[00:00:00] Hello and welcome to JasonNewland.com My name is Jason Newland Please, please, please, please, only listen when you can safely close your eyes.
[00:00:18] So this is Let me bore your pain away. It's basically just me wobbling on about various things that can hopefully help to reduce the physical sensations of your chronic pain.
[00:00:55] And ultimately, I guess it's just, I mean, it's very base. It could be a relaxation session.
[00:01:07] You know, just a distraction maybe. And only listen, of course, I said, when you can safely close your eyes, but also with the permission of your doctor. Because you do need to know the cause of the chronic pain. You need to know the cause of the pain, basically, before you listen.
[00:01:37] And I would advise that about anything, any kind of real life therapy as well. Find out the cause first, before you get any kind of treatment. Although this isn't treatment. Although this isn't treatment, and this is not a replacement for treatment. This is just middle-aged English man just talking.
[00:02:02] That's all this is. If it helps, brilliant. And I hope it does. But I'm not a replacement for anything else. The only thing I could really replace is, you know, if you had a really boring friend who you used to talk to or listen to, because let's face it, maybe they just talked at you. And maybe they've moved away and you don't have contact with them anymore.
[00:02:32] I can be a replacement for that. Some boring person talks at you. Or if you've got someone that, you know, likes to eat all your chocolate. And maybe they're not around anymore for whatever reason. I can replace that person because I do. Oh, I love chocolate.
[00:03:00] I could go on, but I won't. I was going to say, if you've got someone that maybe you don't see anymore that had a really weird beard, that's me as well. I'm thinking of growing my beard like really big. Like it was in 2020. It was so big, it even scared the cashier at the garage. The petrol station, she, because I had a, I was trying to wear a mask and the mask basically just didn't even cover it.
[00:03:30] It was just, the mask looked tiny. My head looked massive. And when I trimmed it, she said to me, I'm so glad you got rid of that beard. I used to get so scared when I'd see you walking up here. I said, it was just a beard. She said, yeah, but it was, it was just so wide. I said, what do you mean? She said, like you were knocking things off the shelves.
[00:03:59] Exaggerating a little bit. She said, like people keep their distance here. Not because they had to, it's because they didn't have any choice because your beard was about six foot long. She went on a bit. She went over the top with this. It wasn't six foot long. It was quite big. There's, there's actually a video of me on YouTube somewhere. A couple of videos with that beard. And it's really large.
[00:04:29] Like really. A big fat beard it was. Some may argue that's not relevant to the recording. And I would say, yeah, yeah, maybe. Maybe not. Depends. I might talk about beards. I might not talk about beards. I never know what I'm going to talk about. Oh yeah. So I have a Facebook group. Jason Newlands Boring Group.
[00:04:57] If you want to get together with other people that like the recordings I do. I, and you can also send me messages on there. I've also got a YouTube channel where I now post every new recording I do. Including all six versions. Without music. Five and ten hours without music. With music. Five and ten with music. So that's the new thing I'm doing.
[00:05:26] It's just another place where you can listen to my podcasts. And my website JasonNewland.com Or by the way the YouTube channel is at Jason Newland. And so a website. All the latest recordings are on there.
[00:05:52] And whenever, if you would like to ask me a question or submit a question for the upcoming Q&A Friday. Which I do every week. Then please go on there and you can fill a form in. It's a tiny little form with your question. And your name. That's pretty much it. And I will. Whatever questions I get between each Friday.
[00:06:20] So between finishing the Friday, Q&A Friday recording. And the next beginning of recording it. Whatever questions I get during that week. I will include. And I'll mention your name. I only mention first names. And. I'll try and answer the question. Some would argue that I perhaps don't answer the questions correctly.
[00:06:47] But there is no right and wrong way to answer a question. You might ask. You know. For example. You might ask me. What was the first. First time I wore a tie. Or first time I wore a suit. And I might tell you about. A bicycle. That I had. That got a puncture.
[00:07:16] And I had to push it all the way up a hill. So there's no guarantee. That I'm going to necessarily. Focus on. The question. I might get a little bit sidetracked. Sometimes. I do try and bring it back. But you know. There's occasions when. I'm not as focused. As maybe. Some may wish I was. I'm quite happy with.
[00:07:45] The way I do it. It. But I don't always. I try and answer the questions. But sometimes I get a question. It's a little bit like. Oh. I have to be careful. Because. You know. Especially if it involves other people. In my life. And I don't. I can't. You know. If they listen to this. I have to be careful. That I don't say anything. Derogatory. You know. So I have to. But generally. Any question. If I can answer it.
[00:08:15] I will. If I can't. I will still answer it. But it might be. But plus. I didn't even finish that sentence. Plus. You can ask me the same question. Every week. For a whole year. And you'll probably get a different answer. Every week. It depends. What my mood is. Depends. And also. You know. Sometimes. Times. I'll answer a question. On Q&A Friday.
[00:08:45] And. I'll be sitting over there. Afterwards. Thinking. Huh. Especially when it's things like. What's your favourite movie. Or what's your favourite. Song. Or. And I'll think. Oh wait a minute. No. My favourite movie is that. This. You know. And I kind of. I forgot to mention this thing. Or. You know.
[00:09:15] It reminds me. Blimey. Talk about forgetting. This is a true story. Someone came to me. And. They had. A phobia. Or not a phobia. But they just. Travelling to the airport. Because this person was gone on holiday. Travelling to the airport.
[00:09:45] Was. Causing. Like. A lot of anxiety. And the person couldn't figure out why. It's like. I don't know why. It's like. She had a phobia. He had a phobia of. Travelling to the airport. In a car. Like. To get a taxi. I think. Or drove. I don't know. And I was like. Okay. Have you got an issue with a plane? No. I haven't got an issue with a plane. Is it. You've got an issue with the people you're going with?
[00:10:16] No. Not really. I mean. I've got three kids. But you get used to them after a while. Don't you? What? Can't leave them at home these days. Got to take them with you. Okay. And it was like. Okay. So. Like trying to figure it out. She came. And. This might have been a hypnosis. I don't know if it was a hypnosis. Or. It was. It was. Counseling. I can't remember. In what.
[00:10:46] What. Words of gummage head. I had on that day. Anyway. After about the third session. She said. She mentioned. That she'd been in a car crash. On the way to the airport. Like about five years ago. Quite a serious. Car crash. Like. Okay. It's the dots weren't joining. In. In his mind.
[00:11:16] I'm saying his and her. Because. I can't remember if it was a bloke or a woman. I've got no idea. Don't care. But they didn't. They didn't. Like. It seems so obvious. Like. Well. Obviously. If you. If you've got this issue. Because. Something bad happened. Something. You know. Quite. You know. Hard happened. On the way to. An airport. Because. Travelling to the airport. Wasn't something that they did regularly.
[00:11:46] It was like a once a year thing. Or twice a year. I don't know. And. Unless of course. He was an air. I could have been a pilot. I suppose. No. No. I don't think he was a pilot. So it's amazing. That sometimes. You know. Forgetting things. And it's. It's all about forgetting things. I remember. Oh my chair's falling apart.
[00:12:18] I keep picking. At the. Do you know. I've got like a gaming chair. I don't. I'm not a gamer. The last time I even attempted to play a computer game. 2005. And somebody sold me their Game Boy. I think it was. Game Boy. Is it Game Boy. What was it.
[00:12:48] Not the Xbox. But the other one. Is it a Game Boy. So. Sold me that. And. I was like. I don't know. What to do with this. The chair is not falling apart. Because I've had it for 20 years. I just. I haven't. I keep picking it. I'm just thinking. If that was my fingers. I was picking it. I'd have no fingers left. So yeah.
[00:13:17] There's been times when I've forgotten. About my lower back. See. I've very. Very. Skillfully. Pulled it back. To. The reason. I'm doing this recording. And I'm very pleased with myself. Perhaps. I shouldn't have mentioned it. Because it takes away the. Potential cleverness.
[00:13:48] Of. What I did. But now thinking about it. Maybe it wasn't that clever. Maybe it was just too. I kind of get a sense. It's like. The arrows are basically. Point. Point at the fact that. He's now mentioning. Forgetting. He's going to start talking about. Forgetting about the pain. That's what you're going to do now. Isn't it. Ah. Ah. Yeah. But not. Oh.
[00:14:17] I just put my finger in me here. Just pulled out some earwax. Is it. Do you ever wonder. Like. Why earwax is such a weird colour. See. I have to be careful with my ears. Not because they're so big. I don't get them. You know. Get stuck in between buildings. Because my ears are so big. No. Not because they're that big. Although they are. Fairly big. Although. I tell it's weird. I had a friend at school.
[00:14:48] And he had his earwax. He had his ears pinned back. Yet she. Went and had an operation. His ears didn't even stick out. I didn't. It's just like. It wasn't even to me that noticeable. You know. It's weird. It's like. I thought. My ears probably stuck out. Just as much as his did. But. He. You know. He had a thing about it. So he. He got his ears pinned back. And.
[00:15:23] I think that's another thing about distraction. Isn't it. Is. Because I'm trying to. Keep coming back to my lower back. Back. But when I was thinking about my friend's ears. I don't. I don't. Spend a lot of time thinking about his ears. By the way. I mean it's like. Back when I was about 11 or 12. So. It's. You know. A few years ago. It's over. 15 years ago. So I don't spend a lot of time thinking of his ears.
[00:15:52] But when I was thinking of his ears. I wasn't focusing on my lower back. And you might be thinking. That's because he had such big ears. He didn't. And that's rude. Don't make fun of my friend. Who I haven't seen for 40 years. I suppose technically. Is he still a friend? I don't know. See. I'm. The way I see it. And it's weird. But I've got. What. I left school in 1986.
[00:16:22] So it's nearly 40 years ago. Is that right? 86. 96. 2006. 2016. 2026. So in a year's time. It's 39 years. There are people I went to school with. Who I still. Have high regard for. And I haven't seen them. Pretty much since I left school.
[00:16:52] Like someone called Stefan. Or Stefan. Stefan. I remember his surname. I remember what he looked like. He was tall. And. He was. Cool. And I remember him. I just. He was one of these people. People. He's someone that I kind of want to be like. I was nothing like him. But I would. You know. If I could have chosen. To be like anyone. Probably in my year. He would have been one of the people I've chosen to be like. Because he was.
[00:17:25] I mean he was a man. That's not one thing. He was already a man physically. But he seemed to be a man mentally as well. He was more clued together. He was more sensible. He wasn't scared of anything. He just. He was strong. But he was also nice. You know. He looked out for people. And I just. Yeah. Yeah. It's weird. I'm hoping that the old.
[00:17:55] I'm not going to say his name. But. V. I. N. N. E. E. E. E. E. Doesn't start. Shouting. Shouting. Because of the. Conversations. The very loud conversations going on in the garden. Yesterday man. They were playing music. I think they were doing it from a phone. So it's just all. Distorted. From a distance. It's distorted isn't it.
[00:18:25] If you hear someone's phone music. And had it blasting. Like. All day. All. All day. Right till about eleven at night. I was like. What the heck. It was very strange. I hope that's not a sign of things to come. I can. I can imagine I'm getting. I'm going to get a letter. Dear Jason. I quite like some of your.
[00:18:54] Let me bore you. Just to. Let me bore your pain away. Recordings. But you did one on Thursday. The 17th of April. And it was more like. Let me. Bore you by moaning about stuff. Let me moan at you. And we. You know. You just. Just moaned all the way through it. How is that useful. It's useful to me. Let's me get rid of it. I feel better now. Oh.
[00:19:24] Letting all the negativity out. Whoa. I'm not moaning. I'm just. Pointing out. You want to hear a moan. Moan. This is a moan. But it's not really. It's kind of a. It's a funny moan. I can't believe this happened. I'll tell you in a minute. So. When I was focusing on my. On my friends. Focusing. Focusing. On my friends ears. To be fair. Actually. Anything I do. When I make these recordings.
[00:19:55] My lower back. Relaxes. There's something about my voice. I'm not saying that in like. Oh. I have such a. Voice. I don't mean like that. But just. There's something about. Recording. Or doing these recordings. That has. A tendency. To relax me. Sometimes. I do feel tired.
[00:20:24] When I make them. I yawn. Sometimes. My body feels. Well. My whole body feels. Quite relaxed. Right now. But my lower back. I'm focusing on it. That's where the old arthritis is. In my lower back. Left side. And. You know. I'm kind of stretching it. I can feel. That it's. This. I don't know. You know. You know.
[00:20:54] When you have local anesthetic. So. You can still feel the pressure. But you can't. There's no physical discomfort. But you can feel the pressure. So if a dentist is doing stuff. Or. Maybe you're having stitches. And giving you local anesthetic. In your hand. Or your foot. Or whatever. I had it when I had. Ingrunt toenail. Sorted once. Had a local anesthetic. And it's weird. You can feel the pressure. But it's like. That's it. It's a bit like that. I can kind of.
[00:21:24] I'm pressing. On my lower back. Not. Not hard. Just. So I can feel. I can feel. I can feel it. But it's just. Nothing. It just feels the same. As the other side. Really. It's kind of weird. Hmm. What was I going to tell you. All right. I went out. Today.
[00:21:55] So. I was in here. And I was just doing some. What did I do? Yeah. I was just finishing up. With. Because I do the recordings. And I upload them. And after editing them. And all that stuff. There was a few bits and bobs. I needed to do. One of those things. Was. To. Add the images. To some of the podcast. Episodes. So I did that.
[00:22:25] So that took a little while. Itchy bum. Sorry. Oh. That's better. The buttock. I should say buttock really. Just in case you think. Oh. Should you go and wash your hands. Shouldn't you? I've got trousers on. And. So. I. I need to cut my fingernails actually. So I was. Just. Finishing off some of the. Old classes.
[00:22:56] Administration stuff. You know. Some of that stuff. That needs to be done. And I had. Two pieces of chocolate. I don't generally eat chocolate. But. On this occasion. I had a dairy milk caramel. Capri's dairy milk caramel bar. With two bits left. From last night. But it was warm. And I thought to myself. Nah. It seems a shame. To not eat it right now.
[00:23:25] It just. Do you know you ever get that. That. That situation. Where you think. It just seems like. The right thing to do. It's a similar. If you. If you're walking down the street. And you see someone struggling with. Like. An elderly person struggling with. From really. Really heavy. Heavy shopping. And. Then you see someone. Like a young woman. Who's maybe.
[00:23:55] Struggling to do her brolly. Get out. You know. Maybe she's. Her hair's getting wet. So you go and help. The young person. The attractive. No. I'm joking. I'm joking. I'm joking. So. You help the person. Needs help. And it feels like the right thing to do. So. That's how I will end with the chocolate. But morally. It felt. The right decision. To eat that chocolate. There's only two pieces. I mean. I lost a stone. Well. I lost a stone.
[00:24:25] I lost a stone. I've not put it back on. I lost a stone and a half. And I put half a stone back on. So. Technically. I suppose. I can't really be. Dancing around. Doing somersaults. Making out that. Oh. Aren't I good? Because I've not put the weight back on. Because. Technically. I've put. One third of it back on. But if you move away from that. I'm still. I'm 15. Not 16 stone. So that's good.
[00:24:55] What I'll be. By Christmas. I might be 17 stone. I don't think so though. Well. That bit of metal thing. Honestly. I've got this bracket. On this desk. It reminds me. Okay. You ever see. It's a wonderful life. And. They've got. He's got that banister. Like the thing that he holds onto the banister. Right at the top. The bottom of the stairs. And it just comes off. And he's like. Oh. Damn.
[00:25:25] Banister. And then. When he comes back off the pier. And all his family there. And all his friends come to save him financially. And. The old man. Zion. Zion. Whatever it is. Is playing. And. You know. He goes upstairs to see his daughter. Because it's Juju. Because he had a petal. It's didn't he. In his pocket. Juju's petal. Juju's petal. And. And.
[00:25:53] He puts his hand on the banister. And it comes off like. Oh. Oh. And he's happy. Where like an hour earlier. He was like annoyed. He's like. Girl. And now he's like. Oh. It was. A bit like that.
[00:26:22] I lost my train of thought there. What was I talking about? I was talking about eating chocolate. And I ended up. Focusing on a banister. On. Oh. This metal thing. It's like that. That's it. This metal thing on my desk. I mean. It's not like a banister. Because that would be weird. Because it's nothing like that. But it's something that's just. Annoying me. And I. I just like.
[00:26:51] I wish I could do something about it. But that would. That would involve. Effort. And. It's just there. I just need a screwdriver. But. I lent my screwdriver. To my neighbor. My neighbor never. Re. Basically. Gave it back. I don't know what the re was going to be. Repeat. Reported. Reprieved. Returned. That's it. Never returned it. Oh. I've got an email.
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[00:27:52] Marvel franchise. Guys. I still stick with Marvel. Even though. Disney. Really have gone out of their way. To destroy it. I don't know why. Because that was. I mean. They have the rights. They own. Star Wars. And. The. Marvel. All the Marvel movies and stuff. And. I don't know. Not quite sure. Why they've kind of done what they've done.
[00:28:22] And. They really need some PR. They need. They need someone to. Have a word with some of their stars as well. Just to. Be quiet. When they're promoting a movie. It's really. I reckon that. Snow White. If it got good ratings. Regardless if it was good or not. It might be a really good movie. I don't know. I've not watched it. But. If it had good ratings. It would have been.
[00:28:52] Probably the biggest hit of the year. Even if it wasn't. Particularly good. Just because. It's a Disney movie. It's a remake. Of one of the most famous. Disney movies of all time. And. It's got some famous people in it. And. You know. It's got Wonder Woman. She's in it. Isn't she? It just shows you. How easily. Because of. Social networking. Social media.
[00:29:22] The internet. All that stuff. It's like. They go to town. In a much. A stronger way. Than the national press. Ever used to. It used to be like. A slow burning thing. With the newspapers. You know. They try and do something. And if. If everyone else followed. Then it would be good. Sometimes it wouldn't work. And. They did one recently. About. It was. Stephen Fry. So Stephen Fry.
[00:29:52] Made a controversial comment. Stephen Fry. Controversy. Controversy. This is recently. And. Oh. He's got another one now. The thing is. I don't know if it was. It was accused of making racist. And sexist jokes. Or. I don't know what it was. Um.
[00:30:21] Oh yeah. I know what it was. He made. Had been criticized. For controversial comments. Regarding. Some. Yeah. Quite serious stuff. They posted it. Whoever it was. Online. No one. Showed. The slightest bit of interest. Because. He would have been. Well. He wasn't cancelled. And it seems like. He's above. Being cancelled. Some people.
[00:30:51] Just are. Above that. Russell Brand. Seems to be above that. John Tate. Or is his name. Tate. Whatever that name is. The bloke. Tate. What's his first name? Tate. Used to be Tate and Lyon. If you put Tate in. Generally used to be like. Tate and Lyle. Sugar. That's weird. I put in Tate. Into Google. And nothing's coming up. Other than. Okay. If I just. Check. Tate Modern Hotels.
[00:31:22] Andrew. Is it Andrew? I bet if I just put Andrew. It would probably come up. In the listings. And. That was a very slurpy word. Then. Andrews. Andrew. Andrew. Yeah. A-N. The first word. Andrew Tate. It's the first person that comes up. As soon as I put A-N. So Andrew Tate. Is. It's quite funny. Because he. What Ricky Gervais said.
[00:31:51] Andrew Tate. Is. Is. Is. A 14 year old boy. Thinks. A man. Is. Supposed to be like. And I thought it was quite funny. Because. Is. Is. Is not. Really. Representative. Of the male population. I would say. It's kind of a fantasy. Kind of. I don't know. It's weird. I mean. See. In England. We saw. Andrew Tate.
[00:32:21] Years ago. Long before he was famous worldwide. Long. Long. Because he was in Big Brother. And. I don't know if he was. He wasn't even in. What year was that? What year was he in Big Brother? Da da da da. He done off cut. What does he say about. Okay. Let's have a look.
[00:32:49] I want to see some of the rubbish he comes out with. See. I quite like people that come out with crap. Because it's funny. But it doesn't. You know. People just say stuff like. It's. It's almost like they. They. It was created. Kind of like a. A Frankenstein's monster. Or AI. They sort of said. Okay. Creates.
[00:33:18] The perfect version. Of a misogynist. Like the perfect version. That has every single misogynistic attribute. And he seemed to have come out the other end. I think. You know. I've got no issue with him. I don't know him. But he's. There's a lot of that stuff online at the moment. I watch a lot of YouTube channels. And. I do. I see some of these YouTube channels. And there's a. Quite a few. Really popular YouTube channels.
[00:33:48] That are so anti. The opposite sex. It's ridiculous. I don't understand it. I think women are lovely. Not all of them. But. Not all men are lovely either. You know. Not all anyone thinks lovely. But everyone's got something good about them. Big Brother. 2016. So. And it wasn't celebrity Big Brother either. No one knew who he was.
[00:34:16] He was just some. He had hair back then. He was a bloke. And they kept talking about him being a kickboxer champion. And. He was. He was controversial. Argumentative. But he was unknown. And he had a weird accent. A mixture between English and American. He came under scrutiny. For previously having made.
[00:34:45] Homophobic and racist posts. On Twitter. He was removed from the show. After six days. Say. Which produces saying. It was because of events. Outside the house. Okay. Well that didn't come up. When I talked about that. When I was trying to look at people. For people that had been kicked off. Of Big Brother.
[00:35:16] Ah well. I didn't come on here to talk about. Tatey. Patey. Potato. So. As distractions. I mean in some ways. You know. I'd rather have arthritis than be him. You know. So. It's weird. I don't understand. I do sometimes wonder. How do people get to be.
[00:35:46] So angry. Take themselves so seriously. And that. Is something that can. Really get in the way. Of. Relaxing. I've seen that. Over the years. A lot. Where. Some people. Just take themselves. A little bit too seriously. It's not that they should see themselves. As a joke. Of course not. But.
[00:36:18] Or sometimes. Like really. Earnest people. Let's have a look. If I've got the word right. Ernest. The word. Ernest. Is defined. As being characterized. By or proceeding. From an intense. And serious. State of mind. Yeah. Serious. I do get it right. It implies. Seriousness. And determination. Often indicating. That someone is sincere. And committed. To their intentions. Or actions. And there's nothing wrong. With sincerity. Blimey.
[00:36:48] So it's an amazing trait. And being earnest. You know. If you're. If you're. Climbing a mountain. Or you're searching. For someone's missing. Or you know. You're trying to save someone's life. Or yeah. Being earnest is. It's an amazing characteristic. But in just. Everyday life. It might not be.
[00:37:18] Always useful. Especially with physical issues. And I've noticed that. I've known a lot of people. Over the years. That have just been very. Very. I don't use the word earnest. But serious. Very. Taking themselves serious. Maybe taking other people serious. Taking their own views. Really seriously. And. I understand.
[00:37:49] You know. It's probably quite hard. For some people. To realize. That their views. Are only really important to them. Them. And maybe people. That have the same views. But there are millions. If not billions. Of people. Around the world. That don't feel the same way. So it doesn't mean. That they're right. Doesn't mean that. You're right. Or I'm right. We're just. Right for us.
[00:38:18] It's our opinion. And it's how we choose to. Think and live our life. But then when you break it down. How much is. Is it free choice of thinking. If we're being indoctrinated into it. Being born into it. Because you know. The amount of things. That I've probably indoctrinated. From living in this country. I mean. When I was. What. A kid. I grew up. Eventually.
[00:38:47] I grew up. And. There was a certain mindset. A very. Dismissive mindset. To anyone. That was out of the norm. Now. People with disabilities. Were generally. You wouldn't see them. Maybe people in wheelchairs. But outside of that. They'd be. Locked up. You know. There was. The care in the community.
[00:39:17] Kind of came in. In the 90s. Where people were allowed to live. Outside of. Hospitals. There was. A real. Misunderstand. Just not. It wasn't misunderstanding. It wasn't even. Attempted understanding. Of differences. So any kind of difference. Was mocked. And. Yeah. A lot of the time. It was funny. In a way.
[00:39:47] If you're not. The one being mocked. But if you are. The one being mocked. It's probably not quite as humorous. And. I have been the one being mocked. And I didn't enjoy it. And. I learned from that. Until the next time. I decided to mock someone. No. I don't. Generally. I. I like to go the other way. So. Well. Used to. If I see someone.
[00:40:17] Mocking somebody. I. Join forces. With the other person. That's being mocked. And turn it on them. And. Either coach them. On what to say. Or just join in. And sort of say. And. Basically be there. Be their voice. Temporarily. Because I've known people. That won't say anything back. They'll just sit there. Or stand there. And let it. Happen. And I can't.
[00:40:47] I can't allow that. Because I'm earnest. I'm very serious. About things like that. Serious. And. Determined. So sincere. I'm committed to my intentions. Or actions. I'm just trying to learn what the word earnest means. What's that famous book? Earnest. Something earnest. Yeah.
[00:41:15] So that is something I've noticed. Is. So you thought I was going to talk about forgetting things. No. No. No. Mind you. There has been times. When I've just forgotten. About my back. There have. I mean there was one time. When I fractured my back in two places. The week I got Vinnie. I had a.
[00:41:45] Well it wasn't a walking stick. But it was a very sturdy. Umbrella. With a. Like a. A handle. And I used it as a walking stick. Just to help me get through. Because I was. Oh man. That was. Whew. That was a very interesting time. And then one day I went out without it. And. I forgot that I needed it. And I realized.
[00:42:13] That I was really making a meal of it. I was. Almost. Over exaggerating my limping. And I didn't realize I was doing that. Until. Until. I forgot to take the brolly out. I mean I wasn't walking normally. I still had a limp. And I was being careful. But. It. It almost like. Made. And brought me down to earth to. realize that
[00:42:45] if I was able to forget that I needed some kind of support then I possibly didn't need the support and then I fell over so I did need it no I didn't I haven't fallen over since that was weird my friend said you know like we had snow that week the last time we had settled snow
[00:43:13] so this is over two years ago two years and four months that's the last time we had in where I live I mean had any kind of settled proper settled snow where it settled you know what I mean like it's there for a few days it all melted on that day I think it was a Wednesday or Thursday all melted it didn't stay settled for a long time
[00:43:42] maybe a few days maybe five days I don't know I lose track and all I'm doing is just my friend knocked on no he shouted up it's a bit late at night to be doing that but he shouted up oh you want to bring Vinny down or go in the garden Logie and Vinny and and I'd only had Vinny literally for a week that was the first week of having him so there was a lot of excitement about having him here and
[00:44:11] Logie loved him Vinny loved Luke he loved Logie he loved going in that flat you know this was all new for him he was having the time of his life I guess he's you know I think he'd have preferred to be downstairs and to be up here with me but I think he's he's given up on the dream he's just he's settled I think that's the most I could ever really hope for anyone with me
[00:44:41] is just to settle just to that's what I was hoping in life like relationships I don't need anyone to fall in love with me I just want someone just to just to settle just to to give up looking for something better that's all I want there's not much to ask oh dude that's terrible oh now some water got a little delivery earlier some food
[00:45:11] to get me through till next week because tomorrow is good Friday then it's well it's basically Easter weekend so I think everything kind of goes back to normal Saturday then it's Easter day Sunday Easter Monday or good like a bank holiday Monday and then things go back to normal Tuesday so I'm going to be other than you know doing what well I should be doing what I normally do really
[00:45:42] yeah making recordings and watching some telly I hope to watch some telly over the weekend I just started watching the movie but I thought with getting on it's like I mean now it's quarter to three I almost feel like I haven't done anything today kind of weird so I thought I might as well just get on
[00:46:11] and make a make a recording but that seriousness I have mentioned this before I'm not 100% sure how to really kind of move well I've been there myself sometimes I'm there sometimes I'm super
[00:46:41] serious but generally I think having I'm not going to say a sense of humour because serious people can have a sense of humour as well I think everybody's got a sense of humour it's just different for each person but to be a bit more lighter to be a bit what does it take for you to feel less serious
[00:47:11] I mean the fact is some people have got a lot of serious stuff going on so it's I would never really say to someone generally unless I don't them very well to just try not to take themselves too seriously but then you can take other things seriously without taking yourself seriously can't you is that possible
[00:47:40] is it possible to take a break from all that stuff and just remembering we get what we think about so whatever we focus on has an effect on how we feel I mean this is just scientific fact it's not an opinion I was angry this sounds quite aggressive it's not an opinion it's fact
[00:48:10] I'm taking myself I'm being very earnest that's going to be the word that's what's going to be called earnest that's what I'm going to call this recording earnest I'm never going to use the word earnest again after this it's not one of the words I use I don't know why what is that what is that book something earnest it's a very very famous
[00:48:40] book I'm going to look it up book the importance of being earnest Oscar Wilde I've never read it I've never read it earnest okay let's have a look
[00:49:01] I'm just going to have a look for something this is going to be weird I'm going to ask I'm going to ask chat
[00:49:31] GPT do you do you have any okay here we go let's see what it comes up with do you have any hypnosis techniques
[00:50:00] for stopping being earnest so although I mean recently I've been making recordings and I've kind of focused on some relief techniques and stuff this is a little bit different but it's kind of a distraction I didn't tell you did I about the chocolate I'll tell you in a minute honestly I'm
[00:50:30] embarrassed by it I'm actually embarrassed and I can't believe no one told me so this is oh it's giving me a whole I just want oh no okay no it's giving me lots like a whole thing I don't want a whole thing just if I say stop just ten different techniques
[00:50:59] techniques right I don't want a whole hypnosis script just ten different techniques just interested because I know some things I know some things I'm so clever there are ways of it's about dislodging it's about moving away
[00:51:29] from a fixed mind I'm not reading this off the screen by the way I'm still waiting for it to load up moving away from that fixedness suppose in a way it's like stretching exercises for your mind stretching your mind so you have a bit more flexibility so here's what's coming up with this
[00:51:58] the playful observer imagine yourself stepping outside your body observing yourself interacting earnestly with others but also seeing the humour in these moments notice a playful absurdity and being overly serious okay so imagine it's a good example I've seen that I've seen it when and sometimes it can be
[00:52:28] so I've seen people if if it's just like an average joke sometimes people won't laugh because it goes against their you know it's a subject matter that they don't like which is understandable but if something when something makes someone laugh it's uncontrollable
[00:52:59] like real laughter something might be humorous like yeah it's funny but something that makes you just really laugh you know proper proper laugh that's uncontrollable that's out of our control we know what uncontrollable is okay fair enough blimey it's so serious it's it's out of our control so it doesn't mean so if someone told me a joke
[00:53:29] about the Pope that made me laugh doesn't mean that I'm against the Pope or I find anything funny about the Pope water skiing or whatever the joke would be you know it's it's just it made me laugh and it wasn't it caught me off guard and that's something I think some people struggle with like you can't laugh at that can't laugh at this well
[00:53:56] and old Richard Bandler he said you know with stuff that's serious now and you're like one day we'll laugh about this why wait why not laugh about it now and I'm not talking about super serious horrible things but I remember I had a neighbour who had an ambulance called and they heard this person heard the ambulance drivers
[00:54:26] or the paramedics joking and I had to explain to him that it's it's a natural thing to do they're not laughing at you they're not laughing at your situation basically it's a thing called gallows humour and he had not heard that because he's young very very young hadn't heard of the term so I had to explain it's basically they're doing
[00:54:56] such a difficult job at times that the only way to really cope with it is by laughing at what's going on they're not really laughing at what's going on they find something's funny but you know it's a way of coping and it's similar with I'm sure with the police with doctors nurses with even in counselling it was sort of you know even in a
[00:55:26] call centre laugh at someone make fun of a customer or make fun of a team leader that was a bit over the top moaning and stuff it was a way of letting that tension out a way of release so it's not necessarily that you find it funny
[00:55:55] like that you find their situation funny or you're really mocking them it's just that it's it's a way to let out a way to release oh brilliant you've now explained humour to us thanks no I'm not trying to explain humour to you I'm just saying that this is what I told this person that sometimes people will laugh but
[00:56:25] they're not really laughing at you now I still have to convince myself that if someone's if I'm walking down the street in my shorts and every single person points at my legs and laughs they're not laughing at me they're laughing with me okay there's the balloon release picture your earnest thoughts and serious feelings as helium balloons gently letting them go one by one
[00:56:55] watching them float peacefully away feeling lighter and freer as each balloon disappears into the sky that's just another version of the helium release or the stress release another version of that is you can imagine getting all the things you're concerned about putting them into a wheelbarrow pushing the wheelbarrow to towards a hot air balloon
[00:57:25] you know ones with the baskets and then just the baskets got a couple of pieces of wood like a ramp push the wheelbarrow in empty in there pull up the side of the basket and then just cut the cord or the rope that's keeping the hot air balloon on the ground and watch all that crap
[00:57:54] all that stress all that negativity discomfort just slowly rise slowly and just notice how good it feels I used to have that feeling whenever I got onto a ferry and I would leave this country I always felt a relief as I moved away from the shore you know whether it's going to
[00:58:24] Belgium whether it was France Ireland that's the only three different places I've been to on a ferry France Belgium and Ireland yeah I think that's it oh Island Man as well so four always had that same feeling although I wasn't able to watch with the Island Man one the winds were too strong we weren't even allowed outside
[00:58:55] but all the other ferries it was lovely just it wasn't like in a negative way like oh England it wasn't like that it was just it was that separation it was that that break that physical separation of being away from well basically I was leaving everything there I was leaving
[00:59:25] any worries any concerns my past everything was there and I was moving away from it it was nice felt nice it feels nice even imagining it to be honest yeah it can feel like that sometimes you can leave stuff like in a hot air balloon you can leave the physical discomfort you can leave
[00:59:55] that on the shore as well as you move away on the boat you can leave that at home whenever you go out there's so many little things you can do that I know it's imagination imagination but sometimes you know if you carried around a little pad with you piece of paper
[01:00:24] I'm not talking about big pad just a little pad just a little just you know doesn't have to be anything big and you could do this at home as well but whenever you get a feeling whenever you get a feeling you don't enjoy whether it's a thought that you're not enjoying whether it's a physical feeling
[01:00:54] that just feels quite horrible you could write how you feel down rip it off the pad whatever screw it up and just put it in the bin or if you live around there just chuck it out the window for the cleaners to pick up in a month's time like they do with their nappies oh dear honestly there's
[01:01:24] there's a flat downstairs there's eggshells all outside the kitchen window on the floor outside how what they were chucking nappies out the front it's on camera they've got the other people obviously got it on camera but how how what part of the brain needs to be turned off to be cooking
[01:01:55] and then just chucking food chucking empty eggshells out the kitchen window what part of the brain has to be switched off to do that or to chuck a dirty nappy out of the living room window I mean maybe we can switch parts of the brain off maybe the part for that bit of your body that you want to feel relaxed maybe switch that part of the
[01:02:25] body that part of the brain off just that one small part and I guess there's I mean if you think about it like a a traffic light system so you've got that part of your body there's green there's yellow and there's red so red kind of means each colour can mean what you want them to mean so you can just change
[01:02:55] the colour maybe the one in the middle is one colour is maybe unpleasant feeling and then the other colour would be feeling relaxed I mean I want to go like you know stop go and prepare to go
[01:03:25] although in this country there there's something that happens talking about turning off parts of your brain when people get a driving licence in this country they get a part lobotomy and what happens is they get a part of their brain removed the I don't know the sensible part that only really it activates when they're in the car the rest of the time they're fine
[01:03:54] but something happens so they learn that red is stop green is go yellow depends on where you are so if you're stopped at the traffic lights yellow means prepare to go and when it goes to green so if you're on red yellow is prepare to go ready and when it goes to green you can go and if you're pulling up to traffic lights
[01:04:24] and it's on green then it turns to yellow prepare to stop and it goes to red now you might not you might drive up and not know what it is it might just be on a yellow so you don't know if it's about to stop or if it's about to go so you slow down you become very aware of it preparing that's kind of what it's supposed to be says says the man that's never actually driven a car I did I had three driving
[01:04:54] lessons so there but what it turned into is in this country the part of the brain that gets switched off when you get your driving license is you when you're driving up towards the traffic lights and it's on yellow what that means to the person in their brain is speed up
[01:05:24] whether it's going to green or whether it's going to red they don't know if it's on yellow speed up that's what it means if you're knowing the traffic lights but if you see that if you're sitting at the traffic lights and you've stopped because it's been on red the yellow instead of meaning prepare for green when you can start driving again yellow means go
[01:05:55] to the driver's brain so it goes from red to yellow it means they can just go and that's not what it means it means prepare to go you don't go yet until it goes to green so something happens to driver's brains and it's weird I just don't know what it is it's I guess it's just I don't know I really don't who knows I don't know
[01:06:25] there's a dial down technique visualize a controlled dial clearly marked earnestness it was high slowly and deliberately turned the dial down feeling more playful relaxed and less serious of each reduction so I've done the dial down technique in the past quite probably quite a few times
[01:06:50] but imagine if you just did do that with your level of seriousness if you know if that's the case being able to relax because you know this is something I've said for years and years and years when you're listening to me let's say if you're lying down or you're sitting down
[01:07:20] you're giving yourself half an hour or an hour or whatever time it is to just take some time out and not care about anything don't take anything I say seriously because I'm just talking a load of rubbish most of the time this is just time out from life and
[01:07:50] nothing matters right now and I try to put this idea forward and I know it's a weird concept sometimes because I don't know if it might come across as me saying you know nothing in your life matters and I'm not saying that that's a ridiculous thing to say
[01:08:20] I'm saying that for the period of time that you're listening to my super exciting voice take a break from that stuff like literally don't care about anything nothing whether it's illness other people's illness I'm talking anything
[01:08:49] let everything go if you're able to get into that zone of not caring but not in a way of course you still care but you're taking a break from it you're having a rest from it and we all need to put stuff down sometimes I mean talking from my own perspective a few times over the years
[01:09:18] I ended up carrying too much stuff like baggage stress tension it made me ill to the point where I couldn't function and I lost my job it happened three times four it happened three times officially but it happened in the past when I was younger I just didn't really know what was going on I kind of a little bit more clued up about what's happening now and I had to drop everything
[01:09:50] and it was a case of like I was not so much juggling but carrying such a heavy weight of different things to the point where if I just had to let them go that reminds me I can't remember the the toffee the
[01:10:19] toffee thing but that chocolate embarrassed myself so badly but you know this woman I saw again I think today or was yesterday but a couple of days ago me and Vinnie were in the park we see this lady with these two big massive bags they were bigger than she was both of them and the bags weren't on wheels but she was no I don't know she was struggling with the bags she put them
[01:10:49] down and I think she was looking at her hands see see like it's obvious she was struggling with the bags so after I stopped laughing I went over to help her and you know Vinnie had to pick me off the floor because I went over to help her
[01:11:19] but I was like the other side of the park and I was shouting well calling out loud not shouting shouting because I
[01:11:49] tension but she wasn't hearing me and I'm like it seemed like the closer I got to her the further she got away one of those visual weird things you know that you see on strange movies and cartoons and that I couldn't catch up to her by walking but I didn't want to run because I've heard comments about what I look like when I run another dog
[01:12:19] walker told me and I thought wow you kept that hidden in your pocket so I was making fun of her and she said oh I've seen you run and I like oh she was holding on to that one for a rainy day got me right back I guess I run a little bit like I probably run the way I look like I run so if you were to see me you just looked at me
[01:12:51] that's how I run so it's not necessarily a good thing so I'm walking really fast eventually she puts the bags down and I say excuse me hello I didn't want to tap her on the shoulder I
[01:13:24] luckily she turned around I said hello she said what I said are you okay what's got to do with you I said I wonder if you need to see you look like you're struggling with the bags she said it looks like you're struggling with your belly wow this isn't going how I thought it would go I said do you want me to give you a hand she said give me
[01:13:54] you would be able to carry the empty bags you're so weak none of this happened but that is what Vinny is telling people he lies all the time things happen because we have such a boring life he has to make stuff up so when he meets up with Archie I heard him the other day he sees Archie this is Archie's mum that was making
[01:14:24] fun of me running and stuff and they were just he was on the lead but I was talking to his mum and they were just taking turns urinating on each other which was weird they literally do do that and I heard Archie said stuff like so what's he been up to this week I thought what what's who's been up to
[01:14:53] and Vinnie said to him he had some chocolate he wouldn't believe what happened he just had two bits of chocolate it was melted chocolate and I thought hey Vinnie stop talking about me why are you telling him he said because you need to tell the story you've been talking about it you keep mentioning it but you haven't actually told that story about the chocolate yet and how you got embarrassed you know
[01:15:23] you can't keep putting it off you've been talking for about three hours now and besides this is supposed to be you know let me bore your pain away you've just been talking about absolute rubbish for the last seven hours so it's gone up from three hours to I said look this you
[01:15:54] can't even speak can you I said yes I can speak sometimes I have a bit of stutter he laughed which I think is rude and I useful at the very least as
[01:16:24] a distraction technique and maybe relaxation and stuff like that he said no why not why I said look you lived here for two years and four five months nearly nearly two years over two years and two and a third years
[01:16:57] why did you say no to that question you don't think that maybe I know that maybe you
[01:17:30] cinema screen then playfully change the film replace serious scenes with humorous playful interactions shifting your emotional response to laughter or gentle amusement I think sometimes just remembering something that happened that was funny is you know something you've seen on TV or something you've seen in a movie or something you heard someone say
[01:17:59] and just remembering it it can just be funny it changes when you laugh or if you find something humorous it changes how you feel it changes for all of us you know so there's the mirror smile technique imagine yourself standing in front of a mirror looking overly earnest then gradually see your reflection breaking into
[01:18:29] warm spontaneous smile feel the ease and joy this springs as seriousness dissolves naturally sounds like a horror movie so you look in the mirror and your reflection starts laughing at you wow okay I mean that's a bit freaky I mean it might be really good but that would I would definitely be wondering what was being put in my
[01:18:59] my drink I shouldn't be making fun of the techniques but yeah I think sometimes there's a technique of it's an old it's not my technique it's an old technique when if you if there was an incident that you struggled thinking about because it's just like an
[01:19:28] interaction a verbal interaction at work or something that's just left an unpleasant feeling you can kind of have that memory but then say it's your boss telling you off or having a go at you or you can imagine behind them like a mermaid dancing behind them or like
[01:19:58] all the other managers just like doing little strip tease behind your manager when he's being so serious and all your and like just something silly like that I mean you can be extreme with it as well make it even funnier something that makes you laugh or you can just imagine that maybe they're just
[01:20:24] you know partially naked but in a way that they didn't realise maybe their zip was undone and you know it could be anything just if it makes you laugh or imagine them with maybe every time they talk piece of
[01:20:54] carrot falls on the floor piece of broccoli bits of food so there's like this big pile of food on the floor in front of them as it falls out their mouth whenever they talk or maybe every time they talk they just shrink so the more they moan the smaller they get and their voice starts to get squeaky you know just little things like that
[01:21:24] imagine a friendly humorous version of yourself a comedian or playful inner guide who whispers humorous comments into your mind during earnest moments making it impossible to remain overly serious I've had this in the past at the really wrong times and well I been
[01:21:54] thinking about the wrong thing and it's it's weird it's kind of strange it definitely changes how you feel if you start like just it's kind of just whispering to yourself like even if someone is saying something to you blah blah blah blah blah blah
[01:22:24] and or you imagine like just like I bet you need a big poo don't you or you can imagine what they're thinking while they're talking you know it's like if it's an interaction I you know whatever it could be I wish I hadn't had that last cup of
[01:23:18] visualize your earnest thoughts encased with soapy bubbles gently pop each bubble experiencing the release of seriousness as each pops replaced by calmness ease and gentle amusement I mean I'm not quite sure what soap is but I have to look that one up feather touch technique picture a feather a feather a feather gently brushing
[01:23:48] away seriousness from your forehead shoulders and chest softly sweeping earnestness away leaving you feeling light freer and gently amused I mean when I called that woman the lady caught up with her and just said look I'm not trying to you know I'm just gonna I saw you struggling with your bags can I help you pick them can I carry them and she said okay thank you I
[01:24:21] and she said I forget it then no she didn't she took him I said can you keep him on a short lead though because he's got a habit of trying to run in the road she said this is getting more problematic than carrying the bags and how many more rules are there I said no more rules that's it so we cheerfully walked back to where she lives she lives at the end of the road I didn't know where she lived but I was thankful it wasn't too far
[01:24:48] and that was it really and I thought what if only I had done what she did is she carried the bags I think she carried too much she had too much to carry and I don't think that was particularly good she's fairly elderly I don't know age wise maybe in her 70s elderly
[01:25:17] I don't know if that's the right word anymore but she's possibly carrying too much because they were heavy they were heavy bags and but she was putting them down having a rest then carrying them then putting them down I think someone that takes themselves seriously perhaps has a tendency of carrying those bags and keep adding more
[01:25:48] and won't put them down refusing to put them down until they have no choice so that happened to me a few times where instead of just putting the bags down having a break and taking a rest from caring about anything which again I said it's a weird concept to not care for a period of time not care about anyone
[01:26:18] not care about anything including including yourself including your loved ones including the day including your job including where you live including your health anything letting go of all that stuff just for a period of time and when you do that there's some freedom there and things like you physically you just feel relaxed
[01:26:48] there's nowhere else there's no other way to feel because it's free it's freeing but then the benefit of when you go back you know when you like I say go back but when you when the recording's finished or the session's finished whether it's listening to me or whether it's it could be doing yoga it could be doing meditation it could be just going for a nice walk anything where you can just move everything else away
[01:27:17] and ignore that take a break from that stuff just don't care about it for a while and let go of any guilt that you might have about not caring about it you also got to not care about the guilt because ultimately you don't really you're not really not caring of course you still care but you're letting it go you're having a break from it you know it's the same way as you don't eat when you're on the
[01:27:47] toilet the two don't really go together although the process is kind of the beginning and ending of the process but you know it's two separate things Sam may say how does everything seem to come back to pooing with you doesn't it I said no and then I think about it and like yeah it does seem to doesn't it oh well you've got the laughing stream imagine stepping into a warm clear stream
[01:28:16] uh stream imagine okay clear stream whose water contains laughter joy and playfulness feel earnestly being washed away effortlessly replaced by a joyful carefree attitude attitude I mean I think that's part that can be a benefit of dressing up
[01:28:47] and I know I've heard that quite a few people that dress up like dressing up or maybe acting doing drama taking on a different role because they have a break from themselves maybe at the weekend they'll go out and they'll be a different person or maybe even moving to a different place a new job it's almost that you get a chance to
[01:29:16] reinvent yourself so oh so before I go I've got to tell you that story about the chocolate this is oh this is so embarrassing right my friend opposite needs his stuff removed he's got like got a fridge he's got a up in the freezer years ago because it's rusty on the
[01:29:46] outside and he's now just got this brand new kitchen in he said oh but it works yeah but just because it works doesn't mean you need to keep it I mean it's it's probably about 30 years old and but it's rusty it's literally rusty on the outside it's awful and I'm not sure how safe it is either if it's that old but
[01:30:15] we've organized for him to get a new well it's a second hand fridge but from Delboy who's another neighbor who buys and sells stuff so he's got it in his his garage so we're going to get that when the kitchen's finished in a couple of weeks so I'm going I go for a walk I took Vinnie out
[01:30:47] so I had the chocolate anyway I'm finishing what I'm doing I go out take him out and just walk around I must have been out for about half an hour he was just smelling the grass as he does normally did I see anyone oh yeah I saw there was one man that said hello to him and he actually said thank you for stopping
[01:31:17] and talking to me so that was nice and then he said why are you holding your hand out I said money don't get a conversation with me for nothing it's I charge a pound a minute we laughed and saw a car I think saw another dog owner wasn't a lot
[01:31:46] going on actually I took my hat off so I had my hat on but it was too warm to have my hat on the thing is I roughly remembered saying that to somebody that I had my hat on but then I took it off because it was warm yeah I don't know anyway we come back he did a he went to the toilet got rid
[01:32:16] of that and picked it up used a bag this time less washing less soap you know and so I get back and I think I'm just on the way upstairs and I see the person that takes the rubbish he's like a
[01:32:46] he's like take stuff and pick stuff up for people and that big things and stuff and I asked him about I spoke to him before and I said can you help with my friend's stuff so he said yeah in a couple of weeks time so I arranged that with him and I said give me a knock and then I said not now because a knot on my head
[01:33:16] neighbour a knock and said here's what's going on see you down there if you come out just look at that van he spent about 10 minutes coming out of the door I don't know why he spent so long I know he's nearly 80 but he really it's almost like you're moving really slowly on purpose there I mean it was like super slow guaranteed
[01:33:47] if I said to him oh the chip van's out there he'd have moved super fast anyway the I just explained to him what's going to happen that I've organised for him to have the old stuff he's got a cooker as well that he doesn't use that's going out the new it's old all this is been there for a long time he's got the same cooker as me really and
[01:34:17] he's got a fridge that's going to go into the same gap as where the cooker was because he uses the air fryer doesn't need doesn't need a cooker so I do that and I like okay everything's fine he wants to talk about golf and I'm like no can't talk about golf because I showed a bit of interesting golf and he thinks I like golf I don't I don't dislike any sport
[01:34:47] I'm just only interested in boxing it's the only one seriously no interest in any other sport you know boxing I know about that's the only sport I really know about that I know quite a bit about and I've been following it since I was a kid so anyway I get indoors
[01:35:12] I think the delivery comes so I've ordered the delivery before I went out I go back and sit down the delivery comes and so I walk outside oh no this is what happens no I've got it the wrong way around I come upstairs the delivery comes I then go downstairs help with the delivery
[01:35:42] then I see the person outside speak to him about the fridge because I had Uber Eats deliver me some groceries and then I knocked on my friends at the neighbours door explain to him what's going on two weeks time they'll take that stuff and all that then we'll come in then I came into my flat put the stuff away Vinny he had some treats he loves them yeah you heard the word treats didn't
[01:36:12] you sorry mate I shouldn't be saying that and then I gave him the treats and I sit down and I thought oh I need a wee-wee so I go into the bathroom go into the kitchen wow I nearly said that didn't I no I went to the bathroom and did a wee-wee wash my hands and you know as quite often I do I just have a look in the mirror and just feel sorry
[01:36:41] for myself for a few minutes I couldn't believe what I saw there was toffee sticking out of my beard all over my beard from the caramel Cadbury's dairy milk caramel so the caramel middle whatever was sticking in my beard because my beard is now too long to even feel it so it wasn't against my skin but it was just all dripping down I couldn't believe it
[01:37:12] I was walking around with that on my chin for the last hour I've been embarrassed before many times many many many times but this this was yeah this was wrong it was just anyway
[01:37:44] that's it really I hope this has been mildly helpful I can't see how it would be but if it was then good if it wasn't then I hope it was I've got no idea how long I was talking for it seems like a long time but then in a way it doesn't should we have a look according to that it's one hour and over an hour and a half I've been talking
[01:38:10] so I'm going to go give Vinnie another T-R-E-E-E-E-E-E-E-E-E-E-E-T and that's that's it for me for now so thank you for listening remember to be kind to yourself because you do deserve to be happy and be gentle with yourself
[01:38:39] notice how the way you feel has changed since you started listening to this and if this is useful and it helps beneficial maybe let me know let other people know share love man just I sometimes think that it's almost like I'm people's dirty little secret you know they found me on a weird part of the internet it's like
[01:39:09] let's not tell anyone else I wonder if people are embarrassed about me I don't know anyway thanks for listening and I will be back again soon take care lots of love
