Met you in a dream

Hi mate. It's been a while since I last wrote to you. I've been a bit up and down lately.

Last night I dreamt of you. I think I was on a train and we were talking. You said that you didn't want to be here any more, like you often said. I started having a go at you. I was telling you off for being so thoughtless towards me. Telling you what it was like to see you lying on the bathroom floor dead. Trying to explain how it affected me. You didn't seem to get what I was saying. As I was speaking, I realised that you are dead and I got confused. (Brilliant, now I'm getting confused when I'm asleep). 

Anyway, it was freaky.

In the same dream, there was a Christmas celebration happening at my nans & she was still alive. I was helping clear away the table as I arrived too late to participate in the celebrations, as I got stranded in the next town. 

I kept missing the bus and I eventually got a lift in the back of a van. When I got out, I'm walking over the road, holding Vinnie and I remember I left his lead in the van. I run back and call for him to stop the van and get the lead. I say thank you and he goes into his house. I knock on his door and say, let me give you some money as a thank you. I pull out my last £20 form my wallet. I ask if he has change as I was going to give him £5. He says "YES". takes the £20 and gives me £1.90 ish, in change. As I walk away miffed, I realise I already gave him money before the lift as payment. I reckon that says something about my financial intelligence.

Now, talking about my financial retardation, you won't even believe this.....

When you died, I decided that I was not going to have anything to do with new neighbours that moved in. (There were 2 empty flats once you left.) 

Well, in Jason NOBBY fashion, I didn't stick to that for very long. The female who moved into the flat below me turned out to be really nice and friendly. Also, within a couple of weeks of her being here I had to call her an ambulance due her ill health. So, I have gotten to know here a bit, She is nice and all is well there. 

Welllll, Your old flat now has a new tennant. Again, I was going to keep away, but ended up seeing her when I was taking Vinnie out for a walk and she was moving stuff in. To say she is my type of woman, physically, is an understatement. I had a rush of what I can only imagine was my hormones returning. Now, she way too young for me, or I'm too old for her. One of those. But she seemed to like me. 

She knocked on my door asking to borrow a drill one day, then it went from there. We got on really well, and had a laugh. 

Well, it wasn't long before she started texting me to see if I could lend her money as she didn't have any food. I started helping her out and in one week she managed to get over £100 out of me. Always with promise of paying me back when she gets paid on a specific date. Which not only sounds very familiar, but also did not happen. Even though the signs were obvious, after all I've been through with the locals rinsing me of any money I have, here I am again. The difference is I really liked her and thought she might really like me. 

So, when she told me that she didn't have a cooker or any way to cook food or a fridge or freezer, I went into Mother Theresa mode. I went online to my catalogue and order a cooker, fridge freezer, microwave, Kettle & toaster. I felt really good that I had helped her. The way I did when I helped you. I just couldn't stop myself. I think I get a bit manic when I help people and go overboard, getting myself into even more debt. It just feels so amazing.

So, that all arrived a few weeks ago. I then had to pay for an electrician to come and attach the cooker safely. She did cook me a meal a few days later which was very tasty. Then surprise, surprise, she asked me if I could buy her a big tv on my catalogue and she would pay for it monthly. Of course, I did and she now has a large tv, but not as big as mine. hehehe. When the tv arrived, she seemed to like me more. 

Now, a few days later she asks me if I could order her a large corner sofa. That's when I started to think I was being played. Yep it took that long. I looked into it, but I was already down by £1000 and I can't see how she is ever going to be able to pay me back. I wanted to help, but had to say "no", as i just got my new catalogue bill and the monthly amount has gone up by A LOT. It's now £168.79 a month. I now owe over £2732 on the catalogue. 

So I said no and I don't think she was happy.

So far, she has skimmed the following amount (with dates)

£20 - 20th May, £26 - 22nd May, £30 - 23rd May, £37 - 23rd May, £20 - 31st May, £5 - 5th June, £10 - 10th June.

Total: £148

I did bank transfer into her sisters bank account as she said she has lost her bank card, so she's using her sisters. 

Catalogue orders:

Swan, Fridge freezer - £290.99 (incl delivery)

Swan, Electric cooker - £370.99 (incl delivery)

Microwave, toaster & Kettle - £118.00 (incl delivery)

55 inch tv - £320.99 (incl delivery)

 Total: £1100.97

All together including money, she has had: £1.248,97

Am I the worlds biggest mug or what????? I wonder if she respects me. HAHAHAHAHA!!!!