vinny, Vinny, Vinny, Vinny, Vinny. Oh, I don't know where. Vinny, Vinny, Vinny, Vinny, Vinny. Vinny, Vinny, Vinny, Vinny. Vinny, Vinny, Vinny. My new setup with Vinny. Vinny at mummy's. Nope.

[00:43:47] That was his baby Vinny. No, I can't find it. It's here somewhere. It's here somewhere. I've got a picture of Logie. Logie and Vinny last day together. Oh, got a little image. He don't care. He's just there, just chilled out. Vinny's looking at me.

[00:44:20] He was looking at his watch. How much longer have we got before we get rid of him? I said, you're missing. When he's moved out, you're missing. I won't. I want my house back. I want my bed back. I said, it's my bed, Vinny. It's not your bed. It's my bed. Okay, I want our bed back. He's got a proper attitude on him. So, um,

[00:44:50] yes, he's always had the floppy ear, but his mummy, his biological mum, had the floppy ear as well. Don't know about his dad. Oh, itchy bum. The, both his parents had, were red, but he was the only one that was red all over. I mean, he's got a little bit of white on his belly and a little bit on his neck,

[00:45:20] but he's pretty much, and he's on his, he's got a little, couple of little, little socks, little white socks on. Other than that, and gloves, but he's pretty much red all over. He knows I'm talking about him. Probably because I just keep saying his name. Vinny, Vinny, Vinny.

[00:45:47] Will you be getting a new bathroom like your neighbours? Cheers. Kathleen. It looks like no. So my neighbours downstairs, to be fair, there was a, there was a reason why she got a new bathroom, because she needed,

[00:46:16] it wasn't because she needed a new bathroom, as in, the old one was too old. It was, it was, it was, um, I don't know how to, how to word it, but it was something that was required, if you know what I mean. So it wasn't something, that they just got round to doing, because it was time. It was needed to be done. And she, and my neighbour downstairs, he'd get a kitchen, and that was basically due to time.

[00:46:45] It was time to redo them. My neighbour opposite, has had his, kitchen done, he's having his bathroom done, and he's having his windows done. And when they came round to, he knew he's, he's known about the windows for a few months. He's just waiting to sort of find out when they're going to come and do them. But he didn't know about the bathroom until the other day, when they came to measure up. So, but he's, he's lived there for 30 odd years.

[00:47:15] He's never had anything new at all, the whole time he's been there. So, you know, it's, I really don't know. I don't, it doesn't, I asked the council, I saw the council lady, a lady from the council, on Wednesday. they came round to check the bathroom downstairs to make sure it was all, all okay and sign it off. And,

[00:47:44] I had a little word with the, with the lady and said, when am I going to have one? I cut a few onions first, before I went down there. Um, just to, so I can cry and seem upset. Here's a little clue though, if you're going to do that, before going up to someone, and, you know, cut up onions in order to cry, to, in order to, you know, get the old,

[00:48:14] uh, emotions going with the other person. If you're going to shake the hand, put the onions down first. That's all I'm going to say. Um, Tammy asks, can hypnosis be an effective tool in reshaping our subconscious patterns? Don't know. Next, I don't know, that's, that's a, that's a hard question. Um,

[00:48:48] I'll tell you what, I'll tell you the biggest thing, just based on my, studies, the biggest thing that affects us, uh, let's say unconscious, I call it unconscious, but subconscious, unconscious, patterning, is, our conscious mind, what we do, what we listen to, what we think,

[00:49:17] our experiences, stuff like that, is what shapes us. Reshaping, doing something different, thinking differently, on purpose, purposefully, um, so, for example, if someone was constantly thinking about their illness, start thinking about something different, because, we get what we think about,

[00:49:46] you know, we, we become what we think about, because we're basically, it's kind of weird, I've seen all these different angles, all these different things, and it all kind of points to the same thing, to the same, conclusion, and that is, that our thoughts, so powerful, on ourselves, it's almost like,

[00:50:16] um, what we consciously think, what you purposefully think, not what you think automatically, what you purposely think, affects, your brain, affects, your body, affects, your, let's say, unconscious mind, affects those automatic, thinking, processes,

[00:50:45] now none of that might have made any sense, not even to me, but, I kind of, I'm starting to look at hypnosis, in a different way, to how I used to look at it, and, belief, expectations, is almost,

[00:51:16] is so important, just generally, what we expect to happen, has a huge effect, on what does happen, how we expect to feel, you know, for someone that, it's just proven, so many times, in experiments, uh, it's just like, uh, when I was 17, uh, mentioned this a few,

[00:51:46] a couple of weeks ago, went to a party, it was held, it was at the chip shop, but we went to my boss's house, and, we were drinking, they gave me, they all were in it, in on it, they gave me, non-alcoholic lager, so, every time I went to get a can, they said, no, no, I'll get it for you, I thought they were just being nice, but they were all in on it, and, they were laughing, when I was talking, so I thought I was also being funny,

[00:52:17] so, you know, and, I got drunk, and, there was no different, not being drunk before, there was no difference, there really wasn't any difference, between, drinking alcohol, and not drinking alcohol, because I thought I was drinking alcohol, and all those chemicals in my brain, kicked off,

[00:52:46] they just did their thing, and I was expecting to feel a certain way, and I felt that way, now, a good chance is, if they hadn't told me, I may well have gone home, I may well have been ill, I may well have woken up with a, with a hangover, that's how powerful, belief is, when you believe that something's, you know, you believe that non-alcoholic lager is,

[00:53:15] alcoholic lager, you know, it's just, I mean, that was, that was quite a good thing to happen, in one way, it was horrible, horribly embarrassing, and, quite, I think it's a very cruel thing to do, actually, to be honest, but hey, but it was, a learning experience, and,

[00:53:44] when you think that was, 40 years ago, 38 years ago, I mean, it's kind of crazy, 38 years, on all different things I've learned, since then, comes back to that, is belief, and, with all the religious stuff, that I've kind of studied, and, I've been interested in religion, different religions,

[00:54:15] since, since I was a kid, I don't know why, just, it wasn't so much, interested in, the, the specifics, of the religion, or, the rules, I was fascinated, by why people did it, I was fascinated, and I have, I still am really, I understand it, a little bit more, now, than I used to, I think,

[00:54:44] but just fascinated, how, why, well, I kind of understand, why people need, religion, but I can, there's like, two sides to it, because I've seen, the damage, it like from a, I don't want to say damage, but how someone, can turn it, to be in a negative, so, I knew someone that, was,

[00:55:14] they lost someone, close to them, that person's gone to heaven, good, good thing, you know, that's a kind of a, a positive way, to deal with it, they've gone to heaven, they're happy now, they're now, um, they're not suffering anymore, that kind of, I know it's cliche stuff, but it's, it was, it was, it's got to be helpful, it can't not be really, can it, it's like, so okay,

[00:55:45] I'm going to see them again soon, that's nice, so it's not the last time, you ever see them, so there's that belief, it can be comforting, but then that belief, turned for this one person, I'm thinking about, turned into, I want to be with them now, and it's like, no, and they tried to be, with them now,

[00:56:15] as it were, this is a, few years ago, and I'm like, well, it's really hard, what do you do with that, it's like, okay, well, if you didn't believe, in that belief system, that religious belief system, then, you wouldn't be doing that, because you wouldn't be, trying to be with them, if you didn't believe, you could be with them, you, perhaps just have to, find a way, to move on with your life,

[00:56:45] so yeah, it's, it's a complicated thing, but I've just seen, some of the things, that people do, a lot of it's been, on the news, to be fair, but, based on belief, based on, their expectations, of what's going to happen, to them, or if they're going to be rewarded, even if it's doing, a non good thing, I'm keeping this very vague,

[00:57:16] so, it's, really powerful, if you take anyone, having the chance, to raise a child, is a chance, to raise your own little angel, or your own little monster, or your own little, confused creature, that doesn't know what, I mean,

[00:57:45] I just don't think, individual human beings, necessarily, always, I know I wouldn't, I wouldn't, have the capacity, to raise a child, in a way, that they needed, to be raised, I don't think, I mean, some people do have that, some people, like me, probably don't, I don't think, I'm patient enough, but it's really weird, to just think,

[00:58:14] how much, you can, forge, a child's brain, and their mind, by the stuff you say, by what they see you do, what they hear you say, the behaviour, your belief structure, what you tell them, things like, as fact, when it's just an opinion, and they believe it, and they will literally, do anything, to back up, because you've said it, so therefore, it's true,

[00:58:45] and I've seen that, in action, and, I had a friend, that, and I told his mum this, I said, you know what, my friend who passed away, at his funeral, I told his mum, do you realise, that he believed, every single thing, you said to him, and she laughed, and I said, serious, if you came in here now, and told everyone, okay if you, okay not now, but,

[00:59:15] if you, if you told him, on a Tuesday, that it was a Thursday, he would stick to that, he said it's a Thursday, my mum said it's a Thursday, so it's a Thursday, even if everyone's walking around, with t-shirts on, saying it's Tuesday, and, the TV comes on saying, we're celebrating Tuesday, day to day, he would just, completely ignore that,

[00:59:46] factual information, because his mum said, it was Thursday, and he wouldn't back down, not for anything, I've never had that, connection with anyone, to, to believe, what they say, so, I've, I've, I've heard so much BS, ever since I was born, so much just silly stuff, that I realised, that, nobody,

[01:00:18] is, going to be telling the truth, the whole time, because a lot of it, is just made up, a lot of it is, it might be truthful to them, but it might be, someone else's lie, and opinions, and all that stuff, so, I think I've benefited, in a way, from not being, in that sort of, stuck structure, of, I believe this, and I'm never going to change, how I think, I believe this, so,

[01:00:49] I kind of don't have that, I think life would be, a lot easier if I did, to be fair, I said to be fair, three times now, to be honest, I don't like to be honest, and I've kind of moved away, probably from what you were asking, so what, what's my favourite ice cream, okay, it is, I like, no, everything we do, this is my little belief,

[01:01:19] everything we do, affects, us, whether it's our belief system, whether it's, and our beliefs, I mean some people's, it's hard, for their belief system to change, but I've seen my belief systems change, in like an instant, one example is,

[01:01:50] I have a real issue, with motorbikes, just the sound of them, that's all it is, I don't like loud sounds, never have done, probably never will do, maybe, I've got a theory, what that is, but it's, it's, it's just part of my brain, I can't, I can't deal with loud, really loud sounds, I don't even have loud music on, you know,

[01:02:19] I have it on loud enough, so I can hear what I'm listening to, don't, don't even like to put it on louder, if I have to cover up noise in the garden, because it's too loud for me then, so, so I've got an issue, if I see a motorbike revving, I go into that, little angry mode, my little angry smurf, pops up, it's like,

[01:02:48] how could you be so inconsiderate, to me, even when they don't even know I exist, you know, not the smurf, I'm talking about the person on the bike, so I'm thinking, and I'm walking past, I'm just like, and I'm out here, whee, coming from that direction, I look over, bloke puts his visor up, and it's someone that I see regularly, who walks his dog, instantly, that belief,

[01:03:19] okay, not the whole belief about bikes, and noise hasn't changed, because I still have an issue with noise, but the emotions connected to, motorbikes seem to have, eased, definitely eased in that moment anyway, which showed that the, if it can, bend, if a belief system, can bend, quite easily, and be moulded, and sort of curved around,

[01:03:49] quite easily, be manipulated, and, manoeuvred, I'm trying to think of clever words, then it's not really, it's, yeah, if it can be, if it's not that, tightly structured, so they can be moved, and changed, so easily,

[01:04:18] so it's within these flappy ears, then it's not very strong, is it, that belief, that belief is not a very strong belief, if it can, almost transform, instantly, it was never a strong belief, there was never a, really, however strong the emotions were, at times,

[01:04:48] wasn't connected, to a particularly strong, foundation, hmm, hmm, yes, so yeah, I probably can't, I can't answer your question, in a way that, maybe you'd like to hear me answer it, again, I can only assume on that one, I don't know, but, I can't answer it in a way that, you would get in a textbook,

[01:05:17] or in a way that, makes any cognitive sense, probably, I'm just trying to explain, from my perspective, kind of how I map it out, in front of me, going to, like rituals, you got rituals, so you got things like, I know we go, you go, go for back, okay, take a breath, now go,

[01:05:47] from a religious point of view, this country, things like Christianity, aren't from this country, you know, they're not from Africa, they're not from America, Christianity, Islam, Hinduism, Buddhism, none of these religions, are from, the countries, you know, probably most of the people listening,

[01:06:18] so if you go back, to your original country, belief systems, if you're in Australia, or if you're in Canada, if you're in America, if you're in England, in Scotland, in Wales, in Wales, it's, different, it's a completely different, belief structure, that we came from, originally, although I'm 48% Irish, I don't know if I've mentioned that, so,

[01:06:48] my ancestors, my ancestors, were pretty much Irish, Irish, so, that would be Celtic, and, there was a lot of ritual, and it goes back to almost, worshipping the sun, and the wind, and the trees, and, I don't know, I make part of that up, but there's that belief system, you know, people,

[01:07:19] I guess like, carrying a rabbit's foot, or, believing, something's good luck, because it is for them, no matter how ridiculous, it seems to everyone else, I've seen people, that, are superstitious, and, I think nearly everyone, I've seen that's superstitious, in a working environment, are successful,

[01:07:49] I've seen that a few times, and they've been successful, they're actually good, and you mess with their superstitious thing, whether it's, they might have a picture of their, their daughter, on, on the, thing, so if you draw a moustache, on their daughter's photograph, messes their day up, oh dear, whether they're superstitious, or not I suppose, but,

[01:08:20] if they lose the, the, the thing, that they have, as a, I guess kind of like a talisman, or whatever, so, you know, it's, it's belief, and I think next to that, belief, expectations, when you believe something, then you expect something,

[01:08:50] I think you kind of need both, when you've got both together, it makes it very strong, well, super strong, so, so, for example, there was a time when I was confident, going out, confident, that, I would be able to talk, confidently, to ladies, yes, this is, 20, 25 years ago, so, so, it's a while back,

[01:09:20] but I felt confident, and I had that belief, but it wasn't just, it was belief, so, the expectations were based on my belief, but also, that belief was based on previous experience, so, all the previous experience, and all the new experience, was, kind of backing up that belief, confirming it, new evidence, more evidence,

[01:09:49] to confirm it, but I was ignoring the evidence, that was confirming otherwise, because that's what I focused on, so I was, you know, that wasn't all I was doing, I'm just saying, I've just had a period, when I was, fairly, confident, didn't last long, three hours, yeah, so,

[01:10:19] I don't know, I probably haven't answered your question, our subconscious patterns, we can change, what we think about, by just, thinking, on purpose, sometimes it is that, instead of just,

[01:10:49] allowing, I mean, it's just something to be said, for allowing thoughts to come and go, and that's a, kind of meditation in itself, but when you're doing that, you're not holding on to them, you're not following the thoughts, so, in a meditation, if, for example, you just sit, and just, breathe, always, made me laugh, every time, every time, the meditation, leader would say, don't forget to breathe,

[01:11:18] I've never once, forgotten to breathe, and, it's like, you know, swimming, people, you're going swimming, don't forget to swim, really, don't forget to keep above the water, okay, don't forget to eat, I've never forgotten to eat, anyway, so,

[01:11:49] on a recent show, so, I could go on and on about that, all day long, it probably wouldn't make, any more sense, possibly, but, there's something to be said for, just sitting down, allowing your thoughts to just come, but don't follow the thoughts, you will follow them, but once you're in,

[01:12:18] once you notice you're kind of focusing on something, let it go, and then just, just allow the thoughts to come and go, and then when you notice yourself focusing on something, let it go again, and it's kind of a good way to, this is a similar thing, if you want to find out, if you're going to buy,

[01:12:49] take over a restaurant, or let's say it's a, a fast food place, or a chip shop, yeah, it's a chip shop, and you want to find out, the kind of customers you're going to get, you want to find out what it's going to be like, what kind of foot traffic you're going to get, then, you sit in the window, and look out, you sit in there, and watch,

[01:13:15] and the longer you sit, the more of an idea you're going to get, of what's going on, and you start seeing patterns, oh that bloke's come in, he comes in every Tuesday, and every Thursday, oh, he's always got yogurt on his head, you know, just things like that, and, it can be,

[01:13:45] it can be quite interesting to see the, to see, to notice, what you're thinking, without adding anything, without getting into an internal dialogue, or being imaginative, which can also be fun, I suppose, I don't know if I'll answer that, Jonathan, on a recent show, you mentioned a disability of yours,

[01:14:14] but didn't refer to what it was, and also imply, that you may be, don't drive, but curious about both of these, well, oh, that's the thing, with these recordings, I've mentioned it a few times, but I know that sometimes, if, if people fall asleep, or whatever, they just, you're not going to hear what I've talked about, but, I don't, I don't know if I'll mention it too much, but yeah, I have, a,

[01:14:44] I've got bipolar, affective disorder, and, which is classed as a, disability, with me, and, EUPD, so emotionally unstable personality disorder, so they're, they're the two things, it's like mental, mental stuff, that's my, disability, I've got any physical, disabilities,

[01:15:14] but, I do have a, disability bus pass, I do, I'm like an old pensioner now, I do, not allowed to drive, because of the medication I'm on, because it causes drowsiness, and, the, DW, what is it called, the DLP, PL, DL, whatever,

[01:15:45] DW, the driving people, driving, I forget the name, the, the company, the driving place, yeah, they, they didn't ban me, like in a way of like, banning me for, drink driving, or whatever, or speeding, they just banned me from driving, they said, I'm not allowed to drive, this was, quite a few years ago, however, I don't drive, I can't drive,

[01:16:18] so it's one of those weird things, the, when I first got my bus pass, I had to go to, to the driving place, and, get proof, about me not being able to drive, that's the only reason, they would give me a bus pass, so I just went, I just got a letter from the doctor, just to tell them what I was, my situation, and they banned me, I was like, wow, but yeah,

[01:16:47] I don't know, quite, it causes drowsiness, the medications, I think it's probably more to do with that, than my, my road rage potential, I don't know, yeah, I don't know what kind of driver I would be, but yeah, I don't drive, never driven, I've had two sets of driving lessons, one in London, and one in Ipswich, period, in London, 1991,

[01:17:17] what's the point, I was walking faster, than the traffic was driving, I didn't really see, the bigger picture, really, like, of driving outside of London, but inside of London, it didn't seem any point, it's like everything was moving so slowly, and you've got cars, you have to, you can't even drive, you can't, you've got to stop, like every two seconds, to let cars through, because people are parked, both sides of the road,

[01:17:46] because you're not allowed to park, on the pavement in London, which is, I'm glad, that's one of my big pet peeves, people parking on the pavement, I don't know what it is, we've got someone locally, it's an ambulance, they park on the pavement, anyway, yeah, I just got my little pet peeve, people parking on the pavement, they don't, you're not allowed to do that in London, you're not allowed to do it anywhere, in this country, but it's not enforced,

[01:18:15] but in London, it's enforced, so, you literally got to stop, and if there's no car coming, you got to let them through, or they'll let you through, and yeah, so, I just didn't see the point, in driving, plus, I was working, whenever I had the money, to pay for driving lessons, I was working too many hours, to have any time, to take driving lessons,

[01:18:47] so, um, that's that, Joanne, not a question, but if you are thinking about, selling merch, I would definitely wear a t-shirt, that said, I sleep with Jason every night, boy, uh, Tammy says, that's a shirt, I definitely could not wear to work, and I'm thinking, why, and then, Tammy puts,

[01:19:17] someone by the same name, in my office, so I don't want to give them ideas, yeah, that could get awkward, um, by the way, I shouldn't be reading you, about what other people have written, because, you need to join, the boring group, Jason Newland's boring group, if you want to see, what people have written, you need to join man, so, the next one, oh yeah, I've got to answer that question, am I, sorry, um, I was thinking about that,

[01:19:47] I mean, you know, merch, merchandise isn't going to happen, anyway, anytime soon, maybe in the future, um, unless you want to just make some yourself, that'd be cool, maybe put my website at the bottom, my website address, just otherwise, they won't know, who you talking about man, but, yeah, I used to have a t-shirt, with, let me bore you to sleep on it,

[01:20:17] and my website address, people did, did actually look, they used to look at it, it was quite a bright, um, picture, an image, and, I'm not sure, if I had Andre on there, I might have had a picture of Andre on there as well, see, that's the weird thing, I don't think about the future, like, that's the kind of thing, that I should have gotten, and just kept one, isn't it, because I got it printed for me,

[01:20:46] I should have kept, and one, and just kept it somewhere safe, as, as a kind of keepsake, I had, um, a t-shirt with chronic pain relief, on it, the website, I had another one with free pain relief, back in 2006, t-shirt, I remember collecting that, and, again, I just wore it, until it wore out, tell you what I had,

[01:21:16] I had a t-shirt in 1991, and it was a picture of me, it was in the West End, and there was this bloke taking photographs, and, I imagine a lot of people would take a photograph, of their loved one, maybe of their kids, and then having it printed on a t-shirt, for them to wear, but I had a picture of me, and I had it, put it onto a t-shirt, and I wore that t-shirt,

[01:21:46] of myself, no one ever mentioned it, no one ever said anything, maybe it was a baseball bat, um, Sean, this is a question, Sean asks me, how are you able to record dates, so accurately, I have often been drifting off, and you'll be talking about, something you've seen,

[01:22:15] or that happened to you in the past, and you seem to be, very accurately, recall the specific year it happened, it's quite impressive, thank you very much, this question, this question finally, being asked, after you list, the lion, documentary release years, in the Disney trivia episode, you're able to do it, with your stories, so I'll start this question again, because I've just been,

[01:22:45] rudely interrupted by, three different dogs, someone downstairs shouting as well now, brilliant, right,

[01:23:15] here we go, Sean says, how are you able to record dates, so accurately, I've often been drifting off, and you'll be talking about, something you've seen, or that happened to you in the past, and you seem to be very accurately, recalling the specific year it happened, it's quite impressive, I agree, thank you very much, and this, question, finally being asked, after you list, the lion documentary, release years,

[01:23:44] in the truth, Disney trivia episode, you're also able to do it, with your stories too, in X year this happened, etc, I'm always amazed by your memory, well thank you, well, I mean, to be fair, sometimes, I do have the laptop in front of me, so if I'm looking up stuff, so I don't always, remember every single year, but when it's, when it's to do with my life,

[01:24:15] not to do with my life, I mean, technically, Madonna, releasing, the Like a Prayer album, in 1989, wasn't to do with my life, but it was, it signified, a particular time, remember listening to it, in France, in the France, ferry port, where it might be Dover,

[01:24:44] either Dover or France, but I think it was France, and it was, which would be Calais, I suppose, wasn't it, and the video, the Like a Prayer video, was on, but, okay, there's a few ways, I'd do it, I don't do it on purpose, and, I had a friend, that used to keep, they used to mock me for it, when I'd sort of say, the year, or sometimes, the month as well, and, and it picked me up on it, to the point where, I felt a little bit, self-conscious, and,

[01:25:13] I don't like feeling, I don't think anyone likes, feeling self-conscious, do they, so, so I kind of felt, oh, and, like I had to stop doing it, this is with someone like, in person, you know, and they'd like to start laughing, every time I've mentioned their year, I'm like, I don't know why I do it, I think it's just, I don't know how I do it rather, I think I, the reason I do it is to,

[01:25:43] I like to try and be, a little bit factual, but also, it's just me, kind of talking out loud, the process, the brain process, that's going on, I've got my life, broken into different parts, in my memory, and there's a lot of things, I don't remember, I mean, I generally don't remember much, about Thailand, I don't, remember much,

[01:26:13] about the last few years, the last couple of years, and, or the last week or so, there's, and that's partly because, nothing's going on, because, even though, I've generally had, quite a boring life, but at the same time, it wasn't boring, if you know what I mean, it was,

[01:26:46] constantly on the move, constantly moving, from place to place, even if it was in the same, part of town, or the same part, of the country, I'd, you know, I'd be moving, every couple of years, every year, sometimes, twice, three times a year, and I'd be having, different jobs, and I'd be having, different girlfriends, and there'd be, lots of different things, happening, and I've got, those things, kind of broken up, so,

[01:27:16] I could list, yeah, I could go by, jobs, or I could go by, where I've lived, I can pretty much, I can't remember the, the date, the addresses, but I can pretty much, remember all the moves, and a lot of them by date, not date date, but by year, and sometimes even by roughly, what part of the year it was,

[01:27:49] and, then there's jobs, so, you know, I started working, 1986, in a chip shop, so that's kind of the start, but if we go all the way back, to the very start of working, I had a paper round, and I had a, I worked in a bake house, which was a restaurant, I worked in a bakery, of the restaurant,

[01:28:19] at the weekend, Saturday and Sunday, I think it was, it was either five o'clock on a Saturday, or five o'clock on a Sunday, and six o'clock the other day, I forget which was which, and, I think it might have been, six o'clock Friday, six o'clock Saturday, five o'clock Sunday, because, maybe Sunday was a busier day, because they'd got a lot of coaches, and stuff,

[01:28:49] come to, you know, they would come to visit, they wouldn't drive into the actual restaurant, they'd park, and let all the, people off, you know how coaches work, so, I, I remember that, but then when I, I've got like memories connected to each job, so, I remember some of the things I did, if I,

[01:29:19] if I, if I zoom in, on a job, and maybe it's because, I've been, I've focused on myself, pretty much the whole time, it, means, some would say, it's, some would argue, it's just me being selfish, or, me, putting myself first, or whatever, but, in some ways, I kind of had to,

[01:29:51] there hasn't been, a safety net, really, so I've kind of, not that, probably many people have a safety net, but, I didn't have, I kind of, I never really knew, what was going to happen next, or where I was going to end up next, where I was going to work next, where I was going to live next, you know, it was, there's always that kind of, quite uncertainty, in my life, instability,

[01:30:21] definitely, I was unstable, and, in lots of different ways, I'm not, I'm not being a victim, I'm just saying, that's just how it was, and I didn't seem to know, how to get out of that, it's almost, that that was, inbuilt, and I guess a lot of that, would have been, because of when I was, a little, very little, we moved around a lot,

[01:30:50] I had stability, at the age of seven, to the age of 15, I mean, we still moved, so these are, one, two, three, three times, four times, so I still moved four times, in those years, years, but there was a period, between nine, and, fifteen, for six years, where I stayed, in the same place, and until I moved here,

[01:31:20] that was the longest, time I ever lived anywhere, six years, I've lived in places, four years, three years, two years, a year, a few months, and, so yeah, I've got, sometimes, when I was younger, and, maybe I was, my brain was a little bit, too active, to, fall asleep, I would, recall,

[01:31:51] all the different places, I lived, by year, so I mean, that's possibly why, I remember, I'd recall, all the different places, in order, that I, worked, and that used to send me, to sleep sometimes, so, and I do this in my twenties, and my thirties, I don't know how many times, I moved around, when I was very young,

[01:32:23] a lot, is going to be the answer, to that, but I don't know, how many, so there's no stability, really, like proper stability, until I was seven, and then, the stability was there, because even though, we moved a couple of times, it was all of us together, so it was, it wasn't unstable, from that perspective, yeah, I think the only, stable thing I had,

[01:32:52] up to the age of, 14, whatever, was my older brother, the one just a bit older than me, because I was with him, the whole time, we was in foster care together, for, a year and a half, or whatever, when I was six months old, until about two, so we lived together, before that, then we lived together, just, you know, my older brother, would stay with my nan and granddad,

[01:33:22] and then, we moved away, we got took away, to Newcastle, then we lived in a couple of children's homes, and then we came back, and ended up living with my dad, and, so he was the only real, consistent, other than my older brother, who became consistent in my life, from the age of, I was there for the first six months, but I didn't know anyone, did I at that point, from the, I'm sure there was a bond, six months,

[01:33:52] I probably would have bonded with him, as in, emotionally known who he was, because I see him every day, I suppose, but, from the age of two, onwards, so for five years, from the age of two to 15, so what's that, 13 years, so 13 years, and 15 years, so 13 years, my oldest brother, 15 years,

[01:34:22] my younger brother, well my other older brother, but not the oldest, other than my dad, and my nan, they were the only two people, but it's different, because I lived with them, I lived with my dad for, 7 to 15, and I did live with him, a few times after that, for a short period, I never lived with my nan,

[01:34:53] I used to stay over sometimes, but I never lived with her, but I'd see her regularly, so I just, I remember, yeah, I just got these little memories, sometimes they do get muddled up, I do think like, oh wait a minute, that's, that was, that was a different year, yeah, I'm like thinking about something, that happened over Christmas, and I'm thinking, that wasn't me,

[01:35:23] that's someone else's memory, I don't remember doing that, I've never flown a plane, weird, so, I, there's also jobs, looking at that, looking at, the music, so there's connection with the music, and the years, I don't have that anymore, because I'm, I have lost track of the music today, I have, I feel a little bit, sad about that,

[01:35:53] but, you know, I just, there's so many albums, that I do listen to, so many songs from the past, you know, my, my favourite song collection, there's so many, that it would take, I reckon if I added, continuously added songs, that I really like, I could sit for, possibly, 24 hours, if not more, listening to different songs,

[01:36:22] all of them that I love, possibly, I don't know, I'm kind of making it up, but during that period, there was a lot of, music connected, so, to the times, so I remember, when I was in a chip shop, I used to go in, in the afternoon, going a bit early, because, I used to enjoy,

[01:36:52] being in there on my own, and I'll be preparing, the kitchen, maybe, doing, this is like, early afternoon, so I'd go in, a little bit early, in the afternoon, and just, take my time, and, I don't know what it was, I was doing, but I was probably just getting, getting the, the fryers on, you know, setting up for the evening, the evening shift, and I'd listen to, I had a, there was a tape recorder, downstairs,

[01:37:22] and I had two tapes, and they were both, the first, two albums, from Madonna, I loved, Papa Don't Preach, True Blue, sorry, the album True Blue, and, my two favourite albums, versus True Blue, and, Like a Prayer, they're my two favourite, Madonna albums, but during that period, I quite liked the first, two albums that she did as well,

[01:37:52] Holiday, you can do so right, that one, so I'd just like, dance a little bit, on my own, and, so I remember that, and there's other things, like when I first, moved above the chip shop, I was playing, George Michael's, first album, Faith, was his album Faith, I think it was wasn't it, so I was playing that album, over and over again, in my kitchen, erm,

[01:38:21] just little bits, little bits and bobs, connected to music, the, I'm trying to give an example now, I can't think of any examples, yeah, but there's, there are examples, it is, it's not necessarily going to pop up, when I want it to, but if I was, for example,

[01:38:54] I don't know, if I, if you, let's focus on the year 2005, straight away, Michael Jackson's album, History, came out, so I would, talk about that, was it 2005, or 2004, I think it was 2005, I was definitely listening to it, in 2005 anyway, and then we could say, well like, that was the year, yeah, it was 2005, and then I could say, okay,

[01:39:24] well I had, I had two girlfriends that year, I also, went and worked at Butlins, and, just going back through that year, I can remember certain things that happened, I know, I can remember where I was living, because, I was living in one place, then I went to Butlins, then I come back, and I'm, I was homeless, didn't have anywhere to stay, but that was,

[01:39:54] pretty much, the beginning of 2006, so, and the only reason, I went to Butlins, is because, we were being evicted, so I was evicted from the house, it was a council house, that my friend was living in, or council flat, wherever it was, and it was being evicted, was it a council? he had a flat and a house, anyway, I, I had to get out of there, so I went and moved,

[01:40:25] I just went to the job centre, I like, what am I going to do? Because I had no job, I'm, what am I going to do? It was like, literally, he told me, I think he gave me about a week's notice, or five days, so, oh we move, yeah, we have to be out in five days, he knew about it, he'd had the eviction notice, for about a month, so, I was, oh, so I went, and I managed to,

[01:40:54] I went to the job centre, and, that is big signs, do you want to work at Butlins? I laughed, like, yeah, sure, and then I thought, I looked around, there's no other jobs, so I just, well there's no other jobs, but nothing, that offered accommodation, because that was the problem, it's like, I need somewhere to live,

[01:41:23] and I said to, I said, well what's going on with this, Butlins thing, they said, well, it's a holiday camp, I said, no, I know what it is, they said, you know, there's music, they have, families go, and have a holiday there, I said, I already, I'm not asking, about the actual camp, so what is it your, what is it you're offering? They said, we offer entertainment, variety, there's pubs, there's restaurants,

[01:41:53] there's a swimming pub, I was like, no, it's like he was trying to sell me a ticket, to go and visit, I said, no, no, wait a minute, what are you here for? He said, I'm getting paid, I work for Butlins, I said, okay, how can I structure this question, in a way that you're going to understand it? I said, what, what's the big signs for? He said, that's so that people know that we're here,

[01:42:23] that are a bit further away, he didn't say that, that is funny, isn't it? Why are the big signs there, it's for people that are further away, can see it? And, he said, there's jobs, do you want a job? Do you want a job? And I said, I don't know, I mean, the problem I've got is, I've got nowhere to live, in five days, and, if I do get a job, I'm going to have to work for a month, before I get any money. And he said, oh, but this is a good situation. I said,

[01:42:53] why? He said, you don't have to sign off, because I was temporarily unemployed then. He said, you don't have to sign off to do this, this is part of the unemployment program. I said, really? He said, yeah. So, you go to Butlins, in Bognor Regis, you can work, you still get your unemployment, you get an extra 20 quid on top, you get fed, there's a restaurant, which you get fed, or canteen,

[01:43:22] get fed three times a day, you get, big discount on drinks, and, you don't have to pay for any accommodation. You get accommodation, have to share a bed, or a bedroom rather, sorry, with someone else, so there's two people in a, not a very particularly big room. In fact, probably about the size of this room, maybe a little bit smaller than this room actually.

[01:43:51] And I said, well, I didn't have a lot of options, at that point. So, yeah, okay, so I had to fill a form in, I think I had to do a questionnaire, like, to test my intelligence. And, I remember when I handed it in, and fireworks went off, they said, wow, you're the most intelligent person we've ever seen, ever. How come you're not teaching in a university? And,

[01:44:22] that didn't happen. So, I, I just thought, oh, he said, well, what kind of work can you do? I said, what's available? And it kind of broke down, what I should, what I would have done. If I had looked at the longer, further picture, the bigger picture, the more advanced picture, the future, I would have chosen something, that I wouldn't have disliked doing. But,

[01:44:50] I had experience working in a bar, and they saw, as soon as they saw that, because I had to film a CV, and, and that, they said, okay, well, you can work in a bar then. I didn't realise, it was going to be the world's busiest bar. And, I've never, I don't think I could ever work anywhere, with a bar that busy. I've been in bars, these, these were like, thousands of people, you know,

[01:45:20] in this massive, massive hall, venue. There was like three bars, and, the show, it was a show on, and there was, hundreds of tables, and there's people, families, and, there was, literally, it was non-stop, from the beginning, the evening, to the end. There was never, the only breaks we got, is when we were allowed to have a break. There was no standing around, no waiting,

[01:45:49] it was constant. I mean, the amount of money they would have taken, would have been huge. So, I, I said, okay, I, I, really, I probably should have been better off going and doing a cleaning, becoming like cleaning the, the chalets, but I had a little, no, had I? Wait a minute. Is this 2005? Is this 2005? Yes, I had.

[01:46:19] I'd had a little, test of doing that, in 1989. I cleaned caravans for a little while, and it was kind of the same process, you know, you've got to limit the time to do it, and you've got, it's got to be kind of perfect, and it's very hard work, you know, if you, if you ever go anywhere that has a chalet or a caravan,

[01:46:49] I don't know what I was going to, I was going to sort of say, just think about the people that have to clean it. I'm not sure where I'm going with that, but, it's hard, it's really hard, it's not an easy job, very difficult job, so it kind of put me off. Ah, I just had an interruption there, there was bark, dogs barking, it sounded like someone was knocking on the door, but they wasn't, and, I can't remember what I was talking about, but yeah,

[01:47:20] that's kind of how, I was talking about, butlins and caravans, or something, I, it's almost like I've got things mapped, in my brain, yeah, because things were changing so often back then,

[01:47:50] I've kind of compartmentalised them, into, like little, little flags, or little arrows, to different bits, you know, since I've been living here, this is probably the most, the most stable, maybe not emotionally, but it's most, it's, it's the first place I've ever lived, for 10 years, never lived, in, same, building, or the same, premises, for 10 years,

[01:48:20] ever, in my life, so, so this is, the first, which means, some of the stuff, the last 10 years, has become very, muddled a little bit, a bit mixed together, ever, so I haven't had that, separation, that, you know, because I remember like, 2015, when I moved in here, I remember that period,

[01:48:51] and I remember, I broke my wrist, falling out of the bath, and, there was a few, you know, I remember the first night, I slept in the bedroom, all I had was a bed, I had no, all I had, when I moved here, was, a bed, and a bag of clothes, and a chair, that was it, that was pretty much, my entire, um, belongings, really,

[01:49:24] which was a bit weird, at age 45, well I was 44 at the time, 44, so like, it's not a lot of belonging, did it, but, I had to chuck a lot, of stuff out, from the place, including clothes, because it was moldy, so I had, it was just horrible, in the place I lived before this, so a lot of stuff, I'd had to chuck out, and other stuff, I just didn't want to bring with me, I wanted to like,

[01:49:54] a fresh start, I bought a goldfish, definitely bought a goldfish, unfortunately they, yeah, they didn't, so they didn't survive the journey, they did survive the journey, but they, yeah, that's a sad, I promised them, to get them a big, big bowl, like a proper big, tank, I didn't stick to that promise, and,

[01:50:23] they needed, they needed, a tank, because those, those goldfish bowls, you know, the little plastic ones, they're okay, but, not enough room for 50 goldfish, I didn't really have 50 goldfish, come on, so yeah, I just remember certain things, I remember certain years, like when I fractured my back, I remember when that happened,

[01:50:53] that was the, literally, a week after I got Vinny, I don't remember the month, that, you know, I remember certain things, certain times, where, you know, big things happened, which I'm sure, most people do, or also, I suppose, because I've got dates on my podcasts, I can sometimes go back,

[01:51:22] and some of the images, and some are like, just to remind myself, oh, you know, if I, what's the first date I did, the first time I did a let me boil you to sleep, what was the very first date, and I can go back, and find that date, it was, I think March 2018, so it was like, okay, which, is crazy really, three years, I'll be 10 years, doing the let me boil you to sleep,

[01:51:51] next year, it'll be 20 years, of making podcasts, and videos, online, 20 years, you'd think I'd have an audience, by now, wouldn't you, but I keep going, I'll keep at it, so anyway, thanks Sean, I hope I've answered these questions, it's been two hours, so far, so Jackie, says, Tammy, I agree, I love that Jason is so candid,

[01:52:21] with his thoughts, and I love his awareness, his inherent kindness, oh, thank you, let's not, got too crazy, this is not a cult, no, carry on, you can say nice things, there's never, you, trust me, I never get bored, of hearing nice things, said about me, that's the one thing, I will never get bored, of that, if you send me, nice words, saying how I'm helping you, never, not once, have I ever seen a message, and thought, oh, shut up, oh, not you again,

[01:52:51] being nice, no, I can't get enough, of that honestly, it probably, says something about, my, need for acceptance, possibly, but yeah, it's not, it's nice to feel, appreciated, appreciated, I think, and I don't feel, appreciated in real life, so it's nice, that, I mean, I know this is real life, but technically, it's kind of,

[01:53:26] I suppose, it'd be a little bit like, being on a radio, wouldn't it, like being a radio presenter, which is possibly, what I should have done, maybe that was my calling, to be, a radio presenter, just chatting, over these years, I could have done that, and maybe, maybe, I still could, I don't know, don't know, might not be, might be too late, maybe this is kind of, my version, this is the,

[01:53:56] this, today's version, of a radio show, maybe, don't know about you, but if he's not discussing himself, or his day to day impressions, I get bored, oh so bored, and being that bored, is not conducive, to sleeping, what do you think about that, what do you think about that then, what do you think about that, hey, hey, hey JJ, if you see this, why do you think this is, yep, I'm going to have to post this,

[01:54:26] in your next Q&A, I hope, I can keep up, actually, I posted it, I posted that, it's just realised, I posted that, into the Q&A, any questions for this Friday, I do, I will do that, if I see a thing, that's kind of, asking a question somewhere else, I'll post it, otherwise I'll forget, if it's sort of somewhere else, well,

[01:54:57] I don't know, it's, we're all different, we're all like different things, I mean, some people would, find it really good, just to hear me counting down, so it's like, count down from a thousand, like, thousand, 999, 998,

[01:55:26] I think there's a few of you thinking, well, not now, but like, is he going to continue, how long is he going to continue for, is he just going to go down, to maybe, 990, or will he keep going, keep pushing it, and go all the way down, all the way down to one, which will take probably two hours, but no, I'm not going to do that,

[01:55:55] but some people would like that, some people, would find that useful, and, different people like different things, I do realise, that, that the problem we've talked about myself is, well, I have no problem talking about myself, I love it, but, when it's about my day to day life, it's not always easy to do, because there's nothing going on,

[01:56:24] a lot of time, so, like with the Q&A Friday, it makes it a little bit easier, because I've got something to talk about, and I'll still manage to talk about, my day to day life as well, during this, but there's, there's not a huge amount going on, at the moment, and, I do try and keep things positive, so, if there's,

[01:56:55] things, I mean, there's, there's things that aren't so great going on, I don't like to, really talk about that stuff, because, I like to think this is a, a fairly, I don't know, just a nice, a nice space, I mean, not everything I say is going to be, like, super positive, but I try to, keep it light, being bored,

[01:57:26] yeah, I think, I don't know why that is, why being bored, doesn't send you to sleep, I'm not sure, well, that type of boring, we're all different, I think, I think that's just what it is, there's going to be some people, who've, listened to my recordings, and think, like, we're just, just talking,

[01:57:57] what's the point in this, yet, they may like, the, sleep hypnosis recordings, I do, and some people, absolutely, can't stand, the whisper stuff, and other people, prefer the whisper stuff, it, some people, really, there's a few people, that really like, the, the, the boring, the, what's it, bedtime story time, things I've done,

[01:58:30] it's just, everyone's different, isn't they, some people like the, I've had a quite a bit of, positive, I say an herb a lot, don't I, a fair amount, of positive feedback, for the, let me bore your pain away, that was kind of a bit, of a passion project, to be fair, I haven't done any this week, haven't felt it, I just haven't, yeah, haven't, it,

[01:58:59] I mean I went to do a recording, I said on Wednesday, and I'm just looking, just, there's no words, there was words, but they weren't words, I wanted to say, and I just, wasn't, wasn't in the mood, so, when I'm like that, there's no point, me making a recording, because I'm never going to, force myself to do it, because otherwise, if I'm not, enjoying it, or if I'm not relaxed, I think that's going to, come across,

[01:59:29] I think, I don't know, maybe not, so you won't have to, post this to the next Q&A, because you, we've done it, today, so I don't really know, what the answer is, we're all different, we all just like, different things, I did do a survey, ages ago, like a little questionnaire, what do you prefer, and,

[01:59:59] it was different, but different people, no one, there was no real, I suppose, the let me boy to sleep, was the unanimous one, because, I think, that, I think, that the majority, of people, that come to this group, like, are come through, the let me boy to sleep, not necessarily, through the chronic pain, or this, or through the, stress and pain relief, or through the,

[02:00:29] stop smoking, or whatever, other ones I've done, because I've done, lots of different podcasts, thousands of, recordings I've done, thousands, it's ridiculous really, so, you, yeah, I'd like to get, that feedback, I'd like to just, it'd be nice if, if there was a way, of just, finding out,

[02:00:59] what everyone likes, but then, the problem with that, is, if I start, to, try and, change what I'm doing, to suit, every individual, request or need, I will be then, micromanaging myself, and, then I wouldn't want, to do it anymore, I've been micromanaged before, and it's horrible, it's like, just,

[02:01:29] constantly, like, no, do like that, do it, don't, do, you're doing this, you're doing that, it's like, no, there needs to be freedom there, and, I don't want to do something, that I don't like doing, so, you know, there was a, a podcast, that I did, in, I think it was during, kind of lockdown period, period,

[02:02:00] okay, and, it was, what was it called, relaxation, distress, and panic attacks, I did a lot of recordings, like, literally, every day, I was doing them, and, and I ended up doing, I've now got 239, and there's a few, recent years, but most of them, like, 223, 229,

[02:02:30] 230, 200, okay, so 230, was 7th of May, 2021, okay, let's have a look, at where number one was, so, May, 2021, so, I started, okay, right, I started it a long time, before that, so, yeah, probably about, 2015,

[02:03:02] but, but, I didn't really start, getting into it, until about 2019, so, I did number 56, 54, 53, in 2019, all the way up to, I'm, I'm reading this off the screen, just in case you think that I'm remembering it all, and, but that was, October, September, October, December, but then, number 70, in 2020, so, 70,

[02:03:36] I mean, no, you know, what happened in 2020, so, number 70, all the way up to, I mean, honestly, blimey, a lot, I did a lot, it's a 2020, 2000, right, 29th of December,

[02:04:06] 2020, from number 70, to 218, 70, to 218, and, it was so regular, as well, it was quite regular, and I was doing just, I had this little microphone, lapel microphone, and I was making recordings, while I was pacing, not pacing in like a weird way, but just walking around, and I was, I was quite energetic,

[02:04:35] I was getting quite passionate about, what I was talking about, so, there's a 9th of January, 12th of January, 13th, 14th, 15th, 17th, 18th, 19th, 24th, 25th, 26th, 27th, 28th, 29th, 30th, 31st of January, like nearly, it's like wow, and in February, the 1st, 2nd, 3rd, 4th, 5th, 6th, 7th, 8th, 9th,

[02:05:05] 12th, 13th, 15th, 16th, 18th, 19th, 21th, 24th, 26th, 27th, February, so, you know, I'm, quite regularly, doing these recordings, and, after a certain time, I started giving them names, instead of just a number, I started giving them,

[02:05:34] yeah, the first one, number 80, I gave it a name to, Smiley Mirror, so 26th of January, 2020, and then, meaning, purpose, was the next one, web page, ball or sock, silly song, that was a good one, actually, silly song, 34th of January, 2020,

[02:06:05] I don't know, I thought it was funny, self-worth, and not, not me saying it, but I think the actual podcast, the recording is quite a good, recording, if I remember rightly, it is over five years ago, then you've got, self-worth, gratitude, drip, focusing, bath, floater, I like some of these titles, I'm not sure if I, yeah,

[02:06:35] it's anyone's guess, what I was talking about, magic, relaxation, mirror, hopelessness, is it true, you're not broken, relaxation sessions, reassuring letter, self-sabotage, relapse, noise sensitivity, question, automatic thinking, evict self-prejudice, blimey, hash, be kind, free anxiety,

[02:07:06] brain plasticity, that was January, February 2020, send healing, don't feel guilty, for being ill, give attention, to mini me, stress, and anxiety, unnatural, germs, that's one about germs, that was 2020, March, wonder what made me think, about that, hmm, I wonder, so this, I was doing this,

[02:07:35] at the beginning, of the year, hmm, just something kicked in, and I was like, nearly every day, making a new one, and they were lasting, for like 40, 50 minutes, some of them, some of them like, 20 minutes, but, yeah, never give up, remember this is temporary, it's being emotional, that's an hour and six minutes,

[02:08:06] safe, positive, healing, relaxation, how are you today, relaxed hands, equals relaxed brain, feel safe, feel comfort, feel relaxed, and, reduce anxiety level, compassion, reduces stress, funny memory, intrusive thoughts, are just thoughts, we are born positive, blimey,

[02:08:35] tapping fingertips, no mass, that was, I like that one, but I'm kind of talking about, boxing, but it's still relevant, see these, are amongst my favourite, recordings I've ever made, um, chained elephant, vice grip, positive butterflies, you can choose, what you think about, bubble fart confidence, I've got no idea,

[02:09:05] um, ringo tension release, okay, I've got no idea, groovy relax, or sleep session, TV remote, amazing, loved, and deeply relaxed, stress licking ferret, that's about Andre, so stress versus love, focus on feeling relaxed, relax,

[02:09:36] sleep, neurons, lighting up, okay, bucket of healing, relaxing, no, bucket of relaxing, healing, you in the mirror, stress sucking helmet, some of these names, are a bit weird, letting stress, know it's not a prisoner,

[02:10:04] dissolving the rust of anxiety, I don't know what was going on, in my brain at the time, but it seems to be, quite active, removing stress batteries, hand squeeze, stress relief technique, blind sports recording yourself, I've got no idea, what that was,

[02:10:43] you are going to be okay, reduce stress, when thinking of someone, you dislike, you've got a balloon, anxiety reduction technique, overcoming hurdle, too big to swallow, choose relaxation bubble, or sleep bubble, say nice things to yourself, whilst walking,

[02:11:15] negativity fumigation, questioning your worries, there's some, I quite like these, these titles, from five years ago, what is now like, four and a half years ago, it's nearly the end of 2020, natural born positivity, burping your anxiety, what, not taking yourself, too seriously, when you're feeling agitated,

[02:11:47] positivity trigger, you were born able to relax, and sleep naturally, which is true, put trust in your brain, to relax, or sleep, during noise, support networks, and asking for help, making friends with yourself,

[02:12:21] victim mentality, emotional abuse, never again, caring for carers, okay, that was a really long one, so I've got no idea, what I'm, what I kind of, that sounds like, quite a heavy one, the power of breathing, okay, so I'm talking about breathing, oh, don't know why, make friends with your stress,

[02:12:50] hot water bottles, stress relief technique, pouring healing, relaxation, and safety, into your brain, tapping scalp, to relax, brain, rehearsing, feeling okay, ah, listen to my boring voice,

[02:13:21] superman, re-energizing, right, that's, that's quite a few, isn't it, kettle anger release, I quite like that one, it's only a short one, but it's quite good, holding safe hands, and there's a quantum memory shift, that's another one, that's a bit more,

[02:13:49] that's me trying to be advanced, it didn't work, maybe it did, I don't know, hi Jason, from Cindy, you recently shared a story, about your grandfather, as told to you, by your nan, are there any other nan stories, you can share,

[02:14:05] I mean, we used to talk about, I mean, there's stories about her, she was, really good swimmer, but I'm feeling like,

[02:14:35] nan stories, that she told me, she told me about, you know, her family, she told me about, her parents, she told me, I got a lot of information, about my, very very young childhood, from her, because no one else, would talk about it, but she would, so she told me, she had pictures of me, when I was a baby, and,

[02:15:04] there was, I think I had blonde hair, back then, yeah, I'm just trying to think, it was, I'll get back to you on that one, I thought I might, I'm just trying to think, off the top of my head,

[02:15:32] any particular stories, that she told me, and, I can't believe it's been, over 10 years, since I last spoke to her, she used to, yeah, she'd talk about stuff, but, a lot of things that we'd talk about, would be about, what's going on now,

[02:16:01] we didn't really focus, too much on the past, but when she did, she'd talk about, like, how she, she remembered, some of the stuff, that happened, I mean, there was one, she said that my dad, my biological mother, had moved, out of her house, and bearing in mind, both my dad and her, were very young, it's before they got married, and they got married in, what, 65,

[02:16:32] I think, which was five years, before I got, when I was born, and my dad was, 26 when I was born, so he would have, got married at, 21, they were dating before that, and he was living, at home, he was, my dad was at work, I think he was an apprentice, at the time, so he left school, then went as an apprenticeship,

[02:17:04] and, it's not funny really, but, my, other biological grandfather, the one that I never met, because he passed away, quite early, before I was born, I think, so, basically, and apparently, he was just a, huge man, huge, my granddad wasn't huge, he was, wasn't, he just, he was very slim, and, but this bloke was just, you know,

[02:17:34] apparently, according to my nan, he was massive, and he, he just, shadowed, my granddad, he'd like, really just, my nan was worried, from my granddad, my other granddad, her husband, well, what happened next, is, so he knocks on the door, where is my door, so, don't know, so, they didn't know, she was in the house, so, she was in,

[02:18:03] the bedroom upstairs, what they didn't know, both my nan, and my granddad, because, my granddad, was retired, at this point, was he retired, I don't know, yeah, he was retired, yeah, he was retired, at this point, he didn't know, that she was upstairs, not only was she upstairs, she'd moved out, of, her family home,

[02:18:33] she took her stuff, and moved out, into my nan and granddad's, they didn't even know, so, so he's knocking on the door, saying, I want my daughter, I want to bring her back, so they, my nan, because she was always around the house, because she was my dad's girlfriend, or fiance, or whatever, so, I don't know, but, so, my nan did say, that she was worried, for my granddad, like her, I keep saying granny, because they were both my granddads, but she was worried, for her husband, my,

[02:19:03] no, granddad Newland, she was worried for him, because, he was tiny, compared to this bloke, the other granddad, so, but I think, well, okay, my granddad would have been 60 then, so this, this would have been, no, he'd have been 50, he would have still been at work, so he'd have been about 55, even if he retired in 1970,

[02:19:34] when he was 60, so if he could retire at 60, back then, and then he, I think so, I'm not 100% sure, but anyway, and, and I don't know, I'm thinking, my granddad was a boxer, in the army, but he was a boxer, he was, and at 55, which is, nearly as old as I am, he would have been a lot, probably more,

[02:20:03] much more fitter than I am, and he would have been, well able to take care of himself, because not only was he a boxer, but he also had been in the army, you know, he'd served time in the army for, I think 12 years, as a career, and then, he was in the army again, during the war for six years, so he'd, you know, done over 20 years, in the army, pretty much, nearly,

[02:20:34] so, I don't know, but apparently, but no, they didn't come to blows, but my nan said, that she was really worried, that he was gonna, he was, just like, beat up my other granddad, but they didn't, now I don't know, how well they got on, I think she was, I think he was gone, before they even got married, before my dad got married to her, but she did tell me stuff, about my mum, about my biological mum,

[02:21:05] and what she did say though, she said she was, even though she was a problem, and, it's always causing, just causing problems, causing, she had a chaotic life, back then, she might, I don't know, she might have a really good life now, but she said, for all her faults, the one thing she had to say, is she was funny, she made her laugh,

[02:21:35] she made my nan laugh, and, that's the one thing, that I kind of think, okay cool, that means something to me, like, that's good, because, she, yeah, she'd lived a chaotic life, but, that's probably because of where, her background came from, she, you know, she'd, learnt that, and she was whatever, you know, wasn't just her own, decision to be like that,

[02:22:06] and, she also had, called to my, my nan, she was, like, bipolar, or, she had, mental health stuff, but, she was best friends, with my auntie, I think my auntie, and her went to school together, who, my auntie was probably, a couple of years younger, than my dad, and, it's probably how they met, probably how him, and, my mum met,

[02:22:36] because, she'd be around, probably with her sister, and, I don't know, they just got together, so, you know, even though, she left, when I was, six months old, so it was like, 1971, the fact is, they'd been together, quite a while, they got married 65,

[02:23:06] so it's six years, and they were probably together, a year or two before that, so, you know, it was, it wasn't like a, a short term, and I had three kids, so it must have been, it must have had, a good time, at some point, I don't know, she's told, whatever did she tell me, she, that's just one of the things, she, she, she, she, basically,

[02:23:35] she said that, when my mum took off, yeah, she used to, she used to go into the butchers, and the bakers, and, and they'd all be asking her, about the money, that my mum owed them, so apparently, she just owed money, to everyone, that's what my nan said, again, it's like, you know, I'm not here to say, horrible things about anyone, but, that's what my nan, she, she said like, just, she'd just be,

[02:24:06] borrowing money off everyone, but she'd make people laugh, that she was like, just, funny, funny person, so yeah, I think, maybe it's the, maybe that's why, I've got bipolar, maybe that's where my, my brain comes from, I mean,

[02:24:39] yeah, inherited, well, he inherited this brain, but that's it, there's probably, there's loads of other stuff, but that's one, off the top of my head, I realise the time's going, it's now, line is, six o'clock, Dev asks, hello Jason, hello all, I'm a newbie at this, a chronic pain sufferer, but also interested in learning, about hypnosis in general, as well as applying it, to creative writing, I find Jason's podcast,

[02:25:09] very effective actually, but both for pain relief, and sleep, I'd also like to learn, how a writer can place itself, into a sort of fictional environment, and develop a story, equally, I would like to learn about, immersing a reader, into the story, I'm currently struggling, with writing a sort of ghost story, thanks in advance, I don't know, because I'm not a writer,

[02:25:37] I suppose, to immerse someone, into a story, would be, keeping it flowing, but then it's me teaching, how to write, I don't know how to write, but it's my understanding, of like, free writing, with creative writing, it's,

[02:26:08] one of the things, because I've done a little bit, of read books on it, and, played around with it, what I liked about it, is there's no right or wrong, you know, it's art, creativity, there's no, there is no right or wrong, you just, see what comes up, and maybe something, really cool will come up, um, a fictional environment, develop a story,

[02:26:39] I'd tell you what you could do, you could tell the story, you could verbally tell the story, and see what comes up, transcribe it, there's loads of, transcribing, places, you can, get stuff transcribed, just record it on your, on your phone, and then just, look back at it, and maybe start to, you could like, map it, out, it's like, okay,

[02:27:09] well there's that, there's that character, where would they go, what would they do, and you know, I don't know, I mean it's not something, I'm ever going to be doing, um, what, if I ever wrote a book, it'd be kind of, it'd have to be factual, pretty much, made up, but, about me, maybe, or, I'm trying to think, there's something else,

[02:27:39] I was thought about doing, yeah, it'd have to be, that's a way you could do it, maybe, but as far as hypnosis, I'm not really sure, it's something I don't really know about, when it comes to writing, I used to write diaries, and journals, but, it was more, for me,

[02:28:08] there's a lot of shouting, doesn't you hear that, in the background, it's not a very good answer, let me think about it, a bit more, if I come up, if I think of anything else, I'll mention it, in the next recording, I might do a little bit of research, so thanks everybody, thank you, going down the list, Maria, Kathleen, Tammy, Jonathan, Joanne, Sean,

[02:28:39] Jackie, Cindy, and Dev, it's like a marathon, wasn't it, there's a lot of, a lot of, I don't know how long, I've been talking for, it's got to be nearly, two and a half hours, which means, I'm not sure, when this is going to get, edited, I'm literally recording this, on a Saturday afternoon, I know it's Friday, Q&A Friday, but, I just got so, caught up in, building a website,

[02:29:10] but I did start this, I thought I started it, at three, I definitely started it, before four o'clock, because I was already, at two hours, last time I went to the toilet, so I had a break, blimey, it's now seven minutes past, six, and there's boxing on at seven, so this might be one of those, Q&A Fridays,

[02:29:39] that come out on Sunday morning, I apologise, kind of, I'll do a little bit, just a little bit, so thank you, I just didn't expect, to get this many questions, I'm not pleased, thanks, but, there's been times, when I get like, two questions, and, I still manage to last that, for an hour or so, so that's it, that is, the end, of this recording,

[02:30:09] so thank you for listening, remember to be kind to yourself, because you do deserve, to be happy, and be gentle, with yourself, you deserve, to feel safe, lots of love,

[02:30:50] not just, allow you, to feel, calmer, just relaxed, at the end, of the recording, when it's finished, and you can enjoy, that sense of, comfort, and peace,

[02:31:23] also, it would be nice, to, those feelings, of, relaxation, continue, for longer,

[02:31:52] after the recording, is ended, so that you can, still, benefit, from listening, to my voice, in a few hours time,

[02:32:13] by listening, regularly, especially, if you find, like some people do, and myself as well, sometimes I'll find, one particular recording, that really, resonates with me,

[02:32:41] and I'll just listen, to it over, and over again, recording, from back, to about 1999, it was, it wasn't hypnosis, but it was a guided,

[02:33:11] visualization, so it kind of, was hypnosis really, I managed to find it again, and it still has, the same effect, part of it was, the person's voice,

[02:33:39] just felt so, peaceful, and I'd look forward, to listening, to her, and in the evening, before even, pressing the play button, that as soon, as I've done that,

[02:34:10] press the play button, this was, in the days of, CD players, press the play button, in fact, it might have even been a tape, tape recorder, I'd lie down, on the bed, and then, even without,

[02:34:40] necessarily, listening, to her words, because, it was, really, it was as if, my body, exactly what to do, the muscles,

[02:35:10] just, almost went into, automatic, relaxation, would slow down,

[02:35:44] I was listening, to this recording, in the early days, of learning hypnosis, and long before, I ever made, videos, or audio, recordings, myself, because I didn't, start doing that, until 2006,

[02:36:31] being able to, just let go, to have that, trust, in the person, that I'm listening to, and that it's, going to be, just as relaxing, if, if not more so,

[02:37:01] each time, you hear my voice, you may feel the same, you've been listening to me, for, over a decade,

[02:37:30] maybe not solidly, obviously not 24 hours a day, maybe people come back, people maybe listen every day, and something that I, do, which you may not realize,

[02:38:38] so if I, said to you, focus on your feet, notice your feet, relaxing, I will be focusing, on my feet,

[02:39:17] I said, focus on your hands, and maybe notice, the difference, between each hand, notice the, the air, in the room, temperature of the room,

[02:39:49] may start to, notice, what almost feels like, a very light breeze, even though there, may not be any, type of breeze, at all, where you are, as you become, aware,

[02:40:54] comes to, potentially, drifting, which may be, the reason, you're listening,

[02:41:24] also notice, at times, I've actually, fallen asleep,

[02:42:07] listen back, to, do the editing, I hear, snoring, snoring, when I was, a pig tap, when I snore,

[02:43:11] you feel,

[02:43:55] easier, your breathing, become, so, most like, muscle, relaxation, this allows you,

[02:44:37] necessarily, focusing, or to, notice,

[02:45:38] so very,

[02:46:41] visualized, producing, all, giving, oxygen,

[02:51:47] because nothing, or,

[02:52:17] sensations,

[02:57:08] muscles, front of your body,

[03:04:06] spreading, those signals, down your spine, or corners, and your calf muscles,

[03:05:37] tips of your toes,

[03:10:52] the space,

[03:15:08] in the center,

[03:25:17] and you could start, to notice, that, you, are feeling, even though, I've not, purposely, focused, your mind, that, sense, of, physical, comfort, that is, growing, within you,

[03:26:01] ignition, I guess, my speech, not being, particular, things, just generally, just by, listening, to my voice, you give yourself,

[03:26:32] an opportunity, to take a break, give yourself, a rest, giving yourself, permission, to take some, time off,

[03:27:10] which in turn, releases, the tension, any stresses, that you had, in your body, almost as if, the parts of your body, just open up,

[03:27:40] at the same time, replacing, that negativity, with, positive, heat, and fills, your body, also, those, feelings, of, increasing,

[03:28:45] comes from, just,

[03:29:15] almost, reset, itself, to the, to the settings, of, which allows, more, of, pleasure,

[03:29:42] and it feels nice,

[03:30:24] but it does feel nice, it has allowed, yourself,

[03:31:07] and as I, focus, just by, focusing on it,

[03:33:09] this isn't, this isn't a sterile, in countryside, sounds around, focus on your forehead, notice how it becomes, even,

[03:35:04] just, sides of your face,

[03:37:18] your spine,

[03:37:52] muscles, either side of your spine, that sense of comfort, starts to spread,

[03:39:23] to be an extra special feeling,

[03:39:26] those muscles,

[03:39:59] those muscles,

[03:57:41] 20, down to one, just walking down, some steps, and each step,

[03:58:24] and those steps, starting with number 20,

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